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star-trek-fandom-confessions · 5 months

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Confession #178

"Its obnoxious how some people try to erase Seven and T'Lyn's queerness for women, acting like they only exist for the men they ship them with. Not Seven and T'Lyn's fault they got more chemistry with female characters than they with your boring white male self-insert."

#confession 178 #star-trek-fandom-confessions #lower decks #star trek picard #t'lyn #seven of nine #you know what i don't even care anymore #you guys can just confess whatever you want and you get published you win #i'm tired #i'm going to bed

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hopalongfairywren · 5 months

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What kills me is that on tumblr now (I checked twitter a bit before and didn't see much) is THEY DON'T FUCKING CARE. Like. Everyone of them is just happy they feel like they can finally go back to stanning Dream without any guilt. You can tell how little any dream stan, here or twitter actually gives a fuck about the allegations BECAUSE THEY WOULDN'T BE TREATING THE VIDEO LIKE A GODDAMN TWITCH STREAM OTHERWISE. By the way, I have not seen one. ONE recap, that showed any of the messages were fake. The occasional 'omg dream's kicking this girl's ass' reblog followed by tasteless jokes about the whole situation is not cutting it. Dream's pastebin messages ARE NOT CUTTING IT. But you know, maybe it's just the personal part of this that is making me upset because I feel like if even half of these people would wake the fuck up, and stop throwing themselves at the feet of a sex pest I wouldn't be so angry, because at least then all of the harassment and re-traumatizing hate asks I got this summer would have been worth the eventual wake up call to this fucking fandom.

#rant #the wren hops #dreamwastaken #dream situation #i'm rapidly loosing whatever patience i have left i don't even care anymore

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still-july · 10 months

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okayokayokay

i just listened to the four winds albums all together in order and!!

i have so! many! feelings!

i will try to get my favourite things i noticed down

how have i never listened to on the mountain tall before?

notos -> mandatory evac/counting cars <3 <3 <3

CONSTELLATIONS

i love the oh hellos so much

the transition between dry branches and grow is so ✨

the parallels between theseus and rose (what's only bound to break)

actually just the entirety of theseus

and also rose

specifically the alchemic incantation stanza in rose

admiring the album art

EURUS TO FAUNVOCATION TO HIEROGLYPHS!!

seriously wtf how did i not notice this before

holy shit i love the oh hellos so much

*vibing to a kindling of sorts*

is that dear wormwood in the opening of boreas??

the repeated melody of rose in smoke rising

SOAP (i think that you're worth keeping around)

the 'you gotta let go' from the end of notos repeated in soap (or maybe it's the other way round)

admiring the album art again

torches and hieroglyphs. that's it that's the tweet

no but seriously they are two sides of the same coin and the repeating motifs are amazing

like they both start with a lyric involving a snake

the little trills in the background of zephyrus

rio grande ❤️❤️❤️

HOLY FREAKING SHIT I LOVE THE OH HELLOS SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA

i think i reached some sort of nirvana

v good experience, would recommend 10/10

#this is just incoherent rambling and i will most likely delete it once i've gotten some sleep #whatever i don't even care if it's incomprehensible anymore #the oh hellos #music stuff

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twilightarcade · 7 months

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OC-tober day 6 - symbol

These two freaks.. caduceus ft some assorted article clippings! Transcripts of said article clippings under the cut :]

1- top left

"Caduceus as a symbol of medicine

The caduceus is the traditional symbol of Hermes and features two snakes winding around an often winged staff. It is often used as a symbol of medicine, especially in the United States, despite its ancient and consistent associations with trade, liars, thieves, eloquence, negotiation, alchemy, and wisdom."

2- top right

"The author of the study suggests that professional associations are more likely to have a historical understanding of the two symbols, whereas commercial organizations are more likely to be concerned with the visual impact a symbol will have on sales."

3- bottom right

"Wing clipping is the process of trimming a bird's primary wing feathers or remiges so that it is not fully flight-capable, until it moults, sheds the cut feathers and grows new ones."

4 & 5- behind everything, the long ones

the one on the left is a snippet from the Declaration of Helsinki, while the right is a snippet from the Hippocratic Oath, as written by Louis Lasagna. I don't believe said snippets have been chosen with any particular care but who knows really.

#notwordswordstag #OC-tober #bweirdOCtober #harry woudl be proud. That's not even his name but i don't care to remember it #mr heavy handed symbolism #caduceus ♡ hippocratic oath & that one declaration i forgot which i used ♡ clipped wings ♡ snakes (one more constricting 2) ♡ roulette tabl #ummmmm think that's it #[5 days after drawing me] so like i drew this in like. One night. One sitting etc #and as with most things that are drawn in like. One sitting. I don't like it very much anymore.#like after a day or 2 its always either the best thing i've drawn EVER frame it in a museum or hot shit. Today it's the latter #but what EVER!!!!!!! yolo and stuff....#oug i guess i need to write this in the caption Huh.#whatever i'll do that later #Something came up [said thing has been on the calendar for weeks now] and I didn't get a chance to finish day 5....#quite unfortunate really.....! I don't actually have any plans for the pallette week were just gonna sit down and hope 4 the best #[really agressive pointing] this is THAT GUUUUY #the one i really need 2 axe but my heart says no. Because i like her.#we will have a lapse in story logic just this once (once...) 4 da guy.#umm what else [post caption writing me] i was going to trace the articles but it got a bit tedious #i probably could've it would have looked nice #also the colors here are a bit awkward because i was dead set on having a limited pallette with like. 3 colors.#i was going to make [lady on the left]'s wings black just 4 contrast then i didn't.#think I shouldve but some evil voice in my brain said it was cringe.....#quite a shame really.#i am so SLEEPY!!!!!!!!!!!! All the time foreger #had a pretty good burger today [thumbs up emoji]#ok we r !! getting of subject #i thi nk i had like 40 different things 4 today. Same with day 5. But alas I can only do so much #ok i need to go draw an arizona iced tea. please await my return anxiously

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youssefguedira · 1 year

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something so fun about the uncertainty and ruthlessness of tog's immortality. they mention it directly on screen even. "none of us had a choice," "i don't want this, there isn't one good thing in any of this," etc. there's the horror of surviving everyone you love and like. you don't get a choice it just happens to you whether you want it or not. none of them know why, or what's happening to them, they just have to make the best of it (mileage may vary). doesn't matter if you had a family or a life or something you couldn't leave behind it doesn't matter! it doesn't care! this is what you are now! and you're not even invincible you still die over and over again but you just can't stay dead and even THAT'S not certain. perhaps if they had been chosen for a reason they could make some sense of it but they don't KNOW. all they have is what they make of it

#terrifyingly lonely concept #especially in the early years! but i think for all of them it's the same #it's like. if you have been chosen whatever chose you doesn't care about you. if you have been chosen you are a tool. you don't even know #why.#neon has thoughts #if you haven't been chosen then something horrible is happening to you and you can't explain it. i bet it gets to all of them #how does it feel to look in the mirror and know you should have been dead a hundred times over and you don't look any older than the day #you died. how does it feel to be a remnant of something that doesn't exist anymore etc

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faebriel · 5 months

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hgs brainrot has returned due to tbosas .. speaking of hgs here’s an ask abt the hgs au: if things were totally different, and Wilbur were to be a 12 victor, what do you think a possible mentor-tribute dynamic would look like between him & Niki? I feel like it would be similar to Snow & Lucy in the way that he’s just going out of his way to cheat n help her

anon u have in fact struck jackpot because this is a concept i was spinning some thoughts abt before bee mentioned avoxes and we went OOOOH at that!!! so yes i have considered rainduo as a mentor-tribute dynamic and would love to talk about that concept too :]

so for this concept i think wilbur and niki would be close friends throughout childhood from 12, and then in their teens wilbur is reaped and, well, no one has particularly high hopes (he's a writer and a musician at heart, not a fighter) but through sheer trickery and dumb luck, he makes it to the end of the games. wilbur pulled some pretty fucked up tricks to win - when you can't use brute force, you have to use your brain - and partly due to the trauma of the games, partly due to his shame and survivor's guilt, he sinks into the capitol and relishes a new life there as a socialite. to him, the old wilbur died in the games and the new one has taken his place - to niki, and to his other friends in 12, whatever the games did to him made him into every vapid heartless capitol victor there is.

or. niki has her doubts. they all saw how horrible the games were, but surely there is some part of him left, some part that's hurting, even if it's buried deep?

anyway.

like og spin of the au, niki is reaped and this sucks - this time she does expect wilbur as her mentor on the train, and she expects some kind of warm welcome (maybe even an apology for leaving them so suddenly and silently? an explanation?) but she gets jack shit. wilbur is jaded and cruel and unrecognisable and niki entirely hates it. this is the part where i REALLY WISH we got some time of those two beefing with each other directly in canon (or at least interactions while niki was So Mad at him) but it's okay we fly blind. niki feels abandoned, lonely, thrown off of her kilter - she expected an ally in this place, but she doesn't recognise the person wilbur has become. she doesn't recognise his shallowness (...much), his ruthless advice for the arena, the way he doesn't seem to care for anything. she's scared and now she's lonely and it pisses her off - their mentorship is fraught. here are some thoughts from discord on that:

i tend to think of niki as a bit naïve before l'manberg or even doomsday - i think this is an au where this streak would come out real strong, and niki is stubborn that she can get through the games without losing herself. stubborn that she can stop things, that she can protect people. i don't think wilbur is cold enough (or, really, can bear to say aloud) to say that her odds in the arena are slim enough as it is, but he definitely tells her that she's making enemies and that her odds of survival dwindle with the more trouble she causes.

beyond that... hm. niki's trust in wilbur is almost unshakeable until nov 16, even when she outright says she doesn't recognise him anymore. i think she'd reluctantly listen re: don't burn down any buildings, but she would grow bolder each day she had to stay in the capitol. she gets more honest in front of the cameras. she makes more friends in training, and not the ones wilbur recommends. she throws barbs at him every time he makes one of those callous, cold-hearted comments about other tributes and rankings and odds. and besides, she's going in the arena this time, not him. she needs to practice her bravery.

it's like... she hasn't given up on him. she thinks the old wilbur is in there somewhere. (she is wrong. that is not how trauma works.) but she won't hold her tongue just because she

for extra angst points could definitely play up the whole 'feeling abandoned' angle between them as niki goes into the arena - probably due to how fraught their friendship gets leading up to the games. niki wants to focus on them and their friendship, wilbur has stringently cut off (almost) everything from 12 and refuses to let her in; he tells her to behave for the cameras, she tells him she never will. i think the last point in that screenshot would also make for a super tasty argument where niki feels wilbur has gone astray, that he's abandoned 12, and that he'll probably do nothing but sit on his ass and watch her die and he can't even bring himself to care about her anymore, can he? just more fodder for the arena. and honestly, i think wilbur would passively agree with most of that - he values niki's opinion, after all, even now, and if she says he's rapidly descending into a lost cause then she must be right. and it's niki, so she will be fine, and he goes to his bedroom that night and tries to pretend he is sleeping perfectly fine instead of feeling paralysed with fear.

okay now onto the games - YES HE SO WOULD. or at least i think he would go out of his way to help. as for cheating - he's a recent victor for 12 and i think he would value tommy (no doubt a link to him... i think they'd be in touch in this au also) too much to risk the punishment falling onto him as well. i get the vibes this is a games closer to 74th than 10th, so there are far fewer opportunities to cheat and the consequences of getting caught are higher. but schmoozing up sponsors? making stupid ass radio interviews or whatever to talk up niki's odds? sharing anecdotes from their childhood - some real, some entirely fabricated - across capitol airwaves to stoke their sympathy? 100%. with less to lose in this au, i think niki would be far less inclined to play nice for the cameras - i hope you starve, she spits at one of them, and wilbur appears on a talkshow two days later as she scrambles for survival in the arena to talk up how she always saved loaves from the bakery for the poorest mothers and children in 12. he borrows and begs and swindles to the point where it feels like cheating. but hey, this new wilbur is capitol-branded. he knows how to play the game.

if anything he probably sinks into the game a little too much. self-preservation is not his forte. probably wracks up a few heavy debts and favours to owe, but those are not priority until niki is out of the arena, alive. as long as she wins, and as long as the family he has isn't in danger, he will manage. wow it would suck if at some point those two goals became impossible to co-achieve. anyway

i kind of see niki's victory in the arena being similar to the one in the main au - if only because planning out an entire games is hard for meee >-< . she walks in bolder and braver for sure, and with a less strategic pick of allies, but they all get picked off and she spends a few weeks so terrified she can barely sleep and then she ruptures some fuel line and sets the arena alight with a fire that burns brighter and more ravenously than it should. but she wins, and she's airlifted out of a filthy, muddy creek she had resigned herself to die in, and wilbur barges his way through as many peacekeepers so that he can actually see her with her burnt skin and hair and unfocused eyes and trust that what was on the screens wasn't a fluke, and that they made it. and then it's just a matter of surviving the after.

i'm sure there are some other random quirks or tidbits i can think of re: this take on a c!rainduo hunger games au but these are my base thoughts!!

#can i just say whatever the hell lucy grey n snow had going on in part 1 made me so berko btw. like congrats ur my means to an end youre my #symbol youre my buddy? should we kiss? i'll get you out of here / don't make me leave these people behind #BRIDGING OFF OF THE TBOSAS DISCUSSION. i think the thing with crainduo (or at least how i like to depict them) is that they care about each #other extremely deeply and value each other... without being each others number one priority at all times.#i don't think niki plays priority with people she cares for like that; see her relationships with like wilbur and eret in lmanberg #even her friendship with and offering ponk a place to stay in her city after manberg even tho manberg hurt her #as for wilbur: his priority is tommy. like always. if it was just him on the line he'd do anything to get niki thru but it's not #asks #hunger games au #they would truly be such a nightmare in this au like. wilbur's self loathing is SO HIGH due to survivors guilt and trauma and mental illnes #he thinks that niki is So Good and Has It Together meanwhile he is So Bad #and is a mess that she cannot possibly rely on him. she can't possibly need him. she can't possibly want him around #<- and this shit is INGRAINED like. it's not even an active thought pattern anymore it is carved into his brain like a groove #and so shes like. do you even care whether i live or die??#of course he does. but this is the capitol. he cant be vulnerable in a way that matters #and that alienates niki further and this rage and heartbreak is building in her with nowhere to go. and in the arena she thinks it erupts #nah uh. i think its AFTER the area when she has to face wilbur again that she would go full screaming meltdown #ANYWAY !! i really like aus where they have this friction esp because i think like.. idk i think sometimes our views of rainduo are too ros #wilbur kind of forgets about niki sometimes because his self hatred is that bad. niki doesnt get wilburs mental illness and takes it both a #a burden/blame AND a direct rejection of her and her friendship #and they hover just outside of each others spaces anxious and angry and almost self flagellating. GOOD FOR THEM !#anyway Yes this did unlock something within me. thanks anon feel free to add on if u had more thoughts esp re: tbosas and such bc i had suc #a good time watching that movie

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mike-wheeler-ik-what-you-are · 2 years

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no because for me the BIGGEST like MASSIVE byler proof is the fact that they've building that up for 4 whole ass seasons so clearly the story will develop more in s5.

and if it's supposed to be a slowburn why the hell should it end up with will being rejected?

the only outcome would be that he becomes a villain, but then the ending could not be considered beautiful.

so yeah, no fucking way byler is not canon.

#also give me will thinking he got rejected and becoming a villain #but he has a dramatic moment with mike in the finale #and when he's about to kill everyone mike says something like 'will stop'#'this is not you'#and will is like 'you don't even know me anymore and you don't care'#and mike goes 'yeah maybe it's true and I'm sorry for that but don't you dare say that I don't care about you'#'because I love you will I've always loved you it's always been you'#and then will stops whatever the fuck he was about to do and they kiss #and they defeat vecna #and queer love saved the world once again #byler #stranger things #byler tumblr #mike wheeler #will byers #byler is endgame

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