#forever friendless

[fracturediron]

Watched DFF ep 5, and honestly, watching all the bullying stuff was harder than all the horror that's happened so far combined

#as someone who was friendless and bullied in school #can relate 😭 #poor non #i know he won't be but i want him to be all right #dead friend forever #dff #dff the series

[daughterthethird]

helloooooo fellow hettimir enjoyer

I have a question

what about Pan's background???

Uhh. To put it simply… ITS COMPLICATED. i haven’t exactly fleshed her story out so its all over the place <\3

But to give you a very brief rundown:

Pan is brash, entitled, reckless, and generally unnaproachable. She’s uh. She’s got issues. Partially because of her upbringing by her parents who are both messy in their own ways.

Because of everything surrounding her parents, people are wary of her, thinking she’s dangerous in some way just like them. This ostracisation combined with a slew of other things has made her distant and bitter towards others. And her sour attitude does not help her image whatsoever.

nobody likes her, she doesn't like anybody (save for her parents). It's a lose-lose situation all throughout. BUT LIKE I dunno maybe things will turn out better in the future for her. If I'm feeling nice that is.

☝eyes full of malice hate and darkness

#shes a friendless nerd thats all im gonna say #GOSH I WISH I COULD SAY MORE BUT THATS THE MOST I CAN DO WITHOUT GETTING INTO CONFUSING TERRITORY 😭😭 #OH AND BTW #iggy i am forever grateful for your panacea insight THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME SOMETHING COHESIVE TO WORK(WRITE?) ON 🙏🙏 #panacea #hettimir #toh #the owl house #toh fankid #hettie cutburn #vitimir #coven heads #coven head #i should be fucking sleeping rn hggghhhghhhhhghhhhhhhhhhhh... #GOODNIGHT TUMBLRRRR!!!! 🛏🐈‍⬛💤

[bandzboy]

i wanna talk about how... i had my last class today and we presented our final projects and everyone was so nice about my song and my teachers gave me 18 out 20 and i was surprised because even tho they literally mentioned that they think art should not be graded simply because it's subjective and all, i don't think i've ever had a grade this high on really anything ever? so i really felt very proud of myself on that moment but LATER ON... they asked us individually what we thought of this course and funny enough... i was the last one to talk about my experience and i said that i felt very fulfilled because i never did collaborative work with people before and i learned so much from my classmates! ever since the first day i felt so welcome and since i'm an introvert it's very hard for me to feel comfortable with a group of people immediately and so i was very grateful for that and as i got to talk with all of them individually about music i always felt like i was on the right track and this is honestly what i wanna do because in the end, this career with bring me a connection with people that i never really had until now with any of my friendships and so i'm very grateful but other than that... i also said that if they wanted to reach out to me and collab and do music with me i would always be available and honestly i don't even know how i could be that straightforward it was a first for me i was like wow i really did that??? and they agreed and it made me so happy and especially because i wanna keep being friends with these people like i was on the way there and i thought that i didn't want to not want to see them again after today and hopefully we would keep in touch for anything and we keep being in community hopefully so yeah... i never thought i would feel comfortable to even ask people to keep in touch and actually mean it and hopefully that our friendship will grow over time

#this is long but it's mostly for me #because it's been hours since i've been home #and i even told my parents all of this #but there hasn't been a day that i didn't come from class every week #that i wasn't excited about something so excited that i posted abt it here #or told my parents about it #i remember there was a time i talked a bit about all of my classmates to my mom #THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVED THIS CLASS AND THIS PEOPLE #i don't think i've ever felt this way #so much so that i'm sharing on tumblr 😭 #i feel like getting into my 20s things can get lonely #and i've been friendless since like i was 18 #and so this is the first time in forever i feel hopeful about friendships #and the fact that it might happen because of music #is even better #because that always brings me solace is also #bringing me friendship after so long so it's great #i'm also hopeful for the future literally yesterday i was kinda anxious #bc idk what will happen from now i'll be looking for a job #and for gigs here and there #but i don't feel anxious anymore after today i'm excited #there are a lot of possibilities and it's great 🥹 #so yeah very exciting eheh #tris.txt

[riemmetric]

There is one tiny life story my thesis supervisor told me once that stuck with me. She was talking about a long term collaborator she had visited recently and told me: "we met at a conference when we were young. he just came up to me and said 'we should write a paper together'. and then we did, we wrote a lot of papers together". After all these years, even as I am nearing the end of my phd and become more involved in my the academic life in my university, I still live with the impression that all of this is going to be taken away soon. That my phd will be over and my life will go on to be mathless and miserable, like it once used to be. I still found myself saddened by a stubborn conviction that I'm at the end of things. And I'm not, I'm really not. I'm actually at the beginning. My career is in the prologue stage. It's about to be born. I keep that story my supervisor told me close to my heart. I've traveled to so many conferences already and I met so many interesting people, but each time I wasn't brave enough to convert any of these new acquaintances into friendships. But I think I'm getting better. I'm forgiving myself. I'm kinder to myself. I smile when I see myself in the mirror. I'm allowing myself to be ok, to be grateful, to be worth of the good things that are happening. And I can't wait to for the moment when this story happens to me to.

#if you think this is too naive of a mindset PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING lmao. not today #i need this post today. ok? #gradblr #grad school #thoughts #i've been friendless all my life. and i started to believe i will be friendless forever #which is WRONG and STUPID. my whole life is ahead. my people are out there. i going out into the world to meet them

[alienssstufff]

an importamt dichotomy

#stufffsart #myart #hermitcraft #dsmp #karmaland #mc quackity from every universe my pathetic man ily #forever bitchless and friendless he got no game <3

[pinolitas]

i think i only like helping people when its easy

#my mom lost her resident card last month and that shit had me soooo anxious for forever #i was filling out all the right forms helping her with her calls #and checking every day the status online #it was the hardest most anxiety inducing thing in my life #i want to only worry about myself #but its not like that #so i think if i have to choose being alone and not helping anyone beyond who i ahve to #then i will #so i will be friendless and unhappy forever

[fortunatelev]

I wonder what it is like to actually have a support system that never gives up on you...

#guess i'll never know #lonely #forever alone #loneliness #depressed #no friends #friendless #isolated #socially isolated #desolate

[tenthrees]

when I text someone and they actually text back and I remember that I do not in fact know how to socialize and this was in fact a v bad idea.

#its not a v bad idea I want to text ppl #but I dont know what to say and then I get nervous and so I never reply #and when people dont reply to me I assume it must be a social cue IM missing and I dont want to annoy people #but my best friendships have stemmed from being annoying together with people #im going to be friendless forever #okay fine thats it ill learn how to handle rejection #fuckckkkk #h speaks

[laindependencialuna1899]

i get whiplash everytime that i remember the aphobia I experience as someone who's aroace CAUSE TELL ME WHY THE CALL IS COMING WITHIN THE HOUSE

yo i've got a lithromantic ex using their sexuality as a reason to get off scott free from the breakup when they're the one who acted like a full patriarchal man that broke off the relationship during my Master's finals, around Valentine's. my recent former friend who's also ace TOLD ME THAT IT BE GETTING TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR A REPLY ON MY MESSAGE- WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT HUH HUH???? WE'RE LONG-DISTANCE FRIENDS I LIVE IN THE PHILIPPINES YOU'RE IN FUCKING AMERICA WHAT IS TOO MUCH THAT "I ONLY CHAT ACTIVELY IF IT'S MY PARTNER" HUH HUHHHHHHHH

please, deliver us oh Lord. not in 2023, not from my fellow Aces uh uh

#aphobia #rant #maybe i'm meant to be friendless #and single #forever #aroace

[foucauldiantheory]

i love asking people if they want to hang out and then immediately putting my phone on do not disturb bc i get nervous that they'll say no and i'll look stupid : )

#friendless kid self on the playground lives in me forever #f.txt

[of-mice-and-maydayparade]

Don't even know why I bother trying to have friends irl, they all just leave in the end

#always alone #they care for like .2 seconds #only while its convenient #and every other second i dont exist #even when im not okay and i reach out #nothing #am going to be forever friendless 🙃 #yay #kate

[albonium]

i've registered on a social media of some sort made for people who are careful with covid there's literally 10 people within a 150 km radius and 9 of them are old or have kids 😭😭😭😭

#im gonna be friendless and single forever lol

[onebookcharacter]

there's very few lines who stick with me since forever, but hunchback of notre dame's "you are deformed / and you are ugly / and these are crimes for which the world shows little pity" just strikes a chord every other time i look in the mirror. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to see myself through any other lens than my own trauma's

#sometimes. sometimes theres a crack on the façade #but it fades oh so quickly #it doesnt matter how many times anyone tells me im pretty. my face is forever tainted for me #my eyes are forever misaligned with what seems to be reality #it is a struggle knowing you spent your childhood as the ugly and friendless and weird little girl and that it did in fact do numbers #on your mental health #i may have depression and anxiety and whatever else but my body image is the one thing i dont think ill ever conquer. ever get over #it is what it is i guess. i'll live #just wanted to write this down. 4 am ramblings and all #ok to rb #i just wanna feel pretty man. i just wanna be able to take my makeup off and still be ok

[howifeltabouthim]

She felt continually snubbed, she had no friends and no world.

Iris Murdoch, from The Book and the Brotherhood

#loner #snubbed #alone #isolated #forever alone #depressing #characterization #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #iris murdoch #the book and the brotherhood #friendless

[daandori]

wonder if ill ever get to stop being so despondently envious of seeing girls here that get to travel with a fun group of friends

#the talkies #like do you know what i would give to be able to sit on this loft at a table with fun people like everyone else here #or walk around at night or go to cafes together or visit restaurants #and i felt the same in helsinki a couple of years ago #and in seoul before that #and every other time ive traveled alone #so obviously nothing is improving for me #i just dont get how other people can make friends to go places with #at least im with my mom now which is marginally better but i still feel like a friendless boring loser #anyways thats my bitter hours for today #being bitter here is still a million times better than being back home so id rather just be here forever

[dragonsrcool4real]

anyone else absolutely terrified of being roped into the horrific tangle of others’ lives

#attatchment issues gang #i want to exist on the fringe of life away from everyone forever #its ok to be friendless and disconnected from reality