#even though i shouldnt have to

[undermine-the-instinct]

The Lord really gives some of the hardest battles to the eepiest gals.

#Im so TIRED #fighting the sleepies #even though i shouldnt have to #doodling and writing here and there but my bed #🥺🥺🥺 #doesnt want to let me go #been feeling like shit fr real though so writing is slow. Drabbles are on the way #might post somethin jjk later tho #just a lil headcanon #my stuff #my writing #okay thats it bye #cici talks

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji might be an unstoppable force, but Xie Lian has 800+ years of practice of being an immovable object.

(poll results here for context)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #bonus comic #The most resounding conclusion the community came to agree on is thar Xie Lian is bad at cooking on purpose #and is stubborn to the point of refusing to let go of this feature (not a bug) of himself. #though if you practice being bad at something on purpose you do just…get bad. #Poor lan wangji probably had to watch him do horrendous food crimes in the kitchen. #crushing eggs in his fists and throwing it into the bowl or pan (shell and all). #Burning water. Throwing in ingredients based on the roll of a dice. Putting in leaves and cool rocks he found. #He is living his best life mind you. And I think as long as he is happy then let him make his potions. #This is *his* version of art therapy. It just shouldnt be fed to anyone. #lwj would probably try to make it more theraputic after realizing that the bad cooking skills were on purpose. But even then XL is a rock. #he will not do anything he does not want to. Including processing feelings. #Don't idealize that btw. You will do yourself no favours by ignoring hard emotions. Love and peace everypony; Its a hard world out there. #Hua Cheng and wwx hung out during all of this and have since become hunting buddies. #Sometimes its birds sometimes it's each other. For sport.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 289

you know that episode of steven universe where ruby and sapphire are fighting because sapphire distances herself emotionally from her immediate surroundings in favor of looking at the big picture and ruby is focused on her emotional reaction to the immediate problems that surround them?

yeah dude

#day 289 #year 3 #aradia megido #jade harley #homestuck #arajade #they have. issues! #problems occur and aradia thinks she is being very comforting and level-headed about it all #but literally everything she says and does just further infuriates jade because to all appearances aradia doesnt seem to care #and SOMEONE has to fix the problem so it might as well be jade herself! #and the fact that aradia DOESNT share that impulse to take responsibility for the problems around her? #strikes jade as kind of careless and even selfish! #and maybe it is sometimes #meanwhile aradia thinks jade is getting awfully worked up about things that really dont need to be her problem and wow isnt that silly #i feel like she can end up being quite dismissive of others emotions #even though it really DOES matter to her that she treats others with kindness. she just thinks that redirecting peoples focus to like #THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS where their problems are rendered very small and unmeaningful #IS an act of kindness. because she finds that distance comforting so why shouldnt everyone else? #basically. #aradia optimistic nihilism vs jade optimistic existentialism: FIGHT

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

"It's just you now. Take care of mother."

i have the normal amount of emotions about them (lying) <3

#a redraw but also not really cus i ended up tracing a lot from the old one hfldsjdfs #it was only supposed to be for reference but i ended up keep messing w it instead of redrawing it proper...... #feel like i got his expression down better in the old one; looks more strained/ hearbroken like i feel #but thats fine #my art #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #i'm still not sure if liam or varric is the one who deals the killing blow #love both the thought of liam having his own sisters blood on his hands and never being able to wash it off fully #or his (future) best friend saving him that fate but now having that stand between them #cus liam would be grateful for it but part of him would always remember that and hold it against him #(both options also make the bartrand encounter crunchy in slightly different ways) #either way in that moment he kind of hates varric for even just being there. and fenris too #(though tbh im not sure how realistic it would be for him to take sb else except bethy and varric down into the deep roads) #((so maybe in canon fen wouldnt be there idk. havent decided this yet either)) #logically he knows its not fair ofc but it just feels like an invasion of privacy. it feels Wrong. #they have no place in this they shouldnt have been there they shouldnt have been part of it they shouldnt have seen him like this #but its sth that binds them too #the rest of the trek is miserable and awkward for all of them in any case #but yeah. #idk if they would be able to bury her down here properly so maybe they end up doing it via lava? #theyre not leaving her body out in the open to rot and/or become food for darkspawn or spiders thats for sure

[savage-rhi]

Magenta.

#i lost my job #even though they're not saying its because of my disability it is because of it #I've been applying to places and some of the safety nets i had fell through #im scared right now and feel very betrayed #i got enough to get me through the month but beyond that idk what to do #i have resources im looking into and as most know that doesn't put a dent into finances #i need help #i feel bad for asking and i know i preach people shouldnt feel ashamed #but i do get where folks are coming from with that #the shame is powerful especially when you pride yourself as someone that takes care of themselves #im open to ideas opinions whatever folks want to say #i haven't felt this triggered ptsd wise in a long time past homeless experience and work abuse has been creeping in #I'm trying to get to the good but its really hard seeing it right now after getting screwed for the millionth time #for something i can't control with my body #i guess on a good note that partnership meeting went well #it seems like an excellent opportunity but its also an investment and i don't have the means to put into that right now

[natjennie]

is there anything to gilear/jawbone. I think jawbone could fix him.

#i know he and sandra lynn are solid and she's really mellowed out with him #but jawbone is poly and if they could get past all the garthy stuff #i dont see why jawbone shouldnt be able to also fuck gilear #sandra lynn's exs should just make a polycule #anyway #jawbone might not though because they're both aguefort employees so idk HR policy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high #jawbone o'shaughnessey #gilear faeth #hold on is sandra lynn still a faeth? are they officially divorced or no i cant remember #they have to be #also oh i didnt even mention i think hallariel is Bad for him

[beestripe-and-spines]

I was so clueless and naive. I must have been an easy target.

#thunder spoilers #a starless clan #frostpaw #splashtail #curlfeather #i just think splashtail is wildly interesting #curlfeather too #i feel a bit yucky using this quote because it feels a lot like victim blaming #but man my girl's got it hard #and shes gonna fix it #even though she really shouldnt have to

[anxiously-sidequesting]

This blog is my house so I can say basically whatever I want but I know I have some esteemed guests and friends who come over a lot and some lurkers who peer into the windows so all my wildest ass wizard shit stays in the locked basement where it belongs because it's common courtesy 💖

#everytime im tempted to post something that REAAAALLLYYY shouldnt see the light of day in the wizard fandom- #i snap out of it and beat them back with a stick and herd them back into the basement where they belong #the basement is my personal discord HSKALSHRIEHE #some of this shit will NEVER see the sun. even my malistaire post was dancing VEERRRRYYY close to that line #gm raven would lock up my darkest wizard thoughts like she locked up her ex husband's heart #EVEN THOUGH BASICALLY ALMOST THIS ENTIRE FANDOM ARE IN THEIR 20'S AND 30'S #this is actually funny because wizard101 in of itself is super fucking dark but tumblr posts? hmmmmnnnnn #in the meantime ill just work on my gay wizard ocs thats super fun #OH FUCKING WAIT THE SHADOW MAGIC POST I WAS TALKING ABOUT IM.... #im really just that. autistic i cannot focus on ONE SINGLE THING #anyways congratulations qnd my condolences if you read this far into the tags LMFAO #this isnt really a serious post this is just A Thought that needed to be let out of the house like a dog who needs to pee #as you can tell by my tag ramblings. im in Mental Mode where i have to talk about everything and nothing for 4 days #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #next time this happens imma make a new tag for my rambling vs. regular text pists to spare yall LMFAO

[ganondoodle]

just after i crawled my way out of that 'art-low' and i got myself excited to work on the rough draft for chapter2- i suddendly just crash and burn again bc i cant get the thought out of my head that im not a good writer either actually and my ideas are comically boring

do i really have to fight my own brain over and over again for the rest of my life (ㆆ_ㆆ)

#ganondoodles talks #random #i dont want to keep sounding so self pitying #sometimes i can fight these feeling #but sometiems it just feels like you just realized the truth about yourself #so fighting that is just lying to yourself #and i feel like im being so ungrateful everytime i feel like shit #bc i know there are people that like what i do #and just bc there are people that are better at everything that im doing or aspiring to do doesnt mean im useless #BUT IT ALSO FEELS LIKE IM WASTING MY TIME #even thoguh funnnily enough i wouldnt even know what WOULDNT be a waste of time bc ...... #i dont ... have anything else #if you take away art and writing theres nothing left of me #kinda not surprising then that i keep accidentally tying my feeling of worth to the receiption of what i post #................ and losing followers in the hundreds on twitter espeically doesnt exactly help #though that is mostly bc im rting a ton of info about palestine and tbh idk if i would want people following me that are zionists or simila #still feels bad #AND I KNOW WHAT MY BRAIN IS TELLING ME IS WRONG OR IT SHOULDNT MATTER #but it still feels real #im so tired of fighting myself

[roboraindrop]

What if. Wh. What if I. Perhaps. Maybe. Proposed to another f/o. Just hypothetically.

#How many fiances can I have before its too many? I've been engaged to some of them for So Fuckin Long..... #rain rambles #Some of them feel like they belong as betrothed; More than dating but not quite married. #some of them feel like we've been married for years even though it hasnt been long at all. #so if its all made up anyways....... why shouldnt I do it? why shouldn't I offer my hand to Grima?

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

they’re definitely going to bring up the huntlow ship by the end of the show because hunter is SIMPING hard but i really want them to do something interesting with it. i don’t want them to just get together with no drama aimed at each other. so what i propose is: a deconstruction of the last-minute love confession trope.

hunter spends the second or even third episode blushing after willow. but willow doesn’t flirt or blush at him, just encourages and hangs out with him like she would her other friends. and at the end of the second or the middle of the third episode, the gang is gearing up for a huge battle with belos, the collector, or any other villains they’ll have to confront. everyone knows it’s dangerous, so there’s a lot of sweet moments between friends and family where they make peace with some of their conflicts and reinforce how much they care about each other. lumity and raeda both get an “i love you” or a kiss.

hunter pulls willow aside and confesses his feelings. he says he has a crush on her and asks if after they defeat the villains, they could go on a date. maybe he gets out a plant glyph and makes a bouquet. it’s very cute and reminiscent of a lot of love confessions in movies and tv that characters do right before a battle.

but willow FREEZES. she’s only thought of hunter as a friend up to this point, and hunter dropping this bombshell during the most stressful day of her life really isn’t helping her decide how to answer him. she has to recontextualize all of their interactions up to this point. and whether she eventually decides to date him, she can’t make up her mind at that moment, because she’s never even considered dating hunter before.

because the “last minute love confession” trope only works out well if the two characters have been pining and basically knows the other’s feelings. it’s a good way to clear up the air in that situation before a dangerous fight where they might not get a chance after. but if only one side has/is aware of their romantic feelings, the last minute love confession becomes solely a way for the person confessing to get it off their chest. it doesn’t matter if the person being confessed to wants to know about these feelings or reciprocates, the confession is sprung on them without prior warning, and now they have to think about that on top of the dangerous battle.

so before willow can give hunter an answer about that date, everyone has to get in position for the fight. and during the fight, willow is DISTRACTED. she knows she needs to focus on the fight, but she can’t help but think about hunter’s confession from a few minutes before, regardless of whether she reciprocates. and at one point, willow gets a clear shot to take out the villain or rescue one of their friends or whatever the goal of the battle is, but she MISSES.

if hunter had confessed a few hours or days earlier, giving willow time to come to terms with it before the battle, or if he had waited until after the battle to confess, it would have been fine. but he tells her at the WORST possible time, so willow has something else on her mind during one of the most important battle of her life. and because of that, everything goes very, very wrong.

#toh #the owl house #shut up pandora #hunter toh #hunter noceda #willow park #this isn't to say willow would blame hunter for distracting her #shes too nice her first instinct is to spiral into the 'im a horrible incompetent leader and i shouldnt do anything ever' mentality #but regardless of if she likes him or not love confessions are distracting! they make you blank out for a bit! #it ends up being all you can think about for the next hour at least be it out of flattery or happiness of discomfort! #and ive always disliked the trope where someone confesses to their love interest right before or during a battle like #now? your love interest is going to get hit by an arrow because youve distracted them #and the worst ones are the ones where they confess by kissing the love interest without prior warning #sometimes its unclear if the love interest is even interested and i know its for drama! but could you do that at literally ANY other time #it just feels cruel to the love interest you know #like the person confessing is getting stuff off their chest but they have no regard for how the love interest is feeling #if they reciprocate theyll have to go into a deadly battle knowing if they die they wont be able to continue a relationship they really want #and if they dont reciprocate it puts the burden on the love interest to turn them down and go into the battle being emotional about it #that may just be me though #anyway after that it doesnt really matter if the huntlow ship actually gets together #again i still dont ship it but if they do something interesting with it like this then it has a place in the story #but to reiterate it doesnt matter if willow has feelings for hunter in this scenario just the confession would be enough to distract her #and to those of you compiling screenshots where they stand next to each other #or where willow smiles fondly at gus and hunters shenanigans and say its only because shes in love with hunter #and basically trying to TJLC yourselves into believing willow is madly in love with hunter at this point of the story #she...really isnt...... #at least not yet #does she even seek him out to hang out when hes not with gus #does HUNTER even seek her out to hang out when SHES not with gus #lowhunt

[undyinglantern]

the amount of surprised pika “wait people actually shave their arms?” comments on posts about body hair are so funny like I unironically am so happy for you that you weren’t laughed at by a classmate for having hairy arms “like a man” in like 4th grade this is why I wish body hair conversations would stop centering around armpit hair

#okay that’s the tldr but the way I actually remember it is that the classmate (a boy) pointed out my arm hair and ask why so hairy #and I genuinely was so confused I was just like idk??? and then later at home that day I asked my mom about it and she was like #It’s bc your dads side of the family is hairy so then I later talked to that guy again like ‘I take after my dad’ or whatever #And /then/ is when he laughed and was like ‘but you’re a girl’ about it #Granted I’m non-binary but like I didn’t know that in elementary #Plus I didn’t stop shaving until around mid 2010s and was still self conscious about it for years #Like I remember feeling embarrassed during college (2018ish) if I had to use the rest room and someone else was in there when I would roll #My sleeves up to wash my hands #Anyways I eventually stopped caring about it sometime within the last year or 2 but see how long that took? It really shouldnt #Like some of us just genetically have more darker thicker visible body hair than others and we shouldn’t be shamed for it #One thing at a time though because even I’m still working through leg hair shame #I don’t shave them anymore but I also haven’t worn shorts outside of my bedroom in years #I’ll literally switch into shorts if it’s too hot right before bed and switch back into pants before stepping out of my room in the morning #I’ve been feeling cute the past few days and it’s starting to warm up again plus also had a convo w mom recently so #I might change that soon but only within the house still bc baby steps <3 #Anyways I’m just rambling now so I should stop. Good night !!

[justewil]

apollo justice trilogy is on sale ... hmm ... (guy who bought the turnabout collection a year ago and has only played aa1 so far)

#i Really shouldnt buy it i need to play the other games first #but its 67% off ... only 13 .... #augh .i have so many games i need to play and im just replaying lost future instead #ghost trick is on sale too ive been wanting to play it .even though ive seen a few spoilers i think #talks

[dioynsus]

listen i like this artist’s music but i just feel like announcing ur trust funded existence in ur spotify bio is a bit obnoxious even if you want to…pull back the veil? pre-empt critique? idek

#it also puts the rest of the bio in an even cringier light even if it’s corny stuff i could otherwise tolerate. #sometimes you shouldnt read the bios of artists u like is what im learning #though i have encountered pure poetry in there before #personal

[elftwink]

it boggles my mind that I still see reminder type posts about not consuming Harry Potter content, not because I expected everyone to agree to stop engaging but because I did sort of expect that the people engaging with hp in 2024 would at least have the decency to not grovel on the internet for random transgender bloggers to validate that they're still a good person and not transphobic for liking hp still. like these posts are not redundant they are FILLED with defensive responses and excuses for why actually its fine and its like not only can you not stop engaging with Harry Potter but you also want to be able to post about doing so non-stop and you never ever want to even see a transgender person point out that JKR is actively funding and directly influencing transphobic organizations and legislation. to the point that when someone does you are incapable of simply scrolling by because you need so badly to be reassured that this internet rando doesn't think you specifically are a bad person for doing the thing they said is bad. unreal main character syndrome. if you have committed to being an hp fan fine i am not a cop or your mom and I cannot make you do anything at all. but I am not, nor is any other trans person, going to give you 'permission' or absolve you of your own guilt for doing so. that is your problem to reconcile yourself and is not the job of random trans people. like jesus christ enough already

#good idea generator #this isnt exclusive to hp fans this is a pretty pervasive issue on this site #where someone will be like well i think x action is bad and harmful #and 10000 people will come out of the woodwork to be like well i do x action am i bad 🥺 am i a bad person 🥺 #oh i have to do x action because of [extenuating circumstance obviously not intended by the op] you think im bad you think i should die??? #like. ok you know when any big social movement is getting traction #you suddenly see 100 posts about how actually its okay to not do anything or say anything tumblr is escapism!!! #even though for the VAST majority of users. they are not expected to say or do anything by the ppl who follow them on tumblr #so really the purpose those posts serve is to justify legitmize and spread around the idea that you can do literally nothing ever #and still be a 'good person'. it is to assuage your own guilt #and it serves ZERO purpose other than to detract from ongoing conversations #bc if you were really serious about supporting something but being unable to help in xyz ways for various reasons #you would shut the fuck up!!!! and not post about not being able to do anything!!! #the same way that you shouldnt say that you cant donate to a fundraiser when you share it even if its true and reasonable #bc it makes other people who read that less likely to donate themselves even if they DO have the means #these tags are getting incoherent but hopefully my point gets across idk #i just feel in general we should stop begging internet strangers for absolution. youre not going to get it from there.