#but I've made a sideblog

[im-secretly-a-frog]

So I'm seeing the girl that I used to write poetry about before she rejected me again tomorrow. We're hanging out for my birthday, and I'm really anxious. I feel like I'm going to mess this up. This fragile thing that we're still trying to heal after I asked her out.

I'm a little panicked. More than a little. But I'm fine, it's going to be fine. Maybe if I say it enough I'll start to believe it.

#side note #but I've made a sideblog #for my poetry #it's called Sappho's Roommate #I'm amazed that the URL was available #but seriously #I'm super nervous #What do I do? #What if I mess up #and she stops wanting to be my friend #I feel like this post is kinda rambly #Sorry #that's just what my brain sounds like

[theladyeowyn]

“… it would ease my heart, if while the Sun yet shines, I could see you still.”

#lotredit #tolkienedit #lord of the rings #eowyn x faramir #eowynedit #faramiredit #eowyn of rohan #faramir of gondor #lotr #eowyn #faramir #eowyn and faramir #* #idk what this is lol #pj WHERE is the faramir in the houses of healing footage. i know it's out there; i've seen the stills #i don't need an extended extended edition bc i know that a lot of stuff they cut truly was unnecessary #but i WOULD like a blu-ray set with whole bonus discs devoted to deleted scenes. hello is this thing on #Éowyn x Faramir #otp: though they did not know it #need to get my eowyn/faramir sideblog active; i made it but haven't really done anything with it

[buglaur]

#ok i only made them to show the new floaty head but i kinda love them #matching jort gfs... #ts4 #sims 4 #i finally got my class timetable and it's not good 😔 #classes start 9am and end at 5:45pm 😭 not including the 2hrs a day commuting #coming from sitting at home doing nothing for 10 weeks this is gonna be painful to get used to #at least i've got wednesdays off #i want to make a sideblog so i can text post without feeling guilty #so i won't have life updates in the tags of every damn post lol #anyways... its almost midnight. gonna read some kmik before i sleep because i'm shamefully behind

[averlym]

anna of cleves,, she's so cool i love her

#quick quick anna spam!!! obsessed w her fr #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anna of cleves #if you click through. to see each page. ily #also just realised that bc of the sideblog nonsense? i've essentially made myself non-contactable with tumblr dms akshdjdhd i'll add that #in the meantime anyone who wants to talk to me go send a message to aveasorae #every so often. i focus specifically on cleves idk what's going on but yeah

[dayssinceabrandcrossedmarkiplier]

100 days since a brand crossed Markiplier

29/8/23

(Be careful when reading the tags if you're sensitive to, albeit glancing, references to sexual assault/grooming)

#markiplier #someone made a joke about resetting because Mark didn't win a gamer streamy the other night #I skipped watching the award show because I knew Dream would be involved and I refuse to interact with anything that gives him a platform #but when I looked up who beat Markiplier in that category my unease grew #like obviously I'm not going to bring mcyt drama to a markiplier blog #but god it makes me so uncomfortable that a groomer who is 100% unremorseful about his actions was allowed to be a nominee #let alone *win* when genuinely good people who work hard on their channels were in the same category #anyway that's all I'll say about it because this is supposed to be a fun little fandom based sideblog #however I have been on the fence this evening about whether to genuinely go #'fuck the streamys for letting Dream have a chance to win let alone actually walk away with an award' #I'm still undecided and need to check how the winner was picked (I think public vote but wanna be sure) #I'm just mad and disgusted and completely uneasy #either way I wanted to quickly get my thoughts out but now I've delayed the post by 20 minutes by typing so sorry and here you go

[thyandrawrites]

Free matsuhana fic concept: the team places mistletoe everywhere in a sweet but misguided effort to get them together, not knowing that they've already been dating for months. They still go along with it, wondering how many heated make out sessions it will take for them to catch on, since the double dates with iwaoi (who actually aren't together yet) haven't been evidence enough

#Matsuhana #Hanamatsu #hanamaki takahiro #Matsukawa issei #Haikyuu #Just posting this here instead of my sideblog for max visibility. Don't mind me #I haven't thought about them in AGES yet this was the first thing on my mind upon waking up this morning #Why a mistletoe fic? In the middle of june? I have no fucking clue #Maybe my subconscious is already craving the cold idk #Anyway this is up for grabs #I've never written hq fics and it's been years since I last read hq ff so I wouldn't know where to begin #But this has chaotic potential and it would be a shame not to let it roam free in the fandom. Hopefully someone can make this justice #Bonus: it's Kyoutani who figures it out the one time he actually shows up to practice #Despite not having seen the senpai in months #Because we all know kyoutani would never go along with the team's bs #Ok that last one is optional. No need to include it. But it made me laugh #Gosh I miss my seijoh children

[nice-and-accurate-reblogs]

i love you episode 2 of good omens i love you you can't go 90 mph in central london i love you what's a velvet underground? you wouldn't like it. ah, bebop i love you crowley's facial expression when aziraphale thanks him i love you sorry to break up an intimate moment can i help you? i love you you hit someone. i didn't, someone hit me i love you get in angel i love you tickety-boo i love you aziraphale's ooooohooooho i love you sorry, right number.

#i'll rewatch the tadfield hospital scene until my cocoa doth grow cold. episode 2 my beloved #look i know i'm late to the party but i've been watching good omens for a week now and i've become lowkey obsessed #lowkey? who am i kidding. i made a whole sideblog. anyways enjoy me rewatching ep 2 the night before my next exam 👍 #good omens #my posts

[outislovescomics]

As far as Beast moments go, the implication that Hank just booked it directly to L.A like some sort of Simon Williams-based homing missile. has gotta be up there

#saw the previews caught up. waiting patiently for next week. #hank mccoy #listen we've been given nothing else so far. #I choose to believe he ran 2500 miles in a straight line towards his husband across lakes and through buildings #I promise this isn't just a hankposting sideblog I do care about other characters and media <- he said. only partially lying #its not my fault my main courses this term are all centered around genetics. I'm literally trapped on all sides you can't blame me AMFDSAKF #I can't believe I made this blog cause I was like 'damn I've been getting really into spider-man' #<- unaware of the large X-Men shaped missile heading towards him #x-force spoilers

[gold-finch]

i might actually apply to do my doctorate

i could be your eastern european tumblr mutual in academia — the possibilities

#wild that i've made this sideblog before i had even taken my baccalaureate

[crengarrion]

few things are as touching as the appreciation hardworking, heartfelt, passionate, dedicated young people express when you support them. sometimes this appreciation is shown by those young people sending you unedited footage of their professional wrestling ambulance matches and it fucking rules.

#[ whispers ] #mango brought to my attention a ugandan pro wrestling promotion fundraising for their first wrestling ring and i decided to reach out #to them because i made a post raising awareness on my wrestling sideblog. they asked me to record a video saying hello to a young lady #wrestler of theirs i said i'm a fan of. so she can record a video saying hello back to me! and then sent me exclusive footage of a match! #i cannot stress this enough: reach out to dreamers. reach out to the people making their dreams reality. to artists and musicians and #writers and people blogging about their cultures' food and their daily lived experiences and dedicating their lives to community outreach #and harm reduction and activism and rescuing animals and raising awareness. tell the people making what you love that you love it and #admire their hard work. thank the person bagging your groceries and driving your bus with a big smile. tell the makeup artist standing with #palestine openly what that means to you. one of my favourite authors is on tumblr and i'm reaching out to her after i read her new book that #just published. one of my friends became a well known poet in pakistan because a group of us all sent CDs of our spoken word poetry to each #other and made all of our friends listen. i'm friends with youtubers because i've been vocally supporting their videos since pre-YT or early #into their channels and have met up with some of them to hang out and talk shop. don't just cheer people on silently! let them know! #long post #sorry. overcome by my simple love for humanity in the midst of unfathomably dark times. it will happen again

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

Babe you are SO CORRECT about everything you’ve ever said about Hum Hallelujah. I finally listened to it and it’s been on repeat. I was so pleasantly surprised about the hallelujah melody on the bridge. I am vibing SO HARD. Thank you.

head in my hands. there's another song on that record that rather sarcastically says "this is a love song in my own way" but the thing is. Hum Hallelujah IS. it is a love song in its own way, in the band's own way, and it's so insane that it even exists, like, I know I've said this and it's probably in my FOB tag but. oh my goodness. there is so much love in the fact that that song exists and not only is in the album, but acts as such a touchstone for it (in my opinion). also it makes me want to CRY.

#I feel this need to like. handle hum hallelujah with such care when discussing it. just by nature of what it is #bc it's a breakup song with death. it's unbelievably honest and personal. it's heartbreaking but also so hopeful #but it is. most importantly. a breakup song. with Death itself. #and the first line that would later become a lyric in it that I'm aware of is from... only a few months following the best buy incident?? #and FOB has a THEME of personifying death. in like 2016ish pete would say this thing about how death loves you #and your job as a human being is to breath Death's heart #which is. what hum is about in a lot of ways. #ok sorry I'll stop now. I've made all these posts before. I can tag you in sideblog stuff skfnskgnskg #Lu rambles #asks #music #fob #<3

[derelictdumbass]

vibrating at supersonic speed and obliterating into tiny pieces

#i've been scrolling through rp blogs for no reason what so ever at all #nostalgia brain tells me rp was so much fun and it clings to the one long rp i did with a girl where my oc rescued her oc from some big bad #and the oc rp i was doing with remy was also rad..... basically coop writing a fic for that one lmao #for months i've been like. just make a random rp blog and see what happens but for who. what. where. when #i have a lola sideblog and i've been considering making that also a rp blog for her bc that could be fun but idk 😔 #i just wanna be unwell about fictional characters and put them in situations collaboratively #why do i gotta put em in situations all by myself all the time huh !!! just cuz i made them and they live in my brain and my brain alone !! #anyway if u need me i'll be staring at the ceiling contemplating and passing out without making a decision #nadine is typing...

[ferretwhomst]

#so torn because i've never really made a fandom sideblog. just au sideblogs. too attached to my main acc #but like. blagh. i hate feeling weird for posting on my main abotu smth which is a Hyperfixation for me rn #should i push through the insecurity and just go nuts on main or not... #ferret's polls

[brown-little-robin]

🥱...

#I've done a thing :3 #been having the worst run of bedtimes and really feeling the effects (why do I do this? eh... multiple reasons but it is not helpful) #so in an attempt to have some fun with breaking the midnight to 1 am bedtime habit I made a new sideblog #it's called robins-bedtime-tracker dot tumblr dot com #anyway I plan to update that blog for a while w my bedtimes of the previous night. I don't particularly care if friends follow or view it #I just ask that you only follow it if you know me! #might turn into somewhat of a journal or something idk #and I don't know how long I'll keep updating it #but it exists! and you can track your local robin's bedtime if you want to! I don't mind! #mostly it's for my own viewing because I'm reliably on my laptop every day so I'll remember to update it daily #I don't have a set goal like every day I have to go to bed before midnight just an overall goal to get my bedtime *usually* before 11:30— #—if there aren't extenuating circumstances #and possibly to push it even earlier than 11:30 but let's not get TOO excited lol #Robin speaks

[kirisinme]

Psst.

Ya like adventuring?

#ns4w #ns4w OOC #Haven't been able to do much outside uni and work #But I've made the adventure sideblog #So you can follow it whenever I finally get it running

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story! #i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just. #all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person. #everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person. #my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me. #this is showing so many issues. #so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering