#but UGH lol

[asexualbookbird]

Phew. I am TIRED, yall. Priory kind of sucked the reading energy out of me, so I read a bunch of shorties afterwards, and on top of migraines and brain fog returning, I didn't get nearly as much reading done as I wanted. It really wasn't a great month, but what else is new. I'm here, I survived, and I will keep on kicking. Other than Priory, I did enjoy what I read! I prioritized short, fun, silly reads after the 800 page brick and it helped a lot! So for anyone trying to push through a reading slump, try a silly little novella! Like Murderbot maybe.

The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon ⭐⭐- sigh. A book isn't good just because it's long. This could have been edited down and made great, but the multiple POVs was detrimental to this one. A shame, I was really hopeful about it. Also, needs more dragons.

The Kaiju Preservaton Society by John Scalzi ⭐⭐⭐⭐- Silly! Fun! Easy to read! I read it exactly when I should have, it was perfect for what I needed.

Compulsory by Martha Wells ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ -It's Murderbot, of course I liked it. Even though it was only eight pages, it was still a nice segue away from a long book.

A Wizard's Guide to Defensive Baking by T Kingfisher ⭐⭐⭐⭐- ALSO EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED! I have never been let down by a Kingfihser novel, if you haven't picked up one of her books, I definitely recommend it!

Where the Drowned Girls Go by Seanan McGuire ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐-Ouchie. I felt way too seen by this one, which is how it goes with most of this series. One of my faves from the bunch and I'm glad it's a novella because that means it's easier to reread.

December goals? Raven Tower and Liar's Knot are definitely on my reading list, but other than that I'm just going to try and keep on surviving and hope my health issues get answers. I've come to terms with the fact I'm not going to read my entire goal stack, but that's okay! I've gotten real close! And I still read a lot of books that I already owned! I also have some gift things to attend to as holiday box season is upon us, but sadly I can't share those WIPs or it would ruin the Surprise. Just know they're really neat! Happy December!

#bookbird babbles #reading wrap up #november wrap up #monthly wrap up #books #booklr #priory really put a damper on my reading huh lol #long books usually do but UGH it felt like a chore sometimes #i liked my strategy of reading 50 pages a day it helped make it seem less daunting #and id often end up reading more than that anyway! #but UGH lol

[baby-prophet]

guess who decided to write about fascism in art yet again 🤪

#this time its about the women of thee misogynistic art movement #time to write about even more contradictions oh boy oh boy #norm.allie #college owns #i mean i chose this #and i think itll be a good essay #but ugh lol

[juniperhillpatient]

“apologist.” “critical.” y’all are doing too much. when my favorite characters do evil reprehensible shit I simply don’t fucking care cause it’s not real

#I mean I care in the context of how it makes me feel & what it means for the story but like. ugh I can’t articulate this #do y’all understand what I mean lol

[tarysande]

when no one has written the exact fic to scratch a very specific emotional itch and you absolutely do not have time to write it yourself but you still want to read it dammit

#it’s not even my usual fandoms I hate this ugh #grumble grumble #fandom life problems lol

[eddiediaaz]

i'm nosey okay

#tumblr poll #tumblr polls #poll #polls #for me it's usually naked unless it's cold then i'll put on a shirt #i live alone tho #if i sleep somewhere else i don't sleep naked lol #i just find clothes restrictive when i sleep because i move a lot so it just gets all tangled and ugh idk

[hell0mega]

it's incredible that tumblr fandom went from DESPERATELY trying to see ANY sort of queer love in the shows we liked, to having shows—high budget, well-made, interesting, mainstream shows staring known actors—that are ABOUT queer love. explicitly, without argument. and just ten years later.

i saw (and reblogged) a post about how GO, ofmd, and wwdits are the new superwholock and i havent stopped thinking about it. cuz i was there, i was in the trenches back in the day. i was there when the writers and actors made fun of us for seeing on screen chemistry and perfect stories to set up romances. they all humored us then shat on us and saw us as a joke. a bunch of weirdo faggy teens that don't think two men can just be friends.

and now look at us. we're seeing the on screen chemistry and it's REAL. it's ON PURPOSE. these ARE romantic stories about queer people. we're not projecting or have wishful thinking... it's TRUE!! it was written and directed and edited and acted that way in earnest. i will take NO SHIT regarding these shows and people's love for them.

and do you know WHY these shows are being made now? these well thought out, feels-real, non-pandering queer stories? it's BECAUSE OF WHAT WE DID ten+ years ago. a lot of queer media never got the green light to be made because execs don't think there's enough of an audience. that more people will dislike the gays than like them. and we've shown them that that's unequivocally untrue. the outcry we had for all those years, the reviews we left, the statements we made, the backlash, it gave show runners ammunition to say "hey. people will watch this. they will like it. let us make it."

#good omens #what we do in the shadows #our flag means death #ofmd #wwdits #fandom history #mine #superwholock #no hate to that person cuz idk how they really feel like are they a fan or not idk #but i KNOW there are people who are like ugh cringe #i will NOT BE HAVING IT #f slur #forgot this lol no ones said anything but #popular

[ruubesz-draws]

He's a little confused, but he got the spirit!

(He's trying his best, leave him alone!)

#godzilla #godzilla x kong: the new empire #godzilla minus one #shin godzilla #godzilla ultima #godzilla earth #math problems #ugh I feel you Shin #don't @ him ya'll #he's trying his best #and technically he's not entirely incorrect #like ehat Earth said: #i guess #thos other Gojis being bros #tryna help Shin lol #-1 is amused lmao #Earth just accepts it lol #do not repost #my art #also... Anguirus was here!

[puppyeared]

basement guys

#hehehee ive been meaning to draw them lol #i have a bunch of comic ideas i wanna get around to but theyre gonna take a while orz #first one is based on a headcanon abt links humming coined by arystocat.. idk i had a really vivid interaction thinking abt it #the other one is longer but basically connecting the zonai are descendants of gods rumor with some zelda canon abt how #hylians have long ears to hear messages frm the gods.. rauru is really hard to draw though so i keep redoing it ugh #im also practicing how to properly draw faces and i think i like how these came out...!!! #i really suck at gettingthe 3/4 face angles right so rn i consider this a win #my art #myart #doodles #loz #legend of zelda #totk #tears of the kingdom #zelda #link #ganondorf #tloz #ok now i sleep

[blackjackkent]

More explorations through the parsed dialogue files. The nymph in Sharess's Caress (the one whose Fist client turns into a mind flayer) offers you a "moment of ecstasy" in return for saving her life - and apparently there are some character-specific dialog options for all of the origin characters (minus Lae'zel and plus Minsc) regarding their deepest desires. And I'm kinda having a lot of feelings about it.

Naoise Nallinto: The all-being. Here, there is no suffering. Here, you want for nothing. Here, you are anything. You have one word. Tell me: what will you be?

DARK_URGE: Sane. Naoise Nallinto: You are sane. Time dances on in sequence, the winding path of time evens, and becomes straight. With a quiet head, you can once again hear the song of the birds and the wind in the grass. You pluck a flower, and it does not bleed.

SHADOWHEART: Whole. Naoise Nallinto: You are whole. Within and without, free from expectation and the crushing burden of solitude.You are the entirety of you. Every path outward leads to adventures yet unknown. Every path inward leads to dreams eternally fulfilled.

ASTARION: Safe. Naoise Nallinto: You are safe. The winds of fate blow you to the warmest of hearths in the most cordial of inns. Your seething passions lead only to pleasure. The touch of the sun comforts your flesh, but never burns it.

KARLACH: Alive. Naoise Nallinto: You are alive. Your senses vibrate with sensation - smell, taste, touch, sound, sight. All alert to the beauty of now. The sound of your heart - your heart - beats a steady rhythm: Hello, hello, hello.

GALE: Wise. Naoise Nallinto: You are wise. The erudition of the ages flows through you and from you, illuminating the scholars who seek your counsel. You know yourself, for such is the beginning of all wisdom. When souls would drink the waters of learning, you are their font.

WYLL: Free. Naoise Nallinto: Then be free. You are an eagle, the most divine of messengers, soaring above the peak of Mount Sundabar. No man or woman, no devil or demon, no goddess or god dares confine you within one border or one creed.

MINSC: Minsc. Naoise Nallinto: Er - you are Minsc. You are the most Minsc. Wherever you go, there is only Minsc. Every step, every breath, every thought shall be - the Minsc-est. (DEVNOTE: Confused but making it work.)

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #karlach #shadowheart #gale #wyll #minsc #bg3 dialogue #naoise nallinto #sharess's caress #good old minsc lol #but ugh the other ones [sob] #even the durge one #everyone here needs about fifty hugs

[willowser]

i really think having an emotional connection is so important to bakugou sexually.

like, i think he has to be in the exact right mood in order to get off by himself at home alone. can't be too tired, can't be too stressed out, can't have too much on his mind regarding work or other things, and even if it's been a while and his body is sensitive and wanting for it—if his head is not right, he can sit there for hours and never reach his peak.

which is why i think ultimately he doesn't do it that often, because it pisses him off to waste the time and not find the release. makes him more agitated. i think porn for the most part doesn't help him because he's too picky, literature probably helps a bit more, but he's still picky, and his imagination can get him there, but his headspace has to be right.

i think he's slow to hands-on stuff, when your relationship starts, and you can tell he's going to be like that pretty quickly. he responds to your touch like it's an accident; you reach out to hold his hand and he pulls his back like your knuckles have knocked by chance, like you're too close. it's not meant to be a rejection of any kind, it's just—he doesn't want you to touch him if you don't want to. if you don't mean to.

but when he realizes that you mean to, that you want to—

it has him skyrocketing. surprises him terribly, the affect you have on his body, and how quickly, because not even he can always have that affect on his own body.

you reach up to push some hair out of his face and your fingers skirt his cheekbone and he feels like a stupid gross disgusting puddle of mush. you loop your arm through his and lean into him while you're walking and he feels like a prize, like he's yours and you're his and you want everybody to know and that gives him a rush of pride that makes his head woozy.

he's dropping you off at home after date number he-doesn't-know and you're staring up at him outside your front door and he knows he should kiss you so he does and his whole body lights up with a heat he doesn't recognize at all. just from that.

and then he finally gets it: that heart-aching, stomach turning, body shaking want he's only ever heard about, and now finally feels.

#UGH you make him feel like he's going insane #he's laying in bed at night wide awake staring at the ceiling wondering if there's something wrong with him LOL #should he be thinking about you this much ? it can't be healthy to think about you THIS MUCH right ? #something HAS to be wrong with him bc why is he thinking about you smiling at him and laughing at some not-funny joke you made and #WANTING TO RIP OUT OF HIS SKIN RAAAAHHHHH #he wants to blast himself into the sun he's CRAZY #oh man i love him so #HE makes ME insane #✿ thoughts: bakugou

[noodles-and-tea]

Tell me about your day!

#rewatched Luca today (for obvious reasons) #and I SOBBED #maybe it was because of external issues #BUT STILL UGH #also I’d never sat and watched the credits before #or maybe I always just cry through them lol #but the arT???? #(I have the art book for this movei akdnskjd) #my art #luca #pixar luca #luca paguro #alberto scorfano #luberto

[whirliko]

🧸 ilo set 🧸

there's just not enough clothes for infants so i decided to take matters into my own hands and recolored a bunch of items in fun colors and patterns - 15 items and 31 files in total 🌞

everything is base game compatible

custom cas and swatch thumbnails

most items come in both solids and patterns, some even have fun colorblock swatches 🧃

i used a few patterns from this set by @pluto-sims and a graphic from @woosteru's graphics folder

some ea infant bottoms have an overlapping texture issue on the waistband - therefore my recolors do also. you won't be able to see it if you put a top on your infant, as that will go over the waistband

thanks to my beloved @cookiesandcrumbs for fixing an issue with one of the meshes 💕

DOWNLOAD INDEX - (mediafire, no ads)

for those having issues with the download links in the index: here is a direct link to the zip file of all 31 items 🧡

#ts4cc #s4cc #ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4mm #s4mm #the sims #maxis match #dls #been working on this literally noon and night lol #had to retouch everything a million times as well because i'm a perfectionist ugh #but i love these recolors!! hope you do too :-)

[hajihiko]

The polycules are falling apart

#Ultimate Impostor #Hajime hinata #Mikan Tsumiki #Ibuki mioda #Ryota mitarai #Nagito Komaeda #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Poly ship names are so difficult. Guess not #an art #Barely. I did not have the willpower I thought I did when I started this #Anyway I'm trying so hard to manage something spooky for the spooky month but. Yknow how it is. Sometimes you dont have the spark the energ #plenty of ideas tho! #Hearing aids go on the fritz. Pictures taken have extra shadows or a hand that doesnt belong there #Etc etc ugh I dont even have words lol. I'm tired

[kimtaegis]

bangtan gif challenge ☆ ↳ stage mix (one song) + your bias(es) → BLOOD SWEAT & TEARS + YOONGI (cr. 0613data) (vmin + dynamite)

#@ the people who voted for RUN - don't feel too disappointed *reassuring yet sexy wink* #btsgif #dailybts #userbangtan #btsedit #bangtan #bts #usermaggie #usersky #userkelli #usersan #trackofthesoul #tuserandi #userines #userzaynab #usersevn #raplineuser #*yg #*gifs #*comp #I don't like how this turned out and I don't like giffing stages either lol #too much movement difficult lighting grainy files and music show watermarks in their faces. ugh #this is scheduled I still have to work rip

[comradekatara]

Your atla analysis is the best so I wanted to ask your opinion on something I've found the fandom fairly divided on - what did you think of Azula's ending within the show proper? Unnecessarily cruel or a necessary tragedy? Would you say that her mental breakdown was too conveniently brought about in order to 'nerf' her for the final agni kai? Also, do you think it was 'right' for Zuko to have fought with his sister at all or would it have been better for him to seek a more humane way to end the cycle of violence?

okay so im saying this as someone who loves azula to death like she has always been one of my absolute favorite characters ever since i was a kid and i’ve always vastly preferred her to zuko and found her to be extremely compelling and eminently sympathetic. i am saying this now before the azula stans come for me. i believe in their beliefs. but i also think her downfall is perfectly executed, and putting aside all the bullshit with the comics and whatever else, it’s a really powerful conclusion to her arc. obviously that isn’t to say that she wouldn’t continue to grow and develop in a postcanon scenario (i have a whole recovery arc for her mapped out in my head, like i do believe in her Healing Journey) but from a narrative perspective, her telos is in fact very thematically satisfying.

no, she wasn’t nerfed so that they could beat her in a fight. the fact that she falls apart is what makes them feel that they can confidently take her on (although i do think in a fair fight katara could win anyway), but the whole point is that it’s not about winning or losing in combat. the whole point is that zuko and azula being pitted against each other in this gratuitous ritual of violence as the culmination of their arcs is fundamentally tragic. yes it’s a bad decision to fight her, and zuko should have chosen another path, but the whole point is that he’s flawed and can only subscribe to the logic he has spent his whole life internalizing through violence and abuse.

that’s why aang’s fight against ozai, while tragic in its own way, is also a triumph for the way in which his ideals prevail in the face of genocide, while zuko and azula’s fight is very patently tragic. there is no moment of victory or triumph. even as zuko sacrifices himself in a beautiful mirroring of “the crossroads of destiny” and as katara uses the element of her people combined with techniques across other cultures to use azula’s hubris and ideology of domination against her, it’s presented as moments of personal growth occurring within a very tragic yet inevitable situation. it was inevitable because azula had always been positioned as an extension of her father, and thus to disempower ozai also means disempowering azula, his favorite site of projection, his favorite weapon.

yeah, it does rub me the wrong way when zuko asks katara whether she’d like to help him “put azula in her place.” it’s not a kind way to talk about your abused younger sister. but it’s also important to understand that zuko doesn’t really recognize his sister’s pain, despite the fact that they obviously share a father, because he’s always assumed that she was untouchable as their perfect golden child and thus never a victim. and he’s wrong. zuko and katara expect a battle of triumph and glory, noble heroes fighting valiantly so that good may prevail over evil. but as they discover here, even more so than their previous discovery two episodes prior, a battle is not a legendary event filled with bombast and beauty until after it has been historicized. often a war is simply fought between pathetic, desperate people who see no other option but to fight.

aang’s ultimate refusal to fight despite having all the power in the world is what makes him so important as the protagonist. but katara and zuko both share a more simplistic view of morality and what it means to be good. and zuko assumes that by fighting azula, he can only be punching up, because she has always been positioned as his superior, and she (in her own words!) is a “monster.” and then azula loses, and his entire worldview shatters. joking about putting her in her place makes way for the realization that behind all her posturing and lying (to herself more than anyone) and performance and cognitive dissonance, azula has always been broken, perhaps even more than he is.

azula says “im sorry it has to end this way, brother,” to which zuko replies “no you’re not.” but i think azula is truly sorry, because in her ideal world, she wouldn’t be fighting zuko. she doesn’t actually want to kill him, as much as she claims to. she’s already reached the conclusion that zuko will only truly reach once their fight is over. she lacks a support system, and she needs one, desperately. if she could somehow get her family back, do everything differently, less afraid of the consequences, she would. she’s smirking, she sounds almost facetious, but really, she is sorry. as of this moment, she really doesn’t want it to end this way. but zuko cannot accept that, because in his mind, azula is evil. azula has no soul nor feeling. azula always lies.

her breakdown doesn’t come out of nowhere, either. it’s precipitated by everyone she has ever cared about betraying her. first zuko betrays her, then mai, then ty lee, and then ozai — the person she has staked her entire identity to and to whom she has pledged her undying loyalty and obedience, become nothing more than a vessel for his whims — discards her because she had the audacity to care about someone other than him. what i don’t think zuko realizes, and perhaps will never realize, is that azula betrayed ozai by bringing zuko back home. he was not supposed to be brought back with honor and with glory. azula specifically orchestrated the fight in the catacombs to motivate him to join her, and it’s not because she’s some cruel sadistic monster who wanted to separate a poor innocent soft uwu bean from his loving uncle, it’s because she genuinely believes that she’s doing what’s best for him. she believes that their uncle is a traitor and a bad influence, and she believes that bringing zuko home with his honor “restored” is an act of love. to her it is.

yes, she claims that she was actually just manipulating him so that she wouldn’t have to take the fall if the avatar was actually alive, but also, she’s clearly just covering her own ass. she didn’t know about the spirit water, and only started improvising when zuko started showing hesitation. but even if she was only using zuko, then that was an insane risk to take, because either way she was lying directly to ozai’s face. and zuko admits it to ozai while simultaneously committing treason, so of course ozai would blame azula, his perfect golden child who tried to violate his decree by bringing zuko back home a prisoner at best and dead at worst, and instead found a way to restore his princehood with glory.

we only see ozai dismissing and discarding azula in the finale, but it’s clearly a tension that’s been bubbling since the day of black sun. and we know this because we do see azula falling apart before the finale. in “the boiling rock” she is betrayed by her only friends. in “the southern raiders” we see that this has taken a toll on her, that she is already somewhat unhinged. she and zuko tie in a one on one fight for the first time. and she takes down her hair as she uses her hairpin to secure herself against the edge of a cliff. unlike zuko, who is helped by his friends and allies, who has a support system. it’s a very precarious position; she’s literally on a cliff’s edge, alone, her hair down signifying her unraveling mental state. azula having her hair down signals to us an audience that she is in a position of vulnerability. she is able to mask this terrifying moment wherein she nearly plummets to her death with a triumphant smirk, but it should be evident to us all that her security is fragile here.

and the thing is, even though she’s always masked it with a smirk and perfect poise, her security has always been fragile. azula has never been safe. azula’s breakdown is simply the culmination of her realization that no matter how hard she tries, she will never be ozai’s perfect weapon, because she is a human being. she is a child, no less. and there is no one in her entire life who loves her for nothing. zuko has iroh, who affirms to him that he could never be angry with zuko, that all he wants is simply what is best for zuko. but azula doesn’t have unconditional support in her life. she doesn’t even have support.

everyone she ever thought she could trust has betrayed her, and so she yells that trust is for fools. because she feels like a fool. of course fear is the only way; it’s what kept her in line all these years. azula is someone who is ruled by fear, and who is broken by the recognition that fear isn’t enough. her downfall is necessarily tragic because her worldview is wrong. the imperialist logic of terror as a tool for domination is her own undoing, just as ozai’s undoing is losing the weapon he has staked his national identity to. it’s a battle of ideals. aang v ozai: pacifism v imperialism. katara and zuko v azula: love and support v fear and isolation.

zuko is unfair to azula, it’s true. he tries to fight her even as he can clearly recognize that “she’s slipping.” instead of trying to help his little sister, he uses that weakness to his advantage, tries to exploit her pain so that he can finally, for the first time ever, beat her in a fight. it’s cruel, but it’s also how siblings act. especially considering the conditions under which they were raised, and how zuko has always viewed her. and in zuko’s defense, she has tried to kill him multiple times lately, both in “the boiling rock” and in “the southern raiders.” zuko is someone who gets fixated on a goal and blocks out everything else, including recognition of his surroundings or empathy for others. so of course when he’s promised to put azula in her place he’s going to exploit her weaknesses to do so. after all, isn’t exploiting his weaknesses exactly what azula does best? so he allows himself to stoop to her level, and in fact only redeems himself through his sacrifice for katara. but it is when azula is chained to the grate and zuko and katara, leaning on each other, look down and observe the sheer extent on her pain, that zuko realizes that “putting azula in her place” isn’t actually a victory. it feels really, really bad, actually.

they’re in a similar position as they were when they faced yon rha. and now it is zuko’s turn to understand that he is not a storybook hero triumphing over evil, but rather a human being, facing another human being, in a conflict that is larger than themselves. to “put someone in their place” is to imply a logic of domination, of inherent superiority, that someone has stepped out of line and must be reordered neatly into the hierarchy. but aang disputes the notion, ozai’s notion, that humanity can be classified along these lines, that there exists an ontological superiority among some and not others. so operation: putting azula in her place was always going to be flawed, even if she was performing competency the way she always does, because they’re nonetheless subscribing to her logic.

of course they should be helping azula, of course they should be reaching out to abuse victims through support instead of more violence. but first they must recognize her victimhood. first they must come to understand that they didn’t get lucky, and they didn’t dominate her because they are more “powerful,” that they weren’t “putting her in her place.” they must understand that they are not heroes fighting villains in a glorious trial by combat. that the logic of the agni kai is flawed. that they are all victims. that they are all just scared, hurt children who are still grieving their mothers.

#update: ok i readmored it 👍🏼 #azula #analysis #zuko #katara #ozai #azula&zuko #azula&ozai #asks #malatilata #ugh azula is such a beautiful character….. i love her sm #her arc is so beautifully perfectly tragic #just thinking abt the mirror scene gets me sooo . distraught #this was supposed to be like 2 paragraphs lol #as is always the way . with me..

[sanguineships]

seeing canon x canon art with your f/o in it and it’s really really cute and well done but it makes you so jealous you want to turn radioactive

#i really love the women he is shipped with i do. i do not hate them and i never could nor do i hate the ships themselves i’m just so jealou #when it’s him shipped with men i actually like seeing it cus i’m super insecure about being a gay guy in love w him lol #i just imagine him with my oc so much it makes me OooOiOioiOuiOiOuuoio #UGH. #UGH. UGH. UGH. UGH. YUGH. UGHHH. UGH. #self shipping #self ship #f/o community #self ship community #f/o #shipping #fictional other #selfship