#but anyone can send one too

[dynamopsychism]

I only like men and for some reason I’m having a hard time with it.

I think I’m gay, not bisexual. And I have no issue embracing the word “gay.” But I’m having a hell of a time breaking down my internalized homophobia.

I question myself about what a gay man is “supposed” to look like. What life are gay men “supposed” to live? And when I answer them honestly to myself I see my deep rooted homophobia surface. I feel less normal, almost less of a person. Like a bad person, dirty even. And I know these feelings are wrong but they attack me.

not sfw: After having sexual encounters with both cis and trans men and a trans feminine person, I’ve realized that my attraction doesn’t include someone’s genitalia like I once thought. Even though the transfem person had a penis and the sex was similar to that of when I’m with cis men, I couldn’t get my mind off of how she wasn’t a man, that she was partially a woman. I like boobs and am attracted any genitalia, regardless of agab. But I’ve discovered recently that the attraction is only there when the person is somewhere on the spectrum from trans masculine non-binary to binary man. It has nothing to do with their bodies, it’s only based on gender.

sfw again: All this to say that I need help. I need someone to talk to. I don’t know where to go with this sort of thing. I feel wrong. I thought I was bi for so long, an entire decade. I know sexuality is fluid but it still hurts.

I apologize for the long post and how personal and venty this is. I’m just so lost.

#mutuals if you’re up to it any ask or message would be so helpful right now #but anyone can send one too #internalized homophobia #gay #homosexual #trans and gay #trans mlm #trans gay man #lgbt #lgbt help #lgbt advice #gay advice #not sfw #my post

[artemisiatridentata]

hey, you! yes, you! are you looking for a way to tangibly and immediately help Palestinians in Gaza?

If you have even $10-20 to spare, you can buy an esim and email the QR code to [email protected], where it will be distributed to someone who needs one!! esims are essential for people in Gaza to be able to communicate with each other and with the rest of the world during the telecommunication blackouts imposed by Israel. I donated one through the Nomad app and it was literally so easy it took me probably five minutes or less. please do this. once your esim is activated by someone, you can also pay to top up the data!!

#palestine #free palestine #esims for gaza #I also saw a tweet that you can do this to help Sudanese people too but I can’t find the post so idk where to send one if I were to get one #if anyone knows where to send Sudan esims pls lmk and I’ll boost that too!!

[shorlinesorrows]

qpr jean and neil. that's all i'm gonna say.

do you see my vision?

#i might add onto this later but right now I'm too busy crying #“misplaced forever partner” ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT DESTROYED ME #neil ordering a hit to keep jean safe changed my brain chemistry #i need them to be friends #i need them to call each other and gossip and send each other stupid memes that only they understand #i need them to slowly grow closer as they heal until one day they can finish each other's sentences #and they ocassionally make super dark jokes about their trauma out of the blue (they bet on how people will react competitively) #i need them to call each other derogatory names but get Super Upset whenever anyone else talks shit about the other and offer to kill them #and i would love them to reclaim the spots next to each other that riko set #and make them their own #they're not partners on the court but they sure as hell are partners in life #the mcs ever #at one point andrew and jeremy are just looking at each other across a table at a restaurant as these two bicker #and realize they have somehow both become the Third Wheel despite the fact that 1) there's four of them and 2) jean and neil aren't dating #the amount of queer platonic pining i could fit in these traumatized people #the: “i'm lowkey obsessed with you but I Really don't like you romantically and I don't know what to do with it” #and the: “oh thank hell me too i thought i was even weirder than i already am. wanna go harass the fbi with me?" #jeremy and andrew watch this trainwreck both exasperatedly and proudly you can't convince me otherwise #cannot convince me that these four won't somehow end up living in each others pockets even if they live 1000 miles away #kevin pops in frequently as his usual wonderful diva self #anyway i'm going insane how yall doing #neil josten #jean moreau #all for the game #the sunshine court

[tasteofyourblood]

i made some more glitter edits, hope you enjoy - saw (2004)

#ik i saw a glitter edit of amanda but it wasn't this particular shot so i went for it #dont know if i like it all too much. and of course the adam one took forever bcuz his hand kept being too dark !!!!!!! #(also glitter poop heart 💕 i wanted it to be subtle) #if anyone finds a good screencap of the bashing zepp scene where you can see the #blood PLEASE send it my way. i wanna glitter that one so bad but cant get a good shot myself :( #saw #glitter edit #adam faulkner stanheight #amanda young #leigh whannell #shawnee smith #blood

[loulooser]

Can I start liking people that don’t turn out to be horrible people or just outright the wrong people

#ONE successful relationship #that’s all I fucking ask of you #you can send me my ex and then not let me have anyone else #I love that they’re happier than I am #it’s so fun #they totally deserve it #bitch my NAN doesn’t even like her #but my gay ass can’t get over her?? #lets add it to the pile of bullshit life has thrown at me since the ripe old age of eleven #fucking traumatizing events every single year #they get worse every year too #can’t wait to see what happens next!! #stay tuned to find out what I try not to kill myself over next!!!

[front-facing-pokemon]

#registeel #and now this guy is maybe a bit less interesting. from this standpoint‚ i mean. the eyes being just dots make it a little hard to like #feel *connected* to them when they're ffp'd‚ y'know? i feel like it's kind of a reductive angle. which is why i zoomed this one and the last #one out a bit. so you can see a bit of the rest of their body. it's maybe less funny but would it really have been funny to just see 7 red #dots on a gray background and have to read the tag to know it's registeel? i dunno. maybe. maybe it would've been. but i like this more #maybe the explanation is that i'm taking these pictures myself. i personally know all these pokémon and have to ask them if i have permissio #n to take these pictures of them. but registeel said i couldn't get too close. so we settled with this. hehe yeah that's why :) hehe :) #anyway. you now have the aegis cave theme stuck in your head #hi it's me from the present. saturday morning. in yesterday's queued post i came up with the idea of maybe doing a monotype run of a pokémon #game. i don't know which one yet but i wanted to do water-type. but i was like. maybe i'll liveblog it on my main blog. yesterday #and today i came back and saw those tags as i was queuing up today's 'mons and i was like… hell maybe i could stream it if enough folks are #interested. but if anyone is then i didn't want to wait that long for the queue to get to that post bc that's gonna post on like. august 18 #and class for my last semester of college Ever starts back up on august 21st and i don't. know if i want to start another pokémon playthroug #h that close to classes starting. especially not one where at least one (1) individual out there might be waiting for it So i put 'em here #they'll still be on that post but. they're here. just in case someone out there is chronically bored enough that that's something they'd be #interested in. y'never know there's a lot of folks here #anyway i will now queue up kricketot. see you then… or i guess see you whenever if you like send in an ask or a message or smth…

[ricopop]

im emotionally downcast 😭😭😭 @superbellsubways @cephalonheadquarters

#Did i send that ask just for that one insagnificang line? Yes. I'm sorry 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #btw if anyone wants to know whag coppy is saying uhm #''i could make toast. toast is always a pretty good option i think! i could make eggs. sunnyside.. boiled.. scrambled.. i also have frozen- #-hashbrowns i can heat up for you. personally i like sunnyside the best-- actually i think i'm out of eggs.. uh #i have waffles too.. if you don't like anything else. ...osci--?'' #THATS IT PFTHHDTUFJ UUH #soewy if any of this is ooc 😢😢😢 i wouldve asked in dms but shy + i dont eanna make u uncofmrtoable 😭 #also buhh i feel like oscillo and max would be friends idk ok sorry bye #virtual assistants #virus #oscillo #coppy #rico art #ocs

[flowercrowngods]

make me write (please).

hello lovelies it's been a while! i have a tiny pile of wips that i need to get to, so if you want, vote for the one you want me to write and/or choose one and send me an ask (anon or not) that i need to answer with a snippet for it that has to contain at least as many words as there are votes in the poll 🤍

the wips (i'm excluding i'll try. i'll try. from this one)

🌷 bard!eddie/knight!steve part 1 is here, pride & prejudice kinda vibe, misunderstandings & miscommunications, steve is a sweetheart, eddie is too dramatic for his own good, they're gonna kiss in the rain soon

🌷 captain!steve snippet that barely counts as part 1 is here, steve is captain of a ship, eddie is a stranger they fished out of the water (or is he?), i'm not saying pirate au meets time travel au but yes i am kinda saying that

🌷 spooky lighthouse story (rambles in the comments here) lighthouse keeper steve who is good at fixing things and wants to escape his life for a while, thinking he's all alone in the lighthouse that people say is haunted (but he's not)

#make me write #steddie #you can also vote for one and ask for another. or ask for multiple. pls i just wanna be made to write skjddfksjhf #however: if you really desperately want a time travel au snippet you can ask for one but it won't be for chapter 12 #you can send me a scenario you'd like to see for the time travel au too #if anyone wants to do this pls feel free to copy this but i'm not gonna tag anyone 🫶

[lunabug2004]

How are you doing after finn’s hot ones interview? (I thought of you because I know you love him thought this might be a sensitive time lol)

omg thank you for thinking of me anon! <33

I actually just got to watching it as I've been busy with school and let me tell ya... my face hurts from smiling like a maniac the whole time.

I loved the interview and I love Finnnnnn! He's so cute & sweet & genuine & funny... I could go on but I'll stop there lol.

I'd never actually watched a Hot Ones interview in full before this but I was very impressed by the questions and just the overall vibe of the host. It probably won't be an interview I rewatch in full often, though, just because I feel uncomfortable watching the interviewees (in this case, Finn) become more uncomfortable (not actually uncomfortable but having a harder time ig). I know they signed up for it and all but my brain tells me they're in pain and I should stop watching. If that makes sense.

Anyways, to answer your question more directly I definitely freaked out a few times just cuz he's so funny and such a cutie. So I'd say I'm just hanging on... this man confuses my aroace-ism so much it should honestly be a crime. ALSO HIM COMING OUT WITH A SOLO ALBUM THIS YEAR IS CRAZY WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THIS ALREADY WTF???

I also wanna say that I mayhaps have had a mini-freak-out-moment when the "Chris! You're coming home with me!" clip was released yesterday... cuz omg

I probably wrote way more than you expected but thank you sm for the ask, anon! ILY <3333

#finn wolfhard makes me question my sexuality pt 1397438561923841938 #i know i wrote too much but im a fangirl what can i say lol #also pls anyone feel free to send me asks cuz i love answering questions! #answering asks #anon <3 #thank you anon #answering anons #finn wolfhard #hot ones #Jay's answering stuff :)

[etchina-danjon]

Hinata drank entirely too much at the new years party she was invited to. So many people kept offering her drinks, and being as polite as she was, she couldn't refuse them. That and she didn't want to seem unfun when all of her friends were drinking and having a good time.

It was just... Hinata had no idea how much of a lightweight she was. Within a few drinks, she was giggling, and flirting. Pressing herself against the first man that would show her attention. She was so not being herself. Completely out of it. Acting a bit naughty. Perhaps something was slipped into her last drink because she felt hot all over. Needy. Needy enough that she found herself on a stranger's lap, grinding on him with a drunk smile on her face,

"O-oh my... Y-you feel so big, Mister.~" Hinata slurred, feeling him through his pants.

#the shyest one #open #anyone can reply #also you can send stuff for the other girls being drunk too~

[zorphie]

!!!!!! hello im officially starting a wizard101 + pirate101 webcomic series thing. Help. :] extra rambling in the tags

#wizard101 #w101 #HI YALL OMG IM SO NERVOUS BUT EXCITED LOL 😭😭😭😭😭 #this story is one of my biggest projects and its gonna be veryyyyy long. so. breakdances #this is not a complete retelling of the game btw #also not completely spoiler free idk #im willing to answer any questions about it as long as it isn't too spoilery..? #what happened to once upon a time hi hello welcome to ravenwood. I know.. things will get normal later I promise #i want to update this whenever i can but updayes will be slow I just wanted to finally syart it #there will be povs switching between the pirates and wizards btw! #uhhhh also! if anyone can send me pics of cool ranch and valencia #for background reference purposes #THAT WOULD B GREAT TY! #zorphie spiralverse comic #might as well make a tag too lmao #pirate101 #p101 #EDIT: I SOMEHOW FORGOY TO TAG PIRATE LOLBYE #oc: harper #oc: xylia #oc: cas #oc: koda #oc: amari

[good-beanswrites]

Hello! I'd like to request "There's an 80% chance of this working out" from List 5 with Mahiru and Mikoto! Horoscope Girl and Tarot Boy...what will they do...

Ooh this one was so fun, thank you!! It was really neat learning about tarot :0 (It'll take a bit longer, but I got carried away with the idea and also started writing something of Mikoto doing a reading for Fuuta hehe). It always makes me sad that Mahiru doesn’t trust Mikoto at first, so it was really fun to picture them bonding over things like this during T1! I never thought of them having that in common and my mind has been opened to this duo asdfsdfds

“Alright, I’m going to need you to manifest your energy as hard as you can.”

Mahiru squeezed her eyes shut. Her face scrunched up in concentration. She let out a little hum of effort as she poured all her emotions into the card deck under her fingertips.

“Uh… maybe not that hard, Mappi.”

She looked up with a giggle. “Right, right! I’m just so curious!” Well, she was curious about how a tarot reading itself would go, not about what it would tell her. Mahiru was fairly confident of her upcoming verdict, and the cards would only confirm it. So far only one prisoner had been named guilty, and everyone could see he was just a bully. Mahiru was nothing like him. She would be forgiven. She just knew it. 

Mikoto started shuffling the cards. “Are you ready?”

“Oh, yes!”

To be honest, she’d had her suspicions about Mikoto for a while. His smile was too perfect at all hours of the day. (Even someone as cheery as her knew a smile like that couldn’t be consistently real.) She’d seen enough cheaters who chatted as easily as he could with everyone here. His nicknaming habit was a cute one, but she was keeping her eye on how informally he acted with little basis for friendship. She knew for sure he was a dangerous flirt when he’d grabbed her palm to read her fortune, launching into talk of life and love lines. However, none of that meant he was lying about his tarot expertise -- so who was she to refuse his offer to read her cards?

Her eyes glimmered as she watched Mikoto lay out three cards before her. Though he used the same theatrics he had for the others, she was just as entranced. It was just so magical, she thought.

Mikoto circled his palms over the cards. “We’re going to begin by looking at the past and present to get a bit of perspective before we move on to what your future will hold, alright?” He’d already explained that the cards couldn’t read one’s future as much as they offered self-awareness. He said it was all about being in tune with oneself, and the world. She was sure someone like him was already perfectly aligned within himself, but she could admit her heart carried her away at times…

Mahiru held her breath as he flipped the first card. She studied his face for any trace of negativity. Seeing her worry, he slipped back into his usual smile. “For the past, we have the Reversed Page of Cups,” he said. “This suit deals with emotions and intuition.”

Mahiru nodded, excited at the accuracy. Her past certainly had its share of intense feelings. 

“This card in particular may mean emotional insecurity, or immaturity. It could also point to an avoidance of reality, something that’s not being faced head-on.”

She nodded, with a little less excitement this time.

“It also represents a specific person who influences you.” His face lit up, recalling Mahiru’s favorite topic. “Pages can represent a companion! Is there a romantic someone in your life who may have been causing some emotional insecurity?”

Picking up on the way her face paled, he said quickly, “or maybe not! They could be a messenger, or a childlike figure, or…” He reached for the next card. “Moving on, uh, to the present. Ah! This is a really good sign.”

She perked up.

“Here’s Justice. It’s fairly self-explanatory, representing the consequences that follow your actions. It’s about cause and effect, and accountability. It means things are happening according to karma, which is natural.”

He turned over the last card. “And finally, when looking to the future, we’ve got the Two of Swords. Swords deal with the mind -- conflict and communication. That’s… interesting.”

Mahiru’s eyes grew round. “What’s interesting?” She slid the card closer to herself, studying the picture. A blindfolded woman with two swords. There was water, and the moon. Was that bad? Was the woman unhappy? She was all alone. What did that mean?

“Don’t worry,” Mikoto soothed. “It just means you’ll make a big choice. Well, actually, it means you’ll get stuck, so you need to make a choice. I just thought it was funny, we’re here wondering about Es’ decision, but it turns out you’re the one who needs to make a decision.”

“Ah,” she breathed a sigh of relief.

“Now we can look at the big picture. It seems like some of your past problems may have come from emotional issues, so you’ll want to keep an eye on your emotions going forward.” Mahiru shifted. “The fact that we pulled Justice should reassure you about being here. I’ve heard some of the others complain that they don’t belong here, or it’s all a mistake, but this card is showing you that it’s just cause and effect. The events of your life are running their natural course.”

It was true, even she had been unhappy that her actions were being labeled that of a murderer. After all, those were an entirely different breed of people, right? Someone like Fuuta, who was guilty. People like her and Mikoto could never raise a hand to another. It was good to know, then, that this was all meant to be.

“And going forward, you’re gonna want to make sure you’re being decisive. Face your problems head-on, and communicate. If you can do that, things will be alright.” He folded his hands on the table, finished his reading. 

Mahiru thought for a moment. A smile crept onto her face, growing larger and brighter by the second. She clasped her hands together. “That’s wonderful! Thank you so much for doing this. It’s told me everything I need to know.”

“Yeah?” He picked the cards up, shuffling them back into the deck. She pulled a slip of paper from her pocket, pointing to some lines scribbled down.

“Yes. I’ve been jotting down some birthdays, see? I’ve had to make a few guesses until I get more information, but if Es is either a Scorpio or a Virgo… as a Capricorn myself… we’re very compatible, look! Capricorns have excellent communication with both of those signs, and you said that’s what I’ll need to get through this tough decision.” She turned the paper over to reveal more notes. “On top of that, my extraction is scheduled right before my birthday, during Capricorn’s governing period. At that time, things will be aligned more in my favor.”

Mikoto’s eyebrows raised at her notes, impressed. “Wow! You have this all worked out, huh? If that’s the case, you seem very prepared to have a successful interrogation.”

She steepled her fingers. “I’d say there’s an 80% chance of this working out!”

“Definitely!”

He returned her beaming smile. Things would be perfect. Nothing to worry about.

#milgram #mikoto kayano #mahiru shiina #*narrator voice* and then she didnt communicate or face her conflict head-on. #it was too late to switch pov but im obsessed with how many tarot resources talk about being in tune with yourself and your identity #being secure and aware of your own mind #and just how clever it is that the symbol was chosen for mikoto... #tihtbilwy released just a few days before her birthday - thats so cute! #featuring @snakes-and-fluff's hc that mikoto can do palm reading and other things! i really loved that #there must have been such a crazy atmosphere in the prison during mahirus interrogation/verdict #halfway through all interrogations and only one person voted guilty - and hes the most obviously brash and loud one #i feel like everyone would be feeling really safe -- an then someone as sweet as mahiru gets her verdict. everyone would start to worry #if anyone who knows more about tarot/astrology sees any glaring flaws let me know lmao -- i did my best looking things up 👍 #thank you so much for the request!! it was such a blast #(though also im yelling at you for sending it because ive been roped into reading my partners grandmothers cards possibly daily after #she caught me looking stuff up 😂😂😂) #drabbles

[arsenicflame]

hey does anyone wanna bounce bellhands/they all went to pirate school together ideas with me? im trying to figure out the missing pieces of my personal set up and it might be easier with someone else!

#if youve never spoken to me before please be aware i will type a whole paragraph in response to one (1) sentence #but if ur down for that! please. #ive got like. the start and the end and a couple bits in the middle fleshed out but it doesn't f l o w #this is the problem with trying to condense more than a years of ideas into one cohesive narrative. i usually swap and change things as #and when it suits so im like. i don't know what i need in this #its just for my silly little tumblr post but #i would appreciate it <3 #i can send you what ive wrote and we can go from there or we can start from scratch bouncing ideas or u can just ask me questions #or something to help fill in gaps idk whatever works for u! what ive got is like. a fuckin mess honestly its ramblings and half finished #thoughts and just. its. a complete state and thats not even touching on whats missing (like. anything that matters in the middle basically) #nyxtalks #ofmd #bellhands #sam bellamy #izzy hands #israel hands #if you're unfamiliar with the concept: its Hornigold era stuff; jack + ed + izzy + sam all sailing under him and learning the ropes togethe #im not trying to go into too many details; just the underlying structure that is what I think of when i think of them #its probably not something anyone else cares about but i think i need it for some of the more fun 'what if Izzy went with sam' posts #i realised if i wanted to say what the divergence point was i Needed to establish all this lol #'oh yeah its when izzy chooses sam after the mutiny despite their argument' NYX WHAT ARGUMENT. you need to tell us what u mean

[marc--chilton]

(mgv) wilson in pre-rut and still working but it being more and more obvious to the ducklings (who are not in tune with his cycle like that freak house is, thanks) because he starts following house around more than usual, sometimes even getting physically closer to him when it's not necessary (and house lets him most of the time too. not all the time though. if he gets especially annoyed he'll snip at him and wilson backs off with his head ducked which is..... atypical pre-rut alpha behavior but also their friendship is atypical so whatever)

it's so bad sometimes they even catch wilson smiling while he pretends not to notice while house steals his wallet so he can empty out the vending machine for his favorite snacks. later when they're alone in house's office, house pulls out a couple bags of wilson's favorites he got while he was raiding the machine and tosses them over. the look on wilson's face is so dopey that house can't help but snicker and tell him to put in his notice of leave for his cycle soon because he is really swimming in it now

#house md #hilson #someone anyone please talk to me i'm gonna blow UP #wilson getting downright sickening around house ugh #still snarks back still lets him win when they bicker about nothing that matters he's just also a little goopy with it #and house knows what's going on but it's so funny to watch him be so obvious he lets him stick around #which is a dangerous game really since if they're not careful wilson can send him into pre-heat too #lbr they've done it back and forth to each other before #usually on accident unless one of them is also feeling vindictive #because obviously they'd weaponize their own biology against each other #actually speaking of i bet house would do that to some patients too if it proved his diagnosis of whatever #medical malpractice!!!! we're back in business boys i'm writing for the show now #mgv

[query-quadrant]

I've had a pitch crush on someone for a while! I really hate them! >:)

But one of our hatefriends just told me they might be pale for me? >:O

If they are, what do I do??? How do I make them hate me properly? :(

I don't pity them! I don't even know why they pity me! Or if they even really do! :?

It's really confusing and I don't want to have to reject them and then have to try and ask them out! That's not gonna go well!!! >:(

yeah i dont know that sounds awful i think personally id just die

questionable advice: either try upping the annoyingness and going all out with pitch flirting or just sit them down and just actually ask them if they pity you or not maybe youll get lucky and they dont but either way at least youll know right so that sucks a little less than not knowing

bad advice: kill their lusus maybe thatll make them really mad at you

#pitch stuff #asks #this sounds like a mess idk good luck #this is not very thumbs up emoji #the friend who told you might definitely be fucking with you though anyway #if we go big conspiracy theorist style i have friends who would totally do that on purpose to embarrass me #and try and get the other guy to make fun of me for asking such a stupid question #to see if they can get pitch shit started between me and my crush #but maybe your friends are less insane #actually you should have mentioned that before sending this ask #whats the normalness level of your friends #on a scale from my friends to creepily normal #where do they fall #my little hoofbeast style or absolutely would play 10d chess for literally no reason #this is way too many tags lmfao no ones gonna read this #i just got into it i guess #plus no way am i gonna move this to the post itself now after this #i opened this can of sharks now i gotta jump it #hey if anyone would read all of these tags itd be grey actually right #hi grey <3< #whats up hows it going

[kingofthering]

#this is something I think and worry about too often #thank god we can send comments from sideblogs #but I hate the fact that we can't do the same with asks #sometimes I mention it in asks to people I haven't talked to before #(when they're commenting on one of my gifsets mostly) #also I don't mind people knowing and using my real name here but I have to admit I wish it was more common #for denial sakes or whatever #(as if anyone I know url could find it)