#but im not touching that can of worms

[ladystoneboobs]

@sunflowersansa, #catelyn was raised to be hosters successor for almost a decade wasnt she?

the annoying thing is we don't have an approximate age for edmure, nor any age for cat when minisa died (in childbirth with a last, stillborn son, not edmure). i've seen fanart depicting him as anywhere from a toddler to a younger teen/tween when catelyn and lysa were teenagers. but i feel pretty confident in my estimation of ~7/8yrs age difference between eldest sister and baby brother, and not just bc of symmetry with the next generation. my reasoning is thus:

we all assume catelyn had some grooming as an heiress, rather than it just being a nominal status in early childhood. how much training can one really give a 3 or 4yo, y'know? we know rickon never had any manly lord lessons from ned since he was still so young when they parted. if she was closer to 7 or 8 when edmure came along, that leaves more realistic time for education, and a sizable number of years with only daughters for hoster to try to accustom himself to lack of a son and make do accordingly. even only 1 or 2 years of rulership lessons would still matter when minisa's death left hoster more dependent on her as not just hostess but later a trusted confidant of a sort until she got married.

ned thinks of edmure as "the boy" in his pov when hearing of the mountain's first attacks in the riverlands. we know ned's not great with keeping up with ageing from his earlier comments about tommen, and he surely hasn't seen edmure in many years, but this tells me that when they did meet at riverrun, edmure was not that close in age to himself, catelyn, and lysa. (i think it's less likely to see someone as frozen in childhood if they're anywhere near your age cohort.) ned could still be wrong about edmure's age thinking he couldn't possibly be at least 25 and any green knight younger than that was still a boy or youth, but that miscalculation makes more sense to me if he was around ~26 rather than a fellow thirtysomething or a guy pushing thirty.

we also know that edmure acted as brandon's squire in his duel with littlefinger, which i read as more someone playacting at some squirely practice when not yet consideed old enough to be anyone's assigned squire, with the informal nature of the duel which meant lightly-armored littlefinger having no squire of his own, and brandon having an actual squire who likely could have been present. so that lines up with a ~10yo edmure to 15yo littlefinger, 16yo lysa, 18yo catelyn, and 20yo brandon. (this is admittedly the most subjective point and i wouldn't consider it strong evidence if not consistent with the rest.)

catelyn doubted her memories of her mother, including her appearence, which in this world strangely devoid of portraits, still makes me think she was quite young when they lost her. so, yeah, not a large gap between edmure's birth and minisa's death in her next childbirth. if catelyn was 8/9 or even 10 when her mother died and she became de facto lady of riverrun, that could line up with the lannister twins losing their mother at 7 and not having strong memories of joanna.

idt catelyn really did think of riverrun as her birthright when her brief time as conscious heiress was a small fraction of her life, with at least 6yrs knowing she'd move away to be lady (consort) of winterfell instead and the rest of her life living out that responsibility as northern wife and mother. but it must still sting to be used to such a position of importance in her earlier time in riverrun and have no real authority when she returned to live there again as an adult, especially when edmure still seemed to act (to her) like the baby of the family not entirely matured into the authority he held all for himself. there's a part in her time in renly's camp when she thought robb was years younger but still knew what he was doing more than the southern king and his knights of summer playing at war. i'd imagine a simaliar feeling whenever edmure annoyed her. that's another difference between robb and edmure, that robb was a dutiful eldest sibling like his mother, formerly catelyn's baby but never anyone's baby brother. while edmure, even if he was (my by headcanon) a few years older than renly and unlike renly was meant to be a male heir from birth, was still a youngest child of 3 like renly.

#sunflowersansa #valyrianscrolls #catelyn tully #catelyn stark #edmure tully #minisa tully #asoiaf #asoiaf meta #one fish two fish red fish blue fish #like hmmm i think its often taken for granted that catelyn dosent question or resent patriarchical limitations #but imo its more shes had to pick her battles and make do with things in her life she could not change #she is diff from cersei in that respect trying to be pragmatic not stewing in what could be hers as an eldest sib if not for being born f #or if all westeros had genderblind primogeniture like dorne #but we do see that questioning and unhappiness w her lot grow as her sl shows the limits of ladlylike 'soft power' #unofficial influence on male relatives only works so long as theyre willing to listen #and that lack of power was even present w ned fucking scaring her into not asking qs abt jon #but im not touching that can of worms #(c)lsb #spare me the sermon septa

[suckerforfluff]

is it fucked up that as a filipino i dont know any filipino mc streamers or filipino streamers in general? like the ones who actually stream in tagalog/bisaya/ilocano/ilonggo/whatever dialect???

like im so envious of the ppl who are like "so and so was my childhood im excited to see them in qsmp" and here i am like "wow filipino streamers huh can't wait to meet them ^_^"

#qsmp #i would also like to preface this post by saying im from the middle of mindanao and i spent all my life hating manila #motherfucking manila why do they always get all the conventions and concerts #most of the ppl from manila ive interacted with online/irl when they learn im from mindanao say 'wait you have internet?' fuck off fuck you #actually now that i think about it maybe i dont want filipinos on the qsmp our country is so fucked up it's like the tower of babel #like what if theyre out of touch rich kids or worse like what if theyre from manila? like i cant handle that #dapat yung laki sa hirap dapat yung probinsyano #coco martin for qsmp #payag ako na tagamanila kung laki sa hirap #ALSO WE HAVE SO MANY DIALECTS LIKE HOW DOES THIS EVEN WORK? #like are they only recruiting tagalog streamers or are there cebuanos and ilonggos too? maybe even maguindanaoans? im reaching #when q said he was researching a country with an interesting culture i hope it was us #pilipinas as a country is just a whole can of worms and it sure is interesting #i also spent most of my life hating spanish ppl for colonizing our country haha and now im learning spanish haha how ironic #actually no im like cellbit im learning mexican #hi mexican ppl did u know our countries are like colony twins #girl no one is reading this

[baconcolacan]

Tord being labelled a commie is so funny sometimes esp in fandom works, cause you gotta remember thats an extreme leftist belief, but some depictions I see of him nearly fall on rightist, sorry guys but Tord has blue hair and pronouns

#neil talky #HDJSKSJDJF IDK IF IM HJ ABOUT THIS BUT #YEAH?? HAHDHAJDJF #I’ll analyse this at some other time but just saying #extreme progressivism does exist tho and well…. #ough thats a can of worms I wont touch #BUT YEA ANYWAY THAT GUY?? LEFTY PURE LEFTY #He might have a touch of Anarcho in him if you go the RL route while keeping this in mind

[sneckoil]

hi i just read your comic and honestly my thoughts are all over the place so here's what i will say: IM CRAZY ABOUT IT! IT'S INSANE IT'S SHOWSTOPPING IT'S BRILLIANT IT'S WONDERFUL!!!! i love the texturse, the flow, the composition in EVERY SINGLE PAGE it is nuts it is balls to the walls great. the other person calling it dreamlike is so accurate i loved not being able to tell the time correctly, like it's a mess of memories in one or both of them, ough i die. thank you 10000000/10

AWRGH... aaaaaa..... have some silly little drawings as my thanks...!!

#aaaaaaaaaa #awhghh im so touched #shioshpam #st camillus #can of worms #shioart #christian valencia #wachi rivera

[allytheally]

lil bit of a rant/ramble: (tw: eating disorder? ish?)

I feel so weird talking about this cus no one knows this about me?? not really?? but i kinda have ed related habits and stuff (hesitant to say I actually have an ed bc im not diagnosed and i have a healthy-ish BMI)

i don't eat enough and i know that, but my bmi is good an i always feel better that way and like. yeah. not good. its why i quit tumblr back when i was a minor

and yeah. anyway. im basically posting about this now bc im dming some people and i like to send (sfw!) teasy pictures, and afterwards they always tell me im cute/pretty (which, like, tysm!!! im so glad yall find me pretty aaah?) and i always try to dismiss it to the point where its a Thing™ and it felt kinda weird for me cus it feels like im fishing

so basically, if youre still readings this (which, like, wow) what i mean to say is hi! ily! i have issues, im not fishing, my brain just doesn't like my body, but im trying to get better! :)

(edit: my ler friends, im not quite as skinny as i look in my photos! i take pics lying down bc a: i like my blanket as the background and b: it stretches me belly out a bit so you can't see my muffin top. just thought i'd add!)

#stream of thought #queued cus im a coward #umm #if yall don't want to touch this can of worms #saying that i looke ticklish/sensitive/vulnerable is very teasy! #which isn't to say i don't like being called pretty #but i genuinely don't think i am #and i wanted to kinda blurt it all out #so yay lol

[donghuamuqing]

Mike leaning down for will is actually the most important thing on this planet

#my post #esp before will grew taller and mike was growing like a weed #the respect he has for will #i will not stand above you lik everyone else in your life #i will physically lower myself down to be closer to you. to be at your level so we can be at the same level because i want to #i want to be at the same level with you #i will be even lower. you can be the taller for a while. you will not feel unease with me i will give you no reason to #i will lean dowm to hear you speak i will lean down to talk to you #i will lean down with out knowing. it is how im supposed to be #i lean down because i love you i lean down to touch you and move you and be moved by you #i will listen and look into your eyes i will not loom i will not bully i will not shame you #you are not the worm you are the bird and i am forever looking up at your unfolded wings

[unsettlingcreature]

Slowly reconfiguring my altar space but I'm gently adding Halloween decorations as September passes and October approaches, I'm personally obsessed with the little ghost lights. Anyway I don't have a dedicated sideblog for this stuff anymore so I'm just slapping it on main :)

#witchblr #taking a break was so good for me because now im getting back into the flow of it? im realising how my beliefs and shit have shifted #still going to gently worm my back into witchcraft like. im not gonna do any blots or anything for a good while #and figure out ONCE MORE what actually works with my practice #like do i WANT divination to be part of my craft? or do i just feel like i have to #like when was the last time i touched my tarot or my runes or my oracle deck or my pendulum? even before my break? #and when it comes to deitywork. is that something i can commit to? has my time with Loki come to a close? lots of questions to ask. #and also do i really want to keep a grimoire/bos? because im too much of a perfectionist for it #and the stuff i do regularly are in my head. if I'm doing something different then I'm going to use other books as research points #idk theres a lot to think about. maybe I'll just ponder the wizard and stop sweating the details lmao #you'd think i had this shit figured out after over a decade but fuckin nooooppppeeeee #anyway witchcraft is always a journey and there's always more to learn and experience #its easy to say that shit but harder to accept it #ALSO LOKI LIVES IN MY BEDROOM I AINT EVER GONNA HIDE HIM AWAY #i cherish all the time spent with a deity and appreciate them for being there during that part of my life #just like with hecate before its ok if my time with loki is over. it is what it is. its not sad its something to look fondly on

[kozzax]

Dancestors and Their Implications on Classpecting

For many of Homestuck's readers, the Dancestors aren't exactly fond memories. While there is a good chunk of the fanbase who loves them for what's under the surface, myself included, I would argue the majority of the fanbase sees the Dancestors as what they were likely intended to be: bad-faith mockeries of Tumblr and the Homestuck fanbase at the time.

They are not well-written characters, for the most part. Oh, there are glimpses of interesting characterization and deeper story for all of them, but none of them beyond perhaps Aranea and Meenah live up to their potential. Many of them are uncomfortable at best and downright harmful at worst.

I do not want to talk about their characterization directly here, though. No, I would instead like to discuss the impact that the Dancestors have on a far more widely beloved part of Homestuck: the classpect system.

As we all know, the classpect system has two parts: the Class, such as 'Heir', and the Aspect, such as 'Breath'. Every sburb and sgrub player has a defined classpect, and every player we see in the comic has their classpect revealed at some point in time.

For the humans, every human has a unique class and a unique aspect. There are only eight of them who play sburb, so it makes sense for each of them to get one of the twelve options, as a shorthand for character differentiation. The Strilondes may be ectobiologically related, but each of the four has their own unique class and aspect.

For the trolls, though, there's something a little different that happens. Because there are only twelve aspects and fourteen classes, and because the master classes are only seen in-comic with the cherubs, there has to be overlap between the core twelve trolls and their Dancestors. Every class and aspect is used twice, in different combinations so that every troll has their own title.

What's interesting about the Dancestors' classpects, though, is that every Dancestor's aspect lines up with their respective core troll. The Captors, for example, are both Doom players, while the Vantases are both Blood players. They have different classes, but their aspect stays the same between the two of them.

Where this gets even more interesting is in the way the relationship between Dancestor and core troll works. Troll genetics is... hard to understand at best, and complicated even further when ectobiology is pulled into the mix, but we know that they have a concept of ancestors who provide the majority of their genetic code. We also know that each of the Dancestors is ectobiologically the ancestor of their respective core troll. The Dancestor Aranea Serket, for example, is genetically the same as Alternia's Mindfang; much in the same way that Jane Crocker is genetically the same as Nanna.

While we cannot say that the ancestry rules are the same for the sgrub players as they are for the rest of Trollkind, I believe that it is more informative and interesting to read the text in that way, because when we do there is a clear and incredibly useful correlation to be found. Because we do not see the trolls' ectobiology in action, I think it is reasonable to make the assumption that ectobiology machines tend to reflect the genetic combination practices of the species playing, and so would create a mother grub-like condition for the trolls as opposed to the parent-like condition that Jegbert had.

Assuming this to be true, then, and that the Dancestors share a large part of their genetic code with their respective core trolls, let's look back at the aspect connection.

Why are their aspects the same, but their classes different?

I believe it is a matter of nature vs nurture, where aspects are determined by nature and classes are determined by nurture.

The biggest difference between the trolls and their Dancestors is the world they were brought up in. The Dancestors lived in a world much more similar to our own, with many social issues being bureaucratic and political in nature; where the core trolls grew up in a much more violent and war-focused world. This is very clear in the canon of Homestuck, and established regularly throughout openbound.

This would, inevitably, lead to the Dancestors being raised and nurtured to implement their aspects in different ways from the core trolls. In turn, this brings them to have different classes.

Let's also look at what the basic setup of classpecting: classes have verbs (eg: bards and princes destroy) and are either passive or active (eg: bards destroy [aspect] while princes are destroyed by [aspect]), and aspects are the elemental forces affected by those verbs. From the Expanded Zodiac, we can further interpret aspects as a person's core values, and extrapolate that classes are how they interact with those core values.

This, too, lines up with the nature vs nurture interpretation of the classpect system. Both Karkat and Kankri are Blood players, and we can see that at their core both of them very heavily value the bonds between people. Those bonds are, for the Vantases, the most important parts of their lives. What's different between them is how they act on that belief: Karkat, as a Knight, helps (or, more properly, serves) the people he's bonded with and make sure they're happy and prospering, and is regularly the guy any of them go to for emotional advice; where Kankri, as a Seer, knows the connections between people and knows how to work with those connections to try and minimize conflict.

Karkat grew up in a world where he was marked for death from the day he was hatched, and the only way he would survive would be to serve powerful people and hope to impress them. He was nurtured into a role where helping people he's grown a bond with was useful and practical to keep himself alive and moving forward in the world.

Kankri grew up in a world where he was effectively a highblood's pet, and the only way he could further his place in society was to understand the connections between people and the complexities of a political bureaucracy. He was nurtured into a role where understanding the bonds between people was useful and practical to keep himself moving forward in the world.

Both of them, though, are still Blood players at their core.

While it is clearest and easiest to see this connection in the Vantases, it is, to my knowledge, true for all of the troll pairs.

This interpretation of classpecting, where classes are determined by nurture and aspects are determined by nature, may seem somewhat less than useful on the surface, but I believe that it is actually a GREATLY useful reference point for writing and developing characters, both in AUs and in original works.

Let's say you wanted to write a high school AU, but you were struggling to keep Karkat in character because of his more aggressive tendancies. Knowing that his Blood aspect is determined by nature would help to identify exactly what core values should be carried over, where having Knight be determined by nurture would help identify what might change or shift in this new version. Perhaps he's still a Knight, and he was still raised in a situation that led him to be knight-like, but it now takes the form of Karkat demanding that his friends have study groups together and ensuring that they're all ready for tests and quizzes.

It's flexible, of course, and should never be used as the single point of a character's personality, but I think that using the classpecting system to identify how a character's environments affect how they interact with their core belief is a really interesting and useful usage of the system.

TL;DR: I believe that the Dancestors' aspects being the same as their core troll counterparts while their classes differ indicates that classpecting is determined, in part, by the nature and nurture factors on a person's personality. Aspects are determined by nature and genetics, where classes are determined by nurture and environment. I think that this interpretation of the classpecting system is particularly interesting when creating characters and useful in analyzing characters both within and outside of Homestuck, as a way to identify how the way a character is raised leads them to interact with their core beliefs and values.

#homestuck #classpect #homestuck analysis #classpect analysis #dancestors #my analysis #<- I hope those are all the right tags #i think about this CONSTANTLY #it's just always sitting there in the back of my mind #and. i finally got around to writing a post about it! woo hoo! #i hope this is comprehensible i have no clue if anyone else can understand what i'm saying here #i could just be writing nonsense #but. i think it's interesting ok #i think its really interesting #i WANTED to use sollux and mituna an example but sollux is a mage of doom #and there isnt really a lot of clear information in canon about mages #which sucks because i want to talk about mituna so bad #but that'll have to happen another day #also for the record. i specifically didnt use aranea or meenah #because if i talk about aranea i have to talk about vriska and im not touching that bag of worms #and i like meenah but i dont feel comfortable talking on her because i dont remember a lot of what she did super well #the other dancestors are in similar boats but to a lesser degree because there isnt much there for them

[sonic-adventure-3]

did her elbow pads, all around cleaned up her hair and got it merged seamlessly with her head, did her shirt collar, and did shoe collar + stupid wing things!!! i attempted to do her jacket collar but it's wayy too finicky and tiny and if i kept at it i was gonna kill someone. really thin but 3d parts, like her bangs, and like all the collars are fucking hellish. remind me to never design or model anything with more than one part like that ever again. once again i find myself asking why the fuck did i design squabble like this and why is she the first thing i attempt to model???? its maybe slightly worth it cause she's starting to look real cute and okay yeah it is kinda incredible seeing my oc in 3 dimensions.

goal for next time: jacket collar, ribbon, tail. mayyybe add more detail to the shoes. figure out how to use uv so i can do flat colour texture. maybe start figuring out articulation

end goal: finished model, simplistic texture, enough articulation for 2 different poses (rigged if im lucky or ambitious, manual via segmentation if im not), 2 props, maybe a 3 second simple animation.

#if i keep with 3d modeling then someday i really really wanna put a model i make in a sonic game #thats it's own can of worms a fair ways down the line though #rambles #3d adventures #okay damn i just looked at the first screenshot i have of this process. before i knew how to edgeloop or extrude selection #i think before i even knew i could press shift or ctrl for finer control when selecting shit #and like damn okay im doing pretty fuckin well for myself man with all of 3 days practice #i have not touched any 3d modeling software ever other than when i attended only the first day of a camp some 7 or 8 years ago #but here i am with like a full character. damnnnnnnn #idk how i have the skills for this. this shits crazy #gif warning

[icicleteeth]

I tell my most embarrassing things I don’t have the balls to post on twitter sorry guys... But (purely because I love watching all food and drink and cooking videos) I watch a LOT of alcohol related videos for someone who does not and will never drink 🙈

#cw alcohol #like i think i probably sound like a child saying that but its not because im squeemish or never did it before #it's for a dumber reason #friends and i bought walmart whiskey idr the brand it was whatever was the cheapest shit at walmart #and i dont know WHY but i thought the rules of booze drinking was drinking neat. no ice no mixers no nothin #needless to say with that being my first exposure to drinking i thought there was no such thing as a good booze it all tastes just as bad as #this raw fire sewage #which in the long run it's good to never touch alcohol but the food artist who loves tasting many foods to better understand and appreciate #them for when i eventually draw them... i do feel a little sad in a weird way... #and in general there are still a lot of places where not drinking as an adult is stigmatized which is a whole other can of worms #like leave me alone man im not a child i just dont like it lol #if you started out with literally the worst 40% alc content swill trash you wouldn't either i reckon #but why whiskey i cannot lie to you all i just thought it sounded cool. i wanted to drink like a cowboy okay #i did no research outside of wanting to yeehaw

[luxrayz64]

seriously why the fuck aren't heroes and shadow available on steam. 06 and unleashed too. they could port the adventure games onto pc, but not these other games that released on the exact same consoles and hardware as those?

#at least we've got P-06 and dolphin emulator but those aren't good enoughhh #P-06 is a fan made remaster and the responsibility for making these games available falls on sega #like okay. you can port your most popular titles but nothing in between? #I can understand why the storybook games never got ports given that they require wiimotes like that's fine whatever #I mean it's not #but porting wii games is always gonna be messy unless nintendo's doing it #and nintendos not going to do that. #argggh. I was able to get copies of (most) of these games because I already had a gamecube and wii #but not everyone HAS a gamecube or a wii. nor are either of these games being actively sold anywhere #it just really annoys me that they ported their golden children up but not the mixed/poorly received games #so there's sonic generations and the adventure games available with fucking. sonic 4 and sonic lost world #colours is at least available via ultimate but that's its own can of worms im not touching that rn #uruugghhh. I want to just boot up these games without having to pull my fucking wii u or gamecube out #espeon cries #haven't even touched the gba and ds titles who also deserve to be available on modern hardware #heyyyy nintendo and sega put advance trilogy on nintendo switch okay? ❤️

[dreamcast-official]

i have a question. is anyone following me on here a trans person who is out to their family. if so do you know how the fuck do to that because.

#eli.txt #every once in a while i get hit with this WAVE of guilt over not being out #bc im out to. pretty much everyone in my life except for my mom. and it just doesnt feel fair. #and its not like. idk i cant know for sure but i think shed be supportive or at the very least neutral about it #but i just dont know how to do it and im scared #thats not even. touching the can of worms that is the fact that ive been in a relationship for two and a half years. #idk man idk i feel like i have to tell her abt this stuff but im so scared and idk how to do it

[brainworms-all-night-long]

One more fucking person dares to say something about snakes being slimy or ugly and I will go on a quest to awaken the Great Devouer for real

#a classmate just pissed me off #how dare he #tell.me youve never held a snake in your hand without actually telling me youve never held a snake in your hand #that mf falls into water and is dry #i seweae eve probably touched a really long frog and it just escalated from there #also theres not a single spieceies of snakes you can clasyfy as ugly #i know thats like #subjective #maybe that worm looking sand noodl the name of which conviniently escapes me rn #but hes just a lill derpy guy #not ugly #you must have no soul to look hims in the eye and tell him hes ugly #one more mf calling snakes ugly and Im throwing their ass in a pit of wasps #snakes #a lill vent

[gilfrespecter]

I haven't drawn alot that's Postable™ by my standards the past few days bc I've mostly been doing boring nudes& posing practices but some stuff I forgot to post and a pose practice I liked enough to slap some paint on

#doodles #i need to do more life drawing than picture stuff i know i can do more dynamic stuff than this #its like. idk the frustration of being right on a breakthrough and not being able to pass it quite yet #the other frustrating thing is that like. ive done this beffore in high school and college #5 years of being too burnt out to touch a pen will do that to you #im also trying to do eyes different but i havent found a way im happy with yet #think im gonna download that flipnote-like(flipaclip?) bc my clip studio trails almost out and i know if i make myself #do simpler animation type stuff ill improve rapidly but also make nothing im happy with #but also i have to make stuff im happy with and have fun with bc im doing this FOR FUN ITS FOR FUN DUMMY #i really like Ratfrid's summer vacation outfit i know the worm didnt look like a wots but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #theros #dori has a son now which is very cute i think #koz was really fun to draw i should draw more elephants of the real or furry variety #motw #melissa #dori #npcs #ratfrid

[pseudonemisis]

I don't think I can properly describe how deeply I wish I could touch fire

#prometheus didnt doesnt get his guts ripped out every day for me to sit back and LOOK at my candel #oh no #i gotta eat that little sucker #lemme hold it #i mean obviously i can touch fire #but i wanna touch it within any negative side effects #i could also probably describe pretty well how much i want to touch fire but itd take me forever #its a little heart that effect everything around it and i desperately want to be apart of that #let me be something that is so simple and so powerful #something that doesn’t have to interpreted or guessed at but merely is #fire #im guessing that this is part of the brain worms aka #adhd #so ima tag that too #nurodivergent #brain worms #pyromaniac #i guess? #candel #i say things #mine #the possum speaks

[onepiexe]

im going to explode

#logbook #SUUUUUUCKS. sucks. this shit sucks so bad. #i drove in and my toast fell on the floor of my car bc i had to dodge some fucker who walked out into the road in the pitch black. #so i havent had any breakfast. ate one mandarin. been so busy i havent touched my dried mango or piece of candy. #had the store manager and an asm and gci weigh in abt the display and holiday plants etc etc. im going insane. #SOOOOO irritating SOOOO stupid. i hate them. i hate them all. #and gci kept talking over me or dismissing very important details i pointed out. hes pissing me off specifically. #and bc i havent eaten and i didnt reslly sleep im snapping a bit. im trying not to and i keep saying im trying not to but. alas. #b is back after a week or so and she and o keep talking over me or deciding things. im tired of fixing shit. #to be clear its not as bad as i thought it'd be today but it has been irritating lol #az came by twice and im so tired i didnt have snything funny to say to him. but he gave me a high five :-) #i just have a little bit of indoor left today. its been. so chaotic and messy. and its driving me nuts. #may buy a few of the new babies we got in<3 #also z and o and q and gci are all going out to lunch. . .oh joy. not that i would go but. whew. #thats a whole can of worms i refuse to touch.