#but it didnt happen in real life stephanie

[heartbeatan]

Hi! Just finished the last chapter and epi of AOR and let me just say, I in no way think I have a vocabulary extensive enough to express my emotions, imma try anyway though 😅

I started the last chapter with a true sense of dread about where it was going, I was honest to God hoping oc would just stay and never leave him even when I solidly knew there were important things to address and finalize and that perhaps that 'break' in the routine they had crafted was needed for a final shift to take place. But as I read further, you wrote their interactions and conversations in such a way that I was instantly reassured that she would go back to him or that he would eventually go to her, just because they could no longer seem to be apart for long, and I quite liked it.

The way you plotted that feeling of no longer belonging somewhere that was once literally home and everything that made you happy, without outright saying those words deserves a round of applause and I got so into this story that I think I got a little teary when she was packing up her old life and realizing all the things she had wanted and worked so hard for didn't seem to matter anymore, that they were a burden now more than a joy, don't know if I read too much into it, but it felt that way 😅

And that conversation with Stephanie, I truly didn't expect it even though I was hoping a confrontation would happen. I'm really very happy oc got to say her mind and realise the true nature of who she thought was a friend though, even until the very end she didnt change and I liked that you kept it real between them, the way that face to face was written made me think of the fact that there are some people truly like that, that even at the very end, everyone has reasons for doing the things they do, skewed and misguided and twisted as they are, it all boils down to wanting to belong.

Now onto the happier parts, please know that there was the stupidest, cheesiest, dopiest grin on my face when she got into that car and started driving. Having read these at almost midnight I had to squeal into pillows because I was so happy. I love the little moment our couple shared on that porch, it was exactly perfect for them and I appreciate the vulnerability you allowed Jungkook to show, both when she was leaving and when she came back, I don't think I realised how much I wanted his side of things until I got it. It makes me curious of his thoughts when he received that first phone call.

The epilogue was a most pleasant surprise, I didn't quite expect the marriage part given that oc is such a 'structure and planning' girl, but then I wasn't surprised at all about the way in which it happened given Jungkook was involved. I will say I liked the 'my wife' thing a little too much 😅🙈 The ending paragraph made my heart full for them both in the best way possible, then I read the last sentence and thought 'yup! There it is, there's their dynamic' 😅

Finally, I just want to say a truly, heartfelt thank you to you for sharing this story with us, at the beginning of it you were transparent in your intentions of this being a story rife with smut and admittedly it is, I was expecting it to be one of those pieces with intimate happenings everywhere and anywhere and that was it (nothing wrong with those sometimes we need our brain to just melt and short-circuit😅) but you truly surprised me with the lovely plot, even if it didn't start out that way, I honestly did love the small town vibe, and the bond that went beyond between the couple, and my favorite thing is that oc got a life she is happy to live, that she still has the structure, but that she's free and willing to sway in the wind.

Please know that I will be re-reading this story multiple times and that I cannot wait to see what you come up with next, I've read your others works but never reached out until this one. I just couldn't not tell you how much I loved this one.

Hope you are well, happy and proud and as always,

Happy writing ✨️

Thank-you! I'm really enjoying with how much of a response this story is getting. I'll try to respond to what I can, haha!

Yes, the plotting around how she felt about her things and her home was intentional, so you were reading right into it lol. I try to be a touch clever with metaphors and symbolism 😅 even the tattoo healing was suppose to be a subtle metaphor but idk if it landed. I just felt like... OC needed to face her home in order to realize she didn't belong there anymore? Even if it was only for a day, I felt it would suffice as enough of a reason to be like... "why am I even trying here when I got something good elsewhere?" Cuz technically she hadn't seen her home since the infidelity happened, so seeing it in person was gonna give her closure.

And yeah, in terms of Stephanie - and I talked about this with a couple commenters cuz they didn't have a confrontation at JKs house, and hoenstly I wasn't really planning on there being one, because on one hand... who cares what someone like that has to say. But, it felt kinda right in the moment to later have that, and I thought it would be kinda nice to just... show that even though you maybe don't get to hear or say everything you wanna say, but you can still have closure...? And, yeah, there are def people like that out there. They don't even necessarily step out into the world thinking they're doing anything bad that day, or they justify what they do by thinking they're just looking out for themselves, but, yeah there are absolutely people out there who will never take accountability for themselves and have no concept of what's going on outside of themselves.

I am happy to make you swoon - sometimes i swoon when i read stuff back too haha the "my _ _ wife" line made me giggle every time I listened back (I used a text to speech app when I edit, hence why I say "listening.")

And yeah the marriage I just thought suited lol. A rockstar wedding in a Vegas-type setting lol cuz why the hell not. I thought the impulsiveness parts of their relationship were hot haha

And yes, you called me out lol this was supposed to actually be a one-shot of horny keyboard smashing but definitely grew. I'm finding lately that I can't just write a quick and dirty story anymore. The best example of this was The Cross in the Toys series. I started that series years ago with a plan to to seven stories, and the initial stories were all fairly short (The wand was less than 2k words) and straight forward smut with little dialogue or plot. After the Ice Cubes, the series sat unfinished for a long time while I did other stuff, but when I said "you gotta finish this" and sat down in April to write The Cross and The Ring, I figured i'd be able to pump out each in a day (I wrote i think Starboard and Couchsurfer and The Wand each in a day). But it took me like... maybe a week and a half to two weeks to write the Cross and end up being like 22k words. In short, I just don't think I have it in me to write dirty one-shots anymore haha! Once I get going things start happening and then I gotta shell out a whole story.

Anyway, thank-you so much for deciding to reach out! Getting feedback from readers is like... so much much more valuable than I first realized when I started writing.

Thank-you for everything!

[kawaiicherryblossomperfection]

hey sun beam realm its the mt st helens high school association she has 19 seconds to turn this off she was really sorry when she had 10 seconds to make sense and 12 seconds to rearrange everything she has no awkward encounters ever they are here to stay and ew! she has 9 seconds to turn this off it looks disgusting yes she does love us but shes going home rocket power makeout club and she has 10 seconds to go home time ok she gets to stay forever with us the real comic book character from the 1989s SUICIDe boys comic book written by desarae renee hollins and invented by 1980s SUICIDe boys for 1999s SUICIDe boys revolution thank u that was enough for now shes locked in for life wait she did include the rocket power makeup club yes she did already she has one bf brian ew! hes my bf brian and hes driving his car around makeout japan and hes going to listen to rocket power his clubs cool new design are u trying to drive a car? yes i am why are you putting yourself in ew! shes choi paranoid are you from this universe? yes i am well then help me hahha how do you know what youre doing? do u want to see it? yes i do ew! ok so shes sitting on the stick shift bitch ugly! ew! uh! hah ok so we have no time to waste ew! she lobes

ew she loves me and were going home to 1hundredforever were going home to never land woa! hoe did i get in ur car? we left a long time ago write it down! i love this part! i stopped the car u can feel it? yes u can! ew hes gonna drive faster ew! shed nervousamwritingtherightthings?itswhatyouwantokurcarstoppedokshesmineforeveritsscary?gangstanoliterallyitissoonesecondforevershegoinghomewithmenowweredrivinghometoneverlandiwouldknowwhattowritethoughprobablynotokcomehomethenitwasntmeomgitwasntmeomgnoitwasntmeitwasntmeifwasbitwasnemehialvinjerkinssantaitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeoksoubelievemeyesidooksouputulmaoew!uneverwritethatdidujustcoolcheckme?hahhayesididlolshedidit!lolwhosethat?omgidkthisisofuckingcoolomguscaredmdeididntdothisonpurposenoshedidntnoshedidntnshedidntnopeididntnopeididntnopeididididitonpurposewhy?bcijustdiditagainew!?ididitagain?ew!shesmineewyesiamoksowhydoulikeeme?bciminlovewithyouohoksourinlovewithme?yesiamwhydidupretendtobekeeh9?wellijusrdiditagainwsitwhywouldntilikeu?what?thatsnotwhatuweregonnasay?iknowbutyesitishowireallytalk yes it is yes its mmmhm:)yesitis so it is how she really talks? are u in amanga? no hahha im in a comic book apparently and it is bitchin ewA she didnt steal my voice no i didnt? right? no! u didnt! ok so what is happening now? are u a 1q84 manga comic book character suicide boys? yes she is! thats nor whs

thats not what she meant oh ok! so shes afraid of a little pain? yes i am ok so shes really smart? what do u want? you as my boyfriend thats it? i do love u! ok so u want my comic book dick? what the fuck? thats not funny! yes it is i know it is i laughed but that was mean ur more than just from a comic book? right? omg shes so cute thank u omg ur so fucking hot ok so why do u hate me? 1 second forever the 1989 suicide universe no i dont hate u yes i do i do fuck u bitchcool cool aporoved this message love is not a problem to stephanie soo so love on rock on ew! she loves me tew ew she doesnt love you she loves me ew! she said tew ew! he said it first whaat? hahha whaat? sorry they let me use it yes they gave it to me as a friendship ruining preaeb.m

mpresent hahha downer what the fuck bitch i love you too cutee! thank u for what? for loving me who? choi paranoid why? bc everyone else hates me oh ok well i love you too desarae renee hollins ew! ut

ra love slut ew! yes i am why did u say ew? bc being a slut is gross ok so ur a by the book person? no! im just cool ok so u cool checked urself? not on purpose ok so ur cool cchecking them? who? them? i dont know who they are why? bc ive never met them she wants to my friends and my othee voice. too ok so shes being bullied by her school james madison high school ok so shes going home eigh

right now to 1988 suicide recolution hahha thats so cute ew! shes right it is addicting to use that sene

tence damn ur going back? gwgw ew! shes right shes not going back ever! yay!!! omg ur nuts why? didnt they tell u to stop? yes but they hate me so i do what i want ok so ur going to do me? yes i am bb hahha ew! ur stupid but i love u stupid yes it was no it wasnt yes it was it cant be written out she wanted this to happen cutww

eenewphoneeverydayandweloveuforsureyes!werelovingheragainyesweareimsouthkoreanasianyay!!yesiamuforgottoaskiknowhahhaididbutujustdidnotonpurposeipromiseew!uraal

slut hahha no im not i love you i love you too ok so she only cant say dick or pussy and no dick or pussy ok so she cant say love you too? no she cant ever again yes i can and i will ok so shes going to take over the world? no my bf will ok so why are we going to mexico? he said caymen islands ok so shes nice but ur not to her ok? so we will take over the world! togetger

remember no demons, hauntings or touchings ew! shes right we cant say amen what we just did! and were going to school what shes going to school with me? princeton high school no no no princeton high school its not keeho what is your name? shes a cop hahha no i just want to know ur name! ok so ur a junkie? no hahha i just smoke meth a little bit why? bc i like its high ok so ur gonna explain ur comic book for me? sure i will ok so ur gonna kill keeho? no i dont want to kill him ok so ur blind? no! im not blind i said no!!! ok so ur not blind? nope i can see why do u hate keeho? bc i used to be in love with him but he hated me so i hate him now why? bc i wasted time on loving him when it was fake ok so u dont love me? i love u so much ok,. so u just want to write a comic book with me? yes but i also want to hang out and party with u and like have money to spend on clothes and get our hair done and watch tv and go home together and party all day but i want to focus on my comic book first it will help me sleep better and i love sleeping at all times of the day its going along now are u still here? brian yes i am ok so what is ur real name,m? why? i like to know my fathers name ok so u know im your father again but u still dont love me? are u crazy? ive always loved u and i still do ok so ur grounded hahha i am? why? bc ur being bad no im not hahha sorry im just excited to be with u i love u brian me? yes my daddy ew! u are not a slut ur just pretty and cute and normal and why are u sad? bc u were confused for so long i dont like that it makes me sad to see u that way but i love u ok so ur going to hell no im not!!! i sais no!!! ur going to hell today missy do u like aunt missy? yes but i think that she put a curse on me when? 1963

#i love you too #she does love me

[ohmyfairies]

Imagine taking fiction so personally that people liking “””problematic””” characters offends you,,,,, lmao couldn’t be me

#vent #i literally told someone irl i liked chrollo and they got offended because hes a bad person #bitch hes a fictional character #if u cant separate fiction from reality then thats a you problem mate #also #dont come for me liking villains when u simped over damon salvatore a canonical rapist #LOOK U CAN DENY IT ALL U WANT BUT WHAT HE DID TO CAROLINE SEASON 1 MAKES HIM A BAD OERSON #so dont come at me for unapologetically liking problematic characters #i dont condone what they do in real life #but it didnt happen in real life stephanie #because hes a fictional character #a 2d drawing #all im saying is if u simped over characters like damon salvatore #or any tvd boys #or loki (dont lie i know you fucking did) who killed 80 ppl in 2 days #or dean winchester a misogynistic sleazeball #u dont get to be an anti #u just dont get to ok #fuck off #sorry to anyone who read those tags i get kinda heated abt this stuff #ok 2 rb #my text posts

[faorism]

needing the au to drop wherein i can commit to writing a historical au,, because since i first watched the db cooper job my mind went straight to OT3! OT3! OT3! (unlike with the van gogh job, since i aint playing with that fucking lieutenant)

one day maybe one dayyyyy i will sit down and i will write the ot3 into that episode's story. so, it'll be the backgrounds for the characters in the flashback (so, stephanie ritter, steve reynolds, and reggie wilkins), but with the necessary personality adjustments (parker, eliot, and hardison respectively). basically, vintage ot3 with some hot as hell aesthetics and secrets and avoiding as much as possible producing copraganda.

so. my thoughts. what i see happening. and this got super long so im throwing this under a cut. and for ease i will call them by their modern day canon names except when making a point.

first, general thoughts about the characters.

and so: steve to eliot. nothing much here on the surface. eliot still volunteers, too much an indoctrinated white man to have been forcibly drafted. so its still one man gone to war. one man come back. eliot would had been noticed early in training for his ability to pick shit up, and they teased at maybe sending him to a special unit. maybe they do, or maybe they don't because they just need to funnel fuckers to the jungle. the vietnam invasion was a terrorist imperialist venture and there's no romanticizing from me about anything done being at all valorous or special or brother-in-arms'y. and eliot commits war crimes under the american stars and stripes instead of just to keep moreau's champaign running. but also maybe moreau is eliot's superior. he certainly would have been rewarded for this ruthlessness. (eliot of course strove to impress moreau because there aint an eliot spencer who wasn't that man's dog at some point, i!!!! dont make the rules). eliot's friend died and eliot's gone off to carry out his wishes and moreau lets him because he Knows eliot is gonna come back. whether its to come back to the same squad, or follow him into deeper spy shit for the military, or to fuck off and go private. then eliot meets parker.

now. stephanie to parker. beth plays normal so well im mad at her, but there's something edgy and strategic about stephanie that i think parker can grab onto. i feel that maybe she was kind of a thief still, but there's more realism to this world so archie wasnt a super secret spy with lasers to practice with, but just a guy with sticky fingers whos a little bored and wants a protege. parker is good really good at what she does, and not having to deal with lasers makes me easy. but she's into scams that are less grifts and more Catch Me If You Can slight of hands. she's always looking for easy money (she was into lifting cars at one point! literally she follows where the crime is). she's doing something in an airport and someone tries to recruit her as a flight attendant because she's got the Look. and yall, flight attendants? that shit was like being a model and an astronaut and a time traveler back then. and according to a teacher i had, who once worked as in the f.a. union, those ladies back in the day were rad and queer and free spirited and runnnnning shit. i think, yes, it's a Job which i think we might resist placing parker into. but! of the jobs, at the time, i really see her rocking it during the time period. (also come on, the opportunities to swindle distracted people of their shit would be endless. they would just think they dropped their stuff in the airport! not that it was stolen.)

finally, reggie to alec. i think hardison will be the hardest to translate. even tho i admittedly listen to a lot of true crime podcasts, i dont know much about fbi life and also definitely don't know about it historically. part of me desperately wants to put him somewhere else even if it does have to stay within the fbi. i might cheat and make him like a Q(uartermaster) to 007/00s like in james bond, and he's like UGH this is horrible god i hate working for the fbi but they will give me funding so...... anyway, here's this totally cool [radio term]. that said, if hardison is stuck in the fbi, why he ends up there is that he is a fucking savant when it comes to research and the man can put together a presentation like no one else. that white man gets all the credit for profiling but it was hardison who goddamn was the google of the microfilm days. reggie felt super square but that might be because he had to deal with mcsweeties db cooper shit day in and day out for years. hardison is more himself. and definitely still a nerd. alec would be into dime fantasy novels and comics and ham radios and oh god he also would be into star trek like the original star trek as it came out and he would be into the zines yes! yessss. omg. also he plays a mean arcade cabinet. but he's mostly well adjusted but lonely. his colleagues dont appreciate him because fbi esp during that time were fucking wilding out and racist as hell aaaaaand im sorry im srry im trying so hard to have fbi hardison make sense but also! acab. ANYWAY.

second, the relationship

i think it would be fun to play with what it means to have parker/eliot start off first and bring in hardison afterwards. (if white collar is your thing, it would be like this canon divergent ot3 fic wherein peter burke is the last to join in.) i feel they would be Super Intense esp since they are carrying this big ass secret. kind of broken and dysfunctional and there's the passion and the commitment, but i think there's also a tenderness that's super hard for them to achieve? and i think there's a way that hardison plays such an important part in who they are and how they are. like, sure i think parker/eliot would have joy but they won't have levity. they would have compassion but they won't have gentleness.

eliot meets hardison after being recruited by nate. i think they get close because while nate and eliot have an interesting and compelling mentorship/friendship, nate is still eliots superior; sometimes its nice to complain about your boss, as hardison will say to eliot to try to make friends. i think hardison and eliot would become legit friends and not just work buddies because they are just not cut out of the same cloth as the rest of their colleagues. they grab beers after work. after hard days, hardison cajoles eliot into going to the arcade. they are friends. real real truly deep best friends, in a way hardison didn't think he could have with a fed and eliot didnt think he would have after his friend died. but also? they are like "buds" who are buds who are desperately tryna to cross any lines because there's a.... tension? an UST between them they dont know what to do with.

parker meets eliot by way of a "lets have my friend for dinner, he's a blast." and immediately immediately hardison is like... wow this woman is beautiful but like, really attracted to her personality. and parker things hardison is kinda dorky but cute dorkie? anyway, they have a puppy love situation growing. and it keeps growing until bam. eliot and parker are like. are we into alec???? fuck we are aren't we.

i think stephanie and steve would never tell reggie (even if somehow they were to be a thing). but parker and eliot? hell yeah they tell hardison. eventually. after a while. sooner than maybe they should. the tension if they should say something is one of the things that build up as UST between them for so long; parker and eliot know they are carrying this huge thing. two huge things. eliot being db cooper and also their massive crush on him.

if i could control myself to stick to a pwp, it would be another christmas. maybe the christmas nine (more?) years down the road. the damn snow grounded hardison's flight back to his nana's, and parker and eliot hear this and invite him over. the egg nog gets flowing and parker eventually is like,, fuck this. and comes onto hardison. and hardison would be like wow wow what but... idk, free love and swinging were In The Thoughts And Minds Of The People. he still checks in with eliot who is like. her body, man; i aint gonna tell her what to do. and for a sec hardison is like, man is this a cuck situation? i guess i can be for it but also...... aint mad if i aint alone. and eliot is so grateful and idk. i just want them all to be happy and having fun and no one to be left out. and yeah i am kinda brushing over a lot of the racial politics which, in a more developed fic rather than a pwp, would definitely need to be brought in; but idk that needs to just be in the bedrock of whatever plot is going into this.

it takes a lot of maneuvering of their lives but they make it work and eventually hardison is a keeper of eliot's secret too.

(apart from the historical aspect, another reason i probably won't actually write this is because i know myself. i would want to do worldbuilding. i would follow eliot and alec to their jobs, but i wouldnt want to write outright copaganda. the grit/realism i would be comfortable with would take a level of research i dont think i can commit to. but if someone wants to take this up or if you figure out a way around this issue, pls do i wont be mad)

#eliot spencer #parker leverage #alec hardison #leverage #thiefsome #okay i srsly am not this active but this week got me wanting to talk and talk about these three beauties #the db cooper job

[thattimdrakeguy]

You told nothing but the truth and these clowns just read Red Robin and Batgirl and think they have the authority to speak about Tim and Stephanie’s relationship. In Batgirl it was written like Stephanie was right and everyone was wrong /rolls eyes. Everyone but her is infallible. They ignore that she treated Tim like garbage in Red Robin.

steph didn’t even tell tim that she went behind his back trying to reveal his identity and therefore betraying his trust. several issues later bruce reveals his real id to her and tim gets mad because he didnt want her to know because he wasnt ready, yet steph never apologized for going behind his back and it was just treated as this cute thing.

I’m not positive if these are the same person, given they were sent minutes apart, but I’m putting them together, because I’d rather not spam too much negativity since I feel like it’s a time we should all just be chill as we can given life’s circumstances at the moment.

Even the negative TimSteph post I made was for the purpose of settling some toxic stans, and hopefully stop such bullying I kept seeing happening because of a friggin’ ship/character. Cause I thought it was ridiculous.

As for Batgirl when I read it, I just thought it was really embarrassing. I haven’t yet finished the series while reading it fully, but that’s just because I got sick of it since it started feeling like every issue went the same way.

Steph gets crapped on a bit by a Bat-Family member, they make the other Bat-Family member look irrational in some way so you don’t pay attention even when they say some pretty fair stuff sometimes, she does something good, she earned their respect.

They also didn’t even write her right, started talking about hope, and they tried making her seem like an insecure awkward person when talking to boys-- when before she was cynical while doing it for an adrenaline rush and too confident for her own good, and hooked up with guys.

So they couldn’t even freaking write her right.

They acted like Babs might just be jealous of her, Dick is being hypocritical, and Tim is just a mean ex-boyfriend.

They didn’t even bother acknowledging the fact Steph got Tim blew up and disfigured, and I don’t even think that moment is in-character for her, but it’s very stupid to ignore the obvious just to have the victim in the situation seem like the irrational mean one.

It was so badly written, and forced. Like I think they were going for this big feminist thing, but it just comes across as pandering to her fans since the other characters don’t act right. It’s just badly written.

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The whole thing about acting as if it’s okay to ignore all the obvious problems caused is just stupid. When you think about it from a character logic perspective, or at least what you can force out of it, it means she didn’t feel remorse for any of it.

She just started to care when Tim being upset about it became inconvenient for her, when she wanted to get back together again because she got what she wanted.

I’m pretty sure that isn’t what they meant for given how they play it, but if you wanted to apply some sense of logic that makes sense. That’s what it’d be.

I can’t think of anyway it actually works besides representing delusions or it just plain being toxic.

#discourse #apologies if having more than one post on Steph's flaws is aggitating #Just answering the ask

[princessmcpurpledork711]

So, I wanna know about Mason and Ryuki more.

Of course! They met in elementary school. Mason was really shy and mostly kept to himself. Ryuki came up to him and sat with him at lunch and they were practically inseparable ever since. They were both dorks. They played together, watched anime together, and drew together. They were over at each others houses constantly. It was the norm for them to be together.

It seemed natural for Fernando to assume that Mason would go to the same private middle school he sent Camille to. Honestly deep down, Mason knew his family was thinking that. But it didnt feel real until the last two months of sixth grade and his dad taking about getting the paperwork done for the transfer. No discussion, just the unspoken understanding, like it was some law he couldn't break. So Mason didnt even fight it, he just retreated. At the end of the school year, Ryuki promised him they would keep in touch. They could still hang out whenever they could. At first, it seemed that would be easy. The whole summer, they hung out at each others houses, sleepovers and text messages.

It hit Mason as soon as he entered his new school without this best friend next to him how lonely and anxious he was. Everyone at this school seemed to single out Mason, feeling his nerves and uneasiness. He was vulnerable and an easy target. He was alone and miserable. He wouldn't talk to his family about it, always responding with 'It was fine' when the how was school question was asked. He still kept texting Ryuki, but never mentioned what actually happened at school. Ryuki was used to being the more talkative of the two, and normally Mason would be grateful for that, but hearing how Ryuki seemed to be doing well, you know besides missing his friend, made Mason feel like he was the only problem he had. His responses got shorter and shorter. He retreated into himself, would only go to school and then lock himself in his room. He wallowed in his growing depression.

Ryuki did his best to get through school. It was really weird to not have his best friend with him, but he needed to adjust. He followed all his school work well, and acquainted himself well enough with classmates. But he never really stopped thinking about his best friend. He texted him every day. He wanted to make sure he was doing okay. He wanted him to remember that he was always going to be his friend. And it was fine for a bit. School got in the way of actual visits but as long as they kept communicating it was fine. But their conservations started to get shorter. And by the end of the school year, he never got another reply. He really wasn't sure what to think of it at first. What he did notice is that he would always read the messages he left. Rarely he would even see the little ... come up but eventually disappear. This just made him keep texting him every day. Just to remind him that he will always be there for him whenever he needs him. He texted him everyday, always hoping that hell reply one day.

The start of Masons eight grade year was torture. He was getting bullied, and he just stood there and took it, not caring about himself anymore. He went home and did homework. When he finished, he would do literally nothing. Ryuki kept texting him about his new friends he met this year, and he just kept thinking how he was better without him and how he was just kinda drifting through life, not sure why he still even bothers. Hes thought about dying but had no energy to act on it, even though he now slept excessively.

Meeting Stephanie was shock. His cousin was just as shy and awkward as he was, and she was an artist and getting into anime. It was probably the most he talked in a day since 7th grade. But when Steph was talking about her friends she offhandedly mentioned Ryuki and he just sat there on his bed in shock. Steph put two and two together and realize not only was Ryuki Masons only friend, but Mason was the person he texted every day with no response. It was weird, but Stephanie knew how much they both missed each other and after a ton of talking and crying with both each other, and his family and cousin Al downstairs, he decided to finally talk to Ryuki again. Steph suggested a hangout at Ryukis house the next day (a Sunday) Ryuki accepted his best friend back with open arms. After the hangout with all the friends getting to know each other, with only Mason left at Ryukis house, he finally told him about what happened. Tears were shed and hugs were given, and they promised to never lose contact again. With everyone agreeing, they all hung out together every weekend until Mason could finally go to the same school. The rest of eight grade went by well, with Mason finally shrugging off the bullying and focusing only on schoolwork and his new friends.

High school made it feel like the gang was officially complete. They were the weirdos that sat in halls drawing during breaks and lunch drawing. They were cool with that. They all became happier and comfortable with each other and that's all that mattered. Now with that said, it was obvious to everyone since that first meeting that Mason and Ryuki were crushing hard on each other. Not that anyone was gonna do anything about it. Ryuki may have been the most outgoing of them, but he was still shy when it came to that department, and Mason was a gay disaster who was bad at feelings so neither was going to confess. (No one else could push them they aren't any better XP)

It was actually in their junior year, which was last year, when they went to a con when they got together. (Luckily quarantine didnt affect this part of the story, barely. Literally it happened like two months before it started) These dorks have gone to cons since freshman year together and this year they decided to cosplay as My Hero characters. What ended up happening was that Mason went as Todoroki and Ryuki went as Midoriya and this group stans Tododeku and they kinda subconsciously ended up couple cosplaying. They didnt mean to, but walking around the con they stuck together, having fun in character and being awkwardly close together. A lot of people came up to them and asked if they were couple cosplaying. They were awkward messes (pretty in character honestly) and eventually this caused them both to ask themselves how they really felt. (As a cosplayer/roleplayer I feel my characters feelings so much that genuinely feel the hurt/anger/happiness/love) I feel like these feelings were pushed to the surface and both realized how deep they really were. On Saturday they hung around a group of BNHA cosplayers and they all decided to throw their own party in someone's hotel room (they were all minors and they wanted to nerd out and party) Usually shy these babies, but surrounded by equally nerdy people made them go for it. It was fun, snacks, music, watching the show. Then one of the cosplayers had an idea. They put on a slow song and encouraged all the OTPs to dance together. A few of the them get up, and others just dance for the hell of it. Mason and Ryuki looked at each other for a bit, but they danced. They really fell into the moment. They were really close to each other by the end of the song. Mason ended up pulling Ryuki to the balcony and awkwardly but eventually confessed. They were awkward, but happy. They embraced and softly kissed eachother. (The whole party saw them and cheered for the OTP. They were peeved, but still keeps in contact with a few of them, especially a Bakusquad they got along with, they actually seen some of their webcomic before!)

Quarantine starts two months after they got together. That sucks. But they face time every day. And they've met up maybe three times, but as safely as they can. They can't wait until they can actually be together again. Because they will never let anything come between them again.

#ahh young love #okay i know i ramble but these two are my OTP okay???? #ive been waiting forever to talk about them #also i have projected myself onto mason sooooooo #so sorry for long ass post 😅 #masryu #yep thats the shipname i decided right now #nex's asks #nex's art

[someone-online]

4, 5, 10, And 15?

4) your top three songs from Dear Evan Hansen!

!!!!! Okay top one is rlly basic but definitely Waving Through a Window bc the second time I listened to the soundtrack, I actually listened to the lyrics and all of a sudden I have this song describing exactly how I feel???? Especially bc I didnt know I had anxiety at the time and was convinced by my mom that theres no one else who felt the way I did and I thought that no one understood how I felt so I always kept it to myself but then I heard this song??? And I started crying bc I was like “Thats me. This song describes exactly how I feel” and over two years have passed and this song still means so much to me.

Second is probably Requiem bc I love Zoe so much???? Like this song just shows how she felt and what she went through with Connor and then the parts with Larry and Cynthia show how they feel regarding Connor’s death and also it’s a fun song to sing and play on my uke

Third is If I Could Tell Her bc it’s pretty cute but also it’s the song that made me realize in tenth grade that I have a crush on Zoe djdjdjdjdn

5) your top three songs from Be More Chill!

Top is definitely I Love Play Rehearsal bc its so fun to sing!!! Like it gets so sporadic and stuff and is just the embodiment of ADHD and also Christine is so passionate??? Plus I love that one video of the Broadway version where the way Stephanie Hsu portrays it, Christine is just quickly explaining herself and she’s trying to hold back but she can’t and just starts going all out to ramble about her hyperfixation and just djdndjdn

Second is probably A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into bc it’s a Christine song and Im love Christine and also its so fun!!!! To play on the uke!!!!

Third I had to think about but I have to go with Pitiful Children. Villain songs are always so fun and like. That song is just fun in general and whenever I listen to it I always have to sing along to the chorus djdnjdjd

10) your top three songs from The Prom!

TOP ONE IS DANCE WITH YOU! I always get this one stuck in my head at random times and I just. Love to hum it. It’s so soft and cute and just UGH MY HEART 💕💕

Second is Tonight Belongs To You bc its such a fun song and it’s really catchy!!! Also that Wicked reference djdjdnjdjd

Third is Alyssa Greene bc I relate SO. HARD. Like I have to pretend to be this perfect straight child for my own mom when I want to be able to be myself and be open but I cant bc I too am scared of what could happen if I came out so Im just this weird mix of who my mom expects and who I am in real life and it’s kind of. Stressful

15) top three musicals you would love to see!

Not including the ones Ive seen already, I’d say Be More Chill is one bc I bonded with my cousins in the Philippines last year over BMC and they were supposed to come this summer bc they got their visas and we were gonna be allowed to go up to New York to see Broadway shows and we were gonna see BMC but then later they decided they wouldn’t come this year and now Im sad bc BMC is closing and we won’t be able to see it together :(

Another is The Prom bc LESBIABS also it’s a really important story to tell with an important message and like. Its also a nice musical with humor and a happy ending and just. Good.

Third is Hadestown bc ITS SO GOOD???? Ive had the songs constantly on repeat lately both on Spotify and in my head and just. I love Greek mythology and Ive loved the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice for the longest time since second grade and Hadestown is such a good adaptation of the myth and it also makes my heart break in a good way.

#asks #electronickittendetective #dear evan hansen #be more chill #the prom #hadestown #oof this ask is just me rambling about musicals i love djdjdjdj SORRY

[cursed-to-be-a-sidekick]

DC Ladies and Why They're so Awesome

Barbara Gordan: So of course Im going to start of with a good part. Babs is probably one of the smartest people in the entire DC universe. She graduated high school early (at like sixteen) and went to college. She got her masters degree so she could be a librarian. In her 20's she became a congresswoman but apparently was too liberal to get re-elected. On top of this all she was batgirl. When the Killing Joke happened the DC universe thought they lost Babs. Not only did Babs stick around she became stronger. Babs used everything she had and built up the Birds of Prey using her quick thinking and computer knowledge to keep her team safe. Not only that but as Oracle Babs was the information keeper for the Justice League. She had every single superheroes number easily accessible and knows them all personally. Also Babs became a Green Lantern! Like thats awesome. Babs has been at war with the Calculator for forever and has won every time. You can not tell me Babs isnt one of the best DC characters hands down.

Diana Prince: Okay I bet you're all surprised I didn't start off with Diana. I love Wonder Woman so much and there's so many reasons why. First off Wonder Woman defied her Amazonian sisters and went out to the real world. She didn't know what was out there and didn't really care. She wanted to promote peace and be a diplomat and that's what she was at least for a while. When Diana killed Maxwell Lord she regretted it so much that she decided not to be Wonder Woman anymore. Even though everyone told her that her reasoning was just (cause like yeah it was). Wonder Woman has this huge sense of responsibility and like how can you not love her for it. Also the fact she's more powerful than most of the Justice League and the Justice League knows and admires it. Yeah that's definitely a plus.

Mary Batson: Okay I love Mary and honestly I don't know much about her but I'm going to take a stab. Mary carries this sense of responsibility, she wants to be a hero and she's damn good at it too. When she lost her powers around Countdown she was devastated. When she got them back and become "Black Mary" that absolutely sucked. But she came back became Mary Marvel again and built herself back up. Mary is a key part of the Marvel family and I don't know what Billy would do without her. She's also still a kid. Like an actual kid. A teenager and she's out helping save the world. Yeah I have respect for that.

Kara Zor-El: Of course Supergirls on this list. Why would she not be? Okay supergirl has an interesting story. She's the sole survivor of not one but to planets. When she arrived on earth she knew nothing about the planet at all. She had to trust her cousin knew what he was doing to help her. She wanted to build a whole life away from being a superhero too. She just wanted to be a normal kid. She has her ups and downs but ultimately Kara is probably one of the best characters because she's realistic. She's written to be an angsty teenage girl who is still trying to figure herself out. Sure she's chronologically 30 years older than Superman (depends on what story you read) but that doesn't make her any less of a kid. Also she fought Darkseid and Lex Luthor while still figuring out her powers, she single handedly took down the entire Justice League and she's more powerful than Superman. I think that's pretty cool.

Dinah Lance: The Black Canary's name has belonged to like three different Dinah's at this point. But that doesn't make her any less awesome. Dinah is trained in all forms of martial arts and is thought to be the second best martial artist in the world. Yeah the entire world. Dinah is hot heated and can be moody at times but she knows what she's doing. Even after losing her Sonic Scream she continued to kick ass with the Birds of Prey. She did get her Sonic Scream back later while in the birds but she never seemed to rely on her powers, she always just used her gut instincts and quick thinking. At one point Dinah adopts a child who was being trained to be an assassin. She kept this child and even stopped being with the birds to settle down with Oliver Queen and have a family. Dinah is undoubtedly one of the best ladies in the whole DC universe.

Helena Bertinelli: Okay not only is Helena a superhero known as the Huntress shes also a school teacher. Helena originally was the daughter of Batman and Catwoman but at some point during Crisis she became a vigilante who was the daughter of a mob boss. After her whole family is murdered in front of her she vows to end the underground crime ring in Gotham. Shes pretty good at it and almost succeeds. Sure her methods arent well liked by Batman but she gets her job done. She joins the Birds at one point and actually gets a family. Babs gets her a job as a school teacher and Helena is happy again. Towards the end of the original Birds run Helena manages to take over the underworld and Gotham and manages to (almost) take it down.

Stephanie Brown: Okay Steph is the daughter of some low class supervillain called the Cluemaster. She becomes Spoiler as a way to make up for all the things that her dad did. She literally built herself up from nothing and became an amazing superhero. Steph might have never had a major standing in the comics but she was there in the background spoiling everyones plans. Also Steph got pregnant as a teenager. Like thats really hard to deal with. And she did it mostly while continuing to be a vigilante. Steph maintained a good friendship with Cass and when Cass ditched the title of Batgirl Steph took it up. While Batman never approved of her actions Steph did everything she could to be an accepted member or the batfamily. Plus she was briefly Robin which is really cool.

Cassandra Cain: Okay daughter of assassins is already cool but the fact she can speak solely with body language is amazing. Cass never learned how to speak and was trained to be the worlds best assassin. When she did learn how to speak she spoke few words. Despite that she maintained a great friendship with Babs and Steph. Babs trained her to be the new Batgirl and Steph ended up being her best friend. Cass is even better at fighting than Batman and she took down the Joker her first time fighting him. Not only did she break the Joker out of Arkham she beat him and sent him back just as easily. Cass had a great character arc and I just love her character. She really brought the name Batgirl to mean something entirely new and when she dropped it and gave the name to Steph she did it with honor. Cass did at one point leave to go run the league of assassins but she eventually came back to Gotham.

Talia Al Ghul: I dont know much about Talia but I think I know enough to write a paragraph about her. Talia is the heir to the demon. She trained as a child to be an assassin alongside her father Ra's Al Ghul. She also fell in love with Batman. But thats probably the least cool thing about her. I mean she is an assassin who will potentially inherit a whole army of assassins and be immortal. Like I dont know about you but I think thats pretty friggin awesome.

Selina Kyle: Okay Catwoman is amazing. She trained to fight under Catman which is pretty cool. Also like she controls part of the Gotham underworld. Selina is an amazing woman who is a great thief and she also has morals. She doesnt do killing (most of the time) and shes even been a hero for a while. Catwoman became a hero alongside Batman but at some point she decided to return back to crime. She's worked alongside the Birds of Prey a few times and at one point was even a member. Selina also decided not to marry Bruce because she knew marrying Batman might give him a reason not to be Batman anymore and she knew people needed Batman more than she needs Bruce. Also Selina helps girls on the street. Like thats a major thing. Helping kids who dont have much. Like thats great. Lastly she feeds and takes in stray cats and thats just wonderful.

Harley Quinn: Okay while I wouldnt consider Harls a hero persay (shut up new 52 and rebirth) she is still an amazing character. Harley is a genius, she blew through med school and became a psychologist. She built herself up from working at Arkham from the bottom all the way to working with the highest class psychos. Harls was also an amazing gymnast and she had tons of medals. After falling in love with the Joker she did some regrettable things but the fact she managed to get herself and she started to redeem herself shows a lot about. Harley now just wants to help people she wants to fix what she did wrong. Harley has a big heart and wants to do right and while she knows her methods arent that great shes trying hard. She just wants to please the people she loves and cares about.

Pamela Isley: Okay Ivy is a tricky character. She doesnt really have a set backstory or anything that I really know of. Ivy was a scientist and something happened that changed her physically. She became connected to the green. Now Ivy isnt really sure who she is. She became the Batman villain known as Poison Ivy and became an ecological terrorist (at least thats what I think they call her). Ivy really just doesnt know her place in the world. Ivy is wicked smart and she has patented a lot of biotech stuff and she made Harley the antidote that made her immune to toxins. She does end up re-entering the field of science a few times and is genuinely trying to turn a new leaf and become a better person. At first she didnt really understand that what she did was wrong she just wanted to help out the plants because she saw all these terrible things happening to them. For the most part Ivy is a misunderstood person who is trying to find her humanity.

Kara Zor-El (Earth Two): Okay Power Girl is a tricky character to figure out because she has so many different backstories due to the destruction and then reformation of the multiverse. Anyways Karen Starr is from another Earth specifically Earth 2. When she arrived on Earth 1 she learned there was already a Supergirl. She took on the name Power Girl and founded a company that focused on software (I think.) Shes older than Earth 1s supergirl and is kind of like a big sister figure at times even though her and Kara are the same person. The two also didnt start off on the right foot with eachother. Karen for a while led the Justice Society of America which is really flipping cool. Karen knows whats right in her heart which is what makes her like Superman in a way. Because like her cousin (even if the two arent really cousins on earth 1) she wants to help people.

Donna Troy: The original Wonder Girl will always hold a special place in my heart but I kid of want to focus on her time as Wonder Woman and also as simply just Donna Troy. When Wonder Woman quit being Wonder Woman Donna took her spot and she made a pretty great Wonder Woman. She doubted herself a lot and didnt think shed ever be as good as Diana she pushed herself up to the top and did it. As Donna Troy she was an amazing Teen Titan and she even cheated death. Her spot in the multiverse has been looked over a few times but her Roy and Jason last I heard were all kicking ass together.

Rachel Roth: Ravens a weird character Im not going to lie. Shes kind of mysterious. Rachel was a key addition to the Teen Titans, her powers are unmatchable in battle a lot of the time. Also shes the child of the demon Trigon. Rachel herself never really knew what to do with herself but while growing up she knew she had to do something and that she has to save people. She spent her teenage years with the Titans and continues to be with the Titans even if shes technically supposed to have aged out by now.

Kate Kane: Kate is one of my favorite characters of all time. Batwoman adds so much to the story and it covers a lot of things Ive never even thought of. Kate was kicked out of Westpoint under Dont Ask Dont Tell. The story talks a lot about her experience with PTSD, being gay and also being in the army. Kate runs a major business and is Batmans cousin. Kate literally gives zero craps about what Batman says and she does what she wants even if he doesnt approve. Kate has a big heart and ultimately she just wants to save her sister. After being kicked out of Westpoint Kate became a party girl and an alcoholic becoming Batwoman changed all of that for her. She became the woman she was meant to be.

Maggie Sawyer: Maggie Sawyer is a badass cop. Shes also Kates girlfriend and shes a mom. Being a cop in Metropolis is one thing but since moving from Metropolis Maggie has joined the GCPD. Being a cop in Gotham versus being a cop in Metropolis are to completely different things. Maggie can do it all and she works well under pressure. Shes an amazing cop and deserves so much more credit that what she gets in the comics.

Renee Montoya: Renee Montoya started out as another Gotham City Cop well until she became The Question. Also one of Kates ex girlfriends Renee has taken up Vic Sage's mantel and become the Question. She's a cop turned vigilante who is trying to do everything she can to keep Gotham safe.

Zatanna Zatara: So Zatanna is a magician. An actually magician with real magic and also a performing magician for kids. She does a lot of volunteering and loves showing her magic to the kids. Shes part of Justice League Dark and her powers are probably some of the most powerful in the whole DC universe. Zatanna can literally do anything just by saying it backwards. She doesnt get as much credit as she deserves but Zatanna is a kid with a big heart and deserves a lot more than she gets. Also did I mention she once climbed Mount Everest?

Courtney Whitmore: Not many people know much about Stargirl but this teenage girl is a key part of the Justice Society. Stargirl is a nobody without her Cosmic Staff but with it she is one of the greatest members of the JSA. Courtney has befriended Supergirl and has run around on all sorts of adventures before she could even vote. Her friendship with Supergirl is strong even if it isnt seen too often in the comics. Stargirl is just another kid who wants to change the world and who does manage to do it.

Lois Lane: Supermans girlfriend has ring to it enough but pulitzer prize winner Lois Lane is so much more than that. Shes an investigative reporter who strives to find the truth no matter the cost. Time and time again she goes undercover and risks her life for her job. She has no powers and no fighting skills just faith and a keen eye for a story. So sure while she's Supermans girlfriend she so much more than that. She's a woman who's going places and will always be independent. (Bonus: the first time Clark meets Lois she's yelling at some guy at the phone for being sexist)

Lana Lang: Supermans other girlfriend. Lana kind of got abandoned for a while but trust me she's still great. Lana takes in Kara while Kara is still struggling to figure her life out. Lana is the most supportive and loving person there is. She really cares about Kara and treats her like a daughter and as a best friend. Her friend ship with Lois Lane is amazing and Lana had an amazing story arc when she became possessed. Moral of the story never mess with any of Supermans girlfriends because they will fight back and theyll fight back hard.

Lady Shiva: If it wasnt for Lady Shiva Black Canary would be the best martial artist in the world. Lady Shiva is a long time Batman villain and not even Batman himself can beat her. Shes said multiple times that the only time he did she let him. She just wanted to know how worthy of an opponent he was. Shiva and Dinah trained under the same sensei together and have a mutual respect for eachother. For a short period of time Shiva even took Dinah under her wing to teach her new techniques no one else in the world even knew.

Mia Dearden: Speedy is hands down the best Green Arrow sidekick. And no Im not talking about Roy I really do mean Mia. Mia was living on the streets for the longest time and as a teenager. Constantly in the comics she talks about what it was like as a teenager being homeless on the streets, doing drugs and even selling her body just to stay alive. She became a great fighter while training with Ollie and Dinah and becomes the second Speedy. Mia is quick thinking and knows how and when to act. Later in the comics before she joins the Teen Titans she gets diagnosed as HIV +. That was the first time the DC universe made a character be HIV + and it hit hard for a lot people. Her backstory is really sad but its meaningful and really tells a lot about things that nobody knows anything about. Mia is a spunky kid with a lot of personality and she wants to help people.

Emiko Queen: Emi wasnt really around until she become the Red Arrow in Rebirth. She had her ups and downs but she stay devoted to Ollie throughout all of it. Emi is a tough character who really wants to be just like her big brother. She does at one point join a cult but then she breaks away from the cult to save her brother. Emi really admires Dinah and their friendship is great. Her story is still just starting to develop and its really cool to see where its going.

Zinda Blake: Lady Blackhawk has been no where in sight since New 52 hit. Im not really sure if theyll bring her back but I hope they do. Zinda is a hotheaded pilot who thinks more with her fists than she does with her brain. Shes a key member to the Birds of Prey and a true hero. After somehow re entering the continuity despite having to have originally been in WW2 Zinda has begun to fit right in with her weird accent and odd slang. I really hope she gets put back in soon.

Charlie Gage-Radcliffe: Misfits not really a well known character but shes a good one. Shes a spunky kid with an obsession with Batgirl. She takes on the mantel of Batgirl briefly before the real Batgirl, Barbara Gordan, stops her. Babs takes her in as one of her Birds and trains her. Charlie is just a kid and Babs knows it. Charlie doesnt get to see much action throughout the series but her character really grows a lot and she molds into this amazing character. Misfit is pretty impulsive and her mind (and body) tend to bounce all over the place. Charlie is just like any other teenager and she does everything she can to look on the bright side of every situation

Cassandra Sandsmark: Cassies Wonder Girl is what got me into Teen Titans. Cassie knows what she wants and knows how to get it. She can be short tempered but she had a really good heart. Her friendship with Supergirl is one of the best friendships in the whole DC universe. Cassie ultimately just wants to impress Wonder Woman. When she's not roaming around with the Teen Titans or on Paradise Island she's like literally every other teenage girl. Sitting at home argueing with her mom. Her power for her lasso comes fron her anger which she seems to carry a lot of. Shes still figuring out how to be Wonder Girl but shes become a valuable asset to the team. Cassie is a really relatable character and I love her for that. Her and Diana are a great pair and seeing them together is amazing. (Bonus: In New 52 Teen Titans she can put up a fight against basically anybody including Tim Drake and she hates the name Wonder girl)

There are more characters but this took me about two hours to write so Im going to cut it here. If anyone wants me to add any more characters let me know in the notes and I'll edit this. Also special shout outs to characters who I didnt have enough info on to put on here but are still equally as awesome: Martha Kent, Director Cameron Chase and Linda Park.

#batgirl #dceu #dc #dc comics #wonder woman #black canary #huntress #birds of prey #spoiler #batfam #catwoman #talia al ghul #harley quinn #poison ivy #power girl #wonder girl #donna troy #raven #batwoman #maggie sawyer #the question #zatanna #stargirl #justice society of america #lois lane #superman #lana lang #lady shiva #speedy #green arrow

[juunshua]

Things are going well - thanks for asking! Movement refers to the individual muscles and bones used in the process of dancing whereas the final product is the look at the end; is my arm the same height as the person next to me, does the group formation look proportional, etc. I wouldn't say Hoshi or Vernon are the best dancers but they have great control over their bodies (the movement) and seungkwan probably picked up on that attention to detail to a certain degree. Like you I was drawn to (1/)

svt because their choreo allowed me to engage with the music different than how I usually do with that with other groups. I'm multifandom af but svt holds a special place in my brain, hence all the mentioned groups lol. I guess I've been into kpop for a while but that interest has been in waves. In my younger days I was really into keeping up with groups but now I check them out whenever someone, usually a dancer, or music catches my attention. (2/)It's a matter of random sampling; after a while companies are bound to attract a kid with experience in something beyond typical idol expectations. It's like singing: habits die hard especially those learned when young. I'm not sure of they kept up with the (3/)It's like singing in that aspect: old habits die hard. Fei and Victoria for example rarely moved their torso because in traditional Chinese dance the expression and artistry comes from the arms and legs but in a hip hop dominated field constricting those muscles makes them seem stiff and uncordinated. Same goes for anyone who learned ballet. Another example of this is Yuju from gfriend. While her arms are fine, she has a stiff lower body probably due to having learned figure skating (4/)Where the ankles knees and pelvis has to be stiff for the jumps. But when compared to the other girls in gfriend, something looks off about her dancing even when the overall picture looks right. Fun fact: stephanie danced for the LA ballet a few years back. Her approach to dancing is creative and strong even for a former idol. considering that both jyp and lsm actively performed throughout the 90s, I'm not suprised the companies are big on injury pervention. That's not always the case (6/)Because quite a few of their idols have been injured on the job. Yuri only recently got surgery for her ankle even though it's been an issue for a couple of years now. Choreo for TT had to be modified to accommodate jihyo's knee towards the last legs of promotions. Mark's spine is in terrible condition from all the jumps he had to do for girlsx3. Jype and sme stress technique more than other companies do but that is a low bar. No one knows what ** is doing. Either name is fine love (7)

im replying super late again laskdjf i feel so bad :( i think i’ll call you technique anon! bc our conversations werent limited to dance :) 

ooh thank you for the clarification between the two! and yeah svt in general has engaged me musically in many ways that no other group really has done i always wondered if musicians felt somewhat similar about them. ahaha i used to be wayyy more multifandom back in the day but over the years its really significantly dwindled and alskdjf im the same! like when i was younger id look for new debuts and everything and make sure i checked out their debut song to see if i wanted to get into that group or not but now its way different there are so many groups first of all that debut, and as life happens i kinda got more busy so that also shifted how i approached kpop in general. also i think getting into svt for me personally was a big turning point in my kpop life too ahaha like i said before, theyve engaged me musically in ways no other group has done, but also in many other ways. i dont think ive ever been this mentally invested in a group in my life, like not even for my ult group(s) so that just naturally also takes more time up in life. its so interesting what a trained eye can catch!!! laksjdf ngl yuju was probably one of my more favorite dancers in gfriend (maybe im being biased since shes...well...my bias) i dont think i ever noticed something off about her? like in the overall picture! do you have examples? but i can see how her lower body was stiffer. i know nothing about dance and different companies, but is the LA ballet a prestigious place to be? i had no idea that she was a former kpop idol oh my. def props to her for keeping up with the demands of a dancer while still being a kpop idol though. at least when it comes to the voice, many vocalists can get ‘weaker’ (for lack of a better word) after debut, they tend to abandon technique in favor of i guess pleasing the ear or going with a certain image for the group/songs theyre approaching. is there something similar with dancers? seeing how many of them aren’t necessarily trained in hip hop styled dances? you did mention yuju and fei/victoria though i suppose it is similar. :O why did i never know about yuris ankle? :( oh my I DIDNT KNOW JIHYO got injured towards the end of TT promotions? but thats good the company adjusted the dance to accommodate for her knee but i looked it up and it seems that they just made her/twice stand in places where they/she usually sat? i feel like thats a common pattern ive seen in choreo changes for groups when a member injures something (like daniel during energetic promtions). did jihyo injure while dancing though or? omg did mark really? is there a way to prevent all this though like didnt hao also injure himself because of what he had to do for the dwc choreo (or were those just rumors bc he still does that flip)? its always just so confusing to me how, when theres all these things out there if you just take two seconds out of your life and research (which is what id assume any good ceo would do) like why is the pop world so against it. like its not just kpop, just popular music in general seems to be driven by not tending to spend much time on just knowing the proper ways to do things. its not a big huge secret that people are keeping to themselves like information is there and esp in this world of the internet, its even to an extent free? and its so sad bc we see things like jyp swearing on the ‘half breath half sound’ method because thats what he learned in the states(?) or whatever like? ??? but i guess, it also makes sense bc in a sense i suppose being popular has a lifespan? maybe people arent as heavily invested in things that could make their artists run for a longer time, because that might not be something they want? like god the 7 year curse for kidols is too real. like if ur just gonna devote only 7 years of ur life, which is obviously a significant portion of one’s life just not the companies voice, then why would they care if you can survive past that? or smth idk what im saying at this point ahaha. but at least sm and jyp are doing /something/ i guess? and i wonder why jyp is like that for dance but not vocals hmm, even if it is a low bar. 

#technique anon #replies #anon

[nothingnessthots]

Amazing

I loved everything about today. for my first time ever tripping i wouldnt have wanted to do it with anyone other than the one and only Sydney, I felt everything i was looking at and there were moments when all i could decipher was the ground pulsating underneath my body as i sprawled in the forest of hoover. Everything was so real and living and it really made me realize that everything else literally doesnt matter. my friends are so amazing and made sure i didnt die and i dont think its because they wanted to or had to but its because they wanted me to be alive and you know thats why were all here. my friends are all so supportive and amazing i couldnt ask for anyone better. MGMT WHEN YOU DIE. all i know. is that acid is amazing. we went out there. WE WERE SO NOT READY CJNDJNDJK WE LITERALLY HAD NO WATER OR PHONES WE COULDA PASSED OUT BUT WE MADE IT. Mother earth herself granted us with Water. im so grateful for this beautiful place we live on. literally i was sitting on a piece of the world with my best friend for hours. watching the water come out of the dam looking like a whole ass daisy blooming in slow motion in front of my eyes but in reality it was moving so fast and it wasnt a flower but water fucking flowing. the water sounded like kali uchis voice. soothing and almost spiritual.i wish i could still see everything moving. -see you again tyler the creator- can i get a kissssssssss - back to the water, i def cried looking at it. we cried a lot. it felt beautiful. “is it raining or are these tears?” we literally wouldnt stop crying and thinking it was raining and now that i think of it i really wish it rained but we can save that for another time. our trip was so random but expected ya know. i asked sydney if she wanted to trip because i was thinking about buying some and it just HAPPENED. SYDNEY IS THAT BITCH. i really needed this trip day so i can relax and say fuck everything!!! you already know i got home though (after being gone for an entire fucking week in florida) threw all my shit into the washer and got all my goodies cleaned so i can be cutie again. then tripped. lmao we love a responsible queen. im currently listening to music and writing this. having such a fun time at 3:05 in the morning and i got home at 1:30. i bet you if i text sydney she would still be awake right now. i have terrible lock jaw but thats honestly it man. this is what im listening to right fucking now. i dont know whos going to read this. but if you are. i love you. i need you so. this song is adorable i just started typing it out lmao i feel like i need to sleep soon but i have so many things flowing through my mind i sort of want to play around on tumblr. all i want to say is thank you. we are more than amazing and the thots and nothingness that are coming out of my brain right now only make sense to me and thats okay. life. is. amazing, ohio really isnt too bad. it gave me the exact trip i was wanting my whole life. rolling around in a field in barely any clothing looking up at the sky watching the clouds turn into faces and look as if they are going to fall out of the sky onto me in a big embrace. i wanted to hug the earth, i hugged carlo in those moments. FLASH FORWARD to when we were in a car. im telling you me and syd shouldnt have been un super vised but we made it home safe and im going to add those videos onto here sometime. i took a lot of cool videos and i wish i had sydneys camera so i could mess around with all the footage and make something. i definitely need to go somewhere i can submerge my body into a perfectly warm form of water next time. the beach was fucking amazing last week too like i feel like i didnt get to experience it with anyone but lex. I started crying at one point in the trip because lex was not there. i cant believe my bff is out in florida doing what i did a year ago in california like that was a real life trip. i felt like even though me and lex are so far apart we still got each other and thats what its all about. next time i trip it will be with lex and we will cry and hug so much. im crying typing this right now. thinking about my best friend and how i love him with every piece of my HEART. thats how i feel about cheerleading too.  YO I DID A BACK FLIP ON ACID BTW FUCK WITH ME BITCHES WE GOT IT ON TAPE AND THAT JUST SHOWS I WILL FOREVER BE ABLE TO FLIP MY BODY. im going to continue doing it forever. omgggggg midway through my trip STEPHANIE TEXTED ME and asked me to go to the gym TO TEACH A CLASS!!!!!!! i said no so fast. i almost freaked out and told her i was on acid but that would have ruined my vibe so thank god i didnt. but who else would that happen to. literally just me. i felt like i was in that episode of broad city where they eat shrooms and had to go to her bosses work to deliver her macaroons. this so throughout this piece i have been adding random songs that have begun playing on my youtube that have distracted but also helped me throughout this process. im shocked at how i did not get horny throughout my trip. ive been so sexuallly frustrated for no reason at all. i dont need to be frustrated over something like that and literally everyone was on their periods so women rule anyways!!! women are just as great as men and we can reproduce a fucking child in my stomach which is awesome but like why would anyone need that right now you know. basically what im saying is i got my period and we are working well. we as in me and my body. i had a very disassociating trip in my opinion. i felt as if i was just a soul settling in the warmth and comfort of my body. i felt as if i could step out of my body and observe it. i always want to feel the way i did as i was looking at everything. to conclude my flow of thoughts and nothingness i will leave you with this, you are amazing and alive and know that i am sending every possible positive force i have in myself to you. goodnight. 

[toripar]

"YoU kNoW wHo" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

"KAAAAAAAJUUUUUU!"

"Holy sh- HESTIA, HESTIA"

Reblog with an inside joke you have with your friends.

“Yes, Captain America has LEGS!”

#a stuff #shit stuff #bout me #:) #rimi talks a lot #rimi.txt

[dragon-zena]

even More OC group chat shenanigans

HUGHES: Madena oh my god

ZI: jdndjdjdjjd madena you did NOT

MADENA: I TOTALLY DID IM SVDBDBHD

HUGHES: I hate this Madena wh

HUGHES: “considering that I am a gay,,,” LIKE

ZI: “half of us,,,are immigrants,,,and children and grandchildren of immigrants,,,,end it” like has your best friend ever

HUGHES: YEAH MY BEST FRIEND HAS EVER THEY DID IT TODAY YOU WERE THERE

MADENA: im sorry but like what did she expect complaining about gay people and immigrants to a nb bisexual with two parents from two different continents...like? Ok

ZI: let's debate sexuality when it's obvious that half the class are LGBT and the other half are bigots!!!

ZI: let's talk about “illegal” immigration when almost EVERYONE IN THE ROOM has a close family member that immigrated here!

HUGHES: RIGHT AND TBIS IS AP POLISCI NOT AP “DISCUSS HUMAN RIGHTS” LET'S N O T

MADENA: this is both the greatest and worst day of my life why did I SAY that dbdbdn

ZI: what u said was true and you should say it

MADENA: mnmerrg

ZI: mads ur literally iconic there are literally people talking about u being their hero I'm???

HUGHES: I can't believe the evil was thoroughly defeated in our third hour class today.

MADENA: theevilisdefeated.png

CAMILLA: Narla!

NARLA: Yeah?

CAMILLA: Friendly reminder that we have a game today uwu……….do u have what u need? You dint have ur knee pads last time

NARLA: Fuck, I honestly forgot my stuff. I'm probably gonna drive home and get them.

NARLA: And never say “friendly reminder” or use uwu ever again in my presence.

CAMILLA: You should let Zi bring you uwu

NARLA: Perish, you bitch. You bully. You scoundrel.

CAMILLA: ;^)

NARLA: Hey, Zi. Are you busy after school? I was hoping that I could get a ride home, today. I have to get my vball gear for tonight.

ZI: oh! Yeah! I'll be waiting in the car after school. Can i

ZI: uh

NARLA: ?

ZI: can I come watch you, tonight?

NARLA: I'm blushing so hard she asked to come watch us tonight.

CAMILLA: HELL YEA we need the support

CAMILLA: Not that we gonna lose but your biggest fan being there is gonna make u go into overdrive.........ur gonna beast out........

CAMILLA: ion know if the other team is gonna stand a chance

NARLA: PERISH, ASSHOLE.

NARLA: Of course you can come! :)!

ZI: !!!

CAMILLA: WELCOM TO MY F U CK HO US E

MADENA: we have banini...and avocaidi…

HUGHES: Perish

ZI: perish

NARLA: Perish.

MADENA: Oh worm? Permission granted?

ZI: MADS NO

HUGHES: N O

ZI: mmmmmMMMAAAAAAAAAAA

STEPHANI: God, same.

HUGHES: What's going on in Louisiana? ):

NARLA: They keep raising the prom fee as though we're made of money. Lmao.

JUSTINE: I mean, Narla will be fine, she’s actually made of money,,, but like, not many other people will be.

ZI: LMAO.

MADENA: Zi ):

ZI: im sorry im sorry I just

NARLA: I'll pay for you to go. I'll pay for any of you, if you need it. It's not like we're using it for much, at home.

CAMILLA: ,,, Narla,,, ur mom

NARLA: Irrelevant.

MADENA: godiwishthatwereme.png

CAMILLA: aight……………………..

ZI: id die for Narla but whatever

HUGHES: You're at her game, aren't u

ZI: …no

HUGHES: …

ZI: …yes

ZI: Hughes her thighs...her calves….me gay

MADENA: I heard gay what's goin on

MADENA: oh its just z nvm

ZI: thighs.mp4

ZI: look at her go!

CAMILLA: ive come from the court to tell u that you are Definitely in the wrong chat

MADENA: ho-o-oly shit

CAMILLA: i got her phone lmao y'all secrets safe w me

CAMILLA: just deleted those messages have fun in pineville bye

HUGHES: Isn't that actually a place in Louisiana

HUGHES: Cami?

ZI: she's back on the court but yeah it is

ZI: holy shit I owe Camilla my entire life im going to the T3 Group Chat

HUGHES: real paranoia hours

HUGHES: if u up alone at 3:10 in the morning

HUGHES: hearing things, seeing things, and overthinking ur relationships

HUGHES: slam that mf like

HUGHES: this is so stupid like wow I love. feeling this way. Fave. 10 out of fuckign 10 i lobe iy

HUGHES: I need tk pee but im svared tk adn no ones up i catn

CAMILLA: oh shit

CAMILLA: ok okay im up right now, I'm here right now, I need you to take deep breaths for me

HUGHES: catn’

CAMILLA: can I call u

HUGHES: yehh

ZI: oh no

NARLA: Hughes, are you okay, now? I'm sorry that I wasn't awake when you needed someone. ):

CAMILLA: they asleep rn but I think they r ok for rn

CAMILLA: has this happened before zi

ZI: not to this extent

ZI: sometimes he does focus extensively on everything around him and it makes him anxious

NARLA: Maybe this should wait until Hughes says that we have his permission to talk about this.

CAMILLA: yeah

HUGHES: last night was a shit show

HUGHES: my bad

MADENA: Are u ok now?

ZI: ^

NARLA: ^

CAMILLA: ^

JUSTINE: ^

STEPHANI: ^

HUGHES: Yeah thanks

HUGHES: Camilla made me take sleep medicine and i pretty much passed out soon after lmao

CAMILLA: Sleep > Being Awake lmao

MADENA: mood

ZI: ......everybody wants to be a cat.....

HUGHES: oh my god not again

ZI: aS quare witha horn makes u wish u werent born evertime he plays

MADENA: Oh A Rinky Tinky Tinky!

ZI: with a square in the act! u can set musci back! to the caveman days!

NARLA: Oh, a rinky tinky tinyk!

HUGHES: This is torture you’re all doing ths knowing it was my fave song to play in jazz band end me

MADENA:  👀 👀 👀

Narla: RIP...It was my fault, I wanted to watch The Aristocats.........

HUGHES: Perish, Narla Miaro.

NARLA: Fuck you, Hughes.

STEPHANI: atthepool.png

STEPHANI: shes so fuckgin beautiful shes wearng this bikini and shes like fuckign aphrodite or sme shit

JUSTINE: END THIS

JUSTINE: prety.png

JUSTINE: LOOK AT MY GIRLFRIEND SHE DESERVES THE WORLD SHES GIGGLIN

NARLA: God, can you imagine if I had let the two of you pine any longer than you did?

ZI: this is so gay and cute

MADENA: Justine where do u find ur swimsuits and Steph u look gorgeous end me please

JUSTINE: blush.png

JUSTINE: shes blushing ths is so cute

JUSTINE: Also i just got them at waly worl

MADENA: bless ur photogenic souls for telling me

CAMILLA: U do it for he

NARLA: And you would do it, again.

CAMILLA: You do it for she and now u say

NARLA: You do it for he.

HUGHES: One day is all I ask

HUGHES: Sometimes I forget that the moment Euthymia left the house for college, she changed from a subtle gay to a vindictive gay.

MADENA: God my sister is so fucking iconic mom was like “i dont support that in my house” AS THOUGH I DONT EXIST IN THE BOUNDARIES OF THE HOME BUT ANYWAY Euthymia shruges and is like “im not in your house so lmao watch this” AND KISSES AGATHA RIGHT IN F R O N T OF HER hhfkrk

ZI: im lauhing

HUGHES: Shes not at her mom’s house rn she came to bring something to me for Mads and she’s sporting an undercut and a lot of lgbt pride pins AND a lot of really clever enamel pins too i envy her

HUGHES: She??? Also has??? A scar on her eyebrow???

HUGHES: I ASKED WHY AND SHE SAID “YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY”

MADENA: TELL HR TO STAY PUT IM C O M I N G I GOTTA SEE THIS

ZI: send a pic when u get there i wanna see

EUTHYMIA: inspiring my lgacy to be vindictive gays lmao

AGATHA: im lauhfing Zi just texted me and told me that Hughes called you a vindictive gay

EUTHYMIA: im so happy that im able to be ths way

EUTHYMIA: but i want them to wait until they’re super safe until they even think about following the near vicinity of my footsteps

AGATHA: you aren’t even super safe but i get wht ur sayin

AGATHA: I love you, Euthymia Nadine.

EUTHYMIA: I love you, too, Alaris

AGATHA: oooh my last name hot

EUTHYMIA: end it

HUGHES: That freshman is going to get in a fight this afternoon

MADENA: ?

HUGHES: sorry the thought just came to me

MADENA: Hughes,,,

HUGHES: I was right,,,,,,what the fc

ZI: oh thats like when Madena said something about ancient greec andt he teacher was like “nuh uh” but when he searched it up it was true

ZI: but Madena didnt know how they got it right it just randomyl popped up in their mind

CAMILLA: Physics can suck my asshole

HUGHES: Oh?

MADENA: *Hughes voice* oh, you haven’t heard?

CAMILLA: i die

HUGHES: I tutor in physics

MADENA: hes not gonna ask you to pay which is why u should

CAMILLA: I DONT CARE AS LONG AS I PASSED THESE FINALS WHATS YOUR FUCING PAYPAL

HUGHES: meet me in the PMs

MADENA: this is so fucking funny hey @Narla d o u need help with physics

NARLA: No.

MADENA: god i wish that were me

ZI: god i wish that were me

ZI: :0!

MADENA: O: twinsies

#oc #narla #madena #hughes #camilla #justine #stephani #sea serpent #oracle duo #robocop #my writing

[sanisbooks]

This is my 1st review on my blog, i am reviewing Caraval by Stephanie Garber. I really hope you like it, i know im just starting and everything but i would love it if you also leave an opinion about what you thought about the book (if you read it) because i like to hear other peoples opinions on books and talk about the books which is why i made this blog.😊 Anyways thanks for taking the time to even read this and hopefully you will enjoy my review💜

So i read caraval in the last few weeks of april and i really liked it i gave it 8/10.

Summary: Scarlett has never left the tiny island where she and her beloved sister, Tella, live with their powerful, and cruel, father. Now Scarlett’s father has arranged a marriage for her, and Scarlett thinks her dreams of seeing Caraval, the far-away, once-a-year performance where the audience participates in the show, are over.

But this year, Scarlett’s long-dreamt of invitation finally arrives. With the help of a mysterious sailor, Tella whisks Scarlett away to the show. Only, as soon as they arrive, Tella is kidnapped by Caraval’s mastermind organizer, Legend. It turns out that this season’s Caraval revolves around Tella, and whoever finds her first is the winner.

Scarlett has been told that everything that happens during Caraval is only an elaborate performance. But she nevertheless becomes enmeshed in a game of love, heartbreak, and magic with the other players in the game. And whether Caraval is real or not, she must find Tella before the five nights of the game are over, a dangerous domino effect of consequences is set off, and her sister disappears forever.

What i liked: I liked the circus (or whatever it is) just the whole idea of this “Caraval”. I enjoyed Julian and Scarlett’s character alot and i thought that the plot was very interesting. I also thought that the world building was good as well.

What i didnt like: The ending. I feel like if this book had a better ending i would’ve given it a 10/10.

Thoughts on the book: Here im going to explain why i didn’t like the ending. 1. Legend: So at the end it turns out that the guy who was “Legend” wasn’t actually Legend. And Legend is actually Julian’s brother and the love story with their grandma is real but there is no curse on them as scarlett thought. Honestly wtf. Like that’s the lamest plot twist ive ever seen. It’s like the author started not to give a fuck towards the ending and just wanted to finish the book already and that’s how that “plot twist” ended up in the book.

2. The Magic: So it turns out THERE IS NO MAGIC! You just have to believe and thats basically it! I can not explain how dissapointed i was with the ending. Basically the fake Legend kills Julian and he’s dead like actually dead then Scarlett goes to this tower where her sister is and basically “Legend” pretented to be in love with Tella. Tella was horrofied when she found out and then her dad came in and was like “lets go we’re leaving” and tella commited sucide because she would rather be dead than go back with her father. So she’s dead and later on “Legend” tells Scarlett there is no wish. Then she goes to where Tella is and “believes” so that her sister will come back. Longstory short both Tella and Julian come back to life and Tella tells her that she knew all along that she could bring her back to life so that’s why she killed herself. ???? How the hell are you so sure she’s going to bring you back to life? Like ok but what if she didn’t?? Honestly it should’ve been that she actually got a wish and wished for Tella’s life and Julian’s life back. Which is another thing like before she got told that there was no wish she was like struggling on deciding whether she should save Julian or Tella. She literally could’ve used one wish and saved both of them, nobody said that she could only use one wish on one life like its never that hard.

3. Julian: After Tella comes back to life or whatever they go to this like after party and that’s where she got to talk to Julian for the 1st time since he’s been dead. He tells her that he’s Legend’s brother and that he was an actor there and all this other crap that were just the worst excuses for acting how he was with her at caraval. Then the ending with Tella was like fine or whatever but personally i dont care enough about Tella to want to read the next book.

Overall i enjoyed it but the ending just sucked idk maybe it was just me who didn’t like the ending. I dont have anything bad to say about the writting i thought it was good as well. Thankyou for reading this review i know im like a nobody😂 but i really appreciate that you took the time to read this💜💜 . I would certainly love to hear about your opinion on the ending and just caraval in general.

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[hightigervision]

2017 remainder

This was such a pivotal year for me. In summary, I no longer believe in a “faith alone” salvation that I inherited from the Baptist community since I went on the mission trip to Costa Rica with my local King’s Crossing Church of Christ. I met a Christian family who likes me very much and met one of the daughters who I became crazy over. Her parents approve of me very much and in fact love me! The mom takes care of me like one of her kids minus the scolding. They are moving within the month probably to Port Arthur where the father is going to be the preaching minister to the Church of Christ over there. I really wish they could stay! I’m going to miss them very much. Though there is plenty I can write about each family member, I must commit to the summary for now. I resigned as a student-leader from the Baptist Student Ministries since my convictions in the baptism prerequisite. Eric Bean and I agreed to disagree yet continued our discipleship meetings. We learned more about each other as he became a more committed father to a growing toddler and back-and-forth fostered toddler and me switching churches. On that note, I’m finally attending church regularly now! That family got me going to Mark’s King’s Crossing Church of Christ. I’m getting to know the people there better. Hurricane Harvey also was a thing this summer. It actually postponed the start of the Fall semester by one week. Speaking of the Fall Semester, this was my first semester doing the CLS program under the Biomedical Sciences Major. It was a good experience in some ways and bad experience in some ways. Having to commit to studying totally it obviously took my attention away from my house and guess what, my father isn’t taking kindly to it. What would one expect anyhow? Since I feel like he is responsible (at least in part) for my grade turnout this semester, four Cs and one B, I would feel immature if I were to give him a fifth chance starting the Spring semester of 2018 which is why I plan on moving out. I will be moving in with Jeno Bautista and perhaps Jesus Ibarra hopefully before Spring 2018 semester. It turns out Jeno also is experiencing distractions at his current house so hopefully we will be able to concentrate on the program even more. Marla Bantigue will be helping getting me a job as a her coworker, working as a child therapist. From what she described it as, I’m going to be classically conditioning children with autism and I should be able to withstand their toddler punches and scratches and bites. 12 bucks an hour and freedom to choose shifts daily doesn’t sound bad at all. It’ll be my first formal job after all. Speaking of Marla, her and I are getting closer as she is revealing more about her struggles living with her boyfriend. She’s been wanting to hang out with me more and more which is borderline annoying but I appreciate the times we do. They usually involve drinking and Stephanie too. I think we are all getting closer together as friends. I am grateful for Marla reaching out to me because she also was willing to go to church with me this week’s Sunday. I’ve made some new interesting friends in CLS, I probably need another post to describe them, but someone worth mentioning is Jesse Gonzales. I always thought he was a white caucasian guy but it turns out he is hispanic. Go figure, right? Blue eyes, dirty blonde hair and dirty blonde beard, european facial features... but hispanic. He is pretty perverted and it brings out my potty humor which I really should tone down. He also is really good at guitar. Better than me at this point. He’s wonderful to listen to on his cheap $90 classical guitar with hanging nylon strings, and great to hear on electric guitar. Haivu and I hung out at his place, got high off his mom’s weed, and played Settler’s of Ketan or something like that. It was a great game, but i also got to pick up on Jesse’s maneurisms. He’s a better guy than I gave him credit for. He’s attentive in classes and makes decent grades which is straight As compared to mine haha. He also revealed himself to being a nonChristian during a conversation we had at the Flock bar. He said Christianity is b.s. for claiming it’s exclusivity, but I challenged him saying something along the lines of “well, if it actually is the only way, then it would be important to say it right?”. He agreed with the reasoning, but not the conclusion so he was sharp to know to go after the premise, being “Christianity is the only way aka true”. He didn’t outright say it wasn’t true bc I had explained a little how and why I am a Christian (years learning and experience). He did, however, go after the reliability of the bible for being so old, which I excitingly responded. It seemed he was mature enough to know what to say and what not to say after hearing my answers. I think he knew he was mismatched in a minidebate like that because I was telling him that I sought after objections to Christianity from atheist websites, atheist speakers and debators, and people in real life. I couldn’t reject Xianity bc it withstood the harshest criticisms. Hopefully he took some of that to heart. Zach Martin and I are getting closer. He was baptized at Costa Rica after Felix K. convinced him that Baptism for the Remission of Sins is biblical and essential for salvation. I was baptized the weekend after we got back to the U.S. and now that’s our church! It took a while to get him to go the college group in the morning, and same thing with Hunter Roberts and the day that they both go so happens to be another one of my overslept mornings. I really want to get closer to Hunter because I have gone through quite a bit of relationship problems with her best friend Hannah. We’ll see how it turns out :) Alfonso’s friend, Amin I think, also is connected to my CoC by his girlfriend who is an active member in it, and she has a heavy presence in the college group too. She has the same name and same look to one of my classmates named Patricia. Tall, dark, pretty, and young, and named Patricia. I hope me and Amin can reach Alfie even better. They should be moving in together. He has also told me he is aware that he is agnostic which reminded me of our short conversation at Free Lunch BSM one day. These sentences are pretty short but I’m writing on the fly so what do you expect? Backtracking a little but in the year, before the Costa Rica mission trip, I had a good time in Summer 1 Genetics with Dr. Gonzales! It was a blow-off class and he even gave a few free answers to the final exam. My group named Homozygous Dominant had some fun with the tidbits, which were creative ways for groups to teach their subject. Jeno and I made some fun raps while Zach, Manny, and Erika made for responsible groupwork. We worked together on the homeworks and in general everything so it was a smooth month of getting to know each other and helping each other. Manny was planning on doing CLS as a postbac, and Erika was reconsidering her plans as a physical therapist and was considering CLS as well! She liked horses I believe. She mentioned living with her boyfriend and his father because she is from out of town and doesn’t have a lot of money. I’ve never heard of that situation before but I don’t think I’ll ever stop hearing new things. She was pretty attractive, and I made note of how I enjoyed looking at her face. I called her eye-candy but of course I considered much more than that. We all got As in that class, and the last day was a fun one to remember, too. When it was my group’s turn to present our recorded tidbit, I didnt know how it was going turn out because I had only finished the lyrics and audio of myself at 2am that day! Jeno did it in the morning so only he knew how it was going to be like. As I listened to it I knew what was coming but Jeno added some of his spice by mixing it differently than anticipated with the instrumental and some caption. It was a great surprise to see my project turn out well like that and be unique compared to most other tidbits which were simple recordings of a lecture of rotating speakers (group members). Some other ones were pretty creative don’t get me wrong. Nhi and I got closer that semester and we were close to making a relationship between us. However I found out she wanted to be more committed than I had liked so I explained I feel that we should become better friends before jumping into a committed relationship, citing other relationships that didn’t work out because of that. I told her this the day before I left to Costa Rica after dropping her off at her apartment, and after she gave me some parting gifts like toothpaste, and plums... or was it before? That would’ve made it more awkward but guess what, I’m the king of all things cringey and awkward. She ended up getting with Nick Padgett, an old friend of mine from our high school swim team who was a leg in one of the freelays we broke the school record for. According to Nhu, he goes to mass every sunday with her. Nhi turned out to be philosophically inclined and theologically inclined too, which was what grabbed my attention so well. I think she was rare in that we could have talks like that though she was a devout Catholic which I’ve expressed my concerns a little about. We had some good times with each other, we were on the phone for hours late at night, hugged a lot (which was the length she was willing to go as far as) at the Duck pond, at Tastea, and usually we talked longer than anticipated like at the library. She made note of that mentioning that we always keep each other late to stuff. She also mentioned that in the couple of weeks that we talked late into the night on the phone, she had not spoken that much English with anyone before at all! I’m pretty sure she speaks English with Nick everyday now, making out too lol. I’m not too sure on Nick’s theology, but I think Nhi will get him closer if anything. Hurricane Harvey caused a power outage in Corpus for a few days, the same time that Connor McGregor and Floyd Mayweather were supposed to box! I turned out to be a huge mismatch after all, but it reminded me just now that I was becoming more interested in MMA and Joe Rogan podcasts, Ben Shapiro podcasts too. The thing I want write the most about is the Mission trip to Costa Rica. That is where I got closer to Hannah and her family. I think I’ll write about it some more later though.

[baekhoneyed]

tagged by @kokokysoo for one of those “get to know me” memes! (under the cut cuz its so long)

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (idk how many people ill end up tagging and dont feel obligated!!)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water but like i think my flatmates put vodka in the ice cube trays so?? not sure exactly how much is accidentally Not Water

2. Phone Call: uhhhhh a study abroad program advisor

3. Text Message: my older brother tryna convince me that i’ll make friends eventually lmao

4. Song you listened to: i actually stopped writing this to grab a sweater but then TT came on and i instinctively dance to it now so that happened

5. Time you cried: almost last night but like... not enough feelings to actually cry yet just wait

6. Dated someone twice: never even dated someone once, bro...

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i never regret giving my dog kisses but sometimes my cat swipes at me :/

8. Been cheated on: gotta have a boyfriend first to get cheated on

9. Lost someone special: yup

10. Been depressed: only since i was 12 years old  l m f a o

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i hate puking so i never go past being tipsy

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. red!

13. millennial pink fight me

14. rose gold fight me again

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yyyes but i sure would like to make some more Here, at my Current University

16. Fallen out of love: mmm not Love but definitely Like? i stopped Liking someone who i had a crush on

17. Laughed until you cried: so frequently it’s worrisome

18. Found out someone was talking about you: um did u mean middle and high school? i was such a petty bitch tho i put em in their places after crying in my room alone lmfao

19. Met someone who changed you: yes yes yes! dallon is the first who comes to mind he’s... no words

20. Found out who your friends are: ummm i dont know?

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list: ...my mom??? lmao

GENERAL:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them except a few who ive just added bc we’re all transfer students to the same university this year and im Desperate

23. Do you have any pets: yes!! 2 cats, Harry and Kai (shut up ok i’ve always liked that syllable in chinese) and one dog, Lady my perfect cuddle angel baby

24. Do you want to change your name: honestly... sometimes yeah? but only because it’s so boring when it’s translated into chinese/korean so maybe i’d just change my names in those languages idk

25. What did you do for your last birthday: probably just went out to dinner w/ my family, but when i got back to my old college my friends and i went to a store in Queens it was such a good day...

26. What time did you wake up: like... noon probably lmao #depression

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: rewatching exo next door and gettin emotional over ksoo

28. Name something you can not wait for: THE POWER OF MUSIC BITCH LESS THAN 12 HOURS NOW

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: a couple weeks ago when she and my dad helped me move in to my apartment

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i didnt have fucking depression! anxiety is easy to deal with for me but depression isnt

31. What are you listening to right now: walk on memories

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i have a 2nd cousin named Tom he’s like 50 years old

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: ......so much

34. Most visited website: netflix/facebook/tumblr

35. Mole/s: one on my back, one on my neck, one under my left boob... i think that’s it

36. Mark/s: mostly bruises on my shins bc im clumsy; also some shaving scars from like 3+ years ago (one of em bled for 4 days while i was in china!)

37. Childhood dream: typical american kid stuff like ballerina and movie star

38. Hair color: medium brown i guess? it used to be lighter but it’s been getting darker as i get older

39. Long or short hair: i just cut it short again so it’s just touching my shoulders when dry (it’s wavy-curly so it’s a bit longer than that in reality)

40. Do you have a crush on someone: yeah can i have uhhhhhhhh byun baekhyun? no one irl tho

41. What do you like about yourself: ive got a great complexion that has really calmed down in the past few years! and i love my eyes ive got gorgeous eyes and a nice smile and a cute body and ive been doin self-love the past year can u tell?

42. Piercings: just regular ear piercings that i only got... a year ago...

43. Blood type: i never remember but maybe O? whichever one is the most common i think idk tho

44. Nickname: lulu is a nickname, ummm ive had a few friends call me em or ems which is cute

45. Relationship status: chronically single and repulsive to the male population, perhaps?

46. Zodiac: sun in pisces/leo rising (fun fact when i was little a kid asked me my sign so i said pisces and he called me fish poop so i cried) (he was probably a gemini the fuckin asshole), year of the tiger

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite tv show: pushing daisies, 30 rock, scrubs, grey’s anatomy but only up til the 8th season then it’s bad

49. Tattoos: i actually almost got one a few weeks ago but then i lost my job :/ i wanted to get “je ne regrette rien” tattooed on my hip bone real small

50. Right or left handed: right - i used to be able to write pretty well with my left hand but alas...

51. Surgery: yyyup wisdom teeth removal, eyelid surgery to get rid of some bumpy things, broken arm when i was like 1.5 years old, and im getting lasik next summer probably

52. Piercing: ya already asked ya doofus

53. Sport: my dad made me play basketball in middle school i got 2 technical fouls bc i had anger issues so i stopped playing basketball. i got Decent at ballet tho!

54. Vacation: we havent really had the money lately

55. Pair of trainers: i just bought 2 new pairs bc i ruined my only pair in seoul and had to throw them out (they got soaked in the rain and then mildewed n all) (side note: they’re so expensive?? the adidas and nike were as expensive as the new balance which is Silly so i just bought adidas and nike)

MORE GENERAL:

56. Eating: nothing rn but i need to go get dinner...

57. Drinking: did we not already go over this

58. I’m about to go: either to the dining hall or to a nearby restaurant im honestly not sure 

59. Waiting for: exo to move in next door to me only to discover that one of them is my childhood best friend-slash-first love and another has fallen in love with me and my clumsy but lovable personality :)

60. Want: byun baekhyun (im kidding kind of, um i want to make friends here and be less anxious about my classes and life in general)

61. Get married: yeah one day but so far no one i’ve met is Vibing with that seeing as no one will even ask me out im not Super Hopeful :/

62. Career: chinese major/korean minor at a university um hopefully after i graduate someone will hire me and give me money to do something i dont completely hate but we’ll see

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. Hugs or kisses: i literally would not know so i will say Hugs because they’re the only things ive experienced! and i could use a really long hug rn

64. Lips or eyes: ...eyes... but lips r important too cuz i cant even look at a photo of amy schumer anymore w/out staring at her terrifying lips

65. Shorter or taller: taller but someone around my height would be ok too (.....im just sayin im like the same height as bbh...)

66. Older or younger: older bc im not about to go dating a freshman or a high schooler lmfao

67. Nice arms or nice stomach: arrrrrrrrms

68. Hookup or relationship: never had either but i think i’d prefer a stable relationship to some extent?? we just dont know

69. Troublemaker or hesitant: im a troublemaker when im comfortable w/ people/places but other than that hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. Kissed a stranger: no

71. Drank hard liquor: yeah it’s nasty :/ but it does the trick

72. Lost glasses/contact lenses: somehow no

73. Turned someone down: ya this one guy hit on me when i was walking thru myeongdong but he was a) a stranger b) 25 years old c) from egypt so like it was never gonna happen buddy

74: Sex on the first date: gonna need a first date before i can even answer (the answer would be no i am not down w/ that) 

75. Broken someone’s heart: probably not, ill dont think im capable of doing that plus im still so young that realistically it just hasnt been a possibility

76. Had your heart broken: not really, my silly crushes have all been resolved easily bc i never talk about them and then i notice things i dont like about the person and stop liking them like that

77. Been arrested: no but a friend of mine got arrested for trespassing on a roof in nyc last year lmao

78: Cried when someone died: yeah

79. Fallen for a friend: sort of? briefly? it never went anywhere it was silly

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. Yourself: i try to most days but it’s rough

81: Miracles: i mean im not a non-believer but i also don’t actively wait for them to happen or really put much stock in them

82. Love at first sight: im not sure because bbh hasnt seen me yet so how would we know??

83. Santa Claus: not anymore i think when i was 8 i sorta stopped

84. Kiss on the first date: never even had a first date or a first kiss ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

85. Angels: um yeah actually! proof they exist - byun baekhyun do kyungsoo kim jongdae kim jongin the list goes on,,

OTHER:

90. Current best friends: dallon, lilli, ida, stephanie, aria!

91: Eye color: light green. i have Gorgeous eyes!!!

92: Favorite movie: a taiwanese movie called Secret, i rly liked ksoo’s movie Hyung, Chicago the Musical... there are more but im drawing a blank

i guess ill tag... no one but if ur reading this and u wanna do it feel free to say i tagged u! i love learning about u guys it makes me feel less alone

#about me #long post // #tysm for tagging me i love being recognized as a Person!!

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