#but all this actually deeply relatable

[emotinalsupportturtle]

the main reason I will always be obsessed with David Tennant is that fundamentally, we share the same mental illness

#I’m constantly in awe of him #and obv he's immensely talented and attractive and a great person #but that man is clearly insane #i mean he sits and writes 10k essays on the homoerotic subtext of shakespeare #he can't sit still for like 2 seconds #or sit normally on a chair #he thinks using real skulls for hamlet is cool (it is) #he says things like “i'd rather hide under a table than go out” and “i wear hoodies so people don't talk to me (they assume I'm a murderer) #he faked an assistant to get out of attending events #is obsessive about his geeky shows #is somewhat an adrenaline junkie. said about doing theatre; #“it was horrible and it was actually killing me. but once it was over i ofc thought to myself 'oh i think i might have to do that again” #in interviews he keeps going off in tangents and looses the complete point of the question #i mean i just watched one where he was asked about his first day on set on doctor who #and he somehow ended up on passionately speaking how we are all fucked if donald trump is elected (this was before he was president) #and nearly started an anti-trump campaign (king) #has the chronic inability to make sartorial choices that would result in anything but the gayest outfits #has imposter syndrome #ofc i can only aspire to be fractionally as cool as him #but all this actually deeply relatable #this is probably why tumblr likes him so much #david tenannt

[lovesickeros]

☆ you sow; & thus you shall reap what you are owed

{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood, violence {☆} word count 0.8k

You are dying.

Gold melts into the dirt, bleeds into the very earth that you'd molded by your own hands – a familiarity you do not understand the source of – you know it to be true, yet you do not remember it as Teyvat does. It weeps, in turn, for the way you bleed upon it, the way your lungs strain for breath.

It is fury and sorrow and fear and hatred so raw that your mind buckles.

You will die.

"A dying godling and its judge, it's jury – it's executioners," The voice is hollow and cold, sweeps across your broken body like the first chill of winter, "Archons who saw themselves Gods, now brought to heel by their own hubris."

A cold hand upon your cheek, the brush of a thumb across your lip, the gentle caress of cold across your skin. You know her – you don't remember, you shouldn't recognize her but you do – and she knows you. The cold beckons and you follow, let her kindness settle in the hollow space of your chest. You want to speak, to cry and scream and rage, let the world burn around you in a fit of flames so hot even she cannot contain it – but she silences you, quiets the anger seeping into your blood, quiets Teyvat itself.

"Do not speak, little godling. Guide my hand," She is cold; her hands are not gentle, yet it is bliss compared to the callous, cruel hands that have shattered you. She is cruel and cold and brutal but she is love in the way she kisses the crown of your head. She is love in the way she is the bulwark between you and the world that has scorned you – she is fury in the way she brings them to their knees. "And I shall enact judgement most divine."

They will pray for forgiveness, and they shall find themselves wanting.

"It wasn't our fault!" They cry, but you cannot recognize the voice – it breaks and cracks like glass. "They were too human. How were we meant to know? We– we thought they were.."

Silence.

You watch your judge – the executioner, the blade that shall carve their sins into the very marrow of Teyvat, stand above you like death. As cold as winter and just as brutal. Your temple has been painted in the gold of your divine blood, and she shall complete the masterpiece with their own. The Archons shall become the grandest art in the world – this temple the canvas, their blood the paint and their bodies the palette. The cold that cuts sinew cradles you – it sings to you, whispers sweetly in your ear and carves bone from body in the same breath. The cold presses it's lips to your wrist and it cradles a heart within it's palm – judges them and finds them guilty.

It is her spear that rests between their ribs, her sword that dissects and her dagger that carves – the cold devours.

In the breadth of this divine sanctuary, the Archons dwindle. They become the pieces of a divine work of art, they bleed and bend and break upon her hands. She shakes the heavens and carves mortality into the bones of the divine – your word is Law, and you weave their deaths into the roots of Teyvat itself.

They shall know of their grand folly in every moment henceforth and longer still and they shall weep.

And as the curtain falls, as the world crumbles beneath fist and blade, she cradles your face between hands too cold – as gentle as a shard of ice between your ribs, as brutal as the kiss of gentle snowfall. The world buckles at the loss of six, but she alone does not allow it to break – you will have to mend the wounds of the world when you are well, but today you weep and Teyvat weeps with you.

And alone, the cold remains.

Stone has eroded, the wind has ceased, the flames have been extinguished, the storm has been silenced, the forests have gone quiet and the seas go still.

But the cold remains, bathed in gold.

It wraps you in thick furs, cradles you against the winter storm that brews beneath a veneer of composure. It brings you home – lets the world settle into a stillness and silence that inspires only dread and still she presses a kiss to your brow.

It is cold, but there has never been something so warm.

Where hands have broken you, she drapes you in furs, wipes away the thick gold that clings to your skin. She pieces you back together where you have been shattered, reshapes you where you have been bent – makes of you something new. Not a god and not a mortal but something wedged between them.

But you are yourself.

And you are where you belong.

They shall put you back together and you shall know only the worship worthy of the divine. They shall carve this world into your image, tear out and burn away the rot that festers.

All you need to do is say the word and they shall be your tools to make this world your own.

One word and those who wronged you shall burn, too.

Just one word. That's all it takes, and they shall take away your pain.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #genshin cult au #genshin impact cult au #tsaritsa #“eros you left for a month again” yeah................. #anyway. posts tsaritsa fic and leaves #i kept it kinda vague but the fatui are all on your side. whether or not your actually the creator or not though.. #now thats up for debate. #did they tamper w teyvat to kill the archons? to break the world to be remade in whatever image they see fit? #using you as the means of their end? #maybe you are the creator and they just saw an opportunity. maybe they are just devoted to you. #i just think lowkey villain au but specifically imposter au where the only ones who side w u r the fatui like OUGH #i love the fatui. them being the only ones 2 side w u is so tasty #prime material for angst bc the self doubt if the only ppl who believe u r the “villains” #a lot of this is just like. tsaritsa posting again though #the tsaritsa who loves so deeply yet cannot love #contradictions all the way down #she loves you but she cannot love you. #she loves you but she will put a dagger between your ribs. she loves you but she is incapable of love #tsaritsa the woman that u r ough #harbingers and their complex relations 2 love my beloved #smth smth tsaritsa seeing an opportunity to install a puppet “creator” which creates a separate imposter!au when the actual creator pops in #did i write this just 2 write tsaritsa being vague and Weird and horrifying and a horror and a lover and just a woman and #yeah :] #please talk 2 me abt the tsaritsa pleas epleas pleas eplease please please please p[lease please pleas

[cottoncandysprite]

Y'all ever look back and realize your least fav character in your fav show was actually the one most painfully similar to who you were when you first watched it

#the guide my love I'm so sorry #to be completely fair tho most of the stuff I relate to in her came after season 3 (the last season when I first watched) #also shes not my least fav anymore I actually love her dearly in s4 and especially 5 #but yeah jesus christ shes so me from 3 years ago... #yall ever fall deeply in unrequited love with your girlbestie #whose cool queer friend group want nothing to do with you bc of how weird and awkward you are #all while dealing with trauma you had buried for years but you now realize severely changed you as a person #anyway. #wwdits #ramblies

[dustteller]

Reading He Who Drowned the World and honestly Baoxiang has no right to be as bitchy as he is about Ouyang squandering Esen's love or whatever. Baoxiang is genuinely convinced that Esen loathes him. No you dumb bitch, your brother loves you and the reason he's giving you a hard time is because he wants you to be safe and happy and healthy. Yeah, he sucks at expressing it, and his efforts are misguided (bc the toxic masculinity gender rolesis fucking up Esen as much as it's fucking up everyone else), but Esen very much does love Baoxiang deeply. Every time Baoxiang remembers a time when Esen "enjoyed his fear" or whatever, I can only think of these parts of Esen's POV from the first book:

Esen's first instinct is to defend his brother. The only reason he doesn't is bc Baoxiang leaves before he can. And Baoxiang glares at him bc he assumes that Esen agrees with Altan and won't defend him, but no, Esen WANTED to defend him and it's Baoxiang that took away his oportunity to do so.

And a bit later, we have this interaction. Baoxiang assumes (again) that Esen would hate him if he was gay, and immediately goes on the defensive. Meanwhile, Esen literally does not care about this except for how it would affect his brother's reputation. He's just WORRIED. He doesn't care if Baoxiang is gay or whatever, but he's deeply aware that if he IS it would put him in more danger. Because, again, he cares about his brother, and he hates seeing what he assumes is Baoxiang making his own life harder.

And it's heartbreaking bc Baoxiang will probably never realize how much Esen adores him. He's so jealous of Ouyang for having his brother's heart without realizing that Esen sees him as his beloved baby brother and is desperately trying to protect him from a world that he KNOWS is cruel to him. Baoxiang will never know that his greatest supporter and the only person that loved him unconditionally was Esen. And maybe it would be WORSE if he realized how dear he was to Esen, because the realization that all thise things that caused him pain were borne out of a deep, unconditional LOVE and not the disdain he's convinced himself Esen felt for him might break him. Baoxiang has deluded himself into simplifying Esen's feelings for him into those of hate and disdain because its so much harder to accept that the person you love the most has destroyed you out of love. Baoxiang is doing the exact same thing Ouyang does in convincing himself that he's unlovable and relishing in the world's response as a form of self-harm. And Esen, who is genuinely trying (and floundering horribly) is a great tool for Baoxiang to use to tear himself apart.

And, on the other hand, Esen will never realize how much damage his attempts to help Baoxiang caused. He loves him so much, bc that's his baby brother! It's his job to protect him! But Esen has been raised as the golden poster child of a Mongol Warrior Man, a perfect pinacle of masculinity, and is thus doomed to only being able to express his love and acceptance for Baoxiang through a tough love, lets sand down all the edges to remove friction approach. For him, pushing Baoxiang into a box IS an act of love. It's the act of saying I love and accept you, and so I will help you succeed in all the things you're bad at so that everyone will love you too. Except by doing this, he doesn't realize how awful he's being and how he's asking someone that CANT ever fit the mold to break himself in the attempt. He's a perfect Mongol Warrior Man after all, and as such he has never been given the tools to express his affection in a healthy way. He will never truly understand how much he's an asshole, not because he is lacking in love (as Baoxiang assumes) or because he is incapable of sympathizing (as ouyang thinks), but because understanding is not something allowed of him and his role in society. At the end of the day, Esen is as much a slave to his role as all the other characters are, and now he's dead he will never be able to break free of the assumptions people have made of him. He went to his grave having destroyed the people he loved most, and now he will never have the chance to prove their assumptions wrong as be better.

#he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #wang baoxiang #esen temur #gosh i have many thoughts about this #i have repeated things here particularly in regards to Esen #but idc #listen if we're gonna give other characters a pass for their “gender angst bullshit that has a bodycount” i think Esen also deserves one #gender roles are destructive and they are fucking him up too. #bc even the perfect poster children aren't actually perfect and are also trying to live up to something they cannot achieve #also slightly unrelated but growing queer and neurodivergent in a hispanic family where the neurodivergent one is genetic #i am related to many Esen's. they love me deeply and I love them and we have all been broken by the same wheel. #and i can see that the trauma and harm they pass down to me is the armor they've cobbled together to survive. #and it's so heavy but it is the only way they know how to help me. #so i have a really big soft spot for Esen. #leave him alone he's doing his best!!

[aq2003]

#vax'ildan #vex'ahlia #keyleth #percy de rolo #grog strongjaw #pike trickfoot #scanlan shorthalt #taryon darrington #critical role #vox machina #cr #cr1 #voted percy on this one bc he is like me for real but if i was worse. #runner up is keyleth . idk if i actually relate to her or if i just deeply understand where she's coming from at all times but. Yeah <3

[dolores-slay]

Just saw someone post in the anders main tag a list of his 'red flags' among which are that he is self deprecating/insecure in the relationship, that he 'talks about politics all the time' and that he has no personal friends. Like I very much understand it not being the romance for you, you don't HAVE to do it! But do realize that the people who are into it are into it precisely because he doesn't change as a character completely for your sake if you romance him lmao

#anyway can't relate all my girlies love the anders romance #but you have these other three hot bisexuals and that straight boy to choose from! #if u don't get it u don't get it #not everyone can get it after all #anyway main tag character negativity? uncouth imho #also the whole 'this is not a healthy relationship by real life standards' yeah cause THIS GUY IS KINDA NOT OKAY #he's deeply broken by the kind of life he was forced into for the crime of being born a certain way #actually rather realistic that a person as deeply traumatized as that wouldn't meet cosmo dating green flag perfect date criteria #but I have news about the other three companions then who are (also traumatized and it affects their relationships in different ways)

[annamaryllis]

I would like to know exactly how luke asking annabeth to run away with him went down.

#annabeth🥺 #it's sad to think about how it'll be so much harder for annabeth to unpack and heal from that relationship bc he's dead #it's hard enough to come to terms with someone you love/held in high esteem hurting you so deeply #but she's also grieving him too so it's even harder to hold him accountable to herself and recognizing the good and the bad #she may struggle to not romanticize the memory of him #sorting through what about their relationship was pure and genuine and what was fueled by other stuff #both of their trauma really played into it in some of the worst ways... #but to even recognize how her trauma played into it she'd have to identify what her trauma even is and how it's affected her life #it's really complex and difficult work #and bc he's gone she'll never get to question him on stuff like what he was thinking at certain points and why #so certain things will never get the best closure #ugh it's all so fucked up #MAYBE SOMETHING WE COULD HAVE EXPLORED IN HOO RICHARD???? BUT NO #and it would have been perfect too bc she'd also be dealing with issues caused by both of her parents triggered by the MoA quest #like her mother's conditional love #and trauma from her mortal family #and her fear of spiders relates to both of these things bc it's a phobia that's passed down from her mom's actions #so she's being punished for something she's not responsible for and also being burdened with a quest simply for being her mother's daughter #and it also represents her mortal family's neglect bc they ignored her needs and all that... #AND THEN the only person she's received actually pure and good unconditional love from was snatched from her for 6 months #and the MoA quest could have been a way to confront some of these fears and wounds...so she's a little stronger by tartarus which #should bring out the best in her and the worst in percy #and then he can work through some stuff too down there #HoO could have been a journey for them where they're undone and then healed #bc at the end of everything they have the medicine to literally everything which is real love (which they have for each other intensely) #the rant I could go on about this...I have so many thoughts about what HoO should have been. maybe one day #annabeth chase #luke castellan #✏️

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know multiple of these are likely important to people, but I'm asking in terms of like - which of these do you tend to focus on the MOST, enjoy the most, that is most essential for you to actually care about the media, etc.?

(For example: someone finding "Relatability" most important would likely not enjoy a show much if they have trouble empathizing with the characters/relating to it, even if it were good otherwise. Or, someone might be able to overlook bad acting and ugly costumes, as long as the Character Dynamics are fun to them, because they value that more than Aesthetics- while for others, bad costumes would be a dealbreaker.)

Also feel free to reblog and explain your answer or more information in the tags- I've always been curious about people's relationships to media, how they conceptualize it/what they get out of it, how some people value some parts more than others, how that informs their overall taste and genres they may be more inclined towards, etc. :0c

#I was having a conversation with a friend about our favorite type of media and they said the reason they DON'T like historical or fantasy #media or etc. is because they can't imagine themselves being in those situations like it's too detached from anything that they can relate #to personally. they put themselves in the shoes of the characters and apparently like feel emotions while watching stuff and actually #get into the way the characters are feeling so they kind of judge how 'good' or 'bad' a show's writing/setting/etc. are by how it makes #them feel and if they think the characters reacted realistically based on what they were feeling in the moment/what in their head they #would be feeling if they were in the postion of the character. SO apparently the distance of it being in an unrelatable setting or too #detached from our reality makes it harder for them to relate to and less able to really engage with it on that level. WHEREAS I watch #things exclusively in a very like.. detached way?? I'm INTERESTED.. it's like im intellectually analyzing everyhting that's happening and #can be intrigued by events but it's not in an emotional way? More of like a distant 'intellectual curiosity'. Maybe the premise or the #aesthetics or something about it has piqued an interest for me to observe it. to see what it's like or how it plays out. how the idea #is executed or etc. But like.. I cannot remember EVER really relating to any character or situation or projecting onto a character #or having those sorts of feelings or investment in it. That is just not a central part of why/how I watch things or what I care about #BUT after this I was thinking maybe this is my disconnect? I do not seem to conceptualize media the way some other people do and I often #walk away with an entirely different take on things. etc. So I wonder if maybe it's part of how everyone values different things probably? #maybe I literally just watch stuff and percieve it from a different frame of mind that others. More of a like detached curiosity #vaguely bemused analysis mode. Instead of a 'I am deeply emotionally invested in this and am feeling for all the characters' mode #And also I bet people who care more about plot/story are also the people who mind spoilers. Whereas for me I literally seek out spoilers #intentionally because that element of 'suprise ooh what will happen next!' is not central at all to my enjoyment. I could know literally #everything that will happen and still can find it interesting to observe - since for me #that's not the point. I'd rather know the ending so I can determine whether I want to invest the time in it in the first place. etc. #ANYWAY!! If I had to choose - I would say I'm usually heavily focused on world details and aesthetics. With only a slight preference #towards characters individually being interesting. Group dynamics can sometimes be okay but I get tired of everything being about relations #hips and romance - especially when sometimes it seems to be like. people who could not stand on their own as a character/are fundamentally #boring otherwise lol. I would watch a series of just one guy locked in a closet talking to himself as long as he was interesting and saying #things that were amusing or notable for some reason lol. I actually tend to dislike plot because most 'plot heavy' things like action focus #ed shows ALWAYS feel to me like they're moving so fast just to get from one thing to another that I'm not getting enough details. Part of #why I tend to not like movies. the time limit makes them too quick. I need a 95 hour expostion dump of the history of the entire world #and a series of 17 episodes straight where a guy is trapped in a room & the audience is just psychoanalyzing him. hghj.. Maybe I find all #characters annoying/unrelatable bc people w my personality type make bad characters/are not often represented (or are done BADLY). so then #I'm just picking 'who is the LEAST insufferable? who could i study like a lab rat?' whilst my main focus is the worldbuilding&costumes lol

[epicdogymoment]

gender and sexuality labels are so fucking hard how am i supposed to know how what i experience (already hard to pin down) compares to what "normal people" experience (completely unknown to me)

#leologisms #smthn smthn gender and sexuality labels are social constructs that exist within the assumption of a 'normal' experience #and a) i have no idea what EXACTLY that experience is supposed to be like b) im not fully convinced it actually EXISTS #youre telling me 'normal' people all experience attraction/gender in this ONE particular way? for real? youve gotta be lying to me #even ''''''normal'''''' (allo cishet) people talk about how their experiences with romance dont align with how its commonly talked about #how am i (transgay autist) supposed to know exactly what a 'normal' experience is in order to categorise myself in relation to it #more and more i find myself attracted to ambiguous identities because i have no way of defining myself more precisely that feels right #not male or female or even nonbinary but simply transgender. if 'gay' didnt carry the meaning 'homosexual' id probably identify more #strongly with it too (rather than bi) #for a while ive been wondering about ace identities but ive been reluctant to actually explore them too deeply because a) im afraid of #stepping on toes (for some reason. i dont know why.) b) im sure these labels ARE useful for lots of people but man. considering right now i #in a sort of. 'dont look at it too hard' space wrt my identities i dont actually think id even feel very comfortable w any of them anyway #do i experience attraction in a normal way? maybe. define normal.

[rainbowwyrm]

Guess what hyper-fixation I gained recently

Reblogs are appreciated!

#and it only takes just one char analysis video on my fyp to send me into a fricking death spiral #i've actually heard of gk before i just never got into it until now #ofc out of the all of the hot male chars i chose the shittiest one. And the worst part is that i deeply relate to him for some reason??? #him ruining every opportunity to improve himself and be with better ppl due to his own self-perceived notions of being defective hits hard #golden kamuy #golden kamuy fanart #golden kamuy ogata #gk ogata #ogata hyakunosuke #hyakunosuke ogata #my art #digital art #sketches #procreate #wyrm's art

[fiapple]

repeat after me: if you are the descendent of colonizers living on stolen land, you do not get to judge the methods of decolonial resistance movements.

#this isn’t in relation to the last reblog itself it just reminded me of something #thoughts #sarahofmagdelene has some good shorts about this on insta though #like specifically abt how it relates to white feminism + patriarchal notions of (white) womanhood #the skinny of it being that white women tend to impose the standards of white womenhood laid out by white patriarchy onto those who they ar #*womanhood #(​sorry all over the place today) #complicit in the oppression of with the added specifically racialized view of violent resistance through the lens of various savage tropes #have to get a copy of her book after the strike tbh #but yeah i think a lot about this in congruence with how authoritarianism is such a deeply engrained aspect of whiteness & how that itself #contributes to the attitudes being discussed here being so prevalent even among my fellow white people who consider themselves leftist or #progressive (& how that relates to how many white people are liberals/neoliberals posing as being farther left than they are) #but if we were to relate this specifically to the last reblog i would like to point out that another part of that is the whiteness frames #good & bad as an immutable either/or binary & the way super fucked up notions of purity play into whiteness #which (not an excuse absolutely not acting like this is still 100000% white supremacist at its core) is what leads my fellow white people t #be so fearful of having current or past wrong doings pointed out as such & why so many are more concerned with being seen as racist than w #the actual racism they perpetuate/garner privilege from #because that means being horrible with no chance of change (thoug oppressed ppl do 100% hold the right to view their oppressors as such #the white guilt this often leads to when self imposed is what leads to attitudes like the article from the last post describes) #(& so the difference of perspective in the oppressed feeling that way & the oppressor using it to self flagellate is v important here) #& all of this is ultimately rooted in the carcerality inherent to whiteness as a social construct #both in terms of the far worse tangible violence imposed upon poc (particularly black people & fn ppl here in canada) & the carceral view o #morality white “culture” imposes upon those white people who are unwilling to fully do the work to divest from whiteness #hope this is coherent #also if any of this is out of line plz lmk #but basically to cut to the chase power (& as a result empowerment of the oppressed) viewed through the lens whiteness has set for it will #always be fucked up & lead to completely racist conclusions about liberation movements for poc #& the reason i mention this in relation to decolonial movements specifically is due to whiteness being an inherently colonial construct it’ #*itself #racism

[secondwhisper]

"Transmasculine people who claim to be adversely affected by sexism are bioessentialists cloaked in progressive language, discrimination on the basis of ""biological sex"" isn't real!"

Oh right, sorry. I forgot that sexism in medical research means that endometriosis, ME/CFS, migraines, post-concussive syndrome, Raynaud's phenomenon, and so many other conditions are only understudied in women. Of course endometriosis For Men™, ME/CFS For Men™, migraines For Men™, post-concussive syndrome For Men™, Raynaud's phenomenon For Men™, etc., are all well-funded fields of research and totally understood. Medical research cares only about the gender of an individual patient, not the association of a condition with people of a certain gender. Patriarchal devaluation of women's health, women's illnesses being treated as fundamentally hysteric, and (peri)cissexist reductions of any individual to the reproductive system(s) they were born with clearly only affect people whose gender is woman, nobody else.

Wilfully ignorant motherfuckers.

#HOW can you rightfully argue that sexism is systemic #and ALSO claim that it only affects people according to their self-identified rather than socially-assigned gender. #i do not know how to explain to you that structural oppression has both personal and impersonal modalities #my own post wow #sorry for the heavy sarcasm this is just so fucking deeply frustrating #anyone who is sufficiently proximal to woman-ness gets caught up in this is it truly not difficult to understand #was my [conditions] being brushed aside medical sexism when i ID'ed as a girl but now that i ID as nonbinary the same dismissal is not #the same dismissal is not related to the fact that doctors still see me as basically-a-woman #a personal in a ''female body'' #with Women's Health problems #obviously this is still fucking sexism! #and also obviously trans women experience a shitton of medical sexism! #they are not immune to ME/CFS or migraines or whatever just bc doctors see them as ''male bodied''!!! #they are gonna face the same ''i think this is all in your head'' sexist hysteric-woman bullshit! #but like. claiming that transmascs who arent women cant possibly face sexism just means you will not look at how sexism actually functions #fuck. cis men with migraines are still fucked by the sexist lack of research into a condition that so disproportionally disables women #this is not new. nothing I'm saying is new.

[slutdge]

more and more the trans "community" really doesnt feel like a place for all of us, it feels more like a white trans circle jerk to convince themselves they dont need to be intersectional and examine/change the eurocentric ideas and standards theyre pushing that hurt trans poc. im tired, every trans poc i know is tired, feeling like we cant exist anywhere without being forced to conform to whiteness and god forbid we ever speak out about it or we get called too sensitive and told we "dont need to make it about race" or even sometimes that were transphobic despite being trans ourselves. more and more im cynical of white trans people because of this pattern. develop intersecionality or die, because im not being nice about it anymore, and i never should have been in the first place. there is no trans liberation if youre not liberating all of us by exterminating the eurocentricism within the trans community. its just plain old white supremacy repackaged with trans inclusiveness this time.

#whites can reblog this if you want to i of course know youre not all like this #i have some white trans friends who are actually very cool and decolonized about gender #but the loudest voices are white centric and i cant take it #im tired ive been brought to tears by this three days in a row because white people just refuse to understand my cultural identity #or any kind of race-related struggle that factors into gender #it cuts deeply #trans tag

[kimmkitsuragi]

look this will be extremely 2016-core of me to say but. 16 year old me would genuinely cry if she saw dan and phil announcing their gaming channel is back with a video featuring jacksepticeye

#i know their gaming channel was still active in 2016 BUT DO U GET MY POINT???? #im ngl i do not keep up with these guys anymore the last time i actually try to keep up was when they came out #and then i started to not enjoy their recent videos :( so i stopped #hopefully i have enough cringe living inside of me so that i can still watch their gaming videos :3 #once again im ngl even if i dont keep up w these guys anymore they still mean so much to me tbh like....... #it's s hard to explain #above all else; they literally taught me english!!! 😭😭 not even kidding!!!!! #i remember i started watching their videos while i still couldnt really understand english that much sdhfbdfh especially not spoken english #WITH accents mind u #and im 100% serious the moment i realized 'HOLY SHIT i can actually understand spoken english to a good extent rn????' #i was literally watching a dnp video at that exact moment #so yeah dnp literally taught me english. this is only one of the reasons why i care abt them deeply still #let's not get into the more emotional reasons #anyway another thing is sean was THE reason i got into gaming im not even kidding 😭 #i just realized i was so fucking real in middle school. a non-english speaker whose fave youtubers are #3 english-speaking dudes with Hard Accents. hell yeah #i need this exact energy with german rn #anywayyyyy i was also gonna say something else sbhsdbfdbfs im sorry for rambling but #everytime i open up sims 4 my thoughts are always related to dnp gaming channel fr #🗒 #sorry to be cringe or whatever btw #dnp

[piningprecussionist]

literally my favorite blog on tumblr. Ur perfect at being Kim Pine and I love the little notes it the tags :3

(^ this is me at you rn)

Thank you so much <333 it seriously means the world to me that people love/like my Kim stuff. AND to know that some of yall actually read my silly little notes

I try to keep her as in character as I can, and I feel I have been largely successful, for the most part. I feel like she comes fairly naturally to me- I only occasionally hit snags,, but usually that's just because I'm high or something and am overcome with the desire to Maximize The Silly shfgkjshjld She's so serious though, usually. I love her <3 I love getting to be her for The People

#im never sure how many of those little notes get read but i love leaving them. little insight into my Unhinged Mind. or my day sometimes #not all of them make it into the final post- sometimes i go ''hm perhaps that is too many notes'' and remove some-- or decide they didn't + #+need to be there for whatever reason. but yeah i like leaving them for people #ooc #txt #asks #anon #im like one unhinged moment away from making ANOTHER kim blog one of these days you guys dont even know #((it would be future kim... i want to write about The Goats. I'd /j but I'm not joking. it would be a kimona blog basically sdkjfshj)) #((want to live my ''they have goats in the future'' truth and no one should be allowed to stop me)) #idk if I'll do that though. I still haven't opened the werewolf kim blog (cause yes that does exist. i've actually given a very big hint at #+the username for it here for people that have ALL the hints... but only two people know about it I think) #((as i write this actually i am. unsure if i explicitly told the second person the username for that one.... for people who didn't receive #+the hints from before or need/want a reminder- I am Genuinely Shocked it wasn't a taken username w the userbase of this site- and it's + #+also a song reference. I feel like it's findable w that :3c )) #but yeah. like i have said in the discord a couple times now: i am she and she is me. I love getting to be Kim here it's great #i love and relate to her a lot. she is deeply beloved

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I need to stop saying "it's whatever/doesn't matter" whenever things go wrong at my expense and others try to apologise for having a part in things going wrong.

#most recent example. my father is currently fixing my room's walls #and he's handling big bulky insulation boards and knocked down some of my nail polish bottles. #they could've shattered since the fell from a decent height. it would've devastated me #but all i said was ''it's whatever'' and my father said ''actually it's not!'' #and tbh this is making me think............ #the way i so deeply care about my belongings but act unaffected whenever something happens to them #literally readily submitting myself to the harm it does to my brain and putting myself down preemptively in a way? #like yeah okay shit happened cannot change it now. not allowed to get mad over it. no use crying over spilled milk. won't fix anything. #like the most hardcore shōganai mindset ever. i wish i wasn't this way lol #(at least i'm not highly reactive and explode into anger and attack mode on the spot anymore) #(i can still recall when it happened and i probably scared off many people with my dramatic and hostile reaction. i'm ashamed) #(no wonder i didn't have many friends as a child. i was so easily triggered and overly sensitive #and depending on the trigger i either isolated myself or when others still kept bothering me i lashed the hell out.) #(i did do some serious physical damage to other kids back in kindergarten due to these outbursts on a few occasions...) #NO WONDER I RELATE TO RANDY SO MUCH AAAHHHHHH IT'S ALL COMING BACK TO ME HELP I AM REMEMBERING