#but i want ppl to be having fun dammit!

[spocksmalewife]

Listen listen ik the prevailing desire amongst us quiet folk is to stay home and parallel play with our friends but WHERE ARE ALL YOU GUYS THAT WANT TO GO OUT AND DANCE BUT STILL BE AUTISTIC ABOUT IT, HUH?

#sure cozy timez by the fire reading a book is great and all #BUT I want my SOUL to be shattered by the sheer force of the vibrations being shot out of an army of tower speakers playing at <90HZ #and i want someone there suffering with me too #oomfriends does this with me but she hates it but sees it as a necessary evil cuz shes a masochist ig #but i want ppl to be having fun dammit!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol #me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's #like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which #sounds like what u r describing. me: #...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all #0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see #bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol #she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant #bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the #obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed #my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going #unrelated #ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar #god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum #is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is #idk. whatever. doesnt matter

[menlove]

blorbo.... smol bean...... it has the same energy. i won't be expanding

#this isnt hate in the slightest cringe culture is dead do what makes u happy #but i personally cannot abide #the og post was funny but man...... man. that's all i gotta say #i'm not even trying to be a hater i'm glad ppl r having fun but it's like #sometimes i'll see a post i want to rb and then it's like 'your blorbo' and im like god fucking dammit.

[voidrots]

gotta learn how to drive so i can take road trips by myself

#txt #i want to go to concerts and not have to ask ppl to fucking take me #esp when i can afford tickets and they can’t or they don’t like the band ghgdhdnf #i wanted to go see fall out boy god dammit!!!! #it made me really fucking sad that i couldn’t #or when green day came to my state that one year #i would have KILLED a man to go #also hozier is coming to oklahoma and tennessee in october and it would be really fun to go :( #i just want to take road trips in general #i think it’d be good for me

[corvigae]

WANTS AND FEARS COMING TO THE SIMS 4

WANTS AND FEARS COMING TO THE SIMS 4

WANTS AND FEARS COMING TO THE SIMS 4

#YEEHAW???? #like don't get me wrong i'm not thinking 'oh this is the thing that's going to fix everything and make the game fun!' #i've long said i think the true problems with ts4 are on a foundational level with the game itself #and you can only patch so many holes when the boat starts underwater #HOWEVER i do think this could HELP #and ALSO it's VERY ENCOURAGING to me to see this kind of change made #bc it's another one of those things that shows that the sims team is at least TRYING #that they are in fact listening to players and trying to incorporate feedback #and trying to improve things to make a game ppl want to play #which gives me some hope for future titles #like FEARS?? fears have been an abondened function for two titled now! and they're bringing them back! #because of player demand!! #maybe they're even seeing the influx of ppl being interested in and actively playing ts2 #and taking cues from that #idk maybe i'm being naive but i'm really encouraged by this #...ahhh son of a bitch i'm gonna have to go through and purge all my whims mods. dammit. #that's gonna be a pain in the ass #personal grumblings

[dutybcrne]

Currently smiling at hsr!Kae & Klee journeying around the cosmos and the chaos in their wake that they both mostly manage to get out of bc of Klee unparalleled cuteness and Kae’s high charisma

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Bonus; Luc occasionally droppping by to scold tf out of Kae bc dammit this is the third fucken bounty sb’s out in your heads #//‘What the FUCK are you teaching her?’ ‘what I’M teaching her??? I’ll have you know she is a NATURAL talent with explosives’ #//Him aside; I love Kae and Klee just absolutely clownin their way across the cosmos; doin Aha proud #//Klee deffo helping Kae accept the Fools’ purpose more and more than ever before #//Bc living to have fun the way she wants to; and protecting her and her whimsy becomes EVERYTHING to him #//So if making a few of the enemy ships or places go Kaboom; no matter how dangerous or small the offense #//BY ALL MEANS; they will make them go Kaboom #//IPC; space pirates; annihilation gang; etc #//NOBODY is safe #//Even fellow Fools are not—if Klee wants a bit of Boom; Kae will make SURE she can splode ppl and things and go Scott free of blame

[glitter-alienz]

orange turtles, orange ice cream cats..orange.. orange

[TMNTOV Masterpost]

they had klunk since she was a kitten. she's a senior cat, she likes to put her paws on everything and gets icecrream everywhere. OH! and she really wants to eat splinter! ^_^

go check @idiot-mushroom's post!! (link)

(bonus) ⤵

ttnm mikey is so fun to draw, i might draw our mikeys together some more, they are friends in my head! they get to bond over being silly and having mean older siblings lol

dammit mikey.. why do you keep doing this to ppl 😔

#i luv mikey(s)! #ttnm #teenage turtle ninja mutants #tmnt omniverse #tmntov #👽 my art #tmnt mikey #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt klunk #tmnt ice cream kitty #tmnt iteration #tmnt fan iteration #tmnt au #tmnt fanart #tmnt art #tmnt #tmnt crossover #crossover #comic #comics #digital drawing #digital art #my artwork #michelangelo #tmntov art

[tirfpikachu]

it really helped me to ask myself... why are you barking at being called neutral sex-based terms like she/her pretty, queen, lady, wife, etc? what's the real reason? do they feel feminine/"girly" to you or have other sexist connotations? the answer for me was always yes. and then, i asked myself, can you defeminize those words in your mind? even masculinize them? or alternatively render them utterly neutral? if you look inwards and visualize them and play with them in your mind, can you do it? and the answer, shockingly enough... was yes.

and now i have fun hearing lady and thinking of a butch who's a badass lady. i hear queen and i'm picturing a decadent suit. i hear girl and i'm thinking of the baddest gnc chick ever. i hear wife and i think of a dyke who wants to be a stay at home wifey but is also buff as hell and kills men. like WORDS CAN BE PLAYED WITH!!!!! female words should NOT remind you of feminine shit, it's just words that come with your body type, it's just the female equivalent of male words!!!! erase the gender roles from sex-based terms let go of your sexism RECLAIM THOSE WORDS get creative with them destroy the patriarchal bullshit that nested in your mind since you were a kid!!! those words refer to ppl like you too, not just girly girls and bimbos and whatever hyperfem image you have in your mind!!!! don't let the shit men did to those like us ruin those neutral af female terms!!!! don't let bigoted tradwives be the only women owning female terms!!!! they are OURS TOO DAMMIT

#lay text #radblr #radfem #my words

[samarecharm]

Bouncing off my bi ryuji awakening post, im gonna add these tags from it: (separated to make it easier to read)

[#anyway. akira is the guy ever. and ryuji is exploding#‘i have died. badly’#i like thinking of akira like this; hes ryujis first exposure to nb ppl and gnc adjacent stuff#even if akira is p masc by most standards hes still got a bit of. aloofness. about his gender stuffs#ryuji is just really into the way akira carries himself#and it takes him a while to go oh. oh i think its cause i like this dude#um.#😳.

#also i wanted to clarify#but ryujis mom just doesnt know Who akira is in that picture#and in my head hes like. looking down at mona and petting him (while sitting)#(AND hes with ann and theyre both kind of a distance away from the camera)#so at a quick glance; hes just Some Girl#and even though shes wrong; it kicks off the mental chaos olympics in ryujis head#‘what hes not a girl’ to ‘where would she even get that from’ to ‘well akira said himself he didnt rlly care what ppl thought about it’#to ‘well. where DID she get that from?’ to lookin at what his homie does a little closer to ‘aw fuck. man.’#but i love that for him

#ALSO. RYU/GORO IN TAGS…..#but ryuji going oh my GOD oh my godddd 😨😓😓😓 when something clicks in his head about goro#his voice is so practiced and naturally softspoken and his public facing persona is very demure#and once he gets past the initial anger over goro being a pompous prick who shittalks about the thieves. hes like. god fucking dammit.#There Is A Pattern and A Type He Has and Its Killing Him To Realize it.#hes literally sitting in his room w his head in his hands]

Ryuji definitely finds Conventionally Attractive Girls pretty, but he realizes around postgame that he genuinely formed crushes on THREE people; Akira, Makoto, and Goro. And all three of them are people who carry themselves as a bit Soft and Delicate (akira and makoto w their personality and mannerisms, goro w his appearance) while also being deceptively strong. Yusuke WOULD fit into this but hes only strong in the metaverse. Also if u tried to argue that he still finds yusuke pretty, Ryuji would just say ‘yeah duh? Of course???’ and would not elaborate further.

I just think. Its cute 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryuji loves someone whos pretty and capable of knocking him flat on his ass lmao He LOVES a challenge and he likes that they can all challenge him in different ways.

Akira is way stronger than he looks; hes very toned and he used to be quite active before being shipped off to tokyo. And after fighting in the metaverse, hes gotten way better at using an enemies mass and momentum against them. Yeah he can properly knock someone down, but its way easier to let Ryuji charge him and use that momentum to sweep and pin. Which Ryuji remembers vividly for Weeks. Akira is not allowed to spar w him and Makoto for awhile after that.

Makoto is just strong as hell. But shes very defensive, and extremely patient. ‘Ill wait and see before I decide What to do’. Shes got good reaction timing and its hard to catch her offguard. Its very difficult to disorient her so oftentimes, his spars w her are more about endurance. And if he ASKS her to do so, she’ll actually fight him back. He never wins 😭 but she is very patient w him and she doesnt treat him like an idiot. She likes to give him tips and redirect his strengths to make up for his weaknesses and it makes him a bit warm in this chest

Spars w Goro are just fun. Theyre fun! Goro is way more aggressive and reckless than Makoto and Akira. He is looking for openings near constantly and Ryuji has to either keep up or tank hits. Its very. Engaging. For him. Sometimes he loses and Goro is giving him a look so smug, Ryuji wishes he could kick him in his fucking teeth (something he clearly couldnt do bc hes already been knocked flat on his ass). And sometimes he wins, and hes so shocked and HAPPY about it; he doesnt miss the way Goro looks away from him pouting like a brat (‘no fucking way are u POUTING man, what a sore loser 😭’). Goro and his uptight personality is thrown out the window completely and its so fun and refreshing to see. Hes tall and imposing w broad shoulders and toned arms and if Ryuji is staring, he finds himself immediately distracted when Goros cheerful, softspoken voice asks if hes willing to go another round.

I love it 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryujis got a complicated relationship w violence but it helps to have people he trusts engage with it in a way that doesnt make him feel like some brute. Theyre all kind of itching to beat the shit out of things for multiple reasons, but instead of taking that out on each other, they spend time training one another so that they can beat the shit out of OTHER things better. Its an efficient system 😊

#chattin #i dunno how to tag it; dont wanna add ships in here bc theres not alot of NonPego/ryu fans in the pego/ryu tag lol #but ye. ryuji likes a pretty face and he likes getting his ass whooped sometimes #i mean he likes to fight and WIN; he is not trying to roll over like a defenseless tortoise #but he likes the deception a little bit…. #what do u mean ur shitty shirt or sweater is hiding those arms ??? what do u mean u can bench more than ur own weight???? #its insane. #its a little 😳 #also oops i am writing essays in tags again. i will continue to do this im sorry #i just have so many thoughts that dont feel like they fit in the body lol #my approach to the thieves is . they are very angry and prone to violence and violent thoughts #and they have an questionable outlet w the metaverse #BUT #if the metaverse was to poof away; where does that outlet go? #and thats the foundation for my idea of their ‘found-ish family’ #i HATE the actual family stereotype but i am thinking of like #they are bonded in a specific and unique way #and they stick together because of it. no one will understand them as much as they understand each other #i know i mentioned only the four of them #but i am thinking of ALL of them #they are a little gang of their own now lmao if u mess w one u mess w the rest of the hounds #and they all have some warped perspectives on good and ‘evil’ and justice #maybe the others arent as readily capable to physically hurt someone. but they are more than okay with bad and cruel things happening- #-to bad people. #anyway. this post was about ryuji having a thing about getting roughhoused bc hes a rowdy boy #i can see it being something ann teases him about #and definitely as they get older its something that just doesnt leave him. his brain has already made the Connections #i love my homies they beat the shit out of me when i ask them to and vice versa 😊 #naw theyre not really HURTING each other that bad #but its the idea of it 👀 like look at me bearing my weaknesses to u so you can make me a better person

[dahtwitchi]

Them falling in love with the other's documentation and/or organisation system? And possibly the other overhearing the praise?

Also hoping you feel better today. Fever ramblings, while amusing, are shitty to have because you end up forgetting half of it (and it's usually the best ideas that go first).

Paperwork boyfriends!!!

........so I ended up going overboard and spent time scribbling inbetween food and chores and naps x3 that sparked such a trope-fest :'3

Imagine Iruka ending up in the past, staying under the radar for years. He take on jobs of scribe things, and end up somewhere in the administrative machine of growing Konoha. At one point its discovered he actually some shinobi skills, and he get funneled into archives and admin work that is in need of special care and consideration. Using experience from archives in the future, paperwork handling, and shinobi tricks he know of and learn here in the past, he end up driving the section of the archives into well efficient and useful. Coworkers just calls him the Archivist, for the fun of it because its become kinda what he done with his life, these days.

Tobirama has been busy developing a village, and is happy the administration machine seem decent working, the delegations seem to have worked.

Then, one day, or rather night because that's when he tend to manage look at personal research rather than village building, he begin realise. A different sorting system. New protective seals. New types of shelves.

At first he is annoyed, he can't find things as fast as whe they did it as he had requested when he delegated. But he can't be bothered to fix it atm. After a while, though? The changes work. The tutorial on organisation and archive seal system is very straightforward and most ppl seem to understand it easier than tobiramas private methods.

One night there is this chuunin who have stayed beyond his shift, and Tobirama takes his time to ask about what seems an unnecessary seal on some scrolls. The chuunin happily explain, that Archivist truly teach their staff well, too!

Iruka feel quite a thrill having Senju Tobirama praise his work, a bit mixed about the man didn't realise him and the Archivist is the same person. But. Well. It was praised.

Cue lovely tropes, a slow build of admiration. Tobirama grabbing iruka when he see him because the man explain so well. No one understand what iruka talk about when he think the second senju have a nice smile (he often smile over archive details, iruka would love to be receiving end of that smile, but this is great, too) because him smiling doesn't sound believable.

After a while, iruka haven't actually lied or pretend _not_ to be the Archivist, but he also haven't pushed the issue.

.......I want to read this, now, dammit x'D I order ten, ok?

(Fever is down somewhat, but body is very very present constantly, still <.> thank u for asking ♡)

#tobiruka #tobirama/iruka #tobirama #iruka #asks #musings #i meant to like make a little scribble for an ask #this one uh #now half my day have passed x'D #now more sustenence before more scribblings x'D #but really #give me a few of these? #good grief if anyone wanna transcribe that handwritign feel free x'D #paperwork boyfriends

[swordbreakerz]

I've been thinking a lot about haikyuu recently, for one because I miss those funky little jocks, but also in the context of the 911 fandom and a strong subset of people being absolute fucking weirdos about ppl enjoying bucktommy, which is a phenomenon I've mostly seen on tiktok bc it's harder to curate my algorithm on there, but I have seen shadows of discourse from ppl being onions to the trusted blogs I follow here as well, bc like

Here's the thing: something that the hq fandom is known for is multishipping, we had(/have) that shit down to a SCIENCE. There's a million characters in that story, truly a blorbo for everybody, and it was useless to be dedicated to Just One Ship for each character because there's just so many good dynamics between the whole cast! within teams and with other teams, etc etc. people had favorites, obviously, but having a favorite didn't preclude you from shipping those characters with other characters and that was an expected part of fandom participation! And hq being a primary interest for so long, as well as now being an old fave I often come back to, means I am super super immune to the bullshit happening rn in 911 of buddie shippers being accused of Giving Up on buddie just because they're also having fun with bucktommy!

Like, I truly truly do not understand the instinct to wail over buck not dating The Correct Man, I've had my fair share of feeling unsatisfied with his past romantic interests, but when I'm given an on screen relationship that's as fun, hot, and well written as buck and tommy OF COURSE I and many other fans are gonna jump on it and mash them together like barbies because ITS FUN, DAMMIT! Fandom is about having Fun, and it's so telling to me when folks get their panties in a twist over multishipping bc it's like, why r u being a wet blanket! Why don't u want to play with me!!!!

#and z speaks #reblogs are on but i am Not throwing this into the main tag thats scary #this post is for annie and alex and milk and if anyone else likes it cool but pls be normal #the multishipping thing is also true about homestuck but i am not looking to get my head bit off for daring to talk about hs in a positive #light. sorry yall i see what happened to that poor tiktoker who recced it to spiderverse enjoyers

[arcplaysgames]

Ann wanted to go to Inokashira Park, and my GOD ITS PRETTY HERE! GOSH IT'S SO PRETTY! You just take a train and suddenly you're in like a beautiful park with a lake?

AND THEY GOT SWAN BOATS? gtfo oh my god

anyway, Ann wants to strengthen her heart and her first tactic is to ask Reverie to say mean stuff to her and she'll brace herself and take it.

I'm bad at saying mean shit to Persona characters' faces, that what I have this blog for, so I wuss out and Ann is like "Hm this is maybe not working." Yeah no kidding.

okay god i put it off but mishima keeps texting me about the fucking maidwatch thing

I've never met guys less cool than you two and I knew Yosuke Hanamura in a previous life.

Also wow that. Is a small apartment. New Yorkers would look at that and balk.

Ryuji you are the Worst of the bros. You shouldn't even get to be called a bro, you're so bad at being a bro.

Mishima and Ryuji abandon Reverie, an act of betrayal I will never forget and never forgive. They go hide on the balcony.

oh my god they voice that one specific line, where is the eject button

I'm trying to save Reverie with all I have, but like the protagonist of any decent tragedy, he was doomed from the start.

oh my god i'm gonna lie down on the floor and expire

ma'am, i am so sorry, also your outfit is so cute, but i am SO sorry, i can get you the names and addresses of the boys who set this up if you want to strangle them

anyway. yep. okay. she's just working this part time for some more money and I'm super sympathetic to that. also, someone clearly set her up, as the flyer for her maid service was stuffed in Ryuji's locker.

I missed the screencaps, but one of the other teachers is trying to expose Kawakami's side gig, so I covered for her. I figure I owe her that much. SIGH.

also i dunno what the deal is with this girl but she's p much stalking Reverie????? idk

she's also, like...... in the entrance hall hiding behind a magazine as she peeps on ppl. what is her deal. i don't wanna be mean but you like in Tokyo, get a hobby, girl.

dawww lookit morgana and reverie watching TV

Reverie, your posture is terrible, sit back dammit

Ann asks Reverie for exercise tips and I cackled. YANNO, CATS ARE HEAVY.

ANN IS THE BEST GIRL. Thank you, Ann. I know that the game is probably wanting me to think Ann is weird, but I am so fucking relieved honestly.

In a much worse Confidant link, Mishima is using the Phansite to get a girlfriend, and I want to sink into the floor. I'm dying.

WHY A DOUBLE DATE?! WHY NOT JUST GO YOURSELF? YOU SAID YOU HAD INTEL ON ANOTHER JOB. /screams into hands

oh but don't worry, the girls apparently scoped out Mishima and Reverie from afar and decided "nope" and got back on the train Which, fair.

Mishima, why are you fighting for the Worst Boy spot so ardently, it doesn't have to be this way.

ugh bad screencap but: Reverie doesn't wear his glasses all the time? BAFFLING to me. he must have better vision than me, i would kill myself on the stairs without my glasses

I'm so glad my team can come together in making fun of Mishima. This is a bonding exercise.

Man I'd love to bring Yusuke here. Where is Yusuke? The only thing carrying me through some of the more dismal scenes is I wanna know what Arcana Yusuke is. I have no idea. I feel like Fortune would work for him pretty well,

Morgana, if I didn't get to carry a cat around in a bag in this game, I literally don't know what I would do with myself. Thank you for being here and being the best character. I love you, Morgana. /mwah

#persona liveblog #p5

[maguneedsalife]

T'zekhwalker - Final Zenos Fight

i spent so much time here it needed its own post. i'd be lying if i said this one scene wasn't a main reason i pushed t'zekh through the main story (the other was i wanted him to get to 90/get the rdm artifact gear so he could wear his canon glam but you know)

so, some background for folks who are new here: t'zekh was the main wol for stormblood. he was the one zenos became obsessed with, and he has spent most of endwalker trying to get zenos to leave him alone. he knows zenos desperately wants t'zekh to kill him--to come at him with fire and rage and bloodlust--but t'zekh refuses to kill anyone no matter how much they deserve it.

i had been waiting so long for t'zekh to be able to do this dialog choice and the answer i had envisioned for him actually changed from the time i did this with aoife. originally i'd thought he'd go with option 2, but by the time i got here, 3 was more his style.

which ended up being a good thing, because zenos's response to that answer was fucking perfect for t'zekh

small aside--it drove me bonkers back when spoiler embargo first lifted and ppl (mostly on twitter) were INSISTING that answer 1 was the only possible canon answer and if you picked any of the others you were clearly playing the game wrong. even despite yoshi p confirming that there was no "correct" answer and the team had tried to write it so that players could respond to zenos the way they felt best reflected their own character's experience. people were STILL out there like "sorry but if you didnt pick option 1 you're just wrong"

so to see the text validate my choice and my hcs so perfectly has me feeling vindicated in this chilis. it is okay for people to have a different experience of the game than you!!! (i'll get off my soapbox now)

option 3 was perfect for t'zekh because he is finally fed up enough with zenos that he's finally willing to cast aside his moral opposition to killing in order to make sure zenos can't hurt anyone else in his name.

and zenos caught on to that and responded in kind.

anyway then i took a fucktillion pictures in the instance (most of which i'll put on my wol blog)

it was so hard to get them in the same frame lmao

and then i did the solo fight! not too bad on red mage, surprisingly enough - was very thankful to have vercure though lmao

this punch is still just as satisfying the second time

On my way to the last credits sequence i learned that you will actually fuck up the music timing if you skip or speed up the credits. it was playing revenge twofold when it was supposed to be playing flow together. that was very jarring. i don't know why they haven't set it to just start playing flow together for that sequence. dont skip the credits folks

and that's a wrap! i uhhh might have abandoned him before finishing out the quest so i could go farm memoria misera with aoife but im very happy to have (technically) beaten Endwalker with him before the year ended, which was one of my goals.

I think I started main story with him in January, so it's taken me about a year to get through... mostly what set me back was i had to make time/build emotional strength to make progress through parts I knew would be difficult emotionally. But I committed to not to skipping any cutscenes and just pressing on through a second read, and I'm glad to have embarked on this journey.

as soon as i finished endwalker the first time i knew it was going to be equally aoife and t'zekh's story. they both ended up having stakes in the plot in different ways, and getting to play through and see things from t'zekh's perspective was so much fun.

i still keep thinking abt the version of the ending in my head, wherein t'zekh is lying at the edge of the universe and all he can think is "i want to live, dammit!!"

and he hears a voice calling out to him.

"there you are!" aoife shouts, "I was looking all over for you!"

T'zekh has spent so much of the story kind of in aoife's shadow, grappling with what it means to be a "hero" in his own way. he spent a lot of stormblood resenting her absence.

but by the end of endwalker… i think they end up really close friends

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Next, it'll be Banri's turn.... skipping as many cutscenes as possible so i can get him through before Dawntrail!

#ffxiv log #edw #catboy pics

[haloburns]

🐚🥤🍄

TUMBLR DIDNT NOTIFY ME THAT I HAD AN ASK ALKSLFKJS SORRY FOR THE TWO DAY WAIT

(from this post)

🐚 ⇢ do you like or dislike surprises?

hmmm.... i like genuine surprises, like when an author updates a fic after a while, but i hated planned surprises?? like when people plan to Surprise Me with A Thing, i don't like that very much. mostly bc i hate the social expectation of formulating a response aljsdlkfjsdkjf

now in terms of writing, surprises like "oh here's a new headcanon about ur OC" that just...happen...to me while i'm writing get mixed reactions aksldjfdsk sometimes im SUPER EXCITED bc it makes xyz easier, sometimes i get irrationally angry bc DAMMIT NOW I HAVE TO CHANGE XYZ TO FIT. most of the time, tho, writing is just. surprise after surprise lmao

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love

@dreamwraith is one of my FAVORITEST EVER authors, anything he writes, i will read.

@emeraldsandamethyst is another friend of mine whose works are INCREDIBLE, both funny and angsty, and GODS her smut is like. some of the best out there.

OH and anything @not-close-to-straight writes??? instantly opened and read. the fic i currently highly recommend from her is Territorial, bc HOLY SHIT vampires, but literally anything she's written i will tell people about.

i am reading a Linked Universe-related fic that i would recommend but a) i'm not dragging myself in public for that alskdjfkdjf and b) it has A Lot of Stuff that i would want to warn about before ppl jump into it. it is fucking GODS-TIER level good, and i'm in a discord with the author and some other fans and it's just...so much fun, i love that series and the discord sm. if u wanna know what it is, just dm me!

BUT WAIT ACTUALLY there is another linked universe-related series I LOVE that i will recommend: Linked Universe Townhouse AU by St0rmy it is SO FUCKING GOOD, i could talk about it all day. anything st0rmy writes, i recommend. she's a wonderful author and writes SUCH GOOD, COMPLEX CHARACTERS AND HER FIGHT SCENES???? THAT ONE FIGHT SCENE IN THE BRAVE????? OH MY GODS.

im really bad at recs, bc all knowledge of my fav fics and authors leaves my head immediately after being asked, but these are the ones on my brain currently!!

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

ohhhhhh okay, so this is a headcanon for mateo, my dp oc that i ship with danny. i wrote it out SOME in "stay for dinner?" but its full implications haven't been revealed yet, so here ya go!

mateo is a WONDERFUL liar. like. scary good at it. and its not bc he enjoys it, or whatever, but it was a coping mechanism he developed while dating this guy, santiago 'tiago'. kid was tryna be big and get in good with the gangs and dragged mateo along with him. mateo, young and naive, went along with it bc he liked tiago and he was slowly figuring out that he was attracted to danger so he didn't realize how bad it was until it was too late. after they broke up, the lying didn't necessarily go away, he just stopped doing it so often. but lying IS a skill that's needed, and he uses it when he needs to with danny (especially after his core begins to develop)

HOWEVER. he can't lie about like. petty shit?? or like when danny catches him doing something silly and calls him out (teasing) on it, he is suddenly THEE WORST LIAR ON THE PLANET (which just in turn reinforces the idea that he's a terrible liar overall to danny, which protects mateo's secrets further). danny's also oblivious, so he doesn't often catch him in a true lie. THAT is reserved for vanessa, emrys, manaia, luke, and eventually, dan. basically, everyone but danny (and nikau, poor bab) can see it alsflksjdfl

#danny phantom #ecto writes #dp ocs #mateo aguilar oc #ghost light

[unlikely-bloom]

Honestly the constant discourse about Kyman, as someone who ships it, is kinda making me want to distance myself from what used to be my OTP. People speaking ill of Kyman shippers is working on me and starting to make me worry that I'm doing something wrong by shipping it. I shouldn't care about what ppl on the internet think and I usually don't but constantly being told that I'm "supporting" something thats "abusive" or problematic is getting to me. Like dammit, I didn't even know about the discourse when I got into Kyman; I got into it by watching the show itself and it was my first SP ship but honestly if I knew that people gave a shit about it in the SP fandom I probably wouldn't have bothered. It'll always have a place in my heart but I'm getting tired of this shit 😔 Im extra emotional rn so Im not being rational here and you dont have to publish this. I know fandom shouldn't have that affect on me I'll get over it after Style vs. Kyman fight 2192943290 blows over. Idk if you're comfortable with vents sorry if I crossed a boundary here.

Oh, anon. It never used to be like this.

Fandom discourse these days is insane. Unhinged, even. The idea that anyone is more morally correct than someone else for what they ship and enjoy in fiction is absolutely ludicrous. Especially within the context of shipping fucking South Park characters.

The hard truth is that every fandom is like this now. You don't have shipping wars just arguing over what makes more sense 'in canon', but moving on to an ever-changing line of what is and isn't 'morally acceptable.' As if that's ever something the majority of people would ever agree on. (Hint: it's not!)

But there is a certain irony to see people arguing this for South Park of all things, as if we aren't all equally degenerate for enjoying such a 'problematic' show in the first place. Like... seriously. Be so serious, people. It's South Park. Everything is exaggerated for comedic effect-- including character's personalities, their actions and their relationships to one another. It's never going to be a character driven show no matter how much this fandom sometimes wishes it was. We're going to have characters who don't give a fuck about each other, literally wishing death or plotting to kill each other in one episode and then they're just going to be chilling playing video games in the next episode like nothing happened. It's episodic. That's part of the appeal. It's why it's such a sandbox.

Even if you didn't ship Kyman, their dynamic is impossible to ignore, try as some might. They say they hate each other, yet they keep hanging out. Both parties are there of their own volition. They both enjoy each other's company, and no amount of write-up's anyone can post on tumblr dot com is going to change that canon fact. They're friends.

Also-- they are just plain fun to watch, fucking hilarious and a huge appeal of the show! If someone else who watches the show doesn't like them, that's their problem. Them not liking an aspect of the show isn't going to make that part of the show any less valid and/or canon. And guess what? You're supposed to like their dynamic. It's supposed to be entertaining and captivating. How you interpret it is up to you, but there is 100% nothing wrong with watching an episode of South Park and enjoying Eric and Kyle's dynamic-- that is what you're supposed to do. So don't feel bad about it. The show is made for people to enjoy, after all. Also, it's important to keep in mind that just because you can find a dynamic appealing doesn't mean you endorse everything about it. That's such a wild and new-age fandom take. Fiction is an escape-- a safe space to explore unrealistic relationships and unrealistic characters. You're allowed to like fucked up things in fiction. You're allowed to like stuff in fiction you'd find repulsive or abhorrent in real life.

I think I can speak for a good chunk of the fandom when I say, I'd fucking hate Eric Cartman in real life. Hell, I'd probably hate Kyle, too. I have a lot of favourite characters from different fandoms I'd probably hate in real life. They're fun because they're fictional and it's different from real life. If I wanted to read about stuff that happens in real life, I wouldn't be here.

In the end, anon, fandom is supposed to be fun. To me it's just fun to take these silly little egg construction paper kids, draw 'em as anime characters, and give 'em some angst. It's fun! There's so much to do with them! They're soooo dynamic!

But if you're not having fun-- if you're stressing-- there's nothing wrong with taking a step back for your own mental well-being. I'm not about to tell you your feelings are invalid, because I know how any internet discourse, no matter how trivial or silly it may seem, can still stress you out. If you're constantly being told you're morally corrupt or problematic, it can take a toll on you-- even if you know you're not. The truth is you're never going to agree with everyone on the internet, and people will weaponize something as trivial as a South Park ship to make them feel better about their ship while also making you feel worse about your ship.

Anyways, when it comes to stepping back, I think there's a few ways you could go about this;

You could disengage with the social part of the fandom-- focus on the show itself, maybe just hunker down with some fanfics.

If you'd like to remain active on social medias, I think it wouldn't hurt to start blocking liberally. Anyone who has anything along the lines of 'Kymans DNI' in their profile, just block right away. You don't want to see their opinion, anyways. You're never going to convince them otherwise.

If you have a few close friends, I recommend sticking close in a small private discord server where you can discuss your headcanons and gossip in private. It's much more liberating than trying to get involved in any of the insane discourse that plagues both here and Twitter.

Anyways, anon, do what's right for you. Kyman shippers will always be here to welcome you back! They can say what they want-- we have too much canon fodder for us to ever go away!!

#hope I can help you out a bit anon I know it can be overwhelming #wrentxt #sp

[jaxyscreams]

Hoping the financial support stuffs goes thru & is accepted real quick bc from 1st of October I can get a flu shot but dammit it’s 400kr,,

Tho maybe I can get it at my GP and considering I have a free card I think it won’t cost me anything??

Idk I think I’ll have to call them & ask

1. If they can do flu shots considering that they’re still settling into the place since they moved there the 21st of august

2. If it’ll cost me anything considering free card

Maybe also get some other vaccines too like there’s probs some I need to update & I’m so much better w needles after phobia therapy

Also hoping I can get appointment for phobia therapy for blood bc I need that for whenever I get top surgery & just in general it would be neat to not get unreasonably dizzy & such from wounds and blood ya kno

Also goddammit I hope I can get new ADHD meds soon bc unmedicated is a struggle espesh rn w studying & living by myself

And I need to get physical therapy appointments n such bc I had terrible scoliosis pains today and had to leave early since I couldn’t concentrate and I had to take tramadol to help w it >://

Also apparently some of the ppl there can refer patients to X-rays & MRIs and whatnot which!! Ohohoho I’d love that like maybe what’s wrong w my joints is visible on something like that? Or maybe since they know stuff like this they’ll be able to deduce what I need

Anyways

Also hope financial support stuff happens quick bc my farmor wants a visit & I can’t afford the bus/train rn ://

My step-grandma also wants a visit but she doesn’t know I’m trans & with all the stress currently idk how I’ll deal w being dead-named & such by someone I care about

Will have to talk to dad about that since he sent the message about them wanting visits

Also my cousin who’s also trans about our step-grandma

Hhh many thoughts

I’m gonna try to do my programming practice tmrw & maybe make some fun Rube Goldberg machine(s) bc that was so much fun in class

#jaxy babbles #long post #I’m on mobile and can’t be bothered to add a read more & it’s 3 am so ye #stream of consciousness type late night post lmao