#but he's young and naive

[booasaur]

See (2019) - 2x06 || 3x04 - Baba and his children

#seeedit #see apple tv #baba voss #haniwa #kofun #jason momoa #nesta cooper #archie madekwe #see spoilers #see 2x06 #see 3x04 #I actually really like them all :x #even kofun has MOSTLY pulled back from the danny stevensness #I mean it makes no sense that you'd want to save your kid's mother if she's the worst human and will only treat the kid accordingly #but he's young and naive #honestly I'm worried they'll kill baba or maghra :x #it's so tough watching dark fantasy #they love killing people so much

[maegalkarven]

We know what it wasn't a big secret to the cult of Bhaal what their Chosen (Durge) is a lil (a lot) obsessed with the Chosen of Bane.

Orin def told everyone who would listen about it, as Balthazar's note on "Prayer for Forgiveness" might imply.

But have we thought about the other side of this?

How many of Bane's servants present at Gortash's coronation saw Durge and went "Ugh, not them again. ANYONE but them. Dark Lord Bane, we serve you well and do not deserve this".

How many of banites had to watch their Chosen act like a lovesick fool at his own coronation and tried very hard not to cringe?

Like bhaalists were not pleased with their Chosen's affections, but I bet Gortash was INSUFFERABLE with Durge by his side.

#dark urge #dark urge x gortash #enver gortash #bg3 spoilers #random banist: didn't they die. i heard they died #other banist: ugh i hoped they did. unfortunately they're back. now our lord gortash is going to be insufferable #a new banist: what...is he doing? why is he looking at this stranger like that? #an experienced banist: my dear naive child. you're about to expirience the horrors what are being around when lord gortash loses his mind #over some murder hobo at that #young banist: I've never seen him make such an expression before #older banist: and i hoped i never would have again. who's guarding lord's personal chambers tonight? #older banist: because it definetely won't be me #nwm baneit sounds much better than banist but I'm not retyping all these tags

[beastofwant]

ohhh so this saga just will not end, okay!!!

last month I started an emergency fundraiser because the situation with my neighbor, who has been showing stalker-like behavior, escalated to the point where I no longer felt safe staying in my apartment. here's that original post

I'd remade my tiktok a few weeks ago after several years of inactivity to use for venting & vlogging. it had like no followers + just two videos uploaded. I got this text immediately after I saw him at the top of the stairs to the ground floor as I was coming back in from checking the mail. I had the "find by contacts" shit all turned off so idk HOW he found my tiny nothing tiktok (it's privated now) but he decided to send me this message about it. some of the things he mentioned in the text (like listening at my door???? I said listening to hear my door open/close but not listening at it) aren't even things I talked about which is also raising some alarm bells.

I haven't responded to his texts in months but he continues to send them and now it's shit like this. I am truly beyond words. it's incredible how the second he is confronted with how weird his behavior is I am "evil". I didn't film him, I didn't post any identifying information other than "my creepy upstairs neighbor" and now he is mad that the shoe fits when he's the one that tried it on.

My lease is up at the end of the month regardless, and I'm hunting for apartments actively. I need to get out of here, and I'm doing everything in my power to do that, but I need help with application fees, transportation and moving costs, and a deposit. I'm seeing a place on the 11th (tomorrow, as of when I write this) that seems promising and really hope it ends up being the one. I'm sorry I've had to post about this so much, but mutual aid has legitimately been the only way I have ever been able to pull myself out of a hole like this. even just a few dollars does help.

v3nm0 is alumirust c4sh4pp is $doppelgougar p@yp44l is [email protected] buy some of my art GFM fundraiser link

#could it be that I- a chaser harassing this random trans person- am in the wrong? #No. It's clearly the random trans person I have arbitrarily decided is everything I need in life despite being young enough to be my child #who is at fault here! #fucking. hell. #he knows I have ptsd from domestic violence btw I talked about it to him once before he was overtly creepy and i thought i could trust him #he literally started being worse AFTER that and i was like oh. oh that was a mistake and im naive. #idk its a nightmare i really want to be over with soon

[transsexualcoriolanus]

"kill claudio" this, "kill claudio" that. kill leonato. he believed a guy who he'd known for like a week over his literal daughter, joined him in publicly accusing and humiliating her, told her he wished she had never been born, then had the fucking audacity to tell claudio how awful he was for 'killing' hero, when he not only let him do it but encouraged and joined in with him

#like yeah okay definitely kill claudio #but leonato is worse #claudio at least thought he had real evidence #leonato just believed claudio and don pedro immediately #and you can go with the interpretation that claudio is very young and naive #and feels a need to impress his new older friends #and thinks he's doing the right thing because that's what a Man would do #which makes him a little sympathetic at least #but there is no way to make leonato sympathetic #whatever interpretation you have he's an asshole #much ado about nothing #much ado #shakespeare #willy shakes

[fighting-naturalist]

Daniel with Shyla pre- vs. post-sarcophagus addiction

#what shyla does to him is truly and thoroughly deeply fucked up if you think about it. anyway more meta in the tags below lol #stargate #sg-1 #daniel jackson #shyla #michael shanks #s2 #ep5 #2.5 #***edits #love love love how they showed his descent in this ep #the transition from gentle and patient and considerate danny into a smarmy swaggering piece of shit #also as deeply fucked up as what shyla does is you almost get it??? #like she's so lonely and isolated at the beginning of the episode she tries to commit suicide #and there's daniel saving her! she's never had anyone except her mother who died and her abusive father so of course she gets attached #and she is prepared to do ANYTHING to keep him because she's isolated and naive and yeah it's really fucked up and she becomes the abuser #and in order to try to keep him she changes him so drastically from the man she actually liked. because she's young and isolated and stupid #and when after all she put him through he STILL comes back to help her and it's THAT that spurs her to change her entire civilization #to break the cycle her father started #all because daniel first saved her and then forgave her #my VERY GOOD BOY!!!!!

[dirtytransmasc]

[mild tw for marital rape/forced 'consent' its only referenced a little, but it feels necessary to mention it]

imagine Alicent only standing up for herself when Aegon is in the picture. Imagine her talking her son to her chambers cause he's fussy and won't go down for bed and was asking for his mum, and she has him tucked close, blissfully asleep, and Viserys calls for her.

she knows she can't refuse, but she tells the servant he had sent to make him aware of Aegon's state. he still demands that she be brought to his chambers and that the babe go back to his nursemaid. she looks down at her baby, who's now woken due to the disturbance, who is staring up at her with soft tired eyes, a little yawn escaping him.

she doesn't want to go, she doesn't want to be forced to take her husband, to pleasure him at her own discomfort. she doesn't want to leave her son, to have him sent back to bed where he will remain restless and in the care of someone who is not his mother. she had never want to refuse more than she did in that moment.

she hesitates, her facade falters. Aegon is still looking up at her as tears well up in her eyes. he quirks his head at her, fingers reaching for her cheeks as if to comfort her. with a sudden conviction, she takes him in her arms, rising from the bed, requesting a robe and a blanket. when her servant looks at her in question, she clarifies that she will be taking Aegon with her and does not wish to rouse him in attempts to dress him. they look at her with shock, but don't voice the concern written on their faces.

they bring her Viserys's favorite robe. Alicent recognizes it from her time with Rhaenyra and Aemma. she's worn it before, Viserys has made sure the servants bring it to her every time he requests her. she hates the way it feels against her skin, knowing why he makes her wear it. she wraps aegon in his blanket, soft and royal blue, his hands beginning to play with its golden tassles as she tucks him inside her robe, pressed to her chest with care.

even as fear bites at her heels, anxiety churning her stomach, she walks to Viserys's chamber with her held high. she knows she is only asking for her husband's wrath; she knows she should just obey him, but she just can't. her son will not suffer a sleepless night and horrid following day all because her husband feels the need to use her body once more. he will not suffer at his father's hands tonight, even if she has to endure Viserys's anger for it.

she enters her husband's chambers, finding him in bed, in a white night gown, clearly ready to use her; he was never subtle when he asked for her, not even the first time.

she pauses in the doorway, pulling back the robe slightly, making him aware of Aegon's presence. she watches his face fall, barely muted anger. she holds onto Aegon tighter. part of her fears he may hurt her for this disturbance, but more of her fears he will hurt Aegon on her behalf.

"I told the damned servants to take him," his voice is warped and cruel, just an angry scowl of sorts.

"Aegon is not well, dear husband... I could not leave him," she admits before he can say anything else. she puts her foot forward as a mother, hoping to claim mercy from the man who made her one.

he mutters something in response, not quite loud enough for her to hear. she has a feeling she is grateful for that.

"what was it you needed, my dear?" she tries to sound sweet and kind, in attempts to abate his anger, "I'm sure I could still attend to it."

"you know what I wanted," he yelled. it had been the first time he'd truly raised his voice to her. she couldn't help but gasp, stepping back one step, than two, stopping when Aegon began to fuss, curling around him instead.

"Please Viserys, the baby." she ducks her head down to press her against his whispy white hair. her son his huffing, as if about to cry, and she's sure if she could see his face, his little cheeks would be red and his eyes would be crinkled and wet, his lip puckered. she begins to rock him slightly, still afraid to move.

"your'e dismissed," he grunts, but his tone gives it away. she knows he doesn't mean it, the if she leaves she will be in more trouble. she questions staying, calling a servant to take Aegon and giving him what he wants, but decides against it. he would not come before her son, not now, not ever.

"I'm sorry, my dear, another night, when I do not have Aegon to tend to," she forces some cheer into her tone, "he is still so young, so helpless. he needs his mother. I'm sure you understand?"

"he is not the only one in need of you." he had not lost his anger yet. not even for the sake of his son.

"yes, of course. forgive me. only he is not as understanding as you, my love." that wasn't the truth, Aegon was more kind and understanding at a year old, than viserys was in all of his years. "I will leave now. I am sorry for the disturbance."

she pauses for a moment, waiting for her husbands reaction. when he doesn't lash out at her, she breathes a quiet sigh of relief, feeling as though she has evaded a great beast. her heart calms in her chest, slowing from its fluttering and her stomachs stops its dizzing ache. she questions turning and running, fleeing from his presence before he can change his mind, but knows better.

she hurries to his side, eyeing him all the while, each step calculated, avoiding cracking any eggshells, until she is close enough to kiss his cheek. he allows it, and gives Aegon grace when he reaches out for him, letting him play with his finger a moment, before pulling it away, not even turning away fully before sneering. she takes that as her cue to leave, this one being much more genuine than the last.

"goodnight dear husband." he says nothing. she takes Aegon's little hand, waving it slightly, "say goodnight Aegon."

her son tries to imitate her, though unintelligible, as a toddler would. she continues to smile and coo at him even when his father ignores him, not letting him feel his father's scorn, quickly turning towards the door and back to her own chambers.

the second the door is close she feels herself sag, she would have fallen to the floor right then and there had there not been kingsgaurd watching. instead she holds her head high once more, walking calm and steady, like a queen should.

Aegon settles his forehead against her collar, giving a great yawn against her skin. she smiles at him fondly, kissing his brow, earning a tired little giggle from him. it hits her that he is unaware of the trouble he just saved her from. she feels equal parts relief as she does terror; she hopes he never knows, never understands, but is so so thankful for it none the less.

the second she steps into her chambers she pulls of the robe, setting it aside carefully despite the pain it brings her, respecting the memories it carried. she pulls back the covers before smothering her and her son amongst them. he's quick to curl against her, quite tuckered out after their harrowing adventure, even if he was unaware of its true weight. she herself still wanted to cry, but was similarly too tired to keep her eyes open for another moment. tomorrow, she tells herself, tomorrow will be difficult, but tonight you have your son, tonight you have a chance to rest.

so she does, she holds him close, tracing fingers over the gold threaded patterned of his blanket, feeling the shifting of his chest as he breathes and the tickle of his hair against her neck. all is well in that moment. she drifts to sleep at the thought.

#omage to Aemma's robe that we see alicent wearing in episode 3 (I believe. it was when she was helping bathe viserys) #cause I know he made her wear it cause he's a monster #this is set prior to Helaena's conception. aegon is tiny. and alicent is still naive to the true extents of viserys's abuse. #especially to the fact that despite all of the love she holds for her children and how badly she wishes to always pick them first #his abuse and the stockholm syndrom that follow it will turn her against her children. aegon in particular. #maybe not against. but acrid and foul. her pain overtaking her love. she still tries so hard to protect them though. if you get what I mean #its otto's fault too and they should both die #anyway #I'm just in my feels with these two #we didn't get enough scenes of them together especially when they were both young and I wanted to give alicent a moment were she fought bac #she refused to give him what he wanted. she chose her child over him. she stood up for herself and what she wanted. #she earned that moment #I know she was choking through those “my dears” and “my loves” but she had to for formalities sake #angst in the front fluff in the back #even if the fluff is laced with angst #letting alicent be soft and love her son #I needed it #aegon targaryen #aegon ii targaryen #alicent hightower #anti viserys i targaryen #pro team green #hotd #house of the dragon #I love them your honor

[theosconfessions]

if youd like to read the stephens from the beginning you can over here:)

if youd like to read the stephens continued you can over here:)

@ohsosims

jami-marlee

marlee- jami

jami- im guessing youre here because of chloe? i called you. said she didnt want to go home so im not going to make her

marlee- shes seven. she doesnt get to make those decisions by herself and neither do you

jami- im her dad. i get some say in this. especially becasue shes basically living here,mars. its not good to MAKE her do everything

marlee- i just think its kinda funny that im standing in front of a kline lecturing me about parenting

jami- and i think its kinda funny im standing here listening to you critique my parenting choices you know being that you were married to my dad once. cant deny youre NOT GREAT at parenting choices yourself or you know. just choices.

marlee-i cant believe you just said that to me

jami- i dont mean to be an ass but if youre on my doorstep lecturing me about being a shitty parent i think its fair game

marlee- i wasnt the only one participating jami. obviously

jami- obviously yeah. BUT you low blow me im going to low blow you. we going to talk about chloe or just keep taking shots at eachother

marlee- [sighs] why doesnt she want to be home with me?

jami- i dont know . weve always been tight. im assuming when i moved out and i only seen her on weekends it kinda just..set it off. that or the parade of dudes you keep bringing home to meet them

marlee- thought we said we werent going to low blow eachother. its not a parade of dues. its one dude

jami- right . my bad. and im sorry about what i said earlier i just get.

marlee- assholey . so do i

jami- i guess thats why we stayed together for so long

marlee- guess so. and some other things

jami- innocent ears marls. listen i think the separation has been rough on her. she misses me being around all of the time. the other kids maybe not but it definitely is messing with chlo. the last thing i want is a scarlett situation

marlee- scarlett is different. she left because i was so up your ass and that was..irresponsible of me

jami- well i mean its kind of the same thing. its a small give here ,marls. lets just. see how she does

marlee-i miss her

jami- i know look. just a small give here. see if her attitude improves. her outlook improves. and we go from there

marlee- okay but ..just a trial period. to see if this makes the separation easier

jami- shes gonna be so happy marls! AHHHH

#chloes not the only one this makes happy though lol #but jami and marlee taking shots like whos the worst #like both of you are #lol like come on #marlees a little more responsible here back when it started obvi bc jami was young and naive but man #he still is #jami kline #marlee kline #the stephens continued #the sims 4 #ts4 #the sims #ts4 gameplay #simblr #sims 4 #ts4 simblr #the sims community #the sims 4 community #ts4 stories #ts4 story

[zeb-z]

mfw I sacrifice my vision for knowledge of power. surely this isn’t a metaphor for anything

#watercolors I’ve somehow figured them out. I don’t know how I did the hair #but man I’ve been thinking about Shilo and what he gave up to the midnight circle after his convo with Arthur #they’re both so good because they both ultimately want peace. but peace means different things to them. and Shilo is so hopeful and young #and naive. so yeah after a whole talk about how he plans to take down Edward and have him and Emizel running things in place of the queen #he proceeds to give up his eye to know how to become a leader like his mother? sacrificing vision for power? hmmm #ever since fma:b and roy mustang I think about eye symbolism constantly. something something blind ambition #Shilo is not immune to this #jrwi #jrwi spoilers #jrwi the suckening #the suckening #the suckening episode 10 #shilo bathory #jrwi shilo #jrwi fanart #my art

[fauvester]

yadeks girl ❤️

#dee s 9 #garashir adoption au #hes pickin her up from her shuttle home from school abroad on the new cardassian metro... #ISKRA IS SUCH A DADDYS GIRL. LITTLE PRINCESS!!! #cmon how could you not want to give her anything she asks for? shes the PRINCESS #she loves reading and arguing and memorization and recitation and following just enough of the rules to skirt getting into trouble.. #but still naive and young enough to be gently led in the direction garak wants #shes garaks silly rabbit!! #she doesnt get on nearly as well with julian. who gets a little more proscriptive as he gets older and has Thoughts about her life #she will argue back. the rest of the kids will say “ok dadek” and quietly do their own thing

[kaissauce]

with every “kirby kills gods at any minor inconvenience” “kirby is a ruthless killer” “kirby is literally a god” “kirby is a complete unaware infant” joke, i write a word to my fic. that’s how i’ve been able to write so much

#so little people give kirby character it’s so waaaaugh #sure there’s not THAT much to go off of from the media we have of him alone but there’s plenty tk expand upon #he’s kind and cares a lot about his friends and would do anything to keep them safe #but he’s also impulsive and acts on instinct rather than stopping to talk #and he’s like that because he has a strong moral code. he doesn’t appreciate it when someone forcefully takes something #or when his home is in danger #and he helps strangers in need of help but it doesn’t make him naive because he will fight back if he’s been wronged #he’s smart and knowledgeable about tech. able to make a spaceship and hack robots do all these puzzles #even in the novels kirby has character. sure he mostly thinks about food but his friends are still prioritized above that #hell even in the anime there’s some stuff to kirby despite the fact he IS a baby #people just don’t really treat him like a character #he can feel other emotions other than happiness. he doesn’t always perpetually smile #can you see why kirby’s written the way he is in my fics? #of course he’s still a young silly goofball #but my writing is meant to reflect what else there is to kirby because there’s hardly stuff about it

[rednevalbones]

Sooo we know Lusky is suspiciously keen on always hiring the Beagle Boys of all people! Even though he knows they aren't necessarily good at what they do... almost as if there is (or was) some kind of friendship going on? 🤔🤔

It would be amazing to see an origin story for everyone's favorite shady secretary 🥺 Maybe one day :') I don't wanna be stuck with my own godawful ideas forevermore

(I hope Lusky looks like himself here 😭 I thought he wouldn't have his signature hairstyle yet and a suit also wouldn't make sense but ajhdjsnsk)

bonus: Johnny UwU

#i like to think Lusky disguised himself as an employee of a young naive Johnny to steal from him or something #and then after some shenanigans involving the beagles he actually got hired lol #lusky/jeeves #beagle boys #blackheart beagle #john d. rockerduck #disney dogs #duckverse #fanart #digital art #stupid fucking bitchass tumblr app posted this before i changed the drawing

[deadbeatdadjokes]

HI In love with the little ways Susie looks after him like…you KNOW she’s asked the same exact question before and got a very different response. She senses Lancer knows what it’s like too bc even though he doesn’t really talk about it, he wouldn’t have asked that question if he didn’t have a reasonable expectation for her to drop him if he was.

He’s literally so scared to lose her friendship and in within the minute she reassures him that, “dude, it’s all good, you have nothing to be sorry for” when he’s been made to feel sorry for literally existing by everyone for so long I-

#Susie too probably #i love their friendship she is his older sister #that puts jolly ranchers on his bullies’ cars and eggs their houses to defend his honor #i know they don’t talk about a whole lot #but they’re both really good at picking up “the vibe” #bc it’s a survival tactic so they both recognize the other’s mannerisms and behaviors #and while lancer looks at Susie as a role model that he can envision himself growing into bc she acts just like him but ‘cooler’ #ie ‘less weak’ as if he’s supposed to be faulted for being a young child #Susie looks at Lancer as a naive version of her past self and tries to mitigate his suffering the best she can #but it was destined to go awry bc she never really grew past her own suffering until Lancer causes her to see and care about #the damage she does voluntarily or involuntarily to those around her #ANYWAYS SHE PROTECC SHE ATTACK SHE GOT LANCERS BACK #i love them sm 😭😭 #deltarune #lancer #susie deltarune #ch1 is REALLY good guys #oh my boy indeed

[hkpika07]

The First Four

#ttte #thomas the tank engine #thomas and friends #ttte humanized #ttte gordon #ttte edward #ttte henry #ttte glynn #it takes a railway au #yes I redesigned them #I was not satisfied with the first design so I changed it #every time I draw gordon he gets fancier #Gordon has his nerd hat on #cause he’s a naive gullible nerd #also! some things. gave them their OG livery colors as eye colors for their early days #Henry has blue in his design more cause of the RWS books where he was painted blue for a while #did— did you know that a fat tie is called a kipper. that’s why I gave Henry a fat bow tie #I love the young railway trio and the time before lady disappeared #Umi and I came up with fun lore literally last night about it #painted red

[bericas]

no, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way you laugh.

before paige krasikeva, there is marin deaton, always on the cusp of laughing in derek's face or kissing him. when the times comes to choose one, she does neither; she turns away. none of the insults she'd teased him with had ever stung as badly as her soft smile and apologetic eyes. after paige, derek can almost deal with them both, as long as they're coming from marin again. can almost be comforted by them, until she walks away again. after kate argent, he and laura leave town long before he could've found out what marin would've done next.

a few months after derek comes back to beacon hills, marin shows up. morrell, now, but not through marriage. or, at least, not a marriage that lasted. she avoids the question in a way that's familiar and foreign all at once. when she intercepts him at the bank, months later, comfortable in the alphas' den, derek realizes just how much has changed. but not everything is different: derek leaves town again, and when he comes back, she finds him again. tells him about poison for the nogitsune in the body of the teen boy she'd been a guidance counselor to. though she clearly doesn't take joy in it, he doesn't think she's sorry for much anymore... but her eyes still look it. and her smile is still soft.

#twedit #derek x marin #marin x derek #twrarepair #derek x morrell #starring lexi underwood as young marin! #and then for my tags #marin morrell #derek hale #tw #ANYWAY. LETS HEAR IT FOR THE SPARES TO ALAN AND LAURAS HEIRS #and while derek doesnt know what alan is to the hales i like to think that marin does. assuming its a family heritage thing #so ultimately when derek makes a move marin backs down bc she might have been young then but she's never been naive #he would have to lie about his family and she would have to lie about hers and they'd never know the full truth of who the other is #and thats the best case scenario. btw. every outcome where they talk about it is worse. and then yk. paige horrors. #and so marinstarts circling around again and she doesnt mean to talk to him again but ofc he talks ot her again. confronts her. #and she says smth vague and cryptic and walks away again and then. you know. kate. the hale fire #and then years and years of change. marin morrell is different than marin deaton except for when shes nto #still alans baby sister. needing help with the pack she'd taken on #still biting off more than she can chew and still preferring to choke on it than spit it out #so. you know. of course derek stops in the guidance counselors office during his Menacing High Schoolers time when he hears who it is #and of course marin warns him at the bank. and of course this is received just as well as any other help she'd ever half-offered. #telling him how to play his hand while keeping her own hidden. so ofc she shows up at the loft when he's leaving and ofc he still leaves #but this time marin stays in time and this time she's still there when he gets back and when the nogitsune comes they both want it to lose #and they both keep the balance in their own ways. derek turning teenagers and marin turning a blind eye to human sacrifices #both in the name of harm reduction. but only marin acknowledges and accepts her role and what comes from it #so marins the only one willing to face what it might mean for the nogitsune to lose. gives stiles a chance but lets him know what she'll do #and when allison sends chris and derek to eichen in 321 she tells derek abt the lethal injection too<3 its happens off screen dw abt it<3 #and later derek will think abt what she told him until it turns into thinking abt her telling him anything until it turns into just abt her #ANYWAY. canon to ME. btw.

[magnus-rhymes-with-swagness]

Thinking thoughts about Ambrosius’s decision to try to kill Nimona… while this choice is certainly not a good one, it does make a sad sort of sense. He doesn’t know Nimona, not really. He’s faced off with her, sure, but his main impression of her is of a terrifying monster intent on killing. He doesn’t know her as a person, has never even properly met her. (Nobody truly knows her, but Ballister knows her best, at least, and seems to be one of the only people in the kingdom who understands that she’s more than a mindless weapon.) From Ambrosius’s perspective, though, there seems to be every reason to kill her.

This choice is doubly reinforced by his sense of loyalty and the desire to prove himself. Loyalty is an important theme in the story, and Ambrosius’s loyalties lie chiefly with Ballister, the person he seems to care about most, and the director, the closest he ever had to a parental figure. He also has an intense desire to prove himself to both of them - to prove that he really does care about Ballister and wants to protect him, and to prove that he’s capable of being a good knight and defending his kingdom.

Ambrosius is… rather insecure. He has very low self-esteem, and has always seen himself as lesser compared to Ballister, not as worthy as him or as good at jousting, even going so far as to bitterly tell Ballister he was always “better, without hardly even seeming to try.” And it’s possible that Ambrosius feels indebted to the director - who knows what might have happened to him if he hadn’t been taken in by the institution, and he owes his status as king’s champion to her. (Not that that’s a good thing, of course, but even so - she did still skyrocket him to victory and fame.)

At this point in time Ambrosius is still the director’s puppet. From an outside perspective it’s obvious that her intentions are nefarious, but when you’ve been manipulated by someone for most of your life, maybe even as long as you can remember, you… don’t necessarily know that. Ambrosius is still deeply under her influence, to the point that he still desperately craves her validation and approval even when she deliberately hurts him. She’s explicitly ordered him to kill Nimona, so that’s what he has to do so he doesn’t fail in her eyes.

There’s a sad irony in the parallels between Ambrosius and Nimona and the cycle they unintentionally perpetuate - two people raised as weapons in cruel institutions, used against their will to hurt people they cared about, now trying to kill one another. He might not know her backstory, but he can certainly see how she’s being used as a weapon now. And in the moment when he lifts his sword and attempts the killing blow, he too is a weapon. Does he see himself in her, perhaps? Does he subconsciously recognize that they’re the same in that regard? Is his firm belief that she’s dangerous born from the way he sees himself?

When he tries to kill her, is he trying to kill part of himself?

#nimona #nimona comic #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister blackheart #nd stevenson #back with more ambrosius thoughts! #still avoiding tumblr until i have the chance to watch the movie but i wrote this today and nimona is trending so no time like the present #sponsored by the song 'one by one’ by against me! as i've decided it fits the characters #god the way he tries to kill her without even knowing he’s ALSO being used as a weapon…. #they’re so similar and don’t even know it :( #i wonder a lot about the director too #was she brainwashed by the institution in the same way ambrosius was? was she also a naive young knight who was manipulated? #i’ve always wished we had more information about her and her backstory #bc one of the main focuses of the story is how heroes and villains aren't what you think they are #my words #meta

[chezpillow]

A Shugo Chara au apparently with Shen Yuan as Shen Jiu’s guardian character. When Shen Jiu character changes, he gets a fan (and a wife beam).

#svsss #my art #shen jiu #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #sj surface level wish is to appear to be a young master and to hide his past #but his actual wish is to be kind #he perceives kindness as something only the rich can afford #or the naive