#cjs rambling

[pinkisacreativecolour]

Okay okay okay. This post is going to be mentioning so much murder and death and also a lil bit of existential horror and just plain old horror but yk. With the concept I’m about to speak into this world it’s bound to happen. It’s also crack taken seriously. So. High school au.

Tha basic facts:

Chuuya lives with Verlaine

The Flags and Chuuya are friends and have been for a year

Dazai got taken from Mori’s care when the old boss died so he’s in a foster home with atsushi rn. They live with the Izumi’s.

Oda’s with Fukuzawa. Ranpo and Yasano too.

The Ada are a detective group outside of school. It’s literally just made of high schoolers and middle schoolers. They are the best in Yokohama. The people think the police are a joke.

. The flags are a youth club that Pianoman managed to establish with the old principle. They do basically whatever they want with the promise of doing shit for the school when they graduate. The old fuck dies (murdered by Mori), and when said worlds worst high-school doctor takes over, he tries to disband the club after they couldn’t get Chuuya to start living on campus. Verlaine said no. Mori wants to make Verlaine , + Chuuya when he graduates, work for him.

The flags aren’t really sure what to do and Chuuya can’t move onto campus without permission and so. They decide to try and summon the spirit of the old principle to get him to tell Mori to leave them alone without him realising it was them. Chuuya says it’s a stupid idea. Albatross says it’ll be fine. What’s the worst that can happen?

Instead they manage to summon the ancient horror Arahabaki.

A lotttttt of psychedelic shit happens. Arahabaki wants at least one soul in exchange for the other’s freedom. Chuuya sacrifices himself and the rest of the flags are left reeling. Albatross yells at the Ancient horror god that there has to be something they can do to get their friend back.

Arahabaki says it wants 100 souls in exchange for Chuuya’s. In thirty days. The flags have to kill them all before delivering the bodies to Arahabaki as proof.

… what the fuck.

Arahabaki: this town is too peaceful. I want chaos. And souls. And blood.

So now. A group of 17-19 year olds have to try and kill 100 people in 30 days without getting caught. With an ancient horror haunting them with their currently dead friend’s body and voice. One of them has to tell Verlaine. And Adam. No one wants to tell Dazai. Exams are in exactly 36 days.

I call it How to Kill 100 people in 30 days. The title font looks like a romcom

#cjs rambling #bsd #bsd the flags #bsd flags #bsd chuuya #bsd verlaine #bsd dazai #murder mention tw #death mention #how to kill 100 people in 30 days #long post

[flowercrowngods]

“Baby?”

Steve lifts his head off the pillow to look at Eddie, his back arching in a much needed way after lying on his stomach for so long, and he ends up groaning appreciatively as he stretches his back a little more. It makes Eddie smile. All the small things do.

Overcome with sudden but gentle affection, Steve rolls over with a matching smile and comes to a stop lying halfway beneath Eddie, getting a glorious view of his deepening dimples.

“Yeah?”

“I’ve been thinking,” Eddie says, his hand coming up to brush Steve’s hair out of his forehead. Steve leans into his warmth a little further, feeling so incredibly loved when Eddie looks at him like that.

It’s infinite, what he feels for Eddie. What he feels with Eddie.

“Oh? ‘Bout what?”

Eddie leans down and brushes a kiss to the tip of Steve’s nose. “You,” he says. “Me. Us.”

Steve hums, wrapping himself in Eddie’s scent as he buries his face in his chest, his arms trapped between them. He can’t move. Can hardly breathe. It’s perfect, and Eddie always indulges his cat-like tendencies, as he calls it.

“Tell me about your thoughts?”

A hand weaves its way into his hair, scratching wonderfully along his scalp in lazy, soothing patterns.

“I’m gonna put pillows on the walls for you.”

“Hmm?”

“When we have our own place. I’m gonna put pillows on the walls for you. In the kitchen even, so you can sit on the floor and still be comfy. You can have a little nook for floor time with Robin. And it’s gonna be padded with pillows, but the ones that are still solid. Only a little soft. Still grounding.” Eddie mumbles, a little lost in thought like he’s still imagining it all unfold.

Steve melts, first rolling further into him and then back, so he can look up and meet those soft, soft eyes.

“That’s what you’re thinking about?”

“All the time. Never wanna tell you about it so I won’t ruin the surprise, but, I don’t know. Wanted to tell you. You’re gonna have bougie-ass wall pillows, angel.”

And Steve doesn’t know how to handle this. How to take it all, take everything Eddie gives him and live his life an unchanged man. His heart is going to burst one of these days. It’s gonna burst and it’s gonna go everywhere, remind the world for all eternity of the love they shared. Built. Shaped and reshaped in all the ways they needed.

“Everything,” he says, his voice weak with the awe he feels, his own hand coming up to Eddie’s cheek.

“Hmm?” Eddie’s nuzzling the palm of his hand, brushing kiss over kiss to the centre.

“You’re— You’re everything. Can’t believe it sometimes.”

“Only sometimes?” Eddie teases, making Steve laugh for the first time in hours. It’s easy. God, it’s so easy.

“Don’t be so full of yourself.”

“Oh, I’m gonna be full of som—“

Laughing, Steve claps his hand over Eddie’s mouth, shutting him up and revelling in the giggle that follows before Eddie nips on his palm.

“I hate you,” Steve grins, wrapping his arms around Eddie’s middle.

“Yeah, well,” he hums, fond affection settling permanently on that pretty, pretty face. “‘M still gonna put pillows on the wall for you.”

Steve sighs, hoping to relieve some of the intensity he’s feeling. It’s overwhelming, even after all this time.

“I love you.”

“I love you,” Eddie whispers, hovering above him in an almost-kiss. “Endlessly.”

@puppy-steve i love you. i’d put pillows on the wall for you 🤍🌷

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#steddie fic #steddie #dio words #steve harrington #eddie munson #dio’s steddie ramblings #floor time #<- going back to my OG steddie ways even if it’s only implied #they’re soooo in love smh #cj i’m holding you ily so much i miss talking to you (i just suck) but pls this is for you i hope it makes things better 🥺🤍

[safarishitposts]

honestly i love little mundane everyday things that fictional characters do

like just imagining your little guy just living their everyday life and relaxing is so heartwarming to me

i specifically like thinking about hms and how they would live everyday life , like who would prepare meals? would they do it good? would the others giggle and poke fun at them affectionately? like them all collaborating on something and doing something fun together like dnd or hiking or just watching a movie.

would heart share his interests with mind? would mind do the same? would they bring up inside jokes in front of soul and chuckle as he cluelessly stares at the two? like the three practicing their instruments in the house and dying their hair and hanging out with eachother and showing eachother cool things they like and just living their happy little lives

the beauty of emotions and bonding and how humans interact with eachother and how they live their regular lives fascinates me and sparks a little lightbulb in my brain about how much we project ourselves and how we act onto characters and ocs and their world

i think mind would call heart slurs

#chonny jash #chonny jash heart #chonny jash mind #chonny jash soul #cccc heart #cj heart #the heart acoustic #cccc mind #cj mind #mind chonny jash #the mind electric #cccc soul #cj soul #the soul eclectic #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #i miss my wife oliver. Ill be right back. (safari rambling tag)

[itsnotjustgibberish]

#chonny jash #Chonny Jash fanart #Chonny Jash meme #chonny’s charming chaos compendium #cccc hms #cccc #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #cccc heart #cccc mind #cccc soul #chonny rambles #chonny jash ramblings #art #itsnotjustgibberish #cringle jimble from my songs #sparkle on its wednesday #sparkle on

[ihave1braincell]

Silly/interesting things I found in a Chonny Jash QnA bc why not?

#cj mind #cj heart #chonnys inferno #chonny rambles #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj soul #crazy maybe?

[dontlookforme00]

What if I told you I have never had an original idea ever

FLASH WARNING FOR SPEEDPAINT UNDER CUT SORRY

Speedpaint time !! Never uploaded a speedpaint. Ignore the canvas flipping, this is so so much less than I usually do.

Side note. Yes I changed Heart to be a jester, I'm very sorry, but his fucking lipstick was impossible to get right. Consider it a reference to my Jester!Heart drawing that one time.

I also added (or tried to) little straps on Soul's mask as a nod to a Soul design posted by the original artist of the cccc cover art. Reblogs appreciated

#am i fully integrated into the fandom yet . i did a cccc album cover redraw #or as we like to call them in the gcse art sphere. artist copies #(gets shot. the camera pans to show it was me who shot myself) #im rambling why am i rambling. reblog. goodbye have a nice day #my art #chonny jash #digital art #artists on tumblr #robbiedrancid #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #chonny jash fanart #fanart #cccc soul #cccc mind #cccc heart #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #cj hms #flash warning

[tallyhoot]

mind glows in the dark like a glowstick because i said so

#cj mind #cccc #eddies random rambles

[chaosxcrushed]

There's a certain CCCC summary video that we really, really like. We think it is a great video for people if they want to grasp the story more clearly, if they're confused, or if they're listening to the album for the first time.

That video being Chonny Jash and the Weight of the Mind on Youtube by W3tBl@nk3t. We think they cover it really well.

However, I'm sharing this for a different reason; they say few certain things that really struck with us until now, that I'd like to share with the fandom. Sometimes, we see people really just.. Miss the point of CCCC entirely, and I'd like to shine a light on what was said here. If you'd like to hear this for yourself on video, the timestamp is 35:57-36:45.

“..I bet we all could relate to that, they are the prime example of the side of you that suffers and the side of you that hates yourself for suffering:

The side of you that just wants to slow down and feel everything even to the unhealthy extent of not being able to do anything else(1), but also the side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it(2).

Sure, laying in bed all day every day to rot isn't healthy, but neither is boiling things down and invalidating your own emotions. Both are paths to inevitable disaster, and that's what Chonny is doing here. Keep in mind that the idea behind this album is being whole, and that means neither of these sides are entirely in the right or the wrong; this album is about inner compromise and acceptance(3).”

1.) The side of you that suffers; Heart. He is representative of Whole's emotions, he holds them. Your emotions can go haywire, especially when one's mentally ill and has no way of their feelings being validated. An emotional person like Heart suffers under the weight of crushing, devastating feelings. He wants to feel things out, have time to just process everything, even if it takes them days or weeks to get over it. It's not healthy, but feeling is what he does, and he wants to help because he knows he has importance. Solely focusing on just your emotions isn't the best thing to do, however.

2.) The side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it; Mind. Many people have been there, have wanted themselves to stop wallowing in their own emotions and just do something else, even to the point where you think feeling things out is unnecessary. This is also unhealthy, but not intentionally. Like Heart, Mind just wants to help, everything he does is in best interest. This is what he thinks will get them to move on the quickest; to leave behind emotions and focus on anything BUT that. Also not the best thing to do.

3.) This album is about inner compromise and acceptance; About being whole. Neither of Heart and Mind are right nor wrong. They have their own ways of doing things, of what they think will help their whole self out the most, but both are unhealthy despite the good intentions. They fight over who's wrong or right, when they shouldn't even be doing so in the first place. It's your thoughts against your emotions, basically; your feelings contradict your thoughts, and it leads to an inner war of sorts. This won't make things better, which is why you can't have Mind over Heart or vice versa; you'll need both of them. In the album, they are only able to be whole when they get along. They harmonize, they 'combine', they see eye to eye with each other and work together instead of fighting over and over. Inner compromise is achieved with this, and acceptance can lead them away from any disaster that there's to come.

What we're trying to say is that mental health is a large thing tackled within CCCC, and yet we see a lot of people who overlook it; thus, end up missing the point of the whole album. We see a lot of people believe Mind's perspective a little too much and treat Heart quite harshly, or the other way where people demonize Mind and say that Heart is perfect, when it's not really that in the slightest.

This is not a hate post towards people's interpretations of CCCC or how they view characters, I'm just saying that people can tend to overlook what's in the very narrative, and we see a concerning amount of people do such.

Anyways. Stream CCCC and put your Hearts and Minds in the get along shirt. Have a nice day.

#chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc heart #cj heart #cccc mind #cj mind #mind chonny jash #heart chonny jash #I did not mention Soul once in this post. I am so sorry to all of the Soul enjoyers #whole was technically mentioned but this is not about him. so sorry to the Whole enjoyers as well #we rreally really really like this CCCC video #a lot #it does a great job at explaining things and is fairly good for an unbiased telling of the story #to reiterate though this is not a hate post #it's just a bit frustrating to see how many people say that mind is right or heart is right #but no.. that is not the point of cccc #and it's even in tse as well. the line 'neither is right yet neither is wrong' #personally we are big fans of heart and will defend him since he gets so mischaracterized #but we know and acknowledge that he isn't 100% correct and can be wrong for what he wants to do and has done #we love Heart but he did not have to pull that gun. #also. more justice for characters who make mistakes but aren't automatically super evil because they're just human. #we've seen how people lack that understanding in the fandom </3 #hmsw are so incredibly flawed in a relatable way with such good writing #we feel like people overlook that so much #this post was scary to make but #we're doing it #here goes #CxC rambling and yapping #we haven't posted purely text posts in a while please don't come for our heads c4 fandom

[purpleleafsyt]

Figured I should post these here too! These are pieces for a daily account I'm a part of over on Twitter and all three have finally posted :]

All done in MS Paint, btw

#purplearts #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cj soul #noose imagery #scopophobia #eyestrain #PLEASE IGNORE THAT LANGUAGE IS MISSPELLED IN THE SECOND IMAGE I CANT BE BOTHERED TO FIX IT FOR THESE POSTS #also the gaps in lyrics are intentional #on twt the missing lyrics are for the captions but the formatting would look strange here so im not adding it #ALSO i know its 'on jesus' but I like oh jesus better here #anyways. yeag. art #the first was a pain because i accidentally used the anialiasing brush that forced me to manually erase everything #the other two went pretty smooth sailing though #im. gonna stop rambling in my tags now goodbye :D

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

you guys… izzy calls stede things like “ponce” and “fop”* because those are class-based insults. stede is a rich fuck who decided on a whim to pirate and absorbed ed into his dangerous little play fantasy. izzy doesn’t hate stede for being “effeminate”. he hates him for doing this job that they all have to do to survive simply for fun when he didn’t need to, and pull ed into the whimsy that will likely get him killed or get stede killed and ed depressed.

stede, to izzy, comes across as a man playing a fun game and using poor (and not very competent) ppl as his pawns in it because he wants a good time, whereas ed and izzy didn’t choose to become pirates because it seemed like a good laugh, but moreso because it was that, or starve and die, and then made the best of it. they put in the work and carved out a legend as protection, us vs the world and then stede shows up and ed doesn’t care about them anymore and stede didnt do anything to “earn” his place as a captain, which izzy probably wouldn’t care about if it wasn’t directly affecting ed.

*revisiting this and izzy doesn’t call stede this, it was calico jack who did that, izzy in the show has insulted stede on his competence and his intelligence and his class status, but not anything to my knowledge that is coded as queerphobic or homophobic. the op of the post i’m referencing said izzy said it but i dont think he did.

#idk #rambling maybe #izzy hands #ofmd #the izcourse #ish #adding this after: this is based on a post that says izzy calls stede those things #looking back on it im not sure if izzy calls stede a ‘fop’ i think thats cj that does that #sighs i guess i gotta rewatch every izzy scene….

[youngyoo-apologist]

I really like to make fun of Cale for learning life changing information on accident. He’s always like “how did this happen, who could have done something that lead to this?”

Brother, you did!

#he makes me want to cough up blood sometimes #this damn hypocrite #also #how is he so smart and so obvlious at the same time #this freaking guy 😭😭😭 #he makes me angry sometimes #I love him dearly #no because I’ll be re reading TCF and I start laughing out loud when I see something that will show up later #and Cale is like ‘lol I will be free of this soon and get my slacker life’ #GIVE UP NOW #GIVE UP #It’s so funny to me how like CJS and LSH were like ‘we gotta watch him so his dumbass doesn’t get into trouble’ #Cale when he realizes the only person preventing him from a slacker life is himself #lcf #tcf #rambling

[pinkisacreativecolour]

And we’re down again. I should have downloaded the long fic

#ao3 #cjs rambling

[arsonandhockey]

shout out the pro womens hockey for providing gender nonconforming lesbian goalie with mullet representation that I specifically need

#Corwin rambles #pwhl #this is about cj

[etirabys]

horrid yowling! so terrible I thought the cat might be dying & ran downstairs with heart tangibly hammering. I sighted her pressed up against the window, freaking out about an outdoor cat on the other side.

After I and CJ covered the view with flattened boxes:

cat: [skulks & pokes at the edges of boxes] me: idiotic! are you going to worm your way back against the glass to look at the thing that upsets you? partner CJ: wouldn't you? me: D:<

#well. he felled me with that one. can't deny it #rambl #housecatblogging #partner CJ #for my slain dignity's sake: i'm great at not *looking* at stuff that upsets me but so so bad at not thinking about it #i think my discipline around the former is unusually good & has led to a great internet experience when algorithms are in charge of my feed #it's plausible to me that twitter like fb uses 'milliseconds a tweet is in viewport' as a metric. so even if you don't like it #it learns when bad posts grabs your attention. i don't even do that! if i feel sithy about a post i immediately yeet it out of view #i have often lamented that i have no such ability with my own brain. calls from inside the house are just different.

[itsnotjustgibberish]

I think their headaches/heartaches would sync up most of the time so Heart and Mind just send this image to each other a lot.

#Even when the fighting is at its worse they still will #despite denying they care for one another in that moment #they at least have to continue the bit #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #not art #itsnotjustgibberish #chonny rambles #cj mind #cj heart

[ihave1braincell]

SOMEONE. ANYONE. PLEASE CONSIDER HEART FLEXING ON DARREL.

Like, Heart is stretching his wings in front of Darrel and is like “My wings are bigger than yours and always will be. Me and my wings are what keep you up at night, filed with anger and jealousy. As you are on your deathbed, you will see my wings in your mind. Your last thought will be how you never had wings as large and luxurious as mine. I am better, ultimately.”

#chonny rambles #cj soul #cj heart #cj mind #chonny jash #cj whole #cj darrell #cccc headcanons #cccc heart #cccc darrell