#btw i love ur url

[pocketsizedquasar]

you asked for lore questions so. do you have any particular starhab Thoughts today

HI I MISSED THIS SOMEHOW but yes the answer to this question is always yes. i always have Them thots

recently, i’ve mostly been rotating what i’ve been uncreatively calling Good AU (AU where Starbuck actually Talks To ahab and they have a proper conversation and convinces him to turn around but not before at least 3 therapy sessions which may or may not involve passive-to-active suicidality on both their parts wahoo)

which is generally the AU i’m always rotating; @coulson-is-an-avenger have been talking abt it for literally 9+ months (n they have made some related fics before me, bc i’m slow <3 /positive) — but right now specifically, since i’ve finally started Actually writing it in the past couple weeks, i’m thinking a lot abt the beginning/setup of the au, which is aforementioned conversations/therapy sessions/breakdowns

more specifically, i’m thinking lots about how melville writes both ahab and starbuck as such deeply, intrinsically lonely people in different ways, and about how some of that loneliness is self inflicted and some of it isn’t. w starbuck especially… (i’ve talked abt this in the comments of a comic page before but) there’s the obvious element of loneliness that comes from losing most of his family to whaling, and having to be away from his wife and child for so long, and being seemingly the only person for a while on this boat who thinks there might be something wrong with ahab, but there is also an element of self-inflicted loneliness too: in Dusk, he specifically mentions the “heathen crew” and how much he feels apart from them. “Oh, God! to sail with such a heathen crew that have small touch of human mothers in them! Whelped somewhere by the sharkish sea. The white whale is their demigorgon.” his whiteness (and racism) and christianity is an element of isolation for him.

melville very regularly and deliberately highlights whiteness as a tool of isolation. ishmael only heals and becomes less lonely when he eschews christian “kindness” — “I’ll try a pagan friend, thought I, since Christian kindness has proved but hollow courtesy.” ahab is excluded and isolated from this world, for various untold reasons, though we can infer that some of them result from his disability (and, if you’re like me, an argument for reading ahab as nonwhite): “socially, Ahab was inaccessible. Though nominally included in the census of Christendom, he was still an alien to it.”

and starbuck—starbuck is of this world, this world of hollow courtesy and alienation, this world of nantucket quakers, which ishmael so poignantly describes as stifling and insular and strict. it is this — this whiteness, this hollow christianity, this learned racism — which prevents Starbuck from meaningfully emotionally connecting with his ‘pagan’ / ‘heathen’ crew, even as we know he is generally in other ways good to them. it is also this worldview which prevents him from meaningfully getting through to ahab.

like, ahab is obviously a traumatized specimen of a man (affectionate), but starbuck is also so deeply entrenched in his hyper specific worldview, just as much as ahab is. he can't connect with ahab more because he's so entrenched in seventeen layers of protestant guilt & conditioning, which is partially just the gay thing, but also like. being unable of conceiving ahab's pain through another framework. bc xtianity and protestantism and whiteness and all these things so wildly distort your concepts of what suffering is and who experiences it and who even has the Right to it, and what the right and wrong ways to experience pain are.

all his reasoning for why ahab giving himself so wholly to vengeance and eschewing all human connection is like… “bc god said it’s bad.” in all the times starbuck (in some ways rightly) gets at ahab for what he's doing, he doesn't ever really get to the point of trying to understand why it's happening? or where ahab is coming from? when what ahab needs is to be met where he’s at, in all his messy ugly pain and trauma

so w/ these conversations in the au it's like. part of it is starbuck letting go of this moral judgment and just coming to ahab with a genuine desire to understand hey. why are you doing this. tell me why this is so important to you. why this whale. why so hard. what is driving you to this. and like. understanding the very real amount of pain that ahab is in. the very real mess of a world that is constantly traumatizing and retraumatizing him. a world of whiteness and christianity and capitalism that has so thoroughly abandoned him to his trauma and his pain that he legitimately sees no other way out, no other alternative for alleviating that pain, than this quest.

basically in order to cure ahab’s loneliness starbuck needs to break his own. he cannot break down the walls around ahab without first reaching out beyond his own. and that’s why he fucking doesn’t in canon and tdjdhdhshdjwhdsjdhsj this is why i am so fucking mentally unwell about these two gay losers hfhehdhdhdhehddh

#mobydick #moby dick #whale weekly #starhab #starbuck #captain ahab #ahab #melville #herman melville #long post #quasartalks #ask #unethicallypleistocene #btw i love ur url #suicide ment #whale weekly spoilers #anyway screaming and crying and screaming and crying so ducking much over them. clawing at the walls ripping up carpet. hfhdhdhdhdhd #anyway. Good AU! coming soon (ish) to an ao3 near u #i hate them /lying #i use whiteness and christianity kind of interchangeably here bc it’s also how melville presents them in a way #this is long and ramble but alas #rambly*

[palskippah]

Hi!

@shapeshiftinterest ’s art of kid Bowser and Luigi is the cutest thing, so I drew some of them too!

#super mario bros #bowser #luigi #bowuigi #its not really but still akjsdasd #the artist already drew bowser with his bands but i added another fang so he doesn't look that much like junior alskdad #my art #i love them #anyways bowser broke his face after that fall #alsooo i have been drawing so much of them and im kinda nervous to post but ill do it eventually alsdka #BTW shapes-the rest of ur url if you read this i love your art <333 #sorry about the tagging tho but credit must be given sjs

[soadscrawl]

ALLURA RED PALADIN OH LORD UR SO REAL 🫶🫶🗣️🗣️

i think red paladin allura makes way more sense than red paladin lance tbh! not only would it work better for when keith is in the blade of marmora so lance can stay in blue without all the swapping around, i think it makes wayyyy more sense for her character. like i think in the beginning keith and alluras relationship is kinda weird even pre-galra reveal because theyre SO alike i just dont think anyone fully realizes it. shes hotheaded and stubborn and is very adamant about helping anyone possible even when its not tactically the right choice. that sounds like the red paladin to me!!! plus that leaves an easier transition for keith to take over the red lion again when he comes back so allura can be black paladin oop

#soad.txt #not art #ask #cannibalismyuri #i love ur url btw that shit rules

[kentopedia]

after some thinking, i’m going to put a pause on all my jjk wips & work on some other things <3

#thanks for all ur kindness btw #& i’m sorry if you just follow me for jjk :( #i think this is the best thing for me to do regarding my feelings around the fandom & the only way i can truly put some distance between it #which this doesn’t mean i’ll stop writing for it forever <33 just for at least a couple weeks !! #i’m sorry this probably seems really silly and dramatic but #i just havent been happy on tumblr :( #& i won’t change my url or theme or anything !!! just loving kento from a distance lol #love u all so very much !!!! #and i just wanted to let you know in case you think i’m dropping kento forever (im not) or you’re waiting on something #but also feel free to unfollow if you don’t want to see my other work lol #i’ll also probably not consume much content of it either very sorry to my jjk mooties :(((

[risingsunresistance]

1) since when did phil have a priv and 2) SINCE WHEN WAS THIS THE HEADER LMAO

#IM GLAD HE LOVES THE POST JDHKDJ #HEY PHIL CAN YOU LOG INTO SKYBLOCK AND LET ME GET UR CAKE SOUL #IN RETURN FOR MAKING YOUR HEADER OR SOMETHING #i need to know so bad does he know *I* made that #or did he just find it somewhere bc it was redrawn a few times on twitter n stuff #like did he see it with url technoplane attached or was it just floating around #i doubt he saw it HERE bc he used his tumblr Once jhdkdh #chat #btw i know that was his header on hive i just hadnt seen his twitter apparently

[possuminnit]

possum u should .. draw ctubbo as the old old photo of me when I brushed out my hair ..

u r so right ^_^

#SORRY I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THIS #ctubbo #ctubbo fanart #asks! <3 #chemzietrailz #ur url is so cute btw i love it sm #possuminnit.art

[drumlincountry]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers.

(No Pressure 🌻)

hiiiii! Don't mind if I do! :)

The meeting I facilitated last night went really well! There was a difficult participant but between me & the guest speaker we handled him. I really trust the new biodiversity officer working for our local government! She knows her stuff & will do great things. I will help her.

Jamie got me a raspberry & white chocolate Easter egg and it's delicious ☺️

The live recording of The Life of The World to Come by the mountain goats, directed by Rian Johnson of all people, which is free on YouTube.

Disco balls

Marsh marigold, aka king cup aka lus buí bealtaine, a member of the ranunculus family which grows beside streams and in wet places.

Her ♥

#Thank you sooooooo much for asking I really enjoyed this :) #Me Fein #Tombtombtombtombtomb #I love ur URL btw I always love seeing it in my activity page!

[lesbiansanemi]

You’re famous to me.

Every time I see your icon and username anywhere I get this twinge of joy. You’re so right. You can make that man a woman. Excellent philosophy. My partner and I say “anything can be lesbians if you try hard enough”.

Lesbian sanegiyuu. Lesbian MuiTan. Lesbian RenKaza. Doesn’t matter.

You are so famous to us, Lesbian Sanemi.

LMAOOOOOO Ty sm this is v funny to me

Also you and your partner are very right. Anything CAN be lesbians if you try hard enough. We SHOULD make more men women.

Everyone in kny should be a lesbian 😌

#hffjdjkd ty you tho this made me smile and I’m always glad to make anyone’s day brighter #esp with my silly little url hfjfjdjd #also this reminded me I should try and get that lesbian renkaza thing outta the drafts at some point lmao #Also btw I love your art and AUs they are v cool ive been meaning to read ur fics eventually fjfjdjdkdk #asks #kaz rambles

[ilycosy]

“dyslexic ass bitch” as someone with dyslexia… just no.

and on ur noted series too??? if they meant it in the way I’m assuming they did, then they need to step away from my pookies page right tf now !!! … protective moot mode but no one messes with my pookie.. or ima throw hands <333

luv you cosy and don’t let them get the better of u 💞 sososo much of us have dyslexia here, their in for one tough tough awakening…

it's sososo odd to say smth like that under a work abt canonically dyslexic characters !!! but i digress 😞

appreciate u smsm princess !! overprotective mootie duo <3

#🎀 asks #princess my sweetie ! ♡ #<- new tag since u changed ur url #i love it btw omg #so darling !!!

[babyfrankiestein]

I came running here at the speed of light, please please please can I have some little! Toralei headcanons? With Clawdeen as a possible CG? Sksksks cause with all the trauma toralei goes through/has gone through, you can’t tell me she doesn’t secretly regress in private to cope with everything. I mean girls got a life time of abuse and -5 healthy coping mechanisms. I’m surprised more people haven’t thought of this

why of course!! regressor toralei isn't something ive thought about much but it makes sense!!! again going off of g3 bc you implied it + im most familiar with it

toralei regresses from about 5-7 i think

toralei also didn't realize she was a regressor for the longest time despite regressing for a while

clawdeen is like a big sister to her when she's small!

toralei is very very very shy about her regression

she actually didn't *tell* clawdeen, clawdeen accidentally found out

however clawdeen is a great person and she was so accepting (that didn't mean that toralei's ears weren't pushed back the entire time they talked though)

toralei is fussy and insistent that she's not a baby, she's a big girl! clawdeen always laughs quietly at this

toralei's favorite activity is playing with toys, especially ones that require her to run around (think a laser pointer), but she really doesn't mind what's going on as long as she has attention

toralei is an involuntary regressor 100%, usually it stems from negative emotions, like feeling alone or neglected

if she's super small, sometimes toralei does call clawdeen motherly titles :-(

toralei doesn't own regression gear necessarily but she does love a baby blanket she has

clawdeen likes to show toralei human toys and stuff– of course, toralei will call them gross human things for babies (but will inspect it further and maybe play with it if she thinks clawdeen isn't looking)

toralei doesn't ask for attention at first, but she does act out to try and get it in some way. as she gets more comfortable with clawdeen as a cg and in general, clawdeen kinda knows when she needs attention and toralei is less afraid to ask

clawdeen is a bit of a pushover when it comes to toralei so if toralei wants something, there's a 95% chance she'll give it to her

this is not helped by toralei being a bit bratty while small

toralei really likes playing with dolls! she doesn't have any of her own when she first started regressing but clawdeen brought some of her old ones from home. toralei was hesitant to play at first because they're human dolls but she warmed up pretty quickly

toralei also really likes card games! although she does have a tendency to cheat..

#sorry if these are ooc! ive not really thought about little toralei before + ive not written about/for toralei #toralei stripe #clawdeen wolf #no ship tags pls!! #monster high age regression #monster high gen 3 #monster high generation 3 #monster high agere #monster high #mh age regression #mh agere #mh g3 #mh gen 3 #mh #paws on the keyboard | my posts #tail wags | asks #mr-walkingrainbow #i love ur url btw!

[itsnotmydreamdaditsyours]

LILAC! LEMON!

!!!!! glad im a special little guy. like a little leprechaun for your dash

#personal #asks #ask game #sadclowncentral #i love ur url btw #drop the address for sad clown central and it just leads to my house

[ashmp3]

Your hair was back to red and I was jelaous, because you were really nice to some guy in the bathroom (he helped with something before and you were grateful), so I used some excuse and asked you to come with me to another bathroom, I said to do something, but I really wanted to receive the same treatment the guy was receiving and you saw through me and did it anyway, with a sly smile on your face, and then stuff happened, then the guy joined us and all in all, it was a very nice dream except for some strange parts

omg not you sending this after my threesomes are a must tag LMFAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WELL! well. i know i call myself a nun but this is so amusing to me like im nosy sorry 😭 crazy i mean i had some dreams about mutuals (one time i had a dream ana was in priest clothing... things like that) BUT i forget people see me as a woman sometimes i am like whaoh... Anyway first of all i am glad redhead teo is alive at least in your head... second im speechless the way your wrote this all is so 😭😭😭 greateful... treatment... But you know what thank you for sharing this was actually a crazy thing to read about myself i feel like i just read Teo/YN fanfiction HONESTLY. honestly. but i am glad dream teo is having threesomes at least one of us is having fun ❤️

#next thing jeonghan teo fanfiction. God bless 😁 #i am DEF not sleepy anymore omfg like this is truly crazy to read. ABOUT MYSELF. also is it two guys 😭😭😭😭 crying. LOVE WINS!!!!!!!! #ask #i have to tag this as keep because this is like. Craziest thing anyone ever said to me 😭😭😭 I shouldve known better btw whats ur sign bc i #had this exact conversation with a cancer guy well he texted me but same shiet. Succubus teo! my url WAS sukuba + slavsuccubus for years so #keep

[fridaycore]

love you sm btw 😚❤️

nice to me???

love u love u love u🥰

#i also love ur irl so much btw #before we were mutuals i’d think like AH that’s such a good url i want to tell them but i’m shy . #and then we became mutuals and i was like :0 gayhokage it’s an honor…… #and it still is!! :3

[lesbian-hannibal]

1 2 and 3 for da ask meme !

THANK YOU <3333

1. how many tattoos do you have?

i think…. 18 now…. unsure

2. what was your first tattoo?

this right here on my right forearm!! it’s a tracing on a picture of my first ever cat cosmo <3333

3. what is your most recent tattoo?

newest is the vampire teeth here!!! got this done like. 2 days ago <33333

#I LOVE YO TALK ABOUT KY TSTTOOS THANK YOU #I NEED MORE #<333 #tattoos #ask #villaingender #love ur url btw

[flugame-mp3]

this is for the children’s book! i’m missing my left arm above the elbow, and i don’t use a prosthetic anymore. however, my old one was black with rainbow stripes if you would like to include it

amazing, thank you so much!! i really appreciate the input, and i'll dm you the finished picture if you'd like!

#asks #rainyrefrain #i love ur url btw!!

[shuamorollss]

Heyy! I love you blog sm! Was wondering if we could be moots?

omg hai artai :3 THANK YOU SO MUCHHH YOU R A SWEETHEART 🫵 n of course, let's be moots! <3

#inbox asks #the lomls #seokminded #I love ur url #n ur header btw