so often i'll get that sudden and wonderful urge to make comics and stories of my OCs that I can actually show people but then just as quickly that urge is dashed by various foolish reasons, and one of the most foolish of those reasons is i get. scared. about committing to stylistic choices in a webcomic or illustration
WHICH is foolish BECAUSE
you can just. change them
really gotta stop thinking about branding and shit. some people are good with that but it always just paralyzes me LOL especially because when i think about all the comics and fiction and all that i like you can see signs of stylistic choices and characterizations shifting from the original vision at the start to how it ended up because things EVOLVE that is a Normal Aspect of storytelling IT TRULY is a foolish thing to get scared by orz
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Cannot find my older post about it (tbh I didn't try very hard) but honestly I am so tired of people trying to pretend like there's any sort of consistency to "cis women getting a nose job is evil and NOT feminist. However all transsexual surgery is Holy Holy Holy". It's truly not surprising how often people end up reblogging from like, actual tradcaths about "modern women ruining their natural feminine beauty" or whatever. I've said this all before so I don't wanna repeat myself but obviously this does not mean "you cannot critique what drives people (cis or trans) to get 'plastic surgery'" or "women's choices exist in a vacuum" (although I would roll back some of the extreme performative hatred for women who make The Bad Not Feminist Choices), but it DOES mean "stop pretending like there's any sort of actual distinction between Cis Plastic Surgery (bad) and Trans 'Gender-Affirming' Surgery (good) that does not fully rely on the medicalization of being transgender" and it ALSO means "stop pretending to care about bodily autonomy when what you really mean is 'people can do things with their bodies I think are cool and good, but not things that I don't like. Those things should literally be banned, that's how we will save women'"
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idk been doing some concepts for a spiderman oc, aka spider-woman aka bronze spider aka spider-claw aka veronica "nickel" jackson. this is the most effort ive put into designing any oc ever tbh
uhhh additional stuff under the read-more
[id: some images of colorless digital sketches. the first one is a few concepts for her outfit design, based off victorian-era clothing, mainly in the shape of a tunic, baggy trousers, and boots. her eye-lenses are goggles, which can widen and squint spider-verse style. there are also several concepts of her spider symbol, most of which are in a mechanical style. a list of text tucked between the designs reads, "stockings, beanie hat? coats, belts, chains? handkerchief, tophat." there's also "Bronze Spider" written in the corner of the image.
the second image is some earlier concepts. the main one is just a plain fullbody without any detail. there are some shots of just her torso to figure out the spider symbol placement and design. there are also a few spider symbol designs, though they're not mechanical.
the last image is of nickel in one of the victorian-style designs, seeming to be in midair, her legs hooked back and her arms bent outward, as though she's in the middle of a big jump. end id]
she's gonna have two versions, this is the one before The Incident, and she's gonna have one for After.
she lives in this like, modern fantastical steampunk society (there's technology like phones n computers; there's dragons and unicorns n other creatures; and steampunk. her nyc is called the Tiered City because it is. in tiers. for general inspiration, i imagine it as classic steampunk stuff (cause i dont wanna do worldbuilding, except that they have modern technology too, just steampunk-ified) mixed with some arcane with a hint of lady trent's memoirs (in terms of the fantasy wildlife). but im still figuring things out though
nickel's whole thing is that she is actually one of two spiderpeople in her universe. they're known together as the spider-twins, even though the other spidey is actually her cousin (whose name is victoria jackson) but it's not that important. nickel also has a gf, her name is elsa but im still not sure of a surname
anyway The Incident happens and victoria dies and that rlly screws up nickel, and at some point (before, during, or after idk), nickel gets some drake dna and now whenever she's stressed or angry or anything, she turns into a drake. (it's a process that depends on how awful she feels though so she can just have like, dragon horns only for example). and because she's rather self-destructive at this point she starts calling herself spider-claw.
there's a whole metaphor thing going on w her and dragons are awesome so im using that. also this is all subject to change because im still figuring her out x_x but im having fun with it so it's fine
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im gonna rant!!!
i’m so tireeddddd of people projecting their pathetic insecurities onto everyone else (me). like i’m sorry you’re afraid to be alone and you don’t know who you are and you’re insecure and you have no courage. not to be a bitch but seriously. idc anymore maybe i am stuck up maybe i do think i’m better than you!! but coming at me because i refuse to do what everyone else does with such contempt and vigour just exposes you. like i have accepted that in my life i will not experience romantic love. not because it doesn’t exist, it does for some people, but i’m not gonna base my entire life and goals around meeting someone, falling in love, marrying them and having their children. i’d be ready to end my shit right now if those were my goals, being 28 and not even having a boyfriend. that means i’ve already failed at life but i knowwww i’m still a caterpillar. like be serious. sooooo yeah, sorry that in your narrow worldview everyone needs to basically get married and have kids, and there’s “someone out there for you” — what so all women gotta find that person by age 30 or our lives are over?? 😂 you delusional weirdos sound like hardcore christians. like maybe there is someone for me who i’ll meet when i’m 45 or 70! maybe i’ll never meet them! maybe there isn’t anyone because that’s just the way the world is! but i’m selfish because i don’t want to spend my life being miserable because i can’t find love and place all chances of future happiness on this person and the privilege of bearing/raising their kids??!!? so i should just settle for second best — of something i don’t even WANT — because everyone says it’s the point of life?… anyways
i’m just annoyed like i said. i can accept a loveless life, it’s hard but i’m ok lol. yeah it gets sad and lonely sometimes but truth is i have a pretty wonderful life that i’m thankful for, despite sadness, loneliness, grief etc. being in love won’t improve things in any significant way imo. i don’t want to be isolated in a relationship with a man. i don’t want to live with a man. i don’t want to have kids. i like my life; i like my 50 year old snowboard bum roommate, i like my shit car, i like having the ability to do whatever i want. i like bouncing from job to job, despite the financial insecurity and general lack of stability; all my life i’ve wanted to be free and independent, and i finally am — i can take care of myself which is what matters. i love my friends, i love exploring different hobbies and places and careers. i am literally unemployed and haven’t been this happy in a long, long time. i’m so sick of people telling me they “want me to be happy” but ignore me when i say i finally truly am. they just want to shove me in their stifling little box with them for god knows what reason. just because you think your life is perfect doesn’t mean it will be for everyone. idk, things change! maybe i’ll change too! but for now shut the fuck up. go be in your annoying relationship with your insufferable bf/husband and tell everyone how much were missing out on by not being married/having kids. the gals a couple feminist waves back beg to differ along with the steadily rising divorce rates and rapidly declining marriage and birth rates.
you’re the one who’s unhappy. if not, then you simply lack compassion and general respect for others. your worldview is small and you’re ignorant. your life is yours, others have different wants and will follow the path that leads them to those things. we all suffer for our choices — sure, i may wish at times i had a spouse and a house and a mouse. that doesn’t mean it’s what i have always wanted deep deep down. it means it’s normal to wonder what it would be like to have what you don’t and yearn a little sometimes. BUT i’d literally never give up my freedom. i think back to high school often and how restricted i felt; i couldn’t breathe. i flailed in that environment because it was so rigid. i’m never, ever going back to that, ever. i have self respect
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