#edging relapse

[sickkpuppi]

last night i air played porn on the tv in my childhood bedroom 🥺😵‍💫

#sex confession #goon confession #relapse #edging relapse #bean flicker #flicking the bean #goonette #gooner girl

[imposterogers]

also idk how they can compare what steve did to ‘moving out of the country’ lmao yeah no it’s a bit more than that. plus he went back in time to a time where bucky was being tortured and brainwashed by hydra, and he was fully aware of this fact and yet he was comfortable just.. doing nothing about it??? that’s NOT the steve we’ve learned to know and love, the one who moved heaven and hell to protect bucky. like this is not even about stucky, it’s about basic steve characterization and how it was all thrown out the window for… that

I think I'm so mean to endgame steve because I truly don't see him as steve rogers. because steve rogers, the one that we watched grow for ten years, would not have even considered for a moment what endgame!steve did

the writers threw all characterization out of the window. because what had been established about his character? what did we know about steve rogers? we knew that since the day he was old enough to walk, he was getting in fights. he was a chronically ill small boy who was bullied relentlessly. he came home bloody more days than not, and his single mother cradled his face and told him that he always stood up. that sarah rogers was his moral compass. we knew that bucky barnes stood up for him when they were six years old, and they'd been inseparable ever since. that steve couldn't just follow orders blindly. that he'd always protect the people that couldn't/wouldn't stand up for themselves. that if he was the only one against 100, he didn't care as long as he was on the side he thought was right. the core of steve rogers is that there will ALWAYS be another battle. it might not be with his fists, and it might not be a physical fight, but there's always going to be someone in need, and he was always going to be that little guy from brooklyn who was too stupid to walk away from a fight. he loved his friends because they were his family, and he would NEVER leave them behind. steve was a man out of time, but he'd made the 21st century his present.

endgame steve spent five years in a post-apocalyptic society in the basement mourning a woman who died of old age. who told him, blatantly, that she'd had her life and it was time for him to move on.

and the ending the writers concocted was so utterly untrue to the character (not to mention they said he wouldn't change history). he wouldn't live in an alternate timeline with alternate versions of people he knew when his friends were suffering his loss. he wouldn't sit back and relax while hydra infiltrated shield. while bucky was tortured. while the civil rights movement went on around him. he wouldn't have been there at all.

we all wanted steve rogers to have a happy ending. hasn't he paid enough? doesn't he deserve to be selfish? sure. but steve rogers isn't selfish. steve rogers has been bone tired since the day he was born, but his job on this earth wasn't done. not until he stopped breathing

passing the shield was the right decision. steve rogers' time as its owner was up. but that was the only right decision he made in that film.

#babes we have found ourselves in dangerous territory #i'm on the edge of a steve relapse and that is NOT what any of us need #anti endgame #steve rogers #ok I just looked at how much I just typed out in like five minutes and yah #relapse is official #long post

[princesssierra]

My boyfriend gets to cum on these~💖

#feetish #foot findom #caged foot slave #foot feddish #footporn #footgoddess #foot soles #foot domination #female dominance #cash domme #cash drain #sissy domination #findom brat #findom paypig #feetcurves #find0mme #findom relapse #findom princess #findomm #findom drain #findomslave #findom humiliation #findom goddess #latina #gooner #edging and denial #financial drain #wallet drain #cucklife #cuckie

[princessbree222]

I wanna get it pierced for real 😩

#pierced #girls with piercings #naval piercing #goon and edge #pierced domme #findxm #findom relapse #findom addict #girls with tattoos #tattooed girls #whale sub #paypiq #beta virgin #beta slave #beta sub #PrincessBree222

[honeysuckle-venom]

Not entirely sure if this is actually true or just a temporary thing but I feel like over the last three days I’ve crossed a sort of bridge with exercise. I’ve been motivated to do it this whole time but the motivation is a little…brighter? Less based in fear? And for weeks I haven’t noticed any real shift/improvement but the past few days I’ve felt able to go a little harder and longer and actually not feel completely miserable about it. It would be great if this lasts.

#text post #my post #also I have an appointment with the nutritionist set up for this coming Friday!!! #super happy about that bc after this week my therapist is going away for a bit #and I CANNOT fucking do this with no professional support rn or I WILL have a major relapse. I’m on the edge as is #so if I can see the nutritionist the weeks my therapist is away that will be hugely helpful I think #weight loss cw #exercise cw

[ark1os]

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#tw self harm #everytime im on the edge of a mental breakdown i want to cut myself as deep as possible. my arms tingle/prickle (?) they’re #literally begging me to cut them and my hands itch because of the intense need to scratch my skin till i bleed. i’m clean for 5-6 #years. i thought by now this feeling wouldve stopped. the bubble was right when they said dont ever start doing this sh*t #once you’re in you’ll always be on the edge of relapsing. #and i keep forgetting that i struggle with this. like i have no sense of object permanence whatsoever

[heartshattering]

Very much hoping I don't mess up tonight :')

#i had a minor mental health relapse #at least i hope it's minor #tune in tonight and find out #guh #i was successfully resisting compulsions and keeping my panic under control #but uh #certain times of day trigger me into wanting to do them more #it's hard to explain without getting overly detailed #i'm trying not to see it as me having ruined a streak even though technically i did #but you know... progress doesn't get erased and all that #i still hate those 'i thought i was getting better and now i had a setback' phases with ocd #i have been trying so so hard and without access to professional help anymore since that one nurse ruined my reputation at the hospital #it's HARD #i stopped doing some of the positive habits that were helping me #and i feel myself on the edge of slipping into the not so good habits again #love how i'm getting better and worse at the same time #recovery makes no sense #blegh #ocd #sleep disorders #panic attacks #mental health

[idk-bruh-20]

Just saw that you were posting and wanted to say that I MISS YOU but I admire your insane amount of self-control lately so yeah.

😭😭 bestie that is so sweet but my self-control has been LACKING for an amount of time that is again getting concerning

<3 I MISS YOU TOO!!! I still lurk around sometimes even when I'm not here, but nothing beats shrieking feral odes to your writing at you via ask on 52 hours no sleep unhinged demonic possession energy

#truly truly a time in our lives #idk if i'm teetering on the edge of tumblr relapse or if i'm just in denial at this point honestly #like. this hellsite is starting to take up hours of my day again #but my health hasn't taken the plunge yet? #we'll see how that goes lol my settings are 0 or 100 and no middle ground #but it really is nice to hear from you friend

[marcsnuffy]

Overwhelmed by the desire to tuck Lorenzo in to sleep & give him a litl kiss on the forehead

#i have a fever i'm insane it's ok #my motherly instincts #HE WEARS MAKEUP!!!!!!!! #i hope we get a chapter like 150 where we get to see the NEL participants in casual clothes bc i know he serves!!!!! #anyways GOD i love him so much he is so dear to me you don't get it #i was kinda hoping his hair would be like light purple w it being darker on the edges but i like it as is #txt #i'm relapsing again #SIGH #when do you guys think he got his tattoo #hes so silly. i love him dearly #ok i'm done

[princessbree222]

#censored for betas #censored for losers #censored for virgins #censored feet #feetporn #feetish #feetpics #feetpose #feetcurves #footporn #foot domination #foot soles #foot feddish #paypiq #findxm #findom relapse #drooling goon addict #goon and edge #goon addict #whale sub #beta virgin #beta sissy #PrincessBree222

[shroudandsands]

Prompt #17: Novel

He thumbed the heat-cracked leather. It flexed beneath his fingertip in an ease that spoke of the care it had been given before and since its almost ruin. Before and since it was scarred. He laid it down with reverence as he turned his eyes to the rest.

Leatherbound and roughmade paper housed memories. Real and imagined. Lucid and blackened. Separate and intertwined. All of them written by him. All of them kept by him. All of them meant to be a lasting record of every single moment that he had lived these past summers. A record that he was real. That he was here. An anchor for a man who had gone so far out to sea that he was certain the land was nothing but a forgotten dream. He would wake from forgotten memories with another journal filled, another malm walked, another night that he spent so lost he arrived at the place where he buried his memories whole. Where they screamed from underneath ashes and soil in the selfsame Hell that had nearly claimed the one that held his heart. He cradled it still. As if the flames could rise as ghosts and threaten to take it now.

He split the cracked leather apart to gently touch the pages within. Blackened at the edges. They crackled and shed despite how gentle he was. Despite how quietly he held his breath. Despite how he cradled it and held it away from the light. But even then he could not stop himself. Faces. Of once-friends. Some still. Some gone. Some wandered off into the pages of another story after their brief entry into his. Some wandered into a story even shorter. Some wandered into one that he wasn’t sure would end. No matter where they had gone... he still held that piece of them here. No matter where they went, they were here. In this part of his story. The part that had survived. The part that had gone so far out that it could never come back- But found the trail of memories he had left behind. The part that followed them back. He braved that winter’s touch and the dagger it plunged into him. How it carved out those parts of him that rotted, how it burned out the maggots with a fire so cold that he could only feel it as the aftermath.

His hand rested on the grave of his memories. Where he had buried all of these pieces of him in literal. Pieces of him that had rotted. The rot wasn’t gone. It still lived there. But the heart was cut. The cold had seized it. The rot was there. But it didn’t grip so tightly. It didn’t weigh him down. It could be shaken off. It could be carried.

The first was in his hand. Lifted. The memories in it kept safe. Kept well. The leather as if it were only bound yesterday. The pages as if they’d never been used. “Home,” was its first word. Etched against a page blacked out with too many thoughts. “Remember,” its second. Enshrined in a song that had never left his lips.  

He waved off the ghost that waited for him at the edge of the clearing. He knew where he was. He knew where he was going. He could remember. The journal was blank. It was always blank. He had never sung that song.

#FfxivWrite2022 #/The Worn Edge/Recollections #dug got forced into rehab #decided to go check out a place that would make him relapse #a good plan? no #but he married sif so you tell me about his decision making abilities

[faeriegutz]

im gonna go make an appointment with a counselor because something is Not Right

#im like actually being proactive in my mental health #i say this as im on the edge of a relapse LMAO #i at least wanna get help for anxiety #ill do it next week tho

[mantomhive]

I cannot believe I haven’t cosplayed at all since 2019 omfg…… :,(

#makes me so sad :( #I should just dress up alone in my room and take pics like I used to sometimes lol #ngl tho cosplay always sent my body dysmorphia through the fucking roof #but still it was so fun! #and I should cosplay ciel some more while people are still mistaking me for a minor bc I probably only have a few more years left of that #I’m already relapsing anyways so what harm can it even do at this point lol #tw ed #I guess for that last tag #diary of lord edge