#feels like decades ago tho

[fundonboy]

throwback to the best night of my life :’)

#been going through old photos #i still cant believe i actually saw her live #london 2019 #feels like decades ago tho

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[wigglebox]

Solitude 🌙 [x]

#dean winchester #spn fanart #spn art #spnfanart #supernatural #wiggleart #I’m sorry keirjfkejnfedjkn #I was redrawing this thing from like a decade ago #and this quote kept popping in my head #and thus yea h I’m in my feels today idk #someone needs to hug him #this is a banger episode tho I love dark side of the moon #your heaven is other people’s thanksgiving #😭

[yukipri]

I'm on Bluesky!

Yes, yes I know, another social, but I like covering my bases ^ ^;

This one's at least giving me better vibes than Threads, which is still a hot algorithmic mess of brands and influencers. This one feels like a legit quiet early social media, and it's spreading invites much like how Tumblr once spread DMs, aka by infection individual user invites. We'll see how it goes!

If you happen to be on there already, here's my link!

#YukiPri rambles #Bluesky #social media #YukiPri art #star wars #also i was able to grab 'yukipri' which is a relief #i hate having to do either yukipri or 'yukipri art' depending on what's available ^ ^; #forreal tho it feels like Tumblr when i first joined over a decade ago #it like made my ears pop with how quiet it is #by which i mean my following feed is just following no attempts to ram algorithms/ads down my throat #gosh what has the social media sphere become that this basic default feels so strange and refreshing??

[derpinette]

english used to be the normie filter & how you could tell someone was a Trve Internethead but after the DAMNED 2020 quarantine for obvious reasons EveryBody & They Momma is acceptably fluent so now i have to learn swedish or something. -_-

#already been spending time this past year & a half i only need someone to actually speak it with IRL for maximum efficiency #technically i want to say 2019 people were already turning to english at least in my city. 7 year old me would be so happy but #ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH #YOU ARE POSERS I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH YOU & I NEVER WILL. has me feeling so ♯DECEIVED #native english speakers will probably never understand this feel #speaking english now is just as cringe as i thought being francophone was a decade ago Yes even as a child i was against normies #i was forcibly taught.by my millennial older brother i had no choice but to abide by that line of thought & so here i am today #well he was right. not anymore he ain't but he used to be #but technically you can say this new wave of self taught anglophones are going against the current & remnants of colonialism so well #it is a good thing objectively i just miss the ease of recognizing Real back in the day TT_TT like you just KNEW they shared your interests #& weirdness they knew your references it said something about what their social status likely was too ETC ETC. But not anymore... #i enjoyed it tho i had a bestfriend whom i mostly spoke english with & we were known for it we were outcasts #i distinctly remember this fag who got so mad at us & harassed us for it during middle school recess. like fluency was a bad thing #we were not even gossiping about him Altho we should have been. & that was the best part is that it was a barrier #so you could talk about anything out loud & nobody would be able to understand you & at the time it was just us & our older siblings #+their friends

[simptasia]

my mum has stage four cancer

#we found out a week ago #august 4th - the worst day of my life #so there were a bunch of tests that mum hated so her team of doctors could have all the info they needed #but the last few days we've been out of hospital and. adjusting to life back at home #i've become a decent nurse #i lost feeling in my nose for four days due to intense crying #there are. no words for how devastating this has been #mums been sick a while. but neither of us could have predicted it was something so serious #and it's. very serious. i was in hysterical denial at first but #while i do believe theres a chance she'll live. that a miracle will happen #its very likely my mum. my wonderful mum will die #its not the ending she deserves. she deserved to have decades more. to hold her grandchildren #but it may not be #we have no idea how long until. nobody does. could be weeks. could be years. i'll take care of her #and she's on heavy painkillers around the clock so whatever happens? she won't go out suffering #i wasn't looking forward to telling y'all because. i knew it'd make me cry again #but i feel like using tumblr again. so i felt i should say something #i have been open about this to my close friends tho to be clear. i havent been bottled up. but yeah #ahead of time i say: thank you

[keejot-arts]

stonekeepers

#amulet series #amulet #emily hayes #trellis #the stonekeeper #kazu kibuishi #elf #this series changed 11yo me i was obsessed. even made my own comics during recess that were totally not a blatant rip off #i went and got caught up a while ago so that was a nice trip down memory lane #even if it does feel like the series has taken a bit of an odd turn #ill prob still check out book 9 whenever it's out and on libby tho. cant believe its been like a decade now

[hua-fei-hua]

it's definitely extremely funny that after i start writing a smut For Real (not clickbait) i proceed to receive. a fucking nosebleed. like this is anime.

#it's definitely Something that it also happened like. after i seem to have lost interest in writing it #BUT ALSO THE NOSEBLEED JUST LIKE. FUCKING HAPPENED??? #LIKE I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP (had been for like an HOUR) AND THEN SUDDENLY. I FEEL THIS RUSH OF LIQUID OUT MY NOSE???? #and i'm like 'oh it's like when i'm ill and have a runny nose.' but i also wasn't sentient enough to think 'but i'm not sick???' #however i WAS sentient enough to think 'what if it's a nosebleed? let's taste it' AS IF I HAD A NOSEBLEED IN THE LAST DECADE #and then i was like 'hmm well it's kinda thick and metally. let's turn on the light just in case.' AND WHABAM.... BLOOD ON MY HANDS #okay well that's a lie i also smeared some on my fingers n squinted at it in the dark n was like 'that's awful dark. it might be blood' #and THEN i turned on the light and saw all the blood. my sheets have tinie bloodstain on them now. and also my stuffed unicorn :c #and then it just like. wouldn't stop. but it has stopped now! huzzah #i almost went to the bathroom to get a wad of toilet paper but then i remember i still keep a box of tissues by my bedside #from my plague days when i Definitely Fucking Needed Those Things All The Live Long Day #(oh right i got vaccinated yesterday <33 well i guess two days ago now. we love inoculation!!! i'm doing my part :D) #anyway i'm now chillin in bed with the lights on and my head tilted back bc i'm worried #that if i just try to go back to sleep then my nose will just start gushing blood again #anyway i also went and got a glass of water. that's supposed to help right? right #anyway (2) we'll see what happens to that smut. i Need to be better than my archnemesis at this #tho considering she writes like Peak any two guys shit these days i imagine it would not be that hard! #花話

[cuntylittlesalmon]

hm… i’ve written like 3k words in two days

#creative block….unblocked? #‘creative block’ bruh ur dad died ur allowed to be shaken gah #um anyway. tag diary <3 my grandpa died today too #last grandparent :/ he had real bad dementia & was refusing to eat like a week ago so it was a long time coming #sucks tho #my dad n my dads dad :/ #he wasn’t. a great person by any means. i just feel for my aunt since she was his sole caretaker #like. from her perspective her brother just died (a year younger than their mom did. 59-58) and she’s 57. and now her dad too? #it just. sucks. #that’s it! it just sucks #and my dads church is ducking our attempts to set up a memorial date despite the literal thousands of dollars #he’s tithed to them over the last decade 😬 #mom n i think it’s cause we’re godless heathens who aren’t a part of their cult. who said that #(they’re an assembly’s of god church if. anyone knows abt that / cares) #so if they keep dicking around we’re just gonna do it at the funeral home Literally Right Next Door #and then. in march. a memorial for my dad and my grandpa in missouri :/ #and then of course. all of the other shit i still need to take care of. gah. whtvr whtvr

[lecliss]

I've still been fucked up ever since I found out that(according to an actually plausible timeline), Konoha has only existed for like 90-something or whatever years??? It's not like. Fucking 200 years old or whatever. And that Madara died when he was 74 but he had himself hooked up to, fuckin what was it??? The Gedo statue?? A tree?? Whatever. In order to keep himself alive and you look at him all old and crusty and think he's like. Over a hundred at least. But no, that man's 74. He's just an average fucking grandpa!!! And Hashirama had been dead for a LONG while, so he actually died pretty young all things considered. And that also means Mito died like. Fuckin. I'm guesstimating here but in her 60s I guess???? But it's a significant thing that the Uzumakis have longer than average lifespans so like. What the fuck is the average life expectancy in Naruto for this bullshit to make sense???

#ever since i found out mada died at 74 ive been thinking those obi grandpa theories/allegations could actually be true #cuz doesnt he actually call obi his descendant at one point or something??? i mean i do think he meant that metaphorically #but at that age it actually could be possible #mada just woulda had to have a kid later than hashi did to make sense of the age difference between obi and tsun@de #and his grandma from the anime isnt canon so we can discount her in this equation #still fucked up tho over all hidden villages therefore being younger than a century #i think in my head it just feels like kages should be kages from like. their 20s or whenever the get the position #to like. their 70s or 80s or whenever they die #ya know like hiruzen made it to 68 i think??? and only died cuz of oro #but then again he did step down for mina like. 15 whatever years ago if were using 12yo nart for comparison #so going by 'they have the position for like a couple decades. maybe 2 MAYBE 3 then pass it on to someone else' #yeah it would then make sense for konoha to be on kage number 5 within a century #it just. doesnt really occur to me i guess. am i the only one fucked up by realizing this??? or has it always been obvious to everyone else? #granted when i was a kid i was ALWAYS so confused by how there could be a 4th hokage when the current guy is called the 3rd #i just never picked up on the idea that the 3rd returned to the position when the 4th died lmao #so yeah of course this has always gone right over my head #personal

[meteoritesystem]

just remembered this time in line to go to lunch in 5th grade when people were being super fucking loud so i just dissociated on purpose (as one does) and the girl next to me got my attention and was like "how r u so calm rn its so loud" and i was like "oh! i just turned off my brain so i couldnt hear it ^_^" and she was like. what. and i was like yknow. when u just check out of a situation and go inside ur head so u dont have to experience it. and she was like. .....nnnno?

#text #this isnt the exact phrasing cuz yknow it was a decade ago #but those were the vibes #i remember mentally being like ah. thats not normal. gotta write that down so i remember not to say it again #this was probably like. after winter break cuz that was when i realized i could just check out #LIKE I WAS LITERALLY . AT THE KITCHEN TABLE FIRST DAY OF WINTER BREAK #like. well i guess i can just turn off my feelings and go in my head so i dont have to be here #my friend most people cannot do that ❤️ #Also. throwback to talking to my therapist and she was asking questions abt dissociation (without saying the word) #and i was like yeah ive done that ^_^ that too yeah. and she was like Is gthere a certain time of ur life that u did it most? #and i was like. idk i dont remember. but deginitely a lot in 6th grade tho ^_^ and she was like. what happened in 6th grade #and i was like. No idea 🙂 #that was when i was like. 15 byw #god . so many things make so much more sense now LMAO

[ikyw-t]

this is a moodboard for how my brain has been feeling the past couple weeks. yes i spent like 10 minutes organizing these pictures if that tells u anything about how im feeling

#not that anyone asked but it's bc my adderall rx changed a month ago from extended release to short release #bc the extended release was making me feel super anxious in the afternoon when it would start to wear off #which is obviously counterproductive and i am already anxiety-inclined if that's even a phrase #so ive been on the short release version of adderall for the last month and overall it was going a lot better #the anxiety in the afternoon pretty much disappeared which was nice #the past like three weeks tho ive been dealing with being unable to stop picking at my skin and cuticles too #which is something ive struggled with since middle school in various degrees and tho it was getting better in the past couple years #ive never struggled with it LESS than i have since starting adderall in like march. and my god. what a joy and relief that was #so now that it's started happening again it's honestly pretty upsetting bc it's kinda physically painful and also just rly embarrassing #like i dont even have that bad acne probably but being unable to stop picking at it makes it like ten times worse #like i haven't had acne on my back in like three years since i finished taking accutane #and in the past three weeks i have but it's rly only bc i can't stop scratching at it and so there's gonna be scarring too #it's just very embarrassing and also disappointing nd disheartening since i was finally able to NOT have to deal with this for a few months #it's appalling and upsetting to realize that this was just my life for like a decade before i got treatment for adhd #and once i did it a lot of my impulsive and unconscious skin picking pretty much disappeared. #like damn bro the amount of times my mom and everyone in my family told me how nice my skin would be if i could just leave it alone. yeah. #anyway. im gonna talk to the doctor about this next month when i get my refill obviously bc i am not having a good time #even tho this was working rly great for the first three weeks. like whyyyy can't medicine just work. whyyy #anywayyyy if u read all this no u didnt bc it's embarrassing for me lol #i just felt the need to talk about it cause it's been upsetting me today

[paigemathews]

Mathematically, I cannot logically have the ages fall the way that I want to because it’s Chris at 21, Peyton at 20, and Mel/twins at 19 and I physically cannot have everything I want (Peyton as the oldest, all three sisters pregnant at the same time, Peyton as a Pisces, and a coherent timeline) so technically! Peyton is 19, but it’s important to me that people know in my heart she is 20 to Mel and the twins’ 19.

#abi speaks #hi! i'm not dead! just started a new job and my general mind fuckery ♥ #also no this isnt important. it literally changes nothing to have it like this it just annoys me #bc i came up with an age breakdown nearly a decade ago and now i have to CHANGE it #or choose to commit to the grevious mutilation of the timeline which i'm not opposed to necessarily but this is a stupid reason to do that #but it's like. i FEEL it in my heart. peyton is between chris and mel/the twins even tho she's actually mel and the twins age. #this is legitimately. very stupid. but so am i #♥ #i am. v tired rn but i need to queue things. that will not be rn but i will work on it. ha ha i hate having a job i am TIRED

[dead-gay-angel]

my brother coming out to me as bisexual was not on my 2022 bingo card but here we are

#am not surprised tho i saw the signs decades ago i feel like im sam #personal #grace.txt

[booperbeanv3]

me taking peeks into fandoms for things i haven;t caught up with in a while and severely regretting

#danganronpa = why does anyone even stick around? ships? kgrp? #too attached to leave? #bnha = are people still having bkdk vs anti bkdk discourse? #are people seriously still harassing bkdk enjoyers and bkdk antis? in this decade #yeesh #oh and uh. fnaf huh #i refuse to catch up with it #i tuned out after sister location tbh #i mean i knew about custom night and pizzaria sim but after it was just ehhhhhh #undertale likers seem to have moved on to deltarune and fair enough it is better #i've actually been reading some bnha fics on the side bc asoryu update rate is about once per day and on slow days i can't wait #so i read smthin else #previously it was peaking into p4 despite having never played and now it's reading bad bnha fics despite tuning out years ago #honestly it feels like most of the fandom is still stuck in sports festival and culture festival arcs when it's been. a fucking while since #maybe it's just bc i was never 'into bnha' #i follow some accounts then got bored and realised no matter what i do i will never like superheroes #ahh the characters are cool tho #i like jirou #she's cute #uraraka is also cute #toga is questionable cute #deku is there #he's my stress ball he';s strapped to my autismfication contraption #todoroki is also in there but not bc i like him #bakugo is. something. i watched the anime bc i liked his va and then promptly disliked him #well. i wanted to see him fail. so not really #anyway enough tag rambling #yeah #bean stuff

[rattlinbog]

mmmm some of my lake champlain chocolate and pomegranate for a snack tonight

#decadence #i watched like 30 minutes of casablanca probably 12 years ago so finally watching that whole movie #feeling fancy tonight #i say when that is a paper plate tho lol #ramblings