#I’m constantly in awe of him

[emotinalsupportturtle]

the main reason I will always be obsessed with David Tennant is that fundamentally, we share the same mental illness

#I’m constantly in awe of him #and obv he's immensely talented and attractive and a great person #but that man is clearly insane #i mean he sits and writes 10k essays on the homoerotic subtext of shakespeare #he can't sit still for like 2 seconds #or sit normally on a chair #he thinks using real skulls for hamlet is cool (it is) #he says things like “i'd rather hide under a table than go out” and “i wear hoodies so people don't talk to me (they assume I'm a murderer) #he faked an assistant to get out of attending events #is obsessive about his geeky shows #is somewhat an adrenaline junkie. said about doing theatre; #“it was horrible and it was actually killing me. but once it was over i ofc thought to myself 'oh i think i might have to do that again” #in interviews he keeps going off in tangents and looses the complete point of the question #i mean i just watched one where he was asked about his first day on set on doctor who #and he somehow ended up on passionately speaking how we are all fucked if donald trump is elected (this was before he was president) #and nearly started an anti-trump campaign (king) #has the chronic inability to make sartorial choices that would result in anything but the gayest outfits #has imposter syndrome #ofc i can only aspire to be fractionally as cool as him #but all this actually deeply relatable #this is probably why tumblr likes him so much #david tenannt

[cinnamontoads]

i like cillian murphy he’s like if a beautiful pixie and an undead enchanted skeleton had a baby

#i’m constantly oscillating between aw he’s kind of cute and jesus christ don’t look at me you’re terrifying #someone buy him brown contacts please i’m shaking

[atopvisenyashill]

one day i will explain how my complete indifference to both tyrion as a character and his fear/hatred of cersei ties into my hidden tragic backstory but today is not that day.

#i’m still gonna write long meta about the way tyrion & scorpius’ disabilities & loss of their mothers impact their worldview tho #um but the thing is my most controversial take is that cersei is justified in her hatred of tyrion #i understand that she hates him for ableist reasons but he also constantly does awful things that would make Anyone hate him #play stupid games win stupid prizes & unfortunately he is just as collasaly bad at politics as his bitch ass daddy!! #i have figured out i’m putting off adwd bc of him too so there is that aksjsjdj

[ohlovxr]

look look look i know he’s in pain but the very idea of hallucination lucifer taunting sam about you and putting all sorts of skin crawling ideas into his head that really shouldn’t be getting him hard just… makes me so horny

#like the scene where his like awe he’s holding your wittle hand to sam about dean bc he was checking his cut #like he does so much of that with you but like completely dirty #the shit he puts in sam’s head can be so violent and so noncon themed #like he’s constantly waking him up in the middle of the night to let him know how easy it would be so slide on into you #idk maybe it’s just me #maybe i’m the problem #maybe i’ve got issues #sam winchester x reader #tw noncon #tw somnophilia

[neurotypical-karen]

I am haunted by the post that’s like “men will see a mouse and eat it” because while I’ve never seen a man eat a mouse I did watch a group of boys in my high school art class catch a mouse running around the school and then kill and disembowel it

#animal death #the ringleader of these guys would constantly sneak onto my family’s land to hunt #and then complain to me that my uncle was awful. because he would yell at him for sneaking onto our land to hunt #he was a cool guy. called my friend a tranny in the local gas station a few years ago #I’m just reminiscing on weird high school experiences bc I have had a lot of Small Town Shit happen to me this weekend

[dreamertrilogys]

i’m not even kidding this is how i feel every single day at school 😵‍💫

#physics is the longest class of the day (it’s first period and i don’t see him until 2nd) #.txt #i mean there are other reasons physics class feels suffocating (awful student teacher + i don’t understand anything + assigned seating #+ being constantly loudly deadnamed by both the teachers etc) but still #<- i’m not out to them or anything but like come ON i don’t want to even be talking to you just act normal (ignore me) fr #also i’m not out to other teachers but they avoid saying my name bc i just seem very transgender lol #crushposting #oh also another embarrassing fun fact: i’ve been meaning to make this post for literal weeks. like i’ve thought about this trc scene in the #context of my life while lying in bed trying to sleep but i don’t have my phone on me then #trc lb

[lilgynt]

honestly fine with gale as far as how he responds and feels about counter violence to the capitol like i get why katniss is like i hate how he treats innocent human beings like they’ve personally responsible for his suffering and doesn’t know about taking a life up close like she’s right but also he’s thinking big picture during a war and doesn’t help most of his thoughts about the capitol or said war are proven right - like when he’s like is it safe to have everyone gathered here at the hospital and katniss is thinking yeah this can’t be healthy or encourage healing and he’s thinking no they’re gonna be targeted bc they can’t run and are useless for capitol use and bam what happens. he’s right in his own way half the time but what annoys the fuck me about him is him being like so pushy about his feelings even when he KNOWS katniss is completely oblivious to that kind of stuff and keeps blindsiding her with it and getting mad at her for not knowing what to do with that info even with the fact that she found out at like. the worst time of her life when she was stuck in a situation she would have a very hard time getting out of safely with everyone she loves and holds it against her she cares about peeta at all and the whole you only care about me in pain and all i could think is i’ll never compete with how much pain peeta is in so i lost it’s like so you understand how katniss operates is mostly out of concern and worry romantically wise bc she hasn’t had a chance to care about this shit outside of like oh who i am hurting/killing with my choices and then are STILL like im gonna kiss her then stop bc she’s obviously not into it at the moment for the right reasons and it’s like kissing drunk i get he’s like a teenager and is a dumb shit but also leave that girl alone for the love of GOD

#personal #like sorry! i’m gonna like peeta more where they have scenes #where katniss actively seeks him out after nightmares and refuses to let his hand go #where they spend their last free day just hanging out and cuddling and she’s like okay. to letting this moment go on forever #when she thinks about kissing him she’s like yeah it felt nice and had a suprising heat and i miss it now that i can actually think about #and in general seems like every moment isn’t spent feeling super guilty or worrying about his feelings #like that’s a large bit of it but more circumstancal than like. something that would happen with peeta #but with gale katniss is like i just want my friend back i feel bad i hurt his feelings like this #how can i make him feel better i wish it was like before and she’s constantly throwing out olive branches #and gale is upset with nearly choice she makes so yeah i get why she’s like okay yeah ill kiss him see if that helps #and in her mind it’s like peeta equals the capitol getting what they want and that path #holds so much danger and just. acceptance of the awful life ahead of her #so even if she does talk about his long eyelashes at length i could see why she’s like confused about feelings for him #and gale seems like okay picking him is picking a different life even she’s not actively picking him for him #does this make sense i don’t know but i get peeved during gale katniss scenes like give that girl a BREAK. #she’s been through two hunger games is obviously fucked up dealing with a lot of background drama and obviously cares about the people #around her stop being so fuckin mean #like they have nice scenes but it’s not their romantic scenes for sure #she feels safe with gale wants him around and they have nice banter but he keeps fucking it up with this i love you crap #even when he realized he likes her like damn.

[eriophorumcallitrix]

ignore this post I’m venting my disappointment in the tags abt twitter LMFAOOO

#dude do you have any idea how fucking awful it feels to go on a social media site and have your favourite character just be constantly #shit on? like I’ve gotten attached in an autistic way to this fucker and now it’s legitimately made my mental health for the past few days #TANK. I used to go on twitter and see people be normal instead of being bombarded with hatred from every angle #and not to get me started on the fact that bad refuses to fucking say anything #like okay man! just let the hatred fester and let people who actually liked you turn on you because you made a stupid ass decision #it’s literally just a hostile fucking environment on one end and the other is in radio silence #im still so attached and I fucking hate it #I hate the motherfuckers on twitter and I hate bad being so goddamn silent #I hate the people defending him in places where he’s wrong and I hate the people who take every chance to twist his words #I love my mutuals who are sensible people #but I cannot fucking stand everything else #and sorry for being so upset when im shamed out of a special interest and what used to be a safe place for me #you motherfuckers have EVERYTHING. you have the numbers. the popular ships. you have people who will defend you #literally cannot have shit in this place #our fav is treated like shit and yours is praised to the high heavens #in and out of game he’s constantly fucking disrespected #can you even imagine how that feels to someone who gets so attached to a character and his dynamic that it influences their mental state #or is it just easier to play the Saint who is never wrong and will never be #I fucking hate what bad did and I’m disgusted that he’s still friends with that fucker #and I am still attached to his character and story #the shame is legitimately overwhelming #fuck it all. really and truly #and most of all fuck qsmptwt I cannot stand you motherfuckers #my mutuals and oomfs are obviously exempt from previous statement

[akkpipitphattana]

i think kids should have way more of a say in custody battles btw

#like obvs if they literally can’t speak for themselves but even if they’re only like five or six they’re voice matters #and yes if there’s like definitive proof that the parent they choose is hurting them/an unfit parent that sucks #but kids are also so much smarter than people give them credit for #i’m so pissed off rn bc my brother is getting divorced and his ex is a manipulative bitch that has such control over him #she’s convinced him to go 50/50 with her having placement and it’s such BULLSHIT because shes an awful mother #she’s put hands on her kid before and she lives with her parents who are constantly yelling at him #not to mention she has two other kids shes fucked up and one doesn’t even talk to her #and my brother isn’t the best dad but he’s way better when she’s not around #and he also lives with us rn so the kid at least has me and my parents who care and have patience with him #and it’s just pissing me off bc everytime my nephew leaves here he throws a fit bc he doesn’t wanna fucking see his mom #and he’s just allowing her to make the fucking decisions. he’s not standing up for his kid at all #and it’s not like i don’t have sympathy for the fact that she’s clearly manipulating him but #BUT SHE HAD HIM ADMITTED LAST NIGHT AND THIS MORNING HES SINGING HER PRAISES #i’m just so pissed. i want better for my nephew #he deserves so much better than this #liz rambles

[rachiller]

One thing I am NOT looking forward to about going home for Christmas is having to watch my little brother get misgendered and deadnamed and having to constantly correct my parents about it/not being able to do anything re: my grandparents bc I think he’s technically still not out to them. Anyway here’s to three straight days of referring to him as ‘the child’ and ‘munchkin’ around company like I did when he was only out to me and I didn’t want to deadname him lmaooo

#like this is 100% not about my feelings #I love that little twink so much I hate how hard it is for him #I just want him to be able to live and experience life without transphobia and ignorance is that so much to ask 🤧🤧🤧 #like if it’s exhausting to me to constantly correct his name how must it feel for him 🙃 #the nickname thing I will say as an aside worked so well #bc through our lives I have given him annoying nicknames so when I did it to avoid using his deadname without it being weird #it worked SO well no one batted an eye it was normal Rachel behaviour #it was definitely still difficult for me to adapt though #like it’s a lot more natural now to use male pronouns (bc technically he’s more nb but he loves it when I use male pronouns and when I call #him my brother he LOVES it) #but in the beginning it’s a constant conscious effort to not use the wrong pronouns/wrong name #I had a dream a while ago that I misgendered him quite badly and I woke up feeling awful and had to text him to tell him about it lmao #like ‘I dreamt I misgendered you and I feel awful I’m sorry I love you’

[schisms]

i feel like a huge worthless failure for calling out of work today which is so dumb and stupid like. i’m gonna die someday. and i’m sitting here freaking out about the fact that i’m not working at my minimum wage job. for one day. like what the HELL is that. i’m already suffering which is why i called out but the suffering doesn’t end, it’s just complicated by guilt. and part of me knows i shouldn’t feel guilty, but i can’t stop. it feels like everyone’s judging me because i can’t even do the bare minimum right now. i feel so ashamed, but i’m so angry that i feel ashamed. i know i shouldn’t have to. but i do. it’s like. obligatory. it’s such a disgusting feeling.

#i’m honestly thinking about putting in my two weeks at this job and going to work for liam and his family again #especially if they try to write me up for this. like. i WANT to keep this job and take advantage of the benefits #but i’m not right now nor am i even in any kind of position to do that anytime soon #idk i’m just gonna talk to my therapist tomorrow #working for liam would. FREE UP my schedule MASSIVELY i just. would not be making as much money #idk. he’s gonna talk to his family about it today so. we’ll see ig. #i might make dinner for him and his dad tonight to just. Feel Like I’m Contributing Something #sigh. i feel so awful right now. #my ocd is just so so so so terrible these days the intrusive thoughts won’t stop #my stomach hurts all the time and i’m anxious about it all the time and it’s just. #a vicious and unrelenting cycle i feel terrified constantly. trapped in this hell body

[oglegoggle]

It bothers me when folks insist that there are literally no good reasons to surrender pets because it destroys their hearts. Like…. My dude…. That evil fuckin cat that slashed my literal eyeball should be surrendered. I found new homes for my three cats because I couldn’t take having multiple panic attacks triggered every single fucking day because they’ve got claws and I’ve got a new dose of fresh PTSD caused by that demon slashing my eye. I still can’t sleep well because of the nightmares about it. The pain and the blood and the temp blindness in that eye and the extreme fear. It’s been months. My life was fucking destroyed and my love of cats ripped from my soul. But I’m the villain? No. Needs drastically change sometimes and it sucks for everyone involved. It wasn’t good for me having cats around. It wasn’t good for my cats to have their only human destabilized and constantly rejecting their affection. They’ve got a new home where all three miraculously got to stay together and are dearly loved again as they deserve to be.

#this is goggles #he didn’t want to surrender her because nobody will adopt a black cat with hardcore behavioral issues that put someone in the ER #and she would likely be put down #yanno the way humans have been dealing with and selectively breeding their domestic animals for literal millennia #but he’s an asshole with behavioral issues himself and doesn’t give a flying fuck about others #lmfao one of his friends told me they think he should honestly be institutionalized for his myriad of out of control behavioral issues #he needs a parent more than a partner but he still continues to date and expect those he dates to baby him #but then is upset when people don’t want to deal with him because he acts like a literal spoiled child #his friends are growing fed up with his shit after seeing how he treated me and that’s so fucking funny to me #good honestly I hope he drives off everyone around him and is left with just himself #in his nasty piss and shit filled dirty laundry nest he calls a home #he reminds me so much of a guy I used to play D&D with who did the exact same shit and was mooching off his dad well into his 60s #and would throw pissbaby fits whenever he wasn’t the center of attention or if anyone told him off for acting like a child #still complains about how awful his two years of marriage 30 years prior were because his ex-wife would constantly nag him to clean up #I was so patient with my ex because I saw a lot of the ways my own behavior was influenced by AuDHD and fucked up and I actually fixed them #I fixed those flaws and now I live in a BH&G levels of clean home I’m on track for a good career #my life transformed while I was with him but his did not and now that I ain’t dealing with him the boons of my work are clear as day #and he’s mad he’s in his parents basement working his $12/hr weed job and getting nagged for being irresponsible and filthy #lmfao moron

[fauxspirited]

if they want to, they will

#i don’t wanna jinx it #but i’m constantly in awe #at just how much of a 180° this is from everything #and i’m giddy just to go to dinner with him tomorrow #happy to spend time with him. all his friends. feel part of a lil crew outside of my own friends

[discoblocks]

So um. Infamous for inaccurate and biased lore recaps, mister Evan mcgaming is working on the next Las Nevadas lore………gamers how we feeling

#discotalks #bad I’m feeling bad #especially when evans las Nevadas recap IN PARTICULAR was especially biased and inaccurate #I can’t imagine why they brought him on except for the thing he’s famous for which is lore recaps but like #he gets lauded as the best recap channel when he ISNT #it’s possible he got brought on for maybe his editing skills? he does do an awful lot of cinematics in all of his recaps #either way. I’m not loving him as an addition #number one way to make me worried that ccs are going to misremember their own lore #since the ‘official recap’ guy is constantly speculative and inaccurate

[pussy-ache]

very annoyed i brought that into other relationships as an actual perceived flaw of mine and it doesn’t even fucking exist as a problem in and of itself

#now it’s all clicking into place. they BOTH were like. what are you talking about? you don’t make me feel that way at all #who told you that you do that? #but i was made to be so fucking PARANOID about it that ir constantly was in my mind as a Problem Inherent To How I Love #i was like …. ‘’well i’ll definitely fall in love again and if i could to that to HIM i can do that to anyone’’ #and i was like hmmm. well i’m bi and both people i could have allowed myself to fall in love with DON’T see this as an issue in me #i was so terrified to fall in love again with someone else BEFORE i had fixed this issue. i consistently was like ‘’am i still doing that’’ #JUST for the simple fact that i WANT to fall in love with someone else and would never want to do that to them #i just find it amazing in a really sickening way that i was told that for so many years that i develeoped a complex about it #the first time he told me that we were 17 years old. i’ve been carrying around that belief about myself #that i love toxically and raise people up to far/make them feel awful when they feel short and it’s not. even. something. i. did. to. him. #i wasted so many years. i had this thought in the back of my head during so many moments. i actually became afraid to fall in love again #simply because it was AWFUL being told that i love in that way. it made me cry that i could ever consistently make someone feel like that #and i spent so much time analyzing my every fucking move in BOTH of those relationships JUST to make sure i was loving correctly #i analyzed it in therapy and then was told by my therapist that i was letting toxic shit go #because i was afraid of holding the other person accountable was actually expecting TOO much of them and putting them on a pedestal #when really i was being treated like shit in one relationship and the other just had no chemistry and no passion #but i also stayed because i thought the way i loved was the problem #i could honestly throw up #i purposelly have been waiting to put myself out there again in a serious way because i never wanted to be told i do that again #i never wanted to make someone feel like that again. to be put on a pedestal is a form of dehumanization. #to tell me i do that is to tell me i dehumanize people when i love them #to have carried that around with me for so long into other relationships is heartbreaking #i. wasted. so. much. time. #i projected that onto other people and i’m so angry at myself for it i almost wanna text and fucking apologize for having such a complex #like i probably drove other people crazy and it was never even a problem to begin with #i ended up MAKING it a problem when it wasn’t one because i was so afraid of falling in love again and doing that to the next person

[latinokaeya-moving]

truly do think this heat is making my dad go crazy because he’s been making the lives of everyone in this house a living hell for the past week just on his whims and random temper tantrums like this cannot go on i’m so sick of just being forced to take whatever stupid shit he decides to throw at us speaking as if he’s the righteous man of the house that knows it all n keeps this family afloat w his ~logic~ and ~reason~ i’m not kidding the next time this man speak to me or my mum or my brother in this way i’m killing myself

#x #i’m so tired i have no more patience maybe it’s the weather that has me frayed but he’s been so awful to all of us and we’re barely able to #catch a break n shake off his outbursts before the next one begins and we can’t say anything bc how dare we speak back or disagree with him. #the Man bc he’s the only one that actually knows how to take care and manage our family as if he doesn’t make us all constantly shrivel up #and cry and bite our tongues every second we’re around him i hate it i hate it here so much i want this man out of my life so fucking bad. #im sick!!! ive felt physically ill everyday for the past week bc of him and im sick of it!!! i’ve had enough of his faux psychological #bullshit abt caring abt us he’s so arrogant and self centered and guilt trippy n thinks he knows what’s best for us when he’s just making us #all WORSE #i’m going to go dunk my head in ice water and DIE i’m tired i’m so done i want out . men are the bane of my existence and have only ever #managed to make my life hellish and miserable