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dril-cipher · 7 months

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its been ten years can we please have the bill cipher tag back now

sometimes when women have crushes on men its not for interesting reasons someone's brain thinking that a character in a story is a person and having emotions about the character as if it were a person is how human storytelling is known to have worked since before we invented writing tumblr makes money on people posting about their emotions about fictional media products. when people have crushes on characters in media properties, they post on tumblr about it. that's how its business model works. the concept that theres a mysterious x-factor allure to the tumblr sexyman is wholly derived from some kind of naive, excited idea that tumblr invented the concept of having a crush on men in order for something to be ironically funny it has to be ironic. i'm honestly not sure what the irony in sexymen is supposed to be. everyone ive ever seen bring it up seems to have the same breathless and totally unexamined reverence for thinking of The Sexyman as a unique or special or interesting idea. the only humor in it is derived from the presumption that the viewer thinks that its weirder to have a crush on a character from an illumination movie than it is to have a crush on a character from an amazon web series being a fan of the lorax on tumblr and having a crush on the onceler was never different or weirder than being a fan of sherlock, doctor who, supernatural, our flag means death, good omens, or what we do in the shadows and having a crush on david tennant in whichever wig he's in today. if you don't come to peace with this, in four years the future version of you is going to be making fun of the idea that you enjoyed the things you are enjoying right now, with absolutely no self-awareness that this system of adoration and revulsion is cyclical when it was cool to make fun of onceler fans, that didnt make sense, because it was a totally arbitrary distinction about which media products were okay to enjoy and which were not. now that its cool to put that era on a pedestal it ALSO doesn't make sense that onceler fans are considered to have been doing something cooler or more special than anybody else. meta things arent smarter just because they're meta. please for the love of god. i just want to read about the funny triangle. if you humanization bill cipher in my presence i will reflexively pepper spray you even if you are doing a great job, because i am just so fricking tired of how proud everyone is for sanding all of the character design, thematic purpose, humor, goals, and undesirable viciousness off of this one character and then hackey-sacking the resulting anime boyfriend back and forth until the noise of it drowned out any memory people had of the actual 2012 tv show gravity falls you didnt do anything wrong, or that people havent been always doing forever and will continue always doing forever? but you also didnt do anything cool or special. its really not interesting enough to still be examining.

i happen to enjoy the 2012 tv show gravity falls actually. go check the show out maybe, if you're just in here for sans or alastor or whoever and bill cipher is just someone you know about because People Wanted To Kiss Him, Lol.? it won some awards. the front half of season 2 was rated across the board by critics very similarly to its contemporary, breaking bad. stan pines is a really good character? stan pines is a better character than bill cipher, on most methods of measurement, although obviously with my sideblog's URL i do love bill. we had an ARG, it was super fun. we raised money to keep the actual Mystery Spot from going permanently under during covid. the crew went on to do other cartoons that people like, like Owl House, Amphibia, Into the Spiderverse. i didn't keep up with the shows, because i do not usually like kids shows and they didnt grab me? but everyone saw Spiderverse, Spiderverse was fire. if thats your thing, check them out. i just want to read about the funny triangle. its been ten years. can we please just give it a rest and let the show have its own identity away from the gestalt fanon monster of the Sexyman™™ Phenomenon™™ thx

#bill cipher #tumblr sexyman #tumblr sexymen #gravity falls

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sbidermann · 6 years

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Breaking news;

I’m back on my bullshit.

#tbh nobody cares about my marvel posts or my personal but i need to vent so 🤷🏻‍♂️#right #so #first of all? ive been feeling like utter shit for the past three years and nobody beileved me but i recently went to the doctors #and they did some bloodtests and shit and i have anemia and low white cell count #also? chronic headaches and migranes #theyve also referred me back to my counciller because theyre worried im gonna commit or something #and i havent been eating because im worried about how i look and my self hatred is kicking my ass #and !!! somebody i dont want to be around is back in my life because her mum wants me to be ‘friends’ with her aka #babysit her despite the fact she’s four years older than me and constantly pressures me into doug #and now she follows me on my instagram which is the only safe space i have to vent about my family issues and my dyphoria and sexuality #dysphoria is kicking my ass too and i can’t even ask anyone for help because im still in the closet #but my hamster and i are best buddies again so that’s good!#and my little brother said ‘bannana’ today for the first time #thats it i guess #lol bye

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sometipsygnostalgic · 3 years

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adventure time wizard city liveblog

well here we go

my last adventure time liveblog, i havent actually done one of these in MANY years... probably not since 2014

this takes place at the same time as obsidian?

DID-- DID CHOOSE GOOSE JUST DIE

DID BUFO JUST KILL CHOOSE GOOSE

yeah i know that’s bufo, they only made it enormously obvious, tsk tsk

@spaceacepearl joked about us seeing choose goose get sent to hell but i diDNT EXPECT IT TO HAPPEN

This music is i assume by one of the many musical artists Adam Muto listed on twitter, it rocks. It’s not as hardcore as Obsidian’s intro, but it’s suitably chill for the scene.

“get offa my bus kid”

Those wizards in the left and far right groups appear to be new!

OH MY GOD--

HELP?????? NEW PROFILE PIC TIME

HAHAHAHAH

THE MUSICAL CON DID ME GOOD, I DID REALLY LOUD AUDIBLE LAUGHTER

i bet hanna and co had fun making these signs

my favourite is the cat with “FAMILIARS HAVE RIGHTS”

cadorka..... wow

We’re not even four minutes into the ep and peppermint butler has already killed someone in front of a large group of witnesses

“this smells of DARK MAGIC” “yall kids know thats illegal right” peps watches the other kids nod before later joining in, LOL

i cant believe pep started the great gum wars and got killed by golb

SOMEONE has been playing Overwatch...

i-- i still cant believe choose goose is fucking dead

how long was he stuck in hell for, or was that recent to together again after new death showed up

i have to admit im not a big fan of spader, too perfect, and not in that funny way either. i hope they give him some characteristics that make him stand out.

im getting flashbacks to OK KO and Owl House here...

Cadebra using music is a reference to Abracadaniel’s love of interpretetive dance in Play Date.

“they only laugh because youre different” “i know” “SO STOP BEING DIFFERENT” oh my god it’s like talking to my own parents cadebra is actually... a LOT like me, less in her hyperactivity but more in her nonchalant enthusiasm and almost acceptance of the inevitable bullying because it means more time in people’s consciousness

ahhh - it’s quietly revealed here that she is responsible and a skilled magician, she is just bored of magic! i like that she parents abracadaniel instead of being downtrodden by his ramblings.

PEP NO--- oh i see the problem, he hasn’t got his Bug Milk... sorry Martin Olsen fans, no Hunson today. At least we get one more Phil Face for the road!

candy people in their natural habitat

Ahhh that’s Doctor Calidoneus! The voice actor was at the recent Distant Lands panel alongside Pep and Blaine’s actors.

“pretty sure hes just trashcandy” - i like you, sassy antler lady

the mystery of how he gets clothes

and once again spader is proving to be the most irritating distant lands character of the lot, there is no subversion here. where is the subversion?

NANI

what is going on here? are pep and peppermint the same person or not? im sure they must be, but there is something going on here with peppermint butler’s soul being trapped in the body of his child self who hasn’t got the same memories.

OH, HYNDEN WALCH DID A NEW LINE yes this is what im here for, special over

peppermint butler cursed himself... of course he did - Shado was correct!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHAT THE FUCK

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

ROCK STUDENT, BLESSED ROCK STUDENT, WAS THAT POOR GUY WHO LOOKS LIKE A JAWBREAKER

love the reference to astral plane, of course pep cant astrally project because cursed pep is still inside of him

wow, blaine, wow

they have a crush

LITTLE DUDE! COLE SANCHEZ!

i love the dynamic between cadebra and abracadaniel, imo so far it’s the heart of the special. im not really gripped by peppermint butler’s school troubles. i imagine someone else probably will be but i want to run past that shit as far as possible.

TRDGFYGHJH

WE MADE A PREDICTION THAT WAS JUST LIKE THIS

PEPPERMINT BUTLER GETTING TURNED INTO THE FOUR COMPONENTS OF PEPPER MINT BUTT LURE WAS IN THE WIZARD CITY PREDICTIONS ART DRAW THAT HASNT BEEN POSTED YET

ILL SHOW YOU WHEN NICK POSTS THE VIDEO and then ill tell you who made the prediction because i... think it was nick himself, insanity

who plagiarized finn’s signature???

turns out pep really DID take over wizard city!!!!

i love this band

i understand your pain peps

you probably have a bit too much in common with your mother, and i imagine it isn’t easy being turned into a kid and not being able to do stuff that came so easy. you’re disappointing yourself! (he’s literally disappointing himself)

I’m less than halfway through the special, what the fuck. I wasn’t wrong when I said Wizard City had a lot on its plate. It’s noit that I’ve been particularly gripped up to this point, though to be fair I didn’t pause at all during the other specials barring Obsidian.

that... that poor kid is still a rock

and then the preview happened and bufo casually revealed to the audience that, yes, he killed choose goose

i dont know whats happening with pep but it seems he needs to be exorcised of... pep. which is a shame. i hope they learn to coexist.

i have to say the background work in this special is really good! like, really damn good.

WHAT

DID SPADER JUST DIE

IS THIS WHY PEOPLE THINK PEPBUT KILLED HIM

oh thats right - abracadaniel is cadebra’s uncle! this must be abracadniels sister. sorry, folks, he doesn’t fuck.

Where are they? Is this anywhere near Wizard City? It’s an unpopulated prewar wasteland.

THESE ARE JUST HUMANS

OF COURSE SHE WANTS TO PERFORM TO MILQUETOAST HUMANS

my child

is this an art style choice or did they get the people from that one studio to make this

HANNA FINALLY GETS TO FULFIL HER DREAM OF INSERTING KANEDA INTO ADVENTURE TIME

the red jacket he wears and his head pill shape is a big kaneda reference actually, which i suppose makes sense considering he’s a rival to our protagonist, but it’s a bit on the nose

bufo killed one of his own students? but why????

“MY UNCLE’S A COP”

“no one likes a rat”

i actually really like blaine, though im confused. did their VA change halfway through the special?

HOW NATURAL, NO WASTE, IT IS AN ENDLESS CHAIN

did doctor caledonius steal the trophy,,,?

EVIL SNAIL EVIL SNAIL

MONMSTER HUNJTER DISCOVERY NOISE, this time it’s a tetsucabra

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I HAVE QUESTIONS

god i wish this is what this special was about, i miss adventure time

these remind me of the comics with their art style :) i wonder who designed them? the one on the right with pb and pep, in particular, very comics-y.

fdgfhgf because he’s like 500

“pep can be kind of a jerk but he wouldn’t kill anyone”

sorry, cadebra, i have news for you

is doctor calednoius the true villain? if bufo’s out of the picture, she MUST be,

ANTS

oh no, he might gbe stuck in wizard city :(

HELP

the writing on the wall...

SPADER LITERALLY FUCKING DIED OH YM JESUS CHRIST

PEPPERMINT BUTLER’S OWN CULT????

THIS IS JUST OK KO NOW

okay im not surprised all the teachers at wizard city are cultists in worship of peps, maybe they killed spader and bufo because they bullied peps T_T

wait no, they thought spader had the potential, but sadly not

HE FUCKING KILLED HIMSELF

sorry, i was distracted by the pretty dope fight sequence and now the special is over????

fucking jesse, hes probably at least partly responsible for the cult nonsense

This credits art is by Maya Petersen!!!! Holy shit it’s adorable!

LRETGFDRGTFGMHGFHFG

LEAF MAN

DO YOU THINK THEY PUT HIM IN RETROSPECTIVELY

DO YOU THINK MAYA PETERSEN DREW THIS AND ADAM PUT IT IN THE EP RETROSPECTIVELY

HE LIVES

MAYBE THIS IS WHY CHOOSE GOOSE WENT TO HELL

okay, it’s over :)

first thoughts out of the way: not a big fan of this special. it’s like watching a completely different show. it’s not got the PZSHAHH of the normal wizard city stuff and there weren’t a lot of funny jokes or even hearty moments in the thing.

it suffers from a lack of invested character interactions, much like BMO did. there was not a single main cast member in the whole thing! and like i said before, much of peppermint butler’s character in the show is based on his very sweet relationship to his mother, princess bubblegum, so when they showed a single (hilarious) photo of them together it made me sad we didn’t get any scenes with them together. it would have STOLEN this episode. and they teased the hunson golf photo, and death!!! and jake appeared in a photo T_T last jake appearance.

it also suffers because Peppermint Butler is clearly not himself, imo he was way more entertaining in the Together Again special, where we seem him back to his “normal” self.

i dont think peps being a dark wizard was something to “kill off” exactly. i wonder what was going on there? was that actually peps, or was that a spirit he cursed himself with based on himself? we at least know in the future he does become a dark wizard again, and even princess :) this special didn’t answer those questions but lol.

THE GOOD STUFF, because yes, there was a lot of good stuff!

God, I’m with Aracle and Maya on this - I LOVE Cadebra and her relationship to Pep. I wish she was even in more of this - I would love to watch the adventures of Cadebra and Pepbut in their first year of school, like in the end credits.

That, imo, is where the heart of the special lay - Peppermint Butler’s attempts to impress himself, versus Cadebra’s self acceptance and desire to follow her dreams of being a goofy goober, no matter what other people thought of her.

It turned out that Cadebra is a responsible student and family member. I really liked that. Her scenes with Abracadaniel were, somehow, my favourite in the entire special!

I like that theres a lot of cool magic towards the end of this special, and a lot of HORRIFYING DEATH. It wouldn’t be adventure time if you didn’t randomly kill off child characters. Poor Spader, I hated you but damn, what a grim fate.

I like that Bufo and Caledonius had this crush/hatred thing going on, but they were part of the same cult in the end.

I didn’t like the giant peps scene at the end, the monster was extremely milquetoast compared to the madness we usually get in AT. Obsidian, for example, had the awesome Larvo design. Nemesis had some INSANE dark magic!!!! I wish they drew more from that episode.

Considering how much Steve Little appears in this special, I do feel bad for Mace (little Peps). He said he would have really benefitted from coaching, but recieved none. He had to re-record his lines 3 times! Judging from his description of events, Wizard City was a hard time for him.

The wizard school did remind me, heavily, of both The Owl House and OK KO. Personally I was hoping AT would offer me something more insane, but I do love both of those shows, and I know Wizard City was on a really tight schedule.

I think they should have spent less time on the school bullying plot, and skipped straight to MURDER.

We did have a cold opening, not on par with Together Again’s at all, but damn!

I am wondering where I would put this in the watch list? I do think it should sit after Obsidian as the third special. The intro scene makes it clear this takes place at the same time as Obsidian!!!

Well, that was it, the last ep of AT for the next few years at least T_T

i think together again was the better finale, definitely. but wizard city feels pretty detached from AT for me, despite the familiar characters it tonally isn’t like the show other than the awesome brutal death scenes. I thought the last 11 minutes was easily the best in the special! Which, honestly, is how it should be, though I do wish it gripped me more. Maybe I’m just not the target audience for Wizard City? It feels like something I would find very compelling if I was a bit younger!

#adventure time #wizard city #atimers

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cinematicnomad · 3 years

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Hey!!! If you have the time/energy, would you mind recc-ing fics that "center around dean's teen years and John trying and failing to be a good parent"? I havent read fic for supernatural in years but what you said intrigued me and I dont even know how to start looking that very specific thing Haha

💛💛💛

being called out on my tags and asked to pull receipts, okay 😂😂

these fics DO exist, i promise, but i def haven’t been reading a lot spn fics in recent years, so everything i’m gonna rec now are crazy old (like...i’m gonna be sending you to some ff.net- fics-old) most of which are more tangential to john and more just centered around how the dysfunctional childhood he raised dean and sam in affected them, but these are all still REALLY good. and then i’ll throw in a random favorite gen fic that doesn’t get enough love but also has like...0 to do with john lol + a destiel AU fic that is influenced by dean’s parenting but he’s not a present character in the fic.

john winchester and the four universal truths by la guera (1/1 | 15k+ | T) pre-series; POV john winchester; introspection; character study

fatherhood brings with it four universal truths, and over the years, john winchester has learned them all. three he will perhaps pass on to his sons, but one will always be his dirty little secret.

red beans and rice by janissa11 (1/1 | 4k+ | G) pre-series; POV dean winchester; character study

dean learns to cook, among other things.

i drew our car for you by septembers_coda (1/1 | 5k+ | T) pre-series; outsider POV; child neglect

nothing kindergarten teacher april huxley has ever learned can tell her what to do when adorable, troubled little dean winchester falls into her life—or when he vanishes abruptly back out of it.

every now and then by mirrordance (1/1 | 8k+ | T) pre-series; sam/jess; POV sam winchester; hospitals; injured dean winchester

in a random ER waiting room in california, a delusional dean is waiting to be seen by a doctor after a job, and sam enters with a broken wrist after moving into a new apartment with his girlfriend in stanford. collision.

don’t they look in peace (sometimes i wish that was me) by hunterpeverell (1/1 | 10k+ | T) pre-series; POV dean winchester; character study; angst

when dad and sam left him, dean turned to stories.

or, dean is famous for his one-liners, his references. he makes cracks constantly, grins like he expects sam to get the jokes. he was a hunter, though. when did he have time to get caught up?

loneliness, dean discovered, will make one do odd things.

the good little soldier by quotient (1/1 | 1k+ | M) pre-series; POV dean winchester; character study; canonical violence

because this is the oldest you’ve ever been.

christmas mishap by triskelion (1/1 | 2k+ | G) pre-series; sam/jess; POV jessica moore; character study

sam’s third year at stanford, his college buddies start sharing comical christmas stories from when they were kids. jess worries that her boy won’t have anything to say. as a matter of fact, he does.

talk me down by mirrordance (2/2 | 16+ | T) pre-series; POV dean winchester; character study; hospitals; canon typical injuries

sam just left for stanford and cut off his ties, and dean is running himself to the ground: “if he was the one i called last night, i’d be dead. i can’t put that together with this guy was by my side all these years. it can’t possibly be the same guy.”

and this, your living kiss by opal_bullets ( 7/7 | 56k+ | M) alternate universe; destiel; POV dean winchester; poet!dean winchester; professor!castiel

only a very few people in the world know that the celebrated and reclusive poet jack allen is just kansas mechanic dean winchester, a high school dropout with a few bucks to his name. not that it matters anymore; life has left him so wrung out he never wants to pick up another pen.

until, that is, a string of coincidences leads dean to auditing a poetry course with one dr. castiel novak. the professor is wildly intelligent, devastatingly handsome...and just so happens to be academia’s foremost expert on the poetry of jack allen.

and then one of my favorites, that has basically nothing to do with john:

dead soldiers: an oral history of the ends time by girl_wonder (1/1 | 43k+ | T) gen; canon divergent; POV outsider; POV alternating

although much has been written about the sociological and theological importance of the "End Tmes War", there has been much less written about the individuals directly involved. using interviews with primary sources, this paper seeks to examine how dean and sam winchester, two criminals with a history of violence and petty theft, became commonly known as a prophet of the Lord and the Anti-Christ.

#ask #tulipsfrom-medusa #some of these are like #VERY LOOSELY related to john #and then others he's more central #i love all of these fics #and highly recommend all of them #supernatural #spn #fic rec #also on ao3 a starting point is always the tag 'john winchester's A+ parenting'#so long as you filter out the unwanted ship tags and such

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surveysonfleek · 3 years

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1601.

1.Spell your name without an E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N: d 2.Are you single? no 3.What is your favorite number? 5 and 7 4.What is your favorite color? pink and turquoise 5.Least favorite color? khaki 6.What are you listening to? im watching maid on netflix while doing this 7.Are you happy with your life right now? it’s ok, could be better 8.Are you involved with anyone? yes 9.What is your favorite subject in school/ college? it was* visual arts 10.Do you shop at Abercrombie? nope

11.Do you have money? ive been saving 12.Would you take an ex back? no, im happy with my partner 13.Are you outgoing? i can be, depending on who im around 14.Are you gay? no 15.Where do you wish you were right now? on a beach, getting and tan and sipping on a cocktail 16.What should you be doing right now? nothing haha THE CANS: Can you blow a bubble? if i have the right tools Can you do a cart wheel? no :( i never could, even when i was a kid Can you touch your toes? yes Can you wiggle your ears? no Can you touch your tongue to your nose? no THE DIDS: Did you ever want to be a doctor? nope Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? no Did you ever want to be a teacher? no Did you ever break the law? haha yes Did you vote for Bush? not american THE DOs: Do you like rollercoasters? yes! i havent been on one in years so idk if i would still do well Do you own a bike? yes Do you play the lotto? only when the jackpots are massive Do you like football? no Do you have a shopping addiction? an online shopping addiction, yes THE DOES: Does your family have family picnics? from time to time Does you wallet have any pics in it? no it doesnt, only because it doesn’t have any slots Does your job bring you satisfaction? the only satisfaction is getting paid Does a soft answer turn away wrath? idts Does sex mean love? of course not but its better when it does THE LASTS: Last person you hung out with? work people Last car ride? just me on my own Last text message? my partner Last baby you held? dakota Last time you shaved? last week LAST THING? What was the last thing you bought? breakfast What was the last thing you had to drink? water What was the last thing you watched? maid What was the last thing you read? haha no idea! it’s been awhile What was the last thing your hand wrote? my signature THE WHOS: Who last talked to you on the phone? a customer Who was the last person you took a picture of? myself Who was the last person to leave you a comment? haha no one ever comments on my tumblr Who do you miss right now? im content! Who last hugged you? my fiance CURRENTLY: What color shirt are you wearing? black Have any tattoos? no Have you any piercings? just my ears Straight hair or curly? i have curly hair but it’s straight at the moment Where are you? at home HAVE YOU EVER: Failed a class? no Professed your love and been turned down? nope Accomplished a life goal? yes Thought you were pregnant? yes lol Sang in front of a crowd? no SIX THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM: 1. vapes 2. a ton of perfumes 3. a box of healthy food 4. houseplants 5. candles 6. mirror THREE RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS: 1.In a relationship? yes 2.Want a relationship? sure 3.Wanna get married? im engaged, so eventually FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND: 1. getting fit 2. what to pack for lunch all week 3. how busy my weekends are going to be 4. being able to sleep tonight

#survey #surveys #quiz #bored #questions

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violasmirabiles · 3 years

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got tagged by @panwriter, thank you xx

1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise? ali. pronounce it however you like i dont really care lol

2. when is your birthday? march 26. so just a few weeks from now. oh boy

3. where do you live? joensuu, finland babey

4. three things you are doing right now? pretending im reading the essays i shouldve read for methodology class weeks ago, making a list of things i need to get from the university library (and where those books are exactly - i dont actually go to the uni library very often at all but for some reason rather many of the books i need arent available as ebooks), trying to drink the second bucket of coffee of the day without spilling it everywhere

5. four fandoms that have piqued your interest? re-animator; stephen king multiverse (was gonna just say the shining and doctor sleep but we all know its more than that); saw franchise; the godfather. though with sk and godfather im basically just playing in my own little isolated sandbox and im more than fine with that thank you

6. how has the pandemic been treating you? ah well. its been treating me. got my ba degree and generally have been able to study more so thats good. spent five months with my family in tampere last year and itd probably be good for me to go there again but as it is im stuck in my apartment because of doctors appointments. like thats the only reason i cant just Go. also i recently realized i havent seen my grandma in over a year and cried about that. choir stuff is obviously all fucky and uncertain. also having time to think about things and stuff means ive been figuring out gender stuff so thats been.....interesting....and energy consuming.....and crisis inducing

7. a song you can’t stop listening to right now? täällä on joku by absoluuttinen nollapiste, its finnish weirdness hours in my head 247

8. recommend a movie. i mean, yeah, re-animator

9. how old are you? 25. 26 in a few weeks

10. school, university, occupation, other? university of eastern finland, babey! english language and culture major, literature minor. did my ba thesis on the shining. the novel, fuck the kubrick film, and wouldnt have been allowed to do my thesis about a film anyway. so right now im a masters student and will start working on my ma thesis next year, trying to get as many classes out of the way before that as possible. dont know what im gonna be once i graduate and id really rather not think about that but i do like studying in spite of everything

11. do you prefer heat or cold? heat. but, like... thats relative, isnt it? what i consider warm is Definitely Not warm to someone who lives in, like, texas. and i Tolerate cold and, christ i dont know. my favorite season is spring.

12. name one fact others may not know about you. once came second in a school skiing competition! i was ten. we didnt get medals, we got like pins/brooches and i still have my silver brooch somewhere

13. are you shy? sometimes. often. im anxious

14. pronouns? they/them. like i said ive been trying to figure out gender stuff and the only thing im Very sure of is that i am Not Cis, and im scared, and i get easily defensive about it all, and i have a lot of internalized issues i need to work on. gendered pronouns are like my number one personal enemy, i need the sort of....neutrality, ambiguity, yknow. finnish does not Have gendered pronouns, we have hän for he/she/they/every neopronoun - and we dont even fucking use that one, everyones just se (it) and thats all fine and dandy when you dont want to Think about your Gender every time someone refers to you and im rambling because i am once again getting defensive for no reason sdfdsfs yeah theres still a lot to unload here i swear were getting there

15. biggest pet peeves? on a bad day? everything. but to give an actual answer, people not realizing their experiences are not universal and that their actions can and will have an effect on others

16. what is your favorite “-dere” type? glad to say im temporarily illiterate so i dont know what this says

17. rate your life from 1 to 10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be im afraid i cant do that luv i dont want to have a breakdown

18. what’s your main blog? this one babey

19. list your side blogs and what they’re used for. i have @ihmekukkavesi for my photography and @shineondoc for university hell and occasional doctor sleep/the shining yelling. im not gonna call it my studyblr cos it....its really not....its not. im not a good student. im not organized, i dont feel like im Doing This right. im definitely not exemplary. everything becomes a crisis and i need to let it out somewhere and thats what shineondoc is for.

20. is there something people need to know about you before becoming friend? oh boy. uh. im not good at keeping a conversation going. yet at the same time i cannot fucking shut up if were talking about something im excited about. i dont know how Real this is but i feel like i might come across as like...arrogant or something but i swear im just scared and trying to keep myself from Rambling(tm) and. well. trying to sound like a normal fucking person.

tagging @nowendil @appelssiini @librarytraveller @sailonacrossthesea @stokoetopia @kirsikkaprinsessa and anyone whos bored and wants to do this

#got tagged #once again. no pressure if you dont feel like doing this

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mycelier · 3 years

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My name is Simone and I would like to tell you a tale!

I will not have access to my laptop for some days more and because writing on my phone is kind of painful (physically, because I am working on hand mobility now), this may end up in drafts and taking a while to post. I am going to share what has been happening the last 2 months because I feel like everything went from 0 to 100 in the span of a few weeks and its been really, really wild.

So!!! LETTUCE begin!

For roughly 5 years I've been struggling to get a diagnosis on an extremely painful area of my arm. There was literally nothing visible; no lump, discoloration or any other physical abnormality to indicate anything was wrong. I spent thousands on pretty much every kind of imaging you can do, and was told time and time again that there was nothing wrong and, perhaps, it was psychosomatic and I needed therapy or, more often than not, I was given a shrug and a vague "i dunno" response.

This year, something changed. I deal with chronic pain (my spine is congenitally fused in my neck and lower spine and I have baby bone spurs all over), and in the process of trying to work on that I brought up my arm again to a dr I no longer see. He'd told me my arm was SEVERAL things over the years I had been seeing him but this time said it was a fibromyalgia knot, something I had been told by a team of doctors some time before that. I said okay cool and was sent to a physical therapy rehab center where the dr worked with myofascial release and stretches to help with injuries. This amazing man fixed my plantar fasciitis and helped get my chronic headaches under control but NOTHING we did helped my arm pain. Within a month he was worried bc we had started to notice that there was a hardness to the spot that never changed with any exercise or massage.

Worried that there was a nerve being trapped or crushed (another diagnosis I'd gotten over the years), this amazing man sent me to a neurosurgeon who immediately frowned and said he didn't think my neck pain and my arm pain were connected. He ordered an MRI of my arm and despite it not being visible on an MRI 2 years before, he found something PHYSICALLY THERE where I said I had pain. He considered doing the surgery to remove it (despite being a neurosurgeon he was fascinated with this weird horribly painful spot) but eventually sent me a surgeon for an oncology center, assuring me it was because this new surgeon was one of the best in Texas for removing soft tissue tumors, not because there was any thought of cancer.

I met with the surgeon who gave me one more diagnosis of an AVM (arteriovenous malformation), snd said they were benign and not necessary to remove as well as the possibility that if removed it would likely return. Truly, at this point after 5 years of constant nauseating horric pain when someone brushed against me or if I gently brushed against ANYRHING, a pain so bad that it had basically made me stop using my right arm as much as possible (of course I'm right handed lol), I said GET THAT FUCKER OUT OF THERE MAN and my first surgery was scheduled.

Surgery one occurred Nov 5th and was an out patient event. I went home and passed out. At some point my mom said that while I'd been in recovery the dr said the thing in my arm hadn't looked like what he expected so he had sent it to pathology. I went back to work and was hanging out until the Tuesday before Thanksgiving when I went in for a super immediate meeting with a different doctor who told me that what had been in my arm was a synovial sarcoma, aka, cancer! He, this incredibly kind man I did not know, gently discussed chemo and told me I needed to have a CT scan immediately. Based on the CT, i was either in stage one or stage four if it has spread to lungs. The day before Thanksgiving I received the news that it was stage one, it had not spread, and i was so fucking happy.

Then it was time talk about next steps. My surgeon marked out a circle on my arm to indicate how much he was gonna remove in order to guarantee clear margins..but it was not enough of a meeting for me to grasp the surgery I was about to receive.

The day of my second surgery, dec 8th, came quickly and i met with the plastic surgeon, the kindest, most patient man. He moved my arm around and explained how he was going to hijack a vein from my forearm in order to keep the blood flow health to the flap he was gonna take from the donor site: My inner thigh.

It has been 11 days and I am living in an inpatient rehab facility, working on dealing with the nerve damage/pain, the EXTREME pain of my donor site, and the lost mobility that I am working on getting back, both in my leg and my hand. The majorities of my arm is numb...except where the nerve pain burns my wrist and forearm and makes it painful to wear my arm sling (I can't fully extend my arm, nor can I lift, push, pull or use my arm in any way that would stress out my new arm flap). Also may have a brand new urinary tract infection but as I write this I'm chugging water for a urine sample to hopefully get that treated. Below are some pictures I have taken/had taken of my arm! Im not ready to look at my leg outside of the bandages (which, since having the wound vac removed today, hell yeah, will need daily dressing changes).

EDIT: I tried posting pictures of my arm last night and my post disappeared immediately so I will try to make a new post with these photos in case the whole post was erased because of them. I will tag them as post surgery photos. I do not consider them gory or excessive but hey that's just me.

I intend to post more things as I keep healing and as I gain more mobility. I was given "independence" in my room yesterday which means I can officially get up without any assistance needed (using my badass new cane to help me lift my foot in and out of bed)!!!! Which also means I can get up whenever I want without the bed alarm going off. I have a badass cane that has been the best tool in helping me get around (and has inspired my mom and others to suggest and look into getting me a cane sword which makes me laugh REAL hard). See below me using the cane to move my foot in and out of bed!

Part of why I'm posting this is because I really needed to talk about it and while later posts may not be this long or expository but I wanted to have a base post to explain other ones related to this one!!!

I will update with some newer pics tomorrow night when my mom comes by to help me take newer pics. The arm flap looks super healthy (according to the drs), and when they changed my leg dressing they said its looking really good and healthy!

I......also really wanted to post my Amazon wishlist. Due to this stupid wild bad lottery ticket, I've been struggling to pay my bills and rent but!!! I have good insurance, thankfully (since I live in the US and my hospital stay and this rehab stay would have more than bankrupted me), and im hoping my disability checks will get here in time for rent!!! I'm putting up my wishlist bc I can't afford some of the "essentials" on there and, also, because I havent been able to have any kind of comfort during any of this. I never ask for anything for holidays because usually i...dont want to burden people with spending money on me since I know how hard money is, especially right now. And if I don't have enough for rent later I might have to create a go fund me...but right now everything looks good for rent and bills just...not for anything fun.

Thank you so much for your time!!! And happy holidays you wild bastards!!!

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/36PG6BAYD18U7?ref_=wl_share

#tw for many things!#cancer mention #surgery mention #i tried to add photos of my arm post surgery and my post disappeared so I will try again in a separate post #everything relating to my cancer or recovery i will label as badass battlestar bc it makes me feel cool #badass battlestar

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daeguzen · 4 years

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rules: when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know! they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done and if you want to, send this to 10 people you want to get to know better!

tagged by @pastelsicheng

I love you 💖💚 hehe

1. We're gonna start off with a banger. I drank about 30 shots of espresso in one sitting. I was in hs I didn't know coffee that well although I liked it. So at a coffeehouse event I accidentally drank 3 cups without knowing. It was like being Jaemin hyper but x100000. I didnt sleep for a few days straight. 🤣🤡 don't ever do that though if you're weak to caffeine. More espresso does not equal less depresso. 😔🤡

2. I like to dress very masculine so I go to the men's section often for clothes. I do own some feminine clothes but overall I'm more of a pants and tshirt person. That's why I like looking at male idol fashion. It suits my taste. Like Jeno has good outfits. I appreciate such style. 😁

3. I can drive. Tiny me drives tiny toy car. Lol my car really looks like a toy car tho. Toyota Yaris 🤣 vroom vroom. When I drive I'm like a hybrid. Partially teen partially grandma. So I'll respect the law and don't drive recklessly like those at my college 👀 but sometimes a zoom zoom a bit too much on the highway. But it's oki I havent been stopped by police for a whole year of having my permit. 😁

4. I'm studying to be a graphic designer. People say be a lawyer or doctor and although that's snazzy and all I wouldn't like my life. At least that's what I think. I thought of working and testing the waters after 2 years but I'm thinking of going straight to the four years after graduation next year. The higher the degree the higher the salary the higher the debt. HAHAHA 😔🤡🤡

5. Uuh . . . I like to dance. I'm not great or have studied. Honestly I have baby tummy that I wanna drop so I can do more with my body. Wanna be cool like Jeno and do flips. I'd probably accidentally take a swan dive out of my window tho . . . 🤔🤡 but I'm also lazy so :/ I need to work on that lol.

It's been 5 questions with Dae and I rewrote all of this as much as I could remember. TimblR decided to be a big fat meanie and mess up my flow. Fight my Limblr i dare you.

#im tired #my foot fell asleep while i redid this #to properly describe me as a person #im all the dreamies in one #jkjk #or am i #deadly combo #AHH #when i first did this you before lumblr decided to be a jerk #...#i forgot what i was gonna type #oh i was like who am i #stares into a mirror #gonna copy everything just in case

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carmenpeach · 4 years

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aauuuauuaaugtgghhhh whats your favourite show rn and why? sell it to m bruh tell me all about it

this may be a surprise but its... hunter x hunter LOL for a lot of different reasons...

without spoilers best i can, first of all the storytelling/ world building of it is so precise and detailed, thought out years in advance to tie so much of it together as it progresses. watching it a 2nd time i saw many more little details of allusions to parts that wouldnt even be written in the manga for years (im think about watching through the end of yorknew again tbh) i think it has such good rewatch value well beyond just for entertainment. and i feel it's worth noting that i have a hard time just sitting down and watching things since it's hard for me to focus for too long (and when i first watched it at 19 i watched 75 episodes in 10 days somehow?)

the narration throughout it can be a little drawn out sometimes but the story would have a lot less impact without it. togashi (author/ artist) goes into such detail about aspects of the story to add to the experience is so well rounded. especially when it comes to nen (the "magic powers" of the series) and how it functions i feel that nen could be real.

beyond that i feel the main pull of it is the characters. even side characters add so much to the story that they dont come across like unnecessary/ filler elements. one fault for sure is how some female characters are just plot elements but that improves over time. but it's the main four, gon killua kurapika and leorio, is what makes the whole thing come together. the way they interconnect with each other is amazing. from narrative foils to the bonds they form. the show is about love at its core, how these characters love each other and how they sacrifice for each other (not always in the best way but in what they think is the best, from self sacrifice to separation).

i know everyone says this, but really it's a love story also romantically. it's definitly about killua and gon being in love, there is no other way to interpret their relationship really. i feel like if i saw this show as a closeted 12 year old then realizing im gay wouldnt have been so complicated tbh but that's besides the point.

it's really how intricate the whole story is woven together, how the focus shifts between the main 4 (and how even though gon is the protagonist, we havent even seen him the current arc and we are back on kurapika and hopefully leorio too, which makes sense since the chimera ant arc was only killua and gon)

it's also how serious the series gets as it progresses which is also another thing a lot of people talk about with it, especially in the manga right now. the chimera ant arc is where this switch clearly happens and it gets pretty brutal (my first watch of hxh i stopped in the middle of this arc since it got a little too intense for me. seeing not only gon and killua having to be child soldiers and dealing with loss and revenge while trying to protect each other and fighting the ants while also seeing the whole situation from the ants part of view) (side note yeah the enemy are ants but they end up being anthropomorphic creatures) and it's when we really see gon and killua pushed to their limits :(

but my favorite arc is the yorknew/ phantom troupe arc because it's a kurapika arc and i LOVE kurapika. everything about his character hurts so much. i feel like kurapika has the most obvious at first development to changes with his character and even though this arc is before the ant one, it definitly sets the tone for how the series is going to slowly change. im definitly more biased towards kurapikas role in the story which i think is... a little obvious by the way every other post by me is about him LOL but this whole part really sets the tragedy of the series too (but also shows that all the suffering isnt pointless and how love still shines through etc but that could be a whole long post on its own....)

anyways the show starts off so fun and happy like most shonen, and even though it follows similar story points like most (journey begins, trials and goals, training under mentor etc) it quickly becomes very unique and goes off track of this average heros journey (though yes i know almost every story follows this, i really cannot emphasize enough that hxh takes it a step further beyond "hero goes out to reach an end goal" considering that goal is met already 2 arcs i think before the current)

and i feel bad not touching much on leorio since his character tends to get sidelined unfortunately, and many people think he isnt too important just because his journey isnt about some huge difficult adventure, it's to be a doctor to help anyone in need for free, placing everyone else's wellbeing as absolute importance (and the way this works as a narrative foil and strain between him and kurapika is amazing too) (and hes handsome)

well i wasnt planning on writting an essay but. here it is, written kinda sloppy since im just trying to get my thoughts out. it's both painful and rewarding to watch but ultimately worth it. pls watch hxh (i STRONGLY recommend the 1999 adaption. i could also write a huge post on the difference between 1999 and 2011 but that's for another day)

#I REALLY WAS NOT GOING TO WRITE SO MUCH BTW #my other favorite shows right now would probably be... utena and alien 9 #i just like so many things and i didnt expect to love hxh as much as i do. i havent been this attatched to characters in forever...#hxh #hunter x hunter #ask #anon #i love u

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you-did-well-moon · 4 years

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questions tag :))

i was tagged by the lovely @bearboyunho thank uuuu

relationships: I was in one for a maximum of three hours dkejek. Ill explain in the breakup question. This is definitely not a relationship im proud of. It caused me too many problems considering how short it was...

break-ups: I have so many trust issues and insecurities, i think i still have a long way to grow before i can enter a relationship, besides i havent met anyone yet. I didn't lead this person on, i treated him as a friend. And i usually spent more time with him since we were both in track. He caught feelings for me which i honestly knew about but i didnt say anything bc i didnt have feelings for him. One day during lunch with all my friends at the time he asked for a relationship. He later confessed to me he did this on purpose because he knew i would feel bad saying no to him, and that paired with the pressure of my friends, i said yes. He held my hand, and it just didn't feel right. Everything didnt feel right. So three hours later i got him alone and told him i wasnt ready for a relationship but that we could still be friends. He took it relatively well, but he avoided me. His cousin confronted me and told me he cried all weekend, but she said she understood and that she was glad i said no in the end which i was confused about but didnt question just wanting to leave it behind. Then it all started the next year. Out of nowhere he texted me, which was ???? Bc i never gave him my number, but i talked to him believing he was doing this on friendly intentions. lol i was a dumbass. Later my friend revealed to me he had lied to her and said i was paired up with him during a project. I also found out he asked her for pictures of me. His cousin which im friends with also told me she was sure he was not befriending me on good intentions, and that she was creeped out by him. My friends had continuously told me he would speak about me as if we were together to other people, and that he stared at me for weird periods of time. At this point im fucking scared and confront him and say i dont want to be friends with him and that i dont think us talking or being friends is healthy for either one of us. He continued texting me, making me feel bad when i didnt respond asking me if i hated him i had to eventually block him. He gave me a present on both valentines and Christmas which i rejected but he forced me to accept them. After class i always packed up my stuff slowly bc i had a good relationship with my teacher and talked to her. He stood in front of me and just stared at me while i packed. We actually had a kpop club, and one day he showed up. I was part of student council, and at the middle of the year he started attending. He sent me kpop memes to try to get my attention. I felt so unsafe i told my English teacher. Eventually he gave up when i started being firmer in my silence and overall attitude towards him. so yeah.... a relationship that didnt even last a day caused all this. I genuinely wish i had been more careful. The red flags were there from the beginning and i tried ignoring them bc i wanted to be nice. Dont do that, if someone maked you uncomfortable please dont feel bad and cut them off for as long as you need to. Anyways- nExT quEstiOn.

kids: i dont have any but i want twins so badly it's stupid. I honestly dont mind having kids that aren't twins. I just want two tbh. A girl and boy.

brothers and sisters: i have one sister who's five years younger than me. Im very close with my two cousins tho so theyre like sister to me too. They're older than me by more than five years.

pets: i have three dogs. Two shih tzus Otis and Bella, Bella is mother to Otis. He's the only puppy we kept from when Bella had puppies. I have Rocky a very clumsy english bulldog. I also have a beta fish called Suho.

surgeries: Ive had two. One when i was four to get my tonsils removed because i got sick a lot, and last year i got my gallbladder removed because i had gall stones. That one was so painful i couldnt laugh or do anything without everything hurting.

tattoos: None but i would like one. Not big ones, just small meaningful ones.

countries i’ve been to: Mexico....i miss it

been in an airplane: my family is not in the class where we can take an airplane to travel or even travel to other states. Ive only been on it twice for a contest i won.

been in an ambulance: Twice as much as i can remember. Once for my sister who had a really bad seizure when i took her to a doctors appointment and the other when they had to transport me to another hospital when they first found out i had gall stones.

i sing karaoke: no but you can usually find me singing along to a song on the radio or randomly around my house.

ice skating: I would love to try. The closest ive gotten is rollerblading. I can't do any fancy tricks but i can balance, but oh no i havent gone in such a long time. My poor rollerblades are collecting dust in my garage.

been on a cruise: ..... this is a joke right? Let me have enough money to buy groceries first.

driven a motorcycle: ah i would really like a motorcycle, but no never.

ridden a horse: Lolol all the time. When i was young my uncle helped out at some stables that were literally at the end of my street snd and he always took me a long with him. A lot of my family especially in Mexico and in the valley have ranchos which means they have horses and you can usually find me hanging out with the lovely animals.

stayed in a hospital: I once went because my head was killing me and i found out it was migraines. I had gall stones for seven months and stayed in the hospital about two times a month so yeah i was there a lot. And for the surgery of course.

favorite fruit or berry: Watermelon and Guayaba. Also green grapes.

favorite color: peach and aqua.

last text: "ye ok" it was from me to my cousin since i was gonna go to her house but she was with my grandma who tested positive for covid so we both decided it would be safer for me to keep my distance.

coffee or tea: coffee. i need it to survive. As long as it has sugar im ok. But tea is great for when my stomach hurts. I just prefer coffee. I could drink it any hour.

favorite pie: Pecan, especially with ice cream its so good. Key lime isnt bad either.

favorite pizza: i dont really care? I like all of them but when i was little and we'd go to the mall my dad would always get this big pizza that was big enough to have things stuffed inside it and it tasted so good. Its a good memory.

cat or dog: dog but i really want a cat.

favorite time of year: Chritmas and Thanksgiving always. I love it. Especially Christmas when my family gathers together and we play games and everyone brings a traditional Mexican dish. We stay until like 4 am and its always great.

met a star: That one woman who had an affair with george bush. I met her. That doesnt really count. Yeah no one, i met basketball players but i dont remember from which team or who they were. I met ted cruz. Cool story tho my english teacher knew one of shinee's choreographers.

flown a helicopter:..... umm. nO..

been on tv: Nah. Probably in the backround of some news things.

broken my leg: no ive never broken a bone surprisingly.

seen a ghost: i had sleep paralysis it was close enough.

been sick in a taxi: never even been in a taxi. Ive been on a uber tho.

Tags: @doyoungbunnyagenda @butterflybam @brighttragedy @saturnsluna @waterfallsandrosebuds @jooheonyonehunnit @leecherryyong

#moon gets tagged in stuff

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burclay · 5 years

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Time, Space, and Texting: Chapter 2

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: THIS IS A SPACESHIP

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: WE’RE FOUR DAYS’ TRAVEL FROM THE TARDIS 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: On the other hand, General Eve Cicero is here 😍😍😍 what a legend!

AO3 Chapter 1

RyanS: GUYS I’M SO BORED

RyanS: WERE STUCK IN THIS WEIRD HOSPITAL AND THE DOCTORS NOT AWAKE

yaz01: is now really the time ryan

RyanS: YES

bad-wolf-girl: is the doctor okay?

yaz01: the medics say she’ll be fine. we got hit with some sort of weird space bomb but these people are taking care of us.

Graham O’Brien: Are we really texting right now?

yaz01: that’s what i said.

The Captain: When you say weird space bomb…

Graham O’Brien: I think one of the medics said “sonic mine.”

RyanS: theyre trying to find our medtags now. taking bets on how long it takes them to realize we havent got any

The Captain: A sonic mine? You know how lucky you are to be alive, right?

RyanS: picking up on it yeah

yaz01: hold on a sec, dr’s awake

DoctorJones: In the meantime, I’ve finally convinced Mickey to check his phone.

mickeyrick: hey, it’s been a while. heard there’s a new doctor. or however that works.

RyanS: might want to read up a bit

yaz01: ryan! get off your phone!

RyanS: you’re on your phone!

yaz01: only to get your attention! come on!

bad-wolf-girl: so we’ll just assume they’re busy, then

bad-wolf-girl: anyone meet any cool aliens lately?

cyberbill: heather and i went to a planet that was nothing but ocean. pretty cool.

oswin: you two are made of water or something, right?

oswin: suppose you were right at home there

cyberbill: yeah pretty much.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: THIS IS A SPACESHIP

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: WE’RE FOUR DAYS’ TRAVEL FROM THE TARDIS 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: On the other hand, General Eve Cicero is here 😍😍😍 what a legend!

The Captain: Whoa, really?

The Captain: *The* Eve Cicero? Named in the Book of Celebrants?

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: The very one!

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Anyway, got to go, I’m walking.

yaz01: while she’s doing that. cyberbill, did you say you’re made of water?

cyberbill: just bill. and long story, but yeah

RyanS: i give up making sense of you lot

yaz01: sometime i’d like to hear the long story!

cyberbill: well, sounds like you all are going to have time to read, at least. four days away from the tardis and all that.

RyanS: yeah n now the doctor’s gone off who knows where so we dont even have her whole crisis to deal with

cyberbill: i don’t even know where to start. to be honest, i’m not sure i even understand it all. but my crush got taken by this sort of water thing, and then i was a cyberman for a bit, and next thing i knew i was water.

cyberbill: heather says it’s all just atoms. she’s better with all this than i am

cyberbill: someday i’ll add her in here. don’t know if she’d say much.

The Captain: We’re all dying to meet her.

cyberbill: or *you’re* dying to meet her

oswin: oi, i’m already dying. don’t add this into it!

yaz01: you’re dying?

oswin: long story

yaz01: you all keep saying that

oswin: fair enough. basically i’m frozen in the moment right before i died. but i can still move around. so i’ve stolen a tardis and i’m running around in it now

RyanS: im beginning to understand how the doctor picks her friends

RyanS: ur all completely mad

oswin: not sure what that says about you, then

RyanS: oh i’ll accept me being mad too, that’s fine

johnsmith42: nothing wrong with a bit of madness!

bad-wolf-girl: says the man who reconfigured our entire television to not use the color green

johnsmith42: I don’t like green! what’s wrong with that?

bad-wolf-girl: everything shows in shades of red and blue now

bad-wolf-girl: good thing i figured out how to encase my laptop in dalekanium

bad-wolf-girl: for all their faults, Daleks are pretty good at indestructible metal

johnsmith42: for the record, I would NEVER mess with your laptop

yaz01: daleks?

oswin: oh boy

johnsmith42: VERY dangerous aliens. do NOT approach.

bad-wolf-girl: i’m sure you’ll meet one someday. they tend to pop up around the doctor.

yaz01: why?

bad-wolf-girl: that’s really her story to tell, sorry

yaz01: fair enough, i guess.

RyanS: glad ur computers safe

bad-wolf-girl: yeah me too

mickeyrick: so i finished reading up. sounds like you’re having a bit of a time.

mickeyrick: when the doctor gets back tell her i like her jacket

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: I’m back! 👋

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Oh, hello, Mickey! Thanks! 🤗

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Anyway, there’s something *very bad* going on. 👎😱👾😲

Graham O’Brien: And you’re spending time picking out emojis?

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Doesn’t take that long! 😡😡😡

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: ANYWAY. Something’s on board and it’s killed Astos. Ryan, Graham, Yaz, be careful.

RyanS: wed better go find her hadnt we

yaz01: yep

DoctorJones: Be safe!

bad-wolf-girl: good luck!

mickeyrick: i’m remembering why i never come in this chat

mickeyrick: my life might be dangerous but at least it makes sense

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Anyone know anything about something called a “Pting?”

bad-wolf-girl: you have a pting on your ship?

bad-wolf-girl: we came across one of those a few years back

bad-wolf-girl: didn’t exactly go very well

bad-wolf-girl: i’m sure you’ll be fine though

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: That’s not encouraging!!! 😱

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: We’re looking it up in the ship’s systems 😬

bad-wolf-girl: all you need to know is it eats *everything*

bad-wolf-girl: and its skin is toxic

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: 😱😱😱

The Captain: oh, boy

The Captain: Doctor, I’m going to need you to check in with us frequently until this one’s over

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Will do.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Got to think. What do we do???

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: THE SHIP’S GOT A BOMB IN IT 😱

johnsmith42: what???

The Captain: well, that’s a check-in, I suppose

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: It’s a Tsuranga ship, there’s a self-destruct in case anything happens that makes the ship a danger to the planet on which it lands.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: But we are NOT going to be a danger!

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: We are going to SOLVE THIS.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: So the bomb is really unfair!

bad-wolf-girl: too bad life isn’t fair i guess

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Oi!!! You shut up!!!

bad-wolf-girl: 😘

Amy: hey everybody! what’s up!

bad-wolf-girl: doctor’s in danger, the rest of us are laughing at her to hide our worry

Amy: must be Tuesday

bad-wolf-girl: pretty much

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: AMY! Hi Amy!

Amy: hey, doctor!

Amy: oh, never mind. looks like you have bigger things to do than talk in this groupchat

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: I’m procrastinating 😔😓 can’t think of a plan!!! 😬😬😬 Don’t worry, I’ll get there!

yaz01: doctor, we’re on our way back

yaz01: have you been talking to your friends this *whole time*?

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Don’t worry! I almost have a plan!

yaz01: i can’t believe i trust you with my life!

Amy: but you do…

Amy: it’s a trap we all fall into

Amy: side note, but is this version of the Doctor somehow more of a mess than the last two?

johnsmith42: *definitely* more of a mess than me.

bad-wolf-girl: keep telling yourself that 😘

johnsmith42: I will, thanks.

RyanS: ABOUT TO HELP DELIVER A MANS BABY WISH US LUCK

Amy: ???????

The Captain: Good luck!

bad-wolf-girl: good luck!

Amy: what happened to the alien?

cyberbill: something tells me they might be a little too busy to talk right now

oswin: good luck!

oswin: oops i’m too late

yaz01: THERE’S NO INTERNET TUTORIAL FOR STAZING A PTING

oswin: are those real words?

oswin: you’ve got to be careful. i swear the doctor likes to just make up words.

bad-wolf-girl: i second that.

bad-wolf-girl: i still make up words for everything i don’t understand and i blame him...

bad-wolf-girl: marrying his clone can’t have helped.

johnsmith42: oh, you love me

bad-wolf-girl: 😘😘😘

oswin: careful… use that many emojis at once and you’ll get confused for the doctor

bad-wolf-girl: lol

DoctorJones: Hold on… is everyone all right?

oswin: seems like the jury’s out

oswin: i’m fine tho

DoctorJones: Ryan, do you need help? I’m an *actual* doctor on Earth.

yaz01: not sure human medicine is entirely applicable

yaz01: but there’s a medic doing the heavy lifting, don’t worry

yaz01: ryan and graham are being doulas

yaz01: OH SHLJKKDSA

DoctorJones: Yaz?

bad-wolf-girl: everything all right?

oswin: what happened?

Amy: yaz???

yaz01: sorry yeah everything’s fine

yaz01: just drop kicked a pting nothing to see here

yaz01: dropped my phone mid-message

yaz01: sorry about that

DoctorJones: Glad you’re all right.

yaz01: yeah me too

yaz01: but no time to talk drs here

oswin: good luck

oswin: side note i just found a planet with six-headed lizards

cyberbill: what, you mean like the hydra?

oswin: yeah!

oswin: think they came to earth and inspired the ancient greeks?

Amy: doubt it

Amy: anyone can think up a many-headed dragon

oswin: true enough. anyway i’m going to go explore. ttyl

Amy: have fun!

mickeyrick: anyone else *really worried* about this whole alien-spaceship situation?

Amy: they’ll get out of it

DoctorJones: The Doctor does have a knack for getting out of these sorts of things. I’m sure they’ll be fine.

bad-wolf-girl: doesn’t always end well though

Amy: she’s had time to come up with a plan now

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Hi everybody I’m brilliant!

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Pting ate the bomb and now all we have to do is get the ship to Resus One, and then we can go right on back to the TARDIS.

Amy: told you!

bad-wolf-girl: nice!!!

RyanS: this babys so cute i might cry

Graham O’Brien: Not because of the heartwarming conversation you just had or anything.

RyanS: no its just really cute

RyanS: im serious its so little

RyanS: did you know they make people that little

RyanS: its fingers

RyanS: are tiny

yaz01: ryan have you ever seen a baby before

RyanS: leave me alone yaz!!!

DoctorJones: Is the dad doing all right?

RyanS: yeah hes fine

RyanS: hes gonna be such a good dad

RyanS: but thats not why i might cry i swear

RyanS: (grahams looking at me funny :-( )

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Bad news. General Cicero is dead.

Graham O’Brien: Oh, goodness.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: We’re going to be holding a funeral in the engine room. Ryan, Graham, do you think Yoss will want to come?

RyanS: ill ask

RyanS: he says yes

Graham O’Brien: Be there in a moment, Doc.

The Captain: Quite a loss.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: I know. 😢

DoctorJones: May she rest in peace.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: She lived a good life.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Died saving us.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: She had pilot’s heart. Knew she had pilot’s heart. Took over control of the ship anyway.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: All the emojis in my name are seeming really inappropriate right about now. 😢😢😢

bad-wolf-girl: i’m sorry doctor

Amy: I’ll add her to the list.

Amy: General Eve Cicero?

yaz01: the list?

bad-wolf-girl: when people die we add them to a list

bad-wolf-girl: we make a point of remembering them every so often

bad-wolf-girl: roughly once a year in the timeline of whoever’s holding the list

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: General Eve Cicero is right.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Also add Astos.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: He was the medic who died.

Amy: got it

<document: the list>

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Thanks, Amy. 💙

Amy: no problem

yaz01: wait, how often do people die??? this is a *long* list

bad-wolf-girl: this is over the course of maybe a thousand years in the doctor’s timeline

bad-wolf-girl: it’s a dangerous life, yaz

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: I’m sorry. I did warn you.

yaz01: yeah i know

yaz01: took me by surprise i guess

The Captain: General Cicero is 116th century, right?

The Captain: from Keeba?

The Captain: I know those funeral rites

The Captain: they’re beautiful

The Captain: I hope they carry her well

bad-wolf-girl: what’re they like?

The Captain: Keeba’s a solar system full of voyagers

The Captain: there wasn’t any life there until it got developed

The Captain: so their rituals and ceremonies assume every religion is real and has value.

The Captain: it depends on which planet she’s from and where her family’s from

The Captain: but they tend to involve everyone standing in a circle and speaking together.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: That’s exactly right. We had her android consort lead.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: She’s been laid to proper rest now. Among the stars. 🌠

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: And we’re almost to Resus One, which’ll teleport us back to the TARDIS.

The Doctor ☄️👋😂🌌🌈: Not sure my ectospleen’ll ever be the same, though.

RyanS: not sure your ectospleens our biggest concern

yaz01: i think she just fell asleep

johnsmith42: well, she’s clearly had a long day.

Graham O’Brien: I’ll say. I’m about to fall asleep myself.

RyanS: you do that

RyanS: im gonna go see if yoss will let me hold his baby brb

#doctor who #dw #writing #fic #time space and texting

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neo-shitty · 3 years

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toffee!

no dont apologise! i didnt check until just then so np :)

mmm yeah it is a bit trippy. hehe ITS TRUE THO. yeah sadly i think ur right, and tag blocking is probably a good idea. sometimes smut written well or not in excess is okay but goddamn when its abt 01 line and thats the whole fic... *silently blocks tags*

hehe i do that all the time lol this conversation is carrying on threads from a month ago :) mmm yeah ur probably right sadly, same. HA HE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE and now i have someone to talk to abt them, so thats good! I KNOW felix was actually the one who got me into skz with his iconique gods menu line so i guess i have a soft spot for him. i always tell myself my bias is chan but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess im more whipped than id like to admit. mmm yeah that does make sense dw i hope they do that as well. YES king seungmin hIMSELF. GODDAMNIT DONT GET ME STARTED ON MINHO IN GODS MENU I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS PART OF THE GROUP UNTIL I STARTED GETTING MORE INTO THEM. BITCH (affectionate) THE LINE DISTRIBUTION HAS BEEN UTTER DOG SHIT but *deep breath* its better now so were moving on adn hoping it stays that way. sis same but i may or may not have gone thru a rlly depressed phase and actively sought out the elimination episodes so i could actually force some tears out of my emotionless shell of a heart but what cna you do? lmaoo i feel that irl, binnie deserves more vocal lines. yesss channies accent is rlly prominent then, i think also the way he structures his phrasing? is more english speaking than korean? but yeah i totally get what ur saying. AJKSAL lmao

okay then! im excited for whenever it gets done! (maybe tag me?) ahh the cold shrivelled heart of a dark au writer beats again at the thought of torturing another poor characters very soul (/j) :(( yeah that would suck not being able to see them. ohhh ur on the other hemisphere to me! were just going into spring rn. mmm smth to look forward to! YES you put it into words. they rlly are pretty independent from the company (remember how jyp rejected that other dudes songs after like 3 seconds and then how he was apparently nervous to show the song hed written to chan cos chan was so good at writing hits ahhh sweet revenge) mmmYES we rlly need a mute and remove notifications button for our brains dont we?

YES CORRECT i totally agree. some people jsut dont give it a try, adn assume its bad cos its korean smh racist assholes. yes! im coming up to my 6 month anniv actually! sis sAME, i feel like theyre being tugged into appealing to the western american market and theyre not staying as true to their artistic flair as a group, especially with only writing english songs atm. *sigh* ah well, at least theyre bringing recognition to the kpop world. AHUH dead on, theyre going to be discarded pretty soon and then where will bp be? theyll prob go solo paths which is rlly sad but what can you do when the company is run by a prideful asshole? yg is not going to last much longer in the big four if they keep this up.

hehe you get it. oooh very cool! whos ur ult? (sorry if youve said this before) mmmm yeah good decision, i feel liek thats probably a wise decision. this is my first album release as a kpop stan (not counting mixtape oh) so i think ill get it for sentiments sake. yeah! im excited for the new music! mingi was the one who got me into them, but atm my bias is seonghwa followed by san, wooyoung and ateez but jonghos high notes man *swoon* he, yeah atm ive got jake, jay, nikki, jungwon and sunoo down so just trying to get the rest :) heh, yeah kard i rlly only got into cos of bm, ive seen him like interacting with a lot of idols and he seemed nice so i decided to check out the group. ikr gunshot man *another swoon*

no noe! i didnt know what it was until i got it lol. thx toffee ill try and take that to mind :) yeah lol im on a waiting list thats not going to be free until late september so hopefully i can hold on until then. hope ur okay, that sounds like it sucks, hope you can find someone. maybe ill just take you along on my phone and the therapist can get a two for one patient deal lmaooo. mmm, sorry no i havent mentioned it before, i dont rlly talk abt it much. uhhh basically hypermobility? if you google it, it doesnt seem bad, jsut joint flexibility but ive got the severe end of the stick, leaning towards ehlers danlos syndrome so thats fun. basically it just makes it hard for me to exercise, run, jump, stand or just walk for long periods of time and gives me a lot of joint and muscle pain so... thats fun! but obviously so many other people have it worse than me, so i try not to complain. normally in young people it will improve as they get older, but my doctor said bc its severe in me, its unlikely to get much better. but again, i dont have the worst lot in the bunch, so its all g.

oh its good that its not the bad type of rain, a light sprinkling can be relaxing sometimes. aww thx darl, the concern is appreciated but it went pretty well and i managed not to cough too much on stage or kill myself trying to run around to the other side of the stage in the pouring rain so thats good! oooh tea buddies! my dogs a labradoodle, but shes a bit more of a feral poodle lol not much labrador in her at all, unless its her relentless urge to hunt down every bird that has ever walked this earth smh :((( hopefully they can come back on soon, does uni have dances?

ahhh a mood if i ever heard one. hopefully things will get better for you soon, ik anxiety sucks ass. ooh thats always good! when its sunny here, its always melt ur thongs to the pavement hot so the nicely cool sunny days are a lovely change. hehe impatience is not so good for you, but good for us that get to see ur beautiful theme early. ahh no worries, itll come eventually hopefully. and if not, then just things that make you not anxious are good. it doesnt have to be black or white, sometimes gray is good. mmmmm sames i have midterms this week to catch up on and then two weeks of end of terms so thats fun! i hope u can overcome that a little, heres some channie to be ur motivation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8LWyNjzOww. hah! i hear that all the time, he seems to be everywhere. did you see that tiktok of hans slowed back door rap, i stg it sounded EXACTLY like namjoon, it kinda scared me. also teh beginning of another day, sounds so much like joon i swear.

that reminds me! idk ur biases! i feel like this should be smth i should know so please! feel free to elaborate!

ahh im glad, i was worried it is. mmm same, so no hard feelings if either of us misses a day or smth. ill start worrying if weeks/months have gone by, but if its just a little while thats more than fine. ill just picture you studiously completing notes and i wont worry lol

<3 w.a. 🐺

at some point i really think i'm going to start blocking accounts because blocking tags won't be enough. i saw ask tags the other day and it just made me want to bleach my eyeballs.

i could talk about god's menu felix for hours man. the teaser for god's menu that featured his part on the bridge made me look forward to the mv release. you: biases chan, also you: lixiesbabyhands. yes you are more whipped than you think. i can't believe orange haired minho was given NOTHING during that era but they kind of made up for it in the b-sides. i also hope it stays that way. the distribution for this era was pretty fair.

"torturing another poor character's soul" in all honesty, i used to live for this. 2017 me leading up to early 2020 wrote nothing but angst. i have another aussie friend on twt and tbh i'm still really (O.o) about the seasons! jyp should be terrified skz could easily take over that company. heck if skz grow old and start their own company, they'd probably do a great job at running it. PLEASE. i have issues on muting/notifications both mentally and in real life. sometimes, i just wish to disappear.

some people in my country are just disgusting tbh. not only racist but homophobic too. they label kpop as 'gay' and it DISGUSTS me. it's a problematic behavior/mindset people in my country need to fucking get rid of. anyway, HELP ME 6 MONTHS??? and i've been in this shit for like a decade eye. tbh, i’m not fond of kpop groups trying to appeal to the western audience :// it feels like they’re losing their identity in a way. yes recognition but at what cost? yg has my favorite groups but that’s one shitty company when it comes to promoting.

okay my ult! it’s haechan from nct but i consider chan an ult too. like a close second above my whopping list of kpop boys. oh yes! you should get the album just for like a keepsake? remembrance? how did mingi appeal to you? omg did you start getting interested in ateez back when he was still on hiatus? NOT YOU BIASING THE SAME PEOPLE I DID WHEN I FIRST STARTED STANNING. the infamous ateez thot-line. jongho is easily one of the best fourth gen vocalists out here, no one can change my mind :( good luck with memorizing the rest of enhypen! just in time for the comeback too. i hope i’ll get into kard soon but i’m pretty content (and a tad bit overwhelmed) with the amount of groups i stan right now.

please hold on though, feel free to vent here if you like. thanks for the offer tho HAHA but like i’ll try to get checked here too when the cases die down a bit. i’m sorry to hear about your condition though :( please don’t ever overwork yourself to the point that your joints/muscles would ache. it’s completely valid to complain about it tho. i get that you have others in mind but keeping that mindset really doesn’t do you (like you internally) any better? so if you need to, vent your frustrations out and don’t keep it in.

oh my god, about your performance last sunday. was the stage out in the open? glad you didn’t cough too much and did well on your concert. i’m proud of you! i can never understand dogs and poor birds T_T uni doesn’t have dances unfortunately. i think there’s just one party at the end like a graduation ball. what year are you in anyway? if it’s something that you’re fine with sharing. if not, it’s cool.

good luck with your exams! and thanks for the link! AHA what a cutie. i think he does this motivation thing once in a while during his lives and it’s just comforting. yeah joon and han my irl just freaked when we made that discovery. ult crumbs for her. oh god not me forgetting about every biases when you asked. you can ask for my biases in a few groups just list down the one’s you’re interested in knowing.

i missed yesterday because i was grinding and finishing what if we stay + school work. finally did it today. i’m sure i’ll reply in like a day or two, definitely not a month unless i state otherwise. if i ever decide to abandon this blog, i’ll let you know.

#toff.asks #wild anon 🐺

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skiasurveys · 4 years

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414.

[ONE] Do you have a common first name? -I havent come across a lot of Jenessas before. I usually go by Jen, but lately ive been going by Jenessa. and ive met like maybe 3..? Do you like your middle name or your first name more? -first What year would/did you turn 21? -2017. What was popular when you were a kid? -Nintendo, Barbies, Bratz, Polly Pockets, gamecube, Pokemon...

Do you wear more rings or necklaces? -rings

Have you ever been engaged? - currently am

Can you see your veins through your skin? -some Do you have a certain song you sing aloud often? - any queen songs Do you concern yourself with what’s in? -not really. Do you worry about having good grammar online? -not really, i just try to make sure i make sense. [TWO] Do you know anyone with a lazy eye? -yes. Did your parents let you have pets when you were a kid? -yeah we had a cat

Would you rather live in an apartment or a duplex? -duplex wouldnt be bad tbh. Have you ever seen Boondock Saints? -Yup Do you like spicy chips? -meh Do you have any ‘different’ keychains on your keys/purse? Not really. Do you collect pins? -I want too. What band was on the last band t-shirt you wore? - Queen Do you wear more pink or yellow? -neither tbh.. [THREE] What’s the last movie you watched at a friend’s house? The Lovely Bones. Have you ever been out of the state you were born in? - yup Do you have any tattoos on your arms? - Nope. Have you ever owned or known someone who owned a black cat? - my cat is almost black When was the last time you felt jealous? - Couple days ago.

What’s the last thing you bought besides food/drink? -christmas presents I believe What album is the last song you listened to from? - Innenudo Do you know what the word lumiere means? - Yes Do you own a tea pot? - nah. I dont drink tea alot. [FOUR] Who scheduled your last doctor visit? - me or my mom LOL yes i am 23 What’s the last video game you played? - Red Dead Redemption 2 Do you have anything on your wrists right now? -cuts Do you have any holiday theme’d socks? - nah, i used to. What kind of accent do you have? - Canadian i guess? What’s the last funny movie you watched? Honestly, idk. Can you remember your parents’ birthdays? - Mom is dec 25th, and Dads is March 28th Is there anyone who you just absolutely cannot STAND being around? YUP

What is the design on your shirt? -Queens logo :) [FIVE] Do you know anyone who just flat-out fails at life? me Are you a Ghoulscout? whaaat? Do you know someone who’s just always wrong about everything? not really. I just know people who cant be wrong even when they are. and if you correct them they get mad.. Do you make fun of people often? Nah, I used to but thank god I am not that insecure anymore. Do you read your friend’s surveys? If i see them post any, but they dont. tbh I just do these cus I am bored. I hardly read the answers of anyone. If you had to get a tattoo tomorrow, what would you pick? maybe a fox. How do you feel about band tattoos? theyre cool but i would suggest maske sure you like that band........ Do you know anyone with a glass eye? nope. Not that I am aware of.. How much are you willing to pay for a pair of sunglasses? depends. [SIX] Did you have a GI Joe when you were a kid? nah What is the origin of your last name? typical british name. apparrently it comes from bone breaker.... Do you ever use the n-word? no What piercing do you like most on the opposite sex? i dont like any What brand of hair dye do you prefer to use? i dont use any. I always get my hair done professional tbh What county do you live in? Canada Did/do you ride the bus to and from school? I did for middle school (6-8) Do you prefer beef, chicken or steak? Beef or chicken What is your salad dressing of choice? Italian or Caesar [SEVEN] Do you know anyone who’s a really funny type of weird? yes my friends hahaha Do you make faces at certain people? - to my friends Is there something you won’t let one of your friends live down? when my friend grabbed someones leg when she thought it was me...lol Are you any good at applying make up? i think i am. Not the best though, but it looks good uusally. Do you know anyone whose hair looks like a wig? Nope. Do you misuse commas? I used to use them way tooooo much

Have you ever bitten your dentist? No omfg. I dont think so.. Are you someone who likes to make simple things difficult? lol sometimes if i get confused..

Who makes you laugh the most? My bf

#survey

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surveysonfleek · 6 years

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904.

Does your mum try to be cool? lol no.

Do you eat a lot of meat? i eat it almost daily.

What are you listening to? i’m half watching tv while doing this.

What time is it? 3:57am.

What room of the house are you in? my bedroom.

What season is it? it’s autumn here.

What are the other people in your house doing? everyone’s sleeping.

What should you really being doing right now? probably sleeping.

What school did you go to for elementary school? rather not say.

What was the first book you ever read? i forgot honestly.

What were you doing before you took this survey? more surveys.

What time did you wake up this morning? around 11am.

What things did you eat today? sushi and steak.

What are you looking forward to? my days off!

What do you plan on wearing tomorrow? something comfortable.

What day is it tomorrow? friday.

Do you think you gained or lost weight this past month? probably the same, my friend told me i had lost weight but highly doubtful.

What colour is your tissue box? yellow.

Do you have a ceiling fan in your room? and if so is there dust on it? nope.

What was the last movie you watched at home? all eyez on me.

Who introduced you to your significant other? technically john.

Who do you want to injure? no one.

Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear? haha no :( i’ve made one for people though!

What’s something fun you did today? enjoyed my day off.

What kind of milk do you drink? i don’t drink milk.

Who was the last person you went shopping with? my friends.

What is something you need to go shopping for? a dress for an upcoming wedding i’m going to.

Is someone in love with you? yes.

Does someone like you right now? yes.

How many hours did you sleep for last night? it was a really broken sleep but around 8.

Do you swear at your parents? never.

Have you ever been searched by the cops? no.

When’s the last time you’ve been sledding? forever ago.

Do you know how to play poker? yes.

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? no.

Have you ever been ice skating? yes.

What’s the one thing on your mind now? work tomorrow :(

Do you believe in love at first sight? nope.

Do you always wear your seat belt? yes.

Do you like sushi? i looooove sushi.

Have you ever narrowly avoided a fatal accident? no.

Been caught stealing? no.

Do you truly hate anyone? no.

Have you ever sang in front of the mirror? yes.

What food do you find disgusting? olives.

Do you sing in the shower? nope.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? no.

Have you ever been punched in the face? no.

Have you ever been called beautiful? yes.

Who was the last person you talked to in person? my boyfriend.

Do older members of the opposite sex ever hit on you? no.

What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? eh i can think of a few things.

Do any medical problems run in your family? yeah unfortunately.

Do you have any big assignments coming up? no.

Do you plan on moving soon? If so, to where? nope.

Do you drink the 6-8 cups of water a day? just under tbh.

Then how much water do you have a day? around four definitely.

How many sodas a week do you have? maybe one or two.

Do you say things are hardcore? haha no.

What’s bothering you? work.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? yes.

What do you hear? the tv.

Do you like country music? nope.

Have you ever gone to court? nope.

What does your last outgoing text say? goodnight i love you.

The upcoming weekend, have you got plans? yes.

What was the last thing someone said to you in person? they were saying goodbye to me.

Could you date someone taller than you? yes.

When was the last time something bothered you? today.

What is your current mood? tired.

How old is the person you’re currently interested in? 26.

How far out of your age bracket would you date? no more than like 3 years older i think.

Do you like mac n cheese? nope.

Are you satisfied with your current camera? yes.

If you get a text message now, who is it most likely to be from? my boyfriend.

Is there someone of the opposite sex on your mind at the moment? no.

Have you ever been in a choir? no.

Does it bother you to have dirt on the bottom of your bare feet? omg yes. i hardly ever walk anywhere barefoot.

Do you get nervous when a doctor of the opposite sex touches you? not really. i trust my doctors.

Has anyone ever told you that you have a big butt? no.

Do you live alone? no.

Do you have any bruises? not yet haha.

Ever thought of adoption? no. i havent really thought about children seriously. not ready yet.

Do you currently need the toilet now? nope.

Have you thought of ‘dirty’ thoughts today? yes.

Do you have a shower stall or a bath tub? both.

Is there anything you should be worried about? nah.

You’re up after 3 am, what’s the reason? i’m normally up at that time. i usually get home from work at 3am.

Are you in a relationship with anyone? yes.

Have you ever liked someone just because they were good looking? yes.

Have you ever spent a night in the hospital? no.

Would you call yourself/your family “middle class?” yes.

Have you ever met someone through the internet, then met them in real life? yeah but they were a mutual friend.

Who was your first crush? aladdin!

Do you often skip breakfast? often.

What are you wearing on your feet? nothing.

Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents)? my boyfriend.

Are you a forgiving person? for the most part.

#survey #surveys #quiz #bored #questions

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314thagoras · 4 years

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Medication Journal Entry #1

i’m posting and starting this journal more for myself to vent and for self-educational purposes more so than for anyone to read but ay if you feel like reading a journal entry about where i’m at with my medication for some reason have a read i guess? lol

starting to become convinced a seroquel + alprazolam prescription combination would be the “missing link” that me and my doctors have been searching for. my current doctor, and my past doctors have all consulted with me and have informed me that while a benzodiazepene script may help me with a lot of symptoms, there’s the root of the symptoms benzos may not treat that another medication would finally treat whatever disorder it is that I have that causes all of these fuckshit symptoms i have to deal with. After having been mindful of this idea for a few years, and having been prescribed other medications along with my typical benzo script since I got my first clonazepam prescription, I’m pretty certain they’re correct in this fact. (none of my doctors have been able to pinpoint exactly what disorder(s) i’m suffering from, which becomes incredibly frustrating at times leaving me to speculate which, for whatever reason, tends to piss people off when they think im self diagnosing when all i’m doing is making educated guesses and trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. wouldn’t you want to know wtf is wrong with you when it puts u through so much bullshit? anyway, i was only on a low dose prescription of seroquel for about a month and I didn’t give it more than a couple of weeks. I admittedly abused the script for a week or two and then pretty much just got bored and just wasn’t interested in continuing using it. ive experimented with it here and there and my attitude has changed a lot since then. nowadays im legitimately looking for the right dose of medications that can have me at a functioning level while lowering or eliminating the urge to abuse or self medicate improperly. I’ve tried different doses of seroquel here and there and it does seem to tackle some problems fairly well. I’m just a little worried about being on an antipsychotic and benzo combination in the long term. being on benzodiazepenes for more than a couple of years at this point is disconcerting by itself. there’s just too many long term side effects and problems these drugs can cause and going cold turkey off of them is an absolute hell i wouldn’t wish on anyone, which is why as much as i know I need to increase my dose from a low 0.5, i haven’t after three and a half years. I went from the starting dose of 0.25 to 0.5 and kind of just refused to ask even though at times i wanted to really bad. this is just one reason why i requested and have been moved off of kpins and onto xanax. i was actually requesting xanax or valium, valium being the preference but my doctor said i’d be better off with xanax in the long term and i didn’t really question it. the idea of a xanax script in my own name and being able to hold xanax legally had me kind of excited ngl lol.

another concern is the level of sedation these two medications will have me at. i don’t know. I’m thinking either this or zoloft. I’ve had more than a few people vouch for zoloft and these are people that know how shitty SSRI and SNRIs typically are at times.

maybe in a month or two i will ask to bump myself on up to 3 x 1mg.

I’m currently on month two of amitriptyline and so far i’m actually having no problems with being on an antidepressant. I suffer from chronic headaches and migraines and amitriptyline is actually both an antidepressant and nerve pain medication that can treat both headaches and migraines and for me it has been the best migraine medication i’ve ever been on. most people don’t realize it but too much serotonin is actually not a fun time. it can increase anxiety and cause tension in the body amongst other things. being crazy sensitive to medications that modulate serotonin in any way means SSRI and SNRIs nine times out of ten leave me with even more headaches. which, fuck that. fuck that, fuck that.

my GPs are always completely apathetic towards the idea of prescribing me fucking anything and i’ve asked my current GP like four times for something for these headaches and i always get the same line of bullshit about trying OTCs as if i havent done so for years and people who suffer from chronic pain will tell you, OTCs a lot of times won’t do fuck all. its one reason why i have such an affinity for benzodiazepenes. klonpin is amazing when it comes to treating migraines or headaches and amitriptyline has been another great find for treating them.

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