#confidence is everything x))

[mysunshinetemptress]

Coal

Leah Williamson x singer!reader

Warnings: TW suicide, past abuse, child abuse, alcohol abuse, funeral. If I missed anything let me know. Also thank you to @pers1st for first of all listening to my idea and telling me to write it when I had my doubts about it and secondly for reading over it and helping me, I hope it doesn’t disappoint

You knew the minute he didn’t answer the phone and the unnerving feeling of dread filled your chest that this was it, that you were the last man standing from a life you thought you had both out run, out lived but this, what your brother had just done showed that no matter where you went, how fast you ran you couldn’t leave the sick and twisted past you both had lived through it was a heavy bag you would be forced to carry for the rest of your life.

You and your brother Luca had been born twins in a quite little, middle of nowhere town in New England to a mother who would end up leaving you both in the middle of the night with a heavily abusive father, who would never be charged for the unthinkable things he had inflicted on both you and your brother as he was to high in the police force in your stupid little town, best friends with the Chief had some perks it seemed.

You and your brother had grown up constantly relying on one another to get through the hard terrifying nights, where all you both could wish for was for someone to whisk you both away from it all but this is the real world and the only people who could save you from the nightmare was yourselves.

You had a talent that you had only discovered when you where 13 after a teacher had approached you hearing you singing in the hall, before asking if you wanted to join the choir, you began thinking an extra hour away from home wouldn’t be so bad agreeing only on the lines that Luca could come and sit in the pews as you practiced not wanting to leave him alone to face your fathers abuse alone.

As you both got older you found ways to escape through singing and music, Luca taught himself the piano and you learned guitar before teaching the instruments to each other before you both began recording videos of yourselves and posting them to YouTube while also beginning to write your own songs.

It would take till just after your 19th birthday for both you and Luca to make it out of that stupid little town in New England, both of you deciding to get as far away as possible flying to London England just as your first ever song written by you and produced by Luca blew up “Homesick.” Loving the way stories could so easily be told through country music you decide that it would be the genre you both would focus on, you writing and performing and Luca writing and producing stating he was much to bad of a singer to ever try.

Living in London was a cultural shock for you both coming from a quite town to a big bustling city sure was a change but you couldn’t help but enjoy the fact that not everyone here knew everyone and that you both got to start fresh.

Your label had rented a small two bed apartment for you both in Islington, just north of Central London where you both set up a small studio from the equipment supplied to you both and began working on an EP.

The EP was called Horizons both you and Luca had looked out on a same horizon every morning your entire childhood and hoped it would bring about change, only when you left to London did your Horizons change and so did your life finding it fitting you brought it to your label along with six songs on the EP one of which had already been released as a single.

Horizon

Track 1: Homesick

Track 2: Northern Attitude

Track 3: False Confidence

Track 4: Heavy Eyes

Track 5: Heading South

Track 6: Something in the Orange

Your label loved it approving a date that saw you and Luca able to preform at Country to Country in the O2, with your small set and unknown names your both were one of the first to perform, but feeling the rush of the crowd just after leaving the stage singing songs you both had written about parts of your childhood and leaving it behind felt magical and the crowd seemed to love it.

But that night wasn’t just the night you had both agreed that this is what you wanted to do, it was also the night you swore you found a four leaf clover. Leah had been standing in the crowd with Lydia Williams both big country music fans when she felt her breath hitch in her throat at the sight of you. You stood on stage in a simple pair of black jeans, white top with some red writing she couldn’t make out and a guitar smiling at the boy at the piano before nodding to the band and when you began singing Leah swore she had felt her heart stop from how quick it was beating.

You and Luca had made your way down to the crowd Luca nudging you saying he was going to get a drink as you nodded making your way to stand at the back keeping an eye on him as a blonde girl strutted over to you ever so confidently “Hi.” You turned taking your eyes off of Luca as you turned meeting deep blue eyes “Hi.” You smiled back “I’m Leah.” You grasped her hand shaking it your cheeks beginning to hurt from smiling at the blonde-Leah “hi I’m Y/n.” You didn’t notice that Leah seemed to forget to let go of your hand as you both began talking the English girl complementing your set as you complemented her outfit.

Luca turned back from the bar after downing yet another shot and beer looking to see where you had gone chuckling at the sight of you talking happily to a girl still holding her hand, sighing he grabbed three more beers and began walking over to you before clearing his throat and putting on a stern face “Y/n.” You unhappily tore your eyes away from Leah turning to see Luca “Luca this is Leah, Leah this is my twin brother Luca.” Leah’s shoulders seemed to relax at the confirmation he was in fact your brother and not your boyfriend “Beer.” You smiled thanking him before letting go of Leah’s hand and taking it before turning to look at him in surprise as he handed one to Leah “what can’t let your future girlfriend be left out of it can I.” You shoved him slightly as Leah choked on the beer coughing slightly as you apologised rubbing her back. Leah stood up shaking her head “well I better ask you out first then.” You laughed nodding agreeing to give her your phone number before saying goodnight and walking back behind the stage.

In the coming months yourself and Luca travelled promoting your EP both in the Uk and Europe as well as in the States refusing to step foot in New England just incase your father decided to show up, during this small tour you and Leah began talking nonstop either texting or FaceTiming and although Luca wanted to throw a pen at your head and tell you that there was an album that had to be written he couldn’t help but smile at the way your eyes lit up and your entire mood changed when the English girls name appeared on your phone.

Once the small tour was over and you had settled back into London, Leah had worked up enough nerve to officially ask you on a date. You had bid Luca goodnight telling him to not wait up as you ventured into Central London with the blue eyed girl excitement building for your date.

London was everything you ever wanted, you and Leah had been dating for a few months now and not wanting to keep secrets you had sat her down and told her everything, everything about how your mother had decided she couldn’t take it anymore and left both you and Luca stood crying on the porch step as you watched her run down the driveway aged four in the middle of the night, how your fathers abuse only got worse from that point, how as you got older you both felt so hopeless as no one would do anything as he was a police officer and best friend to the Chief of police, how he thought he could change you from being gay when he saw you walking holding another girls hand. Leah had sat eyes pooled with tears grasping your hand so tightly as you told her eyes racking your body and zoning in on every little scare she could see before pulling you into a hug “I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry Angel you don’t…you didn’t deserve any of that.” You didn’t cry but simply went limp against her as you felt the weight be lifted off your shoulders now that she knew, Luca had come in a short while later and Leah had moved you off her gently before grabbing him and pulling him into a hug, you watched eyes soft as your heart swelled they way she held him just as tight apologising for his trauma too, trauma she had never inflicted but felt so sick that no one in your town would help you both to scared of the consequences.

You had called Leah your four leafed clover, she was the luckiest thing you had ever found and while your relationship grew and your introduction to both her family and teammates saw that Luca turned to alcohol more than he ever had before.

You were both working on your first album when you had noticed how bad Lucas dependency on alcohol had gotten, writing songs often turned into nights you had to put him to bed he was to drunk to continue, or he wouldn’t show for meetings with the label, or dinner with you and Leah, or Leah’s family to busy sitting in a bar in London. You had called the label after a particularly bad day at one of Leah’s games at the Emirates, where your brother spent the entire match inside at the bar since he couldn’t drink alcohol in view of the pitch, drunk and moody you bid the Williamson’s goodbye apologising for your brother and sending Leah a quick text before dragging him home. The next morning you decided enough was enough and sat him down surprised when he broke down in your arms apologising over and over again that it was the only way he could find peace from it all even for just a few hours, that music simply wasn’t enough at the moment and in a way you understood, Leah gave you the same peace alcohol gave Luca but you knew it wasn’t a healthy option so you gave him an ultimatum, rehab and therapy or no more music, no more writing no more tours nothing. Agreeing to your ultimatum you rang your label telling them that the Album was on hold till Luca was healthy again before dropping him off.

You spent the month Luca was in rehab leaning on Leah and her family’s support, you had told them about yours and Lucas past the same day you dropped him off, and for the first time you knew what it was like to be loved by a mother and father. You cried into Leah’s chest that night until you fell asleep,nothing she said or did could make you stop and she quickly realised you needed this you needed to cry so she let you holding you tight and just reminding you of where you were, with her, with her family both you and Luca were safe. Amanda came up after you had fallen asleep to check on you her own heart breaking at the sight of you, you a girl who had the worst childhood imaginable handed to her and still found away to find love and make her daughter feel so loved, you a girl who was trying desperately to hold everything together for her brother because “he needs me, I’m fine I’ve got Leah but he, Luca needs me to be strong so strong is what I am.” Amanda placed her hand on your head “she’ll be ok Bubs, they both will, we got them.”

Luca had been allowed a visit half way through his rehab, the Williamson’s had all asked if they could come but his sponsor Danny had said it may be to overwhelming and asked for it to just be you, that didn’t stop them from waiting in the car park as you went in to visit him. He was different, brighter, happier and you almost cried at the sight for the first time ever he looked to be enjoying life not just trying to get by. You had ran straight for him sighing as you picked you up into a bear hug squeezing tight “Orlov.” You sighed relaxing into his arms at the use of your nickname.

Orlov a diamond, a cursed diamond and any time you tried to ask him why he had chosen it for you all those years ago he gave you one of two reason “Orlov, a cursed diamond that still shines through it all.” Or “Orlov, because pressure makes diamonds, and I just like the name of that one.” You laughed at the second slightly poetic but still funny just like him.

You had told him how supportive the Williamson’s had been for the both of you, how they were currently sat in the parking lot waiting for an update on him when he grabbed your hand “I’m glad you found people like them, to look after you.” You squeezed his hand “us, look after us they love you just as much.” Lucas didn’t want to believe you but you knew he did deep down, he knew it wasn’t just you that loved him anymore. You proceeded to tell him about you current life as a wag as well about the many songs you had been writing, some of them about your past, but for the first time ever you had also written about love and being in love with Leah. Lucas had told you he had also returned to writing and had a few stacked up ready to go when he was finished and for the first time he seemed happy about what he had written normally you had to tell him it was good, recording worthy and you couldn’t help the hope that bubbled.

15 days later Lucas got out of rehab with his therapy sessions block booked for the next while and for the first time in two months you guys began writing songs together trying to complete the album. Lucas was a changed man, he went to dinner without alcohol something you also did to support him, he attended Leah’s matches with you and actually watched and cheered instead of hiding in the bar and for the first time he seemed to be living.

Leah and her family had supported you both tirelessly and you couldn’t have asked for more, they were the family you had always wished would come and save you both as kids. Leah was around for nearly all of the album creation, Lucas teaching her piano and when he finally deemed her good enough you both agreed she could record it for the album.

Life was good, you both were happy in London writing and hanging out with friends and your found family so why had you woken up in the middle of the night with a feeling of doom looming over you as you untangled from Leah. You had gone into Lucases room to check on him something you had done since you could walk, wanting to make sure his chest would still rise and fall when your father had given you both a particularly hard beating. Only this time his bed was empty, walking into the hall you noticed all the lights were off so where could he be. You decided not to panic and not to wake Leah either instead getting your phone to call him.

You knew the minute he didn’t answer the phone and the unnerving feeling of dread filled your chest that this was it, that you were the last man standing from a life you thought you had both out run, out lived but this, what your brother had just done showed that no matter where you went, how fast you ran you couldn’t leave the sick and twisted past you both had lived through it was a heavy bag you would be forced to carry for the rest of your life.

As you recounted every move you both had made over the past three months it was obvious, Lucas had been getting all his ducks in a row, checking in on everyone and making sure the album was complete before leaving, but now it was done and set to be released next month he felt it was time.

You felt numb as you sat at the bottom of the stairs, you didn’t know how you knew he was gone, but you had all of a sudden just had the feeling of a missing piece, maybe it was your twin telepathy you both had so wished to have growing up, this was a sick joke if it kicked in now, now when he was gone.

You sat at the bottom of the stairs until you felt Leah’s hand touch your shoulder “Orlov.” Your heart clenched at the nickname, Lucas had given Leah special permission to use it, certain that she wasn’t going anywhere that you had her forever the engagement ring hidden in his dresser, not that you knew, certain that she knew about what you had been through, that she understood the meaning behind your nickname.

You didn’t have time to react as a knock came from your front door, looking at Leah smiling sadly you got up from the stairs and opened the door to two police men “Miss Y/n Y/ln.” You nodded, you didn’t feel Leah come up behind you as you listen to the police officers tell you about your brother, that you needed to identify him before they moved forward. You nodded along to it all before you asked “was he…do you think he was in any pain.” The officer looked at you softly “Hypothermia kicked in before he drowned, he simply closed his eyes and was gone, no pain, no struggle.” You nodded “no pressure.” You mumbled before turning to get dressed.

Leah couldn’t believe it, he was gone, Lucas was gone a boy she loved like a brother and she couldn’t understand why, he was happy, you both were happy with them, writing the album why, why had he done it. She had gone with you to the morgue and had said she would call her mum but every time she tried her fingers froze on the call button and words got caught in her throat. It was you who had done it driving you both to the Williamson’s house Leah unable to look at her family as you asked them all to come to the living room Leah sat beside you head buried into your neck as she grasped you tightly scared that if she let you go you would be gone too.

Amanda had let out a sob as you finished, Jacob got up and left the room and David just stared at you in shock as you held Leah impossibly closer watching this family, your family, Lucases family fall apart at the news, helpless you did what you had done since childhood and decided now was the time for you to stay strong, you could cry later and so you helped with dinner, helped tell the rest of the family, cousins, aunts and uncles and Leah’s grandparents who had adopted you both. The Arsenal girls had been informed all of whom made their way to your house along with the Williamson’s with flowers and food enough to stock the fridge for the next two months offering support and tears for you and your brother

In the coming weeks the Williamson’s helped you plan the funeral, you didn’t know how one went let alone one in England and you often found yourself and David talking to the undertakers for hours organising it. Until finally the day came, everyone had stayed in your house the night before and Amanda had started a big fry before you all headed to the church but you couldn’t eat, you were saying good bye to your brother, your other half, you were about to walk this stupid life alone and for the first time you cursed at him, you both had made it this far why, why did he decide he couldn’t take it anymore.

Leah had held your hand the entire way both of you following the coffin, with Amanda as Jacob, and David along with Leah’s cousins and Danny his sponsor carried him into the church. You got up and said a few words, talking briefly about your childhood before thanking the Williamson’s for everything they had done for you both, thanking Leah for being both you and Lucases rock when you felt like the world was to much. Heading to the crematorium you decided to swap out with one of Leah’s cousins wanting to carry your brother one last time, the sight made Leah sob as Amanda tried to hold her whispering into her ear, but nothing came of it you were saying goodbye to everything you ever knew and all she could do was hold your hand.

After it was all said and done and the after in the pub had finished you found yourself standing in the centre of his bedroom Leah lying asleep in yours. You looked at everything he had, all the pictures his rehab tokens, his guitar and piano, how were you supposed to do this without him, sing without him there beside you, live without him there beside you. You fell back onto his bed reaching your hand under his pillow when it made a crunch noise before finding a letter with your name on it “ORLOV”. You sighed knowing what it was you pulled it open.

Orlov,

I’m gone, I have left you on this earth alone and for that I am truly sorry, I’m sorry that I couldn’t fight any longer but I hope you understand how tired I am. Tired of living this lonely unforgiving life and I hope that someday you will understand, you have have been, my rock, my best friend and my twin sister through the hardest life no child should have to live, But you have come through it stronger, you have come through the it all a diamond in the rough. You see you are a diamond, formed under the pressure of our childhood but me, I am coal a dark rock not meant to last long on this earth.

I hope you know I have decided that now is the right time to say goodbye as I know you are going to be ok, you have the Williamson’s, the Arsenal and most importantly Leah. She is it for you, she is the only person you will ever need, she is your alcohol (bad comparison I know, she’s a lot healthier.) you are ready, ready to take on this life and conquer the world, but remember it’s ok to slip as long as you don’t fall.

One question you always asked me growing up was what did I think heaven looked like and I always told you I don’t know, but I do heaven is watching you fall in love with that girl sleeping in your room, watching you find a family who loves you the way you deserve that is heaven I love you always and forever.

I’ll be watching from stars Orlov .

Lucas TB

For the first time in weeks you cried, no you sobbed gut wrenching sobs and Leah found herself sprinting from your bed room catching you as you fell from the bed holding you tight whispering reassuring words into your ear crying along with you as you cried and cried, cried for your younger self, you cried for your current self but mostly your cried for him, for Lucas until you cried your self to sleep. Leah carried you back to bed before coming back into Lucases room and picking up his letter turning it over and finding a second one attached to it, opening it she found lyrics to a song and reading over it she felt her heart clench at the meanings behind them all.

The next morning Leah showed you the lyrics and before she even had time to ask if you wanted a coffee you were on the phone with your label canceling the album instead stating you had a different one.

Leah watched you tirelessly in the studio scared that if she left you alone in there you might never come back out, regretting her decision when you had dragged her in to record a piano piece.

A month later you handed your label a brand new album written mostly about you and Lucas with track six being for Leah, the label loved it and pushed for it to be released sooner than expected.

ORLOV

Track 1 Stick Season

Track 2 Bitter Winds

Track 3 Condemned

Track 4 Revival

Track 5 I Remember Everything (Lucas Y/LN, feat Y/n Y/LN)

Track 6 Sun to Me

Track 7 Dawns (Lucas Y/LN, feat Y/n Y/LN)

Track 8 Tourniquet (feat Leah Williamson.)

Track 9 Orange Juice

Track 10 Coal

With Leah's unwavering support, you found the strength to honor Lucases memory during the small tour you quickly been sent on leaving the grand piano seat empty until Leah came on to play her part in Tourniquet. You decided to end the small tour in London, your first headline show sold out at the roundhouse already playing five previous dates here due to the demand. Knowing this would be the last time of playing a small venue and with that a chapter closing and you having to enter one without Lucas you sighed retuning the guitar as you spoke to the crowd “My twin brother Lucas wrote this last song I’m about to play.” You cleared your throat looking out into the crowd before turning to the empty piano seat “We had a very hard childhood, but I knew as long as I had him, I’d be ok. Lucas left me on this earth alone just a couple months ago, but he knew something I didn’t, he knew I wasn’t really going to be alone, that I had a family that loved me, a girl who loved me even more and that really he wasn’t leaving he was just tired of his adventures on earth and wanted to see what the stars were like.” You sighed turning back to the crowd “this next song is called coal, and it talks about the pressures of life and I just want you all to know that when you feel like life is to full of pressure that when you can’t seem to find the light at the end of the tunnel that maybe look down you might find your four leaved clover, I got mine she’s in the crowd tonight, but there is always someone nobody here is alone.” You smiled catching Leah’s eyes “this is Coal.”

#woso #awfc #woso fanfics #woso one shot #woso imagine #leah williamson #leah williamson x y/n #leah williamson imagine #leah williamson x reader #leah williamson x you #Orlov #dylan gossett #zach bryan #noah kahan #woso blurbs #woso community #woso x reader #woso soccer #woso couples #stick season #coal #northern attitude #homesick #false confidence #heavy eyes #heading south #something in the orange #bitter winds #i remember everything #dawns

[weird-an]

Billy is looking for a fight.

He's trying to get Steve to fucking flip for the whole week now. He's jostling him in the hallways, telling him to finally plant his feet and calls him King Steve, pretty boy and as a newest addition to the growing list of pet names Prince Charming.

Steve bites his cheek and says nothing. His hands curl into fists and he's so tempted, but he knows it's exactly what Billy wants. Another stupid fight - no fucking way. After another headache Steve finally decided that he's just shit at throwing punches and only awesome at taking them.

Billy is staring at him, too. A lot. He thinks Steve doesn't notice and for a long time Steve actually didn't. First Steve thought he's just plotting his next annoying move to finally rile Steve up enough.

But it's different. Billy doesn't realize he's staring. He's licking his lips, twirling a strand of hair between his fingers. Doesn't react to Tommy who's talking his ear off. It finally dawns to Steve what that means when Billy is leaning next to Tammy Thompson and they are both staring at him.

Tammy Thompson tried to crawl on Steve's lap and kiss him the last time he went to a party.

Steve almost laughs when it hits him. Billy sucks at flirting. And Jesus, what's with the pet names?

A day later, Steve hangs out under the bleachers and of course, like a bloodhound, Billy finds him.

"Hey Prince-"

Steve is pretty sure he's going to explode if Billy finishes that sentence. Maybe Billy even thinks he wants to fight.

"If you wanna go out, just fucking ask."

"I'm not, I'm - what the fuck?" Billy stumbles back. "Are you a fucking faggot?"

"Fifty, fifty, maybe." Steve shrugs. He just knows he likes to fool around with girls and guys. It has always been like this. Why fucking choose?

Billy gapes at him, lips parted and Steve wonders if kissing him will be a great way to shut him up. Apparently Billy didn't know what he was doing.

"I- I'm." Billy looks around, like he's scared someone will see them talking. "I'm.. not like..."

Billy Hargrove squirming is a sight Steve will never forget. He wants to take a photo. The tip of his nose turns red. It's adorable.

"I should hit you," Billy says lamely. He doesn't move though.

"Dude, you're hitting on me," Steve sighs. "So let's go to Skull Rock tonight and have some fun."

Billy seems to catch himself. He gives Steve a smug grin. "Oh, I'm always fun, pretty boy."

His nose is still red. Steve can't wait to see if he can make him blush any further.

#billy can be oblivious too #confident steve is everything to me #harringrove #billy x steve #billy hargrove #harringrove ficlet #steve x billy

[jayktoralldaylong]

Jon: If you need a vessel so bad why don't you just become-

Elias: Because I'm not scared of them.

Jon: ......

Elias: I don't need your body, Jon. I need your fear. 😈

Meanwhile, Elias the Gaslight King in earlier seasons: Jon you know I'd never let anything bad happen to you, I'm only trying to help. We need to save the world together, isn't that what we're trying to achieve? Oh Jon, Jon, Jon, bad things are only happening because you do not trust me. Trust me, and we can save everyone. Don't you believe me?

Then it went the exact opposite with Peter and Martin.💀😂💔

Peter: I've got the perfect plan to beat Elias. Can you do what it takes to become the hero?

Martin: I'm going to save the world?

Peter: Yes, and it will be you and you alone. Do you trust me?

Martin: I trust you.

That same season 💀

Peter: You played me! 😳😭 You've been lying to me this entire time.

Martin: You lied first 🙄 and I knew it the instant you told me I'd save the world. I can't save the world. I've never saved anything in my entire life. I'm not important enough to be the hero.

#And it fascinates me to no end. The amusing spin on the characters. With Elias and Jon you've got a Master Manipulator #and a Pessimist with no sense of self preservation. 💀 #With Peter and Martin you've got someone who's not spent enough time with people to either know how manipulation works or when someone is #lying to him. 💀 #And someone with low self esteem. 💀 #Jon has low self esteem too #but he genuinely believes he can fix everything himself and that's where they differ. #And things only start changing for the better when Jon can fully rely on Martin #And here's the most fascinating thing of all. #Stopping the apocalypse #giving Jon the confidence to embrace his powers but not get consumed by them #that was all Martin #Fighting for Jon's life #that was Martin. #At the end of the day #Martin was the hero #and he never realised it. #tma #the magnus archives #jmart #tma jmart #jon x martin #martin blackwood #jonathan sims #If Martin is the knight in shining armour that would make Jon our princess #seems about right #it's about time we got a monster-core princess too #Jon showing up to the grand ball covered from head to toe in eyes. #elias bouchard #peter lukas

[intheinkpot]

The weapon you sought - I have it. It blocks Her influence. Not a lie, a test. Your orders are to kill those who have the weapon. Would you kill me?

Other version here.

#after this it goes into her line about everything since the underdark feeling like a dream unlike the other version were she storms off #i love that with the first sentence minthara sounds so confident she would kill you #and then immediately starts coming up with reasons she might not have to #i mean to post this shortly after posting the other version of this same conversation but then i forgot oops #minthara #minthara baenre #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #minthara x tav #oc: faerel #this is the dialogue option faerel actually went with in game #bg3 screenshots

[spilledmilkfkdies]

You’ve mentioned knowing every Wizards of the Black Circle fanfiction, and I was wondering: do you know any fics that ship Gantlos and Duman?

At like a certain point in time those were basically all the English fics we had, you got to choose between wizards/winx or Gantlos/Duman, had to be real lucky to find anything else?? Some of them were deleted though, I think. There goes a bit of HISTORY 😔😔

I know there's still a few in the AO3 wizard tag and Gantlos x Duman tag though, specifically at the end. The same ones were also crossposted on ffn, but I don't go there often because I struggle with the tagging over there sjjsdjj but I'm aware of the fresh batch dropped on there! I'll give you 3 links for it because, again, I struggle with the tagging there;

[Black Circle tag]

[Gantlos tag]

[Duman tag]

A somewhat personal recommendation would be Warm A Wizard’s Heart, which was also crossposted. Like I'm not fully invested in the ship, but I can appreciate that lil fic. Maybe that wrecks all my credibility but sjsksghsj I felt bad just throwing you into tags to look for yourself so there.

I'm not sure how many fics there are outside of English, but I'll be keeping an eye out! This is just what I know currently.

#tbh i'm rusty #and not fully confident i know everything anymore #but i do my best!! #all day every day #inhale exhale #gotta get back into it #in multiple ways #lemme read up besties #winx club #winx fanfic #winx villains #wizards of the black circle #winx gantlos #winx duman #gantlos x duman #answered ask

[dottores]

Wtf did you put on my timeline 😀

Since the history of Y/N stories, the reader ALWAYS had a backstory. I fail to see how this suddenly makes Y/N a OC. The same goes for gender. Usually in the description or first sentence you would immediately know Y/N’s gender. It’s nice to be inclusive but you can’t force the author to cater to a specific demographic.

I will admit though: I LOATHE when a author enforces a skintone onto Y/N without mentioning it in the beginning. The fact this stuff is rarely tag is pretty annoying. If authors have to tag their fanfic with “POC!Reader” to point out that reader is meant to have a ethnic background, for the love of god please do the same if the reader is meant to be interpreted as white. Nothing puts me out of a story when I envisioned a character to fit the story only to see them described as “pale, fair skinned” by the narrator several paragraphs later.

There is a really nice plugin for AO3 where it can replace pronouns and fill in the Y/N slot with an actual name. It would be nice if such a plugin existed for tumblr. Authors won’t have to give into obligations and those who feel alienated can still enjoy the work.

PLEASEEEEEE AJFHASIUDFHU IF I HAD TO SEE IT YOU GUYS ALL HAVE TO TOO. i am a firm believer of sharing is caring <3

EXACTLY, like especially for authors who do long fics or series, giving reader 0 personality/no background story is next to impossible unless you just want them to like ... be there and take no initiative in the story and just have things happen to them and for them to have no reaction to anything. like even in smut and headcanons, there are going to be little things you can pick out personality-wise, its next to impossible to just have a cardboard cut out reader for any type of fic, much less long fics/series. someone will always disagree with something <- but tee explained this all better in her long rb addition to that post

AND I TOTALLY AGREE! like they had very valid points about physical appearance and properly tagging gender, but i hate the fact that they added all of those valid points in that mess of an argument of why "x reader fics" should have no personality or background, because i felt as if it was totally taking away from that. it's two totally separate issues that they were trying to combine into one big one but just made an even bigger mess out of it.

for real! ao3's tagging system is top tier like i know a lot of people find it confusing but it's so nice to be able to filter any and everything you want or don't want.

#— asks #could you guys imagine heliotropes!reader just not having any background or personality like #how would that even work #THERE WOULD BE NO STORY #anyway i am so convinced i have the best lil community on my blog i love u all so dearly #every time i see posts like this it reminds me how lucky i am that i have you guys and not people like that who just consume consume consum #and expect everything to be perfectly tailored to what they find relatable #you guys actually appreciate my LITERARY GENIUS AND PLOTS #<- thats a joke by the way #but #kind of i'm glad you guys read and appreciate the plot AND the character of heliotropes!reader because ive been pretty vocal about the fact #that i was nervous about giving her agency and background and personality specifically because i knew that there were people with this #viewpoint who are like radically against x reader fics with fleshed out readers but you guys literally made me so confident and happy with #your feedback and appreciation for it :') so thank u #i feel like i don't thank u guys enough i should #wow this got a little sappy #but ily guys #tw discourse

[hail-ey-m]

ѕнσтα αιzαωα--ѕєℓƒ нαтяє∂

Relationship: Platonic

!!TW: Self depreciating thoughts!!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

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Problem Child

I apologize for this letter coming out of the blue but I think it’s something very important that we should talk about.

I saw some things you had written down in a notebook about yourself, I must say I am very surprised and sad to find out that you think these things of yourself.

I… I can’t really comprehend what could’ve happened to make you think of yourself in this way, maybe someone told these things to you or convinced you that they were true.

If this was caused by someone, I can no longer guarantee their safety.

 

Either way, I want you to know that those things are not true. You have no reason to hate yourself, everyone makes mistakes because everyone is human. 

You have so many people that care about you and would be devastated to know that you think these things of yourself. If you don’t have those people, you have me and author-san.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do to convince you that you are worth so much more then you think and deserve every good thing in this world. 

I’m always here if you need to talk, let people help you, let me help you.

~ Aizawa ♡

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© 2023 Shiggy | All Rights Reserved | No portion of this work may be used or adapted in any way without the author's explicit consent.

#spotify #anime comfort #anime x gender neutral reader #comfort character #comfort letter #comfort #my hero academia x gender neutral reader #my hero acedamia #my hero academia x reader #my hero academia #aizawa shouta #shota aizawa #mha aizawa #aizawa x reader #bnha aizawa #low self worth #low self everything #low self image #low self confidence

[skunkes]

,

#talkys #everyones always like omg i wish i had the confidence to even privately draw self ship stuff whether it be self x oc or oc x canon etc #i will trade with one of you. any of you. it's so humiliating. to not be able to interact with something unless you're in it. #no experiences to draw inspiration from so you have to insert yourself into everything. #only knowing yourself so you can only make ocs kinda like yourself too ! or only really develop em if theyre Like You. #it's not a self love thing for me. i guess thats also why i feel the need to do it. im about as real as the rest of these fictional #characters too. augh. #whatever! back to drawing me and talon hanging out. but strangling myself about it. out of anger toward myself #i wish my art could come from anywhere else but all i have is me in my room all alone #also god. i know every artist has their niche itd be boring if we all did the same thing but #why'd this have to be mine. why did i get the worst roll. why me. why me. why me.

[redxblueihateloveyou]

the discrimination is real.

#pingxie #wu xie #zhang qiling #wu xie x zhang qiling #lost tomb reboot #daomu biji #dmbj #reunion the sound of the providence #the secondhand embarrassment is real during this part lmao #like everything about wu xie in this part is absolute perfection #I really can't tell if he's aware of his nonsense or no #sometimes it seems so and then it just doesn't lmao #idk how can you be confidently gay without being aware but he is that lol #lost tomb #seems fair wu xie lol #everyone gets blessings and gifts for their weddings but xiaoge will get you haha #thats canon xD #love the censorship

[bylertruther]

imma keep it real with you guys and tell u the most basic common sense thing ever which i thought everyone knew but apparently not (not said in a mean or condescending way). ahem. it's ok to write a byler fic that only has byler in it. no one is going to stone you or bite you if you don't include the entire party or every other character. it's literally okay 🩷

#you don't know where to fit x character? or you don't feel confident writing them? brother you literally don't have to include them lol #ngl i love fics written by oldheads who give side characters the most random assignments ever #ESPECIALLY when they're only described physically and it makes you go ''hm.. red hair.. glasses.. WAIT IS IT BARB?! 😦'' #read this one fic where everything is different and it's totally 100% au in every way and there was a character that we never got their #name and it FUCKING KILLED ME!!!!!!!!!!!! bc i couldn't tell if it was joyce or karen omfg jus tht it was an older kind brunette #and then the author disappeared so now i'll never kno </3 #but ya. some of my favorite fics have had only mike and will and maybe the byerses #just because the source material is an ensemble show doesn't mean that all of the fan works have to also be an ensemble!

[cluescorner]

I cannot imagine being a Damian stan right now. You've got both Zdarsky's bullshit (where he clearly doesn't give a shit about your boy) and The Boy Wonder (where Juni Ba clearly gives so many shits about your boy) coming out on the same day. The whiplash must be insane. I hope y'all get some nice warm soup for your efforts jfc

#damian wayne #damian al ghul #damian al ghul wayne #batman #batfamily #for all of the issues that come with having Steph as your fave having too much wild shit happening at once is never one of them #btw I quite like The Boy Wonder Issue 1. wow shocker an artist and writer who I have liked everything they've ever done #has once again written something that I am enjoying with art that makes me want to be part of its world. #it's almost like Juni Ba is really freaking talented or something #like I have some problems with it but it seems like many of those are part of the point. Damian is learning that his siblings are more #three-dimensional than he realized and that is part of this 'coming of age' story merged with fairytale #so I can't be mad at the oversimplistic defining of Dick and Jason and Tim until the conclusion of the series. that might be the point. #I hope that the series will address Steph as a Robin but if not then frankly it's not an issue unique to this series. #I'll be annoyed and disappointed but ultimately roll with it like I am with Babsgirl being here. There's too much good stuff here to get #hung up on shit that seems to be almost an editorial mandate at this point. at least that's where I'm at. #I am also very sorry that Chip Zdarsky is massacring your boy. he has 'X (Tim for him) is the best Robin so everyone else must suck' diseas #where a writer really likes one specific Robin and in trying to uplift them demeans all of the other Robins. instead of like...just writing #for that one character only or alternatively not demeaning the other characters in order to make his blorbo look good #it's wild because I actually think his writing for Tim is pretty solid. but he's not writing a Tim series. he's writing a Batman series. #and if you are going to write a Batman series and include other Batfamily members you need to actually write them well. #instead of assigning them like 2 personality traits while Tim gets to be a whole character #I accept that behavior in fanfic where I have lesser standards because it's fucking free. not a comic run that wants me to pay #tens of dollars in order to understand what the fuck is going on. he's been going for a while now it's gotta be a lot of money. #I can buy Steelworks with that money. I can see John Henry and Natasha Irons in a trade. Fuck you Chip. #it's why it takes such a special person to write a good ensemble story/a good Batfamily story. you have to be good at writing a LOT #of different characters. which I don't think most people are. I sure as hell am not. I can write maybe 3 at a time confidently well. #and you also have to give all of them at least SOME love or else people will be upset that you aren't focusing on their fave #and also the writing as a whole will suffer. Chip Zdarsky is a pretty good Tim writer. I'd maybe read a Tim solo written by him. #I would not read a story focusing on multiple characters that I like written by Chip Zdarsky. because every character who isn't Tim #is at least a bit weak/inconsistent/out of character INCLUDING FUCKING BATMAN. THE NO. 1 GUY MOST ARE HERE FOR

[tvintedspvrkarc]

im so fuckin good at manips are u kidding wow behold

@lcstinfantasy

#{ have u ever seen such identical twins wow unreal } #lcstinfantasy weston x tyler tbt . #✧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ ☆ —— and i looked so confident babe i swear i was scared to death ⌗ weston . #✧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ ☆ 🤍 ‧₊˚ ⋅ i’m back between villages and everything’s still ⌗ scrapbook . #✧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ ☆ 🤍 ‧₊˚ ⋅ you and all of your new perspective now ⌗ visage .

[firebenders-are-cool]

Years ago I came up with an ATLA fic idea for the earth avatar after korra and it was kinda good but I stopped caring about it. as I developed the plot and transformed my initial (flawed) idea, I got less interested in it because it was no longer the same idea. I basically wanted to write Trope A, didn't like that it was such a bad rendition of Trope A, fixed it, and got bored cause it wasn't Trope A anymore. I absolutely don't have the time (or desire) to go write it now (especially with avatar studios coming in hot with a new avatar), but damn I hope an alternate universe-me wrote it.

#atla #basically it was the same issue genji had and kyoshi had and all the fics have with not knowing who the new avatar is. Confusing two ppl #/not sure which is which #person A was abandoned at birth and given to family B #family B also had a child at the same time (gasp) which was person B #They grew up together in B's family. Both are benders #B was super clever and brave and maybe a bit headstrong but otherwise everything everyone expected of an avatar #kinda crappy parents of B are warned around age 14 or something that A and B could be dangerous together by Some Secret Source (villain for #and *insert political factors here* parents of B abandon them both. #[both A and B are mixed earth and fire nation] #A is a bit mellower and follows B's lead a lot of the time / doesn't mind not being the best at everything. #A and B go on adventures/solve mysteries on why their parents left both of them etc #that's like the first act and they find out one of them could be the avatar #they're poor btw. anyway #They of course make friends along the way (similar to aang's aventure-journey arc) and bam team avatar 3.0 #except they don't know who the avatar is. gasp #so they look for people who might know how to find that out and they're like “it doesn't matter if it's you or me it's fine!” But ofc B #is really confident that it's them #blah blah they train and they find out Person A is the avatar. world crumbles #B is shocked and maybe there are issues beforehand yknow but A leaves for training and B is left in the dust feeling useless #Now abandoned by both family and friends in their eyes #B retreats and disappears for a few years as A trains. A does avatar things. B secretly gets involved with the Wrong Sort [villains] #maybe something spiritual? unlike lok2? who knows. Not me #leads up to A and B confronting each other and it's sad. A does not want this. B feels betrayed cause of x and y events #B obviously feels justified in their cause #*cue fight* but something changes w/ the villain and B's reality starts to crack #A convinces B that it's not all lost. Insert something about their parents again #gasp B's parents were threatened maybe. or not. Never decided #B starts to come around and together they kick ass. B has a LOT of community service hours to fill #protagonist to villain (maybe antihero?) to protagonist again

[oceanwithinsblog]

i was minding my own business while listening to this bbm inspired playlist and i accidentally heard the (official?) lyrics to 'the wings' for the first time

* i usually listen to the official soundtrack on spotify, i didn't know there was a version of this song with lyrics lol

well ... i will never recover.

#my heart is shattered in a billion pieces #just the mere thought of jack giving ennis enough confidence to be his own authentic self even when he's not around makes my heart #and mind ache #what do you mean jack gave ennis wings just by loving him and showing him he deserves the most beautiful life #istg they're everything to me #if i hear anyone reducing this movie to the gay cowboys one more time i'll smash my head against the wall #ennis x jack #bbm #brokeback mountain #the wings #ok wait a sec #it's so interesting and utterly devastating to me how jack gives ennis wings as in the strength to be unapologetically himself #but it is him who dies in the story leaving ennis behind #and therefore ennis could use said wings to try and reach jack or at least to live the life he was denied since birth #i'm gonna cry #curling up in the dark atm

[hail-ey-m]

ѕнσтα αιzαωα--ѕєℓƒ ¢σηѕ¢ισυѕ

Relationship: platonic

!!TW: bad self image!!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

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Problem Child

I’ve taken notice to some of you’re mannerisms in class that’s leading me to write you this letter.

Look kid, you are great at what you do. You are no less then the people around you, even if they are all great. 

Don’t put other’s over you, we are all human and all humans have flaws.

Wether you feel your lacking in your abilities or looks, or you are self conscious of your interests or personality, even if all of these apply, you are perfectly fine the way you are and you shouldn’t let other peoples standards make you feel otherwise.

I wouldn’t lie to you for the sake of making you feel better, so you know I’m telling the truth. 

If you still want to work on things, you can always ask people for help. For example, if you need help training you can always ask me. If you want tips for your appearance, ask Ashido. Ext. ext.

If you need to talk, I’ll always be here to listen. 

~ Aizawa ♡

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© 2023 Shiggy | All Rights Reserved | No portion of this work may be used or adapted in any way without the author's explicit consent.

#spotify #anime comfort #anime x gender neutral reader #comfort character #comfort letter #comfort #my hero academia x gender neutral reader #my hero acedamia #my hero academia x reader #my hero academia #shota aizawa #mha aizawa #aizawa x reader #aizawa shouta #bnha aizawa #low self everything #low self image #low self confidence #insecurities

[talldecafcappuccino]

I have rewatched the three major ted/rebecca scenes of the finale and it was an excellent experience. If you’re feeling up to it, I highly recommend.

#to be honest my experience was pretty positive the first time #but now I feel confident in that assessment #and if I read one more complaint about ted being a shut down pod person who gave no reaction to rebecca's emotional goodbyes? #well nothing will happen but please god try rewatching the episode #Jason is so lovely in that airport scene #also the way Rebecca says the thing about staying with her family and the ‘matriarch’ line? that fulfills Tish’s predictions *for me* #I get the read of it as a red herring of everything being fulfilled and then *bam* boatman #but to me it’s finished at that point and boatman is just icing on some people’s cake #(not mine) #(but some people) #ted x rebecca #ted lasso spoilers