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starry-nights-garden · 9 months
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✧ Golden Child Bomin x gn!reader ✧ words: ~600 ✧ genre: comfort, a bit of angst, implied friends to lovers ✧ warnings: hints of reader having a difficult relationship with their parents ✧ prompt: “I didn’t know where else to go.”
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You’re running down the street for as long as your feet carry you. You don’t have a specific goal in mind - all you know is you have to get as far away from home as possible. 
Keeping your gaze fixated on your sneakers going in and out of your view so nobody would see the tears still streaming down your face, your legs eventually take a few turns to lead you back onto an all too familiar path. You don’t register it yet, but the houses around you that you’ve passed by a thousand times are slowly causing you to calm down a bit, and when you’re finally out of breath and you come to a halt, one look at your surroundings is enough to know where you are.
“Oh…” you sigh to yourself, starting to walk towards that one house at the far end of the street. The image of his face flashes by your inner eye, and you suddenly feel like he’s the only person you’d want around you right now. So you make your way to his place, and when you arrive, you ring the doorbell without hesitation. It takes him a few moments, but sure enough he soon opens the door for you, a surprised expression on his face.
“Y/N!” Bomin calls out your name. “What are you doing here?" 
"I…” You’re not sure what to tell him, but when he notices the tear stains on your face and concern reflects in his gaze, you blurt out the truth. “I didn’t know where else to go.”
“Come in first of all,” he says, inviting you with a motion of his hand, and he leads you towards the couch in the living room. “I’m alone right now,” he informs you, so you would know that you could talk freely and wouldn’t have to worry about his parents overhearing your conversation. Sitting down next to him, you fidget with the sleeves on your shirt, but you’re not sure what you should say to him.
“Do you wanna talk?” your best friend asks carefully as he leans in to get a closer look at your face, and eventually you shake your head.
“It’s just… the usual,” you mutter, and you lift your head to make eye contact with him.
“Ah…” He furrows his eyebrows, a mixture of complicated feelings hiding underneath, but he keeps calm nonetheless. He knows that getting angry about the situation would do nothing to help you, and so he returns his focus back to you. Bomin puts an arm around your shoulders, and he continues, “Then… what about some food? We can order whatever you like, I’ll treat you.” His offer causes you to smile, along with the way just being near him makes you feel protected.
“Actually…” you say, and now you’re feeling shy all of a sudden. “I was thinking… maybe… a hug?” Your best friend raises his eyebrows at you, and for a moment you think you can see him blush. But then he nods, and he wraps his arms around you in an embrace that feels warm and sincere. Closing your eyes as he holds you, you eventually return the hug, wishing you could stay like this forever. And in feeling safe with him, you also notice another emotion that’s been growing deep in your heart, mixing in with the comfort he brings. 
“Better now?” His voice is surprisingly soft when he speaks, and he brings some distance between the two of you. You nod, mustering a thankful smile, and when you see his relieved face right in front of you, you know you wouldn’t want to be anywhere else right now.
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wooahaes · 2 years
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Hii
Please don’t apologise for posting stuff and thinking you would somehow have to delete them as someone who relates to whatever you write it brings me immense comfort and solace because a lot of times those struggles have one way or other stopped me too so please don’t think you’re being weird your feelings are very valid <3
i hope you have a very good day today/tomorrow/forever, anon
thank you ❤️ i hope life treats you kindly
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sunjooch · 1 year
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i do not know how big golcha community is on here but i bet is Not That Big. however comma i am just a man with needs and my needs are joochan.
so basically i just want to know if there’re goldenness here (and please let them be rps. silly little me likes to stay in their comfort zone).
also let it be said that i am a wajoohyun and jooseung stan,,, you guys wouldn’t get it you just wouldn’t get me !!!!
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minwooks-moved · 2 years
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was tagged by the lovely @chamhwis to answer some cute questions ♡
favorite time of the year? : hmmm…. probably spring !! but more specifically toward the end as it’s usually like . the perfect temperature outside to sit outside and it isn’t too terribly rainy — that, and all the flowers & trees being bloomed/awake…. shows a new beginning for life that’s really just so lovely <3
comfort food? : my momma’s chili !! something about is just so <3 warm(outside the obvious jfbffj) <3 either that or fudge brownies <3 i learned how to make them quite a few years ago, so the process of making them also helps me feel better ^^
do you collect anything? : ahhh, i casually collect quite a lot of different things, but for the sake of simplicity … jdbfjf — i collect albums, bracelets/scrunchies/hair-ties, and flannels <3 spending money on myself isn’t like . really fun to me rn unless i really, really want something jfbjf — so i’m picky about what albums i wanna buy when i have the opportunity ! gotta really like the album / concepts for the album for me to really wanna spend the $25(or more) on them <3 so, i don’t really collect for specific members / albums. just having the album by itself is fun for me — will say it’s super cute to see others collect like . certain members & such ^^
favorite drink? : right now it’s sweet tea !! and lemonade — particularly strawberry lemonade <3
current favorite song? : hmmm…. because i’m me and can’t pick just one, i’ll share three which are: wat.1(mcnd), burning bridges(sigrid), and loved you(bae173) <3 [special mentions: bottom of the ocean(golcha), humph!(wsjn), & love you when you’re gone(daya)]
favorite colors? : green + blue + purple !!
last song? : beautiful by ikon <3 !
last series? : going to b real honest & say i don’t watch like … a whole lot of tv these days but . i got halfway(i think anyway) through the first part of the new of stranger things season (before the second part came out) & then just . didn’t really wanna watch it anymore for reasons / i just forgot 😵‍💫😵‍💫 ( i have been slowly watching / catching up on right! just THAT! on yt .. but i don’t think that counts djdbdbd )
last movie? : uhhhhh…. i think it was the new batman movie months upon months ago ?? though it could’ve also been the exorcist — a watch which i very much regret giving my time to as like . i actually hate that movie 💀 i get why it’s a classic but also… relied too much on shock factor + was also too slow-paced for me :< ( i don’t watch a whole lot of movies either .. in case you didn’t notice fjfbjfn )
sweet, savory, or spicy? : sweet !! i have a big sweet-tooth … not quite to a fault as i do try to keep myself in check here lately, but .. a lot of foods i often crave / want have a bit of sweetness to it(somewhere ….) .
current craving? : really, really craving some type of apple cinnamon / just cinnamon treat — like apple pie or a cinnamon roll <3 & i really miss my friends rn :( i haven’t seen them in person since like . the s..kz tix debacle :,)
thing you’re currently working on? : one/two of the other prompts for the vity gtkm thing !! and also editing ciiphrs teasers for blind <3
tagging the stunning @soonyouns @soonwnu @cyatual @hoshranghaes @seohopeful @seungyounchoz @sinzational & anyone else who sees and wants to answer them too ~ 💓 ( no pressure to anyone tagged to do it btw !! totally optional 💞 also sorry if you’ve already been tagged fjfbfjf )
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tranquilpetrichor · 1 year
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hey eris!! for the ask game: 8, 9, 18, 31
fanfic writer ask game
hey duckie, ty for the ask!
8. What mood has been most prevalent in your works this year? Ex. angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, etc.
oh, probably hurt/comfort (although sometimes tbh i don’t put the comfort), with angst as a close 2nd.
9. What's a scene you wrote this year that you're particularly proud of?
the beginning part of perfectly imperfect when y/n is practicing their dance and hates it.
18. Do you have a fic that you wish received more attention?
ok here’s two, the first being a stone’s throw.
GOD that one was so painful to write, but i think i did well considering i was still finishing watching squid game at the time. ngl one of my saddest fics to date! no comfort, absolutely none. (funny, i realized after I wrote it that i should be more clear about whether i take requests or not because someone requested it and even though i don’t really write requests, i went you know what, just this once.
i also wished stream of consciousness received me attention but it’s golcha, so i get it. i find it lucky if i even run into one ness around here.
31. What's a recurring theme that showed up in your works?
i had a bit of trouble answering this one but i feel like the development of friendships/relationships that aren’t romantic were a big theme of my works. from the dynamic of a guardian (daeyeol) and the one they’re protecting in stream of consciousness, to the reader and jiung striking up a conversation in the friendship problem, i think i wanted to push the boundaries of what i usually write and what’s usually seen in fics.
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hwichanis · 1 year
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hiiii chrissy <3 can i ask!!! txt & golcha perhaps!!!!!!!
Hii, hiii Millie! Of course. Thank you for asking!!!
Tomorrow x Together ♡ my first bias - huening kai ♡ my current bias - huening kai ♡ era ranking - The Chaos Chapter > Blue Hour = Eternity = Thursdays Child > Magic = Star ♡ how I got into them - Spotify discover! LOL. But I was really late into the game because I didn't get into them until LO$ER=LO♡ER ♡ which member would be my best friend? - Soobin! ♡ something I associate with them - just vibing with good friends. You know what I mean? they just have that energy that is so easygoing and comfortable and you know there are going to be smiles and the kind of laughs that make your face hurt.
Golden Child ♡ my first bias - jibeom! ♡ my current bias - still jibeom hehe ♡ era ranking - hmm, I don't think I have a strong era/album ranking but I would say my favorite albums are Game Changer & Wish. ♡ how I got into them - FUNNY ENOUGH I got into them doom scrolling on Tiktok. It was just a random video of Seungmin where he was doing that age filter thing and he got 6!?!? And it was so funny. I just went and watched their videos and liked them. It was during their RamPamPam promotions. <3 ♡ which member would be my best friend? - I'm just answering jibeom for all of these <3 ♡ something I associate with them - Smooth beats. Seriously nobody has the sounds that they do!
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xiaojuun · 2 years
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ab6ix & golden child for the ask game please!! <3
owo thank u for these!
ab6ix [i ult]:
favorite member / bias line: i bias ot4 like a clown but i ult donghyun!
which member I’d fight (& why): i think woong and i would bicker bc we're similar ... i think woojin would try REALLY hard to annoy me and i simply would drive him insane by never reacting ajnsdghjb
favorite song(s): surreal, close, maybe, cherry, d.r.e.a.m, parachute, bloom, sucker for your love, 123, _and me, shining stars, weightless !!
favorite thing about the group: they are PERFORMERS they PERFORM ... but actually i rmr when i first got into them that's what stood out to me most was how polished they are, they're just so professional when it comes to putting on a show. and they are absolutely delightful <;3
something i’d like to see from them: waiting for some crop tops for this era's stages !!!
golcha [i stan]:
favorite member / bias line: rap line eri line ... jangjun (ult) + youngtaek!
which member I’d fight (& why): jibeom get that boy away from me. also i know donghyun would get on my nerves . probably joochan too . ykw i'd actually fight most of golden child JKNBSJGHB
favorite song(s): omg, genie, compass, wannabe, game, cool cool, fanfare, no matter what
favorite thing about the group: they're so comfortable w each other it makes for very entertaining content. and similar to yeppis i think they really are solid performers, their sync is INSANE
something i’d like to see from them: a fresh concept !! i feel like it's been foreverrrr
send a group !
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dvmni · 2 years
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blog revamp
I had an idea but then I accidentally already did it.. With the GolCha comeback and me being anal about queuing in the back of my mind I’ve decided to reduce my blogs to just run @yukhellno for dudes and @hvseul for dudettes.
@babeseungmin will always be important to me. But tumblr shouldn’t be this damn serious and will be an archive. @whiteconfession stays whiteconfession. I also thought about remaking but that seems like a lot of work and my own comfort is my main priority♥
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hoshiyoshis · 2 years
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hehe u would prob like vrvr if you like golcha, esp their early stuff but even more recent releases (music and conceptwise) is similar. and their team dynamic too, you can tell they're really comfortable with each other and are very funny together hehe ... they're one of the probably many groups i'd tell you to think abt checking out if you ever feel compelled 😂
ooo i'll def have to check them out then!! :0 ty eri <3
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chanyoungies · 2 years
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6 + 17 for golcha 🤲👀💖💖💖
oh em gee biebrand
6. your favorite song and why?
what if it's like half their discography what do u want me to do bieloved. we'll disregard unit/solo songs first of all to make this easier. sorry to my beloveds who r that. well as you might know i love genie an insane amount. she's just so fun so beloved so catchy makes me feel so happy !! i think i saw some stages of her before i even knew anything abt golcha bc i had kbs playing on my tv when i was home alone. most of the time though i say my fave from that ep is ytmob <3 my beloved <3 she's so insanely good if anyone hasnt heard her..ure missing out shes so good . disregard the full english title though . she's so fun she's so . see i can't describe songs . also the whole u wouldnt know [but] i've really changed makes me think of the delinquent turned soft bc of #love nd like i like clichés . but okay next we have lady......she's so beloved to me she's so :( she's pretty comforting also but most importantly she's just pretty. THEN oh my god there's compass. she made me cry when she came out she made me cry when i saw the choreo she makes me cry right now . she's so . she's a warm hug . but also choreo i love u ... and joochan's when it gets hard you can rest for a while hits so hard it's not even funny . (sungyoon's does too but like .) . i mean all the lyrics here do but god . nd the fact that it doesnt just end but we get an outro :( sad im very sad . also ik i said no unit songs but the more i talk abt all these songs the more i feel like no matter what should be mentioned she's everything to me i was so obsessed with her for a moment .... nd i still love her and i know i'm gonna be obsessed again when the right time comes . she's so good she's so important i could listen to her nonstop for months i wouldnt get bored ... like ... breathe 숨 쉬어 run 뛰어 drop it 춤춰 빛을 부르며 literally so true u know?? i wanna be a famous 누가 뭐래도 !!! literally. destroy my ears any day. alsooooooooooooooo ok last one i'll stop there today but burn it <3 my beloved <3 had her on loop when she came out i lov her ... my most beloved title she was made for me . NVM WAIT ALSO ALL DAY she's another hug golcha hav a lot of nice comfort songs
17. favorite look from your bias?
scratches head honestly i don't remember many golcha looks like there's looks that are alright great fine it's all grouped together and then there's looks i dislike there hasn't rlly been anything that i Remember as particularly good? like im sure theres stuff i rlly loved i just dont rlly remember it? sowwy to disappoint . . . ill tell u if i remember anything
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minheeskitten · 6 months
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oh i think dreamin are like that too, i've seen a few mutuals comment "eww there's pwp" and get offended when someone wrote a golcha/drp crossover fic? but it's like 😭 the audience is me, not you 😭 i want to read drippin smut 😭 i haven't checked the ao3 tag in about a year though HAHA nothing was my taste before 😭 i don't want angst, i don't want memory loss or hurt/comfort unless if there's some good fucking involved 🥲 if you say i'm horny, then yes sure, what about it?
honestly i am so looking forward to your junho/hyeop fic eventually because god knows how bad this fandom needs actual, well-written smut 😭 maybe if i get desperate enough, i'll try my hand at something too 🙃
oh really? do you mind if i ask what you weren't quite satisfied with 🤔 i personally enjoyed the fic ☺️ ~🩷
Oh no i gotta rescue dreamin too from the lack of smut
(i literally give no fucks ab hate bcs i write for ME)
Not every fic has to be 'pure' wtf folks :(
It'll be made, in time haha
I take a while before i get to prompts. I was asked ab the rebel!jahan and king!arthur literal months ago now haha and its still not done. I have prompts from last year still unwritten so it takes me a while but TRUST ME itll get done!
In the meantime feel free to write your own!!
I was aiming for a different ivan than i had written :(
Ill find out what wasn't quite right eventually, but till then ill keep exploring different characterizations of him.
Getting the cruelty balanced with how he acts irl is difficult but ill get there!
Its one of those things where i gotta figure it out. But until then, various ivans :3
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starry-nights-garden · 9 months
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✧ Golden Child Jibeom x gn!reader ✧ words: ~800 ✧ genre: comfort, some angst ✧ warnings: depictions of depression ✧ prompt: “What’s it gonna take to make you smile?”
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“Hm?” you force yourself to make a noise after hearing the knock on the bedroom door. In comes your boyfriend Jibeom, a cheerful smile on his face that’s meant to cheer you up too, and a plastic bag in his hand, like the ones you always get to put your stuff into at any convenience store.
“Surprise!” he says, careful not to sound too excited and instead keeping his voice calm and soothing to listen to. You’re sitting up on your bed, blanket wrapped around your shoulders, along with the weight of depression that’s pushing down on you. You watch Jibeom unpack the snacks he had bought for you - he hasn’t missed a single one of your favourites, and yet you can’t bring yourself to smile at him for it. You know in your head that you’re thankful to him for going out of his way to take care of you like this, but the feeling seems so far away from you, you wonder if it’s even there to begin with.
“Thanks,” you mutter anyway, and your boyfriend holds still for a second, before he lets out a sigh and he comes closer to you. Extending his arm to run his thumb across your cheek, causing you to look him in the eyes and immediately feel guilty over seeing the worry behind his dark brown pupils, he speaks,
“What’s it gonna take to make you smile?” You look away, moving your head away from his touch. He however leans in further, catching a glimpse at your face anyway. “Y/N, baby… it’s okay.”
It really isn’t - is what you would like to say to him, but the words get stuck in your throat, so you don’t even try to force them out. Instead, you merely shake your head. Jibeom crawls closer to you, lifting up the blanket briefly so he could slip underneath it, sitting right next to you now. He wraps his arms around you carefully, watching for any hint in your body language about whether you’re okay with this or not. In the end you find yourself leaning into him, burying your face in his chest so that at least he wouldn’t have to see the way there’s not a trace of life behind your expression currently. Rocking you back and forth in his hold for a while, your eyelids eventually fall shut, and exhaustion overcomes you again as you feel safe in his embrace.
“Can I do anything for you?” he asks eventually, and you think for a moment. That’s when your gaze finds a box of chocolates among the snacks he brought with him, and you point at them. It takes Jibeom a moment to figure out what you want, but then he finds himself chuckling as he fetches the sweets for you. “This is what you want?” he guesses, and when you nod, he opens the box for you and holds it out to you so you could choose whichever one you like. There’s an amused smile on his lips as he watches you take one of the chocolates and stuff it into your mouth.
“Why…?” you mutter eventually, not understanding his reaction to the sorry state you’re in.
“Sorry,” he apologizes while trying not to grin at you, but eventually failing. “It’s just… I thought maybe you wanted to talk about it or something, but you just pointing at the chocolates… caught me off guard.” And now you can see it too, how such a situation could look funny to him, and without realizing, you find yourself letting out a short laugh too. “Oh?” your boyfriend is quick to react, pointing at your face now. You raise your eyebrows at him, reaching for another piece of chocolate and bringing it up to your mouth. “I bought them well, didn’t I?” He puffs out his chest now, as if he was proud of himself for figuring out how to make you feel better, and once again it makes you smile ever so slightly.
“I guess…” you look away, putting the chocolate into your mouth. You realize that being with him like this and having meaningless conversations really does cheer you up, and when you muster the courage to glance at his brightly smiling face again, you can feel a glimmer of warmth spreading in your chest. You bump your head into his shoulder as you let your body lean against him, and now the smile won’t leave your lips anymore. “I love you,” you whisper, barely audible, but Jibeom must’ve heard it. Because now he’s wrapping his arms around you in a tight hug, pressing a kiss onto the top of your head. Staying like this for a while, neither of you says anything. All you do is enjoy the way he makes you feel at home and protected, no matter what. 
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wooahaes · 5 months
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hii this is maybe a little random but i'm having a bit of a rough night and it got me wondering if you have any favorite comfort fics among the ones you have written (or read, for that matter, i'm just a sucker for your writing)
hi anon im really sorry this is late and i hope your night got a little bit better :( but i'll still throw some recs out!!
very very long, but [under the sun] itself always gives me comfort? something about the world just feels very cozy and i've heard from other people they consider it a comfort fic. i don't think you Have to read the initial parts to understand the individual parts (it gives world-building + reader gets dubbed 'mouse' there as a nickname that pops up throughout individual fics), but i personally think seokmin, jun and joshua have some of the more softer parts personally? jun's does have to deal with reader getting injured, so heads up for that.
i wrote the hyung line [comforting reader when they're upset] earlier this year. its very short and sweet, but it fits what you're looking for.
most recently, i had a maknae line fic [to be together (even when it's hard)] since i was going through a bad bout of depression and wanted the comfort.
there's also a full group drabbles post of comforting them which is kinda in the same vein, but its just a lot of [holding them].
this ones admittedly not very inclusive but on the off chance its what ur dealing with, i wrote a vernon fic while i was dealing with some accidental biphobia from a friend. everythings all good now, but i needed the comfort, so i expanded on a nonranghaes drabble i wrote and made it into [of your choosing].
[taste of love] isnt explicitly a comfort fic but its very comforting imo? its longer, but its a sweet jun fic that focuses on the connection that food can bring to people <3
[to heal together] is a jeonghan fic where its kinda mutual comfort
[to weather together] is another short fic for jun that involves comfort and cuddling and him supporting reader as they cry :0
[call on me] is a dino fic where he comforts fem!reader after her family forgets about the promise they made her
[i need an angel's hand] is a more personal comfort fic where cheol comforts fem!reader while she's dealing w fears of abandonment n so forth. its personal, but its out there for anyone who relates and needs it
for nonranthaes stuff: personal but cheol being there for reader when they decide to drop out of grad school
wonwoo comforting reader who is a victim of sexual assault
joshua holding reader as they cry
married fic of reader comforting cheol over weight gain that he's a little self conscious of
personal but vernon comforting reader who has an abusive parent
vernon fic where readers happy to have a loving relationship after having shitty ones in the past
jihoon listening to reader vent and being there for them
jun comforting reader after he finds them upset
lovey dovey soonyoung being patient and kind
in the same vein as the svt maknae line fic, there's a short 3racha fic [a little less daunting] that's also comfort.
there's a poly minsung fic [reassurance] that deals with reader getting comforted while they're dealing with some stress from work that impacts them in other places in their life.
this has a fem!reader since its from my bday fics this year, but [i'm just lonely, someone reach out and hold me] is a jisung fic where reader gets comforted after other ppl forgot her bday.
i feel like i have way more comfort on nonranghaes so:
platonic chris fic where he holds reader and comforts them
platonic chris fic where reader feels like they're 'behind' on life things
short felix fic where he's ready to comfort reader
lee know comforting reader during an anxiety attack
jisung comforting reader after someone accidentally made a comment that really hurt them at a party
lee know comforting reader while they have a bad headache
unfortunately i dont really have anything for trsr/golcha or mark lee (i havent written anything else for nct yet unfortunately skdfhsf so its just. mark.)
fic recs!!! for stuff from the same author i'll @ them once and do a little ^^ to mean its from the same writer <3
@jinkoh reader drops an egg and vernon comforts them. very cute, can confirm <3
^^ ex-boyfie wonwoo helping reader who is going through panic attack bc mans would come running i just KNOW it. very soft and sweet <3
@hoshologies's woozi fic w reader dealing with mental health problems and jihoon helping/comforting them. very very tender <3
my beloved livvie @husbandhannie's jeonghan fic where reader is in a toxic work environment
my beloved savv @savventeen's cheol drabble about reader feeling safe w cheol
i truly need to read a lot more tbf but all of these come from my recs tag!! most of what i read is pure fluff imo but these are the more comforty ones <3
i hope this helps!! sorry again for getting to this late anon :( <3 my sleep schedule is thrown out of wack bc of thanksgiving unfortunately...
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xiaojvn · 2 years
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fantasia :: sungyoon
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minwooks-moved · 2 years
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i give u a 💛 for the game and (most importantly) these ❤️💕💗💓💘💖💝💞💕❤️ for YOU, lovely 🥰💕
omg 💕💗🫶💞💞💘💕💖 MWAH — i lov u !!!!!!
listen …. i am Aware he is one of the golden guys you’re currently looking at However …. joochan really feels so !! !! < daisy-shaped 3 to me 🥺 he’s artistic … he’s v much hug-shaped….. a li’l goofy, a li’l bouncy u know….. he’s also able to take being teased with such ease … and he makes sure that people around him are comfortable & feel included <3 !! ‘nd he’s also full of lots of ideas & has like .. an insane amount of talent fjbdfjn
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also !! the song i feel matches u best is one of — if not The — most iconic unit songs for a first full-album, no matter what <3 a song so fun, so confidence-building…. she’s so good — also the fact it’s rap unit(jjun + taek) feat. joochan …. enough said there, i think fkfbfjfb
☁️ send me a 💛 and i’ll assign you a golcha……
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tranquilpetrichor · 2 years
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we'll go forward, always
summary: a talented but slightly aloof cross country runner, you never put much of an emphasis on friendship and trust, keeping mostly to yourself.
but as you open up on long runs with fellow teammate choi sungyoon, you begin to find the beauty in truly trusting someone, knowing that no matter what pace you ran at, you'd have someone by your side.
pairing: y (golden child) x reader
genre: comfort, humor, rivals to friends!au (intentionally left vague), cross country sungyoon!au (not overly focused on that aspect)
word count: 3.4k
warnings: cursing, mentions of stress, gun metaphor used once
notes at the end!
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— run #1
apparently, a few words really could how change your day turned out.
while you were stretching before your run, you found your cross country teammate, choi sungyoon, standing in front of you.
"can i run with you?"
usually, you ran alone, and the answer to that question would be a hard no.
normally, the sound of your footsteps hitting the dirt during xc practice was a welcome companion in itself. although you didn't look down at your feet (a pointless thing to do anyways), you always could hear their rhythm, fueling you to push onwards. no one held you back. it was your system, it was more efficient that way.
but today, your answer was different.
"alright, fine," you replied, not even looking back at him as you continued to do your lunges.
sungyoon really was something, somewhat cold to the majority of the school but there were exceptions. you didn't speak to him that much, but there was an unsaid rivalry between you guys, exchanged through smirks, bringing up your statistics and hushed remarks to each other before races.
people liked mentioning you two in the same sentence, whether for the purpose of comparison, or something else.
"everytime the other achieves something, the other tries to top it," you had overheard one of your coaches saying. despite being a rival, sungyoon was the closest thing you had to friendship.
it never went further than rivalry, though. you knew that like you, he ran solo. he did intrigue you, but it was hard for you to talk with just anyone. so you didn't, and it's been working out so far. at least, that's what you tell yourself.
congratulations by day6 continued to blast through your ears as you turned to sungyoon, tapped him on the shoulder and began to run past the back gates of the school, with him beside you.
"so, why are you joining me on this fine wednesday?" you wondered if you would regret not running alone as you always did, but a part of you did want to talk with him a little. even if it was just about why he gave you such an odd request.
he said, "i know, this was out of nowhere, but coach seunghee actually suggested for me to run with you. yeah, i doubted her at first, and didn't think you'd be happy."
hm. of course, you weren't exactly thrilled about being interrupted in the middle of your stretching and meditation time (who needed therapy when you had day6 songs?), but you would defer to her authority if you were in his place. "why did she suggest that? no offense, but i think i'm good alone."
"it's something she wants to try out. having people run with partners. to build teamwork, or something."
"that's nice. i don't think that teamwork exercises ever work."
he paused. "i mean, it's coach. she could tell me to walk straight into a tree and i'd probably trust that it's part of her plan for something. if she has something to say, i figure i'll entertain it, at least for now."
you rolled your eyes, but a smile formed in the corners of your mouth anyways as you thought of a clever response. "the only way i'd walk into a tree is if professor kim namjoon told me to."
he snickered at you between strides. "don't tell me you think he's hot or something. i know your annoying ass won't take orders from anyone except for our coaches."
you glared at him and replied sarcastically, "wow, what makes you think you even know me, sungyoon?" the words left your mouth faster than you anticipated, like a finger resting on the trigger of a gun.
he looked taken aback, trying to mask it with a laugh. you don't often see him look guilty. "i guess i don't—sorry."
when will i shut the fuck up challenge, you wondered, reminding yourself to not unintentionally say something shitty today. "you literally looked so scared. i would have thought you had seen a ghost. sorry. if i say something like that, it's probably a by-product of me failing to not be an asshole. i'm still working on that issue."
you run faster, but he just catches up to you eventually.
"all is forgiven then, asshole."
how straightforward of him. the two of you laughed, and the sound filled the air. he had a nice laugh, just as melodious as his vocals in choir. sometimes, when you sat in your favorite spot in school, doing design work on your computer, you could hear them practicing. it was one of the only things you enjoyed about school, sitting in a hidden room, letting their voices linger and secretly accompany you.
in fact, sungyoon's lingered even now.
man, it's been a while since i've heard my laugh.
the time passed by in the blink of an eye, and as you checked the stopwatch on your phone, you smiled. sonic had nothing on your ass when it came to speed.
you didn't admit it out loud, but today, you probably needed the laughter. it was exhausting trying to help plan the advertising of your school's upcoming open house, deal with your mom screaming at you about not doing a good enough job taking care of your siblings that needed your help, prepare for an upcoming tournament, and get a decent amount of sleep so that you didn't go insane and scream at everyone.
these weren't problems that anyone would know about—because you were quietly faithful to your duties, and always keeping yourself busy. sometimes you liked your isolation. other days, it came to bite you in the ass.
but today, you felt the impact of being able to laugh with someone. maybe you were even genuinely happy. it was only a little victory. still, it was something.
— run #2
generally, you felt like the world gave you shit whenever something made you happy. like an endless game of tug-of-war. nonetheless, you knew the world wouldn't stop for your concerns, so you pressed on and tried to think of something to get you through the day.
a week after running with sungyoon, you were still somewhat tired but very pleased with your xc progress, achieving a pr during a 2k race you had during the weekday. coach was also overall, pleased with you, which was pretty reassuring. still, you felt a lingering sense of discouragement whenever you thought about your problems. maybe today's run would clear your head.
you set off on your warmup run off the school grounds and into the endless maze of hills. glancing to your right, you noticed sungyoon once again, but you didn't question it, instead greeting him. "wow, joining me for a second time?"
"misery loves company," he replied, a small sigh escaping his lips. "you don't want to know."
maybe that was true. "you are right about that. well, i guess getting a pr makes the week a little less miserable. try that."
"congrats," he replied, and you're not sure if you're seeing things, or if he really did grin a little.
you nod back. "thanks."
a few minutes passed, and you realized how well-attuned you were to each other's running paces, due to the fact that they happened to be similar. it's not like you were going significantly slower (or even faster) than you had before, but something felt different. you were glad that neither of you complained about extended periods of silence, simply letting them exist like the various bends in the path you two were running on.
sungyoon's voice broke your thoughts. "aren't the hills pretty?" he asked. "it's lucky that we have a nice place to run—actually, it's lucky that we can even go out and run in the first place."
"i guess so," you agreed. "it's peaceful. weird as it is, i feel like a butterfly flying on the wind. is that weird?"
"it's not. running feels like that, a lot of the time."
"for you too?"
he hesitated, trying to put something into words. "like you can overcome everything that stands in your way and just, i don't know, fly almost."
wow, being philosophical with someone you barely knew. "the world, at least for me, tries to stop us from feeling that way."
he nodded. "that's true. but that's why we need something to keep up our spirits, to keep us going forward."
you laughed soundlessly to yourself. how did we get to the deep shit so quickly?
"maybe you're not as unapproachable as i thought."
he retorted, "i mean, i thought you were unapproachable too and i'd get slapped into another dimension if i pissed you off."
fair point, you thought, although you wonder how just many people you've alienated with a single stare. "well, that's just how i come off across as unfortunately. i feel like an asshole sometimes, but i don't know."
he nodded. "i mean, i think i'm like that too. honestly, i still am to an extent. mostly before jangjun befriended me and introduced me to some of his friends. i still don't know how someone can be that social, but then again, it's hard to understand people who are very different from you. honestly, even if he is a pain in the ass sometimes and says questionable shit, it's nice to know someone's there for me."
for the next minute, his words echoed in your head, and you spoke so quietly that your next words almost fade in the midst of the breeze. "it must be nice to have someone to rely on. i wonder what that's like."
the silence in the air is filled with thoughts left hanging, until sungyoon eventually spoke. you definitely wondered if you had revealed too much with just a few words. his response however, is surprisingly one of reassurance.
"look, i'm not sure what you're facing right now, but i know you're a lot like me. i'm not you, obviously, but we kinda understand each other, don't we? very driven, always pushing our limits, maybe a little unwilling to open up to the majority. and i won't pry about anything. but if you want to, you can talk more with me."
your face appeared impassive, but when you said "thank you," it was genuine. those two words were simple, but they said enough.
to your left, the lake glimmered peacefully, the reflection of the sun glinting off of it. he was right about what he had said before. it was pretty here. you decided that it would be nice to just sit by the lake. you tried to stop your brain from getting ahead of itself, but your brain entertained the possibility of being here with sungyoon.
you laughed at your own stupid thoughts and let yourself listen to the sound of two pairs of feet hitting the ground. you found that your steps and the conversation were progressing at a fast pace.
"so, you like bunnies? and you actually own some?" you asked sungyoon. you took in his facial features again, as if reading through a page of a novel again, but more carefully. he did resemble a rabbit, teeth and all.
"is that surprising?"
"apparently every fact i learn about you is. but keep going, it's interesting."
he grinned. "the fact that you're designing stuff for open house is pretty interesting. the coaches mentioned it to me."
honestly, you were still slightly nervous about that. you didn't feel very satisfied with your work, even after a night of editing a flyer design, wondering what exactly you found wrong with it.
"more like pretty stressful. i'm picky about what designs make it and even though they can look like shit sometimes and take a long time, i just remind myself that the school cannot do this to save their damn lives." that was mostly you poking some lighthearted fun at yourself, but there was a slight bitterness that came through from you as well.
"i passed the art room and saw one of your posters. the one for our choral concert. come on, your work is definitely not shit, and if it takes a long time to make posters like that, i'd wait that long to see them. my friends liked the design too, they didn't even know you did graphic design until now. also, are you going?"
the question at the end threw you off guard. "well, i guess the color scheme of my poster is nice, and fine. i'll consider it. you guys are good, after all." you then trailed off in your thoughts and proceed to tell your teammate more color theory than he will ever need in his entire life. "well. it kept me busy. i hope my other projects turn out just as nice."
"yeah. i know you probably didn't have to do this, so thank you. i'm sure whatever you do next will be great too."
his words made you silent, in a way that made you think, oh shit, what do i say now?
"here's to hoping, i guess?" you smiled, half to combat your fears of the future, and half because you felt thankful for being complimented.
note to self: find tutorial for accepting genuine compliments.
the minutes you spent running always seemed to pass by in a flash, but today it was especially true, which was a shame because you felt like you were in heaven.
after driving home, you helped your siblings with their homework but warned them that you needed to relax. they understood, thankfully.
satisfied with the amount of work you had done, you drank chai tea and stared at a few bunny videos. you even ended up finding the motivation to work on some extra projects. it wasn't perfect, but it was progress and for the first time in a while, you let your body truly relax.
after thinking about the events that had happened, you decided that maybe running with someone wasn't so bad.
maybe, it was just different.
— run #3
you rarely enjoyed waking up early. but today, you needed to drive your sibling early to school because they were going on an all-day field trip (how you wished you could be a middle school kid again, fascinated by fish at the aquarium).
basically, you had two hours to kill before school, and with nothing to do, you decided to stretch your legs a bit and took a walk.
sungyoon was somewhat far away, walking around campus, but you could see him anyways. it had been 10 days since your second run with him. you weren't sure if you should go up to him or head off to the library.
should i bother him? ah, screw it.
you walked in his general direction, reaching him quickly despite the distance. "i hope i'm not disturbing you, but want to run? anywhere?"
"wow, no greeting? like a normal person?" he said, a look of mock offense on his face. "i'm kidding. i don't really have anything to do. is the doughnut place and back fine?"
"sure. i have money anyways."
he looked off to the side, away from you. "it's early, i hope you don't mind that i'll be a little slower than usual."
although it was an innocuous remark, it did make you think a little. you liked going fast. but today was not the time for that, and this wasn't one of your races anyways. it was just for fun. you felt a little guilty that he was talking about how he would be slow and potentially annoy you.
"it's fine. come on, before we spend an hour just standing here!"
the two of you began to run, but you made sure it was a comfortable pace for the both of you. before long, you heard a quiet song coming from him. you were slightly impressed that he could still sing like that even when jogging.
"you have a nice voice." you said. "if i could sing like that, i would never shut up."
he returned your compliment with a sarcastic retort. "i heard in class, you never shut up anyways."
you pretended to look hurt, although you wouldn't deny that a few classes brought out a more talkative side of you (namely graphic design). "i give a rare compliment and this is what i get? ouch."
before you tried to speed up, just to spite his ass, he spoke again. "to make up for it, i can sing a song, if you want."
"sweet chaos by day6 and you're forgiven." you wondered if he knows them (honestly, you hoped so, but you wouldn't mind excessively promoting the song to someone else either).
"i know it. it's a sweet chaos..." he sang the chorus, which caused you to raise your eyes in surprise.
he really had a unique voice—even if 50 others sang around him, you could probably recognize his. "at least you have good taste. one of the best songs ever."
it's impossible for anyone to not notice your relaxed grin now, try as you might to hide it. the two of you arrived at the doughnut place, and even though you were running "slowly" it only took about 10 minutes.
sungyoon ordered first. "i'll get an iced coffee and a chocolate glazed doughnut."
"an old-fashioned chocolate one for me," you replied.
"are you paying together or separately?" the cashier asked.
sungyoon stepped in front of the register, eliciting protest from you. "i'll pay," he said, and you objected again, trying to walk past him to hand over your cash, only to be blocked.
"are you sure?"
"yeah, of course!"
you sighed. it would be pointless to argue about this all morning, even though you still felt a duty to pay for yourself. "alright, but let me pay when we do this again."
(for better or for worse, it briefly crossed your mind that you said "when", and not "if.)
the two of you sat down at one of the tables in the restaurant to eat, and the early morning provided you with some peace and quiet. it was almost as if the world had slowed down, just in this moment to tell you that things would be alright.
the birds flew past the window as you chatted with sungyoon. "how are things going?"
"pretty good but maybe i could use with more sleep. can't wait for that tournament in a few weeks, and you?"
"like i could race your ass back and beat you with my eyes closed. okay, kidding!" you said in surrender as he jokingly got up to fight you. "i don't feel as stressed today, though."
"you always look really busy. glad you're not too stressed."
your gaze drifted slightly to the floor. "well, maybe that's slightly thanks to you running with me and talking about random shit."
he looked a little surprised. "really? honored to be at your service," he finished with a smirk and a bow.
you hit him repeatedly from across the table. "choi sungyoon, your ego is so big it extends beyond your height."
sungyoon probably detested the fact that you had long arms right about now as he groaned in protest. "ahh, stop hitting me! no, but are you serious? i'm glad i could help in some way. everyone deserves someone to confide in, plus i thought you'd be cool to befriend.."
he took another sip of coffee before he continued. "i wish i had talked to you sooner. it's been good getting to know you. i mean, beyond the team and stuff. i think you're doing your best and it really shows."
the encouragement felt like fuel, fuel that you wanted to reciprocate to someone you truly cared for. you grabbed your phone out of your pocket, extending it out to sungyoon. "let's exchange phone numbers?"
he quickly typed in his number. the morning extended on for forever, yet still felt like it moved on too quickly, as you realized how much trust you put in sungyoon. you two didn't hold each other back, in fact, you had always held each other accountable. and what was more beneficial than that?
rival, friend, it didn't matter. all that did was that you had someone to jog across the dirt paths or even just walk with, that you'd have someone who understood you and vice versa.
you would still go forward as you always did, footsteps hitting the dirt and an endless rhythm. it's just that with another pair of footsteps, the journey was a bit less lonely now.
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notes: xc sungyoon! yea ik ness have seen him on the track at isac (i'm not that old of a ness to have witnessed that as it happened though) but i thought it would be cool to have him do some running somewhere else (dw i might do track runner sungyoon sometime).
it's so unoriginal but i listened to run by bts a bit, because obvious reasons. also, i slipped in my favorite p1harmony song for a bit, butterfly in there (yes that's me being a multi).
this fic was painful i felt like i wrote and rewrote so much of it and i'm still not satisfied. i finished this at like 1 am i'm sleep deprived as hell ahhh gn.
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