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kanene-yaaay · 3 years

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Go to Sleep

Kanene’s note: Gosh, having a schedule is weird. I just wanna post everything I already wrote and ramble non stop about it asdfgtyujkigfdo. XD

Well, this was suppose to be a drabble, but it’s very long so sdftyujikgfred. I hope you like it!

Warnings, fun facts, random things and stuff:

* This characters don’t belongs to me! They all belong to Thomas Sanders from the serie Sanders Sides.

* This is a SFW tickle fanfic. If you don’t appreciate this kind of content, please, look for another blog. There are a plenty of fabulous arts in this site!! ^w^)b

* This is Lee!Virgil with Ler!Roman. Around 1.500 words.

* Sorry for any spelling, pontuation and grammar mistakes! Any and every advice is very very welcome! \(-w-)/

* Listen a bit to the birds today. Changing the way you think is not a bad thing. Drink water, sleep, eat and love!

[~*~]

Roman growled, missing by a few inches the button of his thunderous, infuriating alarm before finally hitting it. Staring and blinking lazily at the numbers his brain struggled to discern and recognize, only to confirm it was really time to wake up and start the day. He grabbed his pillow and squeezed it with all the strength he could muster, rolling from one side to other on the mattress, trying to wake up his body as quick as his mind and almost falling from the bed a reasonable number of times during the process.

He got up, yawing, stretching and humming as the first lyrics of the day stuck on his head, hand rubbing at his eyes as he followed the kitchen’s direction with slow steps and tired sways on the beat of the song.

Two dark, wide eyes stared right back at him, their owner completely frozen on the spot with his hand inside the cabinet, probably already holding some sort of a snack. Roman also stopped mid-step, gears running inside his mind, gaze locked on the other, his brow progressively furrowing.

“Virgil,” he began, voice slightly hoarse “What the heckty heck are you doing up? It’s barely seven in the morning!” Virgil only stared back, slowly closing the cabinet’s door, as if afraid the movement would startle the other. Roman proceeded to get some eggs and other cold ingredients from the refrigerator for the breakfast, his words growing more awake and vivid as they spilled with no filter or whatsoever from his lips. “You got an early shift again or something? Those are absolutely hellish. A bunch of people exhausted, tired and glaring at you as if you are the holder of all their problems and their solutions can only be achieved by being insufferable pieces of- Urg. I can’t believe they would give you one right after you got the night one. Damn, I didn’t even see you arriving here yesterday!”

He turned his attention back at the other, looking for a kind of frustration in the place of the still startled, wide gaze which continued to be directed at him. Virgil nodded slowly, stepping away and putting some physical distance between him and the confusion on Roman’s features.

Then, between the strings of sleepiness that clouded his brain, it clicked.

Suddenly more details on the other’s behavior started to become clearer: the way Virgil’s hair was messier than his usual ““style”” (Roman scoffed mentally, thinking that if he rolled his eyes any harder they would never come back to his normal place again), his wary, yes, but way too much slow movements, the way he seemed to be unable to stop blinking at every millisecond and, above it all, the final piece of the puzzle.

Virgil wasn’t wearing his pajamas.

“YOU DIDN’T!” Roman gasped, as if Virgil’s life choices were a personal attack. “YOU DIDN’T GET ANY SLEEP LAST NIGHT!!” A turn of heels and he was again fixating his glare on the other, his free hand accusingly pointing in his direction, receiving an annoyed hiss as immediate answer.

“Shut up!” Virgil snarled, practically growling back at him. “It’s fucking seven am don’t be so freaking loud.”

“Don’t change the subject! Why didn’t you go to sleep?”

The one being questioned just snorted, half amused. “Bold of you to assume I’d ever sleep in my whole life.”

“That is it.” Virgil didn’t even have the time to wonder the meaning of his friend’s sentence before the aforementioned picked him up, resulting to a not very contained shriek escaping from his lips and his hands not much gracefully – or gently, although since they were keen on just jumping on each other out of nowhere to play fight Princey would be fine - meeting his friend’s face.

“Roman! What the he-”

“Did you just SLAP me? My beautiful face?! Before my own beautiful eyes??” Virgil Storm always got, even if he would never admit this out loud, surprised with Roman’s capacity of doing a series of offended incoherent noises which evolved to words before being carefully metamorphosed in weird noises all over again, and in the end still managing to form comprehensible sentences. His surprise did nothing to quell the grumpy snark immediately flying from lips, though.

“And I’m going to do it again if you don’t let me go in this exact instant.”

“You go and try to help and that is the acknowledgement you get,” The one wearing pajamas with little crows printed on it huffed, mumbling in a lower tone as he noticed the sharp gaze being thrown in his direction. “fucking unbelievable.”

“I still can hear you, Princey. You’re literally carrying me.”

“I sTiLL cAn HeAr yOu-OW! Ow! Ow!” The sentence was interrupted when the sleep deprived one punched Roman’s shoulder. “You’re insufferable, you know that?”

“Let me fucking gAAH!” In a way his wish was granted, one could say as they watched his protest being cut as Storm was impolitely tossed on his bed, Roman quickly following his friend on the mattress, arms hugging him from behind, and physically preventing him from escaping his current soft predicament. “Prince, you’re dead.”

“Shhh, no talking. We’re sleeping.”

“We are not. You are being a pain in ass and I am about to defenestrate you.” Despite his fervent protests, his sharp, flaming glare began to lose its heat, his body not doing any actual effort to free himself from the other’s – strong, good - grip, muscles starting to relax against the great warmth involving him in a comfortable and secure blanket.

“Sure, sure, mister Grumpy Pants, you can do that when you wake up.” He tightened a bit his hold around Virgil, yet being the most careful as possible, actively ignoring the annoyed hiss his friend gave him. His hoodie was really fluffy at the touch, slightly remembering his stuffed animals he frequently hugged to sleep.

For a moment, everything was pleasantly quiet. The one with smudged makeup, since he hadn’t time to get it off before being trapped by his roommate and best friend, felt the tiredness becoming sleepiness as the seconds went by.

…That was until an electric sensation shot across his spine, leading him to almost jump in the same place

“S-stop nuzzling me!”

“Hm? Oh sorry.” Virgil pressed his lips tightly closed, preventing the wobbly giggles to escape as Roman speaks, not realizing how close his mouth was from the base of his neck, every breath sending tickly shocks across every nerve. “You’re just too much sooooft.”

Roman opened an eye when realized that no snark remark from the other followed his words, the figure in his arms shaking too much to be asleep. A frown painted his feature as he readjusted the position of his hands, trying to get a bit more of balance to look at Virgil’s face when suddenly a high-pitched yelp escaped, cutting the air and immediately catching their attention.

“Did you just squeal?” He questioned as his glare assumed a playful shine seeing a blush spread on his now frozen friend.

“It was NOT a squeal! It was a yelp.” Virgil’s words came so fast that they almost tripped on themselves. Roman snorted, a smile taking over his face. “Get off me!” and, in the moment the one wearing a hoodie tried to pry his hand from the spot on his right side where it was resting, the pieces finally clicked in the right place and his smile quickly submerged, giving space to a smirk.

‘No WAY Doctor Doom and Gloom is ticklish!’

However, the red lover only blinked as the true personification of innocence and naiveness, his hand firm in its place, fingers starting to slowly move, light pokes being delivered on the sensitive skin. “But why that, Knight Mare? It’s cold and all I could ever want is just to hug my bestest friend!”

“You already hugged me, now go aWAY!” His voice trembled in the last second, the exact moment his thumb experimentally scratched the spot right under the lowest ribs, leading a surprised squeak to leave Virgil’s mouth.

They both stared at each other, gleaming, filling their wide eyes.

“No.” Virgil said, trying to squirm away but finding himself stuck between Prince and the wall. Roman didn’t even attempt to hide his smug grin, anymore. This was going to be so much fun

“Don’t you dare! Don’t you freaking dare!!” His friend only laid down again, now carefully, yet firmly, pulling him one more time against his chest, growling playfully. Years and years fighting for the Tickle Monster title on his family, battles and battles against Remus only sharpening his skills, which showed by the way his fingers seemed to find every single weak spot on Virgil’s skin, wiggles, scribbles, pokes and scratching exploring everywhere. “No! Nononono! You fucker, you moron, you bitch, you-” A few chuckles cut his curses as he one wearing pajamas squeezed his side a couple of times, the tip of his fingers also teasing his ticklish stomach. “Roman!!”

“No, no, my so dear, so ticklish, friend. Roman is no longer here, this is…” He paused for a dramatic effect, basically beaming at the giggly giggles and wiggly wiggles from the other. He shoved his face on his neck, the next words vibrating almost as bad as the spidering on his ribs. “The Tickle Monster!!”

#Cursing #This is inspired on a meme I saw that was basically two beans staring each other like ':0' with the legend 'Me waking up at 5 AM' and-#- 'My roomate going to sleep at 5 AM'#Idk why but this is so funny to me xDDD #I will probably use that exact scenario in others fics in the future #Lee!Virgil #Ler!Roman #Ticklish!Virgil #Sanders Sides tickles #Sanders Sides tickling #Kanene's Fanfic #Kanene's Fic #Kanene's Art #I couldn't write the tickles here for some reason xDD Honestly if someone want to continue the idea/fic pls feel free to!#I really like this idea xP

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pinkiewitchcraft · 2 years

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~ Meet the Witch(?): ~

(Oopsss!!! Warning, this is a long post!!! o-o)

April 5, 2022

~ Personal ~

Name: Pinkie LoveHeart Pastel. I don’t like my given name.

Pronouns: She/Her

Age: 600 years old!!! Jk, I’m 22 years old… you filthy mortals.

Signs: Stop, Go and Slow Down… JK!!! I personally don’t believe in the zodiacs, but I’m a Gemini sun, a Libra rising, and a Libra moon.

Where: In yeehaw land.

~ Magical Interests: ~

Self-Care

Arts and Crafts

Makeup and Hair

Fashion

Nature (animals, flowers, etc)

The color Pink

Kindness, Love, Hope, and Positivity

Photography

Dreams

Food (mostly sweets, but also just food in general!!!)

~ Some of my favorite witch blogs: ~

I don’t know that many witch blogs, and I’m also very wary of them, as I’m afraid of running into radfems and terfs, and other bigots, such as white feminists who think that only cis-women can be witches, but I like @crazycatsiren and @witches-ofcolor !!! ^-^

~ Fun facts: ~

I was born quiet!!!

I love long walks… if you asked me to go on a hike at a very large park that looked endless, I would jump up and down like a happy little puppy-dog, omg… I love them!!! Ask me to go for a walk!!!

I collect stuffed animals SUCH AS SQUISHMALLOWS, and other stuffed animals you’d usually find at regular stores. I want to collect pusheens as well because they’re so cute!!! I also collect dolls!!! Because they look so pretty and they’re my inspirations when it comes to creating art!!! I want to make clothing and create colorful hairstyles similar to the dolls that I collect someday!!! One doll that I have has pastel pink on one side, and pastel blue, and a pastel pink and blue outfit with thick platform boots that are also pastel blue and pink separately!!!

I write horror rap lyrics, which I hope to actually use someday!!!

I am deeply fascinated with the gothic subculture and fashion, and admire it so much!!!

I am a metalhead. I know, I know, it doesn’t go with my cutesy pink aesthetic and attitude, but I am, hardcore.

I like to collect little items that look vintage or cute, such as this small pink bow that I have!!! And this golden heart locket I got from a little vintage store back in 2013, I believe, and this little old pocket watch that I found randomly that looks like it belongs in a steampunk fantasy universe!!!

I severely wish I had long, pointy ears and fangs, and light pink eyes, and hot pink skin, and candy pink hair!!! And I wish I had super powers!!! I hate not being able to fly and pick up large objects that a normal person wouldn’t be able to!!!

~ Miscellaneous: ~

~ Things I Do in My Downtime: ~

I LOVE WATCHING MOVIES OMGOODNESS I LOVE THEMMM!!!

I write fantasy slice of life romance stories, which are very NSFW and very fluffy in the romance, but also very dark in general, because I’m addressing many themes of mental health and the struggles of it, and whatnot. I also love the idea of taking a character who has struggled for so long, and having them experience love and acceptance for the first time. It always makes me want to cry, omg.

I write a lot. About stories, journaling, anything and everything!!! I just love writing!!!

Take way too many pictures of myself in pink outfits, with cute hairstyles, and makeup!!!

Daydream about romance, far away places, fantasy worlds that I saw in my lucid dreams, and the universe. My imagination is way too big and I feels like it’s too much at times, but I always love it!!!

I’m also trying to learn Swahili, ASL, French, Spanish and Afrikaans for my South African friend. One at a time, however, starting with Swahili. I would learn Gaelic, but… that’s going to have to wait…

I love dressing up. I love looking like a whimsical being straight out of a fantasy story!!!

Favorite Movies:

WAY TOO MANY!!!

OKAY OKAY!!!

1. Coraline (👏🏾E 👏🏾VER 👏🏾Y 👏🏾THING 👏🏾A 👏🏾BOUT 👏🏾THIS 👏🏾MOVIE ✨IS 👏🏾GOLLLDDDD!!! 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾)

2. MALEFICENT!!! MALEFICENT!!! MALEFICENT!!! (2014 and 2019) (ANGELINA JOLIE IS AMAZING AND SHE OWNS HER ROLE AS MALEFICENT!!! AS A MATTER OF FACT, SHE IS MALEFICENT!!!)

3. The Hobbit (mostly just the first one)

4. Belle (2013)

5. La Belle Et La Bête (2014 Beauty and the Beast)

6. Enchanted (2007)

7. All of the early 2000s Barbie movies

8. Bratz movies (‘Fashion Pixiez’ changed my life and made me severely obsessed with not only the dark pixiez, but fantasy in general, and especially dark fantasy, as well as the gothic fashion and subculture, and underground gothic raves. I hate the album version of “Just Let Go Now”, the movie version is GOLD and the singer who sung the movie version needed to be on the album!!! That song changed my whole entire being!!! My soul!!! The whole vibe is enchanting and soulful and just MWAH!!! Perfection!!!)

9. Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters (only because the witches are absolutely awesome with awesome black clothing, and they deserve their own movie. There are so many witches who come from different places in the world, and we don’t learn anything about them??? Or how they came to be??? Seriously??? Such a missed opportunity!!!)

10. Hellboy: The Golden Army and Hellboy 2019… I just love the new actor, he’s so funny!!! I don’t care if the movie sucked!!!

11. Victor Frankenstein (I absolutely love James McAvoy’s performance. He is just… omg he’s my favorite actor!!!)

12. Alice Through The Looking Glass (2016)

13. Cinderella (1950, III: A Twist in Time, and 2015)

14. PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEEEEEAAAANNNN (the first three. I don’t know the other two… I especially do not know ‘On Stranger Tides’… that doesn’t exist to me… Other than that, I personally love ‘At World’s End’.)

15. The Huntsman: Winter’s War

16. Red Riding Hood (2011… it’s just awful and I love it)

17. Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter (THIS MOVIE IS GOLD AND I DO NOT CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS!!!)

18. Pan’s Labyrinth

19. The Shape of Water

20. BLAAADEEE!!! (All three!!!)

21. Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children

22. Crimson Peak

23. Far From the Madding Crowd

24. Suffragette

25. The Boy Who Cried Werewolf

26. Scary Godmother

27. Queen of the Damned

28. Mirror Mirror (2012) (for the costumes alone, omggg it awakens my inner fashion designer!!!)

29. The Nutcracker and the Four Realms (also for the visuals and the costumes and the world!!!)

30. The VVITCH (because I still yearn for a story where I actually get to see the witches and learn about them. It still annoys me that I spent all that time waiting to see them, anticipating them, and then you barely see them at the very end of the movie. For like a few seconds.)

31. The Autopsy of Jane Doe. (Only because her backstory makes me very, very eager to see who she was before, and I often hope to see her actually come back to life… even though that may never happen.)

32. Jack and the Cuckoo-Clock Heart… the aesthetics… the aesthetics changed me… it’s a steampunk whimsical fantasy. I love this movie…

33. A Monster in Paris… just… 💕💕💕

34. The Secret World of Arrietty… just… besides the movie being absolutely wonderful, Cecile Corbel is an amazing singer… And to be honest, I feel like saying that she’s amazing is an understatement.

There’s a lot more movies, but I’m afraid I’d take up too much space.

~ Currently Binging: ~

Besides movies, for tv shows, I don’t watch shows that much. But when I do, it’s SpongeBob SquarePants all day everyday!!! Nobody can top that show!!!

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smolie · 3 years

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in december i wrote a 2020 year music review for myself that i intended to post here BUT...because i was infamously restricted twice last year, i didn’t bother since you wouldn’t be able to read it anyway because it was not possible to view my blog hjfdhfd

now that my restricted era is (hopefully forever) over i just want to post it here for the sake of completion since i want to do the same thing this year

this is really long so if you actually read it ... idk you are insane in the membrane and i love you... but i genuinely don’t expect anyone to read this hjfdhjf i just like reflecting on the music i have listened to and be able to look back on what i enjoyed in certain stages of my life! okiiii bye 💗

january

mac miller - circles (album) it’s a bit funny that i worried putting my thoughts down about this album and now it turns out to be first on the list, chronologically of course … oh bittersweet irony </3 listening to this album is such a double edged sword, either way i am always hit with a truckload of feelings when i turn to this release.

this album came to me in a time of my life where i was slowly but surely sliding down towards rock bottom again just after i got out of it and thought i was okay. the times i’ve listened to this crying in the bathtub with a glass of wine….girl let’s not lol…. it’s almost strange how much i can relate to the thoughts another person brought to paper. the comfort this album brings me is otherworldly, i feel so understood by mac’s words and it’s my go-to “wallow in self-pity for a bit then come out stronger than before” album. then again, i feel a little sting when any of mac’s songs come on shuffle. a friend of mine said she cannot listen to artists who have passed because it feels too strange and most of the time i agree but this time, it’s so so different. this album would have been mac’s salvation, i can feel it. everything would have been a bit brighter and lighter for him after this, it would have had to be. i feel like i would do him a disservice if i did not listen to this album, so i will cherish this final gift from him as his legacy and my comfort. i miss him incredibly and am all the more thankful he shared his heart with us.

album favs: circles, good news, surf

tiny meat gang - broke bitch (single) MAN I TELL THAT BROKE BITCH IF YOU WANNA GET IN TUNE BETTER CHANGE YOUR WHOLE PITCH LIKE WOAH !!!!!!!!!! did that give you whiplash? hehe funny to say this about a song called broke bitch by a duo called tiny meat gang but this song actually means a lot to me! it came out shortly before their show in berlin and i almost exclusively listened to it on my 7+ hours train ride from one side of the country to the other to see my meat boys. this played out of the fat ass speakers at the venue when they stepped on the stage and i will never forget meeting them :’) also the song fucking slaps obviously

february

loona - [#] (mini album) ah yes, the most controversial loona release to date! i’m not gonna lie and say this sounded anything like i expected it to. but also, i have come to terms with the fact that loona release noise music now and personally i am here for it. why not did not have the endless energy of hi high or otherworldly vibe of butterfly, but it’s a hype song and i am always there for hype. i also have to say the b-sides were not as strong for me as on previous releases but i think i have to come to peace with the fact that loona will never top their debut mini for me. though if i can wish for one thing…… let loona have title tracks with a chorus in 2021? pls? crumbs?

album favs: so what, oh (yes i am)

tame impala - the slow rush (album) *lights cigarette* i’m listening to pretty underground music….i don’t think you’ve heard of this band….they are called tame impala *intro of the less i know the better starts playing* yes i am a basic white bitch and listen to like 3 alternative bands but damn i listen to them religiously. like any other basic bitch on this planet i found out about tame impala through the less i know the better and checked out their music. i wasn’t too much into this album as i was into currents but towards the end of the year, i was in a moody alternative music slump that took me back to this album and i like it a lot more now! most importantly, tame impala fulfills my primitive urge to listen to songs that exceed the 4 minute mark. something clicks in my brain when i see a song that is like 6:34 and chances that it ends up as one of my faves on a album are high. i enjoy tiktok like everyone else but this trend of 2:50 long songs needs to be stopped immediately.

album favs: borderline, lost in yesterday, it might be time, is it true, posthumous forgiveness

honorary mentions: onlyoneof - dOra maar, everglow - dundun

march

nct 127 - neo zone (album) ah, yes. the album that fundamentally changed me as a person <3 i’ve been listening to nct for a while, matter of fact i checked my top tracks 2019 playlist on spotify and cherry bomb was on there lol. i remember trying to get into them in 2018 when they released their regular-irregular album but the endless member & unit concept scared me off, so i only listened to a handful of songs without looking into them march 2020, the fateful month in which they released kick it and screencaps of jaehyun’s sexy ass tiddies in the kick it mv landed on my tumblr or twitter and i HAD to look up who this man is…...remember when i thought jaehyun was my ult for like, 2 weeks? me neither, johnny suh only in this house <3

anyway, i checked out this album and by god, is this pure kpop perfection. last time i listened to a god tier no skip album like this was … maybe the perfect red velvet? hype songs, well crafted ballads, love songs that make me wanna learn the lyrics, genuinely fun and interesting pop songs, this album has it all. somehow, the way this album is crafted greatly reminds me of brown eyed girls’ sound-g, it has the same vibe, concept and mix of genres to me, i’m not entirely sure how to explain. anyway, this album is one of my favorites of all time and even though i’ve obsessively listened to it (lastfm says 1.4k scrobbles as of today, december 7th…) i am still not tired of this. i recommend this to anyone who loves kpop tbh, you will have a good time with this!

other than being just a musically solid album, the emotional ties i have with this are …. isabel stop making albums your emotional support 2021 challenge. i’ve listened to this release all spring lockdown, this basically played at every waking hour for all of march and april. the promotion time of this era and lockdown are deeply intertwined for me and so i am always remembered of all the nct content i consumed during that time which inevitably cheered me up so much. this album really means a lot to me :’)

album favs: kick it, mad dog, love song, boom

honorary mentions: itzy - wannabe,

the weeknd - after hours (album) my dear melchanoly, was one of my favorite releases of 2018, so i had been desperate for a new release by abel and boy did he not disappoint. the perfect thotty, dirty emo 80s, making it clap while crying in the club album! this is a no skip from top to bottom and all i can say is that the grammys can go to hell <3 abel aoty! there is really not much i can say about this album, the flawless production, lyrics and sound speak for themself. my only criticism is that i feel overwhelmed by 14 songs, especially when some of them are really long. a few songs greatly overshadow the weaker tracks on the album for me but i still love this to death.

album favs: escape from LA, blinding lights, after hours, faith

dua lipa - future nostalgia (album) after the weeknd’s masterpiece of an 80s inspired pop album i was really looking forward to this. i greatly enjoyed the pre-releases, i played don’t start now and physical up and down, they are still some of my favorite songs released this year! when i first listened to the album i really liked it, songs like boys will be boys or pretty please sound like fillers to be but the rest is solid. yet a month after release you couldn’t catch me listening to this and i cannot even really tell you why. i think it was a combination of the following: 1) i greatly overplayed dsn and physical to the point where i didn’t want more of the pop 80s sound that the album has 2) there were other releases at the time that caught my attention and interest more like neo zone or after hours 3) dua herself….girl….she really gave it her all this year to make herself as unlikeable as possible. nationalist propaganda and the constant traveling during a fucking pandemic were really the kicker. i can barely stand seeing her on my instagram feed anymore, much less listen to her album. her having the nerve to go “we’re in a pandemic lol” when people asked about an animated music video …. if you don’t shut the hell up lmao … also, she takes the crown for the corniest album opener of all time. i nearly closed spotify when i heard future nostalgia (the song) lmao

album favs: don’t start now, physical, levitating, hallucinate

honorary mentions: megan thee stallion - savage

april

apink - dumhdurum (song)

listen, i’m not gonna sit here and pretend like this mini album interested me in the slightest but god, the title is such a banger.i’m so sick, eung eung and dumhdurum are a holy trilogy that i will defend until the end of time! i really hope apink stick to this mature, elegant concept, it suits them so well and goes well with their new sound. come back soon queens <3

rina sawayama - xs (song) i feel like i’m gonna catch some hands here … xs is an absolute banger, the guitar riffs and disruptive sounds really get me going every damn time! but the rest of the album … tell me why it doesn’t catch me?! i literally cannot explain. i need to take an hour, sit down and do nothing but listen to the album from top to bottom once again and see if my thoughts change but right now i only care about xs.

chungha - stay tonight (song) drama! vocals! dance break! choreography! this release served it all. i listened to this obsessively during the time of the release and it still holds up today. can we talk about the run chungha had with gotta go > snapping > stay tonight? lord have mercy.

honorary mentions: april - lalalilala, nct dream - ridin’

may

lady gaga - chromatica (album) the immense disappointment i have in this album is tough to put into words lol. any other artist might have gotten away with this release but gaga having the discography that she has, well … she doesn’t get away with it. this has underwhelming all over it. i enjoyed the pre-releases and my hope was high but the rest just doesn’t live up what i expected, i can’t even say why. it’s just underwhelming pop for someone of gaga’s calibre. i listened to this album during release week and then never again till december to write this list and i can see why.

album favs: rain on me, sour candy ft. blackpink, stupid love

baekhyun - delight (mini album) it’s confession time … this is a name i never would have expected on any of my music lists to end up. exo has always been one of those boy groups i casually listened to. i greatly enjoy their title tracks and a handful of side tracks, i have a few members that i keep an eye on more than others but that’s about it. baekhyun was never one of those members i had any interest in, matter of fact i always thought he was kinda vanilla and boring 😭 i didn’t even plan on listening to this release if it wasn’t for his association with superm and thus nct, so i gave it a shot and we have no choice but to stan. his voice is like butter and can cut sharp at the same time, his versatility is insane. i dived a bit more into baekhyun related content and he is so likeable, it’s almost ridiculous. this production is absolute god tier, not a single skip on this mini. late spring/early summer i had this weird urge to listen to songs with mellow voices but still a banger instrumental and i wholeheartedly blame this release. matter of fact, this album is so good, i had to buy a physical copy. Y’ALL. THIS IS A BIG DEAL. i haven’t bought a kpop album of anyone that’s not holy top 3 (brown eyed girls, loona, nct) in like … idk, 5 years?! baekhyun’s impact. i’m a fan now <3

album favs: candy, r u ridin’?, love again

ak aussenkontrolle - in meinem benz (song) this … is very unrelated to this entirely list but i had to put it on here. i miss my ex boss and our 3 hour drives to meetings in the south of the country where we would blast trashy german rap music </3

nct 127 - neo zone: the final round (repackage) *airhorns* REEEPACKAGE TIIIIIME!!! my first nct era that i experienced from start to finish! i remember watching nct 127’s beyond live with luna where these mfs performed punch and we finished the concert having no idea what this song sounded like. the structure is so unusual and the intro catches me off-guard every time just to hype me up beyond compare. not gonna lie, the fact that johnny has exactly one (1) line hurts but! it’s my favorite line of the entire song! possibly related to the fact that it’s his line but let’s ignore that ….

album favs: punch, make your day

kim woo seok - red moon (song) i’m not even gonna lie to you. i have not a single idea who this man is. you could put him right in front of me and i wouldn’t know … all i know is that he has a banger song. i saw him perform this on a music show that i watched for nct and i ended up loving the song … thanks for your service sir, whoever you are ...

june

stray kids - go live (album) 2020 was kind of the year of boy groups for me, i’m so sorry … stray kids promoted simultaneously with nct 127 so i ended up hearing their title track and holy hell, is that a song. god’s menu is hype from start to finish. it reminds me of good ol’ 2nd gen noise boy group song a lá b*g b*ng fantastic baby. just pure hype and fun noise. i am forever grateful to witness the birth of the line cooking like a chef, i’m a five star michelin. the title track impressed me so much that i ended up checking out the entire album which i rarely ever do with boy groups and what is even rarer is that i enjoyed the b sides lmao!!! it’s not an album that i would put on and just enjoy from start to finish but it has some really solid tracks! this release made me want to keep an eye on stray kids, they seem like a really fun bunch.

album favs: god’s menu, TA, airplane

seventeen - left & right (song) the boy group run continues … same thing with stray kids, seventeen promoted during punch era so i heard their song while watching some music station show for nct and i heard this and was sold. solid, fun pop with the catchiest pre-chorus in history and a banger chorus. i listened to the entire mini and can’t say it really caught my interest so this is a title track only release for me.

dishonorary mentions: twice - more & more (i hate this song so much lol)

honorary mentions: ryu sejeong - tiger eyes, monsta x - fantasia, chloe x halle - do it

july

irene & seulgi - monster (mini) this is a weird release because it’s good. the title track is fun enough, the b sides are dope. but my issue with this is that it’s nothing new. this sounds exactly like a red velvet release. i get that they didn’t want to a joy, seulgi, irene, yeri release only and went for the sub-unit route instead, but why not be experimental and stray away from the usual sound of the group? also, whoever made monster and not naughty the title track deserves to be spat on. at least the choreography here is more interesting and “experimental” for kpop standards. also, why only a seulgi solo and no irene? i have no idea how reveluvs reacted to this release but this has rushed written all over it.

album favs: monster, naughty (i’m counting this to the mini idc), uncover

exo-sc - 1 billion views (mini) doing my part as a filthy casual exo listener. this release goes in the same category as baekhyun’s delight where i like the album so much that i HAD to get a physical copy. i don’t know what they put in the title track for it to be so diddly darn addictive but it clearly worked. the only bad thing about this release is how criminally mismanaged it was by sm, when i get you lee sooman ...

album favs: 1 billion views, on me, say it

baekhyun - garden in the air (song) i told you i’m a loyal baekhyun fan now <3 king releases and i listen, that’s just how it goes now! this is a cover of a boa song and i really love his version. there is not much to say except that it’s a really smooth song and his voice absolutely carries the track. i enjoyed this much more than i thought i would!

hyoyeon - dessert (song) YOU KNOW WHAT I DESERVE??? DESSERT!!!!!!! *insert tik tok challenge here* imagine if miryo featured on this instead of the ethnic hip girl … why can’t we have nice things. anyway, a banger!

johnny - sunny side up episode 1 set (spotify playlist, actual set) johnny being the skilled, talented, multi-faceted king that he is has been dj-ing since before debut (not me acting like i was around at that time lmao) and thus he decided to bless our quarantined, lockdowned asses with an online dj set! that was the most turned up sunday morning i ever had in my entire life. this set kicked off an edm/house/techno affinity that i had for the following couple of weeks. this set is an absolute banger, i would go insane to this in the club. he has an amazing ear for transitions and drops and i still just put on this set on the regular when i have cleaning to do or so. he could fill the void that rona and thus no clubbing in 2020 left in my heart and i’m so happy he decided to share this with us <3 now … john … sunny side up episode 2 pspspspspsps

honorary mentions: gfriend - apple, jessi - nunu nana

august

cardi b ft. megan thee stallion - wap (song) late summer 2021. we are vaccinated, icu beds are free, barely any new cases, clubs are open, this song plays and i can finally make it fucking clap.

troye sivan - in a dream (mini album) a cute mini album! nothing life-changing or as exciting as previous releases but easy (haha!) to enjoy. i really, really enjoy easy, can always count on troye for a dreamy sound.

album favs: easy

honorary mentions: itzy - not shy

september

wonho - love synonym pt. 1: right for me (mini album) honestly? i know like, 3 monsta x songs. i never bothered to get into them and maybe i never will, but it was difficult to ignore the whole wonho & monsta x mess that went on. i have absolutely no memory of why i decided to check out this release, i guess i was curious what he was going to do and … i was positively surprised lol. open mind is the exact time of song i had been so desperate all summer (remember mellow vocals with banger instrumentals? yeah) and uhm … can’t ignore the obvious … mr wonho is fucking fine. sir, you just gained a fan … now, where is love synonym part 2?? huh?????

album favs: open mind, i just, losing you

joji - nectar (album) this one is on tiktok. i heard gimme love in a bunch of tiktoks and had to look up the song and here we are. what an album! it came right as seasonal depression started to hit and accompanied me for a good chunk of autumn. at this point one has to ask if joji can ever really miss? the entire album is a no skip, it’s almost difficult to narrow down my favorites if my favorites weren’t so damn god tier!!!

album favs: gimme love, ew, tick tock, pretty boy, your man

super m - tiger inside / 100 / drip (songs) okay, listen. technically tiger inside & 100 were already released in august. instead of those three songs i was gonna write about the entire album until i realized i really don’t give a fuck about it 😭 i really only care about those three songs. and YES, i unironically like 100. is it a good song? no. but neither is jopping and that fucking bangs. i don’t turn to superm for life-changing, profound music, i turn to them for a good time LOL and that’s what they deliver every time! that being said, taeyong’s VROOM VROOM, UHMM UHMM, GRRRAHHHH verse is life-changing and profound! speak your truth king! also i wish drip was a b side for nct 127 that song is so damn sexy

taemin - never gonna dance again act 1 (album) this isn’t kpop, this is taemin pop. taemin never misses and the fact that hw*s* won dance performance over taemin is a literal hate crime. i will never forget the industry for this daylight robbery … anyway, nice album!!!!

album favs: criminal, black rose, waiting for

stray kids - in life (repackage) *airhorns* REPACKAGE TIIIIME 2.0!!!! i was on the edge of my seat waiting what stray kids were going to deliver after i greatly enjoyed god’s menu. i was still not over listening god’s menu when the repackage came out so i didn’t listen to it right away and now i greatly regret the few days i could have listened to back door earlier </3

album favs: back door, any

jackson wang - pretty please (song) i’m not gonna pretend like i ever listened to a song by jackson ever before. he is short king from got7 in my head and that’s all! i don’t even remember why i listened to this song but all i know is that it slaps severely. i love the wong kar wai inspired music video and the choreography is fun too! i’m gonna check out more of his music <3

honorary mentions: fromis9 - feel good, knk - ride

october

blackpink - the album (album, duh) i don’t even know what to say about this … this might be the weirdest release on the list for me. there are song i absolutely fucking hate (ice cream …) and songs i get my life to (pretty savage) on here and the discrepancy just gives me massive whiplash. i would never put this album on and listen to the whole body of work, i just cannot with the brain damage it gives me. i am still stuck in 2016, begging for bp to release music like whistle/boombayah/stay/playing with fire but i think i need to give up on that wishful thinking … i am just grateful we a got a title track with actual lyrics in the chrous for once.

album favs: pretty savage, lovesick girls

nct - nct 2020 resonance pt. 1 (album) this era was … a ride. nct 2020 happening was near inevitable but with covid it got pushed back so far, i started to believe it wasn’t even going to happen. i was semi-terrified of what was going to happen during a comeback with 21 (now 23!!) member group since i only experienced nct 127 comebacks so far and uhh … a LOT happened lmfao but let’s keep this about the album … i had no idea what was going to hit me. johnny having effectively 3 lines in nct 2018 did not give me much hope and after he got denoted to no line treatment in punch again, i was ready to not even have any expectation but this release changed everything. make no mistake that most of my favorite songs are units with johnny, we knew that was gonna happen lmaooo they dropped the teaser video for misfit and i thought i had my favorite song in the bag and then faded in my last song happened. y’all. JOHNNY SINGS? LIKE? ACTUALLY SINGS? DOESN’T GET FORCED TO RAP OR TALK-SING? MY MAN’S VOCALS??? OH MY GAAAAHD! this song is dramatic, theatrical, emo, it serves vocals and rap, it has catchy english and korean lyrics, this is THE song, the ULTIMATE song. i love this song so much, i want to belt it on top of my lungs in the pouring rain. apart from fimls, i also loveeee misfit, that was to be expected after i was going completely insane over the track video. johnny has like 3 lines but again they are iconic (WARNIN’! NCT WE MOBBIN’!) and i just enjoy the track too much to be upset over that. nectar. holy fuck. nectar!!!! wayv never disappoints with their thotty songs, they now have an absolute god tier hoe-ly song trinity with love talk > bad alive > nectar. the first chorus and hendery’s first verse (CHOP CHOP CHOP!) get me every time, this song is so insanely good i am severely upset i cannot sing along to it :( music, dance has nct 127 written all over it in bold letters, it’s so inherently 127’s sound!!!! i love this song so much, it’s so fun, upset and has massive dance-ability, i wish we had gotten a stage for it but i guess you can’t have everything in life </3 make a wish……………………………..the cursed unit. i don’t want to say anything about this except that, unfortunately, the song is fun and i enjoy it. the end. overall, this album is so insanely solid. i know i talk about my favorites A LOT but i genuinely do not dislike a single song on here, this is an absolute no skip album! that’s it. see you for resonance part 2!!!!!

album favs: FADED IN MY LAST SONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, misfit, nectar, music dance, make a wish

loona - 12:00 (mini album) controversial loona release 2.0! i don’t know what it is, but somehow they managed to lace the words di da dam di dam di dam dam dam dam di dam (yeah) with pure crack. i fucking love why not, i would even go as far to say it’s my 2nd favorite title track. that is right, i think it’s better than butterfly (btw: hi high > why not > butterfly > so what). so much was strange this comeback, from the inexplicable concept + teasers, the outfits, the styling (yves….i mourn your hot girl era) but the title track is just SO good, SO fun, SO catchy that i am willing to ignore it all. i also enjoy the b sides much more than on #, they are much more memorable to me. and now … HASEUL RETURN…………….i purely live to see the next loona comeback at this point

album favs: why not, voice, universe

twice - i can’t stop me (song) thank fuck twice released a good song this year. if more & more had been the only 2020 release, that would have been the real tragedy. not gonna lie, i still haven’t listened to the full album, it just keeps slipping my mind. but! i’m going to! until then i’m gonna bop to i can’t stop me.

ariana grande - positions (album) the way this album has people upset is so funny. i am a huge dangerous woman fan myself, it’s my fave ariana album to date but she has said repeatedly that this is not the sound she is striving for. now she has her coin and can do whatever she wants in music and if that is r’n’b then fuck! we have to live with it! lmao! i can live with the sex theme of the album because it’s delivered in a fun way? but it’s getting a bit old...if the next album is about riding dick only too idk how much i would enjoy that. i would probably always come back to ari because i like her voice so much but girl, there are other topics to sing about, i promise! anyway! i like this album, it’s one of those where i can hit shuffle and enjoy it in the background while doing other stuff.

album favs: positions, 34 + 35, love language, my hair, pov

tiny meat gang - sofia (song) ayyy, it’s my meat boys :’) ending the year the same way they started it, with a banger! i absolutely love the guitar instrumental, the melancholic love song type sound paired with the theme of singing about loving a robot … yup, that’s creativity and talent right here! this makes me so freaking desperate for a new ep and i genuinely have no idea how far or close we are to one but!!! i am always waiting!!!

noel - push (ep) this is something i absolutely did not expect. noel (of tiny meat gang!) released his first ep ever and i was absolutely wowed. noel has it all, the voice, the talent, the creativity and all it took him was the confidence to finally put something out and i’m so happy he did. he gets real personal on bus back, more than ever before and i always get a bit emo listening to this track </3 this man is gonna go places and i’m so happy to witness his journey.

album favs: crow, head sunk, bus back

honorary mentions: sam smith - diamonds

november

taemin - never gonna dance again act 2 (album) i’m gonna say it. idea is better than criminal. the chorus drop???? when he goes MY AH AH MY AH AH MY AH MY IDEA MY MY IDEAAAAAA A-A-A A-A-A???? bitch … tell me you can sit still, i won’t believe you. i like part 2’s title track more, but part 1’s b sides are more interesting to me. either way, taemin delivered as expected!!

album favs: idea, impressionable, exclusive

nct - nct 2020 resonance pt. 2 (album) part two, baby! we made it! part 2 had more mellow, ballad-y songs with my everything, i.o.u. and all about you, overall less drama than part 1 but i still enjoyed it. work it is one of those controversial songs where you despise it with your entire being or you defend this top tier noise till the end and i am absolutely the latter. the agony of not being able to listen to it and seeing the timeline so divided nearly killed me, but i have concluded that people who hate work it have never felt joy in their life <3 honestly my opinion cannot be counted because i eat up anything johnny participates in … biased ass… what i’m not gonna talk about is resonance (the song), this absolute mess of a “remix”. the audacity sm had to release this as a single is insane. anyway!! this era was a rollercoaster ride. all the interactions truly made me interested in members of other units more. hendery (the rise and fall …), yangyang my beautiful son, jeno aka blue hair guy, chenle the chaos kid and xiaojun after he made make a wish his bitch in particular! all the interactions between the units were so fun to witness and it was fun while it lasted but i am … so glad it’s over lol. i miss nct 127, i miss some peace, i hope the boys get to rest for a bit and so does my bank account.

album favs: work it, 90s love, i.o.u., raise the roof

miley cyrus - plastic hearts (album) not in a thousand years would i have expected a miley release to be on here. this girl does everything to be absolutely unlikeable in my eyes but after severely banging out to her heart of glass cover, i was really excited for this and it did not disappoint. what is disappointing is that it took her so long to find a sound that fits her like a glove. i believe many people miss out on this release after her previous history and i nearly would have done the same. this alt/rock influenced pop does her voice so many favors and i really hope she sticks to this direction, i love this album greatly!!

album favs: heart of glass, midnight sky, night crawling ft. billy joel, wtf do i know

kai - kai (mini album) just. imagine debuting with an album like that. lol. what a god tier big dick move. we all knew whatever this release was gonna be, above all it was going to be sexy and boy were we RIGHT!!!! mmmh is exactly as thotty as i needed it to be and the b sides give me everything from r’n’b to trap. i love this release and i love that it’s only the beginning of kai! like!! he is only gonna gain even more experience and become even more powerful!! what the fuck!!!!!

album favs: mmmh, ride or die, hello stranger, nothing on me

honorary mentions. gfriend - mago

december

nothing? wtf?? 😭 no interesting release happened,,,,half the time i listened to christmas songs anyway lol

pre 2020 releases i only found this year

mgmt - little dark age (album, 2018) & oracular spectactular (album, 2007) another tiktok serve. i found little dark age through a tiktok trend and ended up really liking mgmt. they fit perfectly into my autumn/winter moody alt/rock mood that i had going on and i’m happy they have so much more music that i can check out!

artist favs: little dark age, electric feel, time to pretend

tame impala - currents (album, 2015) everyone’s favorite basic alt bitch album! i enjoyed this more than the slow rush for a good chunk of time, it also fit right into my alt rock autumn mood. i really love this album, like previously mentioned it has my favorite long ass tracks on there but also a good amount of short or medium long tracks. i’m still busy enjoying currents and the slow rush but i can’t wait till i finally take the leap to dive into their other releases because i’m loving everything i’ve heard so far.

album favs: the less i know the better, let it happen, new person same old mistakes

joji - ballads 1 (2018) after liking nectar so much, checking joji out was a given and i just love this album. only when i listened to this i realized i heard slowly dancing in the dark a few times on tiktok lmao that cursed app man … i would say i love nectar a bit more but this is still a fantastic album!!

album favs: slowly dancing in the dark, attention, test drive, yeah right

jus2 - focus (mini album, 2019) in my “mellow moody bangers” phase i was scouring playlists for more songs and i think i found focus on me first which fitted right into the niche i was looking to fill and i ended up enjoy this whole release! only later i realized this is a sub-unit from got7 lmao how come i enjoy solo or unit releases by got7 members but their group discography never interested me? anyway, very sexy ep!

album favs: drunk on you, focus on me, love talk

knk - sunset (song, 2019) part of my mellow bangers playlist. very sexy, i can imagine this as a runway song! i have no idea who knk are but given the fact i enjoyed two of their songs so far maybe i should look into them lol

baekhyun - city lights (mini album, 2019) i am repenting for my sins of missing out on baekhyun releases by consuming his music at an exorbitant rate. un village is one hell of a title track that i didn’t appreciate before, but i feel like in 2020 my music interests started to vary and i love the groovy r’n’b and string sound of this song so much. i also love stay up to death, the vocals baekhyun serves here are unreal. his BABY WE CAN STAY UP!!!!!!! gets me every single time!!!! what a mini!

album favs: un village, stay up

mac miller - swimming (album, 2018) i’ve listened to this album before 2020 but i had the urge to put this on here. this is going to sound so corny, but if i had to pick one song to be my life’s title track, it would be ladders. the hope this song gives me is unreal, it feels like a light at the end of the tunnel. this album is so fantastic, i love the upbeat instrumentals paired with sometimes gloomy lyrics are so incredible, mac was truly one of the greatest artists of our time. this album is so outstanding and i miss him every day.

album favs: ladders, jet fuel, 2009, self care, perfecto

doja cat - hot pink (album, 2019) i can never decide if i like doja or not but the album slaps lol that’s it come on tiktok queen

album favs: say so, juicy, like that, streets

my fav 2020 playlists

slapping mellow

neo culture technology

malcolm

why go to therapy when this playlist exists?

top songs 2020

(by spotify)

#again a heads up: this was written in december 2020 and there are a few names mentioned here that....i want nothing to do with anymore lol #like h*ndery of gfr*end #but i'm not gonna delete them because at the time i enjoyed their releases and no one knew they were ignorant asswipes <3 #also not me thinking i'm gonna get vaccinated this summer LMFAOOOOOOO #i can consider myself lucky if i even get them this year #german government my detested <3 #about me

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seventeen’s reaction to you being discouraged by antis.

@cutekitty145 asked: How would Seventeen react their idol friend or s/o getting disrespected for either being chubby, having a darker skin tone, being half Korean, fully foreign all together or having their own (fashionista) stype choices. Like who would be the most angry or upset? Who would stand up for them or at least defend them? (Cause SVT is well known for standing up for those who are less fortunate and that can't stand up for themselves). Hope this makes sense!! Sorry if it doesn't!! 💕 Love your blog!!! 💕

seungcheol. dispatch was the reason why the relationship between you and seungcheol became public. he didn’t want this to happen, he was angry at himself for not being careful enough. but it was also the time to see which fan supported him and which didn’t. when he sees an anti making remarks about you and your skin color, and he started to feel angry.

sometimes he asks joshua to translate some english tweets about you, and he was not having it. he decided to make a statement regarding his relationship with you as he expresses his anger about the racist remarks about you.

“a person is a person, regardless what color of their skin is. if you can’t accept the fact that we are all human, then don’t even bother posting about my own relationship. there are multiple reasons why i love y/n, but seeing the people who support me talk shit about them, that is very unacceptable. i’m very disappointed.”

jeonghan jeonghan is known for his smart remarks, and he won’t hesitate to use it towards anyone who talks bad about you. he knew the consequences for dating someone since he’s an idol, but he will not hold back. you and jeonghan were walking in the streets of seoul now that the relationship was revealed in public. there are some cases where some people don’t even recognize jeonghan, so korean men were looking at you and discriminating your skin color not knowing him as an idol.

“they look dirty. what the hell are people like them doing around korea?”

“their dark skin’s ugly.”

jeonghan can hear your sniffling, and asked you what’s wrong in korean. you told them that you can hear comments about you and he emphasized with his whole chest loud and clear,

“don’t worry, y/n, you’re very, very beautiful !! those men are irrelevant, they don’t see what i see. i’ll buy you some ice cream to make you feel better!”

joshua as an american who was born and raised in los angeles, he doesn’t hesitate to stand up for you when discrimination is being used around you. he is almost always aware that, especially when he usually hangs out with vernon. you and joshua decided to go to the grocery store to buy some snacks to binge on for a movie night, but you see two women at the same aisle. then they see the cart full of snacks, they began to pick on your weight, as well as your skin tone. you’re a foreigner and you felt so used to the rude comments, but the two women made you feel bad about yourself.

“i don’t know about you, but i’d rather have a partner who love theirselves and that’s all that matters. as an american, that’s being rude to me too. disgusting.” joshua blurted out before he held your hand and dragged you out of the aisle.

junhui jun seems like he is always careful about how you feel about yourself. he didn’t care what people think of him, and he tries to make you feel better when it comes to your insecurities. when his relationship with you went viral, there were some negative comments in chinese about how your skin is darker then his and how you have a curvy body due to your thighs. you don’t understand chinese, so you speak to him in korean.

he didn’t want to translate the comments to you. he knew you’d be miserable.

“this is the person who motivates me everyday, laughs at my dumb jokes, who is willing to learn my native language, and tries to love theirselves. if you can’t love them as much as i do, then i’m sorry. there is nothing i’m going to do about it.”

soonyoung. he absolutely loves to see your bright smile and wants to make you happy 24/7. one of the things he fears was seeing you come back home crying because of racist marks being pointed at you. he was finally off one day, and decided to grab some ice cream with you before deciding to eat in. soonyoung was practically starving and you were craving some sweet at the moment. so you’re standing in front of soonyoung waiting in line for some ice cream when suddenly, soonyoung hears two guys behind him talking about your weight and how you don’t fit into korea’s beauty standards.

he turned around, and scolded, “i fucking dare you to say that shit one more time. what a disgrace. y/n, we’re leaving.” as he grabs your hand, and proceeds to get out of line as he tells you he’ll buy you ice cream elsewhere.

wonwoo. you and wonwoo are on a train on your way back home from shopping. you’re a halfer, but you look more like a foreigner than you are korean. you both sit down in a chair beside each other, and waited until you arrive at your stop. you were looking around while wonwoo snoops on his phone checking his messages on the members. there were three guys on the other side of the train talking about how they hated your dark skin and how you would look a whole lot better with a lighter tone. wonwoo looked up from his phone and stared at the guys, literally fuming from their rude remarks.

“do you hear this shit, y/n?” he said. when the guys heard wonwoo talking to you in korean, they were shocked and became completely silent.

“yeah..i don’t like it..fuck korean beauty standards.” you say before you almost broke down as soon as your train stop arrived. wonwoo held your hand and placed many kisses, instantly making you feel better.

jihoon. he also is one of the members that won’t hesitate to defend for you. you’re one of jihoon’s best friends and you also compose seventeen’s songs with him and bumzu. when people found out what you look like as one of pledis’ composers, people were talking bad about how you’re foreign and how they hated your dark skin. someone even whitewashed you in photos and jihoon was clearly upset seeing photos of you in negative ways. he has threatened the people posting them and the posts were deleted not too long after.

he didn’t want you to see the posts and feel so upset about yourself. you have gone through so much racism when you moved to korea, and he didn’t want you to feel worse than you did before.

seokmin. when it came to any sensitive topics, he either tries to keep you away from them, or confronts anyone about it whenever he has the confidence to do so. he has a huge crush on you, so he tries to make you as content as possible. you and seokmin decided to go out and walk at the park to get some fresh air and as you’re walking and eating your ice cream, seokmin can hear a couple of guys from the bench how a handsome guy like him likes to hang out with someone as ugly as you.

he was mentally fuming with rage as he looks at you. it seemed that you didn’t hear the guys, so he looked at the guys with an intimidating glare and they stopped and hesitated. they bowed to him to apologize as you and him keep walking.

he was glad that you didn’t hear what they said about you, but he couldn’t stand being in the park anymore.

mingyu. you’re on the train alone as you’re on your way to visit mingyu. when you were minding your own business, you hear a couple of older ladies how you should go back to your country and how you don’t belong here in korea. you slowly feel tears coming, so you try to hide your face as you decided to call mingyu. you were happy that you’re about to arrive, and unfortunately, some people see your gloomy state and everyone suddenly got quiet.

“hello--y/n what’s wrong??” mingyu said.

“it’s nothing. there’s people talking about me again and i hate this racism so much.”

“huh?? i swear i hate when people talk shit about you, who do i have to speak to, who the hell is talking bad about you, do you need me--” you don’t have him on speaker but mingyu’s voice was so loud that the older ladies were quiet and strangers were looking at them.

you got out of the train and you hear someone say how scary mingyu was on the phone.

minghao. you and minghao went hiking out in the mountains and you both chill at the top with other people checking out the view. you both took a selfie together before he wanted to check out another part of the mountain for the view. you look back at the selfie and you hear a couple of women making fun of your skin. you felt extremely insecure and you were deep into your thoughts that you didn’t notice minghao walking back to you.

when he sees you making yourself look lighter, he widen his eyes are yelled,

“y/n, what are you doing !? you have beautiful skin, you don’t need to change the filter !! who was talking shit ??” the girls quickly moved from their spots as you smiled at him.

seungkwan. he’s a starring guest in a variety show, and the topic came to how the hosts see some pretty foreigners around seoul. they do joke around about some certain people they saw, but seungkwan mentions your struggles living in korea, to how even though some people call you beautiful and he explains how there times that you refuse to go out because of the racism you have to face living there. he’s saddened by this and spreads how everyone should treat everyone with respect, no matter what their race and religion they identify as.

“i love y/n very much. no one deserves the negative treatment she receives, i don’t want her to think that us koreans are bad people. please everyone, even if they’re not from here, give them comfort around their surroundings !”

vernon. he experiences racism himself ever since he was small since he’s half korean. but whenever he sees you being mistreated, he tries every way possible to make you feel better. he reads to you the lyrics for their upcoming album, tells how how cute and beautiful you are, and how you don’t need to change yourself. he just doesn’t have the guts to tell you that he likes you more than a friend. seeing how you are now is his reason why he loves you so dearly.

“don’t worry, y/n, don’t change yourself how you are now. you are unique and beautiful and i wish people can see you the way me and the members do.

chan. he honestly thinks you’re the prettiest girl he had ever laid eyes on. joshua tells him that you haven’t been feeling well due to people making fun of your weight and skin. he thought about how people are so blind to how you wanted to being a bit bulk rather than being really skinny and small. the next day, he wanted to remind you that he loves your tan skin and how you’re improving your health very well. he expresses that he loves seeing you happy how you are now, and it boosted your self-esteem a whole lot more than it was yesterday.

he feels like being with you is the reason why he’s slowly seeing the positive sides of foreigners. you’re always sweet to him and he never thought he’d fall in love with you this much.

“i hope you’re eating well, y/n! don’t listen what other people say about you, you are beautiful. i don’t understand why people hate your skin, it glows !”

bae; april 17th, 2020

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Fandoms hate people of color - how whiteness informs everything

Hate to use such a good title on such a simple post, but hey, it's how the dice rolls. Disclaimer, this is what you'd call a "discourse" post, however I still am putting it in the main tags since I'm specifically addressing things both in direct relation to hermitcraft, and how things are reflected in the fandom. Despite this being a "discourse" post, I still think it's a required reading if you can handle it. Other POC can add their thoughts to this post, white people do not say a word. This isn't about you. And hey, if someone else can get away with making lengthy essay posts abt this fandom for other topics, than I can do this.

First and foremost, I don’t intend this expressly to be a personal attack, but i will use examples to make a point. I won’t use specific posts unless it’s important. I will keep things brief.

Part 1: Wisdom in Ignorance

(aka, the beginning.)

I don't know how to approach this topic without sounding ridiculous, but, despite everything, Bdoubleo is not white. I've made posts on this topic before, on both my old and new blog, and what was interesting to find out was that, so many people weren't aware? In fact, when I first made my post politely asking for people to not whitewash bdubs in fanart, I got messaged by someone telling me he "was white" (we worked it out, however, how sad is it that white is the default?) And, in making posts asking for people to recognize creators of color, I began to see something else emerging.

Part 2: Doing it Wrong

(or, color theory/palettes/etc isn't an excuse!)

Of course, that isn't to say that switching the hypothesis and conclusion is a happier marriage. When I make posts along the lines of, "don't whitewash the only man of color on hermitcraft to my knowledge", that wasn't permission for people to go ahead and draw white people with dark skin. That was never the message-- and even if it was just a "coloring mistake", it doesn't excuse the impact(making the few POC in the fandom give a side-eye to the art).

This even ends up in art for those only related to hermitcraft, like, for example, Zloy.

I need to emphasize that all the people I'm giving as example are people I contacted to sort the issue, but the fact that I have to point it out is a sign of the problem people have. I don't make it a habit to politicize color swatches but, frankly, this is ridiculous.

Part 3: So, What’s the Issue?

The issue is that so many of you aren't willing to try. You label all forms of discussion as “discourse” to the point where a wide range of issues are compartmentalized down to just someone wanting to start something “for fun”. Furthermore, some of you are just downright malicious about the endeavor.

For example, there’s something intensely disrespectful about calling the hippies g****s-- a slur used against the Romani people and having a disturbing background found outside of being ~generic magic makers~.

But, do I need to explain why responding to the post with lyrics to Pinkie's Song from Friendship is Witchcraft is disrespectful?

Why does common sense fly out the window for y'all so easily?

Those are all rhetorical questions. At least, I hope they are.

Part 4: Why the hell am I making this post

(or, a wrap up)

I like to believe y'all, collectively, can do better. We can definitely do better. Taking all of this into consideration, I'm asking y'all to be (gasp) critical of how you create content when it comes to the subject of race. That's all.

#hermitcraft #thas it #never make me write thinkpieces abt Minecraft again #anti rroma slur #ask to tag

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thesunnyshow · 4 years

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EPISODE 4: MILLY

Writing Blog URL(s): @bumblebeenct

Name: Milly

Age: 18

Nationality: Welsh

Languages: English

Star Sign: Capricorn

MBTI: ISFP-T

What fandom(s) do you write for?

I write for NCT, but I have written for Harry Potter in the past

When did you post your first piece?

Around the empathy era I’m pretty sure, 2018? I used to do moodboards only but I was inspired by other writers to give it a go

Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why?

I find that I stick to the fluff/angst tropes because they’re easier to formulate because I can relate myself to the scenario more. I also find that its also more interesting to write angst because there's complications to a story that take longer to form and you have to really think about the different emotions the characters are feeling.

Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships...etc?

I write x reader mostly, but at some point in the future I’m thinking of writing an OC purely because the concept I want to focus on has a particular emphasis on name and I don’t think it would work with y/n

Why did you start writing on Tumblr?

I used to use Wattpad but it was very difficult to promote myself and I struggled to meet anyone through it. On tumblr it was much easier to orientate and the community was so much nicer.

What inspires you to write?

My mutuals! And other writers on tumblr, everyone is so supportive and kind it’s amazing. Also the feedback I sometimes get from readers, it makes me really happy whenever I get a comment or someone interacts with a piece I enjoyed writing, or alternatively when someone supports a fic I wasn’t confident in as it really boosts my confidence :)

What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most?

School/ College aus because they’re very familiar and I am confident in getting the tropes and ideas right. But I also like works inspired by movies or songs because there’s so much to work from and it’s nice to see where you can take the plot and lyrics in your own story.

What do you hope your readers take away from your work?

That writing is for everyone, honestly at the end of the day I’m just a kid in my room writing stories about artists I’m a really big fan of. If you want to write you can, and you don’t have to necessarily be a “big” blog or writer to do it.

What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively?

Take a break, that’s my first port of call - usually in the method of food or I look at the inspiration material again, I listen to the song, read the lyrics, consult my friends and mutuals for help. It’s always good to be able to put something down to start again later when you’re struck with inspiration

What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful?

My favourite personally at the moment (since one I really like is currently, as of answering this question, unpublished) is ‘Remember Me’ purely because it was the work I was the most passionate about writing and it really let me explore a new field of writing, since a lot of my stuff had been fluff before. My most successful in terms of notes is my Mark one shot ‘Sugar and Spice’ and I’m very proud of it.

Who is your favorite person to write about?

Park Jisung, my ult bias, I have to convince myself to write for other members sometimes as I often resist the urge to be a Jisung blog. However I have been enjoying writing for Mark and Hendery recently, as my other NCT biases

Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose?

To a certain extent yes, it really depends on the writer. For many fanfiction stories, including ones we may label “cliche” the only difference is who it’s about, there are countless amazing fics I’ve read which I would assume could be made into a novel, the only thing making it fanfiction being the characters themselves.

What do you think makes a good story?

Feeling! There’s nothing that really constitutes a “good story” as it’s all subjective, but if you can read a story and feel what the characters feel, or even just see the emotions the writer is trying to portray then it’s definitely a good story. I’ve cried while reading most of, if not all my favourite stories.

What is your writing process like?

I plan first in a little notebook so I don’t forget any of my ideas or plans and then I try to churn it out whenever I have access to my computer, my speaker and a comfortable blanket. I like to “get in the zone” and then write as much as I possibly can. I usually think of ideas as I write so the notebook helps me put them in order and make sure I don’t get too ahead of myself.

Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story?

I have thought about it and honestly, I’m not sure. My fics are not series’ and they’re all very short - most of them under 4k so I’d have to turn the idea into a full length thing you know? But I have thought about doing the opposite with a very old original story of mine I’ve otherwise given up on but still holds a special place in my heart.

What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand?

I am a sucker for the enemies to lovers trope mainly because the character development in these stories can be so much more interesting and complex. On the other hand I’m not fond of “yandere” type fics, however I have read several well written ones which I cannot speak against because they were actually really good.

How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you?

I’d say a lot, in terms of how much I write feedback means a lot to me - it’s also nice to hear what people think of things you’ve written because it’s a different view from your own and sometimes can boost confidence. I am also open to constructive criticism if any writers have any tips or suggestions for future works I’m always open to listen.

What has been one of the biggest factors of your success (of any size)?

When I see anyone interacting with my work it’s really rewarding and I love when people reblog with custom tags because it lets me know that people actually like what I do and to me, that’s a success.

Favorite color: Purple

Favorite food: Pasta

Favorite movie: Heathers (1988)

Favorite ice cream flavor: Cookie Dough

Favorite animal: I would say bees, but I don’t think that counts so I’ll say dogs

Coffee or tea? What are you ordering?

Coffee, either black or a really fancy one with frothy milk

Dream job (whether you have a job or not)

I’d love to be a singer honestly, but at the moment I’m working towards education I hope one day to be a lecturer

Go-to karaoke song

Best Part by Daniel Caesar or Escape (the pina colada song) by Robert Holmes because it’s funny

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose?

Stopping time because there’s so much you can do - except the question is, would I continue to age even if time has stopped?

If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose?

My mind goes to two extremes, I think either ancient Greece because why not and the 1950’s purely for fashion and music.

If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you?

No, but I think if I could restart specific moments I would. There are so many good moments but some things you don’t want to relive even if you can change the outcome.

Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken?

100 chicken sized horses, I’d be terrified of a horse sized chicken it would probably be able to eat me and I’m not about that life, tiny horses I can deal with. Kill them with Kindness or whatever haha.

If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been?

A mix of quiet teachers pet and loud side character friend. The duality kills me, I can be shouting with my friends one minute but whispering the minute the teacher asks me a question.

Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures?

I’d like to, I think some are really cool and it would be amazing to live among them, but also some are dangerous, but I would love to see or meet some creatures. Imagine living with dragons man that would be epic.

What are some of your favorite hobbies and how did you get into them?

I really like reading, courtesy of Harry Potter, but I also enjoy singing and playing the piano which I started doing more often in secondary school when my piano teacher suggested I started to sing as well :)

Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know?

I did Karate for about 10/11 years, and I’m a black belt *insert awkward smile here*

Do you think fanfic writers get unfairly judged?

A lot of the time yes, there is a stigma around fanfiction and often paints us in a negative light but we just happen to be a community of creative fans who want to share and support the people we write about. But I can see where the stigma comes from, sometimes it can be taken a bit far and I am aware that some things make the artists themselves uncomfortable. I think if people who judge fanfiction are referring to it as a single idea it becomes unfair because it is all different, but I also think that writers of fanfiction themselves have to make sure they don’t cross any boundaries when writing that could make readers or the artist (if they ever happened to stumble across your work) uncomfortable.

Do you think art can be a medium for change?

Yes in some ways of course. Art is not only a way to express what the creator themselves is feeling but it is also a way to teach others about issues, prejudices and ideals. For literature specifically it allows you into the shoes of another person you may not have understood before, in art pieces there’s a clear message and encourages people to educate themselves on certain issues which in turn makes room for change.

Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself?

Sometimes if i’ve been suggested or requested to write something because it isn’t an idea that comes for me but mainly if I am aware that someone is waiting for a fic or someone has said they’re anticipating it I feel like I’m writing for others, but I don’t particularly mind it because it almost encourages me to write to a better standard.

Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times?

Not particularly, I'm often as clear as I can be when portraying meaning, or I will straight up say it in a different thread or to different people because I can’t keep secrets and I’m a sucker for a spoiler. Although I am constantly worried about the way I come off in messages and things like that - I am a terrible overthinker.

Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr?

A few of my closest friends and other kpop stans I am friends with irl are aware of my blog and support me as much as they can with what little information I give them. I think only one of my irls has my url because she reads and I send her my binge reviews when I do them.

What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers?

Thank you so much, honestly it’s cheesy but without them I don’t know where my blog would be. The amount of them surprises me everyday and I don’t think I believe it half the time. Also if anyone ever needs help or support or just wants a chat I’m open, its 100% likely that if you interact with me or my posts on the regular then I will recognise you when you come say hi, I’m not that scary I promise.

Do you have any advice for aspiring writers who might be too scared to put themselves out there?

Just do it! It’s better to get your stuff out there and circulating to get a better idea of what people like and where your strong suit is, the more you put out the more you grow. But if you’re scared, talk to other creators, we’re always open to help and we can let you know what to do, it was something that helped me out :)

Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr?

When I first started there was a lot of struggle with me trying to figure out my style and what I wanted to do, and it was a learning curve of what can I do, what should I avoid and who am I doing this for. Sometimes when I’m really down I will question why I do it, but I never regret it because it has allowed me to make some wonderful friends and be exposed to some amazing creations and get more into something I’ve always liked doing, writing.

Do you have any mutuals who have been particularly formative/supportive in your Tumblr journey?

I don’t want this to be too long, but I feel like it could be. I’ve met so many wonderful people and I love all of them so much, but in terms of being formative and supportive these are some of the people I talk to the most. @renjunwrites - I am a huge fan of Denise and to even be able to be in conversation with her about the stuff she writes is mindblowing to me, @nanasarea - nana was one of the first people I spoke to (before I joined discord) and was really accepting of my antics from day one. @glossyjaems - me and Louna have become very close recently and I can’t wait for our project to launch, keep an eye out for that. @mjlkau Anie is really one of the biggest supporters I have, always willing to read what I send her and give me support and love. There’s so many more people I’d love to mention but this would go on forever, to anyone ever involved in my writing process I’m thinking of you as I write this and I love you all (I feel really bad not talking about every single one omg).

Ending thoughts:

“We’ll be alright, I want to try again” - Try Again d.ear (ft. Jaehyun) because this is something I hold close, ‘try again, we’ll all be alright in the end’

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#@bumblebeenct #thesunnyshow #featuredauthor #episode 4 #nct #harry potter

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Top 10 Albums that Shaped my Existence

How do I put this lightly, I believe listening to music matters as much as breathing. I know that is hyperbolic, but I don’t care. It can fuel your soul in a similar way that air fuels your body to move. It brings to life moments, places, and people. That’s probably why if you listen closely music is everywhere. It’s in the steel drums at Union subway station or the clarinet player at Yonge and Dundas Square. It’s is found from a broken guitar with unclipped strings in Kensington Market to a radio blasting out of an open window. It’s heard from the lake on a cool breezy summer night. It’s made by the leaves in the trees and the creatures roaming its branches. Music is inescapable.

Music is also a lot cheaper than therapy and for most, it is incredibly accessible. In saying that I do not mean to conflate therapy to music, but I do think there is a healing power to songs. This form of artistic expression has been with me during my brightest minutes and my darkest hours. I have relied on it like Aladdin did his magic carpet; it lift me up and took me to places I never thought I’d ever go. All I have to do was turn it on, tune in and drop out, as some would say.

During this pandemic I have leaned heavily into music, it is the perfect socially distanced escape. During this time that I have also gone back to old albums and reflected on how they influenced me and shape who I am today.

In Rainbows - Radiohead

If I had owned this album in an analogue form I would have destroyed it by overplaying it in my Discman. Radiohead is a wonderful band that have made wonderful albums but for some reason, this is the particular one I return to. To me, In Rainbows is the music I heard when I realized that I wanted to take my life in a different more creative direction than that of my peers. In Rainbows is the album I heard on carpool rides to Shakespeare Camp as a young girl. In Rainbows is what played in my head the first time I walked into Kensington Market as a young naive suburban girl. The music is so diverse with its sound but creates a distinctly modern tone. I find the music runs like a stream and cascades into fountains of sound I never expected. All the songs are beautiful but my favourite from the album has always been House of Cards.

Brothers - The Black Keys

If In Rainbows was an early marker of my youth, Brothers by The Black Keys established my teenage self and heavily moulded how I carried myself into my early twenties. With the raunchy guitar, hard drums and vocals somewhere between garage rock and blues, this album stimulated every part of my life. It is one of those albums that upon listening to the first fifteen seconds of the opening track Everlasting Light, I am immediately taken back to driving around in Toronto suburbs and getting into trouble. This album started my ongoing obsession with The Black Keys. Fun fact I named my first Tumblr blog off of a misreading a song lyric in the track The Only One, which also happens to be one of my favourite tracks on the album. I’ve tried to see The Black Keys live twice and both times I was unable to attend the concert. One day I will see them.

Revolver - The Beatles

There are a lot of Beatles albums I love and I wouldn’t say this is my favourite of theirs, but it is I would argue its one of their more underrated albums. From what I have gathered about Beatles fans (having been one since I was six years old), this choice isn’t mutually exclusive. It does however seem that established fans love either Rubber Soul or Revolver. For me, I choose the latter. This album is very experimental for the band as they were still coming out of their admired boy band era. I came to this album as a young girl whenever I played with my toys in the living room of my childhood home. I always heard a Beatles album playing in the background and when Revolver came on I was elated. My toys went on new adventures, met new people and told new stories. The Beatles have always brought out the creativity in me and I’m very grateful for that. Check out the song I’m Only Sleeping, it’s so meditative and my most replayed track.

Man on the Moon: The End of Day - Kid Cudi

I wasn’t in a good place when I was fortunate enough to be introduced to this album as being a teenager can be an incredibly difficult experience. Yet upon hearing this album I was pleasantly surprised, I never expected to find that catharsis in a young American rapper named Kid Cudi. I always liked some rap and hip-hip songs (don’t ever get me started on the importance of Sean Paul), but foolishly enough I never gave a full album or artist the chance. Man on the Moon found me at the right moment. This album’s production is so complex and crosses genres in ways I never expected; it leaves me wanting more every time. Kid Cudi hip-hop is different, Kid Cudi hip-hop goes deep and feels it. While Day ‘N’ Nite is one of the most recognizable songs on the album don’t sleep on Heart of a Lion, it’s beautiful.

For Emma, Forever Ago - Bon Iver

Like many teens in the mid-2000s, I made a Tumblr account. It was a great place filled with hormone-induced rage posts, images of skinny girls ripped from the website We Heart It, and boundless creativity. As a previous webpage creator hailing from the Geocities days, site creation was not new to me. I took up a URL and got to work. During this time I leaned deeper into the ‘indie girl’ aesthetic, which is where I found Bon Iver. Bon Iver’s music is soft and melodic and his guitar strums could whisk you away on a cloud. For Emma, Forever Ago was the soundtrack to the version of me who longed for combat boots, a-line skirts from American Apparel, and a cute hipster boyfriend to take me away from all my problems. I never got everything I wanted, but I was always able to sit in deep thought and listen to this album and for that, I’m incredibly grateful. The Wolves (Act I and II) is one of my favourite tracks off the album, I love the crescendo towards the end of the song it makes me want to release any bad feelings I have through some strong movement.

Is this it - The Strokes

I don’t remember when I first heard this album, I just know it was an unofficial anthem to my early twenties. Was it playing at that frat party? Or maybe it was at the live show in that bar one time. Is This It is the perfect album for starting out in a new place with dreams and about $20 to your name. This album is made for people entering young adulthood making mistakes and living for the moment. Garage rock is such an underrated genre, but perhaps that’s the suburban girl in me speaking. I want to dance every time I hear a track of this perfectly crafted experience. I hear those guitar riffs and I am taken back to running through Toronto at midnight with friends. Is This It is unapologetic and an outstanding debut album for The Strokes and cemented their status as indie rock legends, I don’t care what anyone says. There are a lot of amazing songs to recommend but I will try and spice things up. Last Nite and the title track Is This It are obvious choices but the bop you need to listen to is Someday.

Wish you were here - Pink Floyd

Everyone has to listen to Pink Floyd in university otherwise they never went…right? Pink Floyd always felt like a right of passage that I would eventually reach although I did cheat and wear a Dark Side of The Moon cropped t-shirt I got from HMV in high school just to seem cool. It wasn’t until first-year university I fell in love with the song Wish You Were Here. I’m sure I was just feeling nostalgic after moving out of my suburban bubble and into the big city for the first time. Nevertheless, after annoying my new roommates by listening to that song on repeat in my bedroom I decided to give the rest of the album a shot and immediately fell in l love. It is a short ride but an emotional journey. I thought I had felt everything I needed to feel at 21, then I heard Shine On You Crazy Diamond (Pts 1-5). If you were living under a rock and haven’t heard this album I recommend it. And do check out that track.

good kid m.A.A.d city - Kendrick Lamar

Swimming Pools was everywhere in 2012, it was synonymous with the nightlife which was surprising given its lyrics. Good kid MAAD city takes the ideas explored in Swimming Pools and expands them into a full universe. As soon as I turned on the first song I felt like I had been lifted from my cold Canadian home and into the chaotic Compton of Kendrick Lamar’s universe. This concept album has such depth I feel I learnt more than I would have ever expected. I love the way the album weaves recorded scenes with various characters and the music, it creates such a vivid picture as you listen through the whole piece. I felt deep sympathy towards the struggles told on the record in ways I never thought I would. Good kid m.A.A.d city is a great ride from start to finish without ever skipping a single track, but if you had to speed up to a gem I highly recommend the track Money Trees.

channel Orange - Frank Ocean

I was originally introduced to Frank Ocean through his work with Odd Future or as I proudly scribbled everywhere, OFWGKTA. Frank Ocean was always the quiet R&B guy from the group that I never thought I would have known much about but early 2013 rolled around all that changed. An old friend of mine had pointed me in the direction of new work by the musician and I ran towards the sound immediately. Frank’s voice is mesmerizing and he mixes sounds in ways I would never expect. His lyrics are dark and deep. This album got me through a lot of mixed emotions I started to experience as I worked my way through my undergrad. Frank understood what it meant to feel and I connected deeply with that. Pink Matter was the soundtrack to my life, I listened to it on repeat doing just about every task I could imagine.

House of Balloons - The Weeknd

I remember Toronto the year that The Weeknd released his first mixtapes. He was just an enigma floating through the city, no one could pin him down. I am one hundred percent one of the people who got their hands on the YouTube videos early and saved them immediately to my accounts. I wanted more and I didn’t know why. He captured a sound that still exists here today, it was dark and full of mystery. As soon as I got my hands on the first mixtape I popped that baby into my iPod and played it so much practically the full album made it to my ‘Top 25 Playlist’ on the device. I am obsessed with The Weeknd’s voice and as someone from Etobicoke, I am even more obsessed with the fact that he’s from Scarborough. He sounds like home to me and I will never be able to let that go. When I play this album (which is at least once every year I’ll have you know), I feel sure about who I am and where I come from. It’s not an explicit attitude to being from Toronto, but rather a feeling that you can carry throughout everything you do. The Weeknd carries that on a world stage and I am proud to say he is a Toronto native. Every song on the album is amazing and I say listen to them all, but do make sure you pay special attention to Loft Music. Nothing spells nightlife in Toronto more than at least one party in a condo or loft by Lake Ontario. I was actually asked to go to a late-night loft party by a random man at a Chinese restaurant one time so I can vouch for this happening in the city. Clearly, Abel knew what he was talking about.

Music is one of the most important things in my life. It is like a fuel I use to keep my motor moving. I find it anywhere and everywhere. I rely on it so much it has been the godsend I didn’t realize I needed during a pandemic. I think I am starting to understand why movies from the 1930s were so much about escapism; drifting off into another world during a difficult time can feel like magic.

What are 10 albums that shaped who you are? Let me know in the comments.

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cloudslou · 4 years

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louies tag game!!

thank u lovely emma @essercipertuttienonperse and dear ollie @voulezloux for tagging me!! hopefully i do it right fjjhdhdh

When did you become a Louie?

hmm double-sided question bc i got into one direction early 2012 when i was 11, bu ti was a niall girl and then became a harry girl mid-2014, and then dropped out of the fandom soon after that? and then last September i got back into 1d/solo careers bc i got into louis’ solo stuff. i guess i ended up following a louie w/o knowing it (ik exactly who this blogger is still) and so the day he performed in madrid suddenly i saw posts from her that were like “he said WHAT??” and i was #curious so i digged on her blog and saw she was talking about louis and the fact that he sang “princess park” in habit, and like That all the info about HL that i had let fade away came back and i was like he sang WHAT so obvs i did some more exploring and watched the vids uploaded of his habit performances and moved on from there, and basically like That was back in... i was casual for that school semester and then some time mid-late december last yr i was lurking on blogs and realized “oh shit, i wanna blog about this myself” and then made this sideblog <3

One thing that drew you in specifically?

his lyrics!!! the first song i heard upon my return was habit, and then all the other ccme/madrid performances and i just loved his lyrics and voice so much

Why did you become a Louie?

ugh so many reasons!!!!!! from the moment i got back into 1d and started narrowing in on louis, everything about him made me love him so much. his lyrics felt so honest and unique, and his voice was so light and yet rich, so dynamic but so able to carry emotion!!!! every video and interview i watched endeared me more and more, and it became so clear to me how compassionate and talented and caring he is and how FUNNY i know he was styled as the funny/loud one of 1d but it is just a genuine part of who he is to have fun and joke around and make people feel comfortable and safe via that trait if his. he’s such a leader and so so so intelligent and careful and purposeful and it shows in everything he does.

Who would you want Louis to collab with?

ugh taylor obviously. the songwriting and STORYTELLING skills would b off the charts!!!!! and then idk if this question means vocally so im gonna say more ppl he should write w: any member of all time low, sam fender, jesse thomas (who wrote on JLY), st. vincent/annie clark

Favorite song on walls?

habit!!! idk if its my legit fav song or im extremely sentimental so my fav song is obvs the song that pulled me back in, but it is what it is

Favorite hairstyle?

ummmm i will always be weak for like 2014-2015 hedgehog-fringe hair. BUT i also love a softer look so an unstyled, no-product kind of look so like the fan vs artist video?? or the GQ video where he makes online accounts and answers fan questions. yeah that. ik he probs has product in his hair in those vids but the point is that he does LOOK like he has lots of product. soft baby.

Back to you, just hold on, or miss you?

miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!! shes my baby

Louis in suits or sweaters?

sweaters!!!!! he looks so good in sweaters its absurd... so cozy and all too. every sweater he wears looks like it was made for him

Favorite tattoo?

the triangle!!! shes so small and perfect

Favorite Louis photo (currently)?

in honor of the fact that we just got this one..... THIS ONE

Random extra? random extra is my earliest memory of louis is me and some friends in our last day of the class, our creative writing elective, early 2012, we were in 6th grade, and we were in the corner writing in a whiteboard. just DAYS ago we as a collective has gotten in to 1d, and we were trying to learn how to spell their names, and i SO distinctly remember us writing out “tomlinson” and just like... memorizing the letters and the sound of it.

ok i suck at tagging ppl so im tagging @starryharry @tourhome @sunflwerlou @burntbromances @wlwalls and @louisau !! sorry if you’ve already done this, i have not kept track :-)

#thank u emma and ollie for the tag!#sorry it took several days to do this #about me #also no pressure to do this lol

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youcanblogifyouwantto · 3 years

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Biff’s Year in Music

2020 what can I say… I feel like this meme summed up the first half of it pretty well.

https://cheezburger.com/12209157/ant-man-meme-gives-a-recap-of-all-the-horrors-of-2020-so-far

Then to top it off this last week my son developed a spontaneous pneumothorax which basically is a collapsing of his lung for no apparent reason other than he is a tall thin white adolescent. To make matters worse he is 18 and COVID is raging in all the hospitals. Thankfully my wife is an RN and should have been a lawyer as she was able to argue her way into staying with him. Good thing she did because one the doctors fucked up so bad she gave him another Pneumothorax by turning a valve a wrong way. Needless to say it has been a very rough year and especially rough week for me and my family. Music has been and always will be the only constant positive release for me. 2020 had some great music and being home for almost an entire year now has led to a lot of music consumption. The only other thing I did almost as much as listen to music was drink and cook food to match what I was drinking. I’ve always loved beer and wine and dabbled in Whiskey but this year was the year of the cocktail for me. I would discover a new alcohol type and then plan crazy elaborate dinners that cocktail would either be an aperitif of digestif for. Fun yes, healthy? …That is yet to be determined. I did take up running again to counter the amount I was drinking and eating and I would say that I have consistently worked out more this year than any other year so my liver might be fucked but my heart and lungs are strong.

So to start it off, this year saw releases from some of my all-time favorite musicians that I found nice and good even but never clicked or haven’t yet. I had been eagerly anticipating Matt Berninger’s solo release all year and I dig it but strangely not enough to return to it unless I purposely tell myself to. The same goes for Bright Eyes, Real Estate, Sylavan Esso, Rolling Blackouts Coastal Fever minus Cars in Space (I played the shit out of that song), Bob Dylan, Bruce Springsteen, Car Seat Headrest, Dirty Projectors, Sufjan Stevens, Laura Marling (on first listen I thought easy top for the year then Fiona Apple came out and I haven’t returned to Laura Marling since), Damien Jurado, Jason Isbell, Neil Young (Homegrown had a special place in my heart for a month but again haven’t returned since August), Future Islands, Kevin Morby, and Busta Rhymes. All of these albums I do not hate or even dislike in fact some I liked a lot at first but just didn’t have staying power. The following list are albums I loved that some stayed all year in rotation. Not in particular order but kinda like a Coachella poster if it’s near the top it’s one of my favorites of the year. I can be very longwinded on paper and very brief in person so I will try my antisocial tendencies to describe these albums. I will say for the most part the albums that hit this year are like comfort food music for my soul.

Waxahatchee - St. Cloud – Home, comfort, introspective

Phoebe Bridgers – Punisher – Witty, production, great voice

Run The Jewels – RTJ4 - best running album ever. My favorite from these guys and best rap album I’ve heard in a while.

Jeff Tweedy – Love is the King. Maybe blasphemy but I like better than Warm. Perfect example of music comfort food. His biography is great too and so is the Summer teeth deluxe reissue.

Fleet Foxes – Shore – Beautiful, peaceful everything I needed from them and more. Side note Helplessness Blues was the first album review I ever wrote for ATR and I’m so glad I found those guys! Thank you for continuing the tradition.

Jeff Rosenstock – NO DREAM There was some good punk rock this year but this was the best also great running music. Rosenstock is now my go to for punk

Taylor Swift- Folk Lore- Story Telling, Sweater music, more music comfort food. And now Evermore continues the greatness. Dorothea might be my favorite track from both records. If you would have told me a Taylor Swift album would be in my tops for the year a couple of years ago I would have laughed you out of my face and now she has two albums in my tops. 2020 is one crazy year!

The Avalanches- We Will Always Love You- I’ve loved every single and was waiting for this to drop before posting this. Well Worth the wait. I like it better than the Gorillaz release and that is saying a lot. It’s hard to have this many spot on features and keep a cohesive vibe! Johnny Marr meets MGMT is another need more of this collab.

Loma - Don’t Shy Away- If 2020 could be articulated through music disorienting but also working from home has some perks. Good balance of weird and comfort

Adrienne Leckner – Songs- She writes great songs and performs them immaculately

Muzz- ST – The last show I went to before shutdown was Morrissey with Interpol opening and I forgot how much I love Bank’s voice. This album is highly underrated in my opinion especially Evergreen.

Gorillaz –Song Machine – Best since Demon Days and Robert Smith/Damon Albarn Collab was never anything I thought I needed but now want more of. When Tony Allen died I went through a deep Tony Allen dive that was quite enjoyable. Great Drummer!

Dinner party – ST – The title explains it better than I can

Against All Logic – 2017-2019 – Kelly Lee Owens and this were the only electronica to stay all year both great running albums and If you can’t do it good do it hard is worth the price of admission alone

Hamilton Leithhauser- The Loves of your life- I love this man and I loved the walkmen. I feel he for me is like Frank Sinatra was for my mom. Not as sweet as a voice but can sing the hell out of a song.

Walter Martin – The world at Night- Another Walkmen member, this is another comfort food album it just feels right in my soul

Ka – Descendants Of Cain – Criminally underrated for too long this dude paints lyrical mood pictures like GZA.

Perfume Genius – Set My Heart On Fire Immediately – Beautiful Authentic Elegant

Fiona Apple – Fetch The Bolt Cutters - Lyrically and sonically slays me. You have to like spoken word and weird rhythm texture but she nails both of those.

Bonny Light Horseman- ST – Great folk indie I just knew this was an album for me on first listen

Rose city band - Summerlong – Best new discovery, feeds my jam band meets indie soul

Strokes - The New Abnormal – I don’t know why this didn’t get more love? I loved it and The Adults are Talking is top five best Strokes songs.

Pinegrove- Marigold – More indie comfort food music

Bartees Strange – Live Forever – Second best new discovery. This dude is all over the place but in a good way. If you like this check out his singles where he covers many National songs.

Kelly Lee Owens – Inner Song- My Friend Antony described this better than I can at the current moment. Inner songs indeed.

The Killers – Imploding the Mirage- Most surprised album of the year, I’ve never been a big Killers fan but this one just wrapped it hooks inside me and didn’t let go all year

Young Jesus – Welcome to Conceptual Beach- Avant-garde or experimental music stretches me in ways that are very good for my soul and this one was such an album

My Morning Jacket – Waterfall II – Took a trip up to Humboldt in Early August and this was the soundtrack of the trip. Very much needed social distance return to nature vacation.

Hum- Inlet – I rocked out to this many a summer early fall evening sitting on my dock fishing and drinking beer.

Haim- Women in Music Pt. III – Best Haim yet and yes they are maturing into great song writers

Nation of Language- Introduction, Presence – Third best new discovery.. My friend Spencer at Shadows and Noise (a blog I’ve contributed to on occasion) accurately describes this album nicely. My wife loves Depeche Mode, New Order, and Erasure so this album is a new version of that genre that she and I can love together.

Coriky- ST – Half of Fugazi with a female drummer that sounds like classic Sleater Kinney in fact Fugazi meets Sleater Kinney is how I would describe this and that can’t be wrong!

EP’s Singles

James Blake- Before (Great marriage of his old and new)

Kruangbin & Leon Bridges- Texas Sun

Local Natives – Sour Lemon

Radio Dept – The Absence of Birds

Leon Bridges – Sweeter

Tom Berlin – Projections

Father John Misty – To S/ To R

Rostam- Unfold you

Mank is one of the only great movies of 2020!

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awkwardtaco056 · 5 years

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so now that i’m no longer in the Hell that was school and after finding the lovely blog @endcringe i’ve decided to talk about my own experiences with cringe culture, bullying, and why it’s Really Bad to not let people enjoy inherently harmless things, especially neurodivergent people (read more because this is gonna get long and triggering at times, TW for mentions of bullying, suicide, child abuse, a brief mention of incest shipping. I won’t be naming any of the peers that I discuss my experiences with, because my point with this post is Not to “cancel” anyone, I just want to speak out on my experiences)

I’m neurodivergent; I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 8 years old. I didn’t know a lot about it, and a family member even painted it as “oh it’s nothing blah blah blah just apply yourself more. Because of this, I had no idea about the concept of hyperfixations until I was in my late teens. Due to that, I would obsess over random things and my family would shame me relentlessly for it. My mother said I had an “addictive personality” and that she feared I’d end up a drug addict or alcoholic because of it.

I look younger than what I am, I’m short, and small. AKA, the perfect candidate for being picked on by people bigger and stronger than me. People made fun of my art when I was around 13, but fortunately that was an instance where spite fueled me to improve drastically. However, just because I happened to take the shitty comments and have it fuel me then does NOT mean bullying people will have that effect all the time. At some point someone put my old South Park fan art on a cringe blog. I was temporarily hurt, and a little angry, but I realized that if someone was making fun of a 15 year old’s art, they probably didn’t have much going for them in life, so I moved on.

Fast forward to high school. Everything was horrible and I’m not exaggerating when I say I barely made it out alive. I was living in an abusive household up until January 2018 and I found comfort in many different interests. I’ve always found great comfort in music and the arts in general. In 2016, I drew a picture of a mermaid. I was inspired by the chocolate opal gemstone, and I thought it’d be fun to draw a gay chubby mermaid with dark skin and a rainbow tail and freckles. Junior year was lousy and I wanted something that sparked Joy. I was immediately told that “scientifically, mermaids wouldn’t look like that. Mind you, my take looked like this:

Obviously I wasn’t going for realism, I just wanted to draw a cute mermaid. However, they continued to tell me that they wouldn’t look like that, going as far as writing so on the back of said drawing. When I got angry at her for taking it too far (as I’d established before that I didn’t like it when people wrote on my art without permission), they got angry back, accusing me of being unable to take criticism. Heated by the accusation, I went as far as asking my art teacher if it was fair for them to say that, and she said no, stating that constructive criticism would be talking about how I could improve my lineart and coloring in the digital version. I took her actual helpful criticism and since then have improved Drastically in digital art. Even with that being said, I found myself hesitant to participate in things such as MerMay because I was leery of hearing that peer berate me for having cartoony mermaids.

During high school I grew to love many musicians, a lot of emo/alternative stuff, a couple being Twenty One Pilots and Melanie Martinez. I love how unique TOP’s style is, their open discussion of mental illness, and as someone who had a rough childhood, I connected with every single song on Cry Baby. It was like nothing I’d ever heard. I started listening to mashups featuring all these different artists I love, adoring how they could change the tone and sound so drastically. A peer Bully of mine in junior year condemned these two artists, declaring that they made “Bad Music” simply because it didn’t fit their tastes. They’d throw my drawings on the ground, write over them in pen, steal my headphones so I couldn’t listen to music, push me around, complain that mashups sucked and gave them a headache, and in general shit all over conetnt that was actively preventing me from committing suicide.

Some family members were no better. Once high school hit, I began listening to Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, and My Chemical Romance. Their deep complex lyrics stuck with me. I would write down quotes from my favorite songs and thanks to hyperfixating, I remember each studio album in order My mother resented when I fell in love with the “Emo Trinity” because “the Columbine shooters were emo and that event traumatized me” Despite that, not only did the Columbine tragedy occur in 1999 and none of the bands got together until the early 2000s, but I have a pretty good feeling those groups aren’t For gun violence. The other side constantly criticized the fact that I love FOB, P!ATD, and MCR because I’m black and “why must you listen to that white people music.”

I grew fond of Dan and Phil in high school (and I’m still a fan to this day!), I loved Phil’s kindness and positive aura and I deeply connect with Dan’s sense of humor and personality. Their content made me happy during some very dark times in my life. It’s November 2017, I’m over a close peer’s house at the time, and notice PINOF is upon us. I drew the PINOF whiskers on my face, my plan being to quietly watch them in the corner of peer’s bedroom on my phone through headphones, the others were doing their own thing and I knew they didn’t like them, so I thought they’d respect it if I silently indulged in it. Unfortunately, the complete opposite happened. I was immediately shunned and locked out of the bedroom, told that I’d only be let back in if I washed the whiskers off because “absolutely not”. Me, being stubborn, washed them off temporarily but drew them back on in the room. Life during then was especially bad for me, as the abusive household I was in was getting worse. They noticed, of course, and even though all I wanted was to enjoy this small tradition in a time during a deep depression, I was immediately shoved out the room and locked out, only to have said peer’s family members notice. I’m a relatively shy person, so this was honesty a really harrowing experience that had a lasting effect on me.

I grew to adore Sanders Sides as well, but the moment I found out most of my peers didn’t like Thomas, I was terrified. I stopped watching Dan and Phil’s content for months and shied away from other fandoms too, only occasionally indulging in times of complete solitude. One time when said peers were due to visit my house for the first time, I saw the Phandom and Fander stuff I’d hung up on my wall in my little sanctuary that was my bedroom (it was the first time in years I’d had my own room), and I was filled with panic and fear. I took them down and hid them away, genuinely terrified of what they’d do to me if they saw. It’s still incites so much anger in me to this day because they turned around and ended up shipping incest, but somehow liking D&P and Sanders Sides was So. Much. Worse.

They were baffled by my actions, despite having humiliated me Twice by going on a private blog of mine separate from everything so that I could fully indulge and laughing at everything on there, once at a peer’s house, once right in school. I don’t think they realized how traumatizing it was to have a large group of people in public laughing at something I was deeply self conscious about for all of my life. I put on a brave face at the time, but ended up crying in the bathroom after first period began. I continued to be treated as lesser until things came to an ugly head August 2018 when I ended up in the hospital because I nearly attempted suicide. Years of child abuse, bullying, and being deemed “cringy” made me feel like I didn’t deserve to be alive, that everyone would be happier if I were gone.

After arguably one of the lowest points in my life, I cut them off and slowly began to embrace the Real Me. I started letting myself enjoy the things again, made true friends and even found love, my first boyfriend ever at 18. I still get choked up retelling it, but when PINOF 10 dropped, after he found out how much I’d been hurt over the incident in 2017, I was greeted with a photo of him with the whiskers on his face. I cried for a while, blown away at such a pure act of kindness. He listens to me ramble about my interests, he compliments my taste in music, he watched K-12 with me.

This got incredibly long, but my point is this: Cringe Culture hurts people. You might think it’s whatever if the Thing doesn’t apply to your interests, but content you’re denouncing as cringy could be something that’s keeping them alive, that one flicker of light in a void of darkness. When I was contemplating suicide, I listened to The Black Parade, repeating Gee’s words to myself over and over, that nothing in the world was worth hurting yourself over. Some friendly joshing here and there is okay, but actively ripping someone to shreds constantly to the point where they have a mental breakdown in front of you and later on plan their own demise is disgusting. Nobody should abuse anyone for having harmless interests, no one. Unless you’re participating in p*dophilic/inc*st/s*xual assault/inherently abusive ships/content and pretending it’s not bad because “Fiction doesn’t impact reality!”, you have every right to like what you like and be happy. Read homestuck. Play Undertale. Draw up the Wildest OCs you can imagine. And stay away from people who try to rob you of innocent fun, life is too short and in this cruel, unforgiving world, you deserve to be happy, whether you’re a 13 year old who draws cute furries, a 16 year old cosplayer on TikTok, a VSCO girl, a 30 year old who writes/draws self insert art or a 20 year old who adores Invader Zim.

Cringe Culture is just bullying under a different name, and it can lead to many instances of people, especially fellow neurodivergent folk to feel isolated and ostracized. Attempting to bully someone out of an interest they have isn’t going to fix them; it’s more often than not going to cause more damage. I suffer from diagnosed C-PTSD, anxiety, and depression, and sometimes I still find myself trying to over-justify my interests. To all who are roped up in bad homes and lousy “friends” who berate you for your innocent passions, I’m sorry you’re suffering, things will one day get better even if it doesn’t feel like it, and fuck those people. I’d also like to note that sometimes even if it seems more terrifying, it’s better to have one or two close friends you can truly trust than a whole group that walks all over you. You have every right to call them out for treating you poorly, and if things don’t improve, you also have every right to leave.

You have a right to live your True Self.

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My 2 Cents on Translating

I was skimming through my computer and found this blog post that I never posted. I think I was hesitant because I saw varying opinions on the subject in the fandom, but idk, these are just my thoughts from my experience as a fan translator for the vocaloid/utaite fandom and what I have learned. I'm not sure if any of my thoughts are unpopular opinions or not, but I'm also not sure how much discussion there has been concerning fan translators. Also, this is really long, so if you want to skim or ignore it be my guest lol.

I guess the first thing I'll talk about is how I think writing a translation is just as much of an artform as writing original lyrics are. I know that translations aren't from scratch like an original story is, but with Japanese especially, there's sooooooo much leniency in how things can be translated into English. Here's an example of how different translations can be. This is a quote from Natsume Soseki's "Kokoro" and three published translations of it:

私は冷やかな頭で新しい事を口にするよりも、熱した舌で平凡な説を述べる方が生きていると信じています。血の力で体が動くからです。言葉が空気に波動を伝えるばかりでなく、もっと強い物にもっと強く働き掛ける事ができるからです。

"I believe that a common reply, stated with passion on one's tongue, is more impactful than novel words from a cool head. The flow of blood powers the body. Words are more than waves disturbing the air, they induce great action in greater things." - From the Soseki Project site

"I believe that commonplace ideas passionately expressed are more effective in real life than the original inventions of a detached intellect. Because it is the heat of the blood that impresses us, for in addition to the words which reverberate in the air, the emotion by its intensity pierces to the soul." - Ineko Kondo

"I believe that words uttered in passion contain a greater living truth than do those words which express thoughts rationally conceived. It is blood that moves the body. Words are not meant to stir the air only; they are capable of moving greater things." - Edwin McClellan

Anyways, you get the idea lol. As you can see from these translations, the grammar structures are completely different; sometimes words are added, sometimes words are left out, and sometimes there are grammar patterns used in Japanese that just don't work in English. All these decisions are up to the translator. I've read some translations of things where whole relevant plot details were cut out just because the translator got annoyed (I'm looking at your translation of the Tale of Genji, Seidensticker).

I should probably talk about how I translate stuff. When I first started translating, I thought my lyrics were more liberal, but as I poked around and looked at other translators, I found that mine stuck more closely to the original format of the song (such as, I would keep the same phrases on the same line in the stanza, use the same format for punctuation, etc.). Song translation is different from manga or books because sentences can be broken up over a whole stanza, so translators can play a lot with how they want to arrange phrases for lyrics. I kept mine very close to the original song because I liked being able to easily identify the Japanese line with the English. I'm not sure if that's a translating "sin" but eh, that's how I liked translating my stuff. Maybe in the future I'll try something different

However, just because I saw many different translations for songs, I wouldn't go out of my way to say that any of them were wrong or bad, per say. Translating songs is a huge pain because there's no punctuation which makes it hard to keep track of everything. I've had times where I've been able to translate a 10 page story faster than I could translate a single song, just because having context and punctuation makes everything sooooo much easier. However, even if a translation is wrong, I don't think that makes it meaningless. I'm personally of the opinion that having some sort of translation is better than nothing, but that's something you need to decide for yourself. When I was first learning Japanese and couldn't fully understand the songs I listened to, if there was even just one line that I understood, I would embrace it and really love whatever meaning I grasped from it. Even if a song is translated correctly, there are lines that will impact people differently, and even an awkward or incorrect translation can resonate with the reader. Similarly, there are many times when I translate that I look at a line and think "aaahhhhh I want to change the meaning a bit because I can make it sound cooler and give it more impact than a direct translation would".

The next thing I noticed is that I kind of feel like people value native Japanese speakers (who have English as their second language, non-native English speaker) over native English speakers more (Japanese second language, non-native Japanese speaker)? Tbh, that feels like a double standard to me. Like idk, I'm fine translating Japanese into English, but I don't think I would be able to translate English into Japanese. In fact, most professional translating jobs have you translate into your native language, so I thought it was strange when I noticed that it seemed like native Japanese speakers had more favored translations. Or another one I noticed is that if someone knew more languages, their translation would also be considered better because of the assumption that taking multiple language courses is the same as being gifted with languages. Anyways, my point is that both English native speakers and Japanese native speakers both put a lot of time into learning their languages so I don't think one side should be valued less than the other. Both have their strengths and weaknesses. Native English speakers may have a harder time understanding the initial Japanese, but shape it into English better, while native Japanese speakers understand the Japanese, but have a harder time putting it into English how a native speaker would understand.

No matter what the translator's native language is though, I've learned that having skills in a foreign language isn't the only requirement to be a good translator; you also need to have proper understanding of grammar and a large vocabulary in your native language. Also, proper reading of the translation requires the same amount of understanding for English grammar and vocabulary. I realized this after I took a lot of comparative literature classes and realized how much of a potato I am lol. I think it makes sense though, as a lot of the lyrics from utaite and vocaloid songs are usually extremely well thought out poetry. Multiple songwriters I've translated for have mentioned that as they tried to write better lyrics, they eventually had to immerse themselves in studying literature and their native language much more than the average person would. I often think that since literature and translating doesn't abide by scientific law that the humanities are actually more difficult to grasp than STEM subjects (and trust me, I've studied far on both sides of the spectrum).

The last thing I'll touch on is that… just appreciate your fan translators and don't give them a hard time please. Like nobody gets paid to do this stuff and usually they do it because they really like something, so just let people learn and try their best. Yes, they won't be perfect translations, but once again, fan translators aren't paid. They're translating out of the goodness of their heart. After all, translators don't need to translate a song to understand it, so in the end they don't really lose anything if they stop translating. As international fans, I feel like there are three options that we have to choose from eventually: 1. Rely on fan translations, even with their mistakes 2. Don't use translations and just enjoy the music or 3. Learn Japanese. I think all options are great, but they are personal decisions and shouldn't be used to knock other people down and make them feel bad. If there's a mistake in a translation, it is not intentional and the translator literally has no idea unless someone tells them (as translations are a combined reflection of both Japanese AND English ability). All I know is that Vocaloid was popularized from amateur musicians just doing what they wanted for fun, and so I think a really cool thing that the international fandom has that Japan doesn't is that we have awesome fan translators that are also amateurs and are doing translations for fun.

#rachel says stuff #also if you read all of this dang good on you and you're officially my favorite

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rainbhrts94writes · 5 years

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The Little Things

The first post on this blog of mine :) Based on a post I saw about the little moments that made people realize they had fallen in love <3

Go get your UwUs

The Little Things

Taehyung

You had always made his heart flutter, doing funny little backflips in his chest. The little things always setting it off leaving him speechless. The way you ran through a field of flowers, how your laugh sounded like a bell when it caught the wind just right, the way you squeezed his arm when you were scared.

Both of you were at the store, you have made it your mission to try on the oddest combinations possible, but somehow everything worked. You looked good in everything, and Taehyung meant that, despite how biased you thought he was.

Taehyung was standing at the clearance rack, looking for something wacky when you came out in a pale blue number. You gave a quick look around; he assumed you were looking for him, so he began his walk over. Stopping himself short when he saw you smile at your reflection, clearly happy with your own appearance, you did a twirl and made the craziest face you could before fixing up your hair.

His heart stopped, his breathing surprisingly calm as his mind came to a standstill. A small smile taking over his face as his brain repeated the same word over and over again. With a hop in his step, Taehyung walked back towards the fitting rooms, calling your name and watching as you turned a deep shade of red to your chest; Embarrassed, you had been caught making faces in the mirror.

“It’s okay, I love you anyway yea?”

~ o O o ~

Jimin

Jimin knew waiting backstage for him couldn’t be the most fun thing for you to do, but he appreciated it anyway. It’s not like you got to sit with him, but the time you did get to spend together was better than nothing.

Usually, you were standing by the stage door, the first person to greet the boys when they came back towards the green room. For some reason though, he couldn’t find you. The show had wrapped recording nearly twenty minutes ago, he hoped you were okay, trying to stay distracted by the after show pleasantries. Hopefully you’d turn up soon.

When you didn’t show up in the window of time used to break down the set and take makeup off his worry quickly turned to panic. Especially since nobody seemed to know where you had gone off to, not to mention the last person to see you may have been Jungkook, and he was the last one on stage earlier.

Jimin walked around the entire studio, checking behind every unopened door and peeking in all the opened rooms until he heard that cute little mumble of yours. He hauled ass down that hallway, coming to a stop just shy of a tiny little green room, one reserved for gods knew who. Jimin reached out, just shy of saying your name when he noticed you were separating the fruit by color.

It only took a moment before you made the funniest little noise of triumph, hands coming down to rest on your hips as you proudly stood over your work. Jimin held it together, he wouldn’t laugh when you looked so happy with yourself.

His heart warmed, but he was unable to control his laughter when you took out your phone and sent him a photo captioned ‘See, I work hard too! /;3;/’

Startled your turned, eyes wide as color rushed to your ears. Jimin could tell you wanted to hide, but he wouldn’t let you, quickly pulling you into a hug, still trying hard to stifle his giggles.

“I love you, but you’re crazy, I’ve been looking everywhere for you. This is the wrong green room (YN)-ah!”

~ o O o ~

Namjoon

One of these days he was going to write down and record your laundry song. Namjoon had never once found the task enticing, usually letting his clothes build up until he needed to wear something that still happened to be dirty. That was when his washing happened.

Since you had walked into his life, he’d had fresh food and clean clothes, and for that, he was thankful. He spent most of his time with you wandering around the river or hiking up his favorite path in the park you got lost in all those months ago.

He noticed the songs one day when you thought he was taking a nap after one of those hikes. You had been putting away the groceries, and he couldn’t sleep anymore. Namjoon had contemplated getting up to help, but stopped dead in his tracks when he heard you, rapping?

That’s when it all started; Namjoon found himself in the oddest places when you did chores. He had figured out you only rapped your way through them when you thought nobody was listening, and that made his chest hurt, in a good way.

Finally, he did it. Having listened to you go through the lyrics multiple times, he had the laundry song memorized. Namjoon jumped to the recording studio, rapping out your song, unable to stop smiling even as you gave him a pout and that adorable, curious look. His smile grew even wider when you took in a breath, and your grip tightened on his forearm; Only realizing he wasn’t making fun of you when you had made it to the bonus lyrics he had come up with at the end.

A permanent “I love you” that you could play on repeat for ages.

~ o O o ~

Hobi

It was how you met. Sitting at an airport in the US, waiting for your flight back to Korea, that had been delayed. Anytime anything even remotely serious seemed to be announced, you bit back a laugh. On occasion, one would escape, though you didn’t seem to mind, continuing on despite the glares. Why did that do things to him? Heart doing a backflip in his chest Hoseok swallowed hard.

With a single shot of bravery and jet lag as a scapegoat, he plopped down beside you and asked to see what was so funny. Since then, your relationship had been nothing but a constant stream of memes. Each one of you trying to make the other laugh at the most inappropriate times.

You were too cute when you were trying not to laugh. Your cheeks puffed up like one of those blowfish, and your eyes started to water until it all turned into a coughing fit. Hoseok wasn’t sure why he found it so endearing. Namjoon had once suggested that the challenge that came with making you laugh was the enticing part, Jin had argued it was the weird sputtering noise you made.

Maybe they were both right.

One weird afternoon, you sat side by side in an empty apartment. Hoseok’s heart hammered in his chest, but despite the racing, he felt giddy? He couldn’t explain it, maybe that was because he couldn’t. At least not with words.

It happened suddenly, without warning Hoseok was flooded with “I love you” gifs. There it was again, his heart did that indescribable thing. When the room grew quiet of laughter, he looked up at you, the once gleeful expression in your eyes had morphed into warm recognition as petal pink dusted your cheeks.

That was when he smiled at you.

“I love you too.” Were the words he had been looking for, finally able to describe that feeling.

~ o O o ~

Jungkook

Grocery day was Sunday, and you were the funniest person to go to the grocery store with. Any trip with his hyungs usually resulted in a hodge-podge of food and snacks that nobody needed, but everyone ate. You, on the other hand, were like a drill sergeant, always had a list, never went hungry. That was wild to him.

It was so thorough. Each item placed on the list in order so you could find them by aisle. A huge part of him was amazed at you, not only was that the most efficient thing Jungkook had ever seen, your knowledge as to where everything in the store was astounded him.

You always walked with such a purpose, slowing down only when the situation called for it. Like if an elderly person needed help getting something off a shelf, or a child unintentionally cut you off as they ran down the aisle. Otherwise, it was calculated and quick. Jungkook remembered your first trip to the store together, he had nearly mowed down two workers and knocked into something each time he had to turn down a new aisle. He had had to learn how to efficiently maneuver the cart if he wanted to keep going to the store with you.

It had been nearly a month now since the two of you had gone shopping together. You had gone home to the states to visit with family. He had meant to tell you before you left, he really had. They were renovating the store.

Your first trip when you returned was the funniest, you flew into a frustrated rage. Grumbling about how they “can’t just change where they put things like that.” It got better, though. Jungkook followed behind you with skill, happy to catch your drive-by swipes into the cart, so happy in fact he wasn’t paying attention nearly plowing into the back of you.

Stopping abruptly, you turned around and looked at him, your face was utterly blank.

“I don’t even remember why I came down this aisle.” it was so cute how confused you were, he couldn’t help but chuckle.

“I love you.” He admitted in the middle of the breakfast aisle like an idiot. Despite the word vomit and his face flushing, his heart warmed when you closed the distance.

~ o O o ~

Jin

Jin didn’t think you knew just how funny you were. Not in like a ‘haha kind of way,’ no, your humor was all in your body language, those grand facial expressions. Never failing to make him snicker, resulting in your pouting, which only led to more teasing and laughter.

He was sure one day you’d just get fed up with it, but so far, you had stuck around. Unable to completely repel his boyish charms. A statement that always earned him one of those sassy little eyerolls. His favorite, though, were those faces that you made when you slipped into a social glitch.

It was like clockwork, the two of you would go out somewhere. Purchase something, whether it be food, a movie ticket, clothes. Somebody would tell you to enjoy something they clearly were not participating in, and without fail, you’d reply ‘you too.’ The blush that followed covered your entire face, your ears burning red hot as the color spread down your neck and chest. It was adorable, your hands would flail, and you’d apologize profusely.

Luggage in hand, the two of you headed towards the bellman, placing your luggage on the cart before heading to check into the hotel. Tired, you stuck close to him, using him as a pillar to keep yourself upright as he talked to the clerk. She gave the usual spiel, going through the amenities, describing how to get to your room, the whole shebang. That’s when it happened. She wished us an enjoyable stay.

Was it odd that I anticipated your funny response? The subtly-wrong, “Thanks, you too.” Probably, but that was alright. Right on cue, you seemed to realize what you had done, nearly knocking the rope’s up for the line over as you flailed about.

I couldn’t help but laugh out loud, teasing you up the escalator. You were pouting, poking at my side where it tickled the most when I let it slip.

“Stop, stop! I still love you I promise.” Pushed out through unabated laughter.

For once in my life, I knew your response wasn’t compulsory, or a social glitch. You meant that ‘I love you too.’ when it flew past your smiling lips.

~ o O o ~

Yoongi

You always came by when he was working late, food in hand, and a soft smile on your face. Never saying much, but hewas happy to have you around. A comfortable silence hanging in the air. You always brought something to do. Most times, you brought a book or a sketch pad. Other’s you had work, something small you couldn’t quite finish while you were at the office that needed to be done.

More often than not, you fell asleep on the couch in the studio. At first, Yoongi thought, maybe it was the music and the dim lighting. Then you passed out when he wasn’t playing with his recordings; it had to be the typing then, right?

Turns out, you were just comfortable. Yoongi liked that, liked that you never hid how you were feeling. Some days you came frustrated; others, your excitement couldn’t be contained. You were an open book, and even though he had never been one for reading, he enjoyed the story you seemed to be sharing with him.

Today was one of those weird days, where you looked almost frustrated. Concentration lines showed on your forehead as your nose wrinkled. Fingers tapping furiously on your keyboard as you ‘tsked’ softly every so often.

Yoongi was intrigued, he couldn’t quite figure out what was bothering you today, but he knew it was something. You were doing that thing he loved though. He had once told a reporter he loved his hands, but he may love yours more. Especially when they did what you were doing now. When you got to thinking really hard, your thumb would rub against the edge of one of your other nails. He wondered if it soothed you, or just gave you an outlet for your unplaced emotions.

You didn’t move when he sat down beside you. Your eyes snapped up when he placed his hand on the small of your back. A smile slowly returning to your face as the tension you had been holding uncoiled. He doesn’t know what came over him; to this day he’ll tell you he was flying blind.

Finally, relaxed against the couch, Yoongi moved to stand when you stopped him, grabbing his arm. He kissed your temple, the faintest, “I love you,” whispered against your skin.

#k pop fanfiction #BTS fic #BTS drabble #my friends pressured me into posting this so now I have a new blog

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debunkingtaytaysbeard · 5 years

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Hey DTTB, have you seen this? What are you thoughts?

— Submission by anonymous.

💭 It just kind of seems the same symmetrical behavior don’t you think?

I was barely a Kaylor this spring/summer, I went through it so quick and by July I was over it. I saw everything, read everything had fun with it, got too engulfed in it, & then I took time to see the other side, and 100% within myself saw a truth that I knew wasn’t Kaylor.

I read all of this, and as I have told many of you I don’t want to be like TTB. I don’t want to be passive or close minded. I never want to push my anti-Kaylor narrative. I just want to talk. I always reply in ways to make Kaylors think about a different perspective not by saying NO, wrong it’s like this. Just like this. I’m blocking you because you don’t understand it. I approach it to strike conversation.

For example, someone mentioned earlier how josh posting only pictures of Karlie is a little weird, and I simply asked why is it that Taylor can write all these songs about Karlie as her muse, but Josh can’t see Karlie in the same light through his photography. AND GUESS WHAT, she still is bringing her questions to the table, she still hears Taylor say “her” she still wonders why. I’m not stopping her from that or believing that.

Another example, a Kaylor brought up how Joe is more comfortable with guys and “soft” & Josh hands “gay mannerisms” and I simply explained how it’s okay for men to be comfortable with each other or not be so manly and tough to be straight. I explained how branding men by their interactions or mannerisms in relation to their sexuality is what makes men feel then need to prove how “straight” they are a lot of the time. She saw my point when it was stated in that manner, and guess what? She’s still a Kaylor and that’s perfectly fine. I’m not going to attack her or block her for that.

I guess what I’m saying is I’m not trying to force anyone into becoming an Anti. I’m opening up a space where they can question anything and everything, and yes specially what TTB states. I do believe what she says is often reaches and to put it simply BS. The fact that she doesn’t let people question the narrative, timeline, “facts” she presents, thats not a good approach in my opinion.

With that last part being said, I don’t think me being an ex-Kaylor is a bad thing. I understand others perspective better. I understand their annoyance, which is why I can say, “okay I understand this, but then I thought of this.” “How does that make you feel?”

Kaylors want us to challenge their narrative. I’m doing so. I’m not playing police. Im not burned or bitter. I just started seeing facts, not a theory. You can tell me that because I saw this I’m not allowed to do this. That because I used to believe and now don’t I don’t have a thought that isn’t just built out of bitterness. I’m just encouraging thought. In reality I’m not even a harm to TTB as she has blocked me. She has encouraged Kaylors to block me. So I’m only really interacting to those Kaylors that want to question or see my perspective.

And yes Taylor has invited us through her lyrics, Easter eggs etc to make guesses and look at her life from the little bit of clues she’s choosing to give us.

But the one thing that is always brushed over is that she has said how much she hates “ships” being “shipped” etc.

As you said, she sees Tumblr, the theories etc, but have you ever thought maybe she may looks at it and feel uncomfortable. How she may also not want to shut it down and upset fans, because she sees how upset they got when she was “leading them on to coming out” even though it was never something in her plans.

Your points are still valid, but this is what I mean. I want to strike a conversation that questions and views all sides without arguement. Just w/simple conversation.

Trust me somethings I still don’t have answers for. I still get stumped. So if a Kaylor were to ask me a question I didn’t have an answer to, I would be honest and say, you know what, you got that one, cause right now I don’t have an answer for that. I’m willing to take a fall when I don’t have the grip on something. That’s the difference between this blog & TTB.

But if you have any further questions or concerns @throughanavalancheand feel free to reach out & thanks for sharing why it’s difficult for you to stan it.

Just my thoughts,

👩🏻‍⚖️💭

#taylorswift #tswift #tswizzle #kaylor #taytaysbeard #ttb #ttbask #swiftgron #spade #spade stopped by #debunkingtaytaysbeard #dttbask #dttb #karliekloss #karlie what you want #gaylor #gaylor swift

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brightlytae · 5 years

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Brightlytae’s Masterlist:

A full collection of all works belonging to me. Please do not re-upload or take without consent.

Disclaimer: All stories and events presented below are fictional. At no point are these fics a part of an attempt to label those included, nor convince readers of the ships. These fics are written for fun!

UPCOMING LIST!

Social Media au’s:

Yoonmin/ Taekook/ Namjin- READ HERE

After a year of producing abroad, Min Yoongi finally returns to South Korea where he continues his job as a lead producer for Bighit Entertainment. With such a stressful year, Yoongi has lost his inspiration and when his best friend and super idol Jung Hoseok asks him to produce the final song on his new record, he panics. That is until he develops a friendship with Park Jimin, Bighit and Hoseoks head choreographer. Featuring side Taekook and Namjin.

Taekook/ Namjin/ Yoonmin - READ HERE

After a series of misunderstandings at a party one year ago Kim Taehyung decides that he hates Jeon Jungkook. What he doesn’t realise however, is that the photography blog he’s obsessed with just so happens to belong to the boy he cant stand, that’s been crushing on him since forever and has been desperate to make up for the wrong doings of that night. What will happen when Taehyung decides to reach out to the blog he just cant seem to get enough of and will Jungkook tell him the truth about his real identity? featuring side Yoonmin and Namjin.

Yoonmin/ Taekook/ 2seok- READ HERE

Min Yoongi an aspiring lyricist and writer has had the biggest crush on Park Jimin, since the first time he saw him in their shared creative writing class. Shy and to himself, he documents his feelings in the best way he knows how to- through his lyrics, which he keeps hidden in a lyric journal that he always keeps on him. When the book goes missing, he panics and when it ends up in the hands of his crush, he really thinks he’s done for. So when Park Jimin asks to be partners on their latest class project, Yoongi doesn’t know what he’s getting himself in for. With side taekook and 2seok.

Taekook/ Yoonmin/ Namjinseok- READ HERE

After losing contact with his pen pal ten years ago, Jungkook thinks he’ll never speak to Kim Taehyung ever again. That is, until a viral post on twitter with a picture of the two of them and a copy of one of their letters gets sent to him. Faced with the situation to reconnect with a lost love, what will happen when Jungkook responds and opens himself up to the possibilities he ran away from as a teen?

Fics:

Love 101- Taekook/Yoonmin- READ HERE

Jungkook has struggled with his confidence for years, Taehyung gives him a helping hand.

Or the one where Taehyung tries to teach Jungkook how to flirt but he gets a whole lot more than he bargained for...

All in My Head- Taekook- READ HERE

AU prompt: Person A is thinking sexually graphic or generally odd thoughts and suddenly panics and thinks “If you’re a mind reader, cough right now.”

Person B coughs.

Help me Out?- Taekook- READ HERE

‘Hi. I know we’ve only just met, but my ex invited me to a party and he has a new boyfriend. I can’t show up alone... will you help me out?’

Or the one where Jungkook works in the university library and has always watched the beautiful blonde boy with the annoying boyfriend, wishing one day he might get the chance to talk to him.

Coffee Crush- Taekook/Yoonseok- READ HERE

Taehyung and Jungkook decide to throw a singles night for Valentines Day in hopes of setting up their best friends Min Yoongi and Jung Hoseok whilst at the same time, try to deal with their own growing feelings for the other...

The Wedding Date- Taekook- READ HERE

Yoongi and Jimin are getting married. Taehyung, as their best friend, should be thrilled. And he would be too, if not for the fact his ex has also been invited to the wedding.

When Yoongi decides to set him up with a fake date in the form of national celebrity superstar athlete Jeon Jungkook, you’d think all his troubles would be solved.

Sounds perfect, right? Wrong.

Because there’s just one problem. Taehyung knows Jungkook...and he can’t stand him.

Pacts and Pictures- Taekook/Yoonseok/Namjin- READ HERE

Taehyung is Jungkook's best friend.

For ten years since moving across the hall from each other at college, the boys have lived their lives with the other by their side, doing everything together... even dating.

A pact they made early in their twenties that outlines several rules when it comes to their love lives, this has always worked... or so they think.

Jungkook has never cared much for dating in the first place, his life being solely coloured by his best friend, who his feelings have only grown for over the years. Taehyung on the other hand has always enjoyed their lifestyle and been oblivious to the others growing affections.

But when Jungkook eventually meets someone who seems just a little too perfect for him, Taehyung starts to wonder what life without the other may just be like and he isn't quite sure he likes the outcome...

Ice to Meet You- Minjoon/Yoonjin/Taekook- READ HERE

“So let me get this straight? You want to bring Sooyoungie to every one of her classes? Every Sunday? 7am?”

Namjoon nods his head, hands in between his legs sitting on Yoongi and Seokjin's couch as the two men tower over him. He kind of feels like a child who’s been caught stealing cookies before dinner time, being interrogated, or told off, what with the way he’s sitting and they aren’t, and how he just knows they are going to pry until they find out why exactly he would be offering such a thing. They can ask all they want though, there’s no way in hell he’d ever tell them, not at all, not even a little bit...

“Oh god, you have a crush on her teacher don’t you?”

#BTMLISTBT

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callioope · 5 years

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Questions Meme!

Hello, yes, this HAS in fact been sitting in my drafts for ages and ages. Thank you to both @crazy-fruit and @ruby-red-inky-blue for tagging me and for waiting forever for me to answer (oops)! I’m sorry I took so long, but y’all ask really good questions and I had to think about some of them!

Question Set 1

1. How are you?

Oh, I’m doing alright! Thank you for asking. The earlier part of this year was rather rough, but therapy has been helping. I’ve been rather busy these past few weeks with traveling, and my schedule going forward is rather busy, too, so while I’m excited for those things, I’m also excited for the eventual moment I can just relax.

2. What would you say are your talents?

Writing. Making fancy color-coded spreadsheets. I’ve been told that my super power is getting random (annoying) songs stuck in other people’s heads. Does that count as a talent?

3. If you had the chance to start your life again, would you take it?

NOPE. No thanks. I like where I am at right now, and I would not want to relive my awkward years. Er, at least, my more awkward, younger years. Cuz I’m totally still awkward. Just less awkward. I hope?

4. Which language would you like to speak instantly?

HMM. ALL OF THEM. It’s really hard to choose!

Language fascinates me, and in another life I feel like I would have devoted a lot more time to learning more of them. Unfortunately, I really hated German class in high school because of the teacher’s tendency to put people on the spot -- I think that is sort of inherent in a language class, but I get anxiety speaking in public.

Anyways, I suppose I’ll answer Turkish to this question, since spouse and I keep saying we’re going to try to learn Turkish via Duolingo. For the record, my HS offered six languages, which was the most I’ve ever heard of an American school offering, and I was always quite happy with my choice of German. (The others were Spanish, French, Italian, Chinese, and Latin.) I do wish I had maintained my German better, and I that I had more time to learn Spanish.

5. Where would you like to be right now?

Honestly? I’m pretty happy when I’m at home. But if I had to answer where “else” would I like to be right now, out of the whole world? Being back on safari in Botswana is a top contender, as are a variety of places in Turkey, and also Munich.

6. What name would you give yourself?

I’ve always liked my actual name (Elizabeth). I know I go by Liz; one of my HS friends was quite stubborn and I’m a bit stuck with it now, but I don’t mind it. There are worse nicknames that come from Elizabeth. I used to go by Fiona online; I’ve always been fond of that one.

7. What is something you’re currently learning?

OOF, what a good question. I sorta blanked on this at first, and my first thought was uhhhh learning how to cope with my OCD??? I’m doing exposure therapy right now, ish. Emphasis on the ish. Also mindfulness. Does that really even count? I started a beginner’s knitting project several months ago that I never finished, does that count? (I just need to seam it, that’s what I’m putting off. I have knit plenty of scarves; however, this is my first hat.) I’m sort of teaching myself ukulele although I haven’t really learned any new chords or songs in awhile. I would very much like to take more photography classes with a focus on wildlife photography. That involves buying a new camera and... signing up for classes.

Question Set 2

1. What is a detail in a piece of art/a text that you like that you really admire?

This was very difficult, at first because it was like looking at a bin full of loose things and just seeing an assortment of color and being overwhelmed by it all, and then because once I did start digging around, I kept finding different ideas and it was too hard too choose.

Character-building: In the A Song of Ice and Fire series, when Arya starts working for the House of Black and White, Martin stops using the name “Arya” as she dons different identities. For example, he uses “Cat” for a bit, among other names. It shows she’s trying to be someone else, but the caveat is that there are still little mannerisms and such that show she hasn’t really left Arya behind (I think maybe she bites her lip or something? I don’t remember specific examples because it’s been over 5 years since I read these books, but I do remember really appreciating the general technique at the time).

Music: In The Beatles’ “I Want You (She’s So Heavy)” I love those repeated arpeggios, over and over, building, intensifying, as the white noise comes in and you can just feel the heaviness of desire, of want... (and then I love how it just breaks so suddenly! And I know it wouldn’t have been intended this way because that’s the end of side one, but since I listen to the whole album on spotify, then those bright chords of “Here Comes the Sun” come in and god Abbey Road is the best Beatles album)

Writing: the poetry of Florence + The Machine’s “All This and Heaven Too,” obviously, since literally the title of my blog comes from that. I’d quote that whole song honestly. There’s something that speaks to me about the incapability of language to fully encompass just... everything. I mean, love in specific here, but also just everything. Words are just these little boats we put meaning on and we hope they make it to the other side but everyone takes ‘em a little differently.

Like, look at this:

And the words are all escaping, and coming back all damaged And I would put them back in poetry if I only knew how

And this:

Words were never so useful So I was screaming out a language that I never knew existed before

Anyways, there’s also something just incredibly soothing about the music, too, and how she sings the song. There’s another line, from Sara Bareilles’ “Miss Simone” that goes “How does she know what a heart sounds like?” which pretty much sums up how I feel about “All This and Heaven Too” (and also many of Sara Bareilles’ song, especially that particular album, but I digress).

Anyways I did have some art examples, but I think I’ve rambled long enough.

2. Is there an idea that you really liked but had to discard because you couldn’t get it to work?

If I really like an idea, I don’t really “discard” it so much as put it on the shelf to attempt later. Out of recent fic ideas, I’ve really struggled with “How to Lose a Spy in 10 Days.” I first thought of this in late spring 2017, and for awhile I couldn’t stop thinking about it, but I was working on Whatever I Do at the time, and wanted to wait before starting another WIP. By the time I got to writing this, the inspiration well had sort of dried up.

I really like the idea of a fun cat-and-mouse rom-com idea where Jyn and Cassian keep outsmarting each other, with a whole lot of competency kink, some “oh shit we actually work well together!” and maybe some battle couple. And I was really looking forward to both the moment when they both finally let their guards down around each other and the big confrontation when they actually find out each other’s identities. But it involved more mission writing than I was prepared for, and I really struggled with it. I think I need to start over but that involves a lot of working, so it’s unfortunately shelved for now, and I’m working on a “You’ve Got Mail” concept instead.

3. Is there something fandom-related you would like to be able to do (i.e. I’d like to be able to make gif sets but can’t)?

Oh, yes, absolutely! Really anything that’s not writing related, lol. Gif sets, art, etc. But most of all, I have a music video idea for the song “So Close” from Enchanted--like I have a whole story board plotted out in a google doc. But I don’t have any video editing software, don’t even know how you get the scenes for a music video, etc. I have made videos before, but not since high school, and I don’t even have the cheap, basic video editing program I used back then. Sometimes I think I should just attempt make a gif set instead, but there are so many lyrics! and scenes that go with the lyrics! that I don’t know how to consolidate it into that format anyways.

4. What is a skill you’ve acquired through fandom work?

Hmm, this was tough. I’m going to say HTML. I’m not up-to-date on webdesign at all, but back in my early fandom days, I ran a few fansites. I still sometimes use HTML while leaving comments or to edit posts on dreamwidth or w/e. It’s super basic, but it has helped me at work at a variety of jobs. I take it for granted that people my age should know basic HTML, but a lot of them don’t, and then a lot of people I work with now are older and definitely not tech savvy.

5. Do you think anyone can learn to create great art, or does it take talent?

Well, I’m going to cheat a little. I do think think that anyone can learn to create great art, but I also think that everyone has a talent at something, and part of learning to create great art is recognizing your skill sets and honing those. If that makes sense? I’ve sort of seen both sides to this. I’ve seen naturally talented people create great things, but I also think that they’re probably cheating themselves if they’re not learning and honing their craft and trying to get better. But I’ve also seen people who started out making things that maybe you wouldn’t call great, but they worked hard over and over again, and looking at their work now, you’d say they were talented without ever knowing the difference. Great art = talent + learning + passion. Did that even answer the question? ...moving on

6. Do you prefer AUs or in-universe? Why?

I prefer to write in-universe, for sure. I find modern AUs more challenging, mostly because--and I feel kinda bad saying this--it’s very difficult for me to tap into Jyn and Cassian’s characters without some kind of tragic background. Their experiences and how they coped with them shape their personalities, and it’s really hard to separate them from those. My WWII was easier because, hey, it’s war, not so different from in-verse. But I initially tried to write Learning Curve in a modern AU and I was just totally bored. Putting it in universe made it more interesting to me, especially having to finagle a happier plot inverse. IDK, it might even be that I generally struggle to make up any conflict in modern AUs that feels interesting.

THAT SAID, lol, I definitely read either. So it’s probably strange for me to be hung up on it because I’ve read nice fluffy modern AUs and found them perfectly engaging.

Tagging: @theputterer, @magalis, @allatariel, @mythologicalmango, @threadsketchier MY USUAL DISCLAIMER APPLIES: no pressure if you just don’t wanna, AND if anyone sees this and was like “aw hey i wish she’d tagged ME” well guess what, I wish I did too! so go ahead and do it and let me know and then i’ll know to tag you next time, too :-)

Questions:

When you suffer a setback or a series of setbacks when creating (writing, drawing, knitting, any kind of crafty project thing you work on... even work), what are some strategies you use to cope with that stress and move forward?

What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to create/make and what did you learn from it?

What part of a bicycle would you be?

What’s a helpful writing (art/crafting/work) technique you’ve learned?

What’s a piece of art that made you see things differently?

You’re a new addition to the crayon box. What color would you be and why?

What was the last board game you played and what did you like or not like about it?

*sorry these came out rather writer heavy!

#about me #tag meme

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