#deanjohn smut

[missmisdemeanor]

Happy DFF Lana! I'm going to go for a horny question bc my brain is fried, what's John's favourite way to fuck Dean? Position, hard/slow, little idiosyncrasies... tell me the gross 👀

so this got away from me a little. smut under the cut.

It’s– God, almost four in the morning and neither of them have slept. John’s insomnia is an old beast, its teeth worn down from gnawing at him over the course of two decades. Dean’s is a brand new animal, and it’s teething. It bites red rings under his eldest son’s eyes, visible as Dean sits at the motel desk cleaning another gun. He’s given up any pretense of going to sleep, just like last night and the night before. Three nights prior, they’d finished the last of their store of sleeping pills.

John watches him from the unmade bed. They only get one-bed rooms these days, with Sam gone. John watches him, like he has for years. And it’s a dance. Dean sways subtly, arm pulling back. He puts the gun down. John follows arm with eyes in a fluid motion. “Dean,” he calls, lips loose around the syllable.

“Go to sleep,” Dean rasps. Every word is forced through the front of his throat.

“You know I can’t.”

John’s lips turn up. Dean is particularly beautiful in the low light, in the early hours, with red-ringed eyes and subtly shaking limbs. Like John, he’s scuffed from their years of violent life, like a rock endlessly tumbling down a jagged mountain, gathering chips and scratches along the way. His shattered edges soften under lamplight, under a haze of sleeplessness. Fog fills his voice and his body echoes a sort of delicateness it hasn’t truly held since he carried Sam out of the fire.

“Yeah,” Dean chuckles. Dry. There’s a sink in the bathroom, but he hasn’t had a sip of water in twelve hours, easy. Just one beer and a couple cigarettes. “I know.”

“Come here,” John says. Gentle, always gentle. Dean doesn’t fight like Sam does–or rather did. And John’s instruction is a plea far more than a command. He remembers Dean younger, standing with hands on John’s knee, seated. Dad, are you okay? Teenaged, a broader palm on John’s shoulder. Hey. Let’s all relax, alright? To Dean, the face of a put-together father has always been made of glass. 

He sees the man John is, so John doesn't try to hide it.

Dean sighs. Wordlessly, he stands on weak bowlegs. His feet are silent on the motel’s brown wall-to-wall carpet, and he sits next to John in bed.

“There you are,” John smiles. Dean doesn’t brush it off, not with a laugh or by moving away. 

This is routine– one two three, one two three. John sits up and his fingers dance along Dean’s jaw, across the coarse stubble he hasn’t bothered shaving. Dean’s hands pull John’s shirt off, almost like a parent helping a child change clothes. It’s not hungry, not insistent. Not yet.

John coaxes Dean from his cotton tee in turn, runs rough hands up Dean’s scarred sides. It’s redundant at this point to call him beautiful. Maybe the words leach out of John’s admiring eyes. 

Jeans and boxers too are discarded, and Dean’s legs are almost as hairy as John’s these days. Dean has John’s blunt jaw and his soft stomach. He has his mother’s eyes.

Dean’s legs come over John’s and press their cocks together. The hair on Dean’s is lighter, and it curves the opposite way if you really pay attention. Which John does. He’s made a mental study of Dean so meticulous and for so many years it could constitute a doctorate. His hand reaches out first, hairy-knuckled and gnarled as a storm-worn oak. It wraps around them both, stroking slow, breathing life into soft, tired bodies. 

Dean’s hand wraps on top of John’s, softer palms from youth but certainly not easy living. Slow, ever-tighter. They groan in unison, breathing heavily. When John looks up into Dean’s eyes, they’re half-lidded, his pupils blown wider than they were even with the room so dim. His cock’s hardening in John’s hand, the tip turning a stunning shade of pink-red. John’s cock fills half from pleasure and half from watching Dean, the way his stomach folds as he gets comfortable and his hips start rocking. His palm’s getting sweaty against the back of John’s hand.

John’s the first to break the relative silence. “Fuck…I could come like this.”

Dean grunts. A swarm of red bees descends on his summer-peach cheeks. They flit invisibly fast wings against his neck, up to his ears. “Don’t,” his voice buzzes, low. He leans into John’s shoulder and rests his warm chin there. 

John’s hand stills. “Holding out for something better?”

Dean shakes his head. His hair’s getting shaggy. John likes to put his fingers in it, and he doesn’t hold back from doing so now. “Yeah.” He breathes out in a stream, like blowing out a birthday candle. “Fuck me.”

They never say make love. They don’t kiss particularly often either. Dean doesn’t ham up his fuck me though, it’s gruff and sincere. John presses cracked lips to Dean’s oily hairline, that much is okay. “Of course.”

Dean situates himself like he has for months of late nights, stomach flat to the sheets. John takes the lube off the nightstand. They’d left it on top of the motel’s stationery the day they got there. A week ago, maybe. Stomach-to-back is their favourite position, and John doesn’t know how much of that is about avoiding each other’s eyes.

In any case, he’s dutiful. He owes that to Dean, who stuck around, who still hasn’t turned on him even though he doesn’t sleep anymore. Sam’s the one ghost they can’t hunt down. John squirts lube onto his fingers and presses them to Dean’s rim, pushes in with little preamble. The slide’s easy. Practised. 

Dean grunts, he lifts his hips off the mattress slightly. John curls two fingers inside him, spreading them apart slightly. He presses where he knows Dean likes it, and Dean moans into the sheets ever-so-quietly. John doesn’t miss details though. For once, he’s grateful to be hypervigilant. 

“Come on,” Dean complains, and it makes John laugh.

“Alright, calm down. I got you.”

Fucking Dean is a feeling like nothing else in the world. His tight rim chokes John’s cock as he pushes in, and he’s so soft and warm inside. Dean likes it wet, and the lube squelches as John starts thrusting into him. Pure bliss.

He's pressed to Dean’s back, coarse chest hair against the thin hair between Dean’s shoulder blades. It tugs as John moves, it hurts a little. “Oh, Dean…”

“Mm…” Dean ruts into the mattress and back up against John, up and down. John licks the side of his neck, tastes the cold sweat of his insomnia against the hot skin of arousal. He sinks his teeth into Dean’s shoulder, a claim.

Dean responds so sweetly to being touched. He’s good, so good. John pants in his ear and indulges himself, slow and deep. “Baby,” John groans, holding strong hips.

John likes being right here, feeling every one of Dean’s muscles activate as he writhes, searching desperately for more pleasure. He likes the feeling of Dean’s low, curved back, the way his round stomach fits right in that dip like they were made to slot together.

Clothes on the floor, diagonal on the bed. John leans forward to smell Dean’s breath as he exhales and it’s gross, sour and still lingering with cigarette smoke. 

“Love you,” John sighs, and Dean mumbles it back into the sheets. They’ve been saying it a lot more lately.

John picks up the pace, still with long, deep thrusts. He wants to feel the slide from base to tip. Dean moans openly, face full of fabric, arching his hips up for more. On another day, John might’ve teased him. Slut, good boy. You just love Daddy’s cock, don’t you? 

Not tonight. 

Dean’s body goes so lax under John’s he could be falling asleep. He isn’t, with the way those raw-throated noises carry on. “Touch me,” Dean asks, low and husky, and John could never say no.

He reaches a hand underneath to stroke Dean’s cock, appreciatively humming at how hard and wet with precome it is. He’s made the sheets wet too. Messy boy. “Mine,” John groans, canting his hips without finesse. “Close…”

“Mhh,” Dean tilts his head up to breathe properly as John squeezes his cock, thumbs at the tip, fucks deep into his wet asshole.

John comes hard, his abdomen tensing against Dean’s back. The tingling warmth spreads through all of his limbs. He stays still there as he finishes Dean off, which takes another minute of jerking him off and biting at his neck.

Dean’s especially beautiful when he comes, to the point where John likes Dean’s orgasms more than his own. His whole body shakes and he gasps, and John feels the spurts of wet come between his hand and the bed.

When he pulls out, Dean’s half asleep already. They’re not going to talk about it.

They never do.

#lana's box #dadfucker friday #deanjohn smut #it's kind of angsty sorryyy

[laikuh]

It’s kinda funny I don’t think I ever skip smut scenes for deanjohn because the writers I read are always so fucking good at writing the two of them and the intricacies of their intimacies.

But god help me reading smut for more conventional pairings. I literally skip those scenes/chapters 90% of the time.

#they’re so BORING #deanjohn smut is both hot AND interesting tho #anyway random observations I make while reading 00q #deanjohn

[bredforloyalty]

Hii would you like to share your favourite fics?? In any fandoms tbh i just trust your taste a lot 🫣

oh i am an animal i don't think i have good taste i have the taste of someone who's always horny and a teeeeny tiny bit fucked in the head jcsgbhy but i'm honored you asked and i'll share<33 you said you don't care if it's more smut or more plot so i didn't worry too much about that 👍

first off, a warning: most of these are explicit, involve incest, rape, child sexual abuse, and more!!! also most of them are on the shorter side + all are male slash! you'll be able to tell based on the pairing and the concept (i'll describe them a little) so just go by common sense and, idk. beware ahaha i'll go from some pairings to assorted and then the rick and morty ones will be under the read more (i feel like i can't leave them out because some of them genuinely made me insane and changed me as a person or allowed me catharsis like very very few fics before and even though it's repulsive to most others i can't deny that. there are big favorites in there. favorites of all time if i'm being fully honest). let's go..

gcest:

ghost dancer - by the lovely and talented rye @ supersonic1994!!!! noel overdoses on coke. i looove the image of kissing your brother when you think you're about to lose him forever,, does that make sense? love is love is love when one is desperate and if it's deep then it can transcend taboos and boundaries of self and all that shit. you know

things we never see - told through jill furmanovsky, their photographer, noel comes back (after they had almost broken up and he went to san fran without telling anyone). when it comes to them i do love an outsider pov. speaking of outsider pov,

you never notice you are blind - five times alan mcgee thinks he catches something between them and one time he definitely does. it is what it is

i don't really want to know - Nawt consensual, made me a bit sad hehe liam is not sick like him

some that are like, unhealthy jealousy possessiveness dubcon angst and so on: sins like scarlet, fishhook, what am i gonna dream now

samdean:

hungry til well fed - by the wonderful bug @ deanjohn (and mandymovie)!!! iconic cannibalism fic, just so them

brighter wound - wound blood pain codependency babeyyy

take the things you love - hathfrozen is iconic also.. i loved the heaven fic (you'll find it. if you want) but i want to share this because i like how conflicted sam is about their relationship and about the way dean treats him. smutty though

manhattan for beads - what i wrote down is this is the one where they try and it doesn't work and it's heartbreaking. so yeah candle_beck can be trusted w spn, iconic too

serpent round your heart - one of the first ones i read haha ^^

deanjohn:

where the evening splits in half - bug fic also!! all of bug's fics are great do check them out if you're interested in this pairing or dadson at all, seriously.. "Sam says, "I know how you felt about the man." No, he doesn’t. He doesn’t know that Dad was a pig. He has no idea how far down Dean was in the mud with him. How dirty they both were, how much Dad ruined him."

midnight midnight - first time, dean hooks up with men so john can take blackmail pics and he gets jealous and yeah, hooray

and you learn how to settle for what you get - sex again but they're fucked up so it's always fucked up. dean never asked for it

waltjesse:

like i'm underwater - by the amazing @ kuleaxoxo!! yayyy power imbalance!! "Mister White's showing him off, isn't he?"

monaco - jesse gifts walt the watch. dubcon

i'm asking you to - rape roleplay, ignored safeword

others:

countercontrol - terence fletcher/andrew neiman, "Andrew leaves; but he always comes back. He likes to think that it’s of his own accord. But then he thinks of those paintings of staircases with the optical illusion of the stairs going nowhere except winding into each other, going the same place again and again, and ultimately going nowhere."

beach fag - roman roy/jeryd mencken, "Roman wishes he was a kid with an adult boyfriend."

the serpent under it - aaron stampler/martin vail, look i fucking love primal fear this is post-canon they get together etc. important to me

simple pleasures - edward nygma/bruce wayne, this is a big favorite i can't leave it out because when this was um coming out i was fucking obsessed. it's long i don't even read long fics

there's a head in the refrigerator - michael afton/william afton, this one's sort of self-explanatory..... i felt we needed necrophilia representation here

rick and morty:

bitter and begging - FAVE.. after the jealousy and possessiveness in vindicators 3 (the episode with the avengers copies that morty is enamoured with. who rick slaughters when he's off his shit and then covertly confesses how much he loves morty basically). this one really got me i think i cried because it's all so sad but um. full of love

that's my boy - this is the first of a series, i like that it's the start of.. the sexual abuse and they're still uncertain like i enjoy the in-betweens and when lines are crossed

love is a solitary thing - this one i love so much, it's about morty's fantasies and unrequited feelings for rick

safe - gen, morty starts talking with another morty whose rick rescues mortys from abusive ricks. i always really liked how the multiverse is like a prism? you can explore the different facets of their relationship and the possibilities and the extremes through it, you can have your characters meet their worst and their best versions, i just think selves from different dimensions are a great tool. in storytelling. and eliciting emotions. anyway rovingotter is fucking solid here

hands - a favorite.. the atmosphere... "He wonders if he'll still be sitting here in ten years, handing Rick his screwdrivers, feeling that hot instinctive rush of pleasure at knowing what Rick is going to ask from him before he even asks: bred for it."

the shape you made me - morty's stream of consciousness. i usually don't give stuff like this a chance but when i tell you that this affected me. because fuck it did affect me

the damage has been done - um..... internal cardiac massage fic 🥴

repurposed - "Is it ethical to leave the horrors of the universe at a boy's fingertips?"

and last but NOT least there's this series that i haven't read in full, just a little bit broken, that fucking killed me. tbh! i sobbed at some parts legitimately. maybe that's just on me i don't know maybe it isn't. the first 5 are crazy. admittedly alcoholism runs in my family too (lol!) and their relationship is so tragic.... this fic is about when rick quite literally stole the kid's dreams, concocted an entire plan to erode morty's love of heists and make him stop writing his heist movie script (and having any aspirations or plans outside of rick). when i watched that episode these are exactly the emotions i wanted more of.. it's madness......

#thanks for the ask 💞 sorry it took me ages haha #i haven't reread some of these in a while (or at all..) so if i find out they're bad i'll apologize later HXDGCY #ask

[boywifesammy]

little game inspired by a year wrap up post by @preseriesdean :) saw posts from @lovetransaction & @imnot-evenhere so here’s mine <3

Rules: list your top 5 creations you made for this year. Creations can include any type of fic, any type of art, webweaves/comparatives, meta/headcanon posts, gifsets/edits, fanvids, playlists - anything that contributed to the fandom. These don't have to be your most popular - just the ones you love best.

kitchen fork samifer fanvid - my first amv type edit! i haven’t edited in a longgg long time but this idea just took me by the throat and screamed to be realized. hell trauma arc is my fav sam plotline hands down and i loveee love love the implications & fan material about it so i wanted to contribute :)

we don’t talk about it (deanjohn) - MY FAV FIC that ive written!! :) i love love love this fic & im super satisfied with how it came out. i experimented with a 2nd POV bc i saw some other deanjohn fics use it and i think it fits perfectly. its also angsty smut which is just soo. ugh. i love angsty smutty deanjohn & i think i created something equally haunting & enticing with this one.

smoke-soaked leather (wincest) - my first spn fic! it’s a slowburn casefic that’s set during s1. i focused on dean’s self worth issues here. i wanted to write in his self harm in a way that’d be canon accurate while also focusing on how its actually serious self injurious behaviour. i think i did a good balancing act here, plus im proud of the case fic it came together nicely uwu

rend apart the flesh of my soul (wincest) - woundfucking smut baybeeee!!!! this is purely hedonistic (but also angsty because of course it is) but its one of my favs. sooo visceral and gut wrenching in a very sexy way. gotta love early szns for its insanity.

closeted transfem dean hc - my ramblings about dean through the series if he was mtf. angsty ending bc in this hc she never does come out or accept herself. i constantly think about this hc and im in the process of writing a fic about it that will hopefully be out next year !!

tagging @sicksam @rottingsam @hellhoundlair @transboysammy :) show me ur stuff!! (and if uve already done this, tag me in the comments so i can see :>)

#oc #supernatural #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #wincest #fic rec

[seanwinchester]

happy wincest wednesday! what would you say is your brand of wincest? your ideal wincest?

happy wincest wednesday!! (sorry I'm a day late)

Not sure exactly what you mean by "brand" of wincest though. Do you mean 'brand' as in pairing (samdean, deanjohn, sammary, etc.), as in era (stanford era, weechesters, late seasons, etc.), as in dynamic (who tops and who bottoms), as in sexual and/or romantic involvement (weirdcest/wincest, fluff/explicit, etc), or as in tropes/aus/plot devices?

I'm assuming you mean that as in what gives me the most brainworms, what kinds of stories I tend to seek the most. And to that I say, all of the above!! ;)

See, I'm the very easy-to-please kind of gal, I'll read just about anything as long as it's not too ooc and well-written, and I rarely shy away from discovering new ships and kinks.

If I really had to describe my "ideal" brand of wincest though, it would be samdean (obviously), top!sam/bottom!dean (90% of the time), canon-compliant, and happening within the timeline of the show. I like fluff and smut alike, and everything in between. And as far as plot goes, I usually like my fics a little fucked up, and I like the boys pining after each other like idiots, with some heartbreak springled in there. The way I see wincest, they'll always be brothers first and lovers second, and that's what defines their whole relationship.

Albeit rather unspecific, I hope you got your answer anon! Thanks again for the ask <3

#wincest wednesday #wincest #ask #anon ask

[amiwritesthings]

hello hi happy daddyfucking friday!

if you've watched later seasons: do you think huntercorp dean and john are fucking?

if you haven't (or if you prefer this one): what's your favorite deanjohn fic or artwork?

hi angel this one actually got me thinking lol

i can see hc!dean and john fucking, yeah. like, in a world full of money and john being maybe a little more corrupted by it and a little sinister, it would probably be even more about power and control than it usually is.

john using sexual favors as currency whenever dean wants something expensive, getting dean off so he won't run off with the next best girl flashing him a little bit of skin (bc let's face it, spoilt brat!dean would fall into the trap of any golddigger coming his way, he's so easily distracted by shiny, pretty things).

idk i think the potential is definitely there.

and bc i'm a on a roll today:

my favorite deanjohn fic is what it is by @chinabluee i could live in it it is so gorgeous and sad and heartbreaking

and also from a pure smut perspective there is no i in team by @deanwinchesterdni it is so fucking delicious!!

and one of my favorite artworks is this beauty it is not inherently deanjohn but it is very much to me bc of the dog tags.

#deanjohn #dadfucker friday #thanks angel

[dean-coded-john-girl]

sometimes you just get to a point and like. words. i would like words please. spare me some words, ma’am? perhaps a sentence? i would settle for a fragment at this point

#i know where this is going just like getting it on paper is making me angry lol #smut is hard #mostly just bc like once your there #it isn’t too difficult #but the getting from point A to point B is what gets me #like what dialogue do i want to put next. how does john verbally respond to this? #physically i know where it’s going but the semantics are what’s eating at me #image #text #my post :3 #deanjohn #daddycest #these are just for organisation and warning i’m sorry that this is gonna show up in the tags

[laikuh]

also i wanna try writing deanjohn again, so i am opening myself up to prompts.

probably not feeling anything that's straight up smut, because that's not the vibe i have for them atm. not that sex can't be part of the prompts, but just like. idk kinda interested in exploring different scenarios for them, or different situations, than just sex scenes, if that makes sense.

#deanjohn #johndean #daddycest

[laikuh]

im still thinking of wild, and part of that is because i'm reading the sequel, free, too, and if you're curious this is the book i'm talking about.

i think if the deannajohn girlies can find a cheap copy of it somewhere, it's worth a read, BUT. it's very dramatic. and maybe it's stupid to be on my high horse about incest porn, but as someone who has read and written a lot of it, i do still believe the deanjohn folks do a much better job of writing that kind of content.

i said yesterday that the book lacks any nuance, and what i meant with that is that the book is just very much: fathers fucking daughters is hot. which, agreed. have y'all read my objectified!deanna verse? but i also think the book outright refuses to deal with the implications of fathers fucking daughters, and also it refuses to engage with why fathers fucking daughters can be hot. which, again, like i said last night, is essentially fine. it's a smut book, it is heavy on the smut. but i think it could have been a lot better if there had been more internal struggles for the characters, more examination of the power dynamics, more engagement with the way being out in the middle of the alaskan wilderness contributes to their fucking.

and like, webster does get into a little bit the idea that being out in the wild has removed the pressure of social norms, has turned them into wild creatures that function under their own rules. but....still.

and then you add to that major spoiler i'll put under the cut, it's just like. what was the point of any of this? who is this book for?

the daughter is adopted and not even blood related, so while it is CERTAINLY still incest in spirit, since the father raised her and entirely sees himself AS her father, it still undercuts the whole thing of the book. like, if you're going to write an infamous hard-to-get-affordably book about incest, and then say SIKE IT'S NOT TRUE INCEST then whaaaaat was the point?

#shut up vin

[laikuh]

in a smut writing mood. you know the drill.

eta: can probably fill prompts for

deanjohn

deanbobby

sammary

#i can probably fill three prompts with the way i'm feeling? #this is kind of the window #i'll take deanjohn or deanbobby #and i do have a samdeanna prompt in my inbox already for share the spoils that maybe i'll work on too #but that's a little more involved anon bc it's part of the series so if it's not answered today #that's why #i forgot to put sammary in the tags but if i add them there now they'll be buried by the others so #eta it to the main body

[laikuh]

so obvi i have been writing a lot of smut, and that’s quite fun and i don’t regret it. however, i’m wondering about challening myself to write some deanjohn that is completely absent of sex. tbh, not sure what it would look like, but i think it’s a worthwhile thing to explore. and i don’t mean that they aren’t having sex already, that it’s pre-intimacy. but that sex is very much part of their lives, just not part of this particular story. i like writing smut, indulging in the fact i find this content arousing. but i also know and believe and love that deanjohn is significantly more than any physical initmacy, and i’ve kind of gotten away from that recently. so yeah. that’s what im musing on right now.

#also i fucked up and posted the fic i was going to use for the writer asks #so i need to start something else so i have a fic to use lmao #deanjohn #daddycest

[laikuh]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Underage Relationships: Dean Winchester/John Winchester Additional Tags: Underage Drinking, Vomiting, Sharing a Bed Summary:

When Dean hears the voice, somehow booming above the din, he feels it like a bucket of ice poured down the back of his shirt. Bracing and awful.

“Dean Winchester.”

“Oh, shit,” Dean mumbles, and he can’t bring himself to turn towards the sound. He knows he won’t find anything good. 

But Dean’s father, never a very patient man when it came to his children, does not bother waiting for Dean to stand from the table and approach him. Before Dean can say another word, he feels the hand at his collar of his jacket tugging him up and out of the chair. He thinks the people at the table might say something, but then, everything seems so very quiet all of a sudden. Dean is so far out of it that he barely registers when John has dragged him out of the club, only noting the shift when the cool evening air hits his overheated cheeks. 

#deanjohn #johndean #daddycest #wait i wrote something else #im gonna miss having this much time to write ughghghghghgh #the teen rating is just for some nudity and language #in terms of smut this is a g

[amiwritesthings]

me: i will finish the heaven reunion and then take a break from writing.

also me: finishes heaven reunion, immediately starts writing smut

also also me: we don't have time for this.

also me: but. smut.

me: we're never taking a break, are we?

#my mind #i'm running on like 5 hours of sleep #while also basically running a company #but my mind demands smut #it cannot be stopped #writing #deanjohn

[laikuh]

lmao kinks are so fucking weird. I have no desire to be married or to be a wife or to have a wife, but I’m having to resist just dropping every responsibility I have to write more deanjohn wife kink like wtf is going on.

#daddycest #i want Dean being like Sam will be home any minute while John’s like fucking him on the couch #and John being like Sam knows husbands and wives make love #and just not caring #good morning I LITERALLY woke up and chose smut #deanjohn #marriedvibes

[laikuh]

i feel like deanjohn smut with john being super in his head about something and dean taking charge, dean getting to top, fucking john out of his headspace. bonus points for breathplay.

all right, dude. 30 years later i have filled this prompt. read it here!

#deanjohn #daddycest #johndean

[laikuh]

6 and 14 for the fic writing ask game?

6. Something you love to see in smut.

ohhhhhhh what do i love, what really gets my wheels going. if im being really honest, i love compulsive acts of sharing bodily fluids, which is so gross to write out and think about without the fog of arousal, but that's where my cum marking/cum play tends to come out (ha ha) in my writing, and it's why i like reading that in other stories. plus, i think this also connects to my lacatation kink, and also, as im likely going to write this one day and im tired of hiding it, i DO have a piss kink that's directly tied to this. because it's disgusting and weird, but the compulsive wanting to share or exchange or play with an abject bodily fluid is just a thing i'm almost guaranteed to like.

14. What aspect of writing have you had the most growth in?

lol, related, i think i've grown in my writing all around, but getting into the deanjohn fandom has 100% improved how i write smut, too. i used to avoid sex scenes, and now i write them often. i think the next step to improve is varying how i write them, and exploring different kinks and tropes, but in general, i know i've improved immensely in how i write smut.

thank you so much for the asks!!! <3

#just getting real honest now #eta changed wrong to weird #there’s no moral value on wanting someone to pee on you sorry not sorry