#genuinely hate it here

[iguessricciardo]

i couldn’t even get a charles pole

#genuinely hate it here

[ickypuppi3]

whatever you do don’t think about billy growing up with neil trying to shape him into the ‘perfect son’

don’t think about billy not understanding why his dad doesn’t like him

about billy saying the wrong thing when someone asks him if he likes any of the girls at school

about billy asking his mom why neil calls him that word

about billy asking his mom if he is that word

#billy hargrove #cw homophobia #neil hargrove #because kids don’t get it !! #he wouldn’t know why neil was so angry at him for being ‘like that’ #why his mom keeps shutting him down every time he tries to talk about it #why he isn’t allowed to hold his friends hand and tell him that he loves him anymore #billy seemed like such an affectionate kid too #and i feel like neil would label any sort of platonic affection as queer (derogatory) #dacre saying neil’s homophobic has caused me a lot of stress #like yes i knew #but he said it #and now that he’s said it it’s even worse yk? #the way billy was specifically the person neil directed that homophobia at #like literally in canon #imagine billy as a kid having to deal with that #and then his mom just leaves #i’m gonna be sick #i’m so upset about him all of the time #genuinely hate it here

[whatthefuckisasweep]

nobody told me the side affects of watching jake and amir is getting that banger milkman song stuck in your head which will inevitably be a problem in public spaces. curse you

#jake and amir #why did all of stony’s songs have to fucking rip #and why do they make me so nostalgic for simple internet #like it almost makes me want to cry #meanwhile some guy is screaming abt his dick getting sucked in autotune #genuinely hate it here

[benydikta]

[ bloody ] except it’s younger Jill going to younger benna ——

 ･     '𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙾𝙽𝙻𝚈 𝙿𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙾𝙽 𝙸 𝙲𝙰𝙽 𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙽 𝚃𝙾'    :    accepting !

𝙸𝚃'𝚂 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝙶𝙾𝙾𝙳 𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝙹𝙸𝙻𝙻 𝙸𝚂 𝙰𝚆𝙰𝚈 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙶. when any of them are. you're waiting for the chip off a mountain. the smallest rock to fall. maybe it'll be a short tumble. most likely it'll be an avalanche, a mudslide     ━    and you're just hoping you felt the trembling before you're buried under the rubble.

benedikta is under no illusion that they can go unnoticed forever. but they've been good. quiet. obedient. jill's picking up things quickly. benedikta is starting to think there is more than how it first appeared when jill arrived, delicate lace trim and silk. she's too used to modesty, to keeping her head down, to the transmutation of a bright-eyed innocent to dull-eyed supplicant to be the spoiled girl of nobility. but benedikta doesn't ask what she isn't told, and if they're not dead today or tomorrow, what does it matter?

they were supposed to meet up outside the kitchens an hour ago. the half of dinner benedikta didn't eat to save for jill has gone cold. benedikta is starting to worry. it's a prickly sensation, wet sweat matted to the nape of her neck. jill is too young. she's got a few years before it matters. she's still got a few years.         ‘‘  and we've been good,  ’’       benedikta murmurs, ash clutched in her closing fists.

but she should've known better. being good only goes as far as she can reach     ━    her malnourished forearm, the worn down tips of her fingers, thin nailbeds    ━    and it barely crosses any distance. if only her body could be a shell; a complete suit of armor; an amber casing that would protect the knobby knees and pink cheeks of that girl who helped her remember how to dream.

fuck imreann. fuck the priests and fuck sacrifice and even if they tied her down to stone, a lamb to the slaughterhouse, she'd do it for jill who had somewhere to go after all this. beneditka couldn't even fucking read. all she had was her rage and her ability to survive. so if it was up to her or jill, if it was a decision at all, then    ━    and then jill arrives.

she's trying to hide a limp but failing; she's dragging her leg behind her. and when she looks up benedikta's heart crumples, cracks, a hammer taking a nail to the hairline crack of her artery, because jill's face is all red and bleeding and she's trying to smile, the cut on her lip making it all awkward with pain.         ‘‘  sorry i'm late.  ’’      

jill tries to be strong but she can't hold it in. her voice warbles, then fails, and benedikta is already bending at her knees to hold her when she starts to cry. she's just a kid. she's got cheek fat and baby teeth and has to mend her clothes because she keeps outgrowing them. she shouldn't be worrying about where her next food is coming from or whether or not it'll be her blood they'll be scrubbing off the flagstones tomorrow.

        ‘‘  no i'm sorry,  ’’      benedikta says, and all the words in her throat sting,         ‘‘  i'm sorry i wasn't there. but i'm here now, okay jill? i'm here.  ’’      she tears off part of her clothes    ━    it's fine, it's all just rags anyway    ━    and she wipes the blood off jill's face, dabbing away the grime with a gentle touch. benedikta swears she'll kill them all. she'll scream and tear until there's nothing of her left. in this moment though, she's got jill, and they're both alive, and jill probably isn't hungry but she'll at least save the bread for later.

and it'll be okay. it'll be alright for as long as they can manage.         ‘‘  if i'm here no one else can hurt you,  ’’      benedikta tries to reassure. she lifts jill off her feet    ━    the girl barely weighs anything at all, but she's not strong either    ━    and holds her close, chest to chest, heart to heart, swaying from the extra weight. jill's face is wet where she presses it into benedikta's collarbone, arms wrapped around her neck.         ‘‘  we'll find a good place under the sky, okay? and i'll tell you your favorite story, the one about wolves.  ’’      jill nods wordlessly into her skin.         ‘‘  and you can hold my hand until you fall asleep tonight. just this once.  ’’      

        ‘‘  promise?  ’’      jill's voice is shrill, feeble and damp.

        ‘‘  yeah.  ’’      benedikta's throat is closed. it's hard to talk through it.         ‘‘  yeah, of course,  ’’      she says a little stronger.         ‘‘  i promise.  ’’      

#glacierites #genuinely hate it here #{ * 𝙸𝚁𝙾𝙽 𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶𝙳𝙾𝙼 𝙰𝚄 : i have to get through this . all of this and my own life ‚ too . #{ * 𝙳𝚈𝙽. 𝙶𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙸𝙴𝚁𝙸𝚃𝙴𝚂 : it's the same old story : a few people just trying ‚ one way or another ‚ to survive .

[hvrrycameron]

you either die a hero or live long enough to be pushed into the role of the villain by your family

#🥴 #genuinely hate it here

[happi-squirrel]

Oh no not me losing the last 10 minutes of splatfest playtime cause of DC’ing

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatfest #genuinely hate it here

[stuckinapril]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on #Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that #It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely #Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the #Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing #I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the #Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to #be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr #I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com. #I refuse #I will do whatever I want forever etc

[sasukeplush]

seeing boruto content on the dash and shaking my head the whole time to make sure my mutuals know i disapprove of the content

#naruto #anti boruto #genuinely hate it here

[slothrusts]

🙃🙃🙃

#sus #genuinely hate it here

[dieamoric]

last post;

#tbh ive been waking up past 12 pm for the past two weeks or so after my surgery #so i end up not being able to talk to my friends a lot bc they're already offline by the time i work up the spoons to get out of bed #so i just. end up forgetting. #when i make plans /w friends or say i'm gonna do this! #like me saying i was gonna ask them what they thought about subsidized housing for all like a day or two ago #this is actually sort of a bigger problem born of my adhd and depression tbh #i've been inbetween psychs for months now because of the rural area i'm in having shitty doctors #i am an afab /w heavy masking so anything i say i have adhd it's like they roll their eyes and groan #i have SO many wip projects #including passion projects that i want to get back into working on #and i just.. can't. #i am self medicating with coffee #genuinely hate it here #anyway don't be surprised if this blog ends up being inactive for long stretches of time #you'll know why lol

[rottenteeth]

on my period and violently dissociating i genuinely think i would rather explode than have to deal with two more days of this oh my god

#went to the fridge three (3) separate times for a drink bc i forgot why i was there #genuinely hate it here #text #delete later

[vaxxman]

whats so fun about the vaccinator (vacc slander)?

You come to my blog and disrespect me like that.

Have some vaccinator propaganda.

Some textless panels that I enjoyed drawing and rambling about the vaccinator medigun under the cut.

Surprise, it's only medic.

I am not saying the vaccinator is not absolutely broken, I 100% feel dirty using it against a badly coordinated team, hence I wouldn't mind if it received a nerf in the future.

A lot of people analyse the vaccinator as only useful against a badly coordinated enemy team, but I think it's much better as a weapon for when your own team sucks ass has bad synergy, since any form of uber is pretty much wasted on everyone (if you can even build enough charge). To compensate for everyone's mistakes, just make sure they stay alive long enough to capture points and push the cart. Everyone will automatically stay with you, and soon you'll have a nice meat shield of 4 people swarming around you. You know it's working, when there's suddenly 3 demoknights and a spy after you.

I love micromanaging my resistance bubbles, and I love micromanaging my team without them noticing that I'm doing it. Pressing the R-button to rotate through resistances feels like such a much more engaging contribution to the battles your patients are fighting.

Vaccinator is busted, but absolutely not boring.

And to close this rambling, here's my fav video about the vaccinator:

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #tf2 medic #tf2 heavy #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #tf2 soldier #I would also like to place a disclaimer here: I am absolutely not good at this game #In no way is what this comic here shows meta knowledge #I just haven't seen a lot of people point out the positive sides of the vaccinator #which are: It's objectively the most engaging medigun and genuinely fun to use #People will complain about how playing medic is boring but the same people discourage the use of the vaccinator #If I see anyone try to spew hate about my opinion on this gun I'm blocking you fr

[markscherz]

Happy World Frog Day! 🐸

I hate to make this a commercialised holiday, but you may be interested to know that I sell some frog-related merch on RedBubble, including the poster shown above, stickers, and other fun stuff like an awesome froggy shower curtain! I have one at home, and it’s excellent. Profits go towards supporting your local frog scientist.

#world frog day #frog #frogs #amphibians #shameless self promotion #sorry about that #I am terrible at advertising the things I sell #because I hate ads with a passion #but I think some of you might genuinely like to own some of these things #so here we are

[chibishortdeath]

Don’t u hate it when you draw something and then ur like “wow uh no one follows me for this fandom” haha lol anyway

Undertale is a pretty cool game, I may have a favorite character from it uh—

#undertale #undertale papyrus #papyrus #undertale fanart #hashtags yippie #art post #my art #not my usual content #but whatever #I have too much art to put on here #I look through my gallery and genuinely get stressed out #anyway #have fun picking out every little reference in this #I might draw him again in the future who knows #I used to hate drawing him but I’ve figured it out now lol #a silly little guy #all of my favorite characters have something in common #it’s concerning! #have fun guessing what that is #I should like actually play undertale again #not a Castlevania post

[jiiyawns]

it all starts with this

#shadow the hedgehog #sth #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic adventure 2 #sa2 #i Could post the full image but genuinely i kinda hate that crop BFKSJFKSKD so yes even tumblr gets the funny little #'this is a screenshot of my canvas buuuuut' type of post for this drawing #maybe ill do more for it in the future . who knows. until then the lighting here is kinda swag i think #fanart #draw

[egophiliac]

I was going to wait and poke at this a bit more, but the excitement of Upcoming Episode 7 took over. :') so here's one of my alt ideas for Silver's UM poster! this time with more Diasomnia-appropriate colors (that said, you can tear the pink fluffy clouds away from my cold dead hands)

I also recorded this one, for anyone who's interested in that kind of thing! it includes all my fuckups and changing my mind and spending forever adding details before deciding it looks better without, so, uhhh, enjoy my failures! (I kept trying to draw in his jacket details...it never worked...) also featuring lots of drawing on the wrong layer, forgetting how jackets work, and the black censor boxes of continually forgetting to turn off pop-up notifications. hope you like watching me draw birds!

here it is, combined and compressed down to about 10 minutes long (with a warning for flickering and flashing colors from sped-up zooming/layer changes): [ link ]

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #eyestrain #not pictured: every time i had to stop working on it for the day because i was getting so mad at it #and honestly if i don't post this now i'm going to hate it too much to ever post it so HEY here we are #we're not going to talk about the ring. we just aren't. #genuinely the hardest part of this style is trying not to overdo it #something i struggle with a lot...as you can see 🫠 #i actually don't normally do color thumbs (or at least not to that level) #but the bird overlay and the dark jacket against a dark background made me so nervous #and then i ended up changing basically every color anyway #whoops