#but also. you know. im just your problem etc

[notedchampagne]

I think I agree that fandom super girlbosses Ianthe's fuckery and infantilizes Harrow, I just question if those depictions are meant to make Harrow less/ degrade her, or make her more relatable to the given creator. Fandom has a nasty problem of really leaning into tragedy and trauma as a way to relate to characters more. I think I just see this emphasis on Harrow's suffering, and by extension the riffing on it, as the fandoms take on affection. "I like you, I relate to you, and this darkness inspires me to draw/ write/ etc." Which is still fucked but I'm just not sure if its entirely racial. Like, respectfully look at your depictions thus far, Harrow is a bit of a lovable mess and Ianthe is barely there but still a girlboss (we all know she's a mess too but it takes up a lot less space). Couldn't anyone say you too are focusing in on Harrows flaws? Isn't this part of the pull, to watch Harrow grow we have to start somewhere? And we love your Harrow, and some kids (especially people just picking up fandom lingo) turn to really shitty "feral rat freak child" compliments because that may just be the way they feel comfortable with engaging (and maybe how they feel complimenting the things they see themselves in, but I'm speculating). Again its shitty fandom is so anti earnest compliments but if race does play a part I just think its significantly less then we may initially believe.

yeah i see your point! i make it a challenge for myself to capture harrows complexities and sorrows to invite nuance into the discussion - and a lot of people have said that she is relatable, and im glad the connection goes through. its why im not actively mad at everyone that calls her a wet cat here and there simply because its easier to say than "she looks so sad and i want to wrap her in a blanket and put her in a warm place about it". but you dont really see people calling the sixth or judith, who are also tragic and relatable, as "goblins" or "feral things". race might play less of a part in it like you said but i still think its significant when it comes to general perception: if someone recommended tlt to me and described harrowhark as "the wettest most feral batshit skrunkly [more adjectives that sound like she straight up cannot take care of herself]", then if i read it and saw that she was a mentally ill maori girl, i would be upset that shes associated with those traits. again this is just a personal thing and it does vary case by case but your input is good

#talking back

[rizsnt]

i think i'm the problem with you

#adventure time #fionna and cake #bubbline #marceline #princess bubblegum #lyrics from the orla gartland song codependecy #but also. you know. im just your problem etc #you get it #this one was a quickie i dunno #rizsart

[sheepalmighty]

Some more of that Chai joins Vandelay for half a day AU. Or just a picture of a kinda OOC Kale chilling if you wanna gloss over those comics. I'm still not sure if the colours are too garish or not.

These were mostly done with the premise of treating Kale's office like the hideout. I also really like how mundane, or familiar, the interactions between Chai and Kale can be in the game so I wanted to draw some stuff exploring more like that. But also, there's the ulterior motive of shipping so I included an out of context scene because I can't bother drawing the rest of it (though it seems like a huge jump in their relationship as a result. I think they're so big headed that they get stuck in a feedback loop of stroking the other's ego if an excuse comes up to do so)

#hi-fi rush #hi fi rush #hfr #kale x chai #kale vandelay #hi fi rush chai #hi fi rush korsica #i didnt spend any time finding a ref for kale's shoe sole so i made something up #besides that though i owe my life to all the uploaders of reference pics and interesting details in the game #sorry about the korsica comic i probably had no choice but to cram all those words into one panel. also i like the typo on that webpage #i gave myself an arbitrary deadline of the end of last month but found the pages to be too messy so i spent an extra week on them #whether that helped or not no one will ever know. i have to work on other things so im putting a hard cutoff now #i wonder if my want to draw perspective stuff freehand is a case of fearing what my limits may be or if its just a fear of the line tool #i adore that this game lets you add more to the music through your inputs (dashing on the beat etc) #just like the games i have thoroughly enjoyed from tetsuya mizuguchi #i seem to have too much time on my hands #thinking up scenarios is quick and easy to do while carrying on with the day to day #its when the brain decides you need to try to draw them that the problems occur #'tis mine

[llitchilitchi]

I get hating certain political systems and trying to abolish totalitarian regimes but at the same time many of them are so interwoven with our history and society they have become tropes and when I consume media with a setting where the monarchy is absolute and revered then I am playing my part and sucking that princeling off

#litchi.txt #there are games that address this kinda stuff! and thats good! its good that there are games talking about how this is bad! #but at the same time when I go into a game knowing I will be the prince's sword and shield I dont expect the game to be anti-monarchy #despite having pretty strong opinions on many a thing I tend to put most of them away the moment I engage with media #imperialism bad. monarchy bad. doesnt mean I cant enjoy roleplaying in a game where I help these systems #because guess what its fictional and not everything needs to be a strong statement about politics #sometimes we just... wanna vibe with a setting #I am so very thoroughly exhausted from the politics in this country and where things are going I just kinda need that no brainer gameplay #even if it means working as the secret police for an emperor #even if it means replacing one dictator with another #because its still a game #a lot of people talk about imperialism-monarchy-colonialism with these things because they are a big issue even today #and they are important to talk about!! in real world!! #but I rarely see people be this upset about like religion etc which like. thats also a massive problem. #idk Im just tired of trying to look at fanart of all my fantasy medieval games and people being upset that the games #are not super anti-monarchy despite the marketing being literally 'you are the emperor's bestie. you help him out and go on a quest.' #'your quest is to manipulate local government to support the emperor and do his bidding' #like idk how That is supposed to be a game that addresses it properly #and maybe it does but ig since the MC doesnt look at the player and go REMEMBER KIDS! THIS IS EVIL AND BAD AND WHY MONARCHY SUCKS #it doesnt count??? I guess???

[horrorwebs]

why are men literally the fucking worst

#theres a guy in one of my uni friend groups who has a crush on my friend also from the friend group #and she feels so so uncomfortable plus she hasnt done ANYTHING thatd give a hint that she likes him back. bc she doesnt #and now she doesnt feel ok around because hes so attached to her and so so needy and its like. well. way to fuck it up dude. fuck you #he has been acting so strange lately and not in a good way. strange awkward and needy and like. possesive. #her and i also have another friendgroup where frankly i feel much better with and she does too. and its like. well the guy is always like #butting in but now really being part of anything? like its not like he comes over to the grouo to be with all of us hes just sort of . there #talking only to her or sometimes me but its like not nice its weird and annoying #ALSO HES SO PATRONIZING TOWARDS HER ITS AWFUL #AND hes like. a bit older.... where its not like. the weirdest age gap i dont think so. but it IS a bit weird considering some of the things #he has said. like the other day he made a comment about how my friend 'well shes so young like people her age sometimes dont get [x]' like? #if you think she is SOOO young and SOOO out of touch with people your age well why the fuck are you asking others if you have a chance w her #get away from her really #sidenote: today she was telling me and a different friend about this problem and my other friend said it was really uncomfortable and bad + #that he used to think the guy had a thing for ME BEFORE??? and i dont know if he also thought -i- had a thing for him but please god no. #even the hypothetical made me feel super uncomfortable. also i used to feel like that a bit like he might like me and it was bad and gross #so i dropped a comment that let him believe i was a lesbian i think? also got much colder towards him . like. thats what you get fucker #about the lesbian thing i meant that he told me about a friend of his that had it hard coming out as a lesbian and i said like oh yeah being #like that was hard for me also. finding out i was not straight was tough etc . #dont remember if i said the word lesbian i dont think so but i did say i like girls and i didnt mention boys at all so i hoped itd be enough #also people dont really -get- what being asexuas means + didnt want to tell him im ace + techically i Can like boys bc romantic attraction #is undefined to me but i was definetely not going to tell him that bc 1. im much more prone to like a girl and 2. not trying to get his hope #up. #so anyway it was gross to realize other people saw it too so i mightve actually not been insane to think he had a crush on me but it was bad #and also. i really need for my friend to be comfortable in class so i might have to kill him who knows. well see #spikeposting #personal

[unityrain24]

everything is getting so tiring and i'm falling behind... in getting schoolwork done, in hygiene, in household chores... and the weirdest part is that my mental illnesses arent really getting worse though. Usually all of those coincide with when my depression/anxiety/ocd/ etc get worse. But they arent. they're still like... dormant, like they've been for an uncomfortably long time. I need them back. I need them to come back. I need my mental illnesses to be my whole life again. It's been so long. I need to be me again.

#i need them back and i need them to be deabilitating and all-consuming and life-threatening... #i want to be suicidal again i want to self harm again #i want the overwhelming anxiety、the pure FEAR、to drown me #i need to depersonalize/derealize/etc for hours on end #i need my ocd to get to the point where i'm ashamed and crying and tired and my hands are covered in burns and i can't fall asleep #and i know those don't sound like things a mentally ok person would say #but even if im not legitimately “ok” right now、i'm not bad、and i'm DEFINITELY not Bad. #and i haven't been for so long... #and yes yes “you arent defined by your mental illness” true. but also yes i am. #and no i don't literally Want it but there isn't a word in english to actually fit so want is the closest one. #also i just realized there might be some confusion but no this has nothing to do with my text post on healthcare. different problem. #unityrain.txt #vent in tags #mentally ill

[lith-myathar]

Being obsessed with moral purity (and the appearance thereof) is far more likely to turn you into an abuser than a kind and compassionate person who cares for their community and there are so many cautionary tales about this in media and yet *gestures at all of social media*

#every single one of us has said and done things that would make us the main character of twitter for a few days. without exception. #like one if the most well known quotes from the fuckin bible is about this exactly. it is so basic. #it's literally just redirection of people's fear and shame around their own actions/feeling/thoughts etc #i think we need to stop putting so much emphasis on being a Good Person #like do your best obviously. treat people with all the kindness you know how. but we are deeply flawed and imperfect beings. #and that's not something that will ever go away #no matter how much you effort you put into self-improvement. you still have to try but you must also #accept the fact that you will often fail #and in the Court of the Internet there is no space for that and therefore no space for real learning or growth #im fairly certain the only cure for this shit is engaging in good faith with other human beings in meat space. #im not SURE because *gestures at all of human history* obviously these problems exist there too #but god knows nothing about how we engage with The Discourse on social media is going to engender real understanding #and lead us to a more enlightened age

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

anyway obviously ppl should act in good faith and not purposely make racist stereotypes of poc characters but i think a world where every poc character is under constant surveillance by an audience waiting to nitpick for evidence that the author is Secretly Racist, is a world where poc characters are not allowed to be interesting or compelling.

#shut up pandora #everything is a trope #there are so many stereotypes from different countries cultures etc etc etc #while its reasonable to do research about ethnic groups and cultures you dont know about before you write characters like that #just like its reasonable to do research about most things you dont know before you write about them #creators shouldnt have to be responsible for understanding every intricacy and nuance in the complete history of a group #if youre going to bully ppl for being well intentioned by maybe ignorant when they try to write rep for a group #congrats! you just scared away creators who would have written more rep! #and besides #the stereotype isnt the problem #the problem is reducing the character to a stereotype #the solution is to give them a personality #and also #yo what if ppl in that group fit the stereotype and want to see themselves represented #im chinese and im good at math and im bad at using forks and knives and my parents speak with very heavy accents #if i were a fictional character would yall bully the author for leaning into asian stereotypes

[maddy-ferguson]

there's a post going around that says "“We need to strive to be more accepting of POC” you guys can’t even handle religion." and like. that's genuinely offensive to me lmao

#and like i say: brf slt #the word accepting. POC the acronym you couldn't even write all of it. again more accepting? just weird to me #and like...literally what. in their rb they say christianity and catholicism aren't the only religions when like...that's the same religion #so im gonna be crazy and assume theyre 14 or just kinda dumb.bc how are you not gonna make sure to be accurate in your big anti-racism rant #wait their bio actually says i'm an adult i promise. they're just dumb then #and like obviously there's not just christianity. i dislike every one of the big three equally because there's no meaningful difference #there to me...and i don't know enough about other religions but i would probably hate many others too because like...i don't like the #content but i also dislike just the concept of organized religion and also just think it's dumb since i'm not in it at all #and like. obviously you're allowed to believe in what you want and i think it's nice that people are able to have faith like i think that's #a nice concept. and yes religions are a big part of people's cultures (something the post says) but like...when you're not religious #religions are literally just cults that worked out but you're supposed to respect them because like we live in a society and it's sooo...😭 #like i also think believing in the power of rocks is dumb #i know all about criticism of a religion being racism because french people do it all the time with islam because they just hate north #african people/arabs and black people (but i think islamophobia is mostly aimed at north africans). but like. when people talk about #islamophobia being a real problem it's not about people disliking the religion it's about them talking about it 24/7 just because they hate #the people who follow it when like. literally how is christianity better!!!!! when they're like oh it's so regressive but they themselves #are everything they claim islam makes people (idk homophobic misogynistic etc) like it's very transparent. but you're allowed to not like #religions unless you know blasphemy's a thing where you live. and it's actually very easy to be against islamophobia when it's literally #just a manifestation of racism while not being fond of islam or of any religion. because like. common sense. but anyway #i UNDERSTAND where the post is coming from it's like if you think religion is backwards you're gonna think religious people are backwards #and that includes 'poc' or like saying a religion is backwards is something racists do a lot. but like wdym to be anti-racist #you have to not be critical of religion(s) that doesn't make any sense to me. like if religions are against my values. i'm not gonna like #them😭 'religion isn't just what your parents used to be homophobic against you' well there's a lot of people worldwide who are using #religion to do bad things i fear...the post's arguments dont make sense and i dont care about people believing in whatever but also yes im #gonna think it's stupid and wrong if i think the opinions they have because of their religion are wrong when people aren't religious. like #it's not a trump card. i don't even think that's what that person's saying. but like...there's no correlation between 'not being accepting #of POC' and 'not being able to handle religion'?😭 implying there is feels racist to me literally what...and the reverse doesn't work either #and i'm aware trying to stop people from practicing their religion is like bad and a way to get them to assimilate and like racist and all #that.but that's not 'not being able to handle religion' in a tumblr way it's literally just racism again? and idk just weird it annoyed me #and also i know leftists can be anti-religion in a way that's racist and paternalistic again i live in france

[etchedstars]

hi i just wanted to drop a ss of the comments i wrote on my notion page for captured ghosts because im about to reread and i think this fic deserves all the recognition in the world it slays so hard and you should know the absolute anxiety and simultaneous joy you caused me!!!

HI OH MY GOD ?!?!??!?!? thank you asufaudsf this is so so nice the joy THIS brought me?????????? immeasurable ty <3333

(ps theres a lot of thoughts in the tags w captured ghosts spoilers for those who may or may have not read my will byers gets haunted multichaptered fic!!)

#if youre thinking hmm i should read captured ghosts!! dont take it from me take it from tumblr user romainlettusdinnerparty :) #okokok so !!! authors thoughts #one of the biggest problems i have with media and especially in fics is when characters just have. the worlds most perfect inner dialogue #which clearly. bc they are fifteen years old. they will not be perfect they wont think coherent thoughts #human emotions are messy and indecipherable and ESP w the st characters someone who has gone thru as much as will has. hes gonna be angry ! #i do my best to walk the line between good writing and realistic writing LMAO so im glad that came across :))) #ok abt joyce. this was less of a 'i think this is how joyce would be' and rlly just me being annoyed w my own mother tbh #i also wasnt a huge fan of her when i first wrote cg bc i thought she was way too paranoid over will and not caring much abt jonathan #so that is why shes Like that. im gonna be real i dont think id change it if i rewrote but i also dont think i wrote her fairly #and finally !!! im very sorry i lied about the rewrite. its not gonna happen bc i am so so swamped and i have nothing and i wrote it last y #but for the record will was supposed to be in the same sort of coma max was in and they were supposed to find each other and will #was going to promise max hed find her way out and then boom he was going to wake up there was going to be some jealousy w lucas and mike an #he makes it out alive max makes it out alive vecna doesnt fully leave etc etc. the end #anyways if youve read this far thank u and thank you for leaving this ask and this comment :))))) i havent gotten anything abt my fics in a #while tbh so knowing that like . They Still Exist and people still like them means so so much to me :')))) ok bye this was super long #overdue gets some asks #captured ghosts #happy chemical

[pepprs]

i need to stop posting on here for life advice but omg idk what to do. my counselor had an extremely sudden death in his immediate family last week and cancelled our session and he emailed me to say he can meet tomorrow but that he can’t meet the week after and then the week after that we can start having sessions again. and i was already thinking abt finding another counselor anyway bc i haven’t rly been meshing w him and i think i need more consistent / specialized support but now im freaking out bc like… idk. it sounds horrible and misguided and probably is but i do not want to burden him with anything i am going thru bc nothing at all will compare to how much he must be suffering rn and i really do not want to make him spend an hour of his week listening to me complain about my projection issues while he will be suffering the most painful intense loss of his entire life. but idk how to tell him that. i guess i don’t have to but i want to be honest. idk

#purrs #like i literally do not want to see him tomorrow when it’ll have been exactly a week since the worst day of his life. like i know it’s his #job and he’s getting paid to do it but i would literally go insane if i was a counselor and had to deal w someone’s brain worms exactly a #week after the most gut wrenching heartbreaking devastating loss of my entire life. ik im assuming a lot of things but omg i cannot do that #to him and i will not and also i want a new counselor but if i leave will it just be adding to the change you’re helpless against. idk #i know he’s the counselor and im the client and my problems are valid etc etc but it’s like dude your redacted literally just died out of #nowhere are you sure you want to spend an hour of your time listening to me ramble about my impostor syndrome. idk #delete later #death tw

[cartoonrival]

i feel like people on this site cannot make up their minds about whether they want tumblr to make money so it can continue to exist as a site that isnt driven by an algorithm that tries to read your mind so it can sell Product to you every second it gets or corporations are never your friend and if you put money towards them youre stupid

#txt157 #im not gonna pretend to know a lot about running a website or how things are looking for tumblr behind the scenes #but from what ive heard they arent looking Good #but the site has been shockingly receptive to what users want as far as advertising goes #like with the giant full screen video ads that used to come up on mobile at the top of your dash #and obviously the site is not perfect by any means and im not talking about the fact that it physically doesnt funciton very well #but like yeah they approve terfs and smut fanfic for blaze and refuse to ban neonazis etc #and im not saying those are like not that bad or we should look past them #but like . as if any other social media is better >?? and doesnt do stuff like that ??? like tumblr goes down cause it made no fuckin money #because its users are so hostile to being advertised to #where are you going to go that wont have those exact same problems #and will also have the very real benefits of using tumblr over other sites #like when blaze first came out people were not that hostile to the idea #but now someone who blazes THEIR CATS BIRHTDAY gets attacked because 'they couldve spent that money on DONATING somehwere' #like yeah ofc but are people not allowed to spend money to dumb stuff sometimes? are people not allowed to put their money into smth they #care about even if its not for some bigger greater good? sometimes its just fun to buy smth stupid #idk does any of this make sense did you even read it

[little-klng]

cant deal with those poll posts asking how i do a simple math problem and they start listing weird pemdas number combos with an other option. the answer every time is "on my fingers for a couple minutes, crying" and its not likely to change

#i have to actually use my finger to point out and count how many 0's in a row there are for anything bigger than 1000 #and then count on my fingers again how many 1000s it is #just trying to read a number #like if i see 1000000000 i will literally use my finger to cover the number and then count the 0s in groups of 3 #like a child #like 'thousand... ten thousand... hundred thousand... million... ten million...' etc etc until i get the right one #yes this is obscenely embarrassing to have to do in person irl btw #if you ask me to divide in my head ill die btw. #if you ask me to multiply something you can bet your ass im gonna count it like a long addition problem on my fingies #you also cant stop me btw #7x5 uhhhhhhh well you see. 5+5+5+5+5+5+5=35. and i use the 5 because its easier to count up with #i dont know how i live like this either btw

[apopcornkernel]

as someone who has never been diagnosed w adhd (although i do have my suspicions), is it rude (maybe not the right word?) to reblog posts talking abt something that happens to people with adhd

#like. not adhd but i could be but im not sure but either way that specific thing also happens to me ? #i dont know. this is such a terminally online problem lol 😭 #little off tangent tag rant incoming when i said ive never been diagnosed i also dont think ill ever be able to get one in the near future #considering where i live and how most people + my parents see neurodivergency or mental issues of any kind im not confident ill even get an #ywhere lol #everytime i think abt telling my mom my suspicions i remember the time she told me she thought going to the doctor for depression was #useless 🤡 our generation's not resilient enough apparently. or whatever #useless isnt the exact word she said. she said walang kwenta which does technically translate to useless but it also has a worthless vibe #anyways yeah lol. plus i dont even know if the docs here are the kind who would diagnose adhd stuff or if theyre the type to say 'oh that's #not adhd you just need to plan your life better etc'. wouldnt be surprised if its the latter #tag rant over #poppy speaks

[kavehater]

I honestly wish people cared more about depression and other issues rather than saying they care but scrutinise a person so horribly when they show symptoms associated with said condition 🧎‍♀️

#everyone’s so horrible about it #if you don’t know what something means you research #I research when my friend says they have an illness or a particular sexuality I may not know about #or just to understand and help out because that’s what friends do right ? #so research if someone tells you they have a condition and learn the symptoms #don’t like it ? leave. #but don’t stick around if you’re not in the slightest tolerant to any speck of symptom they may exhibit #whoever does this is a horrible person #because you signed up for this so you deal with it. it’s so mean to punish someone for something they can’t control #because ppl aren’t nearly as kind to people who are normal as they are to mentally ill people #aren’t nearly as mean to normal ppl* #yeah sure they still have to control themselves etc but you never say this to normal people #you’re never so harsh to normal people if anything those with mental illness need more kindness and understanding and everyone blows it #how are you gonna sit there with full conviction saying I have depression and anxiety ( I have way more than that but okay ) #yet blame me when I can’t commit to my work or blame me for being “lazy” I think as a perfectionist and star student I beat myself up over #that already so why would you hurt me more #alternatively this applies to ppl who get mad at others asking reassurance #im gonna rip my hair out for that why literally why would you have a problem #it’s always communicate this communicate that but in fact everyone’s allergic to communication and they’re not traumatised by it #ZERO EXCUSES BUT SOMEHOW all the excuses for normal people but none for mentally ill ppl #everyone’s sick. this is what I mean when. I say it’s so aggravating seeing people because they’re so hopelessly stupid #in the sense they don’t have an ounce of compassion and are disgustingly selfish thinking of themselves 24/7 and their feelings when not to #compare but ppl have it worse than your dumb ass paper cut - esque issues 😇 #oh but all the sympathy to you and none to the “crazy people” who actually need more compassion than you be so Fr #and if you cope well with your own issues then good 4 u ! but you’re not the standard of the DSM 🤗 you also aren’t any better #everyone copes differently and expresses things differently dependent on their unique exposures circumstances and view of the world #let’s stop pretending that one view is the right view #this doesn’t mean let yourself get abused btw it means using that thing in your head to be reasonable #dora daily

[princesscedar]

#uhh i know i can't blame all my problems on my parents and i gotta advocate for myself n be an adult but like. #the absolute comedy of refusing to teach your eldest kids how to drive goin to the point of terrifying them because 'you'll kill someone' #and terrifying them (the daughters) about uber lyft etc and even rly riding the bus. thus encouraging them to isolate #to the point of basically having no future plans. and also when they try to drive anyways you say the real reason is because the insurance #price will skyrocket and then the one saving money for her own car n insurance (me) do total quarantining for two years so the saved money #is gone because everyone still lives at home (and no im not mad helping with expenses i do live here but.) and now #their dad can't drive at least until end of october and only ONE person can drive 9 other ppl. with kids who have upcoming testing #and appointments. so attempting to find a job is near IMPOSSIBLE because remote is a joke/for more skilled workers and anything else #hiring must be driven to but bills are piling up and food doesn't stretch n your kids feel like leeches with no solutions is just!!! comical #it's funny hilarious!!!! i should've gone to college i should've dipped at 18 i should've broken more rules this SUCKS!!!!! #silly girl hours tho :3