#but like also. I am upset abt this.

[yaboisnelf]

i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hope they explode

johnny cage and kenshi sketches from mk1

#AHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH #i cant escape the johnny cage brainrot hes INFECTED ME #hes like a fungus. a parasite. im in love with him #sry no dc sry for not posting i think i need a new ipad mine is. exploding. #anyways i think johnny cage is part filipino and no one can stop me. #wah wah wah he makes his ex wives and husband and kids adobo and lumpia and homemade sauce and hes sooooo confident abt it #which is so upsetting cus hes just too good #he makes dessert that is also a spanish slur and sonya will go 😐 every time he says it cus he purposely makes it around her just to say it #which is me saying puerto rican sonya canon #i am insane ❤️ #me vs backgrounds btw just ignore it. ill prob come back and change it when i get home/wake up yk but for now. ugly. #anyways #johnshi #kenshi takahashi #johnny cage #takahashi kenshi #johnathan carlton #sketch #digital art #procreate #i ❤️ tagging

[pigeonxp]

ppl keep saying tallulah is "choosing" phil over wilbur bro can you shut the fuck up seriously like yes shes upset w him bc hes not there but like thats not his fault 💀 and she literally said that hes famous too like she knows why he isnt there 💀 she has every right to be upset w him but spreading the narrative that shes choosing phil over him is so stupid and unfair to all 3 of their characters. its honestly ridiculous bc we all know he would be there if he could, and canonically he was upset when he found out she was gone. its not like he doesnt care abt her ???? like thats so fucking stupid. also the idea that hes a deadbeat is stupid too bc its canon that lovejoy is FUNDING THE FEDERATION and therefore the island like what ????????? ur ridiculous.

#theyre turning against q!wil just like they did to c!wil #they have to have a villain and hes always at the end of it like its not his fault??? #i hate the narrative that hes a deadbeat so bad bro #ALSO not everything has to be an angst opportunity.... #like i saw someone say “what if she stops dressing like wil and starts dressing more like phil” SHUT THE FUCK UPPPP OH MY GODDDD #project ur angst onto other characters omfg like what is wrong with you seriously #like idc if this sounds harsh tbh this is my blog and i am upset abt it LMFAOOO I DONT CAREEE #its so fucking annoying to always have to be defending a character that shouldnt even have to be defended in the first place #just enoughhh omfg #q!wilbur #wilbur soot #qsmp #qsmp tallulah #qsmp philza #qsmp wilbur #q!philza #q!tallulah

[aquared]

looking at my sprites from like a couple months ago is crazy because i look at them and then look at my new ones and think God those suck im so glad i got better at art ( even though its been like . 3 months )

#short-time improvement is crazy i love it #this is some thing im good at clearly #also dont say anything about my old sprites #ive complained abt old art before and been told ‘ oh but its really good though !’ i didnt i DIDFNT ASK !!!! #even if its not that old #still upsets me a little !! #actually when im complaining abt stuff i make in general #like i am never fishing for compliments if im dissatisfied with something i dont really want my opinion changed on it #snyways thats your aquared fun fact of the day #you guys are allowed to like my own stuff new or old just dont convince me to like it ! #thoughts directly from my brain edition #here i go talking again

[frostbite-the-bat]

talked w/ a friend about this and wanted to post something similar yesterday after a convo i saw also

about people criticizing ttcc / ttcc fans for just... being cog fans? being cog centric? usually coming from people who only like the toons.

and everyone likes what they like! it's okay! but saying that people who like the cogs are horrible and support the bad things they do, is just blatantly wrong. i thought we knew that enjoying villainous and morally Bad / grey characters is... okay? it doesn't mean you support what they do. it's interesting to explore these topics.

i've seen many people just... paint anyone who likes the cogs as horrible because they're "apologists of x and y" and... i dunno. rubs me the wrong way! you do have a point and recognize the cogs do bad things, but liking them as characters means nothing about who you are as a person.

and this is not to say that people who are in toontown for the toons are bad. hell! they are right this IS toontown. i may be on the cog liker side but i like the toons! maybe ocs more than the npcs - mostly because i like my friends and the sheer creativity the toons can bring out!!

SO what i wanna say... i dunno. let's not point fingers...? let's have fun in a goofy cartoon game together??? also complaining about people liking VILLAIN ROBOTS on TUMBLR is kind of funny to me. do you realize where you are. but then again a lot of this i see on discord and in-game as well since i avoid things on tumblr... i am a sensitive little fella i avoid misty fight bc of One Really mean "Critic" guy i saw there and i have been shivering in my bootsies since. so you get me

but like yes ttcc is more cog centric but... that's okay? things could be written better and i still wanna speak on it, and i do thing the toons deserve attention and better writing... but the fact it focuses on the cogs isn't... bad? if you don't like how con centric it is you can go play ttr...? god forbid people have fun and explore the villain's side of things...? i'm not saying either toontown server is better or worse than the other... and everyone can like their own things!!

but like... people will just like the cogs and that's okay and it doesn't make you bad. let's all be friends okay? both sides may be going at each other's necks in-game and the cogs in fact do horrible things - but it's what makes them fun, and it gives the toons things to do in the game!! but we don't gotta !!!!!!!! i may be really sarcastic and sometimes mean in private but like that's me just privately sassing, deep down i think people should just... y'know..? enjoy things.

so yea that's the guzma / cathal thought of today. toon people cog people both people are all awesome as fuck and you keep doing what you're doing i love you toontown isn't toontown without you

#anyways omg god forbid ppl are cog kissers on the robot kissing website /silly #but like!! tt/r may not be for everyone and tt/cc may not be for everyone and THATS OK!! ur not gonna like everything!! #like i accepted tt/r isnt for me but its mostly bc they dont show cog health specifically and i struggle with these things but !! i #heard they are updating that so i might be able to play without getting bored / frustrated again ^^ i havent played properly in yeaaaars #i will still prefer clash bc fixation and?? i LIKE ROBOBTS....! #but tewtow is tewtow its all swag. the least toony thing u can do is bully someone for Liking Robobt. be niceys #like ya i admit im not perfect i also dont like people andhave so much one sided beef and i am sensitive to so many things and i complain #in private but at the end of the day its to make myself feel better and i KNOW to not engage and look away and work on feeling better #bc this stuff does Heehoo upset me bc Mental Health Probulem. but i know everyone should and can do their own thing and have fun #i may complain about (redacted ship) all the time and i dont get it at all but...? bro... just have fun... be free. im not here to stop you #im just not gonna interact as i should. good for both of us! joyous world! happy that ur happy!!!! #why complain abt ppl just Enjoying Cogs like that though................................................ do you not like fun #this is not at anyone specific #my friend did show me tags of a post anonymously #and i vague a person whos name i dont know ingame like A YEAR AGO #and a convo what happened in a server a while back. but its not anyone specific i just wanted to like. speak my thoughts #lets be frense... and if not thats okay lets not argue either then we all stay in our lanes

[lynxfrost13]

Man for some reason the “not living up to my potential” in terms of my art is really hitting today which is stupid.

Hey brain you know that art is a forever journey and that it’s okay to grow and learn and not be perfect right???

#it’s stupid that I feel bad!!! I know it’s stupid. and I am terribly sorry to vent abt it #it’s not that I think my art is bad I’m sorry if my other post gave that impression!!! I thought it was good. #the thing that bothers me is that I could’ve done better if that makes sense. but I chose to rush instead #I also tend to have high expectations for my work however I have very reasonable knowledge of what I’m capable of and the thing is #I really enjoyed making those traditional pieces!!! I did!! I had fun #and I played with a lot of new things and stretched that brain!!! however I tend to feel bad if I’m not immediately great at something new #which again is stupid bc I KNOW that it’s a process #and like I said I did have fun!! and will do more!!! but for some reason the little goblin in my mind is resting it’s hideous head #which hasn’t happened in a while #but that’s good bc it means I’m being challenged which is what I want and need #anyway sorry for the long complicated explanation I promise I’m not like. super upset #just overthinking bc I do that #Lynx talks

[piplupod]

i feel like i am losing my mind a little bit bc i spent over half of my counselling appt talking about my fear of spiders and this lady kept telling me i should just kill them, and that the only way to get over my fear is to kill them, and i shouldnt catch and release them anymore ??

and now i am thinking about it and wondering do they actually remember how to get into the house,,,,,, if i put them way on the other side of the house in the garden under a plant where its safe, will they just... come back inside? because I don't remember ever seeing any duplicates of spiders that I caught and released, it seems to always be a different looking one each time so :|

but she just seemed so confused and kind of amused by me trying to explain how i think that like... every life has value and I don't think I should be killing spiders if I can avoid doing that. and she straight up laughed at me saying that they are fascinating very interesting little critters.

i don't know, i just feel kind of sick i think. that was just really not what i was expecting and I'm confused like... is this ... the only way I can get over my fear of them? to just start killing them whenever i find one in the house?? that doesn't seem right at all to me but maybe I'm being too soft or something

they talk about values in DBT and how you must make sure your actions don't go against your values, and this seems very backwards to that, especially since this woman started the DBT program at the hospital. so i feel like maybe it's wrong of her to be telling me this, but also maybe she's right about this. idk !!!

#im just very confused #i just... should we not extend kindness to insects when we can? #like yes theyre creepy crawlies and they get into things but... they are also living creatures #they have inherent value just on account of being alive #maybe i am too sentimental or soft or smth idk im really upset abt this fdsjkl #i've always felt this way idk dsfjkl it is just a part of me i guess #i dont like how so many humans think they are top of the chain and everything else is lesser and below them #i dont think we should be feeling like we have total dominion over all the other living things on earth #its... a very white christian colonizer way of thinking. in my opinion anyways. maybe im wrong idk #i can't google the thing abt if spiders have a good memory and sense of direction bc i will find Too Much info or photos #and i . would like to sleep tonight. #im already so agitated though so idk but fsdjkl im kind of scared what i might find by lookign things up #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #spider tw

[soldier-poet-king]

U know when ur brain is Like That and whatever it is you have to eat is suddenly Illegal???

#the duality of fran #ughhhhh i am upset with myself #i have issues with leftovers. just generally #so mostly i only ever cool things i can tolerate as leftover #i have the last batch of that pumpkin soup #that i do NOT want to eat and its all gross and it's not like. rotten #but trying to force myself to eat it sounds like hell rn #but also guilt complex abt food yknow???? #im not doing anyonr any favours by just skipping lunch bc my brain hates the thought of it rn #i think. I'm just gonna have to toss it. eaf a granola bar (i always carry some for this reason) #and then. try to forgive myself. eat a proper dinner #i think i hate depression food obessions more than i hate the actual depression sometimes #ughhh and i have to meal plan #i go insane if i eat the same thing always but i also get so nervous trying new foods #bc my mother lives in my brain and yells at me anytime anything turns out bad or where i cant force myself to eat it #i only ever try things that im 90% sure I'll like #And still. #unfortunately. i am realizing my mother left me with major food anxieties #just not in the usual ED way. i got the guilt complex food waste if i don't clear my plate im sinning way #if leftovers go bad? or produce molds before i can use it? im satan incarnate #BUT ONLY ME. EVERYONE ELSE IS FINE. THIS STANDARD ONLY APPLIES TO ME

[woolydemon]

THATS A WOMAN GHATS A WOMAN 🥚🥚🥚🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME IS ANYONE LISTENING TO ME PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU

#Yosuke why are u low-key rlly proud of how you looked + how ppl regarded you in girl clothing #immediately deny that you felt that euphoria by saying it “scarred” you #and then admitting to being upset that Teddie was the winner in appearing feminine... 🤨🏳️‍⚧️⁉️ #Also literally the fact that he's like “OMGGG DONT BRING IT UP !!!” when Makoto literally only said he looked good as a bride #and yosuke went blabbering on abt that shit . #dude YOU were the one that got all excited to talk abt how u liked being a girl #anywya this was “all nighter & needing to work on late assignment” brain moment. i am not normal 👍 but it's ok bc yosuke is transfem #persona #yoske

[chitaquagirl]

feeling dire

#definitely mostly pms but also other things . SCARED!!! #lots of stuff happening to create Perfect circumstances for me to have a very bad time #and generally. i am FAR more prone to depression than anxiety but atm i am a ball of nerves #meds on back order. Scary!!! makes me feel like i need to ration my current supply (i rly don’t) #SCHOOL. RLY SCARY. didn’t go to class today. So many assignedments to work on and they just keep piling up!! #need to meet w my prof abt research. SCARY!! bc i have been slacking like crazy 🫠 #and the biggest anxiety inducer. Money!!! which is DUMB!!!! bc objectively i don’t need to worry!!!!!!! #but unexpected thangs are in motion so i am having to pay > $700 more than anticipated a month #which again. this is manageable. Not ideal but given my jobs i can handle it #i just wasn’t expecting it and now feel very out of sorts #since i was a little kid ive had this weird truly unreasonable and irrational anxiety abt money #and this is unfortunately triggering a lot of that again #which is bad bc it makes everything else spiral. ex. need to save -> buying less groceries/policing what i eat -> ed relapse #just feeling very very stupid and upset 🥴 #pers

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

Some info abt my self insert/sona hhhfhff sorry if this stuff is annoying I’m working on fandom stuff I promise it’ll b back to that soon shdhdhd

More doodles under the cut,

Yes I am, in fact, a Wreck. Idk what to tell u

#I’m actually not that bad at pretending to be calmer n friendlier than. this #shdgdjdhd #ppl often are like ‘oh I thought u were shy I didn’t realize you so stressed/upset/whatever’ #so. take this shit w a grain of salt ig shdgdjs #bones of a rabbit art #bones of a rabbit #rabbit of the bones #self insert #fnaf self insert #demon symbolism #doodles #sketches #yes I am scatterbrained and clumsy and an idiot #and anxious. and depressed #listen I’m a lot of things shdhdjd #do I still ship my self insert w sun and moon (or whoever I’m vibing w at the time)???? yes #I mostly do the ‘my faves actually hate me’ stuff when I’m feeling mad at myself or smthn like that #it helps! and if I let the bad vibes sit in my head too long it leeches into everything I say and do #also I do it when I feel bad abt myself or see one of those aus where sun n moon hate the reader or are just mean to them LMAO #I’m sensitive and stupid sorry folks #fun facts about babbit #babbit persona #babbit

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

i need to rip off mercury's stupid head with the stupid splitting jaw i need to punch him into a wall WHAT THE FUCK MAN AND ALSO HOW DARE YOU HURT MAX PISS OFF I HOPE YOUR STUPID BEASTS EAT YOU

#a biscuit's rambles #reflection man #mercury p:tcos #reflection man p:tcos #p:tcos #possumopilis #andante p:tcos #max flores #THEYRE VERY PRECIOUS OKAY AND RM IS A BASTARD A BACKSTABBING FILTHY LIAR AND I HATE HIM #HE MADE MAX CRY HE NEEDS TO DIE #PAINFULLY #I AM SO UPSET #i mean mercury's design is fire and i adore self-made freaks against all laws of nature #BUT NOT LIKE THIS #also edd just having the emotional intelligence of a brick but hes the only one around rip #id be hyped abt 2/3rds of the he/they college dropout squad bonding but this hardly counts as bonding #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THO #EXCEPT MERCURY MERCURY CAN GO FUCK HIMSELF #unreality #kinda technically

[wriiothesleys]

i have a self shipping question but it might be considered rude idk

#i fully understand and find the ‘NO SHARING’ aspect of self shipping incredibly valid #but like……..wouldn’t it make you feel quite miserable? #like any time you see someone post a ss commission or their lore wouldn’t it upset you? #i often get this way with canon x canon ships so i couldn’t imagine #adding peoples self ships on top of that too? #i am not trying to be rude because i understand on one hand #but the other has me feeling like if i didn’t ‘share’ my f/o’s i wouldn’t be able to stand #any kind of social media kshxjdjsj #and TRUST ME i also get the insecurities and possessiveness when it comes to my faves #i am just. curious. #sorry ksjxjdjhs #if anyone wants to chat abt it i am all ears #okay wait also let me add #that i have distanced myself from people who self ship with my faves before (for reasons of my own) #and have had it done to me too #is that the same thing i suppose?

[northern-passage]

one of the reasons why TNP is one of my favorite IFs is because the cast is trans AND Hunter can be trans too and it will be acknowledged. when it was revealed in the story that Lea and Marry are trans too I was so happy!! there are barely any trans characters in IFs and VNs, even less of them are genderlocked/always trans no matter the chosen gender.

thank you! i always found it very transparent when a game only allows the mc to be nb (very few of them have actual options for binary trans people - it's too hard to do more than just code "they/them" pronouns and be vague i guess) and in my opinion that's way more immersion breaking, because that's not how the real world works. you will see trans people, every day, at like.. target or whatever. and this isn't even just about trans people but also diversity in general.

obviously when it comes to trans characters, this is an attitude that has changed a lot very fast over the past few years, so looking back at older games i don't necessarily expect there to be trans options, nor do i expect everyone to be out here writing complex "transgender" narratives, either. most people that accuse us of that are just bad faith actors. in my experience, people are just looking for basic acknowledgement; they want to see people like them existing and going on fun adventures, too. that's what i want, and that's why me, a trans author, likes to write about trans people being trans in the genre that i like - but rarely get to see myself in.

i also think when it comes to fantasy or scifi, how boring do you have to be to allow for fantastical world-building but draw the line at societal expectations? and if you want to really be specific about world-building, then why would a gender binary exist in a world where there was never a colonial power enforcing it? why do you want sexism, racism, and homophobia to exist so bad? why does it upset you so much when it doesn't?

#obviously there are stories where those things are an important part of the narrative and im not saying it's automatically bad #to write abt societal bigotry #(i have to say that or people will misinterpret me) #but i do think it says a lot when ppl insist that those things HAVE to exist #or else it's not 'accurate' #or else it's 'breaking your immersion' #like idk how to tell you this but trans people ARE real. like for real in real life #if you can't comprehend that... i think that's a you problem #and you should go read something else lmfao #also this isn't even about representation (a word i am really starting to dislike) #it's literally just... how can you not comprehend or empathize with people that may not be exactly like you? #why does it upset you so much to see other stories being told? #i should share a writing advice video i watched recently where a writer talks abt how empathy is a huge part of writing #she's right!! and it's a huge part of reading too #ask #anonymous

[boxwinebaddie]

did kyle cry when he found out raven was stan

yes...A Lot.

which is kind of a big deal, because jersey kyle...

never cries.

ever.

so its a large part of the Why Can't Jersey Say I Love You ask meme, that, ik, is taking me forever -- i have so many asks rn haha -- but for the sake of context/lore, i will summarize part of it here. ( badly )

in essence, kyle, who is the least okay/mentally fortified person ever, is under the false pretense that everything in his life is fine...bc he refuses to process that it isn't. because to him, as long as everything is going to plan, w/ no detours or distractions...Everything Is Perfect.

see, kyle...likes to plan. kyle likes order. kyle does not like chaos.

he does not like to deal with messy, complex human emotions, fussy things, upsetting things, dramatic things, any kind of touchy feelings. its inefficient, makes you vulnerable, its embarrassing, its impractical. most of all...its unpleasant/upsetting. kyle doesn’t do unpleasant and upsetting...kyle Is unpleasant and upsetting.

and after stan died...kyle wept inconsolably. he cried rivers, lakes and oceans, day in and day out, only to realize that all the puffy eyed, red cheeked, blubbering and snot...were for naught, because kyle could cry until he died of dehydration, sob until his chest was swollen, scream until his throat was raw & bloody; it didn't matter.

because it wouldn't bring stan back.

...that no matter what he did, how hard he begged, bartered or pleaded...at the end of the day, his sweet, precious stanley marsh was still Dead and kyle was still the same sad little boy he always was, drowning in his sorrows & his dead super best friend's jacket, weak and whimpering, eyes warbling. a waste. a weakling. a worm.

so one day...he just...Stopped.

he just stopped feeling things.

completely.

as a coping mechanism ( aka not-coping ) he just decided to compartmentalize all those uncomfortable, intense feelings, anything that wasn't useful to him and ignored them all together. pretended like they didn't exist. will not humor them. which makes sense bc in addition to not crying, kyle also doesn't laugh.

this, i think, is interesting because, to keep himself 'safe' and in working order at all times, kyle doesn't think about unpleasant things, he also is outwardly abhorrent to prevent things from getting to close to him, anything he could get attached to or might get sentimental about because he doesn't like to be vulnerable at all.

conversely, stan feels things extremely deeply and all the time. so he is constantly in distress and disarray because at all times, he is aware of how Sad he is and can't compartmentalize things like kyle can.

( can we see why it might be super easy for ravenstan to tell someone he loves them and why it would be really hard for jerseykyle? fML )

but back to kyle who count on both hands...maybe one hand...the amount of times he's cried.

he cried the morning after the sadie hawkins dance in sixth grade when all the news crews and ambulances and firetrucks were at stans old house, watching them put shelley in a body bag, and telling him like, in stans jacket, that they couldn't find him and that the flames were so hot that he probably got incinerated in the blaze.

he cried when he found out raven was stan. it was...a lot.

he also cried...

...when they broke up during the ravesey divorce. </3

like it was....Oooooof. it was so sad and fucked up. like when i tell you jersey kyle, like scary ass jerseykyle, who never bends to Anyone, was literally on his hands and knees begging ravenstan to stay I'MMM :(

he was clinging onto the hem of stan's shorts, absolutely devastated, lip quivering, fucking hyperventilating like nononono--stan, don't go! please, Please don't go! please, please, please don't go! :(( don't leave!! don't leave!! waitwaitwait!!! i do! please just--just Wait!!! :(( i do, baby! i Really do! so, so much and -- i! FUCK!!! i can--i can Say it! please just give me one second! i can--NO!!! NONONO sTAN, PLEA

sigh....*narrator vc* He Could Not Say It.

it was sooooo goddamn AWFUL!!! like literally the one thing that kyle fears the most in the world is losing stanley marsh which had already happened once and was now happening AGAIN??? oh my Godddd

his abandonment issues are so gnarly :'(

aStandonment more like

he also held it together while stan was there, however, the second that door closed, kyle wept BROKENLY into stans big shirt, full body shaking, knees to his chest, loud, open mouth sobbing, the knees of his pajama pants drenched, desperately trying to reach stan, to try and explain himself with words that wouldn't come, only to find that stan had blocked him...On Everything.

it was AAAaaAAa ;-;

uUuUuGh!!! plus it's sooooo sad and Scary when jerseykyle cries because it basically triggers a massive, full-blown Panic Attack!! because he's like oh god why am i suddenly feeling every bad thing ive ever repressed? why can't i breathe? why does my Chest Hurt??

:(( jErSey

hell is a PLACE, bitch!

anyways...tldr: yes, kyle did cry when he found out raven was stan. he cried when he lost stan, found stan...and then lost stan again.

fun! :)

-uncle nina, jojo posing at the gates of gay boy angst hell

#i gotta stop doing the ask memes at the top of my box #BUT I AM PASSIONATE ABT THIS #also please note that stan was packing a bag and jersey was like nonononono where are u going where are u going :( #and stan was like Out and kyle was like stan its -10 degrees you are in a shirt and shorts like u cannot go out like that!! #i cant let you go unless i know youre somewhere safe #and ravenstan was like Kenny Is Picking Me Up #WHIIIIIIIIIIIICH OUGH MY GOD WHEN I TELL U KYLE WAS TRIGGERED AS HELL OH MY GOD THE VIOLENCE #like kenny was dating marj but u know hes still a little insecure abt kenny being in love with stan even if it was unrequited #but more than stan was sober and kenny was not also this was def abt to cause a stan bipolar ep so kyle was worried abt him #relapsing it was OOOOOOF marj and kenny also broke up during this period of time bc kenny took stans side and marj took kyles #ommmfg i cant talk abt the ravesey divorce i hate it so Bad #but i am very passionate abt jersey kyle and how he just made himself into a machine and like doesnt know how to be human #but yeah so jers does not feel things as a coping mechanism so he does not know how to process anything that is important #and doesnt cry bc its gross and insufficient and not useful to him he doesnt love people bc it is not practical #and he did that for so long and it was so dehumanizing that like he does not know how to be vulnerable or soft so #yeah...kyle does not cry if hes crying its for a good reason its also super bad bc hes probably having a panic attack #and is rly scared/upset bc he suddenly gets hit w all the waves of unpleasant human emotion he repressed & freaks out bc he doesnt kno #what to do....i love u jerseykyle even if u cant say it back bb