Fandom old. This blog is a dumpster fire of eclectic tasts. I reblog a lot. I mutter in the tags. Currently hyperfixating on buddie and 9-1-1. Autistic, adhd, queer, any pronouns.
Oh hey! I wanted to ask for some hyper specific book recommendations. Here's the necessary parameters:
3rd person limited pov and then either or both of the following:
unreliable narrator, but they're unreliable because they're oblivious/"stupid"/unaware of their own feelings/etc not because they're purposefully deceitful
pov character who experiences the world emotionally as opposed to logically. A feeler, not a thinker.
Literally anyone please weigh in, but I'm tagging @glorious-spoon and @unbearable-lightness-of-ink because you both seem to read a lot, but no pressure.
There you are, innocently eating tapas at a restaurant, when you hear boss fight music behind you:
(He'll have the Caesar salad, gracias.)
This 10 meter tall statue of Augustus looms over Puerta Cinegia Gastronómica, a dining/shopping mall in Zaragoza, Spain. Augustus founded the town as Caesaraugusta (hence Zara-agoza) over 2000 years ago as a colony for veterans of the Cantabrian Wars, and many Roman ruins are still visible. I now want to visit Zaragoza.
I think it’s funny when we say buck got baby trapped. He learned Eddie had a kid and fucking parent trapped Eddie. He said sorry I’m gonna be your sons other father you just have to deal with it
i know we all joked about buck repeatedly calling himself an ally when he was literally just kissing another man on the mouth a few days prior but like…of course he would?
for over 30 years he thought he was just that an ally and then some hot guy he barely knows but admires kisses him and suddenly there’s this whole new part of him that he didn’t even know existed. that is a huge thing to come to terms with and even tho it was exciting and freeing it was probably also weird? and scary? and just very confusing?
but those emotions aren’t something he feels towards queer people because he is, say it with me an ✨ally✨ so that’s probably not something he could immediately wrap his head around. saying out loud or even letting himself feel that he’s anxious about other people finding out that he likes men reads to him as something a homophobic person would feel and not as something pretty much every queer person can relate to.
so he just went into default mode reassuring more himself than anyone else that he’s an ally and that he knows that it isn’t wrong and that he doesn’t have to feel ashamed of liking men because rationally he knows that!! he just didn’t feel it until he got the support and reassurance from maddie and eddie, the two people closest to him who know his heart. knowing they still love him and see him the same was the thing he needed to be confident in himself (and to pick up the phone to get the guy he likes back) because ultimately something finally fell into place for him he just had some temporary adjustment difficulties.