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dramaphan · 5 years

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It’s late, but here is: a live reaction to Phil’s second live show

-“I hope you’ve been fed and watered” no Phil we haven’t you don’t make content anymore

-Philip were you about to make a joke about your chocolate bar containing children

-I’m really not sure how to feel about the half black half brown hair thing but like we’ll see

-Stop whispering at me. Christ.

-I can’t believe you missed out on an opportunity to call that person y’arr-eth. Like a pirate.

-“sorry if I decline your message, I’m-“ blah blah excuse we know you’re denying the gaming channel ones

-“oh it looks like I died” and other instances of Phil not testing shit before he goes live

-it’s craw-sant you buffoon

-Gideon. I think I’ve only ever seen that name written down because I thought it was pronounced the same as pigeon

-plot twist: you actually were meant to take the cake but everyone thought it was art and whoever brought the cake went home sad.

-I am 9 minutes into this show and I’ve seen 4 ads already can you please give me my ass back

-oh my god they’ve got shrimp what nerds

-Phil why do you pretend that normancam is live you fool nobody

-he’s gone full fucking aquarium expert he was gonna have a whole other separate tank just for his dinky shrimp what a ridiculous fucking man I love him

-“Snails are super horny” I hate him

-all these fuckin segments. The editing. The production value. How much is younow paying his ass

-Phil I’m sorry but you would make a terrible news anchor get to the pOINT

-why the hell did this story make the news

-Angry Mums™️ sounds like a tv show I’d be into I love pain

-16 minutes in. Literally only a third of the way through, and I’ve now seen 6 ads. Can Phil fucking chill out for one second you’re already rich

-is it not a normal thing to just chill at a friends house while they’re in the shower?

-honestly real talk don’t ever be embarrassed by your parents doing weird shit in front of your crush because if y’all actually get serious that’s gonna be their in-laws and they’re gonna have to live with it so get them adjusted now.

-grad gown with a furry lining. My brain automatically went “ah yes, graduating from pimp school”

-amari really hit the nail on the head with this one. I can never think of embarrassing stories because they’re all buried deep down in the darkest parts of my psyche.

-look at Norman’s little butt wiggles I die

-Do Dan and Phil pass out candy to trick or treaters on Halloween and if not can I kick their ass

-who tf is having pride in October

-Granny Phannies. Who are you and how do I delete your group chat

-Martyn used to have red hair and get chased by geese. Not sure how those things are related but thank you for sharing

-geese aren’t even the weirdest pets I once knew someone who had a porcupine as a house pet.

-yes Phil geese can fly. The Canada variety does it every year. It’s a big deal.

-my seventh ad just appeared. I’m going to commit a crime

-“the gayest mouse ever” alright

-“a gay mouse for a gay rat” followed by the most absolutely unamused thank you I’ve ever heard in my life

-public spice latte

-holy shit I also had a hamster called mouse does this mean me and Phil are friends

-whichever room the streaming setup is in, is a mess. I will avoid any theories as to why that might be.

-at least Phil had a few different clips for this Norman cam instead of trying to fool us into thinking the same clip on loop was live

-Phil those are seagulls in what world do those look like geese

-“I love the apprentice, not the Donald trump one” wow Phil you’re getting awfully political

-the poopoo chat 69. Some of y’all don’t deserve group chats

-Phil has an occasional drag queen friend and in other news I now know what my dream amazingphil video would be

-maybe Red Squirrel can be your drag name

-“shall I just upload a 24 hour video of Norman’s tank” yes. The only correct answer to that is yes

-“those boob women” Phil where’s your respect

-“eye boobs”

-we’re back on embarrassing parents and I’ve had a flashback to every single time my mother had to interact with a customer service person. Literal worst nightmare.

-oh my god now I’m having flashbacks to my mother listening in on every single phone call I ever had and then confronting me about the stuff I talked about with my friends. Having a mother was a mistake.

-Phil, maybe your mum didn’t ruin your movie date with that girl but I’m sure there was a much more pressing reason it didn’t work out

-and it ended. Just like that.

Final thoughts: I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to sit through these live shows every week but gosh darn it I’ll try.

#phan #amazingphil #dan and phil #lessamazingphil #phil lester

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wellesleyunderground · 6 years

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Wellesley Writes It: Jane Ridgeway ‘09 (@janeridgeway), Fiction Writer and Teacher

Photo by Jane Ridgeway.

Jane Ridgeway is a fiction writer born and raised in Seattle, now living in the San Francisco Bay Area. She is the current Writer in Residence at the Kerouac Project of Orlando, Florida, living and writing in the house in which Jack Kerouac wrote The Dharma Bums. Her work appears in the Cover Stories anthology from Volt Books. She has an MFA in fiction from the University of Oregon, and has taught creative writing and literature at the U of O, as well as at prep schools in California and Hawai’i. Interview by Camille Bond ‘17, Wellesley Writes It series editor.

WU: Welcome, Jane, and thanks so much for chatting with the Wellesley Underground! One of your short stories was recently published in an anthology, Cover Stories. What is the story about?

So, as the title suggests, Cover Stories’ mission was to anthologize “cover” versions of other short stories—so you take a canonical (or not-so-canonical) story that you passionately love or hate, and you riff off of it, explore some particular facet of it, or write very literary fan fiction of it, essentially. It’s an exploration of that weird and glorious phenomenon in which, over the decades, a song can be transformed through the different covers of it that are performed by artists with radically different sensibilities.

My story, “Peredelkino,” is a take on Isaac Babel’s “My First Goose,” a personal favorite and a story that definitely haunts me. Babel’s narrator, Liutov, is this gentle, nervous Jewish intellectual who finds himself embedded with the incredibly violent Cossacks and has to find a way to integrate himself to survive—and because he finds himself both drawn to the sort of sexy, robust glamour of the soldiers and terrified of their brutality. My piece updates some of the same conflicts that Liutov experienced to the era of the Soviet purges of intellectuals carried out by the KGB (which took the lives of many artists, including Babel himself).

WU: As a fiction writer, are there specific themes or issues that you feel drawn to? How do you discuss these themes/issues in your writing?

Grief, loss, sex, queerness, mortality, the sturm und drang of being a teenage girl, the way the past keeps popping its head back up throughout a life/a century/a place’s history. People who try really hard to be good but aren’t very successful at it. For some reason, religion, which is certainly not because I want to espouse any particular set of beliefs through my writing, or even something I focus on deliberately—I just can’t seem to get away from it, even if I try to. I’m really interested in the stories we tell ourselves about the afterlife, and how that shapes the way we live.

WU: As an emerging fiction writer, you’ve been accepted as one of four annual residents at the Kerouac Project in Florida. Congratulations! Kerouac residents spend a season living in Kerouac Project housing and working on creative projects. What are you working on during your residency?

I’m now one month into the Kerouac and have been using my time to generate new short story material! When I accepted the Kerouac I self-imposed some pressure to come here and bang out an entire novel draft, which isn’t what’s happened so far. The Kerouac is gloriously unconstrained: I’ve been given time to work on any project I choose, so I’m taking advantage of that freedom to play a little, write outside of my usual range, and create things that aren’t geared toward any particular publication, workshop, etc.

WU: How do you hope to develop as a writer during your time at the Kerouac Project?

I’ve been greatly enjoying finding my rhythm and discovering a creative schedule that works for me outside the constraints of my usual day job and responsibilities. It’s also been an exercise in overcoming self-doubt, because when I first arrived I was walloped by a wave of uncertainty and impostor syndrome. Through some combination of “faking it till I make it” and adopting some of the swaggering ego of the Beat generation that permeates the Kerouac House, I’ve found a way through it. (Kerouac himself said, “You’re a genius all the time!” which feels awfully audacious, but I think we could all stand to borrow a little of the audacity of a man who wrote his unedited first drafts on a single continuous scroll of paper.)

WU: You previously worked as a staff writer at the Los Altos Town Crier newspaper. How, if at all, has your journalism career informed your creative writing?

Working at the paper was one of the happiest phases of my working life! I loved having an immediate and local audience of subscribers with a clear stake in the stories I was covering, rather than a hazy sense that someone might read my fiction years in the future after I’d painstakingly revised for months, spent a year or so waiting to hear back from lit mags, then many more months before publication. I also love the precise, straight-to-the-point journalistic style. (Readers of this interview may notice that my natural tendency leans to the verbose!) Having experienced journalists and a brilliant copy editor to learn from helped me write crisper prose. Coming out of an MFA writing literary fiction, I think I also took the (unproductive) attitude that all of my stories were delicate, precious creations that I couldn’t possibly let out of my hands until they were perfect. Working at a publication that publishes weekly taught me to work with a much tighter turnaround time, much more efficiently, with less unnecessary psychodrama. There’s a deadline—just get it done!

WU: You’re currently teaching in a prep school environment, and have also taught Creative Writing at the University of Oregon, where you studied for your MFA. How, if at all, has teaching the subject changed your perspective on the act of creative writing? How has it informed your development as a writer?

I wholeheartedly love teaching, even though I can’t exactly recommend it to aspiring writers on the grounds of short hours or great work-life balance! Teaching literature means I get to spend my days hanging out with some of my favorite stories, novels, and poems, and really thinking about how to break them down for a young audience. It’s great to admire literature, but it’s even more useful to know how it ticks! On a more woo-woo level, teaching has helped me as a writer because it’s balanced out some of my edges and helped me grow into a softer, more vulnerable, caring, and patient human. Which is hard as hell, and not something I’m sure I would ever have gotten good at otherwise, because that’s not my natural inclination! I’ve always tended to be a seething ball of snark and sarcasm, and, untempered, that’s no way to go through life! The writers I admire most are all able to observe how much humankind can suck without losing their love and compassion for what a desperate, scrappy lot we all are. Teaching gives you great respect for people (young or otherwise) who are trying their hardest. Being a person is hard! We shouldn’t dismiss how hard it is, even when people disappoint us.

WU: Can you tell us a bit about your background in theater, and how this background has informed your literary career?

Some useful lessons of a theater-kid background for writers:

Better to commit to a choice than to be boring

Say “yes, and”

Don’t write any dialogue so stilted your actors would be embarrassed to say it

Read everything out loud after you’ve written it

I actually first started writing seriously after a playwriting class in my senior year of high school resulted in a festival production of my short play. Watching the actors and director in rehearsal, hearing my words, realizing how I could make the work better, was one of the most electrifying experiences I’d ever had as a young person.

WU: Are there any teachers and/or students who have been particularly influential to you?

A long and glorious lineage, starting from my absolute miracle of a second-grade teacher who made me fall in love with Greek myths, to my brilliant high school English teachers who were tremendously overqualified to be teaching me grammar and who told me I could be a writer, to Prof. Erian at Wellesley who actually taught me how to edit, to the teachers who caught me as a proper adult and really kicked my butt into writing things that an audience other than myself might care about. Also, Ehud Havazelet, the stern fiction father figure who permanently broke me of the ability to use the word “impactful” or read it without a tinge of disgust.

Hillger → Culhane → Doelger → Aegerter → Erian → Kiesbye → Brown, Bradley, Havazelet

WU: You have described your thankfulness to belong to a network of writers and thinkers. How can Wellesley students and alumnx build similar networks around themselves?

I love knowing writers and artists and readers all over the country. A lot of my writer acquaintances come not from my grad program but from an eclectic network of youngsters who were all applying to grad school at the same time as me, and joined forces to share information behind the scenes on how well-funded programs were (among other things.) I’ve always found networking in the traditional sense grotesque and repellent, but I think there’s a lot to be said for finding other people who care about the things you care about, befriending them with no regard for whether they’re currently (or ever likely to be) in a position to help you, and generously sharing information that might be helpful. Do your best to root for other people’s success even though sometimes you’re going to feel bitter and jealous because you’re a human and, like all of us, you kind of suck sometimes. Also, don’t be a dickbag. We all know who the dickbags in a given community are.

WU: What is your approach to self-care?

I take a very pragmatic approach to self-care that wouldn’t play well in a glossy magazine! To me, self-care is about doing the things that will make my life better, like doing the dishes I don’t want to do, taking out the trash, and clearing my inbox, more so than ‘treating myself’, you know? This summer, this has included writing lots of snail mail, going running even when I don’t want to, and long, slow, inefficient cooking projects.

#wellesleywritesit #wellesleyunderground #wellesleycollege #@wellesleyalumnx

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dxmedstudent · 7 years

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Hi dxmedstudent ... I adore 😍 your blog. You're so helpful with the info and stories you share. Makes me look forward to life as a doc. Im hoping you could help me. Im a 5th year med student, my final year is equivalent to FY1. I want to apply to FY2 when I come back to bg (study in europe). Can you please give me any tips on how to improve my chance, what clinical skills are expected? I heard about LAS/LAT positions. Anything you can tell me would be appreciated :) ... thank you so so much x

Hello! and Thank you! I try my best :) Congratulations on getting this far, I think everyone nearing the end of med school deserves a pat on the back for making it this far.

In terms of the technicalities of what you may need to do, the GMC has lots of helpful advice for international graduates. Including guidance about acceptable overseas qualifications. Their website is particularly useful. I actually don’t think you’d have a huge problem getting in. You might be expected to do the SJT exam, look it up and see if international grads are expected to do it (there are books to help you prepare, if you do), but otherwise I imagine your applications might be based on a points-based system like FPAS or core/speciality applications. Basically, any prizes you’ve won, any publications or poster presentations are good, though not strictly necessary. Previous degrees are useful. Extracurricular achievements can also add flair. Many people don’t have much in this department, and lots of people still get in. You might be lucky and get something in the next few months, but there’s not really much you can do to drastically change your odds in a short space of time. So I don’t think it’s worth worrying too much about revolutionising your application. Just do your best. In terms of the technicalities, the 15 core clinical skills expected of FY1s are:

Venepuncture

IV cannulation

Prepare and administer IV medications and injections

Arterial puncture in an adult

Blood culture from peripheral sites

Intravenous infusion including the prescription of fluids

Intravenous infusion of blood and blood products

Injection of local anaesthetic to skin

Injection – subcutaneous (eg insulin or LMW heparin)

Injection – intramuscular

Perform and interpret an ECG

Perform and interpret peak flow

Urethral catheterisation (male)

Urethral catheterisation (female)

Airway care including simple adjuncts (eg Guedel airway or laryngeal masks).

I didn’t remember them off by heart, I’ve lifted them from the GMC website, in case you thought this was a new level of nerdery. These are practical things we are expected to get signed off under supervision,during the course of FY1, in order to gain full registration with the GMC. Although that’s not the only thing we’re expected to do, the curriculum is on the GMC website in the section on foundation training. On top of that, we’re expected to be able to take a history, complete an examination, and start treatment. I’d recommend getting pretty comfortable with the above things, because as an FY2 you’d be expected to be able to do them. Coincidentally, it’s where I’ve seen straight-to-FY2 international docs really struggle, because they had relatively little patient contact during their med school years, and didn’t really feel comfortable with this aspect. FY1 is partly about gaining competency in these skills, altough we do some of them a lot more than others. It doesn’t mean you have to be perfect, or ‘get it’ each time, there will still be times when we struggle. But practice is so important; the more we practice in med school, the better we will be when we hit the wards as doctors. I find it really interesting that many of the 6 year universities in Europe technically qualify you to become a baby SHO in the UK straight off, with all the responsibilities and expectations of someone who’s already been doctoring for a year. It makes sense in terms of the number of years we’ve studied, but not in terms of most people’s experience? I don’t think that another year in med school is necessarily comparable to a year as a doctor; not in terms of theoretical knowledge (I’m sure many European graduates might kick a UK FY1′s butt in terms of theoretical knowledge), but in terms of practical experience. For the reason that a lot of the schools in Europe (generalising based on the students I’ve talked to, sorry!) often focus more heavily on theory over practice, compared to UK med schools. UK med schools have increasingly moved away from bogging us down with technical detail or anatomy, to getting you practically ready to hit the wards as an FY1. We spend year 3, 4, and 5 basically mostly on the wards seeing patients, with year 5 basically being shadowing FY1 doctors. There’s always an added challenge facing graduates is that each medical school system prepares you best for the system in that country, but not necessarily for another country. What’s expected of new docs in each country can be a little different; for example, in the UK there’s a heavy emphasis on practical procedures like the ones above; in many countries a doctor wouldn’t even be expected to do most of these! But in the UK a junior doctor is often expected to. I was adequately prepared to be an FY1 here when I graduated, but I’m sure if I moved over to the US for intern year I would have struggled, because the expectations there are a bit different. I’m particularly in awe of people who choose to go abroad to start working, because it adds an extra layer of scary and difficult (though, let’s be honest, it’s always going to be scary, and regardless of that, you’ll get through OK). An FY2 year is a training year, in which you’d be treated exactly the same as ‘homegrown’ FY2s, and would prepare you for the next step (core or speciality training), so I’d advise on picking an FY2 job over a locum or trust grade job, if you can. I wouldn’t personally advise starting your career on a locum or non-training job, any more than I’d advise taking a locum position in a speciality you haven’t yet worked in. Because locums are paid more, people basically expect you to already be competent, not need much direction, and get on with things; there’s no emphasis on teaching you. These jobs are usually picked up by people who’ve worked in that speciality but want to take a little time out of training. That’s because those kinds of job usually entail less support and teaching than training jobs. You’d also be expected to navigate appraisal by yourself. I’ve met people who’ve done it, so it can be done if you have to, but it always seems like an unnecessarily stressful choice. They advised me against trust grade jobs because of the lack of support, so I’m passing on that tip. Especially if you’re new to the NHS, I’d recommend going for the most supported job you can find.

When I’ve talked to Brits graduating in Europe who want to come back to the UK to work, they’ve often been quite keen to apply for an FY1 to start with, rather than going in at FY2 like they could. Which, once I thought about it, seemed quite sensible. Firstly, there are much fewer unpaired solitary FY2 placements available; you’ll probably be stuck applying to places where an FY1 has dropped out of training. Whereas there are lots of FY1 jobs by comparison. So you might get more choice in terms of where you can apply. FY1 jobs also tend to be a bit more protected; they expect new docs to need more supervision. FY1 jobs in high-pressure specialities like paeds or obs and gynae tend to be supernumerary (no on-calls, and always with SHO supervision), and in many hospitals FY1s don’t work nights, or do less clerking, and usually have SHOs to ask for support. Whereas FY2 can see you seeing sick patients in A&E, paeds, gynae, GP or psych and you may be the only SHO around, with only a stretched registrar for advice. On top of that, you might have FY1s coming to you for advice! You might not have any of those specialities in your FY2 placement, but I personally feel they are stressful enough as an FY2 when you have experience; I certainly wouldn’t have volunteered myself to do them straight out of med school, no matter if I had one more year of theory under my belt. In general, FY2 jobs tend to be more isolated; you’re often either working a busy rota or else on a more specialised placement where you may be the only FY or SHO doctor, so there’s generally less support or community. Fy1s tend to be more social and there’s a cameraderie amongst FY1s bonding over the terror of hitting the wards for the first time that you just don’t get at any other time. FY1 jobs tend to either have another FY1 on your ward, or an SHO who can support you. More importantly, if you start as an FY1, you’ll be treated on par with everyone else who is a new doctor; people might not know that you’re actually a new doc, because they’ll expect someone who’s already got a year of experience. Most people are nice, but people can be impatient if they don’t understand the level you are working at, so if you go for the FY2 route, you should be honest that you’re only just starting out as a doc, despite your grade. Make sure people know what you feel comfortable doing, and don’t let people pressure you into doing something you don’t feel competent to do. The main drawbacks are that your first year will be paid less as an FY1 than FY2, though I believe that’s probably less pronounced now on the new contract. And of course, it would mean one more year of training. But that can sometimes be a good thing; you actually apply for core or specality training a few months into FY2, which would be really soon if you only just started working as a doctor a few months ago! The best thing about FY1 and FY2 for me were doing lots of rotations in different specialities, so that I could get a better idea of which ones I liked, and I think a lot of people would benefit from having that opportunity before picking for good. Though I can understand the draw in skipping a year and going for FY2, particularly when it’s better paid. I’m sure that starting straight as an FY2 might be the best option for some people, and since there are a lot of different med schools out there, perhaps some people from across the continent feel adequately prepared to follow that path. So I’m not about to judge anyone who decides this is the best option for them, given that they are technically entitled to make that choice. (albeit, allowed by a system that cares relatively little for our welfare or training) But having talked to people who’ve studied in a few places, if it were me, unless my med school had quite a big emphasis on seeing patients and doing simple procedures, I’d still start at FY1 if I had the choice. LAS and LAT jobs are basically similar to trust grade jobs or clinical fellowships, which can sometimes be used to count towards your training time, however they are basically long-term locum jobs in a department where there is a vacancy because they haven’t managed to get a training doctor to fill the gap. Many departments offer non-training jobs (trust grade SHO jobs), LAT or LAS jobs tend to be fewer, because departments probably prefer to get by with less responsibility for their employees. Training people is more difficult and requires more supervision, after all. Always remember that hospitals are employers: whilst they are not out to get you, they also aren’t there to do you any more favours than they have to. So look out for yourself and your wellbeing, and think hard about whether any jobs you apply to are suited for you. Hospitals just want someone to fill their job vacancies and get on with service provision. Look after yourself, and make the choice that you feel would be best for you, because the system isn’t set up to put us first. So you have to do that. Whatever and wherever you choose, do it because you feel it’s right for you, not because the opportunity exists; not every job and not every opportunity we have in medicine is in our favour. For example, some FY1 or FY2 jobs have 2 relatively low stress jobs and 1 high stress job. Whereas some offer jobs that have 3 stressful jobs in a row with a high number of on-calls. The fact that the burnout rates for those placements are higher doesn’t seem to matter to the deaneries that keep offering those rotations. So my ranking, in terms of how protected/supported jobs are is FY1 > FY2 > LAS/LAT > Trust grade or clinical fellow > Locum. If you don’t want to do an FY1 year, then starting from FY2 is more supported than going fora LAS/LAT which is mroe supported than trust grade or short term locums. My advice would be, if you have an opportunity for work experience or electives, try to do an elective in the UK to get a feel for what it’s like, and how ready you feel you’d be. Even if it’s just a few weeks over the summer, it might be worth it if it could put you mind at ease. No matter what you choose, I hope it makes you happy, and good luck for the coming years. I look forward to you joining the team :)

#askdx #ask dx #ukmedschoolfaq #tips for new docs #tips for new fy1s

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buoyantsaturn · 7 years

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Voltron AU?

ok so im actually in the middle of planning a SUPER big fic for a voltron au so these headcanons are gonna be less like a story like a lot of the others have been and be more like some of the planning that i did in prep for the fic??? i hope u don’t mind

this also turned out super long so i hope you don’t mind that i put it under a cut

so first of all i had a super hard time deciding between Green Paladin!Annabeth and Yellow Paladin!Leo or Yellow Paladin!Frank and Green Paladin!Leo but i ended up with leo and frank instead of leo and annabeth which i still don’t know if i agree but here’s the planning/headcanons anyway

Background info:

The Garrison is college-like with grads and undergrads since it never actually clarifies what kind of school it is

fricken?? Hera instead of Haggar??? Zeus instead of Zarkon???? it writes itself

So jason’s like a brother to nico and nico has/had a crush on percy. percy frank and leo were all bros and nico was kinda there too sometimes but when he dropped out they tried to look for him sometimes but gave up. when leo and frank were seniors is when jason came back

Nico

the Red Paladin aka the emo aka keith

disappeared bc basically the same day that he was told that jason was dead he found out that bianca died too and it was kind of just too much and he ran away without thinking of the consequences

Jason

the Black Paladin aka tired aka shiro

basically a graduate student who was offered a position on the kerberos mission with leo’s mom. has hella memory problems when he gets back to earth like pretty much remembers that the garrison exists but none of the people inside

Percy

the Blue Paladin aka he didnt ask for this aka lance

also a graduate student and was offered the same position on the kerberos mission as jason but he waited too long to get back to the garrison (he wanted to talk to annabeth first before he made such a big decision) and he was super bitter at jason for getting the spot instead of him

Frank

the Yellow Paladin aka the cinnamon roll aka hunk

he didnt really want to go to the garrison but his mom had been an engineer there and her life insurance money covered like half of tuition and they offered him scholarships that covered the other half and his grandma said “you have to” so he kinda had to

Leo

the Green Paladin aka lowkey depressed aka pidge

goes to the garrison completely on scholarship bc his mom worked there but as soon as she goes mission on the kerberos mission and the garrison stops trying to look for her they come to leo and basically tell him “your scholarship’s up if you don’t start paying for classes we’re kicking you out” so he starts working his butt off to try to get some academic scholarships bc wihtout the garrison and his mom he’s homeless

Piper

essentially Princess Allura

she’s like 300 years old bc i like the idea of alteans having ridiculous ages like that

during the war against the galra empire sometimes she would just kinda,,,, sneak into the fights but as soon as someone found her there they’d send her right back to teh castle and her father trapped her in a healing pod for her own good ok she was going to get seriously hurt if she kept sneaking onto the battle field sky space void

Will

essentially Coran but kinda not?? like not the weird space uncle more like attractive alien young man who’s slightly less in charge than piper

medically trained and served as a battle field medic during the war but the king soon enlisted him on keeping piper safe bc someone had to keep an eye on her honestly

also just to throw some of that solangelo in there (since thats the point of this right) when will and piper get out of the cryopods jason catches piper like completely effortlessly so nicos like “ok i can do that too” but will literally just takes him out ok and will just kind of lays on top of him while he’s waking up and they just stare at each other for a little while tbh it’s pretty gay

thanks for the suggestion hopefully i’ll be able to actually post the actual fic soon so you get more than just boring planning and things!!!

drop an au in my ask and get a list of headcanons!

#solangelo #voltron au #ask #anonymous #wow this is so long dang

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cosmosogler · 7 years

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went to the doctor today for my surgery follow-up. i am healing normally.

tired... depressed. not sure what’s up with eve. she is walking around normally and even ran around the backyard today. but she seems like she’s getting cold really easy. it might just be the shaved butt. i put a towel over her and she seemed to feel better.

i’ve got a lot to do tomorrow. we’re not leaving until mom gets home from work on friday but i’d like to have most of my affairs in order before that.

i don’t really want to talk about anything tonight. i was thinking about the dreams i had... but i startled awake this morning and they were gone.

jamey and her kids came over again this afternoon. that always wipes me out. physically and emotionally. i’m glad natalie also likes portal 2. we have a lot in common. she’s not big on, like, analysis and stuff, but it’s nice to just gush about how great something is sometimes.

i spent a lot of time today packing. mom thinks i am overestimating how much space i’ll have in the apartment. i probably am. but also, i’ve only packed things that were in my room mostly. except, like, towels. maybe i can spread my stuff out across the apartment. maybe that will make it feel like i can pick up any of these pastimes anytime i want.

mom was all, “you’d better not be reading during grad school, or playing pokemon. you won’t have time. and you never even read any of these books while you were home doing NOTHING.”

i quickly (and perhaps clumsily) changed the subject because my first instinct was to flip her off. that “nothing” is like a hammer to the side of the head. it makes my entire body turn into one jerky clench.

she said “i meant nothing as in like no classes or job” but i knew she meant nothing as in “nothing important.” i don’t think she understands how hard it is to function when you can get about a single meal’s worth of food in over the course of two or three meals a day. for seven months straight.

or maybe i’m lazy. it’s a possibility.

my head says “kill yourself, kill yourself” but it’s hard to explain why i feel that way. like, what the train of thought that leads there is. it’s mostly just vague unease and feeling REALLY SUPER sick and then “i wish i was dead” comes to visit.

i get that sick, sinking feeling every time i think about physics. every time i think about books. or pokemon. or this car trip coming up. or physics. or sometimes eve. or my siblings. or eating food.

maybe... it’s because i haven’t been sleeping. dad ate a huge chunk out of my extra-sleep buffer last night when he decided to start cooking. but i guess it’s ok because it wouldn’t have been ok if i did it. i don’t care about anyone but myself and all that.

it’s my choice to sleep on the couch. that makes it my fault when everyone wakes me up all the time. dad goes to bed at 3 in the morning, mom gets up at 5:30. i can’t ask them to leave the lights off, or maybe be quieter, or have their conversations upstairs, because that would be unreasonable. i live with other people now! i have to accommodate them or else i’m selfish and don’t care about anyone but myself.

that happened in the common room at villanova a lot too. my roommate wouldn’t ever let me sleep and i had insomnia when she was quiet. her alarm would go off five times in the morning. i still hate that song more than anything.

but it’s my choice to pass out from exhaustion in the physics lounge so when everyone feels like being loud i can’t get irritable! even though it’s fine and easy to be quiet when someone ELSE is napping. because they Get It. so it would just be redundant to be loud i guess. there’s no Lesson they have to learn about Living With Other People.

sleep deprivation is weird. it’s like, “kill yourself” isn’t coming from my voice in my head. but it also is because it follows... well, not naturally, but abruptly from my own train of thought.

i wish eve was confident enough to try the stairs. i set towels out on my bed and everything. i don’t want to sleep without her. ha. she slept in dad’s room last night anyway after she checked on me at like 11:30.

i’m having lunch with gramma tomorrow. i was gonna shop for a birthday present for my sister but when i talked about it with her at dinner she wasn’t interested in getting anything. she said her birthday presents were all expensive concert tickets and k-pop cds.

i guess i did have things to talk about.

my brother and i are... very different people. i guess his idea of bonding is to “troll” me during conversations. i feel like he’s treating me like i’m stupid and it grinds my gears and then i have to leave the conversation and he gets all smug like he “won.” but i’m not very competitive.

i feel like we can’t be close if he’s going to treat me that way. like i’m always unreasonable no matter what or something. dad had been scolding him over something. my brother likes to leave an empty milk carton out on the counter when we’re out of milk to let everyone know to pick it up next time they hit the grocery store. he’s been doing that for years. i picked up on it right away when i moved back home.

but dad was like... “that doesn’t mean anything. that has NEVER meant anything.” when he was complaining to my brother about us being out of milk. then he left for work.

i turned to my brother and told him that it had been an easy way to get it across to the whole household without having the same dang conversation four times. it was effective communication and dad was choosing to be deliberately obtuse. then my brother started, like, telling me i was stupid for using “communication” incorrectly. that’s what started the whole thing. i don’t remember everywhere the conversation went. something about him seeking validation from others except when i bring up what he’s said before and then it’s all about depending on yourself and no one else. that’s when i figured out he was trying to rile me up. and for what? what reason did he have for that? i had been agreeing with him and he started arguing with me.

i feel dumb. i feel too dumb to live. and selfish. and ignorant and self-centered and egotistical.

i’m not really... fishing for compliments there. i hope. i guess i could be doing it for attention. but the primary purpose is to record how i am feeling right now. that’s what i have to tell myself. i don’t know how it works.

i know that... just because someone tells me i am something does not make me the thing. calling the noon sky red doesn’t make it any less completely blue. but it hurts so much. i guess because it starts kicking up suspicions that really delay me. and then the delays cause other problems which seem to confirm the suspicions.

i keep thinking other people would be better off if i didn’t talk to them. i mean, yeah, i can be fun or funny sometimes. i can take up a person-sized shape when who you’re talking to doesn’t matter. but like, the amount of attention i demand during conversations probably overwhelms any benefit of talking to me.

umm. i get told similar things by different people sometimes. and... it’s not abusive to point out changes that need to happen in a relationship. craig just got his sticky fingers in everything and now certain words make me implode. and i’m not mad that my friends point out that i am too much, i can be too much. i’m just... upset at the memory.

can’t cry here, ha. this is the kitchen. gotta save it for later. i’ll go to bed soon.

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Backbones

Today I kinda want to take a break from talking about how shitty HD is and can be and talk about love and support. Of course I have my family, no doubt, but without the people in the photo above, I’m not really sure where I’d be. Now, not everyone who supports and loves me are in the picture butttt this most are. I want to start by thanking every single one of you. You all have been by my side through thick and thin, aren't afraid to tell me when I'm f*cking up, let me call or text you and tell you how much my life sucks at time. I honestly do not think I’d be able to do this without you. I remember the first time I met every single one of you and when we really became close. Ronnie, Smurf, Deonte, and Keeshon.. lol The moment I knew we were going to be close was the first Christmas I celebrated with you guys, George and I weren't even dating yet. I was over and we all were cracking up about how you all “flirted with girls” lol I don't remember who said it, but Smurf.. Smurf they came for you lol. “My name is Sean and my social security number is..... I have a credit score of..... I am a current Mechanical Engineering student at WVU.... I like long walks on the beach..” At that moment, I knew you all accepted me. We may argue or not agree on things but in the end, you guys are all my brothers and I love you all more than you know. I support you all through what may be going on in your life and will stand by you no matter what. Ronnie, Mr. Hard Headed, I may not agree with everything you do or say but I love you and support you through every single decision you make. I am so proud of you killing it up SRU and cant wait to be at your graduation. Smurf, I love you so much. I am so so proud of you and how you do not let things bring you down. You’ve been through things that many people cant overcome but youre out here killing it! Taking amazing care of yourself, applying for jobs and even considering grad school. I want to let you know I have your back through it all. Keeshon, keep doing what you are doing. Follow every single dream you have because the sky is the limit. I will support you through it all. D. Oh D lol you are the most motivated person I have ever met. You are literally like the brother I never had. You are always asking how I am and looking out. You are such an amazing person and you give me the motivation to keep doing what i’m doing. Brad, well Brad, you were a packaged deal with Sean sooo.. sike lol No when we all started going out with each other and how insane you are lol like charging people to get into a house party up WVU.. that was a free party... cool Brad, cool.. lol KAYEMPERK!! Now, you were a packaged deal with D. We weren't close at first but man idk what I'd do without you. You are seriously one of the most strongest, independent, selfless person I have ever met. You care about people more than you care about yourself. I want to thank you for checking in on me and making sure I’m cool at times. You always know when I'm bothered based off of a social media post lol I want to let you know that as much as you care for me, I care for you. I will be here to love and support you through every single thing you do. I am so so so proud of you and the woman you are growing into. Now, I may be crying while I write the last two... Joi Ann. Oh Joi Ann, where do I even start with you. I remember meeting you at Kennywood in the bathroom and then from there we blossomed. We started calling each other while working the rides, to me picking you up and taking you home from work, to us getting our nails done. We were pretty close but we weren't best friends yet. I remember being in the hospital being told I was pregnant and for whatever reason you were the first person I called. No thoughts, just called and asked you to be my baby’s God mom. You didn't believe me at first, I don't think anyone did lol but you said yes without any hesitation. At that moment, I knew you were my best friend. From then to now, it is insane how much we have grown individually and together. When I say you’re my best friend. You are 100000000% percent. You have been there for me, put up with me and my feelings, tell me when to shut up and really helped me through more than most people know about, well that you and George know about lol I trust you with my life and all my secrets and I know they will be kept safe. I remember you telling me you needed a ride to work so you sent me your location. 1, I thought you were in the hair store lol.. wrong place. As i’m about to walk in you tell me not to cry butttt I came back to you and started bawling my eyes out. I have never had a person love and care about me as much as you have. You were getting an HD ribbon tattoo with my initials... my parents wouldn't even have done that for me.. lol I just want to let you know everything you do never goes unnoticed. You are such a hard working, loving, determined, strong-willed person that will never let anything bring you down. I love love love love you so so so much and honestly want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. ps: youre stuck with me because your initials are tatted on me too.. lol I love you Joi Ann. Finallllllly, last but no least, the biggest butt head of all, goes to the best, strongest, silliest, craziest, loving, side kick of mine, my amazing boyfriend. George Antoine. Now, there are 2 stories of how we met soo we’ll just leave that out lol. Sooooo I just want to start of by saying how much I love you and how in love I am with you. I could not imagine my life without you in it. You have been my backbone from the beginning and honestly, without you, I know I’d be in a very dark place. You and Adrianna give me life. You two are the reason I work so hard, you two are the reason I do not give up, you two are the reason why I truly know how to love. BA, before Adrianna.. lol, I knew from the first moment we kissed that I loved you. I said I love you first and I just want to let you know I do not throw that word around. TBH, I really hate the word love so when I told you I loved you I meant that with everything in me. I want to thank you for never giving up on me. I know I can be hard to handle at times and may even seem like “us” isn't worth it, but I want to let you know that everything you do I notice and appreciate. I may not express how thankful I am at times but just know I am thankful every single second of the day because of you. You, you blessed me with the most beautiful gift in the world. I know you saying Adrianna came because I was having “baby fever” but God has a plan for us and Adrianna was meant to be here. You gave me the gift of determination and hope. Adrianna gives me the determination to push myself and want to do better for her than myself. She gives me hope in the HD community. I never want her to experience what I will go through one day so I am so so so hopeful there will be a cure. You do so much for her and I and I don't think you realize how much you do. You give us so much love and care that we know we will never be alone. You make me feeling like the most blessed woman in the world because I know I have a man that will give us the world. I want to let you know that I am so proud of you and everything you are doing. You are my best friend, my back bone, the love of my life, and my soul mate. Ever since you have entered my life, you have made it better. When I found out of my HD and my mom’s you never have left my side for a second. You make me look at the bright side but will let me hate myself if that's what I need to do. I cant explain how bad I feel either. It is going to be hard watching the person you love go through something that no one has control over. You will have to watch me change into a person that you did not fall in love with and I want to let you know I think about that every. single. day. I want to thank you for not letting this scare you away and to be by my side. I love you so much George Antoine. I want to thank you all for what you do for me and want to let you know so much I love and appreciate you all.

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consulting-celiac-in-the-tardis · 5 years

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11+ Kids and Teens with Celiac Disease Already Doing Seriously Amazing Things

New blog post! If you read this blog regularly, you know that I love applying a positive perspective to life with celiac disease. At times, though, having a chronic illness or needing to follow a gluten free can feel pretty dang hard.

That’s why today’s post is highlighting 11+ kids and teens who are totally kicking booty at life, even with celiac disease! Whether you have a child with celiac you want to feel less alone or just want to read about some amazing members of the younger generations, keep scrolling to discover some pretty inspiring girls and guys.

1. A (Literal) Master Chef

If you’re a fan of the cooking show, Master Chef Junior, you probably already know all about Che Spiotta. Spoiler alert: he’s the winner of the latest season of Master Chef Junior.

According to this interview, the now-thirteen-year-old has still not mastered the art of baking gluten free bread, but he certainly doesn’t let his diet get in the way of enjoying himself in the kitchen. As Che puts it: “I probably started on the stove when I was 3 or 4. I think that’s because I’m gluten free, and at first I didn’t know what I had; there were just lots of foods I couldn’t eat...When I realized I was gluten free, I just kept on cooking. I realized how much fun it is. I love the creativity about it. “

2. 10 and 11-Year-Old Authors

The most impressive part of these stories isn’t that Lillian Bordoni and Kristen Adam respectively published books about celiac disease at ten and eleven years old. What really gets me are motivations behind these girls’ separate projects. Kristen, author of Dear Celiac (available on Amazon), wanted to keep kids with celiac disease from feeling lonely when they were first diagnosed, like Kristen felt. Meanwhile, Lillian reportedly had one of the most extreme forms of celiac disease seen by Children’s Hospital Colorado. So she wrote and illustrated Cecilia the Celiac Superhero (available on Story Jumper) to tell show readers that anyone can thrive with celiac disease as long as “they just all put their family together and try super duper hard.”

3. Hockey Superstar

If you’re a big fan of hockey, you probably already know about Kaapo Kakko, a Finnish hockey player who was the second draft pick for the 2019 NHL. But besides being an amazing hockey player who won three gold medals in the Finnish hockey world, Kakko also has diabetes and celiac disease. And Kakko won’t let either of those conditions get in the way of him dominating the ice.

In fact, when asked about his health struggles, the eighteen-year-old replied, “It’s nothing for me. I got (diagnosed) five years ago. It’s a normal thing for me.”

4. Members of the Celiac Youth Leadership Council in Seattle

Seattle Children's Hospital is doing more than just diagnosing kids with celiac disease; it's also empowering celiac kids and teens to take part in a mostly kid-run outreach and mentor program for people with celiac disease. Besides raising celiac awareness in their community, celiac teens like Elle Penarczyk are running a gluten free food drive for a local food bank and "testing gluten-free products sold in regular bakeries and pizzerias to see if they’re affected by flour in the air." Talk about a hospital - and a group of young celiacs - who are seriously going above and beyond.

5. Twin Authors Heading to College

As the self-named Casey the College Celiac, I obviously love hearing about the new generations of celiacs heading off to college. In particular, I love hearing about new advocates educating others along the way...and Rayna and Hallie Katzman definitely fit both bills.

Via the twins' Facebook page

Before they went off to college, the girls worked with their mother to write and publish a book based on their celiac diagnosis at age 13 called Everybody’s Got Something: My First Year with Celiac Disease (also available on Amazon). According to this interview, the girls wanted to create a book that filled the gap between books about celiac disease for younger kids and for adults, and gave them the information they wish they had at 13.

6. Miss Pinal County

Josephine Taylor didn't let celiac disease or Hashimoto's keep her from winning Miss Pinal County - and she's using her platform to raise some major celiac awareness. In particular, she's been working on making sure that all Arizona high schools have a safe, cross-contamination-free microwave that students with dietary restrictions can use. That way, students with celiac disease or food allergies can still eat in the cafeteria along with everyone else. At least as of this report, Taylor's efforts have paid off in one school district. But I'm sure Taylor's mission is far from over.

7. Taylor Miller from Hale Life

I've been fortunate enough to meet this teen in real life (at the first Gluten Free Teen Summit), and Taylor Miller is as kind in person as he is online. Taylor is the guy behind the super popular gluten free website, Hale Life (formally Gluten Away). Besides being a huge celiac and chronic illness advocate that speaks at tons of different events around America, Taylor also works with gluten free brands on social media marketing, owns a gluten free bakery in Tampa, Florida with his mom, and has started taking college classes. Suffice to say, he's a pretty cool guy!

8. Miss Nebraska Hopeful

Lianna Prill started competing in pageants as a junior in high school and qualified to compete for the spot of Miss Nebraska in 2014. It wasn't until Prill's dad was diagnosed with celiac disease that Prill eventually realized her constant migraines and flu-like symptoms could be symptoms of the same disease. Since going gluten and dairy free, Prill says, “Now I’m a new woman. All that stuff with being sick that I just wanted to forget about was actually part of a plan. I can’t wait to share that story and hopefully save some lives.”

At least as of this Facebook post in 2017, it seems like Prill is still fighting for her crown - but she did come in third place!

9. Celiac Strong Camp Founder

I've loved seeing that, nowadays, there are several celiac camps that occur all over the country. One of these camps, though, actually started out as Sabrina DeVos's Girl Scout project when she was just 16 years old. Nowadays, Sabrina is 21, but her Celiac Strong Camp is still (pun intended) going strong. Her main goal? In Sabrina's words: "I want other kids to experience the joy of having a few of worry free days and create a place where they can just be kids."

10. A Creative Cooking Champion

If you need some inspiration for getting creative in the kitchen, here's another inspirational teen for you to check out! Her name is Maizy Boosin and she beat three other young chefs to become a Chopped Junior Champion. Besides raising celiac awareness in the actual episode by talking about her condition, Boosin also shared plans to donate some of her $10,000 winnings to celiac disease research and education.

11. All of the gluten free and celiac kids you know in your own life!

Of course, we can't forget to celebrate every kid, preteen and teenager who's navigating the usual hurdles of life along with eating gluten free and thriving with a chronic illness. And if you or the inspirational little celiac in your life needs even more young role models to look up to, you can check out Gluten Free Living's list of epic gluten free ambassadors, who range from a young cookbook author donating all her proceeds to celiac research to kids just spreading celiac awareness in their own community.

What I Hope Everyone Knows about Living with Celiac Disease as a Teen

Honestly, this post really hits home for me because I was diagnosed with celiac disease at age 16. In fact, I was diagnosed only a few weeks before my senior year...and less than a month before I was asked out on my first date. So before I even really knew how to take care of and feed myself safely with celiac disease, I already had to navigate the awkward reality of living with celiac disease at an age where 99% of social events revolve around food. And I'm not gonna sugarcoat it. It. Was. (And still is, in grad school). Hard. It was hard to not know what to order while visiting an ice cream shop on my first date, or to constantly turn down food at pizza parties, graduation events, freshman orientation and all throughout college. But I did it. Heck, even though I was hospitalized for celiac complications as a freshman in college, I can still say that I created some amazing (gluten free) memories during those four years.

At the end of the day, I think these kids are sending the same message I try to always convey: that celiac disease can be tricky at any age but that you can still kick butt through it. And you might even change the world along the way! No questions - just tell me your thoughts! <3 via Blogger https://ift.tt/2MptcRC

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