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siliconforbrains · 5 months

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Okay, it's like 10pm on a work night and I haven't had any coffee today so my thoughts are a little scrambled BUT. I WAS THINKING.

(About In Stars and Time of course I'm always thinking about that game)

A couple of years ago, at the height of Steddie -my sister was big into it and recced me some fics okay- I read this fic about Steve dealing with time loops ("The one in which a time loop is fucking exhausting" by badpancake) and there was this specific detail about the epilogue that stuck with me.

It was the idea that, once the time loops were done and over with, people would slowly start to remember bits and pieces of what happened in earlier loops. After being fractured for so long across dozens of timelines and experiences and outcomes, time was finally healing, and broken shards of lost memories would find their way back into people's minds.

And that got me thinking about a post-game what-if scenario where the same happens to the gang as they travel through Vaugarde.

Like they still don't remember everything -just bits and pieces. Experiences so emotionally charged that they found a way to cross the sands of time and reach them again.

The question is, what would those memories be? The first answer that comes to mind is some of Siffrin's deaths, of course. I can't imagine watching your friend get pancake-d by a boulder would be pleasant, nor witnessing them turning their own dagger to themselves. Or offering him a slice of your favorite snack only for him to go into anaphylactic shock in front of your very eyes, for that matter!

But there would be other instances too, wouldn't they? Death is not the only thing that shook them to their core. What about their first death to the King? Or Bonnie's fate at the end of Act 3? What about basking in the blissful feeling of victory against the tormentor of your land only to turn to look at your friend and know something is very, very wrong?

What about fighting through the House with a party of 4 instead of 5, bloodied, confused, staring in the face of the King knowing you're about to die and wondering why your friend left you all when you needed them most?

I honestly have no idea where I'm going with this, but I've been rotating this concept in my head since this morning and thought I'd get it out on here so y'all can suffer with me tehee

#maxisrambling #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #isat siffrin #i genuinely don't know if i'd ever write a fic about this concept #esp bc i already have like 3 wips im working on and i don't need another #but if i ever were to it would be like. a post-game fic where the party realizes just how bad the loops were #how they affected siffrin and how they mightve affected /them/#(bc love this found family to death but siffrin probably downplays a lot of the loops stuff until confronted /lh)#and meanwhile sif has to deal with the knowledge that his family is remembering things he never wanted them to remember #seeing things they never shouldve seen #and is probably filled with a fuckton of guilt about that bc even now that the loops are broken they're hurting them #they all need a hug oh my god #OFC it would have a happy hopeful ending but NSDJKVNDJKFV angst hurt/comfort <3 #okay im done rambling hopefully this makes sense #im gonna go pass out now id say sorry but I'm not lmao xoxo

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bidisastersanji · 6 months

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i had thoughts of a canon-adjacent Zoro (nonbeliever ambitious swordsman) and Death-God!Sanji who keep meeting because of how close to dying Zoro always gets during his fights and oops now it's a messy drabble written in between breaks at work and here ya go.

In all his years as the god of Death, Sanji has never seen such a stubborn, strong willed human- he’s honestly half amused every time he's brought to a wounded, bleeding Zoro. He doesn't expect him to survive that giant slash attack from the warlord, nor the myriad of injuries he collects after that- and if he feels a bit of pride every time he escapes him Death, well, no one will know.

It takes him a while to realise that, in those fleeting moments, when he's loitering and waiting around as Zoro approaches the point of no return, Zoro can see him as well. Sanji's a bit mortified at first. All this time, he's just been voicing his thoughts out loud like he always does, who knows what the reckless man overheard! It's pure force of habit, since it’s not like there’s ever someone to hear to him- his family chose this domain for him on purpose after all; they took all the great, bright, good, worshiped domains of life, war, medicine...and left him this one to punish him, break him with eons of witnessing and bearing human grief in solitude.

It's barely morning and Zoro is dripping with blood, resolutely standing against all odds in a beautiful display of absolute devotion and conviction, and Sanji feels like maybe today will be the day he takes him- that this is the end for the stubborn swordsman. He comes closer than he ever has to the man, walks right up to him, readying himself for the weight of another soul's voyage, when Zoro's lidded eyes snap up and meet his own. His fiery gaze doesn’t go straight through him, but actually settles on him. Sees him.

It's unnerving. Sanji shivers at this feeling of being perceived.

Humans usually only see him once they fully passed on, when he’s guiding them, cold hands gripping onto him, begging, crying, frightened or even sometimes full of wrath and fighting to stay by their loved ones.

“It’s you again.” His voice is weak, raspy.

Sanji doesn’t answer.

“Why're you always here for my big battles?” A pause. “You like me or somethin'?”

Confusion. Shock. Embarrassment. “You think I stalk you and show up for you battles!?”

“Sure seems like it.”

Sanji scoffs.

He can’t believe this! He wants to chew the bastard out- who the hell does he think he is? but he bites down on his words, certain that these are the man's final moments. There's no way anyone could survive such wounds- it's a miracle he's even conscious or standing.

He doesn’t want to add insult to injury.

“I’m the god of Death, you idiot.”

Oops.

“I don’t believe in gods.”

The absurdity of that statement when literally in conversation with one doesn’t escape Sanji, but he's not really there to argue.

The green-haired man continues. “So, what, you’re into me or something? Just ask me out like a normal person.”

This cocky asshole...Sanji's heated reply is cut off by Zoro’s nakama arriving on the scene in a panic. Sanji trails after them, hovering, ready for the now unconscious body's heart to stop beating at any moment- but the moment doesn't come.

Under the attention of their talented doctor, Zoro escapes him once again.

Sanji's definitely not relieved.

It's out of curiosity that he stays around a little longer. He returns from time to time to check in on the mysterious man and his recovery, still a bit unbelieving that he managed to survive such grievous, traumatic injuries and intense blood loss. By all means he should've died the instant he made contact with the red, concentrated bubble of pain and stress that Kuma expelled from his captain's body.

His friends weep and berate him when he wakes. The ginger woman who found him screams at him to “stop flirting with death” and Sanji chuckles- she doesn’t know how technically accurate that statement is.

Later, Sanji guiltily looks forward to feeling that tug from Zoro once more, that pull on his power he feels when someone is nearing his domain. He's admittedly curious to learn more about him, this idiot swordsman who can see him, hear him, and yet isn’t at all scared of him. It's so rare for humans to accept him without a hint of fear.

He doesn’t let himself dwell on that tinge of nervousness at the back of his mind- what if the next time is the time he steals him away- from his friends, his dream, his captain? What if this time he doesn’t get back up?

But he does.

And when he lingers in the cold, empty room of Kuragaina castle where the bandaged swordsman is laid to rest, content to stare at his mossy head of hair, Sanji notices something weird. From his bedside seat, he can feel the ghost of body warmth.

He tentatively leans closer, his fingers reach out, expecting to go right through Zoro's arm. They recoil, as if burned by fire, when instead they meet soft flesh.

Huh.

Zoro's eyes blearily crack open, immediately finding his hovering form.

"You're... back."

And Sanji knows something changed, that day, on Thriller Bark. He's been on this earth for a long, long time, and he knows Zoro should be dead. Unequivocally so. And yet he isn't. Whether by the sheer strength of his willpower or his fervent defiance of the gods and the laws of this universe, Zoro is still...present. Alive enough to have warm, red blood flowing through his veins and air filling his lungs. Dead enough to perceive him, touch him, feel him.

War brews and Sanji has a lot of work on his hands. After the carnage, he wearily returns to Kuragaina, and Zoro, sullen, heavy with guilt, asks him if it's true. Asks him if the eye of this particular storm, the man known as Ace, is truly dead.

Death has long worn away at Sanji, a constant wave beating at the his endless empathy his father called a weakness, wearing him down with each soul he takes from this world. But he's never become numb to it. He openly, lovingly feels the sorrow with every loss, with each reaping, with every last breath rasped from trembling lips. He embraces it, cherishes it for all of its bittersweet taste.

So he tells Zoro of Marineford. Of the epic battle that occurred there between Whitebeard and the marines. With each somber word he feels just a little lighter- an unfamiliar, happy feeling blooming in his chest at getting to talk to someone after what feels like a forever of solitude.

Time passes, and Sanji visits him more and more, grateful for the rare company. It'd been so long since he last was able to have a decent conversation with someone. Joke around. Banter. Flirt? They grow closer, never really voicing the...whatever it is that passes between them. Zoro eventually returns to his crew, and Sanji avoids approaching him unless he's alone. Wouldn't want people to think he's seeing things.

It becomes a dance. A well oiled machine. Zoro cutting down the enemies before him, Sanji right behind him and guiding his fallen foes into the afterlife. Cut after cut, his blades sing in the air, accompanied by the groans and cries of the people Sanji welcomes into his waiting arms.

After a big battle Zoro is laying in the rubble, chest heaving from the effort. Sanji sits with him, solemn. Accepting. Enjoying his company, the only company he can keep.

Zoro still hasn't admitted that gods are real, even when he sees Sanji trail after the path his bloodied swords carve out, hard at work. Even when he sees Sanji's dark, draped silhouette raise into the skies, untethered - that’s just skywalk, he says.

Sanji grows fearful. Shaken by the feelings, the attachment he feels for the swordsman, like a tether to this world. It makes him feel more alive than he ever has, yes. But nothing good can ever come of it, and he knows the universe isn't kind enough to give him such happiness without the promise of a subsequent fall, a return to reality soured and made worse by what came before it.

It's a dark, rainy day when Zoro corners him on the Sunny. Sanji hasn't visited him in a couple of days- not much death without opponents around.

They're at the back of the ship, obscured by the mikan trees, and Zoro's hands are bracing him against the wall, locking him in. Sanji knows he could go through the wall, but Zoro's eye has him pinned, frozen where he stands. His arms lay lifelessly by his sides.

The swordsman leans in, cups his chin, and Sanji doesn't think- his eyes flutter shut, he's open and wanting as warm, chapped lips press delicately against his. They don't need words. They know. Can feel it with every tender touch as their bodies work together to deepen the kiss. Sanji loops an arm around Zoro's neck, hand digging into his hair, while the other bunches up the fabric of his kimono to bring him ever closer. He's pressed so tightly against him that he can almost pretend the beating feeling near his chest is his own heart, can almost feel the rushing sound in his ears, the warmth seeping into his skin, up his chest, his neck, cheeks, ears.

Zoro breaks apart for air, and Sanji hears himself mirroring his pants, so enamoured with the swordsman he feels like his breath was stolen away.

"Curls." Zoro's looking at him odd, nearly awestruck, eyes flitting across his face, his body, his hands reach out to take his hands in his, lightly massaging his flesh.

A stern feminine voice rings behind them, snapping their heads to attention.

"Zoro, who the hell is this man you're kissing behind my mikan trees?!"

#zosan #zoro x sanji #i just wanted to write a small text post #and then #aND THEN this #it's not very good i'm sorry #but i kind of really like this concept #of death god sanji #and constantly near death experience Zoro #if i had more time i would love to see them fall in love slowly #maybe explore Zoro's complicated feelings if he lets himself be in dangerous situations just to see the ethereal man in black robes #sanji defnitely haunts his dreams #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan fic idea #zosan drabble #zosan fic #obviously at the end what happens is that just like how Zoro defies the laws of existence #Sanji is tethered back and kind of alive in a way again #or you can interpret it how you like #i like to think that then they die together one day and get to be death gods together maybe #and because Zoro and Sanji got to be known in the human realm #people start worshiping them properly #god of death Sanji

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bumblingbabooshka · 2 months

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One of the best Voyager scenes to indicate Tuvok & Neelix's dynamic and how I think Tuvok is just as if not more 'annoying'(positive) than Neelix is when Neelix pours Tuvok a fresh squeezed glass of a fruit juice blend and Tuvok's like (paraphrased) "I don't want to drink this." and Neelix is like "Can you please try it?" and Tuvok's like "I don't want to, you're really bad at this sort of thing. It's going to taste bad." and Neelix says that Ensign XYZ said she LOVED it, she even had a second glass! And Tuvok says Ensign XYZ could drink poison without a second thought and Neelix is like "Tuvok could you please just TRY it? Just try a little SIP of it PLEASE??" and Tuvok sighs and rolls his eyes and sniffs it before taking a sip and it turns out he loves it. Turns out it tasted good actually. And then after all that Neelix tries to talk to him over eggs (which he's again cooking fresh for him) and Tuvok tells him he doesn't wanna hear "the life history of his breakfast." Absolutely insufferable this man I would have burned his eggs on PURPOSE!!!!

#I love Neelix so much and I think he and Tuvok are very funny together - irritating4irritating #People say 'Neelix is so pushy with Tuvok!' and you know what? I think Tuvok can handle it. I think maybe he does need to be pushed -#down a flight of stairs. (he's my favorite character and he's so annoying...TUVOK!!!!!)#Tuvok: -kicking and screaming- I don't want to drink the juice!!! It's poison!!! You're trying to poison me!!!!!!!!!#Neelix: Can you please drink the juice. The fresh squeezed juice I made for you Mr. Vulcan??? Can you please???#Tuvok: Fine but if I die it's your fault. If I die from the poison you're FORCING me to drink it's on y- Oh this is delicious actually.#and don't tell me 'Neelix didn't make it SPECIFICALLY for Tuvok' bc I know he didn't but he says #'I'll start squeezing that second glass!' after Tuvok finishes his sip so he IS freshly squeezing it #Neelix: -makes Tuvok fresh squeezed juice-#Tuvok: Are you trying to poison me???#Neelix: -talks to Tuvok while making his eggs-#Tuvok: Can you be quiet???#<- TUVOK!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOU EHHEHEHEH <3 #Tuvok is the most annoying guy ever bc he doesn't care about what people think and is a snob with a lowkey superiority complex #vs Neelix is perceived as annoying (post his relationship with Kes) bc he cares a lot about being useful and helping the crew and sometimes #is too pushy because of that but listen...I think Neelix is sweet and genuinely trying his best - after the Kes plotline with him ends I #really don't find him objectionable. Just chatty & a bit overbearing maybe Meanwhile Tuvok !!!#Meanwhile Tuvok!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHE #st voyager #star trek voyager #I think they should have done more with Neelix thinking the crew of Voyager were spoiled - specifically how Tuvok acts Like That sometimes #little lord Tuvok. oH SORRY...for DEIGNING to speak while preparing your eggs your HIGHNESS!!#I think people do a disservice to Tuvok by not talking more about how he's kind of a hardass and a snob v_v also a disservice to Janeway #indirectly bc her bestie is kind of a hardass and a snob and what does that say about her??#I also wish Neelix kept up a bit of that 'these people are crazy and also so soft oh my god shut up about the food being bad - we're trying #to SURVIVE!!! Eat the Leola Root!!' from the earlier seasons...I like when he shows he has a bit of bite #It's just funny and interesting that Janeway isn't friends with Tuvok bc he's 'not like other Vulcans' - she's friends with the most #Vulcany Vulcan ever and I love that for them.#CRIMINAL that we don't ever get any in-depth insight into their friendship #Tuvok

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rainymoodlet · 11 months

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when your future lifepartner feels absolutely miserable thanks 2 pms but they're still the most beautiful creature you've ever laid eyes upon

also dallas was legit just uncomfortable from their period it's okay - it looked hilarious though i thought they were like "um ew honey wtf"

but seriously how is this man real, like look at this adorableness:

#i'm trying to summarize the latest of the kruegers gameplay because i sort of speedran some shit /cough #and so i figured i'd summarize ivory and her relationship w eva & cass and how we got to the Cutest Baby in the World #but i found these and oh my god i had to share #i'm sorry imma be spammin' all up in y'alls dash today ok - i'm planning on getting on later tonight and replying/being available/etc while #i play the first few dates for kmik (eyes emoji)#but i just had to dfkjsdhfskdjt #s4 #ts4 screenshots #;tjol+ extras #sim: dallas #sim: shingo #this was a dinner party i didnt end up taking pics of because nobody wanted to sit where they were SUPPOSED TO #but safe to say ivory's meeting her goals dskfhds #this was also the dinner that shingo and dallas met cass and eva for the first time!#also that phone mod is still the best thing i've ever downloaded ugh

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everysongineverykey · 1 year

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and for my next trick i present... my Grand Tv People Freakout Extravaganza!!! *falls to the floor weeping violently*

#the owl house #toh raeda #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #i swear to god they're going to kill me. they're going to kill me. falls onfloor #you do everything you can to keep your beloved from finding out your secret thinking they will surely hate you but they end up leaving you #for doing just that #and then thirty years later they lie to you about being brainwashed and pretend not to recognize you #to keep you safe so they say #but you look into their eyes and all you see is that younger you staring back at you!!!#the one who loved them so much she forced the feathers and claws back down into her skin to keep them with her and didn't even succeed!#and you think: i thought we were past this. i thought you said i should have known better.#but when it comes down to it you both just want to keep the other safe more than anything. because maybe you still love each other #underneath the years of loneliness and bitterness. and maybe the thought of looking them in the eyes #and just saying 'i'm sorry. i was wrong. i miss you. i love you. can we try again?'#is too frightening for that prideful earnest loving yet cowardly and broken girl inside you.#and the thought of admitting you have made them change their mind is too painful for your beloved #who has resigned themself to always standing there and watching as you go and destroy yourself while cracking a joke.#anyway. heehoo funny owl show

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crystal-the-axolotl · 1 year

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Alex kinnie moment

#this moment when homicide seems like an acceptable option but your bed wins in the end #thb i would've wanted to murder heimdall too at that point #as you can see i've been reading magnus chase and the gods of asgard #no i didn't forget amir nor heimdall i'm just... lazy #not shaded again because i'm a piece of trash #my art #fanart #digital art #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #magnus chase and the hammer of thor #alex fierro #she's actually my new favorite riordanverse character (sorry not sorry nico)#and this has only like 20% to do with her being genderfluid like me #mostly she's very funny and very cool #samirah al abbas #magnus chase #also i'm using “she” for alex because that's what she uses unless she says otherwise

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rabbittwinrithings · 1 year

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Why I revoiced Kaidan for Cary Interactions

So, I didn't really want to bring this up as I feel almost, foolish, I guess, I'm not sure of the right word. This isn't something I wanted to bring up, but I've been hearing confusions at to why I hired a new VA to voice Kaidan in the Caryalind interactions and people talking about me because I would revoice Dan. I will place a TLDR at the end of this post for those that don't want to read the whole thing. But I do hope to make this mostly quick as the whole situation makes me icky and don't want to type about it for too long.

Originally, I made the Caryalind interactions through spliced dialogue. However, after some thought, decided that there's a chance it could be like AI voice acting and didn't seem fair keeping it up unless I got Dan's blessing. Seeing as this dialogue was made with old dialogue, I didn't see a reason to email the EE team and just Dan for a simple "Can I use this since it's your voice?" (I also know the EE team doesn't like me and I feared I wouldn't get a response from them.)

After a few days with no response from Dan, I got the lines revoiced. It wasn't until after talks of an entire revoice came up that I got an email back from Dan stating that he owns Kaidan's IP and dialogue and that I was infringing on his copyright by revocing the spliced dialogue. After receiving the email I asked him if he could clarify which lines are his so that I could make sure I wasn't using any, in which he clarified that he is "the voice of Kaidan in a literal and legal sense."

This threat hung around for a week until someone was able to talk to Dan about the situation. While I never heard back from Dan, I did get confirmation that my interactions were in the clear.

In all honesty, this situation really has ruined Kaidan alot for me. But since the character was such a big part of how I experienced Skyrim, I don't want to give up on the character.

Due to all this, and that he isn't open to being hired outside of the EE team, I rather not work with Dan as he's made me super uncomfortable with this situation and the legal threat.

I'm sorry about posting this, I really didn't want to. But I've been told my name is being dragged about for not messaging the EE team and not wanting to work with Dan. I feel icky, and stupid, and... I'm not sure. This situation did leave me scared for a bit as I'm just a college student. I'm 23. I don't know about all this legal stuff. But I'm thankful I had friends to help me get through it and give advice. If I didn't, I don't what I would have done about Dan intimidating me with this...

Sorry once again... I hope this clears some things up.

TLDR; I didn't message EE team because the email I sent was about old lines and none of their work, and I don't feel comfortable working with Dan because he sent me a legal threat.

#Sorry once again #Hope this makes sense I'm writing this after taking sleeping medecine #Just had a friend who was telling me about a situation where people were talking bad about me because I revoiced Kaidan for the interaction #This ended up being way longer than expected #May reblog in the morning as I know I'm writing this late and not many are on #Gods I hated writing this I feel so shakey and gross #I've been trying to be professional about this but with how much people are asking and making thories I thought it needed to be clarified #I didn't want to bring this up but things are being said about me...#Sorry again...#just reopened this as a new post on reddit came up and through links come back to here #trying to unprivate this #but if it just posts it again as if its recent im gonna re-priavte this

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wanderlust-----witch · 28 days

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Went on a huge witch/craft supplies run yesterday, spent a fuck ton of money more than I wanted, but I thing it's worth it. I got refills on a bunch of the stuff I've been sharing with kiddo and coworker, I got a book on mermaid magic that looked hella cool, four more oracle decks including three of the Seasons of the Witch decks (Beltane, Litha, and Mabon!), hubby managed to surprise me by sneaking these gorgeous tree of life notebooks into our cart when I wasn't looking, I got a few more notebooks myself in a different store (those were for a good cause and I can't resist notebooks lol), and there were two copies of Cunninghams Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs so I grabbed them both, one for Kiddo and one for Coworker.

Next step in kiddos present is gonna be Grovedaughter Witchery by @breelandwalker and herbs out the ass lol. They already have the crystals I could share, and I've gotten them a pendulum and a tarot deck.

(Sorry if I get overly emotional about Kiddo this week y'all, they turn 18 on Wednesday and I'm having some very strong emotions about it...)

#not witchcraft #kiddos present #is a huge witchcraft kit from me #just everything I can think of #they have a leather bound notebook and crystals and herbs and books and whatever odds and ends I can think of coming their way #it's a combo birthday-graduation-college present #it's small enough where they'll be able to have it in the dorm with them #of course no candles or incense bc no fire in the dorms #but I'm trying so hard to make sure they have that connection to me while they're away #god it's hard watching a kid you raised grow up #I love them so much tho and I want the best for them #so that's what they're getting #also sorry for @ing you Bree I just wanted to make sure you got proper credit #cuz I really love your writing and I know it'll be a great book for my kiddo

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lover-of-mine · 2 months

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hi anna i’m glad to hear you’ve rested! 😊

i just had a ?? moment so thought i would share to see what you think

i know they’re saying that buck’s jealousy and ‘wanting attention’ has nothing to do with eddie, he wanted tommy’s attention not eddie’s… but him being insecure about chris doesn’t fit into that? he complains to maddie that chris thinks tommy is so cool and then tommy basically has to reassure him that buck could never be replaced in chris’ life… but then they say it’s got nothing to do with eddie?? buck was jealous of eddie bc he wanted to be in his position spending time with tommy… okay. so are we suggesting he was also jealous of chris for the same reason?? lmao no way, he was insecure about chris liking tommy more than he likes buck, and that does NOT fit with the ‘tommy was buck’s focus not eddie’ explanation

do you get what i mean? 😅

Hi, darling, thank you 🩷, and, like, I get what you mean, but I also do think that this is all gonna lead to Buck sitting down and being like "oh shit it wasn't about Tommy" in the future and then gasoline will be poured on our slow burn. Because it doesn't make sense if it's only about Tommy, I think Buck was experiencing a strong case of "I want to be in the middle" because you have Eddie, who's everything Eddie is, and you have Tommy, this guy Buck has a crush on he doesn't have the tools to process yet, so he was feeling ignored on all fronts, but since he was confronted with the "oh I'm attracted to Tommy" first, he just accepts that his behavior is about Tommy, even though we know it wasn't, because, yeah, he wouldn't get insecure about Chris if it was only about missing out on Tommy and the whole gym scene doesn't really add up to Tommy either, because Buck was behaving like that before he knew the person on the phone with Eddie is Tommy, and he was acting like that before the ball gets there and he can just say he wants Eddie to invite him so he can see Tommy again. Because, again, the whole thing starts at the hangar, with Buck being there with Tommy outside of Eddie, so Buck knows how to contact Tommy himself, so why wouldn't he just call Tommy? You don't need Eddie to be this involved on Buck finding out he's bi if they are not planning on going back and making Buck reevaluate what his feelings for Eddie might be. Narratively speaking, from a storytelling perspective and from a business perspective, to make Buck bi and not go there with buddie is dumb, but Buck is settled in his relationship with Eddie, so he would never find out he might be attracted to him or men in general alone. We all have been saying someone would need to slam Buck into the realization for years, but you can't really have that person be Eddie, because with the way Buck acts with romantic relationships, if you, for instance, make Eddie kiss him, you risk making it seem like Buck isn't really into Eddie, he's just so scared of losing him, that he would even go there to keep him, and that would put some huge cracks in their relationship, because Eddie himself could end up feeling this way while Buck tumbles through the discovery, and that would be bad. The whole thing is that Buck needs to accept that he's into men before he can actually process the idea that he might be into Eddie. I don't know if it's my demi Eddie believes, my belief that Eddie has been semi aware he's in love with Buck since s3, or just the general way Eddie has existed around Buck since he got introduced, but I kinda think that if they are going the route of Buck needed to understand he's into men and Eddie needs to understand he's into Buck, that does make sense.

Not that the groundwork for the both of them to be in love with each other is not there, but Buck had a thing going with men in general, that Eddie mostly only has with Buck, and I think that making Buck accept he's bi outside of Eddie, to work on that outside of buddie, and then have Buck go for it would make Buck's bisexuality a lot more complex, which honestly, I think it's the goal here, Buck can be great representation and to have that with a guy that looks like Buck makes my bisexual ass want to cry. But since I'm hoping for Eddie to be on the ace spectrum, to have his queer storyline attached to Buck would make sense, because he can have a nice "oh I have a family with the guy, this is why no one else feels right" and then if they decide to go there, which I didn't think they would, but hey, Buck actually kissed a guy so I'm shooting for the sky now, you can have Eddie figuring out he's demi be attached to his thing with the expectations that come with being a man and what that's supposed to look like and the whole thing he was always expected to be "The Man" and that he dodges the whole dating thing that hard because he's not interested in casual intimacy and it could be beautiful. I think they are trying to make the point that Buck's bisexuality is not about Eddie, which it isn't, but that we are still gonna get to the point of Buck being like "maybe I do want Eddie's attention more than I realized" and then something is gonna happen. And seriously, Ryan, the captain of the buddie ship since day 1, wouldn't be down right giddy talking about how much closer Buck and Eddie are gonna get if Buck was just going to get a new boyfriend and they wouldn't tie it back to buddie. They are playing the long game here.

#the slowburn will keep slowburning #half the ship was handed to tools to figure out he wants this #he just needs to figure that out before something happens #i dont wanna say I'm confident but i am optimistic #right now at least #i did experience the whole spectrum of human emotion about this since the episode ended #but i am optimistic #i don't see why they would make Buck bi in season 7 not to make buddie canon #god this got long and this feels like a tangent sorry kapkapakaoaa #911 #911 spoilers #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌

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choctalksalot · 11 months

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i think i want the kids a little more fucked up from ascending. i want god tiering to break you apart and put you back together with the same pieces in the wrong places, a nail in a coffin you were told was an altar. i want came back wrong but for the opposite of death

#choc talks #homestuck #homestuck meta #i think? i think. tell me if it's not #“they've been through enough” i say #as i drive a stake between their ribs #like okay i already have Such an Idea of what it means to go from mortal -> god in any piece of media #but in homestuck #holy shit #the fact that god tiers are literally titles and roles people play in a narrative #im not gonna go on about this again because ive said it So Many Times in So Many Posts (read: two)#but #i want them to come back feeling othered from their selves i want them to come back with bones that shifted imperceptibly #i want ascension to feel like an end of something that was all that you were #and now you're something Else #i want it to be grief #sorry i'm not entirely literate right now just take this

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encrucijada · 4 months

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might be silly and write bullet points for a possible tears of the kingdom fic 🫶

#i really like the lore we got but i can never let go of my first thoughts when seeing the opening of the game #i thought rauru was the original hero of legend #not skyward sword link but The Hero. hylia's hero #and i thought zelda would be accompanied by a zonai of her own who'd be hylia #i thought the statue at the end of every shrine were the first zelda (ss zelda basically) and hylia #and i Know the lore between games doesn't have to match up #but botw had the perfect excuse of being set like 10k years in the future so it made every past game possible #and then totk was like lol we're going back to the start of the timeline and it's Not skyward sword #it's personally annoying TO ME ‼️#so i want to write that version that lives in my head #where the zonai are the original species and some ascended into gods #hence farore. din. and nayru being dragons #i'm also annoyed totk ganondorf is like a mixture betwee demise and oot ganondorf #tf you mean he was trapped under eath hyrule castle?? did he not reincarnate during that time?? aside from manifesting as calamity twice??#is totk not the beginning of the timeline. instead its “past timeline” is just what happens before botw but not any of the other games #hyrule how has it been more than 10k and you haven't invented the industrial revolution #i digress sorry for the tags bible #pia writes fanfic

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eldrichthingy · 9 months

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SJHSJJAOJSKWOSKSSOSJS THE ENDING WITH ASCENDED ASTARION????????? I can't breathe I love him I adore his evil laughter at the end I adore him calling Tav his love I adore it- AND THE MOST POWERFUL COUPLE IN THE WORLD??? he said it????????? I fucking love them. And the way he talks about them having bloody future together- gods, I wish I could kiss him in the end but It'd completely destroy me

#OKAY BUT IMAGINE DARK URGE AND ASTARION EITHER RUILING BALDUR'S GATE TOGETHER (I chose travelling but anyways-)#oh I love that couple #and I loved seeing dark urge finally free from their father's will I always go bhaal's chosen route and don't mind it but this ending...#my opinion on ascended astarion really changes every second skjjsj BUT NOW I SAW THE ENDING #and I loved it #I fucking can't get enough of him and also the dialog before the fight?? where he said that they'd need to do secret tunnels underneath #the city-#I love him I swear I'd do anything for him #MY BOY OH GOD #he's sharing eternity with his lover!! they're travelling together or ruling together or doing both #GOD THEY HAVE THE ETERNITY TOGETHER AAHHHHHHH #this makes me so happy idk I just- yes yes yes!!#also the way he looks at tav in the ending scene..#I didn't expect to be this happy with the ending considering my mixed feelings during playthrough-#BUT I LOVE IT OH GOD #I just want to happily rant about it I'm so sorry #also I LOVE the new scenes they added in the ending!!! larian THANK YOU that was finally worth it!! now at least good ending feels great #bg3 spoilers #nonsims #delete later #olya's rambles

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talentforlying · 3 months

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one of these days i'm going to write up all that i've changed from azzarello's bullshit era and the one (1) piece i've kept from milligan (and also changed) and the only thing currently stopping me is that it is going to be so, so inside-baseball incomprehensible. and i almost never want to go reading/screencapping azzarello and milligan to add references but i Want to add references.

canon is goop, just know that we continue to ride the bus down "hellblazer ended at #250 and looks like swiss cheese before that" street.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#i'm doing page maintenance before i fuck off to work rip it's got me thinking #anyway i think i said WAY back on this blog that a side goal of mine is to make hellblazer lore accessible to non-comic readers where i can #bc it's such a Heavy comic & i love it so much & i always felt Terrible recommending it to people only for them to be disgusted #and like. @ past me that particular goal is NOT as easy as you thought it would be lmao #esp because i have a habit of getting VERY detail-oriented when it comes to talking about hellblazer i think #but by GOD it's still a goal. i can put in some motherfucking references here and there when i talk about The Lore #like. azzarello's writing style never translates well for me in synopsis bc he Loves to put the audience in the outside perspective #where we are bystanders/with the rest of the bystanders to constantine's actions and not to his motivations/inner monologue #and i HATE that. hellblazer has ALWAYS been about what this guy has going on underneath the masked exterior #all the things you can't say out loud when you're queer and working class trying to survive in 70s-80s-90s england #but that you FEEL with your WHOLE fucking chest. how that feeling drives you to enjoy little rebellions wherever you can get them #(also azzarello just fucking Sucks LMAO but i'm talking style rn)#so i end up relying on frusin's art to tell the story a little more bc i think he understands the Theatre of constantine's public persona #and when that theatre is Absent then it's really REALLY noticeable. so frusin keeps me in it most of the time #and if i'm digging into frusin art then i'm Going to want to compare it to older panels bc i like body language consistency #milligan on the other hand has NOTHING to save his sorry ass bc his writing is drop-jaw fucking terrible AND the artist seems to like it #but the loss of john's thumb being tied to his mental health (ignoring the bullshit with shade) has always felt. important to me somehow id #anyway MUCH thinking about my favorite loser on this about-to-be-annoying day shdjksd he has been done so dirty #hellblazer brain go brrrr

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revenantghost · 9 months

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Holy! Shit! WHY!!! I was at a craft fair today in an ATTEMPT to get out of my head and earn something, and while I was at my little booth I got rearended?!?!? And luckily some witnesses left a note thinking they got the plates but if not I'm sol!!!!! Why!!!!!!! I'm so fucking tired and overwhelmed and I already have a migraine from crying so much from BEFORE this, why!!!! Is life!!!!!!! Like this!!!!!!!!! This is all I have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#Sorry I'm just #I'm at the end of my fucking rope and then some #Sorry for just having only crap to share lately #Especially after everyone being so supportive #My cat still isn't doing so well and I just #I'm trying so hard and WHY #I just want to cease to exist #Just a LITTLE bit of calm #God I need sleep I wish I could actually get some decent sleep #Yadda yadda

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monty-glasses-roxy · 3 months

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Imagine here with me.

If roxy green room in the pizzaplex got a update Like a set of living conter that off limits to staff and guest to the pizzaplex that got added just for the animatronics.

Inside the living conter would be like bedroom kitchen and livingroom. And possibly a guest bedroom.

Idk what the guest bedroom is for storage personal office idk.

I've had a good few AUs that have something like this in them. The only ones where Fazbear does this is when the animatronics are biological creatures and not animatronics lmao

I had one where they were all gradually moved to a new location and that new location included a designated living space for the animatronics that they could do whatever they wanted with. It was essentially like a multi-story house within the building with rooms for each animatronic - including DJ of course and the four Minis had a shared room by their own choice - and a big communal space with a living room, kitchen (cause they were upgraded with biofuel stomachs) and a little bathroom for if they ever had human guests over. I had ideas for every room, and I gave them a kind of similar home in Rebuild AU, it's a fun little thought exercise to imagine how each of them would decorate their own space. Especially applicable to Meteors.

If Fazbear were to do this for the animatronics it would probably end up a money making thing like 'come have a sleepover with the Glamrocks!!' or something. It's kinda sad, and I bet if they did that, it'd be incredibly rare that the animatronics ever got maybe five minutes to themselves ever, they'd be constantly on the clock. But, that's not to say the animatronics couldn't give themselves their own space if Fazbear doesn't!

Like how I've been saying lately that Roxy has a bunch of lil dens all over the Raceway, Salon and various nooks and crannies of discontinued areas she finds when she's bored and wandering around. There's no reason why the other animatronics couldn't also find their own little hideaways in the other discontinued attractions.

Like the Cupcake Factory is in pieces even before Ruin, so maybe Chica treats it like a home? There's a cut map in the Fazcade called The Hive that's positioned in such a way that it's pretty closed in, with one of DJ's tunnels lining up to it almost perfectly, so I like to think that's his cosy little room now. Oh and did you know there's an 'Out of Order' door in Mazercise with nothing behind it? Well, anything could be back there man. Could be Chica's secret pizza stash for all we know lmao

If we were to put various living spaces like this in Rockstar Row, we could use the cut shortcuts for it. The large images of each member of the band right outside their doors were all initially going to be shortcuts to their corresponding attractions but were ultimately cut for whatever reason. If we were to turn these halls into rooms, or fill in the space they lead to with rooms, then each animatronic could have a secret room behind their poster. That'd be pretty fucking cool honestly I already have some ideas on how to use that but ya know, my point here is that they could have secret rooms literally anywhere and they deserve it there's so much potential there and Fazbear wouldn't be able to do a thing about it

#I'm sorry if this isn't the kind of answer you wanted I'm not sure where you were hoping I'd go with this #pop rox answers #I ended up just spitballing #rolled the idea around a bit like a new pumpkin in my enclosure #I can't believe I forgot about the picture shortcuts though oh my god I have SUCH a fun idea for that #fnaf security breach #sure I'll tag it why not?

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