#but sometimes we can't fix them

[stargazerdaisy]

Within the first 15 minutes of work (keep in mind, I logged in 15 minutes early), I've been hit by three different disputes where customers think they don't have to pay for work performed. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

#daisy rants #listen I can have some sympathy for the position of 'we asked you to fix it and you didn't fix it' #BUT #here is the key #we never promised that we would fix it or you wouldn't be charged #that's not how this works #listen we don't purposely NOT fix things #but sometimes we can't fix them #OR through conversations ~with the customers~ the customers decide to not continue with the repair #guess what bitch #we still spent time and expertise on that call #even if it was determined we couldn't or you didn't want us to resolve it #and we deserve to be compensated for that #I don't get to not pay the mechanic because he told me that it would cost X amount to fix my car and I decided to buy a new one instead #I still have to pay him for his time #the key is - the time we spent working on your request meant that we couldn't be working on someone else's #someone would who pay us #I see waaaaaaaay more of us giving away free work than I see of us charging for unnecessary work #but of course the customers don't see that side of things #(that's not sarcastic; that's actually me understanding they can't know some of this stuff because it's never visible to them) #anyway #my 'I only have a couple of meetings today so I am going to catch up on emails and loose threads' attitude lasted about 7 minutes #i now regret coming to work today and want nothing to do with it

[fakehelper]

anyway as I'm working on adding more gifs to my Quannah Chasinghorse pack, I realized that some of my gifs, while better than the original video, still wash her out a bit so I'll be editing them! And just in general, here's just a reminder that when you make mistakes, it's always better to own up to them and try to make things better rather than giving up.

#and!!!! that no one is above criticism or being held accountable for their actions #when you see something that isn't right you should try to speak up no matter their perceived influence #the truth will always come to light #but yeah just a reminder that if I ever put out resources that you feel are iffy or problematic and i don't catch it myself #y'all are always free to call me on it #i'm remaking part of this pack and redoing my santiago segura pack from scratch #and have recolored other packs before so i know that sometimes we just can't figure it out in the moment lol #but that doesn't mean we can't go back and fix things #especially me bc I obsessively save all my psds so I have no excuse not to edit them later lol #elly makes gifs

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

idk man but it seems that when you start becoming aware of your own IssuesTM you also begin getting a little uncomfortable with how many of those same IssuesTM are present in popular interpretations of fan-favorite fictional characters

#to be clear: I'm not bashing people processing their issues through fandom. I get that. have done that. #it may not be the most ideal way to process things but it is A Way and sometimes it may be all you have for a while #the thing that's worrying me a bit is how much of it isn't a path towards restoration. it's just... there. #like it's an integral part of who the characters are now and everyone feels that it's Very Important that they are That Way #and there's little to no hope of it ever getting better bc this is The Character now #idk maybe I'm just reading my own yearning for hope and restoration and redemption into my experience with fandom lol :') #but. maybe a little bit of the issue is the way that we present issues as Static. and we can't allow them to ever be fixed #bc that would take away an aspect of 'identity' if we did #your brokenness is not your identity. it may be part of your story. but it is not /you/. #this is what I'm trying to force myself to believe lately (and yes it is directly descended from my faith. I must believe in redemption #and restoration. because otherwise there is no hope. and I cannot live without hope. no one can.) #gurt says stuff #fandom #**if people start being weird on this post I will delete it and block them this is a fair warning**

[leqclerc]

Help girl I’m doing it again (thinking about 2019-2020 until my tummy hurts)

#sometimes im fine and other times i get hit by a crippling wave of nostalgia :))) #charles's early years at ferrari and his meteoric rise and the online shift in response to that and the character study fics #everything to do with seb and charles and how that developed and ebbed and flowed and the massive media coverage of this new big rivalry #the way everyone was gearing up for a continuation of that in 2020 but then the pandemic happened #the insanity of the twitch era in the wake of the lockdowns and the emotional turmoil of seb's announced departure #the condensed 6 month season that somehow felt like it went on forever and was simultaneously far too short esp knowing what's coming #and just....the way things were in the online community at the time?? all that creativity and brainstorming and sense of togetherness #im aware im probably romanticizing it a lot but ironically the further away we get from those times the more i miss them ig?? #we've had some good times since obviously but idk it feels like the zeitgeist of that time can't be replicated & a part of me feels so sad #idk this isnt making any sense but sometimes i'll see a photo or gifset or clip or whatever and think only a time machine could fix me #i need to go touch some grass 😭

[nthflower]

Tumblr is always like social norms are evil and stupid and hurt people that doesn't fit in (which is extremely true and I say this all the time too)

But the moment someone do something here stupid everybody is like turn into hive mind and bully them.(not racism or bigoted stuff like terfs idk I am talking about just weird things)

Like people preach be yourself, current social norms are fucked up then mock you for not following Tumblr culture or whatever.

#people who make angry posts to other users about tumblr etiquette etc. #like how dare you spam liking my blog how can you not know this is wrong why are you not thinking #or how dare you asking them something because you cared you clowns go learn unwritten tumblr interaction etiquette rules #we love people who dont understand social norms easily tho 😌 #ughhhhh i am angry #and this is not about me btw all my interactions in Tumblr was amazing following and follower #but some other post that u saw #like yeah they are annoying maybe why are you mocking or smugly mean about it just teach them whats wrong #like its my neurodivergency i know but i genuinely can't see sometimes not wrong i only can find patterns but not explain them #and if you tell me instead of mocking whats wrong here i can then see my problem and just fix it and also it would be amazing for me too #i would also develop as a person #this is my strategy irl tbh first i explain someone what's makes me feel wrong and bad about their thing #then if they don't understand after a while and its hurting me i just then be angry to them and say okay this persom is stupid/annoying #anyways i just especially after starting therapy stopped judging people even when how much weird weird they are #i cant know without asking and i can be same too #rant #long long tags #i should learn telepathy so much i want telepathy its only communication way that would satisfy me

[sohlaelwaylly]

HI FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO-LAST MYSTERY MENU EPISODE OF THE SEASON IS OUT!!!

#WE R ALSO GETTING A GINGERBREAD SHOWDOWN 3 THIS YEAR WHOOOOOOH GOOD TRADITION #I feel like I haven't been telling ppl abt the episodes enough #HAVE U HEARD????? THEY'RE CRAZY TALENTED AND ALSO JUST INSANE (honorofic) #It's a Bobby flay thanksgiving babeeeeeyyyy #I don't actually really care for Bobby flay but if ham n sohla are this excited I will be excited to see what they cook yknow???? #Also spoilers: the blackhole gravy is soooooooo like #That happens to me sometimes when I just. Put too many Ingredients together that they all cancel e/o out??? #If they can't fix it then noone can... Like.... What do u do...?????? #Anyways I was saying that I wonder if people have been hearing abt the episodes n watching them bc they're so good and #I'm like <333333333333333 wow.....!!!!!!!!! #Mystery menu #sohla el waylly #Youtube #Also realizing I think it'd b really funny if I specifically got the checkmarks #Verified sohla B)

[puppyboychewtoy]

realizing just how much of my own behavior.. not intentionally, not knowingly, but absolutely does... i do act in a way that puts me in the position to be taken advantage of. a pattern in my behavior of encouraging people to be cruel and manipulative to me. not to say i am the only party at fault but rendering this makes it much easier to communicate my needs in a way people actually understand and can do anything with

#master is. very good at taking my pages of concerned rambling and actually understanding what i need #because i often don't . #or can't be concise with it #and then we talk a bit and explain ourselves and it's all better #🔒 #that's one thing i have on their boyfriend . when i have a problem i go ' hey this doesn't feel good . help ' and then we fix it together #when he has a problem he goes 'i don't like this. but also i will be even more upset if you do anything about that.' and also will refuse #to talk to them sometimes #realizing that . ~2/3 of their relationship ive been around . that's wacky

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

me: plants seeds in a cup

me: puts extra in case some don't sprout

every single seed: sprouts

me: makes my garden bigger so i don't have to murder any

#me #it seems like i will have 8 green bean plants #also i have a cucumber plant #and two melon plants i can't even remember what kind #and more seeds that may or may not sprout #i'm a bit late to planting stuff #my boyfriend wanted to plant things earlier in the month but then work bogging him down a bit so i decided to do it now #before it gets too late #but i've had the cucumber and melons growing in a container since sometime in may #i just recently put them in the ground #we will see what happens #(bogged** not bogging. i am on my phone so i can't fix it without retyping every other tag)

[knaveofmogadore]

Hang..

#ran out of tags on the other post but I've got so manynof these #was best friends with a pair of roommates who became so intensely codependent that they both had breakdowns when the other studied abroad #a guy who had siblings regularly terrorized my friend who also had siblings with the corpse of a roachnfor over a year (roommates) #ive known ONE situation where the only chold terrorized an apartment of sibling people. but that's because they were all poc and she was #insanely racist. like so racist that MY little pale jewish ass got weird vibes from her on first contact #learned some good lessons from roommates but none of them are things I'd be able to explain to a kid #except maybe 'if you get the feeling someone's mad at you all the time but won't tell you for some reason just move out' #oh! my friend had a partner who was a terror of a roommate. as in she psychologically terrorized my friend and their roommates #once listened in on a convo that went 'i shouldnt have to warn people I'm walking into an apartment I PAY FOR just because they want a date #oh also @ my niblings sometimes situations are unwinable before you even get there. sometimes people just make up their minds about you #and you just gotta deal with the consequences of that decision. if you're in an unwinnable social situation just hit the bricks #you can't fix something that isn't functionally broken and it puts you in situations where every choice is wrong #living with people who grew up with fucked up sibling relationships created a lot of '0 good dialogue options' situations #cant leave the living room because then they asked for something and got it and that's shameful. can't sit in the living room. they want it. #again i could have been a way better roommate. for a multitude of reasons some under my control some not. but lord in heaven #but having siblings does NOT socialize you to live with other adults i hate that myth every situation I've lived in has proved it wrong #NONE OF US had any clue how to live with people who weren't our relatives #and this will happen to you. you will move out and realize the extent of your habits cause most people's parents just tolerate stuff #or your parents just got used to things that would drive other adults insane and they don't notice the things you do cause they're your kid #(or they might have even taught you those habits/level of cleanliness themselves) #one dude at the boarding house got mad about being asked to have basic responsibility for his room. so he left it covered in trash #and when they went to clean it it was covered in a fine layer of mold on almost every surface. genuine biohazard scene #got hit with 'youre the only person i don't regret letting into my house' from the woman we paid rent to when i moved out #and I'm like gee the bar is in hell 😭

[viosjaan]

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#i need to talk to you so fucking badly but i don't know how #i hate you a little for convincing me that we could do this we could be this weird thing between more than friends but less than lovers #and that i could be okay with it #i told you i couldn't #i told you i was so scared of losing you fucking everything up hurting you again #you said it would be fine #it's not fucking fine #you said not to test your self control but do you want to see pictures of me in a tank top #sometimes i hate you so much for perfectly knowing which buttons of mine to push to get me to agree to you #i hate that i can't even hate you properly because im too busy feeling fucking fond ki aw kitni cute hai kitna mast flirt karti hai there's #no going back you're it for me #when you're not. im tired of waiting and hoping #it's literally a vicious fucking cycle we fight we make up things stay good for a while but then ek din we talk at 2 am #and my fucking feelings become too real and i start having expectations hopes for our future together and then one tiny thing #happens something that is normal but perfecy for shattering my illusion like you saying 'uske liye pehle date bhi toh karna padega na' and #flirting with others #i hate that i can't express my feelings well i hate that i was too fucking embarrassed to say that #i know it doesn't mean anything to you but it means something to me. it means that you don't respect our relationship enough it means that #other people believe you're single and available and they're shooting their shot trying to impress you and it's so fucking maddening ki idk #i want to kill them all i hate them so much #i hate that you bring out the worst and best parts in me i hate that i feel so possessive and angry but also how i always try to be gentler #more soft hearted to people in my life because of you because of your lovable tender heart i hate the way i try to talk to my mom politely #because you love your mom. i hate that i don't hate anything at all about all of this except for the fact that you're not physically here #i miss you and love is understanding and i won't ever find anyone like you again and i don't want to remove enchanted from my ts playlist #but i also don't know how to not cry everytime i listen to it i don't know how to listen to renegade and think #that whoa i used to be the renegade in my first relationship and now it's you you're the renegade and you need me and all that joking about #i could fix you but i couldn't. i can't. not because you're too broken but because it hurts too much to stay im not strong enough to be #there for you

[lxnarphase]

come and put your name on it ๋࣭ ⭑

special treatment : lap edition

☾₊‧⁺...ft. : gojo satoru + geto suguru + nanami kento + fushiguro toji + hakari kinji

☾₊‧⁺...cw : cockwarming, somnophilia, dirty talk, grinding + dry humping, fingerfucking, overstimulation, praise kink, edging, oral fixation, satoru's silly pet names, suguru being smug, kento being a desperate man, toji being toji, kinji being a bully

✧ g. satoru : sometimes gojo knows he fucks you too good to the point you can't think after, something he brags about to you all the time. but when you snuggle up to him, still stuffed with his cock and warm with his cum, he can't help but run his hands all over you. and when he realizes you fell asleep on his dick, his heart squeezes and his cock throbs hard.

"pretty angel, did you fall asleep? oh, that's just precious...you're making my heart squeeze, i wish i had my phone, you look so cute like this." "did you say my name? dreaming about me? god, you're so precious, i could just fuck you like this...shit, don't fuckin' squeeze on me like that, are you having a wet dream right now? god, i love you so fucking much." "aww, my little mochi is so cute! look at youuu, you're gushin' all over the place. messy fucking pussy too small to keep my cock and all my cum inside you." "mm, fuck, pretty thing. you wakin' up? hi pretty girl...oooh, fuck, d-did you just cum? holy fuck, c'mon, baby, on your back, lemme fuck you, princess, let 'toru make you cum again, yeah?”

✧ g. suguru : suguru's softly cooing at you when you sleepily walk into the living room, whining to him that you had a dream and you wanted him to 'fix the problem he caused.' all he can do is just chuckle at how childish and bratty you can be as his hands are moving up and down your sides while he grinds up into you.

"you're such a brat, you know that right? always blaming me for your dreams. it's not my fault you can't stop thinking about how good i fuck you." "hmm? ooh, i see...you keep having dreams of me cumming inside you, hm? are you trying to say something, princess? d'you want me to start breeding you?" "i didn't say stop moving, did i? or do you need me to do all the work? heh, so spoiled, i've spoiled you absolutely rotten." "i know, but just cum once like this, won't you? if you do, i promise i'll fill your cute pussy with my cum, okay? mhm, promise, princess, i'll give you what you need."

✧ n. kento : nanami loves having you close to him, especially when you sit in his lap. it lets him nuzzle his nose into your neck, pressing little kisses where he can while your legs are spread over his strong thighs, his thick fingers leisurely pumping in and out of your needy hole, chuckling against your skin whenever you jolt.

"honey, have i mentioned how gorgeous you are? you look so beautiful like this...spread open and wanting, just for me." "you're sucking my fingers in so well. look at that...do you think you can take a third?" "it's so messy. look at what you've done to my fingers, honey, they're soaked. clean them off for me, i want you to taste yourself before i put them back in. maybe tonight we can make you squirt, hm? do you wanna try, darling?" "you think you're going to cum again? poor thing, your little cunt is so greedy, she just wants to cum over and over again on my fingers...is my cock not good enough for you, mm? aww, don't pout, i'm just teasing you, darling." "i know, i know, it's too much, but you can take it. be my good girl, just take it and keep cumming until you can't anymore."

✧ f. toji : sitting on toji's lap is, in his mind, an invitation for him to run his hands all over you. his cock is already hard in his sweats, but he's subdued the second you get comfortable and slowly grind against him, groaning when you press sweet kisses into his neck.

"tch, are you gonna let me fuck your thighs t'night? pretty please? yeah, that's right, i'm askin' nicely. why? don't play stupid, doll, you know what they do to me." "shit...keep moving those hips, sweetheart, you feel so fuckin' good like this." "god, i can feel that pretty pussy leaking through my sweats. big bad toji make you that fuckin' wet, mama? y'like grinding that clit on my dick through my pants? dirty fucking girl." "mmh, you keep tugging my hair like that and I'm not even gonna take you to the bedroom, i will fuck you into this damn couch, woman.” "listen here, wifey, I'll wreck your cunt until you can't think about anything but me inside you. hell, I'll ruin this stupid couch in the process, i don't give a fuck about stainin' it."

✧ h. kinji : when you sit on kinji's lap, it's when he's watching a fight on tv. you can tell it's not going how he wants it to go, the toothpick between his teeth being gnawed on. when you make eye contact with him, he just raises an eyebrow, one of his hands squeezing your hip.

"cupcake, do me a favor and get on my dick before i get up and give us a reason to get a new tv." "hey, hey, don't move yet, let me see if he lands this punch...don't whine like that before i put my fingers in that pretty little mouth t' shut you up." "you always squeeze so tight when i press down on your tongue like this...pretty thing likes that shit, doesn't she? go on, fuck yourself on my dick while you drool all on my fingers like a slut." "mm, shit, baby, i can't focus on that bullshit fight, lemme help you. yeah, thaaaat's it, let your boy fuck you nice and deep, make ya cream, juuuust like this."

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#gojo smut #geto smut #nanami smut #toji smut #hakari smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #gojo x reader #nanami x reader #geto x reader #toji x reader #hakari x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo satoru smut #toji fushiguro smut #nanami kento smut #geto suguru smut #hakari kinji smut #𖤐 ── lxnarworks. #💎 ── satoru. #🔮 ── suguru. #🥂 ── kento. #🔪 ── toji. #🥃 ── kinji.

[cosmiicfairy]

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#man this was the first time in a long time i cried that hard and felt that defeated in therapy #Everything came to a head after all the bullshit with neurology and the car loan stuff and i was completely honest with my therapist #i had such a massive breakdown because I'm just so exhausted #I can barely function beyond work and it's killing me #I don't know how to express to people and make them understand that i can't keep this up #i am killing myself just from work alone #The house is always trashed. my hygiene has been awful #i barely have the energy to talk to people let alone friends i care about #i have been having so many issues breathing this week it's like there's a weight on my chest that's sometimes accompanied by chest pain #And I know I should go see someone about it but what's the point? they're not going to listen to me #if i go to urgent care they're gonna tell me to follow up with my doctor. my doctor won't see patients for 2+ months out #i feel like I'm getting worse and worse and i don't see a light at the end of the tunnel #i can't do this anymore #i don't want to keep living through all of this anymore but i have no choice #there's only so much therapy in the world that can help when at its core i am not made to function in this world #there's only so much therapy that can help combat the fact that the world at large is so fucking awful and we can't fix it because of #politics and billionaires who ruin everything #these were supposed to be the best years of my life and i feel like i am a third party. an npc #anyway #vent // #long tags