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dramaticnerdwithanxiety11 · 1 year

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I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT THE INACCURACIES ON PEOPLE WRITING KLAUS IN THE WAR!!!

him getting sober in the VIETNAM WAR is UNREALISTIC AS SHIT

the only reason he MIGHT get sober is for a potentially sober Dave, and even then he’d probably still drink and smoke, or for drug safety (when has he cared lmao)

Drug use was a serious problem in the vietnam war. It started with just weed, because it was super super fuckin easy to get and it took the edge off and all that, but the higher up decided that they needed to put a stop to it and started sending people away and taking away their weed when they found it on them. So they switched to harder drugs

LSD, shrooms, cocaine, heroin, etc etc- super fucking common. Vietnam was a horrible place and nobody left it mentally unscathed, some worse than just PTSD. They did drugs to cope, to help them escape from that hellscape and they still did their jobs as soldiers while doing it

Not to mention that most of them didnt even continue the drugs when they got home. They were all forced to do a sobriety test before going home, and if they were sober they could go home and most didn’t continue the drugs afterwars.

SO YEAH Klaus, seeing everybody else around him doing drugs, probably wouldn’t try to get sober especially not when thrown into a war. This is shown in canon too when he only starts getting sober after he gets back, if only to conjure Dave!

So if you make him get sober in vietnam youre wrong, unless he’s doing it for love but there’d be a LOT of relapses since he’d be absolutely surrounded by temptation. getting drugs was super easy there im sorry to say

#drugs #vietnam #vietnam war #umbrella academy #klaus hargreeves #david katz #the umbrella academy #drug use #tw drugs #drugs tw #tw drug use #tw caps

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maschotch · 2 years

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spencer for the character ask game if you 're still doing it/ havent already done it. also, opinion on the "i almost went back on dilaudid" scene in 7x02 because i've seen a lot of people say that's reid's most toxic moment

spencer reid

first impression: oh god the white girls are gonna be freaks about this one for sure

impression now: they sure are!! they sure are!! wow they went exactly where i thought they were going with this character, guess i cant be too disappointed bc idk what else i expected

favorite moment: when he gets shot in 5x01 and he's lyin there bleeding on the ground talking about anything other than himself askjdhalsd GIRL GET HELP

idea for a story: i would love for him to leave the bau the same way gideon did.

unpopular opinion: he's not my favorite?? he never has been?? his whole character archetype (white, skinny, austistic-coded-but-we're-not-gonna-talk-about-it-but-still-call-it-representation-and-pat-ourselves-on-the-back-for-it) is really just not something i'm really interested in, especially when done poorly. i liked him more in the early seasons, before they started dumping as much shit on him as they possibly could just for the sake of it. i still like the character, but i don't understand the hype

favorite relationship: three way tie between morgan, garcia, and elle. currently garcia's edging ahead of the others bc im thinkin of when he got her a blueberry muffin or smth.. they're just so cute in that scene akdjshla okay but for realsies i love that they're both undoubtedly the smartest on the team, and i love that it's constantly brought up that one isn't necessarily smarter than the other? it's hard to quantify bc they're intelligent in different ways, but i like that it's something they don't just ignore: she's just as smart as him. and i love their "two youngest siblings" dynamic when they're forced to work together

favorite headcanon:

i did not know that this was a popular opinion?? i think that's... really fucking stupid actually asdkjhglas like im not even gonna pretend to be nice about it

this guy has been dealing with his addiction for years. that's not something that you solve once, move on, and it's never a problem again. this is one of the very few times that we see him bring up that it has been a continued struggle: just because you haven't relapsed doesn't mean it's not a battle you deal with constantly. so of course it's understandable that losing a close friend for the first time would make the issue flare up again.

im not saying reid wasn't bitchy that episode lmao he was definitely an ass. so i understand people saying that the way he acted was childish and petty. but the moment where he talks about his addiction? that's the most adult he's acted the whole ep. that was him talking about what the heart of the issue was: jj knew he was hurting and struggling and continued to lie anyway. no more games, no more underhanded comments. he's getting straight to the point. this is how serious the issue was. this is why the betrayal stings so much.

im not saying jj was in the wrong for making that decision either: she did what she had to do--what hotch told her to do--to keep emily safe. but that doesn't erase the pain it caused, even if she had a valid reason for it. i also have a lot of personal thoughts on how jj really doesnt like taking responsibility for things and how just expecting him to automatically forgive her is ridiculous but thats irrelevant rn.

reid was extremely close with emily. she was the one he felt comfortable opening up to; her stability and support played a big role in reid not relapsing when gideon left. it makes sense that his addiction would resurface with her death. i don't think he's blaming jj for it, but he's upset with jj for knowing the kind of pain he was in and not bothering to do anything about it. he came to her house crying for six weeks. it's already hard enough for reid to be vulnerable around anyone, so to have that trust shattered like that was just salt on the wound. i think he's entitled to be upset about that

i understand people saying that the way he acted in the rest of that ep was ~toxic~ ig , but that particular moment? he's expressing the gravity of that situation. reid is an addict, it's not like he's making this up just to hurt jj's feelings. but he's not toxic for bringing it up: he's saying what he's feeling, why her actions caused him so much pain, and why it's not easy to forgive her for it.

idk i think that people have started to use the word "toxic" very flippantly. it's not when someone's being a big meanie :( or when someone makes you feel bad :( confrontation is not toxic. it's just a part of life, and a healthy part of a relationship. otherwise reid would've internalized that hurt and things would've gotten much worse between the two of them: addressing it was the healthy thing to do. maybe he didn't go about it in the nicest way, but that doesn't make him toxic for it lmao

#this turned into a rant askjdhgl and idk how much of it makes sense #but thats just?? some of the craziest shit ive heard???#and yall know im not just saying it bc i dont like jj or bc i think reid is precious uwu baby #bc 1. idgaf ab reid fuckin who cares 2. i think jj was justified!! emily's life was on the line!!!#but that doesnt mean that automatically means reid has to immediately forgive her for it #talking ab ur issues and the way someones actions affect you isnt toxic #for ME his most toxic moment is all the shit he does with his mom in the later seasons lmao he's just a fucking ass ab that whole thing #asks #spencer reid #jennifer jareau #endgame spoilers #oh my god my icon scared me kajdhlk THIS is why i dont change icons ever

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fairycosmos · 7 years

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i asked when they were leaving and my mom ignored me and then cussed me out when we were alone. like hello? they're using me as a maid lmfao like she expects me to do all this shit for these ugly ass rat kids and then push me over the edge with all this screaming and shit? fucks no! im actually done like bruh. i even relapsed today bc it was 2 much. on top of that, my phone's battery has water damage and i cant do much on it? and theyre invading my privacy? i really cannot wait to move out n die

:(((( holy fucking shit dude, i’m so sorry to hear that what the fuck!!! let me see ur mum honestly like..........i just wanna talk 2 her👊👊. seriously tho you don’t deserve to be treated like that at all and i can’t believe they’re just expecting you to be okay with the situation???? i actually want to fight them all for you?? like that’s genuinely so fucked up - i’d tell you to fight back but i know that a lot of the time that can just make things worse, you know? not that you should just stand for that sort of behaviour, but i wouldn’t want to put you in any sort of danger by suggesting that you tell them to fuck off. it’s shitty when people say this but the silver lining here is that it’s temporary, they’re not going to be there forever and i know that doesn’t help right now but it can be good to just remind yourself of that sometimes. fuck them, just do what you need to do to get through the day. whatever they think and whatever they do doesn’t matter, they’re clearly fucking assholes and what they’re doing just proves how shitty they are as people :/ it’s okay to be pissed off and sad and stressed out, as long as you try to deal with it in a healthier way. you don’t deserve to hurt yourself just because of other people. try to treat yourself the way you’d treat your best friend. try to have your own back, there’s no point in turning against yourself now. it won’t achieve anything. just breathe. recognize each thought and emotion as it comes and then try to let it go. now, obviously that’s a lot easier said than done. i get that. but the fact that you relapsed doesn’t mean you have to continue relapsing. the fact that you were able to stop in the first place says a lot. you’re in control of what you do, even if everything seems so out of control at the moment. i know we’re only mutuals on tumblr lmao but i care about you a lot and i really, really want you to be okay, because i know you’re capable of getting through this. i know you’re strong enough.

try to just take it as it comes. if it’s possible, don’t spend a lot of the time in the house so it’s easier to avoid it all - take longs walks, see a friend, anything to be away from that fuckin toxic environment. someday you’re going to move out and you’re going to do amazing fucking things in your life, you’ll be your own person. you’ll get to choose who you let into your world and you’ll get to be around positive people that love you for who you are. it’s going to be so worth it. i really really hope you stick around to see it. i promise you won’t regret it if you do. i hope you’re able to pull yourself back from falling deeper into the relapse, please please try to get get a hold of it now before it spins out of control. it doesn’t have to turn out badly in the end, you can make the decision to put yourself and your own happiness first. you don’t have to hurt yourself on the outside to show that you’re hurting on the inside. there are other ways to let it out.

check out these links the next time ur feeling stressed if you want to, it might help -

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-race-good-health/201212/4-healthy-ways-cope-stress

https://themighty.com/2017/02/what-to-do-after-relapse/

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutting-and-self-harm.htm

these two are just calming websites that’ll help distact you -

http://weavesilk.com/

http://thequietplaceproject.com/thethoughtsroom/?page=thethoughtsroom&lang=

that last link is just a place to vent your feelings and thoughts any time you need to. i hope at least one of them helps.

i’m sorry i can’t do something more for you,.i know words are pretty useless when you’re feeling so fucking bad, but i really mean it when i say that i care about you, that you can get through this, that things are going to be okay. you’re such a sweet and good person and your family are completely out of order. message me if you need to rant about them or if you need a friend. i know i’m inconsistent w my replies sometimes cause i just get anxiety about answering messages, but honestly hit me up if you need to and we can talk. i’m always here.

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