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(holding myself back by the metaphorical leash and collar) DO NOT FALL BACK INTO FAWNING PEOPLE PLEASING PATTERNS BRO IT'S A TRAP

#here i thought i was fine but then i see something that could be interpreted in the most Reachful Way #to mean i might've done something super innocuous that someone dear to me doesn't like (literally no realistic harm done) #aND I'M READY TO TRIP OVER MYSELF TO LAY AT THEIR FEET AND ASK THEM TO POINT OUT WHAT I DID WRONG AND HOW I CAN FIX IT #lowkey gave me mental whiplash ngl #me @ me: dear boy calm down. this isn't you anymore. leave it in the past.

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I need a way to say this character makes me feel insane amounts of lust but not in a sexual or romantic way

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Fuck it. Crochet cartilaginous stingray skeleton

#crochet #HELL YEAH

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im gonna be 50 on here still being like ive got a war in my mind i just ride

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mutuals and followers at large I'm glad you're alive and I hope it gets easier

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When Benson chokeslams Randy into the wall after he tries to give his mom the phone, you can barely see Randy's hand come up in a vague, instinctive attempt to push Benson away. But then he just...stops himself and puts his hand back down at his side. Idk I keep thinking about how it's probably so intense for Randy to feel physically overpowered like that and not even try to fight back lol. I mean it's interesting bc Benson is the only one we see physically harming Randy, Chris never tries to hit or fight him - it was all psychological. At least with Benson's physical conflict it's something real and tangible and with a clear beginning and end. Randy is so far inside his own insular world, it's almost like Benson ends up seeing the abuse as a means to pull Randy out of his own head. Physically hurting him causes Randy to really feel his own body, it forces him to access his most basic survival instincts, and I think arguably ends up being able to, in some sick way, ground him in his own almost forgotten humanity. Randy so badly wants to face his own humanity without any shame or fear or guilt and in some ways I think Benson beating him provides him with an outlet to do that - feeling the limits of his own body and knowing he isn't in control of anything that is happening to him in those moments. He doesn't have to make choices that could end poorly or with guilt, he simply has to exist in and rely on his body to take what Benson gives him. As twisted as it is, I think there's ultimately something comforting in that for Randy. Idk he really is so fascinating to me and the way he just stands there and takes it all is insane

#bensonapologist my beloved why are you always SO RIGHT #the passenger 2023 #gonna mentally chew on this for at least the rest of the day

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need him in a way that's concerning to my Geiger counter

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The urge to bother my mutuals

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“how would you feel if someone blocked you just because they found you annoying?” then i wouldn’t have to interact with someone who thinks i’m annoying? i don’t see a problem

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Mina— Connecticut, 1970s

#art #character design #my aesthetic senses are tingling #70s #fashion

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(sigh) it's time to admit to myself that I have severe I Can Fix Him (gender neutral) Disease. Yes, it is chronic AND fatal 😔

#but fr this has been going on since i was a kid. #always felt like EVERYTHING bad was my fault but also that i somehow possess the magic ability to fix everything if i just got involved #like what is that about??? someone needs to study me in a lab asap #simultaneously the harbinger of doom and destruction and also the only one who can possibly fix it #both applied to situations AND people

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I might have some type of inflammation in my general head cavity

headache is still going strong, my nose is still 50% stuffed, and now my ears decided I'm only allowed to hear things heavily muffled.

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brb throwing ibuprofen at it hoping it'll all resolve itself 👍

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perfume bottle with heart-shaped stopper

#my aesthetic senses are tingling

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directors using colorful or "impossible" lighting to convey mood and meaning and beauty my beloved. directors making night scenes impossible to see for the sake of realism my beloathed.

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#mood