#functioningdepression

[nezumizooms7]

The struggle is real...😅Glad I'm not alone! I don't know why, but for some reason it is just so damn tough to sit down and write (not all the time, but a lot of the time)...it always feels like there are other more important things that really need to get done, (besides that deadline looming in for hours)... But really important things, like -checking on the garden for the fifth time in two hours; -emptying the only two dishes in the kitchen sink; -hanging upside down on my yoga trapeze; -snuggling with my rats; -going downstairs with the intention to do something important, subsequently forgetting what that was, & wandering outside instead; -heading back upstairs, finally settling down & realizing I went downstairs to get something to drink. (Back downstairs again...oh! I need to take out the trash!)🤷‍♀️ #Repost @kat_boogaard with @let.repost #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #freelancewriting #freelancewritinglife #writing #adhd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #functioningdepression #meditation #selfdiscipline #loomingdeadline #selfcare #yogatrapeze #priorities #adultingishard #thestruggleisreal #shinyobjectsyndrome #whycantijustwrite #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeX8hX_Lrqi/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[leavemehear]

“At heart, I have always been a coper. I’ve mostly been able to walk around with my wounds safely hidden, and I’ve always stored up my deep depressive episodes for the weeks off when there was time to have an abbreviated version of a complete breakdown. But in the end, I’d be able to get up and get on with it, could always do what little must be done to scratch by.”

-Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

#depression #functioningdepression #mentalhealth #prozac #prozacnation #mood

[bliss4yrsol]

Im sitting in this place right now.... I'm attempting to dig my way out... I hate feeling like this. But you mask it all with a smile and laughter... . . . . #functioningdepression #itsucks #menolikey https://www.instagram.com/p/BpQipirgmHX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1t18581jfgyle

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[mutedfaerie]

Hey look! I left the house and am being semi productive for once! Go me? #functioningdepression #mentalhealth #depressionsucks #butatleastilookcute #iam1in4 #yayitsfinallycold (at Santa Rosa Junior College)

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[danielledryden-blog]

The Letter About Exercise & Depression

Hello Dear Friend

I hope today is a good one for you! I am not sure what we are doing as a family today, the weather in typical British fashion can't make up its mind what it wants to do. I will be glad when the Summer holidays are over, and things return to relative normality. It has been a roller coaster of a few months, and I look forward to the Autumnal season with a new excitement. I just love the Autumn, what is your favourite Season? I know that SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) can be a real issue for some, but then I also read that SAD can affect people during the Summer months too. It seems it is all about getting a good balance of night and day that suits you. It is a tricky skill to learn.

Have you had any Summer holidays this year? Unfortunately due to me crashing my car, the finances have been a little tight. As usual the insurance money I got from my last car, didn't cover the cost to buy a suitable replacement. We are going away for a couple of days at the end of this week, and am looking forward to a bit of a break and I think the kids really need it to.

When I return from my break I am going to get back into the gym. Unfortunately depression has more recently been winning and I have been avoiding going there. But I have purchased a new fitness tracker and am going to force myself to go. I have made a deal with myself.

'No matter what happens, on Monday after work, I am going straight to the gym'.  I have read the book Atomic Habits by James Clear, and this was one of the strategies he discussed, to encourage sound habit formation. If you want to develop new and sustainable habits, I cannot recommend this book enough. I have the audio version and the paper version.

I know how important exercise is, to not only my physical health but also my mental health. The gym is my place, this is the place where I practice my version of mindfulness. I hear so many people say they cannot 'do' mindfulness. I believe this is due to them adopting an inflexible strategy taught to them in a specific class. In reality, meditation or mindfulness can involve any activity that allows you to clear your mind of clutter and to simply focus on one thing, this could be your breathe, the feeling of air blowing around you on a walk, the sensation of cuddling one of your pets, or the feeling in your muscles as you run on the treadmill, or lift that weight in the gym. The latter is my form of mindfulness, to feel my body working and stretching, feels to me like I am working out and stretching some of my problems (does this make sense?, or am I speaking woo woo, lol).

Looking from the biological sense, exercise increases blood flow to your brain and releases endorphins (you probably already know this), your very own antidepressant. But did you know it also releases other neurotransmitters such as serotonin and also neurotrophic factor. Serotonin is found in antidepressant medication. Neurotrophic factor assists in brain health and memory (which is often lowered in depressed people). Exercise also reduces immune system chemicals which can worsen depression, and control the effect that stress can have on your brain.

I don't know about you, but when you are in the hold of depression it can be really difficult to listen to someone telling you to exercise. It is probably the last thing you want to do. This is why, James Clear's strategy of making a deal with yourself, to commit to doing something, works so well. No one but you is telling you and you are empowering yourself.

The benefits of exercise are just endless, and I am now becoming more frustrated with myself for letting my routine lapse. Never mind, I accept that life has thrown me a few nasty punches recently. No point in dwelling, is there?

I recently read an article on the Better Health Website, which reminded me of the other benefits of exercise on mild to moderate depression (those who are often described as smiling depressives).  

They note the following benefits:

increase your energy levels

promote a better nights sleep

can distract you from your thoughts and break a negative thought chain

help you get out and be near people (did you know that even a smile from a stranger can boost your mood)

promote feelings of being in control and increases in self-esteem

helps avoid more problematic approaches of handling depression including alcohol, over eating, or dwelling on things.

Okay, so in writing this letter to you I am trying to help you, but indeed, today, I have motivated myself to dust of them trainers and get back into it.....

I will write again tomorrow, and I hope that you manage to get some physical activity into your day, please let me know if you do!

With Love

Danielle

x

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[nezumizooms7]

Also, it doesn't help when you can't pull your butt outta bed...🧐 My whole day gets bunched up like a perma-wedgie & then I get stressed out... & that makes deadlines more anxiety-inducing. I function best with a structured day/routine, so waking up at 9:45am to start writing for 6.5 hours, even though I have 1.5 hours of household work, meditation/self-care, etc. to do before I start working, just ain't working too great 🥱 #functioningdepression #highfunctioninganxiety #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #selfcare #thestruggleisreal #adultingishard #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #freelancewriting #writerslife #cantgetoutofbed #dysania #somuchtodosolittletime #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CduvbdaubHz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[nezumizooms7]

I'll be honest. The past few months have been really tough for me. The functioning depression really overshadows anything positive that's been going on in my life. Whether it's doing my dream job, connecting with family members, or catching up with friends. The struggle is real. I find myself looking & experiencing things both good & bad & I just don't feel anything, or just feel sad & angry. Numbness is the norm. & anger. A lot of what I'm doing just feels meaningless & incredibly pointless, & it sucks because I've been feeling this way for years. I don't know what switch flipped, but I just suddenly realized it this year. Maybe it's because I'm getting old, I'm not where I ever expected myself to be. I actually don't know where I ever expected myself to be, in reality. Perhaps it's because I'm just sort of floating here with no real goals or aspirations. Maybe it's the uncanny knack for getting incredibly alone, vulnerable, & isolated, even when I'm with other people. Somehow I've perfected acting like everything is ok, because that's what I was taught by society. "If you pretend everything is ok, then it'll get better." "No one wants to hear you mope & be sad." "You're the only one that can fix the issues you're experiencing." "Just let it go." If it was that easy. I mean, dude. I can't even find a therapist that takes my insurance in this city. Everyone has a wait-list. Getting out of bed in the morning? That's funny. I just feel like this is it... Whatever it is. Like, now what? On a good note, I fell asleep on the couch & woke up with a rat sleeping next to me. #functioningdepression #highfunctioningdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #feelingstuck #gettingoldsucks #dysania #ratstagram #ratsareawesome #ratsofinstagram #realitybites #myratsaremyworld #instarat #ratlife #itgetsbetterright #sleepyrat #alwaystired #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcZwALkrYdQ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[nezumizooms7]

I know it may not seem like it, but damn... I've been in a moody-mood the past month🙄 It's freaking exhausting maintaining a positive exterior & pretending that everything is ok. You guys with normal brains sure are lucky 😅 #Repost @scary_booo #inamood #mentalhealth #emotionalhealthmatters #functioningdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #feelings #selfcompassion #everythingsucks #everythingisfine #scarybooo #relatablecomics #cuteillustration #ghostart #halloween #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVmPmTmFBB8/?utm_medium=tumblr

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[nezumizooms7]

I am so f'ing excited right now😱 I bought this book on secondsale.com - hey, I'm a thrifty buyer. Sometimes the almighty Amazon DOES NOT have the best deals... But I digress... Super excited to have this book because I need it. That's it. I'm so glad that this book was created 😅 #empaths #empathssurvivalguide #empathproblems #judithorloff #settingboundaries #listeningskills #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #functioningdepression #onestepatatime #deepbreathing #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVWECzBvXyN/?utm_medium=tumblr

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[nezumizooms7]

TGIF! What happened!? Where'd time go? Why haven't I done the things I've been meaning to do since a week or more ago? 🙄😳😬 #Repost @personalplanner #friyayquote  #itsprettypersonal #tgif #organizedchaos #ineedstructure #longweek #timeflies #wheredthetimego #happyplanner #functioningdepression #cantgetoutofbed #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVEw022F6Y3/?utm_medium=tumblr

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[nezumizooms7]

Even though my workload is currently NOT super unreasonable. It's just mainly taking care of the household and trying to, you know, find writing work. But in my defense, there's a lot of stuff that has to be done daily/weekly to keep this house moving😅 Finding work is in itself, a job. And doing chores, running errands, making appointments, keeping everybody fed is also a lot of work. Now, if I could just keep my self organized and commit to a daily schedule, that would be swell. Like, you know, actually getting my butt out of bed on the morning... That's a good start😅 #housework #stayathomelife #notamom #stayorganizedv#organizedbutnot #ineedstructure #organizedchaos #cantgetoutofbed #functioningdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #writerslife #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #freelancewriter #freelancewriting #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CU8PBSvhmR7/?utm_medium=tumblr

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