Apology
I’m not sure if I’m allowed to tell you,
but
the door of the home we grew up in
flung open
and
the junk drawer
is stuffed full of
handwritten
apology
notes.
The hamster
we buried in the
backyard
in 2005
is scurrying across
the kitchen countertops
fresh sheets,
still hot from the
dryer
parachuted
on the bed.
Sims 2 loaded
up on the
white brick
computer
that looming dark
corner of the
basement where
I saw a ghost;
the terrible roar of
the furnace echoing in the dark.
Chalk etchings in the driveway,
portraits of our family,
as we were when we died.
Smiling, neat sweaters,
capturing the moment
we gave ourselves
to the flow of
the days
that do not
understand
mercy
or
what it
means
to cry
“uncle”.
And I have been battered by the unrelenting force of the days. The terror of the nights. I have given up.
I have burned this house in my mind. I have razed this memory to the ground. I have tried to end my life twice--
I don’t know if I’m allowed to tell you, but
Step out
into the front yard.
The apology notes from the drawer, floating in the air
coming down
like snow,
blotting out the sun.
I caught one.
I don’t remember writing it,
But it was from me, as I am, in the
loathed present--
addressed to my
ten year old self.
I could see him
watching from the
living room window,
buck teeth beaming,
ballcap turned backwards,
holding a Gameboy SP.
The note read:
“I’m sorry for giving
up on you.
For giving
up on living.”
Another note floats down. Not an apology, but a response.
"It's okay.
Want to play
Animal Crossing?
That always
makes
me feel better
when I'm sad.
Or we could
look for frogs
at the grassy edge of the
retention pond.
We still
have
time."
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The Legend of Zelda: The Minish Cap - Town Fair - Nintendo/Capcom 2004
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AGS-101
Kanagawa Wave/Clear 50/50 mod shell.
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Wallpapers I made for my Z Flip
Feel free to use.
Based on these
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GameBoy Advance SP Shell Mod - Super Famicom Edition
Another GameBoy mod, but this time an Advance SP with a shell replacement. This shell was very worn out, and this GameBoy looks brand new, with a retro throwback.
If you want a mod like this, get a commission here.
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Totally gonna sell this gameboy advance sp
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For someone who hates any appliance making noise I sure do miss the Gameboy startup chime
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The Gameboy Sp is the best possible form for any electronic device, everything after that was down hill
So here's what the perfect phone would look like
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trying this game again after watching wario land series retrospective.. i am so glad i got this game as a kid.. i think i almost finished it but am not sure from what year the last save file is.. for now i just deleted second save file that had only 1st boss beaten.
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