#credit for the meme: to-need-somebody

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Hot one off the press for yall

#credit for the meme: to-need-somebody #dnd #critical role #dnd memes #gm #dungeons and dragons #d&d #ttrpg #dungeon master #d&d memes

[getmeoutofhell]

Ghostface killers texting with y/n (I know this is ass but) part 2: chat 2

Summary: stu is ass at baking. Ethan likes you. That’s it.

Warnings: language/memes sent by Ethan. Female reader btw

Stu: hey guys! 😘

Billy: stop with the weird ass emojis stu.

Mickey: lmao

Roman: hello stu

Richie: hello fellow ghostfaces

Ethan: hey

Amber: replying to stu: hey Stu 😘

Quinn: weirdos

Jill: …

Y/n : hey everyone!!

Stu: y/n what movie are we watching tonight? Can we also bake cookies?? 🤗

Y/n: Stu, I love that you want cookies. But remember last time we baked what happened?

Mickey: I told you to not let him bake shit. Look what happened

Quinn: LMAOO

Billy: he’s so dumb

Ethan: lol those things are burnt

Amber: did you even help him y/n?

Billy replying to amber: stop trying to defend him you know he’s ass at baking

Amber: okay but maybe he just needed some help

Quinn: bro is meat riding like crazy

Amber: stfu

Y/n: okay guys let’s just chill out and find a movie to watch tonight

Ethan: y/n look at this

Y/n: lol 😭

Quinn: fake ass laugh you know that meme was ass

Amber: Ethan’s flirting game is weak 💀

Quinn: facts

Y/n: y’all chill he’s not flirting with me

Amber: …

Quinn: …

Stu: …you know he likes you. Just date already ❣️

Y/n: 😳

Charlie: oh hey guys

Stu: hey Charlie, where have you been we haven’t talked to or seen you all day

Charlie: I went on a date

Billy: with?

Stu: with who??

Amber: you pulled somebody?? That’s shocking 💀

Charlie: piss off amber, and y’all don’t need to know who

Mickey replying to Ethan’s picture: tf is that

Jill: Ethan trying to pull a girl he’ll never get

Ethan: guys I’m not flirting with y/n. I was just sending her memes

Amber: 🙄

Amber: @ y/n

Y/n: wsp?

Amber: can you just go out with Ethan so he’ll stop sending lame ass memes in the chat?

Y/n: for the last time, he does not like me like that.

Quinn: y/n stfu he’s literally trying to flirt with you clearly 😒

*ethan left the chat*

Quinn: LMAO I KNEW ITT

Amber: lmaoooo he left the chat

Roman: what did I just come back to?

Part 2?

I got Inspo for richie from a ghostface chat on ao3, credits to them.

#slashers x reader #slashers #slashers x y/n #ethan landry x reader #ethan landry #amber freeman x reader #amber freeman #mickey altieri x reader #mickey altieri #roman bridger x reader #roman bridger #charlie walker x reader #charlie walker #quinn bailey #quinn bailey x reader #billy loomis x reader #stu matcher x reader #ghostface x reader

[venuscnjunctpluto]

Astro pt. 4

credit: @venuscnjunctpluto

(I can’t even remember which part I’m on😅)

*I fw Aquarius mars and Venus women they do what they want to do and they’re very smart (ex: Victoria pedretti, brittany renner, Taylor swift, and IceSpice)

*Ik men w these aspects gets dragged but I do like that they’re usually not bigoted☺️

* Ice spice also has a sag Venus and she’s openly rapped about being Bi

*pink pantheress has to be a Virgo rising and (edit: Ice Spice confirmed she was one too)

*taurus Venus or mars are the h*rniest it’s ridiculous. Kanye has an extreme p*rn addiction to the point people have walked in the studio and he’s causally watching it. He has a Taurus Venus and Mars😭

*For couples, moon in the 1st and 7th house synastry is very common

*Male friends usually have sun-mars or mars-mars aspects

*The arguing that comes w moon square mars synastry is not worth the sexual tension. I have a cardinal moon so all of those mfs can stay away from me pls😭

*Leo + Libra in big three is such popular cheerleader energy. I think that’s one reason Meghan gets a lot of hate because she is attention seeking yet she hasn’t done anything to warrant all the hate. It’s like disliking somebody but not having a reason so you get even more mad bc you look dumb

*Taurus risings voices are so hot😭😭 (ex: Miley Cyrus, gigi hadid, Austin butler)

*Underdeveloped fixed sign men become incels. Leo and Aquarius placements have huge egos so they can’t understand rejection. Leos feel that they’re so sweet and kind how can you not like me. Aquarius placements feel like nobody’s as smart and different as them. I don’t even need to explain Taurus and Scorpio (lol I’m never gonna stop dragging them)

*I should’ve known I was an Aries rising considering how many Aries mars come after me. Asap rocky is a Aries mars and both his ex Kendall and rihanna have Aries risings and moons. Also Aries rising women have such “tall gf who shares her bfs clothes” vibes (ex: Joe Jonas and Sophie Turner + Asap and Rihanna)

*As an aqua sun Aries rising the combination I can’t resist is aqua Venus + Aries mars…Jack Harlow is included in that

*I think what drew Harry to Meghan is her cancer rising considering his mother Diana is a cancer sun. My brother in law’s mom was a Leo sun and my sister is a late cancer rising. A guy I talked to has a Taurus sun mom and I’m a late Aries rising. Having sun in the 1st w your partners parent might be a thing.

*Y’all see those memes where Beyoncé looks all majestic and calm while Jay z looks lost and confused. He’s a sag sun + Pisces rising and she’s a libra rising + Virgo sun.

*Jay z definitely has a type…I’m not about to get into the gross age gaps but both foxy brown and Beyoncé are Virgo suns w Scorpio moons, libra venuses, and a Leo placement…wow

*Dababy thinks he’s allll that whole time he has Venus conjunct Pluto. Attracting Scorpio women who were gonna lose their minds in a relationship any mf ways like sir bye. Danileigh has a Scorpio Venus btw

Streamers

*They call Duke Dennis the “king of rizz” yep well he has mars square Pluto. Once again that’s a sign of male magnetism

*Streamers have a lot of Plutonian energy it’s interesting…Adin Ross has a Scorpio Venus, DDG and Kai Cenat have Venus conjunct pluto while Speed has mars conjunct Pluto.

*Kai is also a Pisces mars which explains his sad puppy dog eyes 🥺

*Halle Bailey has Venus square pluto while DDG has a conjunction everybody was screaming for them to break up and whole time I’m just like 😅. Once again her vibe is alluring as a woman w this aspect while his is…anywho

*Adin Ross also have a Virgo mars which is such 🤓 energy

#astro notes #astrology #astro community #astro observations

[fainthedcherry]

I...May or may not have been binging TMNT whilst working on projects. And uh. I got too many caps to count out of this

And...I may or may not have cut out Mikey in 5 mins to put him in any meme I want. (Done in PS and sized up x2 on the right, removed the blurryness via "sharp edges" filter, sorry I'm not a native English speaker, but that's approx what it was from German LOL)

In other words..No credit needed, this is from an official 2012 TMNT EP (S2, EP where Slash debuts don't know it's english name AUGH) ENJOY!!! GO HAM!!! FEEL FREE TO SHARE ME YOUR MEMES IF YOU DO MAKE ONE!!!

(I just hope somebody else laughed their arses off when they saw it as a modern watcher, bc I sure did LMAO)

Oh yeah, if you do see this as a TMNT fan, I'm primarily an artist and draw TMNT to the side, w/ my OC. Nothing more. BUT. I might start drawing proper fanart in the future :)

#tmnt 2012 #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #2012 tmnt #tmnt 2k12 #meme #meme template #free to use #f2u #f2u resources #soyjak pointing #mikey #tmnt michelangelo

[how-to-t-u-m-b-l-r]

Chapter 2. High Society

A beginner’s guide to tumblr etiquette

— How the algorithm works —

Ok so maybe that’s a misnomer. Tumblr doesn’t actually have an algorithm, and so the way all things circulate is reblogs. If you see a post that you like give it a reblog so that more people will see it.

This doesn’t mean liking the post is useless! If you like the post the op gets a notification that somebody liked their post and that would understandably make them happy. Give the post a like! It’s like giving the op a pat and going ‘Nice post!’

If you see somebody post a poem or a fanfiction or a sketch or a drawing and you think it’s nice like and reblog it! Artists struggle to circulate on here and it’s SO helpful to creators of all types!

Don’t try and get famous, you won’t. If you’re not already a content creator on another site you won’t get far with trying for fame. If you post something it will either blow up or not, it’s up to the people.

Brands don’t make it far here and neither do celebrities so the odds are we’ll push them out if they get here.

— Discorse —

Maybe you don’t like something somebody posted, maybe it’s problematic, whatever the case you don’t interact. Don’t reblog it with your opinion or even comment on the post. Block the person that posted it and move on. If they said something truly problematic (Something illegal or against the guidelines) then report them and block them.

So now let’s say you have a pet peeve about a fandom and you want to post about it. In this case let’s use a ship you hate as an example. Don’t use the main tags of the ship use a discorse tag. (they exist you just need to look a bit more.) If you don’t use a discourse tag then expect to be blocked.

— Friends? —

You reblog a post with a funny comment and somebody adds to that. You lead into a back and forth of commenting and laughing, you fallow them back, they fallow you back. This is a mutual!

When you fallow somebody and they fallow you back their your mutual. Mutuals tend to exchange dms and reblog each other’s posts. Their a generally nice thing to have and it’s like having friends that actually texts you back- *begins crying*

— What else you can do with tags —

When you reblog something and you want to comment but don’t care if more people see the what you said then put it in the tags. When somebody reblogs the post your tags will not appear under their post.

If you see somebody posted tags you like you can screenshot the tags and reblog the post with the tags you screenshoted. This is called peer review.

— If you do this I’ll maul you. —

If you repost art credit the artist but generally don’t repost art. Reblog don’t repost. If I add a funny caption though… NO! Credit the artist even if it’s a meme!

— tw ₩h@t d03$ th@t $@¥?? —

If you for whatever reason need to use a trigger warning for a post don’t censor yourself when you tag it.

When you need to use a trigger warning you should tag it with the triggering topic without censoring. Example:

Correct: #tw Suicide

Incorrect: #tw $u!¢!d3

If when you tag a trigger warning censoring the tag will prevent the people who need the trigger warning from being protected.

If you’re posting something with flashing lights don’t tag it as “#Photosensitive, #Photosensitivity, #Epilepsy” these are where photosensitive people talk about their experiences. Tag it as “#tw flashing lights” or “#flashing lights”

— Sorry, I’m cringe! —

Don’t worry about seeming cringe when you post! Tumblr is the reason cringe culture is dead, post about your empty or hated fandom! Do whatever you want! These are free lands!

More advice here!

#twitter migrants #tumblr guide #twitter migration #twitter refugees #twitter exodus #twitter #reddit migration #reddit exodus #reddit #reddit refugee #reddit blackout #169 #169 blackout #Chapter 2 High Society

[blazehedgehog]

What fired you up more this week: Prime’s incredible pixel artistry, or Sonicman vs. Mephiles?

Sonicman vs. Mephiles, no contest.

Sonic Prime having a bad pixel art flashback sucks, but it's more of a "they're at it again" scenario. We've already had at least two of these just in Sonic Prime alone, in the first batch of episodes. Though it's fair to argue this one might be worse in some ways. Sloppy tile placement, mismatched art styles, weird proportions, mixed pixel resolutions, choppy framerate... somebody tried, maybe, but they didn't try hard enough.

We had the same problem with the credits for the first Sonic movie, something they corrected for the second Sonic movie by hiring very talented pixel artists straight out of the community (shoutouts to Mit and Crepe).

No such luck here. Given the show's production schedule, maybe it makes sense they wouldn't swap out for more talented pixel artists. But they needed to do a LOT better.

Sonicman vs. Mephiles, on the other hand... You wouldn't think I'd care, but even back when people were still in shock over how bad Sonic 06 was, everybody still loved the absurdity of Sonicman.

Both characters have kind of been ignored for their connection to Sonic 06, but Mephiles has been slowly gaining some traction. He's turned up in games like Sonic Runners and Sonic Forces Speed Battle, he's gotten his own plushie, and just next month he's getting his own action figure courtesy of Jakks Pacific.

Comparatively, Sonicman has gotten almost nothing. Outside of fandom memes, his main claim to fame was being referenced in the Archie comics for one panel, one time, as a Power-Rangers-style TV show airing on Breezie's entertainment network. A future issue was supposed to introduce him properly, as well as the rest of his sentai team, but the book was canceled before that happened.

So Sonicman deserved a win, in my opinion. And the race was so close, it was hard not to get really, really invested in it. The last 48 hours of the Sonic Channel poll was a lot of back and forth between Mephiles taking the lead and Sonicman taking it back. It was kind of harrowing. I was on the edge of my seat.

And, goodness. The fan art it generated. It's been said, but it almost didn't matter who won, because the outpouring of cool images this resulted in is worth the battle alone. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10]

#questions #Anonymous #sonic the hedgehog #sega #sonic team #sonic channel #mephiles #sonicman #sonic prime #pixel art

[unholycringebirther]

MDHM JAMES - LORE AND SPECULATIONS

A/N: Hello bestie, this is my first time doing a post like this, so please excuse any crappy writing or whatnot, I just wanted to share some thoughts about him since it’s apparently James time on the offical MDHM tumblr.

Any and all images included in this post are plucked from the offical My Dear Hatchet Man twitter and tumblr, and all mentioned cannon facts are also from tweets and posts from Gnome, full credit to them!

Okay, okay, sorry for any harshness from jumping right into it, but i’m really not good at smooth transitions, lets start talking about our edgy boys personality!

James looks like a confident man— you could probably tell just by the way he holds himself, somebody who’s anxious or self conscious would be hunched in on themselves, tense and glancing around nervously, yeah?

Look at him, the asshole smirk, the pose, the sunglasses, that’s the look of a man who’s confident as shit, right?

Actually, evidence shows that isn’t exactly it, at least not entirely, whilst he’s confident in his abilities or whatnot, hence how he holds his crowbar so casually against his shoulder as apposed to braced and ready for a fight.

I think this shows he isn’t concerned about his physical strength in himself, somebody who wasn’t confident in that aspect would want to get the advantage of being ready if a threat reared itself, they’d have their weapon ready, scanning everything around them.

But clearly, his weapon is rested against his shoulder, still there and ready but not lined up to strike the second something mildly threatening shows up.

With the smirk and tipped sunglasses, it is it’s seals the deal he isn’t a anxious person, I would argue he’s the chillest of the brothers, it’s been confirmed that he can be chaotic, but he is the youngest brother and I know from experience they can be wild.

But even with that, I still argue he’s probably the chillest brother because of his social life.

Nick and James are confirmed to be friends, it’s something that became a meme of sorts, because look at them! Of course they’d be friends.

If you look at the offical Sunny Day Jack tumblr, you can see I’ve sent in a ask (that they replied too real speedy might I add) about where the events of SDJ took place.

No further specifics have been revealed, but they told me that the in-game story took place in Texas! (Yeeee-haw!), which means that James is most likely located there or somewhere extremely close.

And if you read the demo, it’s stated that Nick came in on the first day, where he asked sunshine if they worked there, with a group of guys surrounding him, most likely his group of friends that’ve been mentioned a few times.

It wouldn’t be far-fetched to assume James might’ve been one of those guys, and even if he wasn’t present in that moment, it doesn’t mean he doesn’t often hang out around Nick and his bros.

That’d mean he has a circle of friends, and that could be expanded past just that specific group, which supports my theory of James actually having a thriving social life, and uh, night life as well, see down below.

With all the James brain-rot that’s been going on with the offical MDHM tumblr at the time of writing this, I’m honestly not surprised he has one of the highest body counts.

Anyways, back to the topic, a thriving social life needs some work on yourself to actually happen, I think he might be more easy-going and again, chill to attract that many people in his circle.

So overall, he’s probably a pleasant person to be around, despite his obvious smug and snarky demeanour.

So why do I think he’s not as confident as he seems? Well, we have to discuss one more thing before I get into that, which I think will help tie in my theory about his real personality nicely.

It’s everybody’s favourite topic, the Yandere tendencies!

As you can see, James isn’t really a violent kind of guy, he’s the more grounded one in the family and leans more into passive aggressiveness.

This post isn’t about Alan, but to understand James better I’ll need to dip a bit into his character and Yandere fundamentals.

Alan is clearly very insecure, not in the ‘I hate myself kind of way’ but in his relationship with doe-eyes, he’s jealous and possessive, making him kick anybody who he deems as a threat shit in, and since he’s insecure, he deems anybody as a threat.

James isn’t like that, if he doesn’t feel the need to defend every minute of his relationship with his babydoll, he’ll only get physical with those who actually pose a real threat.

His characteristics all point to him being a confident, self assured man all the way through, right? So why do I think otherwise?

On the outside, he holds the aforementioned persona, but on the inside, he carries low self esteem, he doesn’t think highly of himself.

He wouldn’t think he’s worth his babydoll, meaning he’d most likely think very highly of them, he just doesn’t see himself as the type of guy who could treat them how they deserve.

I know from personal experience how it feels to not what to burden your partner with your rough childhood, and I really see that as something for him, he might think he’s too messy for you.

I don’t think he fares well with handling his emotions despite how much he actually does care, choosing to drink away his feelings instead of facing them, he might’ve gotten stunted due to his EQ not being properly nurtured in childhood.

But he does care, I think internally, he cares a hell of a lot, and is definitely the type to show it through his actions, it was recently confirmed that the reason he taught himself ASL and Morse code was because his step-sister, Kennedy, is actually deaf.

He hated how emotionally distant Alan and Claude were, which makes me believe he really did crave a connection, a bro-ship with them.

In the demo, on day two, where Alan was discussing his school and home life with doe-eyes, he never said anything bad about James, said they got along pretty well before the fallout, but never said anything explicitly good about him, about how protective/caring I’ve speculated him to be.

Maybe this is my own projection, but James has been confirmed to have been a rebellious child, basically he wanted to feel in control and such since his home life changed so often.

But in my own personal head-cannon, I think that also stemmed from how pent up he felt, his mother was constantly in and out of hospital and his father isn’t shown to be the most vulnerable emotionally.

He had no way of expressing his emotions healthily, he doesn’t seem like the type to be amazing at words so verbal was off the table, he couldn’t express much, especially how much he cared for Alan.

Maybe if he did, Alan wouldn’t have distanced himself as much, even one strong connection can make such a different in somebodies journey of grief, maybe if James was able to properly express how much he loved Alan, our dear hatchet man wouldn’t be the way he is now.

Of course, that didn’t happen, and instead, to let out the pent up frustration at his situation and the feeling he couldn’t quite let out, he rebelled.

His dad seems to be the most present out of all the brothers, but he seems to also hold a tough love type approach.

This does verge on a stereotype, and perhaps I’m wrong, but the type of man who is a tough love farmer that’ll kick his trouble-making sons ass doesn’t seem like to the type to be all emotional with his kid.

If James was a trouble maker as a child, I can see how their relationship would suffer when he kept rebelling.

‘Trouble’ is very vague, and I doubt it’s meant as if James was rude towards his mom, it seems like their mother is actually well liked amongst the boys despite any resentment that might’ve stemmed.

Instead, maybe it’s meant more as his mom dealing with the trouble he made outside the home, perhaps going as far as pissing off the police and getting his ass dragged back to her doorstep, said cops in tow.

I don’t think he’d get in much trouble for it though, with her at least, I can imagine she might feel some guilt, blaming herself for the situation she’s had a hand in creating making her son act out like that.

And if had a tendency to let him off the hook out of guilt, well that’d only enable him to keep doing it, and of course, if his dad was the only one who’d punish him, I could see how he might have some beef with him as apposed to his mom, who he didn’t mind as much because she let him keep doing it.

This is there mom, by the way! I don’t think a photo of his dad has been dropped yet, but if I’m wrong, let me know!

Hey, you made it this far! I’ve pretty much vomited out all of my personal headcannons and facts i’ve gathered from hyperfixating, but that also means i have some random ass lore gathered from combing through Twitter and Tumblr.

MISCELLANEOUS FACTS I’VE PICKED UP

James has been confirmed to have el tits but apparently no ass.

James favourite season is summer.

He’s the cool uncle who shouldn’t be watching kids because allegedly he might definitely involve them in minor misdemeanours. 😀

His favourite colour is rust orange.

James and Alan shared a room when they were younger.

James is a Leo! Born on August 7th.

He calls his step-sister Kennedy, Kenny!

James actually celebrates Christmas (or thanksgiving, can’t remember) with his dads side of the family.

#my dear hatchet man #mdhm james #mdhm #mdhm game #my dear hatchet man james #mdhm alan #alan orion #mdhm theory #my dear hatchet man theory

[deldeldel90]

THE PASTEL PRINCESSES IF THEY WERE TUMBLR USERS

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- lorena!! ksysiss ok but like!! she'd def be on tumblr whenever she needs to say smth

- has terrible grammer thats inconsistent and messy

- types in caps more than she should

- reblogs memes n pictures of cats in hats

- talks abt her family all the time, especially abt gwen

- does shitty doodles of her mutuals

- does a lot of copypastas

- has a very lowkey account, not many people know about it

- says a lot of puns (half of them don't even work)

- sometimes her posts r just "had a blye shshhie?!" and then there's whole ass essays abt the usage of camouflage

- has twenty backup accounts

- is into military history!! reblogs interesting facts abt it and adds her own lil comments

- if you're her mutual, she'll be reblogging and liking every post of yours, will give you literally all of her support

- lorena is always there to talk to somebody !! she's kinda awkward sometimes but she makes up for it by being persistent and a bit hyper when you really get her going

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- Maria! <33

- ok so she's literally a sweetheart

- big sister vibes whos always willing to give credit to others and is super chill to talk to

- has really good grammer, messes up a few times but overall, she uses commas and barely has an typos

- gets a lot of anon asks, always talks to them like they're her long lost besties, super natural n caring

- she makes her own gifs!!

- talks abt her crush sometimes

- links her pinetrest

- writes fanfics and keeps it the biggest secret of her life, her followers only know bc she makes way too many references to ao3 fics

- lowkey a fangirl ngl, will gush her heart out and makes edits and fancams

- she keeps her identity (apart from her voice) a complete secret, like, you wouldn't even know the color of her hair

- reblogs a lot of facts n pictures of birds and in her rbs, she talks abt her experiences w them

- keeps a pastel blue aesthetic to her blog

- most of her text posts are her discussing bozart and asking for advice for her singing

- is always really excited to talk to people!! has a good amount of tumblr friends and is just really nice

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- GWEN!!! gwennie gwen gwendolyn!!

- she's gen the sweetest

- like ever <333

- this girl.... she's not very open and has a hard time telling if somebody likes her but does try to be kind to everybody

- shares a lot of baking recipes nd pictures of her own baking

- is really shy

- recorded herself talking once and immediately deleted it

- will sometimes vent in a very smash keyboard way whenever she's stressed

- mostly reblogs things to do with baking but also reblogs comfort posts that makes her happy

- doesn't discuss how she looks at all

- takes pictures of moss nd overgrown and thinks they're really pretty

- uses emoticons like ^^ and :)

- has a really really close group of five or so friends she met on tumblr and really wants to message them but is too scared she's bothering them

- wet sad fluffy kitten energy

- quotes from romance books and pictures of buttered bread

- her blog is the definition of comfort <33

- reblogs pictures of a bunch of funky animals and coos over them in the tags

- if you get to know her she's really really nice and will probably want to send you baked goods

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- jamie....

- this mans blog is half chaos half reviewer

- reblogs leo's posts (because he def has a tumblr too) literally all the time, usually like "how r you texting this in jail ://"

- does food reviews literally all the time, probably has a YouTube channel too

- gets asks all the time 😭😭 answers them all on one tuesday morning out of the blue

- 6/10 grammer, no attempt to do better, internet slang makes up half of his vocabulary

- uses 'ngl' when its not needed at all

- uploads a lot of pics of food, some of his own, some of others

- talks in tags, speaks in lowercase 1/3 of the time

- this man either capalizes everything or nothing... good for him!!

- has 82 drafts and is waiting for the right moment to post em

- compares his sister's cooking/baking to everything like "hmmm this lasagna is alright but my sister, Gwennie's,...."

- is accidently aesthetic.. everything this man posts just happens to have pink in it idk

- probably uses fonts tbh

- reblogs light academia/pastel royal/literally any type of cat aestheyic posts

- uses emojis ironically

- jamie honestly is a pretty chill guy and also enjoys talking to people :) sometimes he'll just hit somebody up and be like "that pasta you made has supreme good vibes,,, care to tell the recipe??"

- uses a lot of question marks and expscmation marks

- shows his face a lot !! Along with his outfits and bracelets nd stuff

- posts about his life a lot, doesn't really care if somebody finds out this is him because he's really open abt it

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#cursed princess club #cpc gwen #cpc headcanon #cpc lorena #cpc jamie #cpc maria

[sith-shenanigans]

1, 12, 14 & 15 for Ahene and Sirue from the character ask meme?

Ahene:

1. What is [character]'s favourite event, & what do they like about it?

Answered here.

12. If they had something named after them, what would they like it to be, and what would it really be?

Ahene: “I don’t want something named after me.” [pause] “…Maybe a museum.”

Yeah, her self-loathing is a little strong for this one. Objectively speaking, there are probably a few things out there that are named for her—or, at least, for her Sith title. She doesn’t like thinking about it, though. It’s unpleasant to know how the Empire sees her—what she’s being remembered for, long before she actually dies. It sits right at that terrible intersection of impressive and banal where the horror of what’s she’s actually doing lives.

14. What's their dream mount, & have they ever ridden it?

She uses the Lhosan Duster, most of the time, in-game. On my first playthrough, she bought it on Tatooine; it was her first mount, and she’d just saved up the credits. (She also didn’t use a saberstaff until Tatooine. We are not repeating that.) She wants the Command Corsair, but I don’t want to spend my cartel coins on that.

She is also weirdly attached to the Vectron Vertica, despite hating those dais things and feeling like, I quote, “very important skeet” in them. She likes a mount that it looks like she grabbed randomly in the middle of an industrial area, I guess.

Secretly, she thinks walkers are fun, but they’re not really… walking-around mounts.

15. If they had a career that wasn't one of the class options, what would it be (e.g. vet or nerf-herder)?

Baby pre-invasion Ahene wanted to be an SIS operative. Everyone knew Verios would join the Republic, and she was convinced that if she worked very, very hard in school, she could get into whatever training program they have. This wasn’t an idle “kids think spies are cool” thing—if Verios had joined the Republic instead of getting invaded, she would have done it. (And Ardun Kothe would have Very Definitely Not Had A Padawan.)

She’s always been a fairly weird kid.

Sirue:

1. What is [character]'s favourite event, & what do they like about it?

She’s not really particularly into any of them. Nar Shaddaa Nightlife is fun, except it gets quite boring quite fast. She’d probably like the pirate one, if I’d ever played it?

12. If they had something named after them, what would they like it to be, and what would it really be?

Sirue: “A starship, obviously. No, wait—a space station. Maybe Port Nowhere needs a new sign…” [little chuckle]

She’s not actually planning on renaming Port Nowhere after herself, she just thinks it’s funny to consider it. Honestly, it wouldn’t be about what got named after her, it would be about the fact that somebody did it at all. It means people are thinking about her and remembering her—that she’s not just going to burn up and be gone.

14. What's their dream mount, & have they ever ridden it?

Tragically, she also insists on the Lhosan Duster. For some kriffing reason.

Sometimes she flirts with getting one of the cartel skiff things, but they’re not actually her style. She just enjoys the idea of hijacking one.

15. If they had a career that wasn't one of the class options, what would it be (e.g. vet or nerf-herder)?

She doesn’t really want to be anything but what she is, career-wise.

In the AU where Verios never gets invaded, though, her dad gets elected to the executive seat and appoints her senator. She hates it. She’s simultaneously terrible at it and much better than she thinks.

[swtor character ask meme]

#asks #oc: ahene coris #oc: sirue parhen

[bananasher1337]

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if you can't or won't click that link, my name is asher or nolan. noah is also acceptable but that's cringe. i'm a gay nerd, i draw things (if they're pleasant or meaningful, that's for you to decide), and i use this site once a month.

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current hyperfix/s: total drama (gen 1), cookie run (crk/crob), warriors (sadly.)

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[secretquaggan]

The Commander

So I haven’t been able to do GW2 things for awhile (RIP to my desktop), but! I’m slowly getting back into the ability to do game things - and, to revive this blog, I thought it would be fun to do an ask meme (though I’m filling it out more as an introduction/bio!) Credit goes to @moonlit-grove! This “ask thing” is for Vivian Kimura-Mori, my Commander (see my character page for her bio, if you’re interested!)

1. A verse or so of lyrics that just gives me vibes for them and why:

'Cause I've been a devil, I've been a saint Somebody help me, I can't change I keep on (runnin' toward, runnin' toward the fire) I keep on (runnin' toward, runnin' toward the fire) Oh, I let my lover go, didn't wanna be a liar Ashes in the cold, now I'm running toward the fire

I love this lyric from Bishop Briggs’ The Fire for Vivian, because she’s very much defined by her sense of personal duty/obligation towards Tyria and the peoples who call it home; in part due to her early education as a noblewoman by her grandfather, who taught her that noble birth is a responsibility to everyone who relies on you, and in part to her own inherent martyr/savior complex. Although she’s a loving wife and mother, she cuts considerations to her husband and child out of her decision-making when it comes to her roles as both the Pact Commander, and the leader of Dragon Watch. I’m not saying she’d set herself on fire to keep Tyria warm; but if she’s immolating the most recent threat to do so and she’s standing a little too close, well. Shit happens.

2. A piece of music without lyrics that could be their background music:

So I don’t usually lean into instrumental music for my characters, and I found this a little tricky. I think Hidden Citizens’ cover of Moonlight Sonata would be a good action/overview/trailer song for Vivian as a character? But I would maybe suggest something more like Vitamin String Quartet’s cover of Bad Habits might be a good song for her as a person at-rest or in downtime.

3. Where they would most likely want to settle down:

As a member of a noble family, Vivian has access to both the family holdings in Divinity’s Reach, as well as the country estate just outside Claypool (where she spent most of her childhood.) She considers Claypool to be her “hometown,” but her own daughter currently resides in Beetletun under the guardianship of her godfather, Lord Faren. Vivian herself maintains rooms in various capital cities across Tyria, where she occasionally crosses paths with her husband. Mostly, she travels alone, or with her companion, Jaya.

4. What their dream home would be.

Kind of related to the question above, I don’t think Vivian really has a concept of settling down, or a “dream home”; the Pact is her life’s work, and although it has less urgency with the conclusion (?) of the cycle of elder dragons, she’s spent far too much of her life living in the present to do too much personal daydreaming about the future.

5. General opinion of Nobility

As a member of nobility herself, Vivian has some strong opinions. She believes that the function of a ruling class is to serve the common people who look to their rulers for leadership. She is a supporter of Queen Jennah, but something of an uncomfortable dinner guest; Vivian can be rather scathing about what her peers get up to with the education and free time their wealth affords them, and about how they manage their resources to assist the common man in times of need and crisis, as well as in times of peace.

6. Their relationship to Aurene:

Although she’s not the best mother, Vivian is quite maternal; she considers Taimi and Aurene to be her daughters, just as much as she does her own biological child. She worries about what will become of Aurene in the future, and works hard to ensure that the young dragon develops a healthy love and respect for all life in Tyria - as well as ensuring that individuals around the dragon develop an equal respect for her.

7. Thoughts on the Soundless:

Due to not being Sylvari herself, Vivian largely considers the Soundless to be a situation it is not her place to speak on with regards to their treatment and existence. However, she’s empathetic to their desire for freedom, having loved and married a Sylvari whose path takes him as far from such constraints as possible without breaking them entirely.

8. Do they believe in destiny or fate:

No. Vivian very much believes in a person’s ability to shape and forge their own future. Her choices and willingness to do the work have brought her to the place of being Pact Commander, Champion of Aurene, and leader of Dragon Watch; her fortune at birth afforded her education and opportunities that others lack. She considers that luck, more than some kind of irrevocable destiny or fate.

9a. How does Vivian greet Bohai (her husband) after a long time apart?:

Vivian is not what anyone would consider a particularly romantic individual; even around her husband of several years. Although she’s always privately quite relieved when their paths cross, or when he turns up from one of his bouts of wandering, she rarely expresses this externally. Usually there’s sharp questioning about where he’s been, what he’s been up to, and whether he’s managed to come back to her in one piece. Occasionally they fight. (They usually, but not always, manage to make up.) Despite the very deep love and affection the two have for one another, they’re not particularly demonstrative people and their lives and work take them in frequently opposite directions; so their reunions are fairly....unique.

9b. How do they greet their closest friends?:

It does very much depend on the friends; Jaya is usually greeted with a drink and a long talk about what they’ve been up to while apart. It’s a quiet warmth, and perhaps more intimate for it? Faren gets a bear-hug, a shoulder shake, and a very stern series of questions about what he’s been up to (in a very different tone,) and out-loud wondering why she chose him for her child’s guardian. Kasmeer, it’s a total sleep-over, complete with girlish giggling that Vivian would die before letting anyone else see! With other close friends, she’s friendly but a bit distant, as per usual.

10. Do they have any weird nicknames?:

Absolutely not. If she does, they’re not spoken where she can hear them. If her husband has any endearments they’re not spoken where anyone else can hear them. She does go by Commander, or Lady Kimura-Mori, in mixed company. She’s comfortably just Viv with her friends and companions. She is otherwise not a woman who invites weird or funny or joking nicknames.

11. A song that punches me with inexplicable vibes for them:

Okay, so it’s not inexplicable, necessarily. But Sam Tinnesz’s Far From Home always punches me with the softest Vivian feelings; particularly towards her husband, daughter, and best friends. It’s that like tiny kernel of yearning for perhaps the life she might have had if it weren’t for [gestures to everything], that flicker of doubt that she’d never express of maybe not being enough to handle the problems that come her way.

12. Thoughts on Largos:

Honestly, Vivian respects the shit out of it. She’s pretty honor-bound herself, and she can get behind the kind of grind Largos put into their work. If she gets to meet them without being a target, I think they probably vibe. If she gets in one’s crosshairs, I think it’s big ‘I hate to kill such a masterpiece’ energy.

13. Thoughts on the dragon cycle?:

I’m not sure Vivian spends a lot of time thinking about it? She’s not remotely academic as some of her companions (though she is quite well-read and educated!) I think there’s some relief about the cycle ending, some anxiety about what comes next, and maybe a sliver of fear that maybe she’s actually irreparably broken the world and the wheels are about to come off the cart and pitch them all into something horribly unknown. (It’s fine. It’s the PTSD, probably.)

#gw2 #guild wars 2 #Vivian Kimura-Mori #The Commander #OCs #moonlit-grove #thanks for reading that whole big-ass long thing #if you #lmao I've been playing Vivian for almost ten years #so I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about her

[violetsystems]

I picked back up Horizon Zero Dawn again on the PC. It's still a beautiful looking game on a 6700XT. It's a little slow to get into and a lot more bow heavy than I'm used to playing in a game. But for the most part, the in game acting is probably what sets it apart the most. It's a strange kind of mix between primitive and futuristic but the science fiction elements grow into the plot very well over time. I credit Elden Ring for giving me the stamina to actually complete a game without getting frustrated. So I've had the chance to enjoy some things that I purchased on sale but never got around to playing. The sequel comes out on March on PC. Not really sure where I'm at with anything right now. Somebody from HR at my old place of employment friended on LinkedIn. I did apply for something there recently in a completely different area and have professional contacts that still acknowledge I exist therein. I'm also catching this weird vibe from the place I applied at that I've been under review for like the last seven months. I follow them on Linkedin and I'm getting these weird euphemistic projections from some of their posts. It's hard to explain and I don't know that I should go any further with talking about it. I messaged the person from my old job and said that I did miss the environment and atmosphere. That's not a lie. I was really hurt when I was let go out of nowhere. I probably am still hurt. But the vibe I get right now is that I'm part of some transgressive art performance that nobody let me consent to. And people are slowly figuring out that the parts that are willfully part of my life and the parts that aren't. And everybody out here thinks it's there god given or TikTok given right to judge and invade my lore. do keep applying for jobs. And I do need to get out of this limbo of being known around the world for being the guy nobody wants to admit exists. But I can't help feeling it's all getting a bit dangerous out there. This kind of stuff catches up to you after awhile. The public jokes and memes on Instagram with your friends that have consequences on people's lives. I don't act like I don't see it for my own safety. All I can say is that it isn't like other people who care about me don't see it either. When somebody digs deep here on Tumblr I generally cut them off. So if I make a mistake and block something I shouldn't? Just remember I have my shields up for more than my emotions right now. It's bubbling over into a whole other territory. Maybe not so much Horizon Forbidden West. But close.

[atmymercy]

Hello, Tea! How are you? If that’s okay, i would like to ask a question about my career: what do you see for my job hunting in the next 2 months? I have been applying for internships, but thing are not making much progress. Thank you so much! - gsp

hello gsp! omg! i'm good! i baked cookies while i waited for an ask so thank you for sending me one! omg! how are you doing?? i hope so well! ooh job hunting! that's exhausting! i hope you are taking proper breaks as you do this! that stuff can weather the nerves! hope you're being super nice to yourself! let's see!

for you, i got the knight of coins (reversed), 9 of swords & 4 of swords (reversed).

ooh, my apologies, spirit! i take back what i said before! instead of taking breaks, you need to put this into overdrive! omg! okay! so you need to start really applying to like everything! even if you don't think you sound fully qualified or not! as long as it sounds interesting to you, they want you to apply! i'm seeing that meme where somebody is trying to use the tap system to buy something at a store and they're just furiously smacking that credit card down! that's what they want you to be like! they want you applying for anything that sounds good to you! just do it! who cares if you never see a response back! they're saying you need to release control over this and let them do the final say! you're going to feel a bit unearthed by this but they're asking you to trust them on this one! they'll have the right place slip into place by the tip of their tongue! lol what an interesting way to put that.

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love & light!

-tea

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[5hadowcs]

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[cl2iredearing]

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slow reply importance.   not only do i have other blogs that i attend to,   i also have ooc priorities that need attention.    please do not pester me for responses to things.   i do my best to get to everything but it does not occur in the order a thread or meme was  received.   it is,   first and foremost,   muse + inspiration oriented.    but i will always like and/or interact with things in order as soon as i  see them in order to let you know i have.

004.     while this space is curated by myself,   i do not think this will be a problem,   but alas:   if you support or condone racism,    homophobia,   transphobia,   white washing,   suicide baiting,   bullying,   the act of blaming sexual assault victims,   or anything else distasteful/harmful as well as any general topics that allude to them,   you will be immediately blocked.   i promise you,   we have nothing in common.   i do not participate in call out culture simply for the sake of call out  culture.   there’s a difference between truly harmful behaviour and simply not liking somebody.   this is a drama free space for me to  write.   which is,   above all else,   what i and i know many others are  simply here to do.

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[charthanry]

BBS: Deconstructing the Entire Series (Part 4 of 13)

Welcome to my deep dive into each episode where I break down character motives, P’Aof’s delivery, and general musings of all things BBS. Basically, a scene-by-scene recap with commentary from me, your friendly neighborhood commentator. If you missed the previous installments of this post series, you’re welcome to check them out:

Part 1  |  Part 2  |  Part 3

Recapping the recap: We left EP3 with Pat manipulating his friends to help the architects rebuild the bus stop. After years of keeping it, Pat finally returns Pran’s guitar to him. Pat and Pran are now straddling that undefined space between not-enemies but not exactly friends either. Pran obviously wants more, and Pat is frustratingly oblivious to the entire thing.

Episode Four: The Rugby Match, an Old Friend, and Would You Like Me? (or AKA “Without you? It’s no fun.”)

In the game of gay chicken, it’s a showdown of who will blink first.

We open with the two opposing squad leaders facing off suspiciously close to one another. Must you lean thisclose to hear each other? Is it my imagination or is Pat eyeing Pran’s lips here? Pran has a look that clearly says my eyes are up here, asshole. The unresolved sexual tension is so charged that I can feel the static in my hair from all the friction. Apparently, Einstein-hair is one of the side effects of shipping these boys. Another is a high tolerance for muscle tees with nonsensical slogans on them. Even the opposing friends are averting their gazes from all the sexual tension these two are emitting. I guess unlike us, they all value their perfectly coiffed hair.

After much ado about divvying up the bus stop workload, Wai annoyingly comments that if anybody can't carry their weight it’s the engineers which offends Korn and a kerfuffle nearly breaks out. Waisel- just shut your yapper, nobody even asked you and Korn- quit giving him the satisfaction of reacting. Good grief! These boys have turned me into a hall monitor. Ever the mediator, Pran stops their antics by deciding one group will take the even days and the other will take the odd.

At the bus stop site, Wai once again feels the need to whine about the untrustworthy engineers. In a surprisingly sweet move, Pran gallantly defends Pat and assures his friends that Pat is a man of dignity. Aww Pran, that’s right, defend your almost-man. And isn’t it rich of Wai to call out Pat? Somebody get this weasel a mirror. I’ve had enough of his nostril flaring. Was he a bull in a previous life?

I'm adding pouty Pran to the list of best Prans, because look at this face y’all.

After Pran's emphatic defense of Pat's character, we cut to a hilarious scene of Pat apologizing to Pran for his friends not showing up for bus duty. Opting instead to attend a last-minute music concert. Pran rolls his eyes and asks why Pat didn’t keep them in line and Pat’s response is I was too busy dancing at said concert. Pran’s face in response is its own meme. One that rhetorically asks murdering your literal neighbor is still considered a crime, right? Even if he’s asking for it?

Pat comments that if everyone were as eager to work as they are to fight, the bus stop would already be built by now which sparks a lightbulb in Pran’s head. Together he and Pat scheme to have their friends compete in a one-upmanship with taunting notes left at the site for each other. I really must applaud Pran here, the idea is genius. And credit to Pat for giving Pran the nudge to come up with it. They're truly the best partners-in-manipulation. Foreshadowing to future events? Why, yes, the show thanks you for noticing.

The bus stop crew meet at the site for an interview with the school paper. Pat’s gang shows up overdressed in matching slacks and ties. They look like waiters ready to pass the hors d'oeuvres at some catered event. Pran looks on mockingly, but we see you ogling Pat, bro, don’t deny it. He can’t resist commenting that Pat’s shoes are particularly shiny and Pat volleys back that Pran sure is one to talk as he reeks of cologne himself. Sir, I think that’s just his natural pheromones triggering you. I love that they’re openly flirting in public now and with their friends within earshot, too. These two are blatantly ignoring any warning sirens of danger, Will Robinson, and we’re here for the delicious play-by-play.

We're treated to a slow-mo entrance of a pretty girl running up to the group. Cue the flashback informing us that this is their former high school classmate, Ink. She’s there to photograph the bus stop for the school paper. Pran gives Pat a panicked look, which Pat immediately picks up on and scuttles Ink away from everyone. Pran’s face is a myriad of feelings, there's his obvious concern about being busted for hiding their past but also something else, something deeper. We are picking up heavily on that something else.

Look at Pat’s body language here. This doesn’t strike me as someone who is joyfully reunited with his high school crush?

Off to the side, Pat explains to Ink that he and Pran’s faculties have deep rivalries, and nobody knows of their shared history. He asks if she can keep this information to herself. Ink is willing to play along but not before extracting a price for her silence. Poor Pat is weary of what this entails and honestly so are we.

It’s nighttime and the engineers are practicing for an upcoming rugby match against the architects. Korn teases Pat about Ink and asks if he knows her. Pat plays it off that he was just seizing his chance to talk to her alone. Korn then makes an offhand comment that has the entire fandom hyperventilating: I thought you said you liked someone in architecture. Um, excuse me??? Come again? I need to replay this. Assuming this isn’t lost in translation, it’s curious that Pat neither denies nor corrects Korn here, he merely says, you call yourself an engineering student? Why are you now defending the architects? Ugh. Pat is being frustratingly evasive. Answer the guy’s question!

Their chitchat draws the ire of the coach and they’re punished with running drills. Seriously? That’s it?? You’re going to drop that bomb on us and then just run away? Damn you, show. Insert gif of Arthur’s clenched fist.

We cut to Pran outside using his phone’s flashlight while searching for his dropped earbud. He walks around adorably muttering to himself when he bumps into Pat fresh from rugby practice. Pran tells Pat to get lost, but Pat insists on helping him look. Even with something this simple, the two still find ways to bicker with each other. Pat doesn’t watch where he’s going and unintentionally steps on the very thing they’re looking for, because of course he does.

Holding the busted earbud, Pat is genuinely apologetic but Pran doesn’t hold back his irritation. He reiterates his mantra that every time they’re together, nothing good happens. 

Pran is back in his dorm when there’s an insistent knock at his door. It’s Pat coming to lend Pran his own earbuds. Pran initially refuses but Pat is clever and pokes at his competitiveness by saying he’ll need it for the music contest and to not use the lack of earbuds as an excuse to lose against Pat and the engineers. Pran finally relents, but we know that Pat only used the contest to get Pran to take the earbuds and I suspect that Pran knows this as well.

Pran is so distracted by Pat’s thoughtfulness that he lets his guard down which Pat takes as an opening to barge into Pran’s room. The two go back and forth about Pat’s sweat stinking up Pran’s place. And it’s like watching the most fascinating game of table tennis, ever. The way these two banter is like a competitive sport. Pat takes it a notch further by stuffing Pran's head inside his sweaty shirt, which eww. But how much do I love that they've now graduated from verbal foreplay into physical just like that. That it’s become comfortable for them to have their hands on each other. Pat has bulldozed his way into Pran's physical and personal spaces and our Pran’s defenses are visibly weakening.

To quote one Rory Gilmore, look at this butt-faced miscreant.

Pran has had enough and kicks him out. Also, can your voice get any higher pitched, my guy? I think that’s the most excitable I’ve ever seen you. How warm was it inside Pat's shirt? Are you feeling lightheaded? Do we need to do a temp check? He closes the door in Pat’s face but of course can’t resist another peek at the peephole. Pat stands outside his door and obnoxiously chants you knowww you want to let me in. Pran just shakes his head but not before his face blooms in a glorious smile of defeat. How does he make defeat look so sweet? He sits back on his couch and stares affectionately at the borrowed earbuds.

The next day, Pran heads to the campus coffee shop after class and happens on Pat and Ink. It triggers a flashback where high school Pran is waiting for his milk tea order when a passing Pat pauses on his way to music club and tells Pran he’ll see him there. Pran nods in response and immediately turns around and orders a second drink for Pat. Our hearts ache for the obvious hope we can see churning in his chest. Oh, sweet Pran. Can you imagine his trek to that music room? How his steps are a little more hurried? How he carefully holds both drinks in his nervous, sweaty palms? Only to walk in on Pat and Ink goofing off and Pran’s face morphs into something akin to being run over by an oncoming freight train. 

We’re back in the present, where history is repeating itself with Pran looking on as Pat teases Ink. The look on Pran’s face as he watches them is heartbreaking; it’s that damn freight train coming for him again. Just as his heart and bones are finally healing from the last collision three years prior. The show is telling us this is nothing new for Pran. He’s been here before, a spectating third wheel to his own life. And it hurts us something fierce because we can all relate. Unrequited love is a heavy burden, made worse when you’ve accepted it but it keeps jabbing you over and over with the reminder of what you can’t have. And it never stops hurting. It’s like picking at a barely healed scab again and again only to bleed anew, each time leaving a deeper scar than the previous.

We learn Ink’s price for her silence is Pat agreeing to model for her photoshoot. We also learn that he again skips bus stop duty to show up for Ink. Pran doesn’t know this and thinks Pat is skirting his responsibility to play with Ink. Once again proving to Pran that Pat chooses fun and games AND Ink over his promise to him. Only we know that Pat is doing this for you, Pran. He’s paying off her silence because you’ve made it clear you don’t want anyone knowing your shared history. It’s a version of noble idiocy that you can’t fault anyone for, the kind that hurts all parties involved.

We cut to Pran at his own rugby practice where he’s so distracted by his irritation with Pat that he tackles his opponent hard and hurts his shoulder. Pran is at Wai’s bar after practice when who should walk in for a post-photo session meal but Pat and Ink. Really? Do you guys have no other place to eat at? Did the curry spot, noodle truck, and all the other restaurants in the area suddenly get snapped by Thanos? Our Pran really can’t catch a break, can he? 

How Nanon manages to make heartache look stunningly gorgeous is beyond me. There’ll be no reenactment of Dawson crying by the creek for this guy.

He tries in vain to make a quiet escape, but Ink catches him. The face Pran makes when Ink tells him to join them is gut-wrenching. Pat pulls out a seat for him, but Pran bypasses it to sit next to Ink instead. The layers of this scene could rival that of the earth’s atmosphere. Pat looks at the chair he pulled out for Pran and presumptive understanding dawns on his face. Pran is pissed at him. Yes, but not for the reason you’re thinking, Pat!

Ink tries to engage the trio in small talk, bless her heart. We’re not sure if she’s oblivious to the tension or picks up on it and decides not to intervene, but Pat is curiously looking at Pran and Pran is valiantly looking back at him. Say what you will of Pran’s tendency to run away, but I applaud him here for meeting Pat's questioning gaze straight on. 

An unspoken conversation passes between them where both are using different interpreters. It’s reminiscent of that kids’ telephone game where you whisper a message in one person’s ear to another and once you’ve reached the last person, the message is so distorted that it barely resembles the original. That is what’s happening here. Pat is saying, I see you. You’re upset. Let me fix this. And Pran is saying, Do you? There’s nothing to fix. Because you and I are nothing to each other. And it’s Pran’s breaking heart doing the talking for him, only Pat thinks that it’s for another reason entirely and misinterprets everything.

It’s the smiling through the pain that breaks me. I’m breathless at how good he is at this, and it hurts me that he’s had years of practice.

This is an emotional trainwreck, one that is excruciatingly painful to watch, but also impossible to look away from. Ink asks if they’ll be facing off against each other in the upcoming rugby match; our boys’ eyes connect, and the small half smiles they give for Ink’s benefit is gutting. Ink wonders out loud which of the two of them she should root for, unintentionally pitting them against each other in a way that is wholly separate from anything that has to do with the rugby field.

Pat pushes the menu towards Pran and softly asks him what he wants to eat. He cares, Pran, he really does, we know you’re hurting but look beyond your broken heart right now and recognize that he cares about you. Please be brave one more time. But Ink chooses this exact moment to notice Pat’s P-bracelet because life is just that cruel to one Pran Parakul. Is that the sound of a train’s whistle racing forward in the distance?

As Ink marvels over Pat having kept the bracelet all this time, Pran is checked out and has a faraway look on his face. We’re shown a flashback of Pran watching Ink gift Pat the bracelet back in high school. This memory seems to be the final straw for Pran. It’s been a long day full of conflicting thoughts of Pat only to end with a tension-filled evening he didn’t ask for. Add to that, his stinging shoulder and Pran is just DONE with everything and everyone. He makes a flimsy excuse of only now realizing he has something to do and makes a hasty exit. Pat intuitively watches as Pran leaves.

Later in his dorm, Pran answers the door to a concerned Pat who is delivering the dinner he didn’t get to eat. Pran declines the peace offering and moves to shut his door, but winces as he inadvertently pulls his injured shoulder. Pat notices and nags him to treat it with medicine. 

Cut to the two of them sitting on Pran’s couch with Pat adamant about treating Pran’s injury and the concern he’s showing here is a much softer version of Pat, one we haven't seen before. Pran gives in to Pat’s insistence and rolls up his sleeve, we see that the injury is a lot worse than we imagined. Pat applies the meds to Pran’s shoulder and the look Pran gives him says everything. He doesn’t bother holding back the clear adoration he has for him. It’s all laid as bare as the shoulder Pat is taking care of. Pat, open your eyes and SEE PRAN. He’s right there.

How blind can Pat be? Pran is absolutely gone for him and isn’t even hiding it here. It was a taxing day and this is a moment of weakness for our Pran – where his usual facade slips.

Pat tells Pran to be more careful, that they have a game in a couple days. Pran says they’ll have an advantage then; it’ll be easier for the engineers to win. Pat responds with zero hesitation that without Pran, where’s the fun? What’s the point of even playing if Pran can’t play? And GOD, this is so telling, isn’t it? Pat, make the connection faster my guy. You’re right on the verge of figuring it out. There’s a moment where Pat finishes treating Pran’s shoulder where their eyes meet over the small space between them, and the entire fandom collectively holds our breath as we implore both to just see each other.

Pat extends their time together by asking if Pran has any makeup remover. He wants to clean off the makeup from the photoshoot. Pran comments oh the one you did with Ink? Pat is surprised that Pran already knows. Pran says Pat posted it to IG, didn’t he want the entire world to know? Yet more foreshadowing to later in the series when Pat posts about their relationship on IG. This show is dropping crumbs everywhere and we’re here gobbling it up.

Pran hands Pat the miscellar cleanser but he’s clueless on how to use it, so Pran takes over and helps him. There is something incredibly soft and gentle about Pran cleaning Pat’s face for him. It's what you do for someone you love. Pat can’t help but tease Pran with cute dimples you’ve got there. If had your dimples, would I be as cute as you? A stunned Pran is speechless that Pat paid him a compliment so openly and easily, but credit to him for not dismissing Pat’s teasing as we’d expect him to, but instead volleys back what, these dimples? and flashes them cheekily. He then tells Pat that he’s sorry to break the news, but only he can have these super-cute dimples. He then shoos Pat away and only once the door is firmly between them does Pran reveal his totally blissed-out smile. He repeats his ritual of looking through the peephole for any last visage of Pat, smiling the entire time. Forget the meds, a dose of Pat is all he really needs.

You can physically feel the sigh through this screenshot. Nanon is just that good.

If it would please the court, we’d like to conclude our closing argument that these two are in love, your honor. They are no longer hiding their flirtation behind insults; they are outright flirting now. One claims he’s hot and the other did not refute his claim and now there’s face cleansing and dimple poking involved. Your honor, we would like to rest our case that these two are out here proving our argument for us.

It’s the day of the rugby match and Pran is alone on the bleachers when Pat joins him. He asks if Pran is fit to play and reaches out to ruffle his hair, only for Pran to wave him off. Satisfied that his shoulder appears better, Pat asks, what, you’re afraid people are going to think I’m flirting with you? Way to go straight for the jugular, Pat. And he proceeds to tease and poke at Pran some more, but it’s all halted by Ink and Jam showing up. Now that there’s an audience, Pran dismisses Pat back to his side of the field.

The match is underway with the engineers in red and the architects in green. Pat and Pran are the stars of their respective teams. They both try to outdo each other on the field to the surprise of absolutely no one. There’s a beat where Pran scores, runs back, and flick-salutes Pat with a devilish smirk and oh GOD, it’s so boss and HOT. Pran, we been knowing there’s a sexy beast hidden beneath those dimples, you should unleash him more often. Hit Pat when he least expects it and promise you’ll let us watch.

I’m completely convinced that P’Aof chose rugby for this script to feed us all the waist grabbing and manhandling, and oh man are we feasting. There’s another bit where Pat has the ball and Pran comes after him, hugging him from behind. Pat hands the ball off to Korn who proceeds to score, but Pran, too busy watching the action, hasn’t yet let go of Pat. And Pat, that bastard, teases him with hug me this tight and you might as well take me as your boyfriend and has the gall to WINK at him. Boy, please.

Pran takes a hard tackle and gets up rubbing his shoulder, it doesn’t escape Pat’s notice and he pulls Korn aside with a new game plan. Pat will cover Pran. Aww, Pat. We see you. Only it doesn’t go as planned. Pran has the ball, but Pat hesitates to tackle him and out of nowhere Korn comes in for the kill and Pran goes down painfully. Wai shows up, because of course he does, and menacingly stands in between Pat who is trying to check if Pran is okay. Waisel, calm your ass down. Pran is helped off the field and Pat approaches Korn demanding why he didn’t follow the plan, he said he had Pran covered. Korn is all like hell you did, I saw you hesitate, what the hell is going on with you, Pat?! Indeed, Korn surprisingly you’re asking the right questions.

Match over and without Pran, the architects are defeated by the engineers. Ink approaches Pran and consoles him that his team would have won if he were able to stay in the game. She then gifts him with his own P-bracelet, revealing that she wanted to give it to him back in 10th grade, but he transferred before she got the chance. Aww, Ink, you made them couple bracelets. You’re totally one of us! She helps him put it on and we see Pran working up the courage to ask her something. He finally does and this will forever be the bravest moment on the show for me.

Ink is surprised and peers at Pran, maybe she sees what we all know but does Pran a solid and doesn't let on. She tells him she only sees Pat as a friend, just like how she sees him. And we can all feel Pran's visible relief at her response. Oh, Pran. Your bravery moves me because I understand what this took from you. How you've watched Pat and Ink from the sidelines all these years. Never knowing if there was more going on, but always too afraid to find out. We’ve all been here in Pran’s shoes. Having accepted that our love is unrequited, but never quite willing to seal our own fate by confirming that the object of our desire is coveted by someone else. Someone we deem more worthy of receiving our love’s affection. Someone not us. It’s a disheartening state to find yourself in, this limbo of never being able to move on yet afraid of putting the nail in your own coffin by finding out.

Pran and Ink continue to sit on the bleachers chatting away, both failing to notice that Pat is at the other end watching their interaction with an unreadable expression on his face. We aren’t sure how much he’s overheard, but we’re certain that even if he caught the entire exchange, he’d somehow draw the wrong conclusion from it.

Later that night there is another knock on Pran’s door. We only need one guess as to who’s on the other side. Seriously, how many times has Pat sought out Pran in this episode alone? The boy simply can’t stay away. Make the connection already, dude. Isn’t it telling that you somehow always manage to end up in front of Pran’s door? Ask yourself what that’s all about.

Pran opens his door to reveal that Pat got him some meds for his shoulder. Pran turns him down saying he has his own, but Pat is insistent. He tells Pran that if he wants to return the favor, to let him crash in his dorm tonight. He forgot his key and Pa isn’t answering her phone. Pran, thinking that this is yet another Pat move, and honestly who can blame him? tells Pat to keep trying for Pa and shuts the door. 

Later, Pran looks in his peephole to check if Pat is really locked out of his dorm and finds a desolate Pat sitting in their hallway. It takes him less than 30 seconds to decide that he can’t leave Pat out there and opens his door to him. This is huge. Earlier in the episode Pran was very against Pat being in his space, going so far as to kick him out just for sitting on his couch. But here he is granting him entry and a place to rest his head for the night. How far he’s come. He opens the door with slight trepidation because he knows himself. He recognizes that he probably won’t get a wink of sleep tonight knowing Pat is breathing the same air, existing in the same space as him.

Pran is setting up a sleep mat for Pat on the floor next to his bed when Pat enters from the bathroom – shirtless. And there are abs galore, my friends, so much abs. Ahem, what are you doing, sir? Have you no mercy for Pran (or us?) Pran stares without making it seem that he’s staring, we gotchu buddy. Pat asks if he can just sleep shirtless and Pran quickly says no, absolutely not and tosses him a t-shirt from his hamper. He says he hasn’t washed it yet. Pat does a sniff test and declares it still smells great. Because of course it does, it smells like Pran – the scent of heaven to Pat’s nose. Pran’s face in response is hilarious as if he’s thinking what the hell is wrong with you? And what the hell is wrong with me (for liking you)? Pat promises to wash it before returning it and Pran says don’t bother that he’s gonna toss it out implying that he no longer wants it now that it’s been worn by Pat and Pat is all, awesome, new shirt for me then.

I think Pat has found his doppelganger in Pran’s emoji lamp.

Pran is trying very hard to school his face but seeing Pat wearing his clothes has to be doing something to his insides. The shirt he’s worn on his skin is now touching Pat’s skin. I suspect the whole declaration of throwing the shirt out was just for show, this shirt is something Pran is going to cherish for the rest of time. Just like the watch. The earbuds. The guitar. And anything else related to Pat.

Pat says he can’t sleep without his comfort object, Nong Nao, and looks pleadingly at Pran. I half expected him to ask if he can join Pran in bed and use him as a Nong Nao replacement, which yes, please! But Pran is all, don’t even think about it. And in your dreams. (In ALL of our dreams, really). He instead concedes to sharing some of his blanket/comforter with him.

Sometime later, both boys are wide awake staring at nothing in particular. The awkwardness is deafening. Pat is the first to break the silence and asks if Ink gave Pran a bracelet earlier and Pran pauses before responding that yes, she did, the same one she gave to Pat. After several beats, it’s Pran’s turn to break the silence with can I ask you something? Pat responds that he also has a question that he wants to ask Pran. They both seem to already know what the other is wanting to ask. Pran insists on Pat going first. After some hemming and hawing, Pat blurts out do you like Ink? There’s some back and forth of you answer first, no I asked you first, so you answer, they then decide to both answer at the same time on the count of three.

We know Pran’s answer is a resounding no, but we’re not expecting for Pat’s answer to be yes and neither is Pran judging by his reaction. It’s like the air is completely sucked out of his lungs upon hearing Pat’s yes. He’s drowning and can’t even outwardly react because Pat is RIGHT THERE. Pat sighs in relief and actually says the words what a relief! He thought they were rivals for the same girl. Oh Pat, you stupid, clueless idiot.

Where Pran draws the strength to ask if Pat has confessed to Ink yet, I’ll never know. His eyes are flooding with unshed tears, and I just want to smack Pat here, and not affectionately either. Pat responds that he hasn’t yet and asks Pran if he thinks Ink would like him. Pran gives a deprecating chuckle and says how would he know? Pat gets up and leans over the side of the bed and asks If you were her, would you like me? Pran answers with all the life preservation he has left in him, someone like you? What’s there to like? As if he doesn’t already have a long running list of all the reasons why he’s already gone for Pat.

Pat says there are many things and proceeds to list them out. He was a drummer in Pran’s band, he prevented Pran from getting beaten up by Korn and the gang, he helped him get that sponsorship for the bus stop, he kept his guitar for him. And here P’Aof attempts to put us all in our deathbeds by complementing Pat’s narration with Pran’s own montage of all the things Pran already knows and loves about Pat. The Christmas concert where Pran sings but only has eyes for his drummer, the world’s one and only handsome guitar pick, Pat saving the day with the 100% eco-pitch, the bus stop role playing, and finally the return of his guitar. The list goes on and Pran’s chin wobbles as he holds back the dam that’s threatening to burst. How he holds all his emotions in check, I have no idea but this moment right here cements what we already know – that Pran Parakul is the strongest person on this show bar none. To endure this much and for this long. There is no one, absolutely no one, who can hold a candle to him.

Let’s face it, Pran knew there was little chance of Pat reciprocating his feelings, but Pat’s actions leading up to all this said otherwise. The dimple poking? The I think you’re cute? The if you’re not playing, then where’s the fun? The constant checking and rechecking of Pran’s shoulder injury? The incessantly showing up at Pran’s door. What are you even doing, Pat? And now you’re asking if Pran were Ink, if he’d like you? I don’t blame Pran’s response here at all. As hurtful as it is, and as much as we know that it’s a lie, it’s Pran’s only life raft at this point and he’s choosing to SURVIVE behind his I... hate you. After telling this emphatic lie, he rolls over and away from Pat.

A stunned and hurt Pat pulls away and talks out loud, almost to himself, that he has many good qualities. That even he likes himself. Well, good for you sir. We’re happy for you, but can you please shut up now? He further digs Pran’s grave by saying good luck finding someone half as good as me. Oh, you ass, this is emotional torture. We implore you to stop talking. Finally done saying his piece, he lies back down.

Noting the silence, Pran rolls back over and looks at Pat. Then P’Aof murders us by showing a close up of Pran as he looks Pat’s way. He has tears in the corners of his eyes. And there it is. Our sweet Pran has given into his pain and quietly shed his emotions no longer able to hold them at bay. He watches as Pat sleeps and the look on Pran’s face is so openly fond and endearing belying the hurtful words he said to Pat just moments earlier. I want to reach into the screen and just wrap him in a protective cocoon and tell him he’s done good. That he can rest now, that Pat is an idiot and will figure it out soon. 

Pran continues to watch Pat to his heart’s content. All those times he wanted to stare but had to pretend that he wasn’t. All the mockery and insults that he had to hide behind is quieted as he just stares and takes in his fill. He can’t help the small smile that peeks through. Everything about this moment is Pran being honest with himself when no one is there to call him on it. He doesn’t bother to hide his longing for Pat but instead gives into it, just for this small breadth of time and it feels so private and personal that we can’t help but feel like we’re intruding. 

He finally looks away and shakes his head, wipes at his tears, and then yanks all the bed covers off of Pat. That’s right, the boy doesn’t deserve any of that warmth. Not tonight. Our Pran turns over to his side and we're left wondering how tear-soaked his pillow will be come morning. Life doles its cruelty out indiscriminately and unfairly, but damn it feels like Pran has suffered more than his share. 

Chemistry based off of eye contact alone? These two have it in abundance.

And with that heaviness, we conclude our fourth hour with our boys. Let’s get some of the lighter points out of the way first. I think P’Aof landed at just the right amount of screen time for the friends. I didn’t find them as grating in this episode as in the previous ones maybe because their screen time was limited and therefore more tolerable. The focus of the story has shifted to Pat and Pran’s relationship, as it should. The show is telling us to buckle in, we’re no longer in the build-up phase, we’re about to enter the main story and based on this episode’s ending, I’m not sure that our hearts are prepared for what’s coming.

I like how Ink was introduced and everyone’s first inclination was to be up in arms at her sudden appearance. We’re so used to a third-party foil that we were all ready to sharpen our knives and pitchforks in defense of Pran. I absolutely love that P’Aof and his team quickly put our fears to ease by subverting all our usual expectations. Ink wasn’t introduced to be a villainous foil but more the catalyst to push our boys out of their comfort zone, especially Pran. If Ink hadn’t shown up, we can safely assume that Pran would continue loving Pat from a distance and never really doing anything about it. She also serves as the catalyst for Pat as well, but in the next episode. Ink is out here flexing her ability to push people to confront themselves simply by existing. We stan this girl.

I love their friendship. There’s a genuine mutual fondness here. No wonder Pat was worried he was losing Pran to Ink.

And how great is Ink? She has to know or at least suspect Pran’s feelings for Pat, but she respectfully keeps it to herself. How much do I love that she treats Pran’s question with dignity, but also keeps it light with her teasing. She focuses on teasing Pran and less on the real reason why Pran is asking. She has to know the amount of courage it took for Pran to ask, and rather than laugh him off, she studies him and assures him that there’s nothing more than friendship on her end. And the couple bracelets? Have I mentioned how much we stan this girl?

The parents didn’t play a role at all this episode, and I didn’t miss their presence one bit. There’ll be plenty of time for all that later. P’Aof is showing us Pat and Pran on their turf – at university surrounded by all their friends. He’s detailing the gradual changes to Pat and Pran’s relationship and how they handle these external factors before he pulls in the parental drama. In a way, he’s giving us a reprieve though never letting us forget that there’s a much larger obstacle waiting on the horizon. He’s working at establishing Pat and Pran as a united front in preparation for when the parents enter the picture. I, for one, am going to enjoy all of this parent-free drama for as long as we can.

Their eyes are always looking for each other even in a crowd of people.

I love that we’re shown how the boys are different when alone with each other. Without an audience to dictate their behavior, there’s less of a wall for Pat to scale to get to Pran. This is an especially noted change for Pran who is clearly concerned with people finding out that they’re more than mere faculty rivals. How far has Pran come from not even allowing Pat to sit on his couch at the beginning of this episode, to giving him a safe haven and a place to rest his head at the end? We can see that Pran’s defenses are on shaky ground as tornado Pat picks up speed and sweeps him away. Resistance is futile, kind sir. We all eventually succumb to the whirlwind that is Pat. It’s only a matter of time.

The flashbacks revealed so much this episode. We were fed a lot of background on their high school days. But keep in mind that we’re seeing all this through Pran’s perspective and he’s remembering it through the lens of loving Pat from afar. How reliable is Pran as a narrator? Is it possible that he read more into Pat and Ink’s interactions than both Pat or Ink felt themselves? I think Pran uses what he sees and remembers as an excuse to keep Pat at arm’s length. There’s less chance of getting his hopes up this way by creating that emotional barrier between himself and Pat. He’s convinced Pat can never feel for him the way he wants so having Ink there as a stand-in-between is convenient, if foolhardy. So, when Pran asks Ink if she likes Pat and learns that her answer is no that tempered hope dangerously re-ignites for Pran. And it was probably everything he was trying to avoid, but still had to know.

I want to touch on Pat showing up at Pran’s door consistently bearing gifts. In this episode alone it began with the earbuds, then the chicken dinner delivery, and then the meds for his shoulder. Even before this, he hangs onto Pran’s guitar for years waiting for an opportunity to return it to him. And it doesn’t even have to be at Pran’s door, Pat insists on helping him look for the dropped earbud, he’s adamant about treating his injured shoulder, he pushes the bar menu at Pran and asks him what he wants to eat, he tells Korn that he’ll cover Pran in the rugby match, he delivers food after Pran leaves because he doesn’t want him to go hungry. This is a recurring theme of Pat looking out for Pran in big and small ways. He likes feeling needed and useful to those he cares about; he’s a caretaker by nature and a fixer by environment, but also, this gives him a reason and excuse to see and spend time with Pran which is really at the heart of Pat’s desire though he doesn’t recognize it yet.

If all these acts of service and making himself a ‘necessity’ to Pran isn’t a metaphor for Pat offering himself, and his heart, to him then I don’t know what we’re even doing here. Notice that Pran consistently declines whatever it is Pat is offering – his gifts, his help, and his time – why? Pran doesn’t want to owe Pat. We’ve seen that he had to psych himself up just to say a simple thank you. Pran grew up learning to be independent by way of self-efficiency, this is in part due to how he was raised but also if you don’t rely on anyone else, then no one can let you down, right? 

Pran, an only child, grew up friend-starved, he never needed to depend on anyone but himself. We see this in his friendship with Wai where Wai is the one who constantly takes and Pran is the one who gives. One might say that Pran doesn’t know any other way of being so doesn’t recognize that what he has with Wai is emotionally abusive at worst and a lopsided friendship at best. We also see it in the way Pran automatically assumes the role of leader in his friend group, taking on the bus stop rebuild when he had no obligation to do so. He doesn’t know how to be the one who leans on someone else. 

So, here comes Pat who not only wants nothing in return, other than to prolong their time spent together, but also voluntarily sets himself as a stalwart companion for Pran, someone he can look to and depend on. Our Pran doesn’t know what to do with this change to his routine and way of life. He’s perfectly fine with Pat owing him (recall the debt extracted for saving Pa), but doesn’t know what to do with himself when the roles are reversed. 

Now let’s look at this from Pat’s side. Does he feel that he needs to make himself worthy of Pran’s friendship? Even when helping him with the bus stop, there’s a sense that Pat feels he has to prove himself useful to Pran so that Pran would find reason to keep him around. I blame Ming who shows his love and affection only when Pat brings him good tidings, that he scored well on an exam, made president of his faculty, is a star athlete, top of the food chain. He doesn’t show Pat that he loves his son just because he’s his son, no strings attached or accolades necessary. This measurement of perceived value by delivering good marks and deeds has got to be deeply ingrained in Pat after all these years. It’s something he and Pran would need to work at fixing – that Pat doesn’t need to bring gifts or show excellence to be loved. Pat needs to recognize that Pran loves him just as he is, chaotic goof and all and not because he does things for him. That Pran’s love is not a tradeoff and can’t be bought. It’s freely given because of who Pat is, not because of what Pat can offer. 

In that same vein, it’s curious that Pat lists all the reason why Pran (as Ink) should like him but fails to realize that none of the things on his list were even done for Ink? In fact, most of them happened when Ink wasn’t even around. What’s that about, Pat? Are you being willfully blind to your feelings for Pran? Or are you unconsciously testing the waters by asking Pran if what you’ve done is enough, can be enough for him to love you?

We assure you, Pat, it’s more than enough. He loves you despite all your flaws. He’s witnessed them all and still loves you anyway. You only need to open your eyes and see it. 

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Thank you as always for reading and reliving EP4 with me. Next up, Pat experiences an awakening as we shift from Pran’s point of view to that of our favorite engineer. I hope you’ll stick around for it. I’ll try not to go so long in between updates this time. For those who may have been worried that I would abandon this post series, fear not, I fully intend to see this through completion. I’m afraid you're stuck with me and my ramblings for the long haul.

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