#definitely not feeling my best lately

[chemblrish]

x

#definitely not feeling my best lately #the end of the semester is always hard #bc understandably im tired #but have to study more than during the semester for the upcoming finals #but really it's more than that #ive been trying to make peace with who i am academically but it seems impossible #i can't fit in anywhere #not with the ~great~ students bc im not good enough #not with the indifferent students bc i study all the time #and there's this prof who thinks im deliberately downplaying my skills #which is both frustrating and painful bc im literally giving it my best already #im just not that smart!! #you know i was positively excellent back in school #and now im average #not bc im not trying #im doing my absolute best! #what else am i supposed to do? #so now it feels like befriending my lab partner was a mistake #i adore her but she's so brilliant and i feel like im dragging her down with me #it also feels like asking my favorite professor to be my thesis supervisor was a mistake too #bc i adore him as well and he thinks way too highly of me #and i am so going to let him down #oof #txt

[sonknuxadow]

GAY ANIMALS JUMPSCARE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#feel a little embarrassed posting this but whatever. im cringe but im free #this can be mutual or it can be one sided on knuckles end . whichever you prefer or think is funnier #sonic the hedgehog #sth #knuckles the echidna #sonic the werehog #sonknux #sonuckles #my art #hands and arms definitely look a little weird but i tried my best. #and you can only get better at drawing things by making yourself draw it even if it looks bad. or something #werehog wednesday #its still wednesday. just really late in the day because this took me a bit to finish

[sketchncanto]

No more happily reunited Bruno. I want sad, lonely, isolated Bruno. ANGST ANGST ANGST!!! JK, love your work.

Y’know what? Y’all want angst?— FINE

#LOL I was being dramatic #these were really fun to do though #I’ve been pretty down lately so i figured now would be the best time to draw some angst lol #to answer that second question #yes i love angst but i don’t draw it that often unless im really in the mood to #it’s hard for me to draw grief and sorrow on a normal/neutral day #i have to be a little sad and angsty myself to really feel it y’know? #so #here’s the result! #im not an evil bruno stan #but im definitely an angsty bruno stan 🤌🏼 #i can’t see a universe where he’s evil #the source material is too pure LMAO have you seen his EYES #there’s not a single evil bone in that mans little string bean body #ask #my encanto fanart

[kaeyx]

watching Knight chuuya undress and dispose of his armour while you're waiting for him to crawl into bed beside you and you get the treat of seeing him in the skintight black covers they use under the amour, the slight turtle neck and watching as he rolls up his sleeves to put his hair up so it's not too tangled in the morning

getting to feel his hands wrap around your waist and pull you close to him as he mumbles in a groggy tone about how tired he is from work, how he's so glad he can come home to you. his hand traces up to cup your cheek, its slightly rough from combat, you can assume. but its so warm and he knows you enjoy it on you.

being pulled into a kiss and getting to feel him subconsciously wrap a hand around your neck, pulling you closer while he drums on the sides of your neck..... sigh ........

🌱

Agosufsjdja oh 🌱 anon your mind,,,, you make me WEAK!! Watching his deft fingers undo all the clasps and straps holding his armour on, the heavy clanks of each piece as he sets them down, the gentle clinking of chainmail as he lifts it over his head. Stripping off the tunic he's wearing underneath and hastily shrugging on his bedclothes before he gets into bed with you. His hands are rough from training and yours rough with house and yardwork but neither of you mind, his fingers find their place around your neck and waist as he kisses you desperately, murmuring how much he missed you.

#chuuya.bsd #knight!chuuya #🌱 anon #he makes me INSANEEEEEEEE #i went for high medieval period attire! i feel like that or early medieval suits him the best #i just don't see him in the more ornate late medieval styles #high medieval is thst sweet spot between looking like a Skyrim npc and your armour being mostly decorative imo #with the caveat that 15th century gothic armour will forever have my heart #my personal favourite medieval helmet styles are barbuta and great helms. also armet #ignore the historical inaccuracies of one guy taking his armour off all on his own you were typically helped by servants #also ignore that a knight's spouse would definitely not do that much yardwork

[newvegascowboy]

in yalls opinion, where does the line between "im being a good friend and helping them out no matter what" vs "this person is using me and i don't notice" occur?

#not fallout #kal talks #this has been pointed out to me about a relationship i have several times lately #and idk how to address it #because this is my best and oldest friend. i know this person and i trust this person #but several people have said this to me about them over the last few months #and like... i dont FEEL like this person is using me #i dont feel like our relationship is uneven i guess. i know their circumstances and its been bad for a long time #and i want to say ive supported them no matter what #because again theyre my best friend #but there have definitely been points in my past where i let people use me or manipulate me or lie to me #and im like 'well theyre my friend surely this isnt a bad thing or a red flag' #like. idk. this has been weighing on me recently #i have no idea how to bring it up with them

[nyhti]

Them <333

The Brave and the Bold #184

#i love it when there's an emotional aspect to their relationship #too many writers write their relationship as purely transactional #bruce gets information and protection from gordon #and gordon gets criminals off the streets #you can tell they definitely like what they get from each other #but do they actually like each other? #are they actually friends or just coworkers? #i live for moments like these where the writer is brave enough to show that they truly care for one another #where they are shown to trust each other and feel comfortable around each other enough to show emotion and vulnerability #in general i think their relationship was at it's best around this time during late bronze age #nearly every issue during the hamilton hill mayor saga was like: #gordon: i'm no longer commissioner ): #bruce *pulling him close*: YOU'RE THE COMMISSIONER OF MY HEART!!

[gothamghostwhispers]

I think I’m going to go break things at the dump, anyone want anything from there?

#whispers #only in gotham #only in gotham rp #not bringing any money cause I will definitely be out late enough to be mugged lol #but best way to process rage I hear #and while some of the fear toxin led to discovereries of who I value in my life it also brought up a lot of things I’m angry about #so I’m going to break things and see how I feel after

[luvrbunni]

ik ive not been active at all anyways sort of explanation/me complaining in tags

#i have gotten progressively worse lately in terms of physical health and its just taken a lot out of me tbh #over the past few months ive developed chronic pain and fatigue drs still arent sure if its fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue but whatev #in any case ive been in tremendous pain everywhere it's not been fun at all #i also have this new thing where i get a tremor if i hold things too hard and while it is relatively painless it still is making life harde #esp since i am an art student so im kind of stuck not rly knowing what to do atp #ive just not been in the best mindset and while i recognise that disability is not ugly in any way i do just feel harder to love now #like i dont think my personality is fun enough to make up for all this idk if that makes any real sense #ive also been temporarily put on birth control its a long story but it's only until i get scheduled for a minor surgery most probably #but yanno birth control has unfun side effects and i feel like im going crazy most days #ik this all probably sounds pretty silly but idk. its been hard to feel genuinely attractive lately. #forgot to add this but there was some other stuff that happened thats definitely effecting just my self image and libido and stuff lately #long story short someone i trusted ended up crossing multiple physical boundaries and passed uncomfortable comments abt me and similar shit #its not been fun to deal with in any way yk?

[rosicheeks]

hi Princess

i hope you are doing well

please tell us a little about your new job with the doggies!

#here are a few pictures from today 🥰🫶 #I have SO many pictures now it’s crazy #I should probably go through them cause I’m sure a lot of them are blurry but some are gems I must say #my favorite parts are probably when my yard is quiet and calm for a little bit (usually at night) and I sit down #and usually a bunch of them come rushing over to sit next to me #I can’t tell you how much I love it when a puppy lays on me or sits on my lap #it’s the best 🥰 #there are definitely a few challenges to the job but I’m sure I’ll be able to deal #the hard part is it doesn’t give me enough hours and I don’t think it’ll be enough $$ either #so I’m gonna have to find another job which really really sucks #I’m already so exhausted with this one idk how I’m gonna juggle another one on top of it #but I need to figure out a way to get my own car and move out of my parents place #I love my parents so much but why can’t they just let me be me? #my friend literally said it sounds like they’re putting me on a leash and that’s EXACTLY what it feels like #not gonna get into it but it’s been rough lately #life hasn’t been the best so I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet lately #haven’t replied to anyone in awhile #but thankfully work has been good and I’ve been able to meet some amazing angels 🫶🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️ #I just wish it paid better #also gotta figure out a way to wear my headset so it doesn’t trigger my migraines cause that’s been a struggle #really really REALLY hope one day I’m able to get my own puppy but at least for now I get to take care of other dogs 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #ask #thanks for asking 🫶

[averinthine]

grappling with the question of "okay i've been too disabled to work for like a year with no signs of that changing, but what should i actually Do with my time that might be in some way slightly fulfilling without causing The Woes". getting back into music has been one answer, but i need at least one other. i'm thinking that learning a language really properly might be the most promising idea.

#portuguese seems to resonate pretty well with my brain from what i know of it #there are other languages that would also interest me a lot #but i think it would be best to avoid the difficulty curves that come with unfamiliar scripts or completely different language families #just so i can maintain momentum in the early stages without losing interest #nzsl and te reo māori are of course the locally-relevant options and i definitely do want to build up my understanding of those too #i've just been feeling a lot of wanderlust lately and learning a 'foreign' language might sate that somewhat

[rinhaler]

the fall of the house of usher AU with the todorokis

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #i cant stop thinking abt how good it was holy moly #im SO hit and miss with mike flanagan but i rly rly enjoyed it all #VICTORINES EPISODE WOW #i love how shitty the wholeeee family is i feel like u could definitely do something fun with that plot for an AU with the todorokis #touya would be napoleon #like i will not accept any other character for him #i havent thought abt the rest but this concept is so so sooo fun i love messy family stuff #i heard someone say it reminded them of succession which ive never seen so #maybe i should watch succession #ANYWAY i hope ur all good sorry i havent been as chatty lately #my anxiety has been so bad after my friendship breakup #im still goin thru it and my emotions are a rollercoaster but im doing my best yk #i am gonna try and get back into writing and creating stuff #hopefully will have something to post today or tomorrow #im editing a draft i had from before all of the drama so fingers crossed!! #take care of urselves and have nice days everybody mwah mwah

[seventh-district]

i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t. #it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

[lhrry]

reblog this with your favourite song(s) from each 1d album please it’s for science

#ive been listening to so much 1d for comfort lately #up all night would be wmyb more than this and moments #take me home is tougher actually #change my mind over again or #rock me bc it’s a bop #midnight memories is a game changer it’s so difficult but right now 100% one of the best songs they ever put out #dont forget where you belong and #happily and strong and through the dark and why don’t we go there idk y’all midnight memories is full of bangers #four definitely ready to run #girl almighty where do broken hearts go #fools gold and honorable mentions to fireproof and no control #and mitam is not fair I’m not choosing #end of the day and if I could fly are probably never going to be topped #but then you also have what a feeling and walking in the wind and Am and Olivia and yeah I’m not choosing because I also count home as a #part of mitam bc I can

[helenhuntingdon]

Of course another lesbian show was cancelled

#I actually like the l word generation q a lot #though I'm not caught up but I'm not in america lol #Idk if it's the best recent lesbian or queer women show #but yeah when they're pretty much all cancelled that is definitely a thing #yeah they may do new things #but personally I don't watch shows with 1 season often if they may get cancelled on a cliffhanger or some shit #unless they are really good or obvs if they're meant to be 1 season #I'm not wasting time to watch an unfinished story to be mad at the potential #so I and many others won't watch the shows cancelled after 1 season either it's sad for those shows #sorry for you lesbians #and personally I feel like lately I'm watching a lot more (possible) queer men and that's not a conscious choice at all #but when I think about it it's like what current queer women show would I even watch??? so that makes sense now lmfao #911 obvs has a lesbian couple and station 19 has a queer woman couple and grey's has a queer couple and prob soon another #love them queer women lots but they're not all exactly leads #a league of their own obvs I forgot then it wasn't cancelled just will have 4 eps lmfao this is all so ridiculous #and I don't even want to watch new queer women shows rn I want to continue watchin those great ones till they end #gentleman jack most comes to mind as a show everyone loved even my str8 parents and yet????? #this is just a rant this is what this is here for SIGH

[kittykatinabag]

Lol you can pinpoint the exact moment my mental started tanking at the end of last year.

#late night ramblings #the best decision that 22 year old me made after college was over was to start tracking her mood #now i have so much data from mid 2018 to present day #its not perfect as i tend to use the 'meh' emotions as stand ins for both depressive episodes and somewhat neutral things #but so much of my depression is just feeling meh #not horrible enough to dip into the lower 2 stratums but definitely not good #the only limitation to this app is that i cant add another bucket to make it 6 stratums of emotions #that would solve the using the meh stratum for both depression and neutral #it would be more like those scales where theres disagree slightly and agree slightly

[todayisafridaynight]

SORRY in advance for the long ask pleeease take your time and take care, I hope you feel better + get to have a good time at the con or hanging out with your dad :( It means the world to me that you enjoy my stuff though! It did take me a while to notice you were even following me (hence. @ing you on a post you'd already seen gdjfshld) but we got there eventually...

Definitely definitely was expecting to see more of Infinite Wealth at the summit… since the tweets mentioned character introductions but didn't specify for which game, I was under the impression we'd at least be introduced to the as-yet-unidentified voices in the trailer. Gameplay would've been HUGE to include too 😩 I guess it makes enough sense though, since it's not The Upcoming Release...

I shall bide my time. I have no idea what to expect from fall summit (as intended). But if it's going to be a seasonal thing, I figure a potential "winter summit" is the latest it could be to show us gameplay for something that's suppsed to be an early 2024 release, if not just putting out trailers or other showcases and stuff independently.

LEGIT THOUGH IT JUST MAKES IT SOUND LIKE KIRYU IS LYING TO SOUND COOL GDJSKGLDS which is also Arakawa-esque… "maybe I felt like impressing an idiot kid"… If nothing else, I feel like I'll enjoy the dynamic they're going for with those two. Specifically casting Kiryu as a "big brother" figure rather than a father figure also makes me WEEP because the only "aniki" Ichi's ever had is Jo. So it's like... from Jo to Joryu...

Also I just really like the acting choices by the mocap actor for Kiryu, I feel like we've never really seen him move that… casually? His mannerisms also 100% make him look like he's lying lol like there are multiple "tells" it's so funny

I glossed over the proposal (because I expected that to be the main topic anyway, being the only dialogue scene we got) but I completely agree with everything that's been said, basically. Reverse chick magnet for life… but I do expect there's more to it than meets the eye because summit is pretty focused on "generating buzz," so the fact it feels so out of place is probably what they were banking on.

Because like, on top of everything mentioned, Ichiban is portrayed as an entirely passive participant in the romances in 7, and IIRC for Saeko and Eri he wasn't really even fully aware they were into him. So for him to not only be the one to propose but bomb so hard a seasoned hostess (as Kiryu points out in JP)--who'd rather be groped than subjected to Weird Shit--blew up at him and there was fallout from Adachi and Nanba is a huge deviation from how he's portrayed.

It's also kind of like, to me, the translation says something a little different than what was actually being said; Ichi's emphasis wasn't really on the fact she rejected him (implying he expected her to accept + placing more importance on his own feelings vs hers), but the fact she "chewed him out" (implying he should've known better in the first place than to ask).

Of course, he's apparently planning on trying again so he is hoping she'll accept eventually, and the general tone of the interaction suggests he should've known better regardless, but both say something slightly different about his characterization in this scene to me. There's also TL weirdness with Ichi saying Kiryu seems like a good dude rather than just… him explaining that he doesn't mean anything bad by saying he doesn't seem like a ladies' man, which is a bigger mistake but less consequential, I guess.

There's also Saeko's line from the original teaser, "You say that like you're proposing," so it would seem she's already caught off guard (i.e. not taking it seriously yet) and not too thrilled with the idea (provided it's the same convo). I don't really have much to go off of, but if they are in a relationship, I can only assume either she's made it clear she doesn't want to get married or his proposal method was just That Bad, or they're not in a relationship.

In the latter case all I have to pull from is other media with characters who are somewhat like Ichi, but it made me think of times I've seen characters propose for legal or financial reasons or etc. and get Totally Owned, and I'd honestly find that a believable Ichi Situation… Ichi thinking like 50 steps ahead and not explaining himself properly and just Making Saeko More Mad… I'm just musing, though.

Yokoyama and co. were--if I heard right--being pretty cagey about whether they ARE in a relationship in the first place though, which strikes me as odd compared to RGGS' openness about Kaito's ex in the Lost Judgment DLC. So… definitely not beating the red herring allegations just yet, at any rate. Especially when said DLC involves a fake-out on a proposal lmao

Putting all that aside since we can't make any definitive statements anyway, I AM going to make the definitive statement that literally every single design in Gaiden so far is indeed drippy as hell.

such is the cruel fate of being shadowbanned on this webbed site I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream etc etc ( ╯-╰ ; ) but we did get there! and i very much do enjoy what you post :]

if there's nothing for fall summit (though i'm going to hope a lil there will be since that's what. three months from now) then there'll definitely be something for winter summit. if the idea is that there's more of a focus on gaiden since its release date is sooner, then it's fair to assume- with that logic- the winter one'll have the bulk of LAD8 news and demos. either way, im excited for both to see what both of them bring us !

ignoring the elephant in the room of the proposal thing, i also really liked the vibe of it all (and ive also been trying reeaaally hard to make a joke connecting jo and joryu since that's also a bit i enjoy) (❁´◡`❁) i did like that lowkey feel and just the casualness of the atmosphere and the slight awkward/uncomfortable-but-not-overly-offended-and-even-minorly-comedic energy from kiryu lmao. cant ever go wrong with having a scene that's there to slow everythin down a bit, and it does help set up a kind of homely/familial vibe ♪(´▽｀)

i dont need to comment any more on the proposal thing either LMAO everything ima say i been repeating for the past. X asks 😩

and with that. yeah everyone looks FIRE as hell in gaiden (EXCEPT nishitani ima be 100%.... idk the loud primary colors aren't doing it for me.... points for the nails and hair though) 😩

#long post #snap chats #laying down when youre gloomy is dangerous i passed out despite really hating naps jLAEKJ #my dad texted me today saying we wouldn't be able to hang out and i was reminded to answer this ask gjVLKJLKWEJ #needless to say im still not having the best of days. or months apparently ☠️ but moving on from all that #uhh. yeah no i think i said everything i need to say #im pushing my brain to think of anything to say im really out of it #i know if i dont do it now tho i never will cause when i shirk somethin its virtually nonexistent in my mind ajrLKjVLK #at the very least the 'ladies man' comment is definitely not. 'less consequential' if twitter is anything to say LMAO #mostly just jokes of course ik ik For Real Non Consequential but my eyes are still seeing it every other post SO. #on that note. i forgot my personal rule of not commenting on scripts OH NO #i dont understand japanese and at this point i cant trust what english translators provide and evidently the differences can be big #sooo im just gonna. eat shit i guess LMAO IDK #i already done said i have no more notes bout the proposal bit and i dont #i can just say Yeah Thats About Right when it comes to agreeing with whats been said #just feels underwhelming to only say that tho.... but theres no other way i can say it without restating #i myself just feel underwhelming as of late but thats a personal ish jALKJKLJ #in any case my dad said he'd send me pizza money as an apology or something and tbh ive been craving pizza all week anyway for some reason #even if he doesnt i might just get a small pizza for myself and then only eat a third of it cause my stomach's the size of a peanut