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danisbrainrot · 2 days

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yellowjackets as taylor swift albums (I'm bored). this became deeper than I meant for it to go OMG. whoops, anyways, enjoy:

1. tai: reputation. oh my god this girl is soooo in love with van, and at the end of the day, that's what reputation is. a love album. yeah it's got a little revenge in it, but overall, it's about being in love with someone who was there for you at your most vulnerable. and who's always been there for tai, adult AND teen timeline? VAN!

2. van: 1989! it's nostalgic, fun, iconic but still has the emotional rawness that flows throughout all of taylor's albums. everyone thinks 1989 is just heaps of fun, but it has this emotional intensity to it that once you look closer to it, you realise how much of a masterpiece it is. also, it just gives me van vibes tbh.

3. jackie: lover. she's so insecure about being in a relationship with who she thinks is the love of her life (shauna) in case she fucks it up (spoiler alert, she does). taylor also wrote this album as a last hurrah, to prove she had more stories to tell, and I think that ties in nicely to jackie's character. her insecurity forces her to try and prove herself to shauna, and show her best friend how much she loves her.

4. shauna: she's a red girlie. taylor's most emotionally raw album (besides ttpd) and she just gives the vibes. this is taylor's first heartbreak album (like how jackie's death was shauna's first heartbreak), and it's so intense that it takes a few listens to understand, but once you do, you realise it's an album about a girl with big heart learning how to recover from the devastation of losing someone she loves deeply.

5. lottie: folklore!! I love my little baby. this album was written in isolation, and you can definitely hear it in some of taylor's lyrics, and I just feel like that's lottie's character. the isolated girl who's held up to a higher standard than everyone else.

6. nat: ttpd. okay, i was tossing up between giving this to nat or travis, but then I remembered the adult timeline and went with nat. when I first heard this album, it reminded me of her purposeless speech. it's also an album where taylor was going through a manic phase, and if that isn't nat, I don't know what is. she's just lost the love of her life, and then she's kidnapped by lottie's cult and promised so many wonderful things, that she believes it—only for it to end in tragedy.

7. misty: she gives off such speak now vibes. she has so much she wants to prove, and she's reeling from being in love with a man much older than her.

8. travis: evermore. he's such a tragic little guy, that the album suits him. I really just think of happiness, marjorie and right where you left me because he's stuck in the past. he literally kills himself (accidentally I know, I know) because he's so trapped in the wilderness despite being free from it. this album has always given me: depressed sad, compared to its sister albume: folklore, which gives me angry sad. and while he's definitely more angry then lottie, he's got this deep sadness in him that echoes evermore.

9. mari: midnights. okay I don't know how to explain it better than this is how I interpret mari. she's the first to throw herself into believing lottie because she's scared and when I think of midnights, I think of how scared taylor was at losing her relationship and joe that she ignores her feelings. and mari ignores her feelings because if she really thinks about it, I don't think she'd be able to handle herself, i.e. being trapped in the woods, eating jackie.

10. javi: taylor swift (debut). just the innocence and naïvety of the album. it's her first album, she wrote and released at 15/16 so there's a lot of childish beliefs and hopes, which I think javi has—but there's still an underlying feeling of heartbreak. he tries to be a kid, but is still traumatised.

11. laura lee: fearless!! this is purely based on the album title. I mean, learning to fly a plane just to save her friends? this album is probably my least favourite, so you're not going to get a lot of analysis, but the few times I've listened to it, I understand it's about having faith things will work out (this might be wrong, but that's what I'm choosing to believe about it). and her faith makes her believe she can do anything, including save her friends. omg I love her so much <333

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empydoc · 12 hours

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SOUL EATER AU porter & treasure

check out the masterpost here!

welcome to a redacted soul eater au post! here, i try and discover what it'd be like if you merged the soul eater world and mechanics within the redactedverse. this is the tenth (wow!) post in the series! we've got porter & treasure on the menu. enjoy!

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porter — soul type: meister strongest meister ability: soul adjust - an advanced meister technique involved in wavelength control. it allows the meister to adjust another person's wavelength as long as the meister is stronger than their target. compatible with: ?

since porter has a vampire soul, his compatibility with other vampires is heightened, but with non-vampires it's incredibly thinly met. (un)fortunately, porter is a persistant man, and strives to find a weapon partner outside of the vampiric roster. he, also, has a slight competitive streak with seeing who's a better meister between himself and vincent.

even though porter's strongest ability is soul adjust, he doesn't utilise it. it's something that, as he grew older, he wanted to perfect, but he wields it very carefully. he explicitly insists he hasn't used it with any human he's encountered, including treasure, so it's sometimes pondered on if he's lying or if he's simply fragile with such a power.

making porter an advanced meister (given his ability to adjust souls) was a last minute decision. i think it suits him, though, because even though he has this typical playboy personality, he takes things seriously and to heart. i do think he'd spend several years training specific abilities just so he can say he has them to utilise. (also, i like to think it's how he also doesn't use trancing, but can. in his first audio with treasure it's drummed into you that he's looking into their eyes, but isn't doing anything. i like to think he does the same with adjustment. he doesn't adjust treasure's soul, but he certainly could).

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treasure — soul type: demon weapon weapon type: sword types- dominantly a cutlass. compatible with: ?

treasure, as an unempowered, is considered pretty rare given that they're a demon weapon. this happens enough for it to be considered an occurence outside of need for research, but it's definitely a 'gift'. for treasure, their form can change between several different sword types, however they tend to utilise the cutlass form the most.

both surprisingly and not, treasure and porter do not have compatible wavelengths yet. treasure is the closest porter has gotten with someone on such a sentimental level, however, and so there's a steady incline with how close they're getting to being compatible. even so, this doesn't change their relationship, even if treasure has mentioned they wish they could be compatible for him as of now.

making vampires have a difficult compatibility with humans was a choice i liked making, because it makes sense! they have different souls, different way of life, and several humane changes that make it understandable for their wavelengths to rarely match. with porter and treasure i wanted to display that even though they aren't compatible yet on weaponry terms, they're still emotionally tact, and are nearing that point.

lite backstory: for every post i make for the characters, i'll add some au backstory to really fill in some details you may be curious about! (contextually: when someone's soul isn't met with their partner, the meister's hands will burn when attempting to hold the weapon. this is the wavelength's way of telling them that they aren't compatible)

"Don't say such things," Porter drapes a shaky hand over Treasure's head, petting them subtly before it drags down to their cheek, "This sort of thing doesn't dictate your worth at all."

"Your hands burnt," they whisper back slightly, and Porter's careless smile wavers a little, "I hurt you."

"It's nothing I can't handle." He insists, shaking his head. They look at him, and he presses a gentle kiss to their forehead. "Our relationship- it isn't anything more or less without the complications of a weapon partnership, treasure. We won't be anything less. You don't mean any less to me."

They meet his eyes, and he smiles again. He gives them a confident look, his fingers intertwining with theirs.

"When the time comes, it comes. For now, why don't we head back? Maybe a shower, hm?"

With a short laugh, they nod, pressing their lips against his. When the time comes, it'll come.

#wanted to write... at least a LITTLE dialogue #also sorry #this one is much longer i fear #but i wanted to explain stuff #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #📼.txt #redacted soul eater au #redacted porter #redacted treasure

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burlowbeanie · 2 months

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I knew about Cuno going into Disco Elysium, so I was expecting the small, angry, traumatized, foul-mouthed child. What I was not expecting was the smaller, angrier, more traumatized, fouler-mouthed child standing directly behind him. I love her so goddamn much.

#disco elysium #cunoesse #aw man i love her so much #this playthrough i didn't ever connect with cuno or anything so i didn't get much backstory on either of them #and honestly i'm not sure if i can bring myself to do a cuno-partner playthrough #because like. fuck! i can't take away cuno and turn him into a cop like what the hell??#i can't do that to them!! i can't conscript a kid with the vague insincere promises of a 'better life'#Like. There's so much of the world that I want to explore in future playthroughs #but. i don't think i can emotionally handle #taking away her only friend to put him in a moralist paramilitary unit at age 12 #I can live in my stupid fantasy world where harry quits the rcm and comes back and tries to keep them alive and fed while giving them space #and there's an option besides a) do nothing and b) separate them and make one into a child cop #i am delusional

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unpretty · 1 year

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Write more bruce or ill get angy 🥺🥺🥺😡😡😡

Idk what possessed that anon to send a threat NOW of all times??? You haven't updated a Bruce fic in like what 2 years?? Unless there's a new update i wasn't informed of 👀

Just why now????

assuming i'm correct about it being the same anon as the person who wrote me the long weird ask earlier this year, it has very little to do with me and a lot to do with their own mental health and whether they are both in a bad place psychologically and very lonely

#original #i don't think i saved that old ask anywhere #but it had very strong vibes of like #when you're in an RP group and someone develops a Problem where they have a Real Crush on your extremely fake OC #and most people can handle that fine but some people Can Not #and a failure to update registers emotionally for them the same as if you were keeping a real person from them #i don't know them and can't confirm that's what's happening but #i've. had to leave a lot of roleplaying communities. is the thing.#i'm too good at being an unbelievably desirable man it's my curse 😔

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epicfirestormer · 2 years

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#this is about the smile fruit if it isn't obvious #wish I can draw so I can make Kid say this #believe me if I can have this drawn it would be kid talking #just imagine its kid right after/during Udon #you know full well Kid would've killed Orochi a thousand times if he could #personally I think he should've #nasty bitch deserves it #Eustass ''I'll send anyone who laughs at you to hell'' Kid would absolutely slaughter Kaido for Killer #also I haven't actually seen the anime scene for Killer and Kid #because I don't think I can emotionally handle hearing Killer's laugh #it breaks my fucking heart </3 #low quality memes #low quality shitpost #low effort meme #low effort shitpost #one piece #one piece 944 #I think this is on the more vague side of spoilers so its fine #killer one piece #eustass kid #kidkiller #the fire burns #the fire crackles with joy

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frazzledazzlin · 1 year

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friend suggested this song and unable to stop thinking about it as copperright

#“fine” by lemon demon it is #i wanted to darw the more lively lyrics too but ive been failing at expressions digitally lately i need to get back to paper drawing to get #my charm back #copperright #i tried to be god's strong soldier by thinking of betrayal-esque themes but i don't think im strong enough bc i #already wanna draw soft stuff help !@)*!@& im too emotionally attached it was a dire mistake on my part #only “betrayal” i can handle is the rhmg stuff where rhm's not in control of himself #otherwise i may be be a pathetic coward *running away #thsc #the henry stickmin collection #right hand man reborn #reginald copperbottom #rhm #scriboozles

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throttlegainwell · 5 months

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Hello, Didn't want to say anything except it is awesome to find a fellow Jonathan Byers AND Scott Summers enjoyer, I love both of those characters a lot.

Ah, that's awesome! Thanks for saying hi. I am, indeed, massively gone for both of those guys, and I am equally delighted to come across another fan of both.

#answered asks #scott summers #jonathan byers #very little in common except for all the stuff they have in common really #but i mean eldest sibling issues probable neurodivergence hyper-independence loner status don't want to be in charge but kind of have to be #responsibility to their people to the detriment of their own well-being got to do everything themselves not well liked or understood #accusations of being boring or morally questionable but just doing their best and grinding away relentlessly #abandonment issues childhood abuse & neglect i could go on #yet they're so very very different and also one shoots kinetic energy beams from his eyes #so there's that #scott would dislike jonathan's music #and ngl the fact that jonathan spends a significant portion of his time in a darkroom under a safelight #which is red #and scott's whole deal is red #that cracks me up a little #though there's something to be said for scott's keen spatial awareness vs. jonathan's eye for composition #and jonathan isn't a nuts and bolts guy and he can handle himself but lbr scott's training regimen would kill him #also i doubt jonathan has ever read a comic in his life and even in the 80s scott was no one's favorite #also yeah they're both pretty reserved quiet & locked-down emotionally & can't deal with their issues + pragmatic as hell #but i think jonathan has more self-awareness about it and he's way more sensitive #whereas scott was just never going to be a particularly emotional guy he's logical af it's how he's wired #anyway yes i love these two hyper-competent messes a whole lot #and have written many words about them both and will probably write many more

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lisbonsteresa · 1 year

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#tm #thinking several things. none of them coherent.#it's wild that this season starts with her stance pretty much being 'i'm the actual cop here. i can handle the danger. (i'll protect you)'#(and that continues here obviously) and then the season ends w/ (...*part one of the finale has) her in the most danger she's been in so fa #kind of similar to 6.01 where she insists on dealing with red john like any other suspect and then she gets into 'the most danger she's...'#and it's not so much that she's being....punished by the narrative for thinking/dealing with things in that way #(although there are shades of that i guess you could kind of read it that way too)#it's just red john is NOT like any other suspect he's not even like the worst suspects she's dealt with he's just on a different level #also wild that her version of fixing this is at great (professional and personal really) loss to herself #they said 'never forget; lisbon is an eldest sibling (eldest daughter at that)#idk it hurts to see her do it and take the punishment so naturally but i do appreciate that they never let you forget how #that informs her as a character that's great for me personally #meanwhile that little blonde moron (affectionate) is over there again like 'i don't want you in danger' 'i don't want lose you'#he's EXHAUSTING but ON THE OTHER HAND this makes me crazy too because like #he's the civilian here and he KNOWS he's the civilian and the show makes sure YOU know HE knows #he is not a 'stay in the car' [immediately leaves the car to come help in the fight] kind of civilian #(like he IS but not in this way...you get it)#he runs away from fights; he shrinks and cowers when threatened/seeing a weapon; he still gags and uses a hanky at some bodies #like he's just a GUY and he fully embraces that and yet STILL #his first instinct - demonstrated most physically in the s1 finale and....most of s7 but verbally/emotionally throughout #is to protect her; in whatever way he can #and most times that's lying to her; keeping secrets; going off and doing stupid shit; putting himself at risk without telling her anything #but that's ok in his book (....maybe not ok but it's better)#him hurting her is one thing; it's something he might be able to come back from; he can work towards her forgiving him #(even if he does a piss poor job of it sometimes alskdj)#but her getting hurt because of him is not something he can fix; it's something neither of them might come back from #and no matter how strong and capable and smart (and amazing and pretty we get it you're in love with her) he thinks she is #he can't risk her getting hurt....so sometimes he hurts her instead #just kind of....spiraling over them. doing great. clearly.

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rawliverandgoronspice · 5 months

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help I'm having a case of "game got out, many complicated feelings, beer in a dingey hotel room by the highway on my own", we'll get through it but I might cry about it a little bit at some point

#thoughts #personal #these moments always make me ponder on the relationship of gamedevs and the audience regarding fandom and criticism #because it's sooo complicated #very often you will agree with the criticism wholeheartedly #perhaps in many ways the audience has not picked up (yet or at all because some information is just kinda out of reach)#but to see that criticism casually dropped on your lap by people who are... basically tourists to a situation you fought tooth and nail for #that can afford to say “this thing sucks haha lol” and move away and never think twice about it #it does hurt #it does hurt even when you agree and you'd be even more critical of the same thing #you're like “cool haha sorry you don't like the end result”#“me neither tho fun fact btw this exact thing you're describing was my tipping point into a major mental health crisis"#“but I guess you'll never know about that!!”#“so fun and cool have a nice day I'll handle your casual “End Result Bad Lol” emotionally in some way eventually”#(which is why I think good in-depth criticism is actually MORE cathartic for devs than shallower “well that kinda sucked”)#(but that's just me I think most of my colleagues would disagree)#cw mental health #might delete at some point because we're in dubious territory nda-wise even if I'm being vague #but UHHH yeah #yea yea yea

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cappurrccino · 7 months

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i am once again chickening out of getting a haircut bc trying to look up reference pics for what i might want is just wading through a sea of styles that i know took a lot of work and expensive products to get like that and i know i simply will not be able to replicate it

#//juri speaks #i had gotten to a point last night/this morning where i was like ''ok! i think i can actually cut it to where it just brushes my shoulders'#like i felt i could emotionally handle chopping off that much but... after seeing all those professionally styled wavy hairdos?#knowing that it's so easy for my hair to look very dumb at short lengths?#very scared again! can't do it! it's been at LEAST 3 years and probably closer to 5 since i've been to a stylist #and i wouldn't even know what to ASK for or what i WANT #i just know that my hair is very dry and very sad and very tangled all the time and i genuinely do not know what to do with it #but it feels shameful to admit that to someone who knows very much about hair #uuuuughghghhghhhhhhhhhhh i just don't know y'all

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pjeckleburg · 8 months

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gotta love how my roommate gave her girlfriend keys to our apartment and i didn't find out until her girlfriend came in tonight and nearly gave me a heart attack!! like i get that we're all friends and they are young and in love but can we maybe at least TALK to the other people who live here about who gets keys to our apartment?? i don't want to be the bad guy and put my foot down and they don't want that either but they are putting me in this position!!

#honestly im also annoyed that now its impossible to hang out with both of them at the same time without feeling like a third wheel #no matter how large the group #ugh i don't know maybe i'm just bitter and lonely and getting upset by things that are small and don't matter #i just don't like that it feels shitty to be around them now and i don't understand why #and it's like. such a dumb problem to have. boo hoo my friends are in a happy relationship #i just want to know why i feel bad! and i don't think it's because i'm single because i straight up don't want to be in a relationship rn #because i don't think i can emotionally handle that #its stupid this whole thing is stupid #its exhausted venting hours ig i really need to go to bed

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katya-goncharov · 1 year

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I really hope my mental health taking a massive downward spiral every single evening before I have to go to work isn't going to last, but we shall see...

#i'm still constantly terrified i'm going to be bad at it and get fired or told off in a way that makes me feel really shitty about myself #and at the moment people are being nice to me but i'm also so scared that once they realise how bad i am at talking to people they'll stop #trying to make conversation with me and just ignore me and i'll become more and more isolated #mostly because that's exactly what happened last time i worked #and ugh it's just so far out of my comfort zone and out of my depth and i don't know how things are going to end up or if i can even handle #a job and it's just. scary. literally i've felt sick so many times this week as well just from stressing about it #i just did not expect the anxiety around it to affect me so badly mentally. even on the days i'm NOT working #i guess i have more issues around working than i thought i did #and probably this is the point where i'd think i should go back to therapy. but no way can i afford that and no way can i emotionally #handle the extra hours i'd have to work to pay for that #it's just... all a bit overwhelming right now.#emma vents

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slippery-minghus · 1 year

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augh i just can't stop thinking about itttt

#like. i know my bf and i are not compatible for the long term #my feelings on living with him haven't changed in the past two years and i don't think that's gonna suddenly shift #and he just... needs a partner who can be more emotionally available and willing to guide him through life #and i am neither of those #last year when he was going through a rough time i couldn't even handle him talking about it #and in turn that makes it impossible for me to open up and rely on him #but... even with all of that. my heart is hurting at the idea of losing him as a friend #yesterday i felt so confident and now i'm just so afraid of the loneliness that's going to come with all this #i've gotten very used to having someone to talk to all the time these past two years....#but at the same time i have to censor myself so often with him... i cant go to him with every thought i want to share #my world's gonna get a lot smaller and quieter when he's no longer in it #and i keep thinking about how fun our conversations are..... but we don't talk like we used to #i just never know what to say #our daily conversations are a few 'how are you's and a few funny pictures. that's it #and for someone so starved for affection like myself that's still a lot to lose #i'm lonely enough as it is... and my loneliness overshadows my social energy limit #i don't have enough energy to be around people enough to sate my loneliness #but how much of that is due to the quality of the interactions rather than just the quantity....#i suppose at this point i need to let my heart be heard and sit in the feelings #but not allow them to persuade me away from the logic of what i need to do #and to know that these feelings are only temporary. nor will they be enough to fix the long term deficits #it's like... how it was so hard to leave my last job because i loved the people there so much. So Much.#but that couldn't be the reason i stayed when everything else was killing me #and i'm so much more at peace in my new job... even if the people i work with aren't the best (and i dont like the person i work closest to)#and.. when i went to the party for my old work the other night i realized just how taxing being around that group of people is #they're so fun and i missed them but keeping up with their energy was just... a lot #i was Done after two hours. and to think i had to keep up with that while drowning in all other capacities? i'm so much better off now #and i really think that same lesson applies with my relationship #it's hard to leave... but the peace and quiet after will open up bandwidth i need for new joys to come #personal

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year

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Sometimes you just have to think about tween you and cry it out

#idk. i wanna sit down with her and tell her about how nice we're doing #i. she? she genuinely needed smth like that i think #and the way she rawdogged it all . no therapy no confidants no vent posts or art.#took it all like a champ. she shouldn't have had to but she did and i'm proud of her (tho saying i'm proud of myself feels weird #when i think about the fact that i was. just a child. i feel like i handled it about as well as i could have)#it's certainly weird but i think she would have liked to know that like #i can think of it without triggering an entire episode #and that i can sleep through the night and i don't have to exhaust myself to the point of passing out to sleep #it's chill now. i'm happy and thankful for that but my heart aches just a little bit #it almost feels like that little child me was terribly wronged #i dealt with it very well but why did i have to deal with it alone - type wronged #even though i begged my mother to get me help and everything #and when i got sent to be evaluated i hoped i could steer the convo to that area but #just got told i'm emotionally empty and had anger issues

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sixofravens-reads · 2 years

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I'm a few pages into Nightmare Fuel, but now considering putting it aside and reading A Strange and Stubborn Endurance instead. I've heard that one compared to A Marvellous Light, and while I don't get the craving for romance very often I kinda want a cosy gay romance right now...

#it's been A Week and im having All the Emojis right now so I think i need a comfort read lol #monday got a raise but also told my boss hates that i start work at 9 and leave at 5 (?) still unsure how to handle that #i tried explaining that i don't stay late like the other developers bc im very fast and can accomplish things within our deadlines easily #idk if it worked #then Wednesday i broke a $300 monitor that had been entrusted to me for working at home and had to replace it boss does NOT need to know)#and this was also my first week of 3 days commuting to the office so im exhausted and there's still one more day....#anyway yeah its been one of those weeks #also pragmatically Endurance has a way longer waiting list than Nightmare so since im running low on library book time...#...better to read it first since i won't be able to renew it #(if a book has tons of holds they don't let you renew it so they can keep the line moving. which makes sense and usually isn't an issue)#oh also this week i read Nona which was of course emotionally devastating lol. god what a book

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lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar · 1 year

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