#cthulhuandthejellyfish

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So, I am cthulhuandthejellyfish on AO3 and I wanted to share of my fics with you guys on here! I took my most popular one from there and am posting it here! Please enjoy and remember to read the TW!

As a reminder, I write these based off of deeply emotional experiences that happened to me because my therapist said it was good for me. Enjoy my own personal angst.

Song is The Scientist by Coldplay

TW: Abuse, underage sex mentioned not described, manipulation, homophobia

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry

Izuku couldn’t believe Bakugou was choosing now to do this. He couldn’t believe that Bakugou got drunk enough to try and get back together with him, after all these years.

“Izuku-” Kaachan started.

“Don’t, don’t use my first name Kaachan.” Izuku was struggling to look him in the eyes. Kaachan had cornered him in the alleyway, his face beat red from the alcohol.

“I just want to say sorry,” He reached out and grabbed Izuku’s chin, “look at me, you damn nerd.” Classic Bakugou, he couldn’t stay civil for more than a couple of minutes. Izuku was already tired of this conversation.

Tonight was the UA class reunion and Izuku hadn’t planned on running into Bakugou, at least not like this. He figured that he was going to enjoy the night meeting up with busy friends and look stunning as Shouto’s arm candy. He thought that seeing Bakugou after all these years wouldn’t stir up old memories, but it did. Those same memories sat on his chest and made it hard to breathe, making his eyes water. Worst of all, those memories made him nauseous for all of the bullshit he let Kaachan put him through.

You don’t know how lovely you are, I had to find you, tell you I need you

“Please,” the sob cut through Izuku’s thoughts. “Please just hear me out Midoryia. Please, just let me tell you everything I’ve wanted to say for the past 5 years.” Tears were forming at the corners of Bakugou’s eyes. His form quivered and his palms were smoking.

“You don’t deserve it.”

“Five minutes is all I need.”

“No.” Izuku felt like his throat was caught in his throat. He was torn. Seeing Bakugou so torn up over him made his gut clench with guilt. However, the stronger side of him knew that this was just another form of manipulation.

“Fine. I’ll just talk,” Bakugou retained his cocky attitude, straightening his back.”I’m sorry for not treasuring you in High school. I should have been a better boyfriend than I was. My biggest regret is letting you go.” Bakugou set a gentle hand on Izuku’s cheek, stroking his cheek with a calloused thumb. His molten red eyes were lidded and soft. Seeing that face and being touched liked this set Izuku off.

“Your biggest regret is letting me go” Izuku felt the green electricity crackle with fury around him. He smacked Kaachan’s hand away from him and took a step forward. “You’d think your biggest regret was cheating on me and making me feel like it was my fault.” Izuku took another step forward.

“Izuku-”

“No! Your biggest regret should be the many times you manipulated me and humiliated me. It should be the fact you hid our relationship because you wanted to screw around!” Izuku was screaming now. Tears welled and spilled down his cheeks. Bakugou didn’t get to pretend that every terrible thing in their relationship didn’t happen. After a pregnant silence Bakugou spoke up.

“You think I hid our relationship so I could screw around?” Bakugou’s hands were smoking again. “I hid our relationship because no one knew I was gay!”

“Yet you bragged to everyone that you screwed around with Kirishima.” Izuku narrowed his eyes remembering the heartbroken redhead. He remembered how Kirishima cried to Izuku about how Bakugou screwed him then left him, about how he was nothing more than a failed experiment.

“That’s besides the point!” Bakugou was getting mad now. His spine was rimrod straight and his eyes were narrowed, focused solely on Midoriya.

“It’s not! You were a terrible boyfriend and you could never admit you were wrong. Even now you can’t own up to your mistakes!” Of course, Izuku wouldn’t miss how Bakugou focused on only one part of Izuku’s gripes.

“I just apologized,” Bakugou bit each word and spit them into Izuku’s face.

“You half assed your apology. I’m done here,” Izuku pushed past Bakugou and made way for the door. It was starting to get cold outside anyways.

“We’re not done here, nerd!” Bakugou’s voice faded as the door shut behind Izuku. He figured now would be the time to find Todoroki and get out of here.

No one ever said it would be this hard, Oh, take me back to the start

Izuku didn’t get the chance to find Todoroki before he had to run to the bathroom. He started to vomit every feeling he had into the toilet. Again, and again, and again until there was nothing left but numbness. Memories that were once long forgotten rushed back into his mind. Taunting him with happy and sad memories.

Memories like the times him and Bakugou made love at a young age. The secret the two of them held between each other until the fateful night that Kirishima came to him. The secret that Izuku thought was special between them seemed to be a secret Bakugou shared with everyone. Kirishima had walked in on Bakugou and some girl from class C. It was a shock to Izuku at the time. Yet, he stayed.

Memories like how Bakugou went on dates with women in public. Let them flirt with him in public. All those women who would fawn to Izuku about how amazing of a guy the terror of UA really was. How, one night Izuku slapped Bakugou for flirting with Momo instead of coming into his room like they had planned. How humiliated he felt when he told the class they were dating and Bakugou made fun of him, told he was delusional.

All of the manipulation came to the surface and Izuku began to silently sob. Tears ran down his face in a silent race to his chin. All the times he manipulated Izuku into sex with hate filled words. All of the times he made Izuku feel like shit for getting upset about his female conquests. The blame game every time.

“I can’t be gay and be the number one hero, ‘Zuku.” Bakugou touched Izuku’s face gently and kissed him, keeping Izuku from responding the way he wanted.

Izuku hated that Bakugou’s internalized homophobia rubbed off on him, even after they separated. It took two years after graduation for Todoroki to convince Izuku to date him and another year to convince him to go public. Izuku was scared he’d lose his spot as the number one hero if he was outed to the public but he proved wrong, again. The world loved Izuku no matter who he loved. Todoroki loved Izuku no matter who he was.

Tell you I set you apart

“Izuku,” a smooth voice broke the panic that had begun to set in.

“Sho, I-” His voice cracked and revealed every feeling that had taken hold in his mind.

“No need to tell me. I saw the way Bakugou stormed out of here. I figured it out once I hadn’t seen you after,” There was a pause, “Are you okay?” Todoroki’s voice came out in a whisper. Almost like Izuku would break if he spoke any louder.

“No.” Izuku managed to choke out. He couldn’t believe that Shouto had found him like this. A bumbling mess leaning on a toilet.

“Do you need help getting up? Do you want to go home?” Shouto’s voice was heavy and laced with concern, the love weighed down Izuku’s heart. Did he really deserve this love? Did he deserve to be doted on by the amazing Todoroki Shouto? “Don’t let your head get to you.” He could always read Izuku’s mind.

“I’m not fine, I need help,” Todoroki took that as a sign to melt to lock off the door. “Sho, not like that.” He chuckled as his boyfriend helped him off the floor and out of the bathroom.

“Let’s go home, Izuku”

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Come with Me to Archery Club

Come with Me to Archery Club (and see if we fall in love) by Cthulhuandthejellyfish

Midoriya Izuku has never had much luck with the ladies. While he's had plenty of girlfriends and even more confessions, he's never had a girl stick around long. On the other side, Todoroki Shouto goes through a girl a week. He claims he can't fall in love and dumps them. So, Midoriya gets the bright idea to become Todoroki's boyfriend just for the week. However, as the week unfolds both boys discover there's more to this relationship than they both can understand.

OR

Todoroki and Midoriya fall in love with each other in seven days and have a lot of angst about it.

(Based on the manga Seven Days)

Words: 1746, Chapters: 1/7, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Bakugou Katsuki, Midoriya Inko, Bakugou Mitsuki, Todoroki Shouto, Todoroki Enji | Endeavor, Uraraka Ochako, Iida Tenya, Yaoyorozu Momo, Jirou Kyouka, Kirishima Eijirou

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku/Todoroki Shouto, Jirou Kyouka/Yaoyorozu Momo, Iida Tenya/Uraraka Ochako

Additional Tags: based on Seven Days (manga), Angst, Fluff, good ol love, Background Relationships, Gay Awakening, Todoroki Enji is a good dad in this one, sorry, no beta we die like men, Supportive Moms

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/31893430

#AO3 Feed #FanFiction #AO3 Tododeku #♥ #Tododeku #Momojirou· #Enji Todoroki #❄️🔥 #⚣ #R:T #A:Cthulhu #Fluff #Angst

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Please, Tell Me You Know

Please, Tell Me You Know by Cthulhuandthejellyfish

Midoriyia Izuku doesn't understand why everyone around him is done with his relationship with Todoroki Shouto. All he wants to do it live his life happy with his wonderful boyfriend! Why can't he? He refuses to believe what his friend's warn him about, some silly thing about walking on glass. Something about being in an abusive relationship? Psh! Him and Shout are happy as two people can be. Follow Izuku as he comes to terms with his relationship with Shouto and what is really means to be in love with someone.

Words: 1737, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 1 of Songfics to Heal

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Uraraka Ochako, Todoroki Shouto, Bakugou Katsuki

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku/Todoroki Shouto

Additional Tags: Aged up characters, Abusive Relationships, Falling Out of Love, Abusive Todoroki Shouto, mentions of trauma, Uraraka Ochako is a Good Friend, Characters Are Pro Heroes, I'm Sorry, no beta we die like men, Emotionally abusive, Angst, No Fluff, All Pain

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29671668

#AO3 Feed #FanFiction #AO3 Tododeku #💚 #💙 #Tododeku #♥ #A:Cthulhuandthejel #Abuse #Angst

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Should I start posting my fanfiction here too, not just ao3?

#fanfic #fanfiction #bakudeku #my hero academia #mha #mha bakugou #bakugo katuski #mha midoriya #midoirya izuku #x reader #songfic #my name is cthulhuandthejellyfish if y’all wanna read

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Come with Me to Archery Club

Come with Me to Archery Club (and see if we fall in love) by Cthulhuandthejellyfish

Midoriya Izuku has never had much luck with the ladies. While he's had plenty of girlfriends and even more confessions, he's never had a girl stick around long. On the other side, Todoroki Shouto goes through a girl a week. He claims he can't fall in love and dumps them. So, Midoriya gets the bright idea to become Todoroki's boyfriend just for the week. However, as the week unfolds both boys discover there's more to this relationship than they both can understand.

OR

Todoroki and Midoriya fall in love with each other in seven days and have a lot of angst about it.

(Based on the manga Seven Days)

Words: 1746, Chapters: 1/7, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Bakugou Katsuki, Midoriya Inko, Bakugou Mitsuki, Todoroki Shouto, Todoroki Enji | Endeavor, Uraraka Ochako, Iida Tenya, Yaoyorozu Momo, Jirou Kyouka, Kirishima Eijirou

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku/Todoroki Shouto, Jirou Kyouka/Yaoyorozu Momo, Iida Tenya/Uraraka Ochako

Additional Tags: based on Seven Days (manga), Angst, Fluff, good ol love, Background Relationships, Gay Awakening, Todoroki Enji is a good dad in this one, sorry, no beta we die like men, Supportive Moms

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/31893430

#AO3 Feed #FanFiction #AO3 Tododeku #💙 #💚 #Tododeku #Momojirou· #♥ #R:T #A:Cthulhuandthejel #Fluff #Angst