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candiednova · 1 year

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aaa finally setting up a queue of art posts so i dont go days without posting art, wish me luck!

#novarambles #its actually been alot of fun putting them all together and putting the rambles in the tags!#ill also begin putting image ids onto my art! id do alt text as well but i have not found a way to do that on desktop and i dont have the ap #so i will do what i can !#ill also be going back and putting them on some of my old art (partially bc its a good thing to do and partially bc i want to share it again #i am very bad and slow at describing things esp art and esp my own art (part of the reason why i do art in the first place bc #if i want to eventually tell my charas stories theres no way i could do them written so ill go for drawn in one way or another)#so it may be a hot minute before i post art again bc i really want to do this and give myself a good buffer to 1 draw more and #2 have enough time to give them all ids #and when i do start posting them im totally open to and wanting feedback on them !#very funny looking back up at the text on the post and then my tags #so im setting up a queue to not go days without posting art. so to do so i will be going a while without posting out :]#anyway ramble over thanks for reading imagine a baby kitty tucked into bed for me ok :]

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t-urbulence · 10 months

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the more people write thinkpieces about why you're problematic if you dont reblog and only like posts (especially art and fics i guess) the less ill reblog those posts. i have three aries placements, dont tell me what to do /hj

#it must have become a thing in the few years i was away #cause i see a bloody post like that every few hours #like???#ill reblog what i want but thanks for the input i guess?#personal #i get that engagement is important but #no content creator is like #entitled to engagement #if people like your post they liked it #if they want to show it to their followers theyll reblog it #and thats that #you can inspire them to reblog sure like youtubers say ''dont forget to like and subscribe and leave a comment'' or whatever #but saying you're exploiting free art by not reblogging?#mmmmmm #its just weird that when someone doesnt have the amount of feedback they want they dont go #''what can _i_ the content creator do to change this''#but go ''you guys need to reblog stuff for engagement you have to do it its how this website works''#ok #yes the exploiting free art is an actual thing i actually had to read with my own eyes #its like that lady on twitch who was like its not enough if you just follow my account you have to sUBSCRiBE because follows are Worthless #bc theyre free #like my guy you're on a website that allows people to follow you without subscribing #its how that website works #and the reblog button isnt tied to the like button #thats how this website works #why am i minged off about this?#because of who i am as a person

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httpsserene · 2 months

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𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 “𝐣𝐚𝐜𝐤”𝐞𝐝 - 𝐨𝐩. 𝟖𝟏

𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: oscar’s girlfriend is feral on main. 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴: crack. this is a shitpost, you have been warned. uh this is completely unrealistic, it’s pure vibes okay. this is not an accurate representation of those mentioned. 𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴: oscar piastri x fem!black!reader 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: smau.

𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲: i wouldn’t consider myself an oscar girlie but then,,, i opened tumblr and saw the photos of oscar from when he went karting and um…now have another op 81 mess of a smau! this is completely unserious and it’s inspired by the nefarious actions i would do to oscar’s biceps. inspired by @dwarvenchords and @hookhausenschips ‘s reblog lol. it’s short but, enjoy, loves xxx.

insp. 1 | insp. 2 | taglist | feedback & requests | table of contents ↻

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yninstagram • february 28th

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oscarpiastri: love…you couldn’t even save this for the close friends stories? you had to post it on main yninstagram: did you like my joke? oscar “jack”ed piastri LOL im so clever oscarpiastri: ijbol 😐 yninstagram: i’d be pressed but ur muscles are distracting me oscarpiastri: u should cmere and give them a kiss :)

lilymhe: he let u tie a bow around his bicep?!!! omfg i have to do this with alex yninstagram: i don’t think alex has enough muscles to meet the requirement for the bow :/

landonorris: he’s such a simp landonorris: i would never let my girlfriend tie a bow on me 🥱 yninstagram: step 1: have a girlfriend

logansargeant: your freak out on twitter had a slight mentally-ill aura yninstagram: shut the fuck up and get on a podium before you talk to me yninstagram: gangly bitch + not funny didn’t laugh + L

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yninstagram • february 28th • in between my boyfriends tiddies ⚑

liked by, oscarpiastri, mclaren, logansargeant, markwebber, and 1,223,458 others

yninstagram: things to do with your boyfriends muscles; listed in the comments below (a huge thanks to the toto user on twt for FINALLY sending me the photo)

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yninstagram 1. tie a bow around them (completed)

➥ user thx for sharing the photo

➥ user FUCK! I CAN’T FIND A PIECE OF PAPER TO WRITE THIS ON

yninstagram 2. kiss them (completed)

➥ user awh how cute! going to nap on the interstate rq

➥ user wait for me!

➥ user omg slumberpartyyyyy

yninstagram 3. touch them (completed)

➥ markwebber there’s a time i thought you were a normal girl

➥ yninstagram who told you to think that??

user i know those arms are rock solid 🥴🤤

user i’m the toto user on twitter !!! she did not kill me y’all !!!

➥ user u were flirting with death babes

➥ user i would not have admitted to this under her post

➥ user you should seek witness protection 🙏🏾

yninstagram 4. have him suffocate you with them (he said no)

➥ oscarpiastri WHY DID YOU INCLUDE THIS ONE

➥ logansargeant i think you’re proving the mentally-ill part y/n

➥ yninstagram u sound jealous logan

➥ user personally, i think if you didn’t want her to say that, you shouldn’t have muscles @/oscarpiastri

➥ oscarpiastri oh! yeah! why didn’t i think of that—lemme just take them off rq 😐 WTH

yninstagram 5. wall sex (?)

➥ oscarpiastri i specifically said not to say #4 and #5 in public

➥ user the question mark is SENDING MEEEEE

➥ yninstagram i mean, i can tell you that he didn’t say no to this one 😈 @/user

➥ landonorris i did not want to see this when i opened ig

➥ yninstagram do us all a favor then and delete ur account x

➥ oscarpiastri what she said^

➥ landonorris :o -> :(

yninstagram 6. draw on them (in progress)

➥ user wait this one is actually cute 🤭

➥ oscarpiastri watching the pure concentration on her face is adorable

➥ user omg she’s so 👉🏼👈🏼 coded

➥ oscarpiastri it tickles lol

➥ yninstagram ur moving around too much

➥ yninstagram might have to tie you to the headboard 😏

➥ user and she’s back on her bs

yninstagram 7. watch him flex for you (ongoing indefinitely)

➥ mclaren do we have your permission to post oscar thirst traps now?

➥ yninstagram i’m sure we could work out something mutually beneficial

oscarpiastri • february 28th • my girl’s basement ⚑

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oscarpiastri she knocked out on my chest halfway through drawing on me. didn’t know this was part of the boyfriend job description, felt like there was some false adverting. overall: 12/10 experience, will be doing this again.

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danielricciardo didn’t know where this was going for a sec but fuck you guys are so cute 🥹

➥ oscarpiastri thank you? i guess

➥ user oh to have my relationship praised by danny ric

➥ user girl ur man responds to your texts two days late

➥ user DAMN u didn’t have to air out my business like thatttt

user WHAT DID SHE USE TO DRAW ON YOU OSCAR??? HELP A GIRL OUT

➥ oscarpiastri its liquid eyeliner 🫡

➥ oscarpiastri she used an eyeshadow palette when she wanted to add colors

➥ user why did i never think of that, she’s so smarttttt

user oscar piastri the MAN that u AREEEE

logansargeant so,,,,are we still getting dinner later orrrrr

➥ user LOL

➥ user omg y/n was right logan IS jealous

➥ logansargeant im not jealous !!!!

➥ user 💀

➥ user okayyyy….we believe you LMAOOOOO

➥ oscarpiastri ijbol 😂

➥ logansargeant stop using ijbol it’s not funny

➥ user this will be the only time that i say i agree with logan on something

➥ logansargeant ur literally a fan account FOR ME?? @/user

➥ user yeah man u didn’t have to bring that up 😒

taglist: @saintslewis @cherry2stems @lorarri @inloveallthetime @mindless-rock @biancathecool @barnestatic @my-ylenia @katekipshidze @darleneslane @lovingaphroditesworld @smoothopz @vetteltea @tallrock35 @iloveyou3000morgan @smartstupyd @spideybv28 @loomiscorpse @hiireadstuff

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astraltrickster · 9 months

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I feel like we're dealing with a bit of a catch-22 here.

On the one hand, I don't want to be buying tumblr merch and premium options to REWARD the garbage decisions they're making right now, and I know enough about how upper management at tech companies operates to know that they WILL see an influx of money right now as basically saying either "ohhhh, so they LIKE these changes" - or, if they actually listen to the staff members fielding feedback, "ohhhh, so THREATENING to make the user experience worse gets us money!"

On top of which, I don't want to encourage an OVERLY friendly relationship between the company and its userbase. Tumblr may be...by FAR the best we've got at its scale, despite the fact that they literally seem to be trying to hide that fact where they're not threatening to change it outright, but they are still a company. They're still inclined to make shitty decisions and lose touch with the userbase in the interest of Company Bullshit.

On the other hand...if we DON'T try to get them to at least break even, we're going to lose the site eventually, and possibly have some REALLY heinous shit go down in its death throes. Definitely not today or tomorrow. Maybe not for many years; it's hobbled along on life support via changing hands for many years already. But it will happen. They can fake it for a significant time if there's enough demand, enough hope - tumblr's not the only one pulling it off - but a company CAN'T go on forever when it's hemorrhaging money. Money doesn't become a nonissue when it's not YOUR paycheck.

I'm sick of the illusion that the internet is an immaterial, intangible thing...except when we're criticizing mining and energy usage and basically implying it shouldn't EXIST. It's not just a fake thing that exists in our phones and computers and the LITERAL ATMOSPHERIC clouds. Servers cost money to buy or rent, even when the software running on them is a buggy mess. Staff and contractors cost money to pay, even when the skeleton crew your company has is laughably insufficient for the scope of its services - we want them to expand staff to respond to tickets and improve their moderation system faster, well, with what money?? You want these improvements made with whose man-hours?? I wholeheartedly agree with most of the userbase that this Twitter-knockoff layout and some of their other stupid ideas lately are a huge waste of the ones they're paying for, but that doesn't mean they can redirect 1,000 man-hours from an ill-advised project and magically get a 10,000 man-hour project done!

Consider the moderation system. It's bad! It's biased! We've proven this! It's also mostly automated. What are our potential solutions here?

Go back to fully manual: Puts real human people through a PTSD meat grinder. For this to be done even REMOTELY ethically demands hazard pay, short hours, and the best mental health care coverage money can buy. Where are these human moderators getting paid from, let alone if they're going to be paid fairly?

Modify the software: ...they're already trying; retraining a whole system is easier said than done, especially in the very likely event that posts that are taken down by report-brigading innocuous content are feeding BACK into the system as "This Is What A Bad Post Looks Like." I'd love it if they could do it better and faster - but again, with what money?

Train their OWN software from the ground up: Requires EXPERT software engineers to build the framework AND a large human moderation crew in the short term to hit that "good post"/"bad post" button all day; refer to the problems with fully manual moderation. No one is quite sure how to bulletproof a moderation system against report-brigading in a way that won't ALSO deprioritize reports against content so heinous that everyone who sees it reports it. Once again - where is the money for all this labor coming from?

Every option is human labor that must be paid for. Every single possibility.

Anything else that needs doing? Fixing search? Human labor - money. Improving the bot filters to ban more bots and fewer real people? Humans have to do that - needs money!

So the money-seeking WILL continue until they're breaking even or better, or the site shuts down completely. Those are the two options. You cannot anti-capitalist Theory your way out of them. You can have your grand ideas for how things will work in a healthier, restructured economy, but that's not the point we're at. For now? Operating at a deficit = enshittification or shutdown. Those are the options. There is no third one. The level of hostility I see from some users against the very concept of tumblr BREAKING EVEN is absolutely absurd and completely detached from reality.

But what's the conclusion? Where do we go from here? Fuck, man, I have no fucking idea.

#tumblr wank

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pseudowho · 2 months

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Im paralysed. WHY HAVEN’T I COME ACROSS YOU SOONER??? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE?? honestly like im so confused right now. I admit I haven’t been giving nanami enough love but he’s been dwelling in the corner of my mind but now I’m having full on flashbacks of your fics at the most random times, one time I came across you like a week ago and I accidentally logged off (because I was in public) so I couldn’t like or reblog and tumblr doesn’t have a fucking activity center where I can search for the recent writers I’ve came across and so I was just so depressed for like A WEEK but trust that masterpiece (edging nanami kento) was just floating in front of my eyes all day everyday every second every minute. And then I finally came across you again and I swore to memorize your username so you’ll never slip away from me !!!! CAN I LIVE INSIDE YOUR BRAIN PLS PLS PLS I NEED TI KNOW HOW YOU COME UP WITH THESE you write so beautifully, my heart pangs at each word you write, my brain goes blank and I’m just paralysed for the next 10-20 minutes. NOW PLS EXCUSE ME FOR CUTTING THIS SHORT BUT I HAVEEEE TO GO READ EVERY SINGLE POST YOUVE POSTED AND LET IT MARINATE IN MY MIND FOR THE REST OF FOREVER OMG IM SO IN LOVE WITH KENTO AND ITS ALL BC OF UUUUU!

HOPE U R DOING SOSOSOSO WELL ILL RETURN I PROMISE (I don’t really have a choice, your writing is an addiction !!)

This is amazing, I've lived for every single minute of your unhinged ramble.

Omg my Masterlist is enormous. Good luck. I'm writing constantly at the minute too, and there's an ongoing FILTHY Nanami series.

PLEEEEASE reblog them with more deranged feedback, I actually gain +1 life every time someone posts mental/funny/heartwarming comments and reblogs of my random shit.

For anyone else who wants to read my shit, here is a link to Pseudowho's JJK Masterlist!

mWAH, YOU'RE A SWEET BABY,

-- Haitch xxx

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magic-is-something-we-create · 4 months

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2023 recap + 2024 plans

i wrote 261,200 words in 2023; 172,500 of those for Whispers, 88,700 for Goddess-Touched!

i read 16 books to completion, beta'd for an additional 2, am currently reading 3, and got partway through 5 others before having to put them down.

i maintained my streaming schedule with only a handful of emergency-related exceptions, and drew, uh, a shit ton over the course of the year!

writing goals for 2024:

fix Echoseers (full stylistic rewrite, along with some plot tweaks)

finish the first draft of Goddess-Touched (and edit it hardcore as well)

work on as-yet-unnamed book 4 of tms

fix up Whispers with the added feedback of beta readers

start querying Whispers (i'll look into self publishing down the road if i don't end up finding an agent. the way my brain functions i must cling to the hope of not having to market it myself tooth and nail for the time being)

POTENTIALLY. if my brain fixates on it. write the script for The Lost so that i actually have something to work with to make the comic happen

one of my offline friends is starting to get into writing, and im hoping to help them through some of the early rough patches and potentially co-write a thing with them!!

i completely dropped the ball on the weekly writing updates so im gonna try and get back to that on wednesday. and potentially get back into the weekly ask games!

non-writing goals for 2024:

youtube. i want to make speedpaints and worldbuilding videos and shit. ive already made the basic animation stuff to have a lil sona to do the gesturing for me and i know how to make videos i just havent done it in a While

twitch!! i want to stream a bit more often because its fun and if i let myself branch out into video games as well as art itll be easier to do that. u might see me streaming in the evenings sometime soon. (psst im not streaming this weekend as im still doing a shit ton of holiday/social stuff but the weekend of the 13th ill be back to both patreon and twitch baybee)

SPEAKING OF i want to get my shit together enough to do like. monthly short story releases for my patrons/ko-fi members. early access, that is, so if i post one in january, it'll be posted here a month or two later for all to see/read

i want to read as many books as i did in 2023, if not more! im also considering adding book reviews/thoughts to youtube or patreon/ko-fi perks

my weekend hiatuses aren't going anywhere. having time where im not actively engaging with tumblr + don't feel obligated to do Anything online has done wonders for my mental health and i highly recommend it. focus mode on my phone and leechblock on desktop has helped so so so much

and that's all i'm sharing here!! i hope 2024 is a better year for all than the last <3

#braindumps.txt #writing update #aboutthewarlord #2024 goals

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lorillee · 9 months

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okay okay hear me out maya and diego for the duo bingo

I KNEW I COULD COUNT ON YOU GUYS youre my bestest friends for ever and ever. thank you for indulging me. ok ok ok frankly its literally CRIMINAL that for a relationship that is like literally half the crux of the final case of aa3 there is like. no content . at all. and it breaks my poor heart into PIECES its really truly does. like ok the thing is people only ever seem interested in exploring this relationship via mia but the problem is 1) i dont want it to just be about mia. yes obviously mia is the springboard for this relationship's existence in the first place since she's maya's older sister and diego's girlfriend but like come on guys you are all SO..... sigh. this is such wasted potential. come on 2) THEY NEVER DO ANYTHING INTERESTING WITH ITTTTT

okay because like. personally i think mia & maya's relationship is infinitely more interesting if maya has incredibly complicated feelings that she simply is trying really really hard not to address. like because in aa3 i think if you present mia's profile to maya, maya says that she really misses her and phoenix asks why she doesnt just ask pearl to channel her, and maya gives some complete bs non response of "ohhh i wouldnt want to burden her" or something. which makes no sense. like come on guys. really. anyways maya is the kind of person who really doesnt hold grudges - when people to terrible things her first response is generally more to sympathize with the victim and less getting angry at the perpetrator. even with the mask demasque case where she was a literal victim, she gets mad at phoenix for wanting to defend ron for like a few minutes before letting it blow over and moving on. furthermore, like any ace attorney character, maya also really loves avoiding her problems and trying super hard to Not Think About Them.

with this in mind i think the most interesting way to interpret her relationship with mia is that she does actually feel resentment towards her for frolicking off into the distance to become a lawyer and to some degree kind of abandoning her in the same way that their mom did, but the problem is because its maya her internal thought process goes "i am frustrated at mia for leaving me alone -> but mia loved me -> if mia loved me she wouldnt have wanted to hurt me -> therefore, the problem here is me unjustly feeling hurt as opposed to mia hurting me even if it was unintentional" and she would feel so guilty about having any sort of resentment towards mia (especially now that shes literally Dead) that she loops back around to pretending everything is Normal and Fine and Good so that she doesnt spiral into a guilt feedback loop. NOW. with this in mind.

ive already talked about this a bit between my art post and my mildly extended thoughts which im not going to bother repeating here so go read that if youre interested in the cuter details but objectively i think the best possible ending for diego is after he does his prison time, maya & pearl invite him to come live with them (he doesnt have a job, he presumably has no living relatives, and most importantly he's adjusting to having a significant disability in the world after spending the past like 5 years in prison and therefore absolutely somebody who should not be living alone right now). now ive already talked a bit about the cute stuff because like ok yes . i do enjoy some good domestic shenanigans. however . the fey family period drama is nothing if not full of mental illness and this needs some addressing.

both maya & diego have like . severe issues. with avoiding their personal problems but fortunately for us, . in the words of my good friend. avoiding your problems is really really hard when you invite them to live with you. because like the thing is - and something i think frankly doesnt get addressed enough in anything attempting to explore this relationship in the direction i want - is that ...... maya literally. she couldve died. yes he did put his life on the line to save her and yes that does mean something but also he literally let her walk into that situation in the first place, absurdly bad mental issues or not. and frankly i think maya SHOULD have complicated feelings on it i want that for her. obviously this would follow the same train of thought process as with mia in the sense of "well he saved me and if he wasnt there i Literally Would Have For Real Died and pearl wouldve been forced to live with my blood on her hands (dahlia possession or no) so i cant feel resentful a bit at all or else that makes me a Bad Person". and of course there's the wonderful added complication of the fact that the entire BttT situation is intimately connected to mia with whom she Already has Complicated Feelings That She Is Trying Really Hard To Pretend She Doesn't Have on. there's been a million things said on diegos many many mental issues and i already touched on that very briefly anyways in the earlier linked thought post so im not going to repeat the whole spiel but in short its my opinion that he definitely wanted to have his little redemption by death by the end of BttT but I Won't Let Him. hes not getting off the hook that easy. anyways obviously by the end of this whole thing the Issues come to a head and there is some sort of a serious conversation about the current Situation and obviously not everythings magically fixed, but now that we're not aggressively boxing up our uglier emotions and pretending they dont exist they can actually start getting addressed.

on a lighter note 1) this is very much like an edgeworth & kay situation where its like. diego is too obnoxious to not have a weird little girl following him around and making fun of him all the time to take his ego down a peg or two and 2) also as i said in that other post i wholeheartedly believe maya deserves as many older sibling figures as her heart desires <3 hes like basically her older brother in law anyways . also wait before you go take the gif thats looping in my head like a good 20% of the day

#ITS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO . sorry ill spare you the whole spiel #but tldr throughout the entire stageplay he spends the entire thing with the usual aloof ''lol igaf abt anything going on here'' persona #and this is one of the very very few moments where that actually cracks a bit . in which he actively goes out of his way #to pull maya away from the guy whos name escapes me at the moment #and plant himself firmly between her & the path of possible danger #its not like hes just like. tugging her out of the way. he doesnt even let go of her arm until shes 1) all the way around #and 2) has steadied herself. im obsessed with this gif its everything to me.#AAAAAAAAAAAAAGUH ok its fine its fine i can be normal. ok anywyas #ask game answers #karmaicperfection #graymer #diego armando #maya fey #mia fey #the fey family period drama #<- you know what. im putting these in the sorting tags i feel like i said enough that it warrants it #anyways. THANK YOU FOR INDULGING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i love them <3

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gg-selvish · 8 months

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thinking about my history in this fandom and how i'm doing now and it's putting me in a really rotten headspace. i don't really feel like i add anything good to the fandom these days. my opinions get me mass-harassed until i go priv, my fic flops even though it's longer and i'm putting more heart and love into it, and just posting my thoughts makes me lose followers. my user subs have been stagnant or declining. i think i've just been here long enough and at this point i've overstayed my welcome.

i've flirted with the idea of retiring a lot and never really committed to it because i'm so in love with my characters and their dynamics and the feedback i get from my readers but the current climate and recent reactions to whatever i put out... i was never really liked by the masses here but it feels like the circle of people who tolerate me being here is dwindling. im gonna give the chapter i posted today a day or two to see how it does and if it also flops and i can't finish it i'm just gonna orphan it as incomplete and leave good luck charm as my last fic. i think i'd be content with that.

you know i say all of this and we all know i've never actually committed to leaving, but i guess i just wanted to share how i've been feeling lately and how disappointed i am with myself. i haven't been meeting my own standards this whole year and this constant failure is really painful. plus constantly being hypervigilant to getting blasted by people who hate my existence. i just wanna give up. idk. ill give it time but i really am not happy with how i've been doing as writer. or just a person in the public eye. i've never felt underappreciation, it's always felt like genuine hatred awkwardly balancing with tolerance.

#txt #vent

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kaijutegu · 2 years

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>goes to take a nap >comes back hours later to find out i’m Owl’s bad guy of the moment

aw jeez i should probably say something huh

Tl;dr: Stop telling me what owlvid is up to, I really don’t care. I cared about Owl’s wellbeing at the beginning, but hey, they don’t want that and so I’m done caring, so please stop putting screenshots of their posts about me in my inbox.

Owl, I know you’re reading this. Let me make some things abundantly clear: I’m not mad at you for some take you have or don’t have on Sea World or the captive herp industry or anything. Until you said that, I didn’t even know, because I don’t obsessively read your blog and memorize your takes on every single aspect of animal science. I don’t care enough about you or your content to be mad at you.

I posted what I did out of amiable concern, and now I really wish I hadn’t because it’s clear that you’re not interested in how the public perceives the public posts you made on your public blog. You looked like you’re caught in a major negative feedback loop, I felt vaguely sad for you, and so I said something. Perhaps my first mistake was assuming you wanted to keep the educational mission of your blog somewhat intact. You run your blog the way you want- even if it seems like the way you’re running it is actively hurting you.

My own experiences with mental illness are what made me feel sorry for you in the first place. My prediction is that you’ll take this as an insult at best and an attack at worst, but whatever. I don’t care enough about you to be your bad guy. I am not here to be your villain. I would like to stop thinking about you, and so now I am. I understand that this statement will also make you mad, but that’s your prerogative. Have fun with your... whatever this actually is. Again, you’re responsible for curating your own online experience, and you are clearly miserable. I hope you find something that can make you less upset.

Followers, friends, and strangers who keep putting screenshots of their posts about me in my inbox? Please cut that out. I don’t want anyone to think that I’m trying to evade a block, and I have a sneaking suspicion some of you are trying to stir up more drama by goading me into responding. That’s why I’m not publishing any of the asks or sharing the screenshots.

Owl isn’t an archvillain and I have no quarrel with them. Their behavior is extremely concerning, but it’s clear they don’t want anybody to care. They just want to be mad. Fortunately for me, the impotent rage of an anonymous tumblr blogger isn’t enough to trigger my RSD, and my flavor of mental illness makes it really easy for me to move on. I don’t care about their opinions enough to want any further followup, and they can make of this post what they will.

UPDATE: please do inform me if they start claiming things that could affect my real life, like if they accuse me of an actual crime. (Thought crime, reblogging from the wrong people, and hurting their feelings are not actual crimes.) Apparently they now believe I have blazed this post, which is blatantly false, and I'm starting to become concerned they may escalate.

#owlvid vagueblogging #more like owlvid directblogging

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maaxverstappen · 12 days

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I’ve been asking ppl cus im nosy. What’s your writing process like if any? Do u have a preferred place or time. Preferred device. Do u write rough drafts then edit or is it much more considered. How do u decide that an idea is worth fleshing out or pursuing if it looks like it’s plotty. Pls yap at length if u so wish — wiz

i love this question!! and would love to know other answers so if you want to reblog them i shall be on the lookout 👀.

i answered partly here so will just like build on that!!

the process is that i’ll have an idea and depending on how large it is write out some sort of outline. my preference for all planning in life is on paper so i have a little journal that ill write out some ideas in. kind of brainstorm / mind map style of just jotting down random ideas that come to mind.

however, with longer fics like my current post-as-i-go wip i have to do it digital bc so much changes and it’s too long (see pics in previous ask). that one i actually started planning in my notes app on a plane bc the idea had to come out of me someway and i was really excited about it. i then transferred it to a google doc and added onto my chapter per chapter outline (1st pic in previous ask). i felt like that was a bit overwhelming for understanding the overall plot so then i went and made a simple overview of the key plot points per chapter (the 2nd pic in previous ask) just so i felt like i had a better understanding of the goal per chapter.

now when i sit down to write a chapter ill get both the detailed notes and the main plot points and just write whatever i feel like in order to get to the goal of the chapter.

for shorter one shot fics i’ll either have no full outline or a one page idea list kind of thing. for instance, for worth the trouble i knew that it would start and end in the present time and then everything in between would be a flashback, but i didn’t know the flashbacks would be non chronological until i was writing it. same for the chewing gum aspect that ends up being quite an important part of the symbolism and that almost weaves the parts together, that wasn’t a *thing* until i was almost finished with the rough draft and i then went to add it in to previous scenes.

for my long fic i have to be a bit more calculated with the hidden messages/foreshadowing as i can’t go back and edit published chapters lmao so that is a little more thought out + i keep track of loose ends to tie together at some point.

editing is a bit of a harder one. for my long fic my overal editing is per chapter, but i do tend to go back and edit per section too. like right now I’m writing a texting scene and first i wrote the plain texting dialogue, then i went back to add the bits in between from characters’ pov. then i’ll read over it fully and edit where needed. finally when the whole chapter is done ill read over it and edit again, but at that point it’s mainly grammar and punctuation.

my main writing issues i’ve noticed so far is that i tend to switch tenses without realising so that’s something i look out for when editing. i also am always worried they don’t *do* enough so i like to think “hmm what action can i add in here to make them more human” when editing.

so far only worth the trouble has been beta read, the rest i do myself. if I’m stuck i will talk through a lot of it with my partner who will give me some ideas and just like help lmao (she’s also the one that beta read wtt!). but she’s not in the f1 fandom so it’s a little hard to have her beta read for characterisation and specific plot points so i do that myself. like when she beta read wtt she gave a few points of feedback that weren’t too relevant bc the average f1 fic reader would understand (like the significance of spa21, there is no need to explain it).

I’m a baby fic writer so a lot of my process will be redefined and refined as i go I’m sure.

as for deciding what to write, it’s really whatever captures my attention. the prompt for help me hold onto you is one i really liked and a trope i love reading myself. i was also ready to challenge myself to a longer plot fic and i was really excited about the idea so i just went for it! my main consideration is really just how excited i am for it.

i will say that i am currently really struggling with perfectionism / imposter syndrome. I’m having a hard time getting the words onto paper bc it feels like it’ll never be as good as my favourite authors anyway so what’s the point. (which is now also impacting the way i read fics bc it makes me sad that ill never write anything as good as what I’m reading lol)

i generally write on my laptop! in a google doc with grammarly activated and the word count on screen (which pisses me off bc i have to turn it back on after every refresh). i wrote my latest crafty!oscar on my phone (bc i was too excited to wait till i got to my laptop) but wouldn’t ever do that for anything much longer or plot-ier than that.

i fear this has gotten very long. i know u said yap away but …. i perhaps have yapped too close to the sun.

#really liked answering this :-) and the fic writer asks from the weekend too. so fun #she says as she still has unanswered asks from that game in her inbox #anyway #thanks wiz <3 a community gem as always #m answers #about me

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the-bjd-community-confess · 4 months

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Tl;dr: People got upset today that the confession blog is bullying and slander, but for everyone’s sake: if you don’t want to know what people have to say about you when they have no chance at consequences, don’t make the effort to comb an anonymous confession blog for people’s opinions on your work.

It seems like today a bunch of artists went on Instagram to complain about this blog and I’ll admit I sometimes disagree with the tone of the confessions, but it’s massively silly to claim that this blog is some kind of targeted slander campaign in one sentence and then give it enough credence in the next to suggest that you actually think the people confessing about you could have some merit, only to turn it into a desperate plea for people to flatter you.

I mean, can you really think the people who post their honest critique of you anonymously so they don’t look bad (usually because any negative critique is a faux pas these days) are going to send it to you directly, anon or otherwise, just because you’re claiming to being open to honest criticism? And no doubt everyone sent in mindless flattery because the next post was just a post to thank people for their kind words.

I don’t harbor ill will for anyone really, but I don’t care to watch people make fools of themselves begging for validation on the internet especially if they’re running a business. This hobby has a serious issue about critique though, I’ll say, and it seems like you can’t be honest about your displeasure or disappointment or even honest advice off anon or you get blackballed and roasted, which is why this blog basically exists at this point. There’s this big desire for only sycophantic fawning and sure some people when on anon take things massively in the wrong direction, but there’s a lot of accusations being thrown at this blog for being slander and bullying, but I don’t really think this blog has the kind of power that these small artists want to claim it does when everyone who reads here I’m sure just thinks of it as a gossip rag for drama and funsies. However, this is the only place that people can safely come and talk about their negative experiences without receiving blowback (rather just negative feedback from the comments section) and I don’t think it’s fair to say that even the small portion of truly malicious confessions could even be categorized as “bullying” because no one is obligated to read this blog.

If people are sending hate directly to your inbox, that’s bullying, but people just expressing their opinions that they don’t like you/your work in an isolated environment that’s intended for that kind of honesty and venting is just commentary that you don’t have to read. It’s a part of business and a part of having a public presence that people are going to disagree with you, so you have to accept that. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one and if you feel attacked by reading other peoples’ opinions, just don’t read them. People are allowed to regret buying something from you and they’re allowed to tell people that, it’s not slander and it happens to even the most established of businesses and artists.

At the very least this blog typically censors names so negative confessions don’t appear in search results, so be happy that people are talking shit here and not posting their honest and unfiltered displeasure and regrets on your feedback pages, insta comments, and YouTube comment sections because then people who are actually looking to buy might believe the negativity. On the other side of that, just do better. If a bunch of people on this blog are saying “x is ugly, y needs to be fixed” be grateful that people are being honest and actually take the critique if you’re going to read it and be flustered about it anyway. Criticism always sucks and always hurts, but it’s there to make you a better artist and a better business person. But again, it’s optional. You don’t have to read this blog. Delete tumblr, close your account, whatever, but there’s literally no reason to log in and read the “bullying” if it affects your mental health, but please don’t come here, get upset, and then go to your Instagram to beg for people to make you feel better (or worse I guess if you’re the type) because it looks sloppy and if you’re gonna run a successful business and you’re already complaining that your name looks bad because of some people complaining on a confession blog, you’re literally just adding fuel to the fire.

Sincerely,

A person who is an artist, runs/owns a business, and was actually bullied growing up for something I couldn’t change about myself.

~Anonymous

#BJD #ABJD #BJD Confessions #Community Confessions #Confession Blogs

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craske · 13 days

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I don't want to sound pretentious when i say all this (and this ended up being really long??), but i really do think you don't need to uphold your online presence so consciously, or even at all. There's nothing wrong with being "inactive" because trying to show up for everything is some sick standard social media made up. Maybe it might be difficult to uphold an idgaf personality, but i can say from my experience it could be better to try a little bit at a time. I can say that they really do mean it when you can have quiet admirers, from my experience all the more. Maybe they're too shy to put silly tags when they reblog or just put a like on your post. And I don't think you have to worry too much about sticking to one piece of media and be afraid the people following you won't like you anymore for posting different content. At most, I just believe they won't really care enough to unfollow you or stop engaging entirely. The most important thing to me is that you stick around doing the things you actually want to do, even if you're just showing up every month or so, or black out for a year or more. Because the people who do care will be overjoyed to see you whatever you post or share, especially when you come back after a long time. It really is discouraging when you don't see that actively, maybe because we're so used to seeing numbers that relate to our worth. But i like to imagine we're waving at each other from a distance or smiling through a window, as horrid as online landscapes can be nowadays. I know i'm running my mouth here but i just wanted to share my experience because i um. 🙋 also think youre really cool and awesome and i love whatever work you do and the fact you share it is an amazing thing enough i feel privelaged and youre humor is funny and whatever new stuff you post is just introducing me to things i'll also think is cool down the line and i really do wish i can share my appericiation more and evolve from being a quiet admirer /inhales/ 👍 i would say this is a sort of love letter from the gas station but i also mean it as kai 👋 i hope you're doing well in uni or that it gets better soon or in whatever it is youre doing now. and whether or not youre online, i hope youre doing the things you enjoy 🫶

okay i needed some time to figure out how to respond to this ask because theres a lot (in a /pos way dont worry) so ill start off with saying that i really really and i do mean it Really appreciate what you said here. Especially lately, ive been struggling with being active online outside of small spaces where there are just me and a few other people. might be me feeling overwhelmed when i say something into the void with a high chance of no response, though i wont fault anyone for that. i myself know interaction is scary so i do get it. ever since i started using the internet ive stuck to my small online bubbles so yeah interaction kind of intimidating online

and though i agree it does feel discouraging to sometimes see no feedback or much of a reaction, i try not to be bummed out about it myself because im also a silent admirer of many artists online. so like ive said before i do understand that sometimes people are shy and dont interact directly and theres no pressure really to change that. just the idea that there are people that like what i make is really nice, even though i suffer from the same issue that maaany other artists have and i need to actively remind myself of that.

about sticking to one fandom its a very recent but big issue to me because ive been DEEP in the persona pit for like 4 years, and i certainly built an audience around that. i know there will always be people that stick around no matter what but despite that theres always that nagging feeling that maaybe things will crumble. obviously thats not true but human mind fucking SUCKS

as the final note ill say it again that your message means a lot to me and i thank you a lot for it <333 im soo flattered by your words and they made my past two days, thank you soo much

#as for uni im almost done with it!!#wowzers masters degree i will kill myself tho bc idk what to do after it #but thats an issue for the future me i guess!!!#anyway again thank you so much your message was really sweet and meant a lot to me #im sorry i dont reach out much like i said interaction online is soo scary and also insanely difficult lately?? it sucks #as the twitter users say thank you oomfie <3 #ask #k4ik4yk04 #long post

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mac-n-cheese-flavored-arson · 4 months

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this is not about anything specific but I think a lot of yall dont realize that reading post after post after post of traumatic and upsetting details about things that are (mostly or entirely) out of your control —to the point that all you can do for hours is ruminate on how upset you are or hyperventilate until you're so overcome with anxiety/stress/guilt over not doing enough that you're physically ill— is not actually helping the situation and is in fact a form of self harm.

I know in a lot of online leftist circles not constantly talking about bad things that are happening in the world (things that do rightfully deserve our attention) or taking a break from keeping yourself updated on current events is seen as not caring or performative activism but people were not meant to be exposed to second hand traumatic details so widely and as often we are now because of the internet. And more importantly, not only does this kind of feedback loop doom scrolling not help, it actively causes more harm, cause now on top of the bad things that are happening 1) you're damaging your own health and 2) you can't give any kind of tangible support (like calling representatives, fundraising, mutual aid, etc) if you're routinely making yourself so upset that you can't function.

you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anything or anyone else

#obviously try to keep yourself informed if possible and dont just turn a blind eye because its uncomfortable to think about #but you do not have to check the news twice an hour when its just repeatedly making you so upset that its affecting your health #you can take breaks #its not endorsing or aiding the bad things for you to take care of yourself #original content #january 2024

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velvetnviolentviolets · 10 months

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Get To Know The Author

name : Kay

pronouns : she/her

preference of communication : Honestly I have a huge preference for discord. I don't trust tumblr IM to actually alert me. Ive recently learned tumblr has been eating my asks too. If I don't reply to an ask or DM me PLEAS reach out to me. I will NEVE outright ignore something. If I don't think something is going to work for our muses I will reach out to you.

most active muse : Kat is my loudest and most demanding. After that would be Her brother Kass, Feyre, and then our spotty maybe I'm here maybe I'm not - Emmett.

experience / how many years : Ohhh boy. I've been doing the rp thing off and on since 2010. There was a five year chunk in recent years where I disappeared for a bit but the lovely @sharpayevcns pulled me back in a few months ago and I am so appreciative that she did. <3

best experience : Discovering the people here that make me feel safe enough to obsess over threads. You guys have absolutely made my return to tumblr. If I were to delete my blog with nothing but my connection with you guys to show for it - Well I would be absolutely fine with that. You guys are amazing and will absolutely be tagged in this.

rp pet peeves : I keep running into situations where I get heavily invested in plotting something (Drawing, writing head cannons, making playlists, planning cannon events. . .I literrally brushed up on a whole ass language for a plot) Only to have those people completely leave me on read. I am not a pushy partner in the least. I would be more than happy to wait a month for a reply. But I need communication. I need feedback if something doesn't sit right for you. I need reciprocated enthusiasm. You don't have to show It the same way I do but I need some show of enthusiasm otherwise it just feels uncomfortable and I feel annoying and restrained. That's not what I'm here for. I've honestly made the decision to start unfollowing people based on a three strikes basis. No hard feelings. I just don't want to follow anyone who doesn't bring the same energy I do.

fluff, angst, or smut :ALL OF IT! While I'm becoming more and more selective about who I write smut with I LOVE writing smut ESPECIALLY if its born of post Angst fluff. Actually almost exclusively. There is nothing that gets my muses motor going like post Angst Fluff!

plots or memes : Augh! Don't make me pick. I love Plotting but sometimes nothing really gets the juices flowing like memes do. I cant tell you how many times a simple meme interaction help set a pivotal point in a plot. ALSO- Memes are usually what help me forego my shy nature. While my muse outwardly gives NONE of the Ducks. . .I do . I give all of the Ducks so memes help me loosen up. I'm not responsible for the haphazard neuroSpicy creature you meet once the shyness has fallen away. You've been warned.

long or short replies : It depends on my mood and attention span. There is a Adderall shortage right now so I have only been taking my Adderall on work days so Ive had a VERY hard time focusing o replies as of late. When Im on top of my Game I am LONGWINDED AF .Please don't ever feel like you have to match me because there are times where I will write you a novel and we were only supposed to be writing a sentence or two. It just happens and Im sorry. time to write : Ha! um . . . Well I work Graveyard Thursday- Saturday from 8PM-9:30ish AM (PST) On slow nights I do write here and there but for the most part I can be found here pretty sporadically. If I have something going on during my weekend that I have to be a daytime person for then ill be up during the day time. OTHERWISE- Mostly evening and spooky hours .

are you like your muses : I could draw some parallels with each of them but I dont think I am like any of them.

tagged by: The Alluring @wynterlanding ~<3

@grimmusings @sharpayevcns @godccmplex <3

#wynterlanding #sharpayevcns #godcomplex #I hope this wasnt toooo much of a rant #XD #ooc

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aclosetfan · 1 year

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i know i haven't posted any actual writing lately, and thank you all so much for being patient with me. I started a new job, and it's knocked me off my feet these last couple of months, which I fully expect it will continue to do, but I am still writing!! Just very slowly.

but as a lil thank you and as a way to get some feedback, maybe you'd be okay reading my prologue and first chapter rewrite of Another Buttercrush? It was too long and cumbersome to post on tumblr so I created a new fic on ao3 (link below). It's not a website I really like, but at this point, I don't think anyone's still on ffn and srsly, it's so long.

I debated doing this for a while now because I don't know when I'll be able to post another update and don't want to get anyone's hopes up, but these files have just been sitting there, weighing on my shoulders, and I really want feedback. If it's bad, I want to know, so I can try again.

and if i never get to this fic again lol at least I can give you this

I started Another Buttercrush in 2018! Five whole years ago, and I've made little to no progress on it because these last five years have been so life-altering. I graduated undergrad, I was very ill, I underwent so really intense surgeries, I started law school, I graduated law school, I passed the bar, my dog died :(, I got an adult job, and my anxiety has been one long continuous battle. I'm probably too old now to (poorly) be writing silly stories for a cartoon even older than myself, lol, but it and the friends I've made have been such a consistent comfort in my life that the idea of leaving hurts. <3 Thank you to all the friendly people and your continued patience. I would have never started writing without you.

Anyway, enough of being sappy; here's the chapter. Forewarning, when I was rewriting it, I cringed so hard at a majority of it (it's so very much a high school fanfic), but when I went to delete some of the scenes, my heart broke. Deleting the cringe is like deleting another buttercrush entirely, so I tried keeping it as close as possible to the original. It's still my shitty little story <3 I love her. I tried fixing characterization issues, a few plot holes, and added a few extra scenes :)

Hopefully, you all see this before you see the fic on ao3. I'm not posting it for the people active on that site. This is really just for my tumblr friends :) haha you're the ppl i talk to so you're the ones who get to see this sappy intro note.

#another buttercrush #rewrite #sappy author note under the cut #i know i said id update the fake dating au but i was feeling sentimental~#jeez i was actually really nervous posting it #there are like wht 5 of us in this fandom??#its just that if i post on ao3 i break out of containment

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riding-with-the-wild-hunt · 2 years

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Any Maglor headcanons?

may you be forever ensconced in vistas of frolicking [insert preferred animals here] for giving me an excuse to talk about this absolute mess of a guy. :]

*dissertation submitting voice* for ease of reading i have divided this post into two sections: tamer/happier headcanons are above the cut-off and more intense/darker ideas fester quietly beneath.

anyways, let's get into it, shall we?

as a child, he’s pretty sickly and physically frail. this is one of the reasons that Nerdanel and Fëanor decide to stop living nomadically and settle more permanently in Tirion. at least until more younger sibs come along (by which point he’s gotten a lot healthier and more independent anyways), Maglor is very much the doted-on darling of the family.

because of illness, he ended up spending quite a bit of his later childhood outside of Tirion, often in Alqualondë with his maternal grandparents. his time there heavily influenced both his love of the sea and music, and in general he was just really close to them.

he’s really attached to both of his parents, but he’s especially close with Nerdanel, even as an adult.

his favorite animals are cats and marine creatures. he doesn’t like dogs and carries on an ongoing (and unsuccessful) campaign for Huan being banned from indoors.

he has trouble falling asleep and never is able to sleep deeply. post-Valinor, he always sleeps with lights on.

he has a sense of humor but it’s really caustic and isn’t really funny to anyone outside his family. nobody dares tells him this.

in the Tirion intellectual scene, he and his crowd are considered the most avant-garde. this is especially baffling to Finwë, but he still goes to every performance/exhibition/festival that Maglor is involved in and describes everything, without fail, as “enlightening” or “simply delightful.”

no-one says it, but he’s popularly considered the least nice of Fëanor’s progeny. sure, he’s witty and charming and charismatic (who isn’t in that family?), but something about his expressions never feels exactly genuine.

he’s a grudge-holder to the absolute last, but he’s sneaky enough about it that people are always left guessing whether he’s mad at them or not.

he gets horrible jitters before performing and has to do complex multi-step rituals before going onstage.

he’s a terrible decision-maker and dithers over everything (this is perhaps one of the reasons that he very much did not want to be high king.)

he struggles with accountability and habitually makes excuses for himself based on circumstance or others’ actions.

would-be winner of the biggest contriver of dramatics in Arda award three ages running.

he can be really manipulative, especially to Maedhros. if he isn’t getting what he wants (and sometimes just when he’s bored and wants to get a rise out of someone), he’ll hurt himself or threaten to, bring up upsetting topics, or purposely taunt Maedhros or make him uncomfortable.

i've talked about it before, but he thinks deep down that he deserves all the bad things that happen to him/that it’s a punishment for being a bad person, and will often either just do nothing about harmful circumstances or actively try to make them worse. he’ll goad people (Mae) into hurting him and then will use it as leverage or just swan around pitifully until someone comforts him. it’s a weird masochistic feedback loop.

eventually, he starts buying into and promoting the narrative that he’s a blameless victim of his more forceful family members, which really drives everybody in said family up a wall.

he has a very small but very devoted circle of followers, many of whom are fellow intellectuals and artists who regard him as a kind of creative messiah. many of them used to actually be his friends, but that kind of falls apart after a while as he gets more and more manipulative and controlling towards them.

he was experimental (in an artist-flouting-society’s-petty-conventions way) with substances in Valinor, but in Beleriand he depends pretty much entirely on soporific drugs or alcohol to get any rest at all or be relaxed. he used to be covert about his reliance on them, but eventually everyone just kind of knows and acknowledges that it causes more damage to try and get him to stop than to let him mess around and just keep him from dying.

he can be really nasty and mean to people he either doesn’t like or just doesn’t think are worth his attention. (honestly, he can be really nasty and mean to people he likes too.)

he fetishizes death to a genuinely uncomfortable degree but actually deals with it really badly (eg. he’ll describe in detail how he and Maedhros should kill themselves together but flatly refuses 99% of the time to acknowledge that the orphans they “adopted” weren’t always orphans).

speaking of other brothers, he makes place-settings for them and talks to them during meals while Maedhros and everyone else sit there like (ʘ_ʘ)

and on that note, thanks again for providing an opportunity for me to take a look at this poor guy (dubious) through my wacky little microscope. he’s lovely and creepy and pitiful and deeply unpleasant, so naturally i love nattering on about him. naturally.

#call and response #brought to you by me #maglor #the silmarillion #sad disaster boys #the professor’s world

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