#gotta force myself lol

[making-my-wey-down-town]

Here are my clowns as humans! 🤡🤡 Little gremlins kiddos 💞

#before I forget. gonna post this! #my ocs <3 #human gig and wig #just for funsies #lol #wiggles and giggles the clown twins #they give me free serotonin honestly #my babies #i would die for them #*they are not real* shhhhhh they are real in my heart #<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 #I gotta draw them more ofteeen #and do more stufffff #gotta force myself lol #wey draws

[taleweaver-ramblings]

GLORY HALLELUJAH PRAISE BE TO GOD

MY STUPID GRANT WRITING CLASS IS DONE AT LAST!

#taleweaver speaks #I hated that class so much lol #and the last couple weeks (when I've been sick and very busy with work and family and writing) #have just been a lot of 'ok. gotta force myself to care about this long enough to do this discussion post/assignment.' #but I have submitted my final project #and I know I fulfilled the requirements enough to get a decent grade #and now I'm DONE #for the record the class is objectively fine #it's well-structured and well-taught and the course materials are good #the subject matter just makes me want to die and/or run away to narnia lol

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

I couldn’t get this out of my head after todays chapter of Nísoaia by @dinas-bracelet thank you.

#made me cackle #this is one of my top five fav movies #and that part SLAYED ME #i love jake sully making neytiri laugh with stupid 22 year old dad humor #i turned in my essay late cause i started on this lol #and i had to force myself not to finish the chapter #gotta go do that now #jake sully #neytiri sully #miles spider socorro #spider socorro #spider sully #kiri sully #avatar #avatar the way of water #james cameron avatar #fic reactions #melissa bullshit #melissa og #melissa on avatar (cameron)

[deuynndoodles]

[id: a colored digital drawing of aryll and tetra from wind waker. tetra holds her dagger and is showing it off to aryll, who is excited and impressed. aryll has a look of shock on her face. this drawing uses the artists alternate designs for them (boiling down to more detailing). end id]

happy birthday to wind waker one of my favorite video games (yes ive never played it shush)

#doodles #legend of zelda #wind waker #loz #ww #aryll loz #tetra loz #i still dont rlly like this but im gonna force myself to hit post lol #the story behind it was like. tetra giving aryll her dagger bc a gal gotta defend herself #but i didnt do as well as i couldve

[mysticalflyte]

Snowy memories ❄️

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#chihayafuru #ちはやふる #taichi mashima #chihaya ayase #arata wataya #artists on tumblr #happy lunar new year! i poked at this drawing for a while and honestly kind of fell out of love with it #forced myself to finish towards the end lol sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do #i really try my best not to leave things unfinished 🥲 #my art

[kyuoki]

please take this davy jones plushie from the thing I am working on cuz that's all I have to offer rn 🙏🫶

#working on a pmv/animatic kind of thing and forcing myself to actually do something is less fun than imagined #but you gotta do what you gotta do to keep yourself going #art ain't arting #so i had to smack myself and force my depressed ass to do it u til the year is over #lol i just absolutely love this part of the drawing cuz i mean #LOOK #he looks so fucking adorable #i want a plushie like this one tbh #*cries in a corner* #davy jones #potc #my art #KSiP

[coolhorse]

#tf2 #soldier tf2 #medic tf2 #soldic #LOL #my art #am i even using this as a tag anymore. i forgor #BUT YEAH FORCING MYSELF TO DRAW TODAY BC I HAVENT BEEN HAPPY W MY DRAWINGS THESE DAYS BUT GOTTA KEEP LEARNIN

[kideternity]

A side effect of getting into digimon is that it’s like. Really made me appreciate Mechas more and robot designs? Combined as well with reading comics like Atomic Robo and then last week watching bang brave bang Bravern. For years my interactions with mecha media was like, Trying to force myself to enjoy transformers, and unfortunately I just don’t think it’s a media franchise for me and it really stifled my ability to enjoy mecha as a genre because of trying to pigeonhole into that. I suppose this is a very roundabout way to say that if anyone has any mecha recommendations hit an ant up about this. And that I've also started getting into gunpla/mecha model kit building- I've made two so far (: and I have another kit I'd like to make soon. If you wanna see pics send me an ask and ill dm them

#dinu yells into the void #dinu yells in the void #tbh honestly at this point this isnt even a comic book blog no more. this is just like. ants general im doing whatever the fuck i want blog #i should really redo my card to reflect that lol 😭😭 #but im lazy as hell #anyways. i think ive always genuinely liked robots #like i really love 853rd hourman whose like an android #i liked watching ghost in the shell #but i dont think i was ever properly hyperfixated on them or wanted to try and draw them like This Year #thanks to digimon #again no hate at all to transformers but trying to force myself to be a transformers guy really fucked with my relationship with mechas #or general robot media #i just cant make myself get invested in the lore for tf ) : im sorry #tf is like my lovely long distance friend that ppl i know are rly into but who i only know in passing and thats fine with me #im trying to rebuild my relationship w mech stuff hence the mecha model kit building. i literally just bought that shit on a whim tbh after #remembering gundam kits exist when going to comic con #but it was honestly really fun to do since ive also been trying to repair my relationship with sculpture crafts #via trying to make my own puppets and more abstract forms of sculpture #idk any of the lore for like gundams or mecha kits #so far my like buying philosophy has been getting the kits under 20 euros that just look really cute to me #maybe one day ill get into gundam for real. im open to any media suggestions! #anyways byeee i gotta get ready for the day

[dinitride-art]

I am… actively creating problems for myself. Just want everyone to know that.

#miwi comic is becoming miwi short fanstory very very quickly #we are officially over 30 pages #y’know what? what else am I gonna do #let’s see how much of this I can finish in the next month #if I can get to the halfway point (at least 15 pages) in the next month #then after I finish this comic I’m forcing myself to plan and write a graphic novel #because this is- this is off the rails at this point #clearly I have the ability to make something. #might not be able to make something good but I’ll be able to make something that’s mine #fuck it yep- NOTE TO SELF- we are setting a goal here. #forcing my own damn hand #miwi comic: 'best friends' #gotta save this somewhere lol

[todayisafridaynight]

I know you feel like your fics aren’t good enough but i genuinely love your works so much!!!

thank you !! i haven't posted anything in forever, so i'm happy to hear you enjoyed my stuff 🤧🤧

#snap chats #i dont mEAN to dog on my writing every chance i get to its a force of habit at this point vjaREJEKLRJ #it does mean a lot hearin people like my writing cause i am Ridiculously hard on myself about it velrkjalkj #im trying to stop i promise 1.) it irritatin 2.) i at least wanna TRY improving (in my eyes) instead of complainin all the time #in any case. .. thank you :] #writings just so much harder than drawing . in my opinion . #like with drawing i can SEE if anything's wrong and it's not as effortful for me to adjust but with writing ... #i gotta like. scan the entire thing to see if theres something wrong with a part f the story earlier or it's just phrasing or #like there's just a lot more variables that makes me need more time to look over and thats FINE but #its easy to understand why i stress over writin more and spend more time with it 💀 AND THEN EVEN AFTERWARDS #ILL THINK OF HOW I PHRASED SOMETHING OR SOMETHIGN I LEFT OUT AND IM LKE 'FUCK' #oh well .... im complaining again 💀 ima just go back to my canvas lol ........

[gallusgalluss]

ART FIIIGHT!!! HELL YEA!!! 

I’m gallusgalluss on there :]

#reallly hoping i don't burn myself out in the first week like the last 2 years #gotta get that good art stamina and not try to force myself to make 10 drawings in a day lol #cluck cluck #soooo fuckin excited to draw other ppl's ocs

[kowtownart]

Golly it feels like forever since i last drew something! Been taking a little, kinda unintentional, break from it which is fine (i probably needed it tbh)

Anyhows, i do have some bigger projects and requests on the dockit, plus some physical art pieces too! Might be a few more days to get anything new queued and posted, but i very much appreciate y'all's patience!

Some of those asks are from like october of last year.... yikes, but i promise that i'll get to them sooner or later!

-Lee 💙

#text post #lee rambles #Been having one of those times when i can't force myself to draw and be productive #Might look thru my folders and find some old stuff i never posted at the very least #i know there's gotta be a good chunk of that #Also i know it's only been... 4-5 days since my last post but it feels like it's been forever lol

[boyghcst]

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#so have my first day of training today bc I cancelled it last time #cos of anxiety #n I’m so anxious lol #ik its jsut volunteering but it still feels really overwhelming #I don’t wanna go but ik I gotta force myself #have no proper work experience so it’ll give me tht #plus I gotta learn to be around ppl and being in the public #just dreading it honestly esp b it’s 4 hrs n I’m just not used to tht anymore #after being off work for quite a while #i just don’t wanna go back to it #I’m sure it’ll be okay once I’m there I just have a lot of physical symptoms rn #not fun :-) #journal

[astromechs]

wake up babe, the funniest comment i've ever gotten on ao3 has dropped

#the way that i was in tears when i saw this in my email inbox LMFAAAOOO #also like. i've posted three fics this month and two of them have been a showcase of how badly cassian needs the therapy he will never seek #tbh late night confession i have not been havin such a hot time with my own mental health lately and #cassian is actually a REALLY good blorbo for working out the demons of my own self-hating depression on lmao but i'm also like #so glad we can all have a good laugh at the thought of him even trying to attempt therapy. lol. lmao. #maybe i'll get him in therapy in modern au if i have fun and believe in myself #maybe i'll get him in it in canonverse if i do a lot of work and/or engineer some way 2 force him into it #writing goal for the next two calendar years #ok i gotta go back to sleep now ghfhfh

[batfossil-fr]

I have another skin I've been wanting to get some progress on and then I remembered that I haven’t streamed in one million billion years. if people are interested in a jank little ipad stream (oh god I’ll have to figure out if that’s even possible) maybe I’ll try my hand again at streaming my art. no promises I’m still trying to crawl my way out of Only Making 2 Pieces of Art Per Year so I cannot guarantee when the mood will strike me

#unfortunately it has been a Bad Time. i had all these hopes to start up a non FR blog and was going to!!! but I'm so dead. #I hope I'll be able to do it soon because I really want to! it just requires energy of which I have none right now #I have an insane amount of worldbuilding shoved in my head and it would be fun to share #like I will go insane with worldbuilding if I'm left to my own devices. I was trying to make a new chromosome system the other day. #I once tried to figure out orbital mechanics to make a planet system. I am an evolutionary biologist. I know fuck all about orbital mechanic #s #god help me because I started thinking about weather patterns recently #anyways #really the most part is I just gotta get over the mental hurdle of ahhhhh sharing scary #sharing stuff here has me sweating sometimes LOL #just because Ahhhhhhh People Can Perceive Me and My Art #plus streaming is like Get Perceived Idiot and I think that I need to practice that #anyways welcome to my TED talk. #who cares!!!!!!!!!! @ ME Get This Through Your Head. #also I know I'm the king of ok I will try my best to make this happen! and then not making it happen but I did not forget. #I have ALWAYS wanted to make an art blog since I was like 12 and learned what those are. but 11 years later I'm still too chicken to do it #SO. I'm working on it #I am biting the bullet and forcing myself to start posting shit. eventually. soon #if you want to get the jump on it my tumblr is actually already made I'm just sitting on it and letting it haunt my brain #it's rewormer. just rewormer #because I will be posting about worms. many many worms. I love them. they are my brain rolled out into a worm shape. #MY brainworms. no dewormer allowed <3 #my interest in worms went from 'I love looking at sandworm concepts I should make one sometime' to #'ok I finally made my own sandworm and they are so incredibly self indulgent that I can think of nothing else now.' #speculative biology my beloved at this point I do my little biology thing and then come home and immediately try to apply all of those ideas #anyways holy shit if you read all of this. I give you a sticker #but I just wish I had the energy to do all this. I'm hoping it changes soon because I do really want it! very badly! I just am not there yet #unfortunately things have been Bad and I have not been doing Well and life kinda derailed and then the train fell into a lake. #and I am still sitting in the water being like aww shit my train. but I'm hoping to call Train AAA soon #holy shit I hit the tag limit okay bye for real