#ceilings by lizzy mcalpine

[rosze-v]

a softness only he holds

pairing: Bakugou Katsuki x Reader

synopsis: And it feels like the end and the start of a movie I’ve seen before

tags: HEAVY ANGST, written in 1st person pov, soft Bakugou, inspired by the song, ceilings by Lizzy McAlpine, descriptive kissing, honestly idk what to tag but this is quite heavy and it’s very sad

w.c : 1.2k

a/n: Halu! Oh gosh, this… this is sad. I was crying when I wrote this because somehow, it feels too close yknow. I hope this writing, though sad, soothes a part of you that loves Bakugou. Katsuki is really special to me and maybe that’s why I chose him for this piece. Anyways, please take care of yourself, if there’s anything going on, make sure you don’t hold it by yourself. I love you.

Eyes blinking at the grainy ceilings as I stretched my hand upwards, trying to reach it. It’s a never-ending reach, it’s like the ceiling is too far and I can’t ever seem to reach it. With a sigh, I took my hand back into my chest, and curled myself in. There is a deep emptiness in me, words ghosting on my lips. These things crept through my skin, like goosebumps crawling but instead it’s something more inexplicable. In my emptiness, my eyes fluttered, heaviness lay on my bottom lashes as a single tear glide down, staining the sheets beneath me; I closed my eyes.

“My love why are you crying?”. I jolted from the voice beside me, as clear and as loud, my head snapped up from my curled position. My eyes met Bakugou Katsuki who’s back was against the head board; his eyes behind those glasses stared at me with a softness. Upon seeing my terrified and confused look, he took off his glasses and places it and the book on his hand on top of my side table.

“Bakugou?”. I whispered, and the blonde’s face contorts, somewhat insulted by something as he reaches forward, brushing his hand on my damp cheeks. I steeled from the touch, trying to understand what’s happening. Sadness washes over his face, unsure on what to do as he retracts his hands back.

“Did I do something wrong? Why are you calling me by my goddamn family name?”.

“Why are you on my bed? No—How could you be on my bed? You don’t exi—”.

“Aha! I knew it!”. Bakugou said, as he approaches me again, his hands held onto my arms. Gently, he pulled me to his body, hugging me tight, my head on his chest.

And maybe that’s the explanation, maybe I did have a bad dream. A dream that was horrible and dark and empty, lonely. It has to be a bad dream because this feels so real. Skin meeting skin, a heartbeat drumming against a hard chest and the subtle caramel scent reaching my nose. He feels too alive.

Yes, that must be it.

So, I chuckled, pushing myself up while I place myself on his lap. I gaze at him; I could see everything. His red eyes, and his thick lashes, I held out my hand, letting it touch the side of his face. The stubbles on his cheek pricks my skin, Katsuki, my Katsuki. I couldn’t help but stare at him shamelessly, stare into my heaven on earth, his being held in my palm.

Katsuki smile at me tenderly, as he places both his hand on my waist. “Don’t look at me like that”.

“Like what love”.

“Like there’s an impending something”. I shake my head, touching his forehead with mine as my thumb mindlessly caress his cheek. With a fulfilled sigh, I went back to his chest, wanting to hear that heartbeat again. He took a hand, holding up and kissing the palm, his other hand tracing patterns on my waist. Katsuki held me tight into him, his chest vibrates from his humming and I want to savor this moment. The man would never understand how fulfilling his presence is. The emptiness I felt before gone, filled with the love he poured endlessly. I looked up from his chest, and I could clearly see his stubbles and I poke it again, and I could feel it, again. Katsuki looks down and smile softly. I held his face and kisses his chin.

And of course, my lips touched skin. “I love you Katsuki”. He hums again, as I pull myself up and come face to face with him. I trace his eyebrows as his eyes flutter close. His nose, high and strong and his cheeks, though chiseled, there’s a softness to it, as I pinch it and red eyes glared at me. I place a soft kiss on his nose, telling him sorry; a dumb smile on my face. Then I place a thumb on his lips, soft, hot under my finger and real.

“Kiss me”. He said hushed, and I obliged. I lean forward as he places a hand on my cheek. And it feels real, it must. His lips met mine, and it feels pillowy, a softness one could only feel through meeting a lover’s lips, and with his I could feel softness incomparable, and deep, careful love.

I could feel myself melting into him, as I deepen the kiss, eyes closed. I could feel his tongue parting my lips, and when mine touches his, it was another kind of softness that I think only he holds. My body heating up with our proximity and after what feels like heaven, he unlatches his lips; both of us trying to catch our breath. In this moment, I knew this is where I belong. In the arms of him, melting into him, heart filled with him. An urge burns in me, a love I never thought exist within me, a love concealed by hatred I indulged and this love had saved me. Katsuki saved me from an impending something.

“I love you Katsuki”. He watches me, sorrow evident in his face and I am puzzled.

“I love you too… but I’m sorry”.

“Why are you sorry Katsuki?”. He shook his head, holding me close to his chest once again. His grip was tight, as if I will float away and instinctively, I held on, letting myself hear. Thump, Thump, Thump.

“I am so sorry my love”.

No, of course not.

I look up again from his chest and he was already looking down at me. His eyes watering as I reach up, wiping away the strayed tear. There’s a bittersweet smile etched on his face and I knew, but I didn’t want to believe.

Please no.

“Please Katsuki…please, don’t.” Despair and hopelessness brimming through my eyes, as I fist his shirt. Please, please, God, please let me stay, please. He’s my happiness, a torch, the sun, the life, a reason, everything, my everything.

“You’re…”. I shook my head, urging him to stop but he continues. “You’re okay… You will be, and maybe… one day—nevermind”.

“One day what Katsuki?”. He could only smile at me, and I opened my eyes wide, making sure I’m seeing this, printing it in my memories because I knew. He left a long and deep kiss on my forehead, wiping the tears of my face; but it’s useless. I am already sobbing and the burn on my chest had gone beyond pain. He kissed me again, the softness I knew leaving me and I tried my best to feel it. The smell, the touch, him, Katsuki, I’ll remember him.

And my eyes fluttered open, staring deep into the beige ceiling. My lips tremble, as I slowly glance to my side, please let it not be a dream, and it is. My lover; the only salvation from this life stayed in my dreams, and I woke up to gaze in this wretched world again. A world without him and his softness.  A sob left my lips and I quickly clasp my mouth shut, the other clutching, clawing my chest.

“But it’s not real, and you don’t exist”.

#bakugou katsuki x reader #katsuki bakugou x reader #bakugou x reader #katsuki x reader #bakugou imagine #bakugou angst #bakugou katsuki angst #katsuki bakugou angst #boku no hero academia #bnha angst #boku no hero academia angst #bnha fic #mha #my hero academia #mha angst #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #rsz.w

[himemeiya]

It feels like the start of a movie I've seen before...

[x]

#my post #amv #himemeiya #tiktok #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #utena tenjou #akio ohtori #anthy himemiya #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #shojo kakumei utena #sku

[motherfuckingbrad]

and it feels like the end of a movie i’ve seen before

#:/ #sorry i’ve been in such a lyric mood lately lmaoo #i just feel very connected to them and music #rip abed nadir you would’ve loved ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #also i made a post b4 that was similar to this but idc that was like last year who cares #these images together still hit me like a truck #imma go cry #community #trobed #six seasons and a movie #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine

[toriwritesstories]

i spent the last 2 hours making this instead of sleeping soooo figured i’d share

the song is “ceilings” by lizzy mcalpine

#i tried to art #art #digital art #shadowheart #baldurs gate 3 #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #ceilings #lyrics #midnight doodles #music

[thecoddaughter]

(CONTEXT) I saw a tiktok about someone dreaming of a family and raising a kid, then waking up and the audio was Ceilings by Lizzie McAlpine…

(What I came here to say) Ceilings is 110% a Lincoln Li Wilson song. He just misses his spouse and children some times. And is probably consistently reminded that it wasn’t real and he’s just a 15? year old dude.

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads spoilers #link li wilson #lincoln li wilson #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #dndads as songs #link just wants to be a dad #link’s false reality

[chaiwithoatmilk]

#this is the first song I’ve ever heard by this woman and she destroyed me on the first blow #nobody gets it but she does #also the music video was perfect #lizzy mcalpine #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #Spotify

[renebaebae]

you kissed me in your car and it feels like the start of movie i’ve seen before, but it’s not real and you don’t exist and i can’t recall the last time i was kissed. it hits me in the car and it feels like the end of a movie i’ve seen before.

#my god i love this song #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #lizzy mcalpine #celings #thoughts

[pixiefms]

me only 25 pages into the dream thieves book not really having a full grasp on all the characters and their depth: this song is soooooooo them

#idk it’s the vibes #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #trc #the raven cycle #the raven boys #trc gansey #adam parrish #richard gansey #dick gansey #ronan lynch #blue sargent #noah czerny

[missmeinyourbones]

BUT IT'S NOT REAL

AND YOU DON'T EXIST

AND I CAN'T RECALL THE LAST TIME I WAS KISSED

#i am so sad today #i love u guys sm #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine

[i-tolya-so]

Shadow and Bone S2x07 SPOILER!

CW: MAJOR Character death, screaming

Posting something that is not Tolya related today....And it's very sad.

Forgive me my dear friends....But the song just fits too well to NOT try and put it in.

Trust me, it hurt me more than you think when I put the sound over this scene 😭

Goodbye, I hate myself for this OTL

#shadow and bone spoilers #shadow and bone cast #shadow and bone edit #genya safin #david kostyk #shadow and bone season 2 #shadow and bone #shadow and bone series #shadow and bone netflix #s&b spoilers #s&b season 2 #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #six of crows #grishaverse edit #grishaverse #genya x david

[tmntxthings]

I just cried over the ruin the moment… now if you’ll excuse me, imma cry while ceilings plays on repeat in the background and read through everything you’ve written while I have work in the morning… 😭💜

😂💜 oh my!! now that you mention it, i too should get my headphones and listen to ceilings ;D it’s the buildup that gets me every timeeeeee, but do get some sleep <3333 I promise all the stuff i’ve written will still be here hehe (unless yk tumblr comes after me which wouldn’t be the first time ╮(╯▽╰)╭)

#grace talks #grace answers #rottmnt fandom #tmnt fandom #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #such a good song #<33333 #mwahhh

[marbearwrites]

Morning Light Daydreams...

Sun streams through the blinds

Falls in warm lines

Across golden walls

Soft mattress

Comfy blankets

Warmth

Waking up

In bed

Alone

Rubbing sleepy eyes

Yearning tenderly

Blissful daydreams

Dark lashes on cheeks

Eyes closed

Blinking open

Up to the white ceiling

Realizing...

#ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #morning light #sunshine feelings #daydreams #morning light daydreams #hopeless romantics #marbearwrites #writer #writings #feelings #bliss #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine inspired #single life lol #warmth #yearning for love #lovely

[theswifterhood]

will byers is ceilings coded

#ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #will byers #byler

[bylertaylorsversion]

i was rewatching the goldfinch and it hit me that ceilings by lizzy mcalpine fits so well, so i searched an edit on tiktok but it doesn't exist 😭😭😭😭 im so sad

#boreo #tgf #the goldfinch #boris pavlikovsky #theodore decker #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine

[ophelia-coeur]

Ceilings - Lizzy McAlpine but the best part on loop for 10 mins

#the sad girlies understand what i want #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #music #youtube #video #Youtube

[daisyislost]

on my own is the original ceilings for musical theatre people

#les mis #les miserables #on my own #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #ceilings #lizzy mcalpine