#em <3

[fandoms-writings]

For your requests, how about "You're not as bad as everyone says you are."  with biker!Bucky? Only if it sparks ✨ inspiration ✨ for you my love ❤️❤️

I know this prompt was under fluff but this turned out wayyyy more angsty than I intended - i'm sorry lol

Pairing: biker!bucky x reader

Word count: 1.2K

Warnings: angsty, a look at bucky's internal turmoil, they're going through it right now, descriptions of the aftermath of the nefarious things bucky has to do but nothing too descriptive. bucky's really sad in this i'm sorry

Masterpost || Bucky Masterlist || Event Post

When Bucky had to do the unthinkable for the club, he had a certain 'ritual' to help him cope with it. 

You'd come up with it actually, something to help him not spiral into the self hatred that his actions could bring. Keeping his head above the sea of nasty words his self conscious liked to try and drown him with.

He'd come home, his choices from the day wearing down his shoulders, making him drag himself into the bedroom where he'd peel off his leather cut and toss it to the chair in the corner. Usually he'd sit there hunched over his knees for hours, stuck in a mental spiral, replaying the events from the day. Screams echoing in his ears. A stickiness to his fingers, his nails and knuckles stained red. 

But in times like this, when you weren't speaking to him, he'd remember what you would do.

You'd pull him into the shower, washing the day off of him before making him eat a sugary snack, something sweet to get the endorphins going again. Then you'd sit him down on the couch with the show he loved watching with you and you'd snuggle up to him, combing your hands through the length of his hair, scratching his scalp. 

He looked around the room, traces of you still there. Your necklace on the nightstand. A sweater discarded in the same chair his cut lay. One of your bandanas that you'd wear under your helmet tied to the bed frame. 

And your helmet. 

It sat out on the dining table, untouched in almost two weeks - since you went back to your place saying you needed time. 

He understood. You had every right to be mad at him, he just wished he knew how to fix it. 

But being late to date night and showing up a bloody mess is kind of hard to fix. 

So, he sighed, gathering himself before he stood and headed to the shower. He peeled his clothes off, leaving them in a mess on the floor while he got under the water - he would deal with them later, it was one thing at a time right now. 

With you not being here, he liked using just a little bit of the soap you'd left, it being the only way he got to smell you until you came back - if you came back. He stood under the water, watching the suds and pink droplets swirl down the drain as the look of disappointment on your face flashed in his mind. 

He hadn't meant to forget about date night, he really didn't. He'd just gotten roped into some club business, and when he tried to explain it to you, you shook your head. The anger in your eyes was unlike anything he'd ever seen - he'd never see you mad before and it'd frozen his feet in their place. 

"If this is going to work," You'd gestured between the two of you, throwing your bag over your shoulder, open, "you need to figure out how to balance club life and our life. I'm not going to be the girl waiting for you to come home in one piece, if at all." 

"I can't just not handle business when it needs to be handled," He'd argued, his tone rising in his heart's cry for you to put your bag down and stay. "I can't abandon the club when they need me." 

"That's not the problem," you pushed past him, "You didn't call, you didn't text. I was at the restaurant for two hours, James. Two." You turned and pointed to him, "You abandoned me tonight."

"I'm sorry, okay?" He followed you around the house as you gathered random things of yours, shoving them in your duffle bag, "I'll make sure to call next time." 

"Next time?" You spun on him, a look of bewilderment in your irises, "You're assuming there's a next time?"

Dread filled his chest as he swallowed the sudden lump in his throat. Suddenly, it didn't matter what he was going to say. He just wanted you to stay, not to leave. Not to leave him. 

"Bucky I was left at that table, in the dress you picked out," You shoved a finger in his chest, "for two hours while you were off doing whatever it is that you do." Your hand gestured to the red stains on his pants. "And you'll never tell me what you're doing out there, but it doesn't take a genius to figure out it's dangerous." 

He waited as you took a breath, zipping up your bag with a huff as your shoulders shook. 

"I'm sorry," He muttered again but your head shook. 

"I don't care," You turned to him with tears in your eyes, "You can be sorry all you want. But I didn't even know if you were coming home at all tonight. Or if you were headed to the morgue in a body bag." 

It was that comment that punched him in the gut, and still replayed in his mind when things were too quiet. You weren't really mad about date night. He was supposed to be your calm, your safe space. He wasn't supposed to cause you anything but happiness and pleasure. But he hadn't even given you the courtesy to call you and tell you what was going on. 

You walked out after that, saying you needed time to figure out if you wanted to come back at all, and as the days passed, he was starting to think your side of the bed would remain cold forever. 

You were it for him, he didn't want anyone else, and he never would - he knew that.

But on nights like this, while he scrubbed the blood out from under his nails, he wondered if you knew it. 

Did you know how far gone he was for you? How he'd do anything for you, that if it wasn't you in his life, it was no one. 

He wondered if he could have both. You and this life he'd created. You, in your tender adoration. The way you cared for him. Loved him. And his life with the club. Being part of a stronghold like that. Being a nightmare for some. Seeing the things he did. Doing the things he had to. Making the necessary decisions no matter how morally questionable they were.

He knew people talked badly about him around you, warning you to stay away from him. That he was dangerous. A bad man. And he knew some of it was true. 

He was dangerous, not trusted by most. 

But you told him something once, the first time you'd seen him come home from club business covered in bruises and blood, seeing the internal turmoil those choices caused him. 

"You're not as bad as everyone says you are."

With those words replacing the agony that had been swirling his head, he gets out of the shower, drying off and getting dressed with a purpose. 

He was going to see you, and make sure you know you're it for him, no matter what. As long as you know that, your choice is yours.

But first, he needs to pick up a sweet treat. He decides he'll pick up your favorite. 

Maybe, if things work out, you'd share it with him. 

#bucky barnes x you #bucky barnes x f!reader #bucky barnes x female reader #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes fanficiton #bucky barnes x y/n #bucky x f!reader #bucky x female reader #bucky x y/n #bucky x you #bucky x reader #remisneonparty #em <3 #bucky angst #bucky barnes angst #biker!bucky x reader #biker!bucky

[naomiarai]

okay, okay, but listen... soobin begging you to touch your boobs, like he's just so in love with them and NEEDS to touch them, at least just a little bit... BUT!!!! make reader has small ones... plus, you're both currently on a movie night with your mutual friends, but it's dark... they won't notice tho, right??

ooh soobin would have an addiction to ur tits! just tryna cup them all the time~ even when ur out n about with ur friends just trying to watch a movie with peace..

but soobin just can't help himself can he? the rooms dark anyway,, no would notice...so he slips his hands inside ur sheer shirt, caressing n flicking ur nipples, loving to watch ur small tits bounce each time :3

#em <3 #txt hard hours #txt hard thoughts #txt smut

[bucktommys]

hello dearest mia we are so back but also we were so over first anyway long winded way of asking you if you have any blog recs now that i'm back in 911 blr?

HI EM im sorry ive only just seen this now!!!!! hi hi love how are u doing how is life treating u. welcome back to the hellhole. im unsurprisingly still here.

ok so BLOGS (u may follow most of these already but these are some particular faves)

@buddieblr @buckleysibs @bucktits @chronicowboy @poughkeepsies @911onabc @buck-eddie @lawsuitarc @gayhoediaz @lesbiandiaz @henwilsons @evcndiaz @trippedandfell @thatbuddie and dozens more u probably follow most already but it is worth repeating !!

#ask #em <3 #wow an em tag in this economy.....

[missedyour21st]

FAYYYYYYYYYYYY

HOW ARE YOU ML??

EMMAAAAAAA I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCHHHH !!!!!

IM BASICALLY FREE THIS WHOLE WEEK SO IM FEELING SO GOOD AND IM HOPING TO BE WAY MORE ACTIVE ON HERE AGAIN AND TO READ A LOT MORE🫡 ima need you to me to that

HOW'VE YOU BEEN BABE ILY <3

#em <3

[lady-of-imladris]

Outta my way, he about to get it

NOTHING BUT FACTS!!!! Idk why I find him so hot but I do 😭

#its the personality #galavant #em <3 #simping over king richard again

[queenmeriadoc]

Watching @starlady66 @lady-of-imladris and @frodomyprecious lust after President Snow is such a treat

#gif #president snow #em <3 #julia <3 #star <3

[janaispunk]

hey @catchallfangirl 🫶🏻

for the #ppcugiftexchange2024 by @swiftiscruff i made this little moodboard for you, to tell you how much i love you and how important our friendship is to me. i love talking to you, screaming about plot ideas, about your cats, about taylor, and just everything 🤍

i really hope that one of us will be able to make the flight across the big ocean and that i’ll get to hug you this year!

#em <3 #ppcugiftexchange2024

[joelsgreys]

Ginny is finding out about her daddy tonight

oh my goddddd look at her! LOOK AT HER!

Virginia, you are PRECIOUS! I hope you and your mommy enjoyed watching TLOU 🥹🤍

#vee answers #em <3 #you know what #virgina gets her own tag too #virginia <3

[a-beautiful-fool]

THE THEMEEEE AHHHH

WE'RE MATCHING LMAO

AHHH (what a happy lil accident!!!)

i guess this means we have to be each others online besties now, i don’t make the rules <3

#lou’s inbox❤️ #answered ask #em <3 #<- you get a tag now!!!!

[pascalpvnk]

rules: pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people

thank you so much for the tags @reddedmiller @hearteyesforjoel @demonjoel @emeraldmoth @joelslegalwhre @littlegrungegirlaf @fhatbhabie I love all of you bunches and bunches 🥹💞

P: Picture You - Chappell Roan

A: Agora Hills - Doja Cat

S: Super Trouper - ABBA

C: ceilings - Lizzy McAlpine

A: After Midnight - Chappell Roan

L: Low - SZA

P: Purple Rain - Prince

V: vampire - Olivia Rodrigo

N: Nonsense - Sabrina Carpenter

K: I’m Just (K)en - Ryan Gosling (I had to I’m sorry)

npt (I’m late to this so you know the drill): @janaispunk @joels-shitty-puns @tightjeansjavi @ilovepedro @penvisions @chaotic-mystery @catchallfangirl @wannab-urs @joelsgreys @beskarandblasters

#tagged #tag game #mooties <3 #eden <3 #izzy <3 #olivia <3 #tea <3 #em <3 #cat <3 #grace <3

[cherubispunk]

rules: go to pinterest and search "celebrity," "outfit," "quote," and "aesthetic." the first four photos that pop up are your vibe.

Thank you for the tag @joelslegalwhre 🩷🩷🪽

I think this sums me up pretty well, I LOVE this dress!

🪽🏷️ @amanitacowboy @planet-marz1 @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin @chloeangelic @chaotic-mystery @morning-star-joy @swiftispunk @sweetercalypso @persephone-girl @walkintotheriveranddisappear

#🏷️ #love for lu #cherubs 🪽 #love from lu #em <3

[percabeths-blue-cookies]

helloooo *twirls moustache*

would you rather go on vacation here or here? (hehehe)

and would you rather have these or these?

also i love your blog vibes sm

Helloooo *taps fingers menacingly*

The vacation one is so hard to choose🥲

I’m gonna go the second one because I like the city a lot but I would also go to the first one if I had the chance

And by far the second one. Waffles are just so much better. With the little syrup filled pockets😌 I like to drown my waffles in syrup. It just gives them so much more flavor :))

#em <3 #asks #moots<3 #love ya <3

[missedyour21st]

is this...... a bunch of shatter me memes? (also let me know when you've reached certain parts cause there are spoilers in some i wanna send ALSO I WANNA SEND YOU EDITS HEHEHEHE if you want <3)

STOP CAUSE THIS WAS SO HARD??? IM STRUGGLING TO FIND ONES WITHOUT SPOILERS FOR THE NEXT BOOKS 😭

YES YES YES ID LOVE EDITS AND THESE ARE SO GREAT THANK YOU. IM NOT VERY FAR YET ONLY LIKE THE FIRST 30 PAGES I THINK BUT IM GONNA READ SOME MORE TN HOPEFULLY 🤞 ILL LET YK

dude the last one is sooo you LMFAO AND THE new reader: should we bow? IS SOOO ME AND YOU HAHAHAHAHA

#em <3 #book club #shatter me

[lady-of-imladris]

He's just checking in on you while you work

Oh god he's gonna be disappointed in me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I gave up and am now having dinner

#em <3 #julia.exe #is daddy elendil gonna punish me for being a bad girl?

[inkluvs]

strawberry wine?? moodboard for me or my blog or robin idc i just love a good moodboard ❤️❤️

hii babe i hope u don’t mind that i kinda did both? i just associate u with robin so heavily sjfjsdn <3

#ivy’s inbox 💌 #em <3 #moodboard mural 🌌 #{ivy's summer celly} #event.strawberrywine

[janaispunk]

and another one my love!!!

🌅 - a mood board for your fic wildest dreams please (which i’m reading tonight and will soon be obsessed with) or maybe my frankie fic tommy’s party?

dealer’s choice! i love you!

(so excited for dave though oh my)

ooooohhh thank you for asking about this, we have an extensive pinterest board for wildest dreams 🥹

anddddd one for tommy’s party hehe <3

i love you em!

#em <3 #follower celebration