#erika’s ramblings

[otome-corner-cafe]

I need to dissect the minds of the writers of Virche Evermore.

Scien’s Despair Ending is messing me up inside. I was expecting something else entirely for how things would turn to absolute tragedy.

My thought was that, when faced with the chance to research Ceres and her connection to the curse, he’d take it. I thought he was going to take back his decision to give emotions a chance. I thought he’d double down on his old philosophy and drop whatever feelings he was starting to catch.

I expected for Scien to get back in power and keep Ceres locked up as his new science project.

BUT NO! I WAS DEAD WRONG AND WHAT HAPPENED WAS WORSE!

I thought the worst that could happen was Scien falling for mc and then taking back those feelings. But no, him continuing to love her is the freaking tragedy here!

AAAAAUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

#erika’s ramblings #virche evermore #erika’s ‘dating life’ #oh also I still haven’t touched Lucas’s proper despair end #the one that gets you the cg and ending song #because the shorter despair ending already fucked me up enough #I wasn’t ready to lose Lucas a second time #but… if I wanna complete the game #I’m gonna have to face the music

[dramamines]

Hazbin Hotel- January 19th

#ballena rambles #hazbin hotel #vivziepop #alastor the radio demon #husker hazbin hotel #angel dust #husk hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #vaggie hazbin hotel #erika henningsen #stephanie beatriz #blake roman #keith david #amir talai #helluva boss #alastor #amazon prime

[im-really-tired-and-stupid]

Watching the burrows end epilogue was honestly one of the best things ever, like, Kenji Geoffrey and Rosie??? Lila getting a phd in A YEAR?? Jaysohn being an Olympic level long jumper???? TULA GOING BACK TO HER HOE PHASE??? oh my g od I LOVE THESE STOATS SO MUCH ;-;

#literally just me rambling #I love burrows end so much #and also phoebe was so scary #aabria my beloved #dimension 20 #burrow's end #aabria iyengar #brennan lee mulligan #erika ishii #izzy roland #rashawn scott #siobhan thompson #jasper cartwright

[afterschoolcrewz]

i miss erika so badly i need her to make an appearance within these next six episodes

#like why give janine an out of work bestie if you’re only gonna use her in one season #the way the only time she’s been brought up through s3 was in the very first episode #jacob janine and erika’s brunchy bunch … #i think if she does show up it’d be fun to see her be the one to push janine to go back to abbott #maybe janine hasn’t been responding to her messages like with jacob and erika decided to look into it #abbott elementary #erika #janine teagues #ramblings

[blueskiesandstarrynights]

shoutout to erika who was briefly possessed by the spirit of brennen when answering that lotr question

#'oh just bc she started talking about lotr doesn't automatically mean you should associate brennen' #WRONG this is more for the fact that she rambled and tried to present an argument when it was clear all sam wanted was the basic #answer of frodo #game changer #brennen lee mulligan #erika ishii #dropout #blue rambles

[jossun-kyyneleet]

Um, some of my thoughts about Ruoska...

First of all, I fucking love it (what a surprise, I know). I started to headbang immediately when listening to it for the first time, those heavy parts slap so hard (pun intended, khihi). And what an earworm that chorus is! I'm seriously worried that I will burst out singing it aloud at work today, which would be quite interesting thing to do as I work at a library 😅

But the weirdest thing is that Ruoska made me feel nostalgic, watafak. Like, those random references to the Lahti 2001 doping scandal? I was 9 years old back then and I actually went to watch some of the competitions with my family during our winter holiday. I got a lynx plushie as a souvenir and I remember feeling some of that national shame even as a child who barely knew what had happened, lol.

And then there's the line Mut Kinderi ei riitä kun on päässyt maistaan Riesenii. For all non-Finns, the Kinder eggs are the most popular Easter treat in Finland, especially among children. And I don't actually know if they're still sold in stores, but Riesen was one of my favorite chocolate candy in the early 2000's. There was this legendary TV commercial that every millennial remembers (Jere and the team clearly do as they included the line Mutta ethän sinä siitä ennen pitänyt to the song 😁)

#käärijä #erika vikman #ruoska #rambling #nostalgia

[anxious-witch]

@sparkly-skies I am sorry, I'm sure this wasn't intentional, but getting these teo notifies one after another about dogs in very different contexts took me out 😂

#rio rambles #joker out #käärijä #first one is jere with erika's dog #and second one is bojan bowing to a dog in carpe diem and almost getting bitten

[kid-lost-in-mcdonalds-play-area]

FNaF movie spoilers inbound

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I have heavy respect for the FNaF movie, not only does it make one of the lead protagonists neurodivergent, but she’s also never demonized for it or told that it’s an issue that needs solving.

Like when I was her age I was just put on medication and neglected by my teachers, but Abby’s teacher is insanely patient with her, and understands that she just learns and socializes differently than other kids.

And she’s never presented as annoying, or like she can’t make friends! She makes a bunch of friends by the end of the movie! Real friends, not ghosts!

And the only person who DOES act like her condition means she can’t learn or is in some way different (derogatory) to her peers is the same bitch who paid a bunch of people to burglarize Freddy’s so Mike would get fired and she would get a check from the state once she had custody of Abby.

Also the fact that her adhd or autism or whatever allows her to commune with the dead is awesome.

#fnaf movie spoilers #fnaf movie #fnaf abby #FNaF #Erika does a little rambling #autism #adhd #neurodivergent

[jacks-manidiary]

Babe are you okay. I& saw you reading Love Letters to the Wall from Objects Before and After The Wall

#jack's rambles #objectum #objectum sexuality #objectosexual #objectophilia #os/or #you ever think about how far the objectum community has come. #you ever wonder if Eija and Erika know about our little corners of the internet that formed on social media #you ever think about how we're all not alone anymore

[adm-starblitzsteel-4305]

Alright, 1 week left before we said goodbye to my favorite month April and welcome the month of May, wherein flowers bloom everywhere (known as Flores de Mayo), yada yada get to the point.

Anyway, which among of these two I choose should be the winner of May (I've been drawing flowers for some reason you know, for something)?

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A plant Kaiju spliced with roses, deceased human (girl) cells and G-Cells?

Or this motherfucking talking, singing man-eating plant?

#TBH whenever I stared at Audrey II I was having flashbacks about watching LSOH and I was having a major losing my shitty mind #for some reason I kinda missed twoey for 5 years #AND BIOLLANTE HAS AN INTERESTING TRAGEDY BACKSTORY #plant kaiju did give me more energy to write #and because of the jiallante au the angst was gonna edge me further #OKAY ENOUGH RAMBLING I ALREADY KNEW THAT #ALSO if you have your opinions about these two feel free to comment down! #godzilla #kaiju #toho #toho kaiju #godzilla vs biollante #biollante #erika shiragami #little shop of horrors #lsoh #musical #audrey ii #twoey #may flowers #heisei era

[otome-corner-cafe]

If Scien got a tumblr account, he’d be ahead of the game with Anon hate.

Anon: kys

Scien: Already did that. Thanks for the suggestion though.

#scien brofiise #virche evermore #virche evermore spoilers #erika’s ramblings #he gives a whole new meaning to the term ‘self harm’ #the Anon is capucine let’s be real

[acacia-may]

Acacia, I shall be hitting you with a whole fruit salad.

I’m sorry but I do want to ask all of these. So please, take your time answering. 😅

🍒, 🍊, 🍑, 🍐, and 🍈?

Aww thank you so much, Erika! I really appreciate it. There's no need to apologize. I'd love to answer these for you. Thank you so much for sending them in. 🥰

🍒 What’s your favorite character dynamic to write? (Can be romantic or platonic, specific or general!)

I'm sure this will come as no surprise to you but I love to write brother relationships, especially in that sweet spot of they love each other deeply but the relationship between them is strained usually by external and/or internal forces and/or breakdowns in communication driving a wedge between them that makes it difficult to express how much they really care about each other. It's such a fascinating dynamic to me (I honestly don't know why, but I'm always so compelled by these kind of deeply loving but deeply broken relationships where you're looking at these fictional siblings and you just know how much they truly love each other but they just can't communicate that and can't overcome whatever it is that's tearing them apart.

(I'm going to ramble just a little bit here so please excuse me) For instance, you've got Finral and Langris who are driven apart by their own wounds & insecurities but also because they were pitted against each other by their parents and kind of had to see each other as adversaries in order to survive in their abusive home. Whereas Sanemi pushed his brother away to try to protect him and lashed out when Genya misunderstood and tried to prove himself by doing the exact thing his brother was trying to protect him from. Hero and Kel both pushed each other away because they were afraid of hurting each other. And don't even get me started about Kai and Sei because that is just... (I'm cutting myself off)

Anyway, the one underpinning thread here is that there is obviously real love between these siblings underneath all of that pain, strain, and brokeness in the relationship and therefore is a hope that they can overcome these obstacles and build a healthy bond with each other (whether that's again or, in some cases, for the first time). Even I have my limits though and there are some relationships that are clearly unhealthy and unsalvageable. When it's clear that their really is no mutual respect here and/or no potential for change or real love then I'm out. But those ones that are more nuanced where the relationship is just strained rather than permanently broken, I personally am very compelled by those and have a lot of hope of them being repaired. That's probably my favorite kind of relationship to write about.

I also love writing about platonic Male-Female friendships because I feel like those are criminally underrated.

🍊 Who’s a character you don’t write for that often, but keep meaning to write for more? (They’re so interesting! But maybe you have trouble pinning them down, or keep getting distracted by another blorbo…)

Gordon. I'm so sorry Gordon! He was honestly one of my favorite characters when I was watching and reading Black Clover, but he's just so hard for me to write that I've never really been able to do as much with him as I would've liked. I have half a story written from his POV for the Early Black Bulls Series but it was such a struggle that I just never finished it. I also considered making up an OC for him to marry in the future around the same time I was creating Lorelei for Henry (because he just seems like such a domestic type who'd be happy to settle down & have a family one day. Just such a loving Papa). But not a lot came of that. I name dropped his daughter (who is adopted) in one of my fics, but yeah...I really dropped the ball on poor Gordon. He deserves more love.

🍑 If you could make a connection between your favorite character and another work you care about (whether a crossover/fusion or a wonderfully “pretentious” literary reference) what would it be? How would it work?

My sister and I make jokes all the time about (a well-adjusted) Langris sort of "adopting" all the high-stress, overachieving perfectionist kiddos we tend to adopt ourselves from other media and becoming kind of father figure to them and trying to help them --convince them it's okay to have fun and that they don't have to be perfect all the time and try to "earn" love (usually with Finesse's help and/or by begging Vanessa to intervene because he has no idea what he's doing). And the kids really look up to him and think he's super cool. We call them the "Langris Squad." It's a little hard to explain but kind of wholesome in my mind.

🍐 Is there anything in canon that you absolutely hate and love to fix in fics? A wrong choice made, a fuck-up in characterization, a misunderstanding never cleared up, a conversation never shown onscreen, etc…

...that House Vaude Drama needs a resolution. I think especially for me (because I'm a biased Langris-sympathizer) something I always try to include in fics is just trying to kind of explain why in the world he is acting the way he is and is (weirdly enough) sort of helping Finral best him. It's strange from the outside (I have a lot of headcanons about it), so I really like to dive into Langris' emotions, thoughts, and motivations about what's going on there since it was really abrupt and glossed over in the actual canon. Also, again, I like to resolve this mess when I can. (Not always in the same way because there are multiple resolutions which would be fine, but I don't really care for the way it has been handled in the canon).

Another one that comes to mind is the aftermath of the Golden Dawn losing so much of their squad in the fight against Zenon. I know that was a while ago, but it still irks me that we didn't get to see a whole of them grieving and trying to rebuild. Yuno had a really great and heart-wrenching moment about it in the Spade Arc when he tapped into his grief to motivate him during his rematch against Zenon, but I feel like there's a lot of untapped potential there, especially for Mimosa who unlocks such a powerful healing ability that she could use to save other people during the Spade Arc but couldn't use to save her own squad mates. I can't imagine how hard that is for her, and I was actually so frustrated this got glossed over that I wrote a story about it called "For What It's Worth" which unfortunately I think was written in the time before Tumblr and never made it over here. Maybe I'll cross post it, if you (or anyone else is interested)?

🍈 Who’s your blorbo and what are some of your favorite headcanons/ideas about them that repeatedly show up in your fics? Free pass to rant about blorbo opinions.

From Black Clover, Langris. Hands down. He was not always (and I detested him at first), but he's definitely the character I find most interesting now. I just want him and Finral to repair their brotherly relationship so much! It's what I have wanted most out of Black Clover for a very long time. I also really enjoy his friendship with Yuno and especially with Lady Finesse.

I have way too many headcanons about him, but I think the biggest one that comes up the most and has the most bearing over how I write his character is that Langris loves so much more intensely and deeply than he is given credit for. He struggles to be vulnerable and doesn't open his heart to too many people, but when he does, he will love forever and will be willing to make great sacrifices for what is best for that person and what will make them happy.

My most strongly held Langris headcanon is that it is the love that he has for Finesse that has led him to try to help Finral take over House Vaude. I flip-flop a lot over whether it is a romantic or platonic love, but regardless, I am convinced that however you want to qualify that, Langris loves her and is so concerned with her happiness that he would willingly give up what's he has worked for his entire life, his sense of purpose, and, really, his own sense of identity (in a way) just in the off chance that Finesse would be happy. And even more than that...would be happy without him. This is not a sacrifice to get the girl. This is a purely selfless action. He knows if he does this, he will lose everything and they will never be together, but he doesn't care because what he wants more than all of that is for Finesse to be happy and he doesn't think he can be the one to make her happy, so that's why he counts himself out.

#fruit writing asks #thank you for the ask erika!! 💙 #thanks for the opportunity to ramble about langris too #langris x finesse my beloved #also poor gordon #i really should write about him more

[soup-for-ghosts]

born of strife and sadness

#ramble ahead wuh oh #uh chapter 13 pt 2 for frederica is so good actually #first time around I played roland’s which was good too ofc #but idk the frederica centric route fight against erika and thalas was smth else #I love her so much you have no idea #tumblr reaaaally crunched this one.. sigh. #I was mostly just messing around and ended up with this so #I’m fairly happy with it #frederica deserves to kill a little I think #she’s earned it #triangle strategy #tristrat spoilers #<- not really? but my tags have em and I was thinking of a spoilery moment when drawing it #anyways listen to combat - destiny this is a threat #soupghost art

[nocapesdahling]

I love the theory that Hob is a professor or teacher. So what if he convinces Dream to moonlight as a professor sometimes? He teaches “Sleep”, and his voice of course lulls everyone to sleep. Morpheus especially wants them to sleep because he’s looking at all these sleep deprived students and thinking, “I haven’t seen them in the Dreaming in awhile. That’s not healthy.”

And all his rate your professors reviews consist of things like: “I’ve never slept so well. Had the best dreams after taking this class.” ; “Take his class just for his voice. You won’t regret it.” ; “His name sounds like a stage name, but he’s a great professor. Really learned a lot about sleeping.”; “He’s so hot. Where has he been all my life?” And Hob is laughing and reading them out loud to Dream and he just goes, “I have been in their dreams. I do not understand. My temperature runs cooler than normal.” Hob’s laughing too hard to answer.

The adventures of Professor Morpheus Oneiros.

#the sandman #sandman #morpheus #dream of the endless #hob gadling #text #professor Morpheus #I have never read the sandman comics #though I’m looking forward to reading them #and this is just for fun #I love the image of it #there is an actual class called Sleep #I couldn’t resist his name because it’s basically Dream Dream #he could also go with Morpheus Sandman which also sounds like a stage name #I have also been listening to the Dreamcast on loop as you do #which inspired this a bit #Erika rambles #Nocapeswriting

[shirtlessradfahrer]

So what do you do when your favourite rapper makes a catchy song about the hardships of life that you want to love but upon release can’t connect with at all and after a few listens almost outright dislike because none of the pain and hardship life has put you through has ever made you a better person or given you the energy/motivation to do better and it actually just did the complete opposite and you’ve lost out on precious years of your life and so many opportunities while trying to process the trauma and undo the damage

But everyone else seems to love the song to the point that you start to wonder if maybe you’re just a fucking idiot for not being able to make something good out of said trauma and hardship instead of just being filled with crippling anxiety and depression and bitterness and grief and rage

#käärijä #yes this is about ruoska #the mental health tanked again this week #sorry to put my ramblings in the main tag but I need someone to tell me I’m not insane for being so uncomfortable with the song #I’ve been nervous to say my full thoughts because people loved it so much and I didn’t want to rain on their parade #and the umk performance and mv were genuinely well done #but it just really hurts #if the metaphorical whip that hurt me was a tangible item I’d fucking shred the thing to pieces #and then burn the remains #so that no one else could ever suffer the same way again #it didn’t push me through life #it made me want to give up on it completely #I’ve been at my happiest and most driven and most fulfilled when I finally got a fucking break from it #one of the opening lines about sitting at the gas station actually triggered a really fucking bad memory I would have loved to forget #it fucking sucks because his songs have brought me so much happiness #a kind I haven’t felt in a long time #and then there’s….this #if nothing else I wanted to love it for Erika’s sake #but I just can’t #am I just misinterpreting the lyrics? #or projecting too much #I probably am #because god I am NOT looking forward to hearing it all though Kä summer camp #and i hate that

[robo-drake09]

Okay so: HC / theory time about Rik

In the recent update of the CCTV cams, there's a sort of female voice responding to Dynamike's call? What if it was Rik? Or rather, E-RIK-a?

Yes I'm aware that this could easily be some other security office with another worker but hear me out y'all I'm cooking 🔥🔥

Alternatively, transmasc Rik? He hasn't gotten testosterone yet cause the pay STINKS at this park.

#brawl stars #Starr Park CCTV #brawl stars Rik #Rik #I kinda vibe with Erika ngl- cool concept #robo rambles #brawl theory