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[benhardyisdaddy]

must be a dream - part 2

MASTERLIST 

(THANK YOU @roger-bang-the-drum​ FOR CO WRITING THIS WITH ME AND FOR THE IDEA FOR THE LETTERS AND FOR WRITING THE LETTERS!!!! such a brilliant idea and made the story line 100x better so THANK U!!!)

Word Count: 2,790

“Shit!” 

Your whole entire body goes limp as you go to fall backwards. Billy jumps forward and catches you in his arms just before you slam into the ground. He’s panicking as he picks you up bridal style and hurries over to your bed. He gently places you down as he cups your face and attempts to wake you up.

“Y/n?!” he asks loudly as he shakes you a bit. 

His eyes are wild as his heart races. 

“Y/n, wake up!” 

The rest of the crew hurry inside and close the door. Five is at Billy’s side in an instant as she tries to inspect you. 

“Give me some room.” she tells him with a calm voice. 

“The whole point of this was to never be seen again!” calls out One as he runs a hand over his face. “Now we’re in an apartment with an unconscious girl and…and… Three!” he shouts. 

Three is stood over your tiny dining table as he munches on a bag of chips. He looks over to him with a mouthful and a confused expression.

“What?” he asks looking around. 

“Could you possibly not do that right now?” One asks with a disgusted face. 

“Oh my gosh,” harshly whispers Two as she spots the baby. 

Everyone, besides Billy and Five, slowly walk over to examine Stella as she sleeps. Their faces all soften as they coo over her. 

“Is she okay!?” asks Billy as Five feels your pulse. 

She backs away and places a blanket on top of you. 

“She’ll be fine. She’s just knocked out cold. She was overwhelmed.” she tells him.

Billy nods his head as his eyes were still glued to you. He looks terrified as his mind races like crazy. He couldn’t believe that he was back in a place that he once called home. In this exact spot he made you a promise that he would come back safe - and he didn’t. Guilt ripped through him just as he looks over and watches as One slides open a drawer on a small computer desk in the corner of the room.

“What are you doing!?” angrily shouts Billy. 

One looks over fast and quickly holds his hands up. 

“I’m just browsing!” he says in defense. 

“Don’t go through her shit!” 

Billy walks over to where he’s standing and goes to close the drawer. He’s pushing it back just as something catches his eye. He pauses and slowly reopens it. There’s multiple small envelopes with ‘Billy’ written on each one. It’s in your handwriting. His eyes are wide as he swallows hard. 

“What are those?” asks One. 

Billy just shakes his head as he continues to stare at them. 

“I… I don’t know.” 

Billy looks back to you and tenses his jaw. He looks to the envelopes once more and reaches out for them. He picks up the stack and slips the top one off of it. He places the rest on top of the desk and eyes it cautiously. He runs his fingers over his name and takes in a deep breath. He knows he shouldn’t, but he flips it over and gently tears the top open. His fingers slide inside and there’s a piece of paper. He pulls it out and spots writing on it. He feels like he’s doing something wrong, but he doesn’t care. He needs to read them. He has to read them. 

“She’s waking up!” whispers Two suddenly. 

Billy turns around and jumps at her sudden voice. He spots the small baby in her crib as she begins to wiggle around and yawn. Everyone near her all ‘awww’ at the sweet sight. Her big green eyes flutter open as she looks around at all of the unfamiliar faces surrounding her. 

“Hi, sweet girl,” whispers Two as she leans over and gently picks the baby up. 

Billy wants to stop her, but he doesn’t. The baby yawns once more and smiles at Two. This causes Billy to smile as Three walks over and begins making silly faces at her. She grins and does a belly laugh, causing everyone else to. She then looks over at One and stares at him. His eyes go slightly wide as she then reaches her tiny arms out for him. 

“Um,” he says looking at everyone. “Three, she wants you.” 

“No, no, papi. She definitely wants you.” he says with a laugh. 

Two walks over and hands the baby over to One. He takes her and looks super uncomfortable as she reaches her hand out to touch his face. He’s frozen as his eyes look to everyone else. 

“What’s… happening?” he asks as they all giggle. 

“She likes you.” says Seven. 

“That’s surprising.” teases Five. 

“Okay, my turn!” says Three as he walks up. 

“What?” asks One, almost offended. “She wanted me.” 

“Yes, but now I want to hold the baby. It’s my turn!” 

“She doesn’t want you!” fights back One. 

“Enough!” calls out Two. “You both are acting worse than the baby.”

Billy turns his back to them as he looks down at the note that’s still in his hand. He nods his head as he closes his eyes and takes in a deep breath. He unfolds it quickly and begins reading. 

Dear Billy, 

You have no idea what it feels like being told that you’re gone. It’s only been a month, but it feels like forever. Your mum tried her hardest to give you an amazing send off. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her that broken before. She couldn’t even stay during the burial. Hell, I almost had to leave. It was so odd seeing your real name on that stone - William Jones. God, that feels so weird to write. You’ll always be my Billy.

I can’t stop thinking about the day we met. We were just kids. I was out searching for food and the others were teasing me about it. I was hungry and alone, but not for long. You snuck food from your house and brought it to me. I still remember what you told me that day. “I’ll always take care of you.” And you did, Billy. You took care of me. It feels like forever since I’ve heard your sweet voice. God, I miss you so much, Billy. I just wish I could have told you everything I know now. Remember when you promised me the world? That was a promise you kept. I’m pregnant, Billy. This beautiful life, this beautiful, lovely human is ours. I know you would have been over the moon excited about all of this. All you ever wanted was a family with me. Well, now we have one. 

I love you, Billy. I’ll forever wish that you could come home to me. These letters will help make me feel like a tiny part of you is still here. I promise to keep writing to you. Goodnight, Billy. Sleep well and say hello to my mum for me. I love you. 

Yours Always, 

Y/n

Billy is stood there with his heart more broken than it ever has been. Something he never thought could happen. You wrote letters to him. Letters to a man you thought you’d never see again. You poured your heart out to your dead boyfriend, all while he was very much alive. Guilty is an understatement. Tears flooded his eyes as he stares down at your letter. His chin is quivering as his face scrunches up. He feels like the worst human in existence. He feels like he’s betrayed you. He left you all alone and with a baby. His baby. He finally had a family and he threw it all away. He hated himself for that. He could never be forgiven. He quickly wipes his eyes and, without thinking, opens another letter. He needs to read more. 

Dear, Billy 

Three months have gone by and you’re still not here. I don’t know why I keep thinking you’ll walk through that door at any minute with a bog goofy, smile on your face. A girl can only dream. I wish you were here to experience everything with me. You would be so in love with hearing and seeing our baby girl. Yes, you read that write. You’re going to a daddy to a beautiful little girl. I so badly wish you could have been there when I found out. I bawled like a baby, but you would have done the same. You always told me how much you wanted a little girl. 

I got to hear her heartbeat again today. It reminded me of when I used to lay on your chest and listen to yours. It’s strong and fast, just like her daddy’s. I already love her more than words can describe. Exactly the same way I will always love you. You broke that pinky promise we made, but I forgive you. I will always forgive you. 

How I long for just one more kiss, my sweet Billy. My William. 

Yours Forever and Always, 

Y/n

He’s speechless. That’s his little girl. His. He shakes his head as he slips the paper back into the envelope. He’s about to open another one up when suddenly you begin groaning. Everyone freezes as he looks to you fast. Your eyes flutter open and then close once more. His heart is racing as he looks around fast and quickly shoves the rests of the letters inside his backpack. Five was by your side as she slowly speaks. 

“Y/n?” she asks. 

You move your head around and slowly open your eyes. You blink several times as they try to adjust. You look to Five and it takes you a moment to realize that you don’t know her. You gasp loudly as you sit up fast and scoot away from her. You look terrified as your back is pressed against the wall. You’re trembling as you look between them all. 

“Who are you!?” you shout. 

“You passed out.” says Five in a calm voice. “We’re not going to hurt you. We were trying to help.” 

All of a sudden, you hear your baby and your heart almost fully stops. Your eyes land on her as she’s still in One’s arms with her hand wrapped around Three’s finger. Three backs away fast as One looks around awkwardly. He raises his brows and then back to you. 

“This looks weird.” he says quietly. 

“Don’t touch her!” you scream as your face twists with anger. 

You jump up from the bed and go to sprint towards him, but are stopped. Your head is woozy as you stumble slightly. Billy is in front of you with his hands on your shoulders. You stare at him in disbelief as your eyes go wide.

“It is you.” you barely whisper.

Billy just smiles as he nods his head. You look so thrilled to see him as you reach your hand forward to touch his face.

“I thought I had dreamed everything.” you tell him with a shaky voice.

“Not a dream, baby. I’m here.” 

Suddenly, your face goes from a sweet, sad smile to an angry, harsh frown. Your draw your hand back and harshly slap Billy in the face. Everyone gasps by your sudden actions as they take a step back. Billy’s stunned as his hand goes to his cheek and hisses. He looks to you fast, utterly confused. You shout out as tears fill your eyes and your chin quivers. 

“You broke our promise!” you half whisper. “You’re supposed to be dead.” you hiss. 

Billy’s trying to find the right words to say, but he can’t. His mouth is open as he attempts to speak. 

“That was my fault.” finally speaks up One. 

He has the baby still in his arms as you look over to him and narrow your eyes. He gives you a tight lipped smile as he gently hands the baby over to Three. Three’s face lights up as he smiles big and begins making funny noises to her. Stella laughs as she reaches up and grabs his nose, causing him to jokingly whisper ‘ow’ and making her laugh even more. 

“Your fault?” you ask as you begin seeing red. “You’re the reason why he left me?” 

Your voice was a mixture of anger, sadness and confusion. Nothing was making sense. 

“I never would have asked him to do it if I had known he had a kid.” confesses One.

“Do what!?” you half shout. “What is this!? Who are you all!?” 

You were frustrated as nobody spoke a word. You look to Billy and his eyes are sad as he looks down to the ground. You couldn’t believe he wasn’t going to explain anything to you. You tense your jaw as your eyes go dark. You shake your head fast as you look to all of them and sarcastically smile. 

“Alright, fine,” you say quickly. “If nobody’s going to explain what the hell is happening, then get out of my home!” you shout as you look to Billy. “All of you!”

They all flinch as tears build up in your eyes. 

“Y/n, no. Please!” begs Billy. 

“You’re dead.” you whisper again. “You died. They saw you die. I went to your f…” you pause as you close your eyes and silently sob at that memory. “I went to your funeral… I buried you as I stood next to your grieving mother.” you hiss.

This time, it was now Billy who was crying. 

“We can explain.” speaks up Seven. 

The crew look to him fast with wide eyes. One goes to say something that will dismiss that idea just as Two speaks up. 

“Yeah. That’s the least,” she says as she gives One a look. “We can do for you.” 

One shuts his mouth fast and knows that he’s been defeated on this. His shoulders slump as he shakes his head and rolls his eyes. 

“Fine!” he says fast. “But I wanna hold the baby while you do.” 

Three looks to One as if he’s just offended him. He steps away from him and shakes his head no. 

“No, she likes me now.” he tells him fast. “I just met her, but I would die for this baby.”

One gives Three a certain look that reads, ‘if you don’t give me the baby, I might hurt you’. Three ignores the glare as he stares at him ten times more harder.

“Actually,” starts Seven. “It’s my turn to hold her.”

One and Three look at him with wide eyes as their eyebrows fly up. 

“Your turn!?” they both ask in unison. 

The three of them begin talking at once and you can’t take it anymore. 

“Hey!” you shout over them.

They all look to you fast as you look over to Billy. He’s still looking at the ground with shame hitting him hard. 

“Don’t you think her father should hold her?” you ask as you continue to stare at him. 

Billy looks up fast and he looks shocked. He gulps hard as the three men all sadly slump their shoulders and agree. Three walks up to Billy and gently hands Stella over to him. Billy holds her in his arms as she stares up at him. She can’t break her tiny eyes away as she studies him closely. Billy just smiles as more tears flood his eyes. 

“Hi,” he whispers. 

He sniffles a bit as gently runs his hand over her blonde, curly hair. Everyone is watching in silence as they take in this magical moment. Your heart swells as you watch the man you thought you’d never see again finally meet his daughter. You place your hand over your heart as you smile. 

“Hi, beautiful,” he whispers to her. 

Stella smiles as her hand reaches out and lands on Billy’s chest. She yawns a bit as everyone melts. She sticks her tiny thumb in her mouth and slowly leans forward and rests her head on his chest. Billy looks up with wide eyes as you laugh a bit. You wipe away a few tears and nod your head. 

“She’s still sleepy.” you whisper. 

Billy looks to the crib and then back to you. 

“Should…Should I put her…down?” he asks, almost worried. 

“Do you want to put her down?” you ask quietly. 

Billy’s face softens as his hand begins rubbing tiny circles on her back. He gently shakes his head and smiles. 

“No.” he barely whispers. 

You bite your lip as you watch him begin rocking side to side with her still in his arms. He looks down at her tiny, chubby face and he can’t stop smiling. You’re taking in this sweet moment as One speaks up. 

“So, are doing this thing?” he asks in a hushed tone. 

You look over to him and remember that they’re supposed to be explaining all of this to you. 

“Yes,” you say. “Tell me… Tell me everything.” 

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[benhardyisdaddy]

complicated - part 2

MASTERLIST 

(theyre now all grown up and ben is so cute UGHHH i hope u all like this, the series is going to be interesting lolol) 

Word Count: 1,600

Years have now passed since the first day you met your new best friend. After high school, you had been searching for a roommate so you could finally move out and be the independent person you want to be. You mentioned the thought to Ben when he suddenly blurted out that he could be your roommate. 

“Are you sure?” you asked. “I don’t want to put that kind of pressure on you.” 

“Are you kidding me?” he asks with a big goofy grin on his face. “What better roommate to have than your own handsome best friend?” 

You laugh and roll your eyes at his cockiness. You think about it for a second more and agree. 

“Okay! I’m totally up for it. Two best friends rooming together. What’s the worst that can happen?” 

Well, there’s a few things that can happen. One of them being Ben bringing home random women and finding them half naked in your kitchen early in the morning - a morning like today. Your alarm for work had woken you up as you get up from bed and stretch. You yawn loudly as you throw on your robe and rub your eyes. You open your bedroom door and slowly make your way down the hallway and into the kitchen. You needed coffee ASAP. You notice the fridge open and assume it’s Ben rummaging around for food to eat. You chuckle to yourself and turn on the coffee pot. 

“If you want cereal, we need to go shopping for mi-” 

Before you can finish your sentence, a blonde haired woman stands up fast. She looks to you half startled as her eyes are wide. You’re taken aback as she steps back and you realize the only thing she has on is one of Ben’s shirts. She crosses her arms and looks you up and down, almost a rude glare in her eyes. 

“And you are?” she asks snarky. 

“I mean you’re the half naked one in my kitchen.” you bite back. 

You never liked the girls Ben brought back home with him. They were always so rude and almost jealous when you’ve greeted by them. You should be used to his random flings by now, but you’re not. Her eyes go wide by what you say. 

“You’re kitchen? This is Ben’s-” 

Before she can finish, in walks a half dressed Ben. He has on pajama pants and that’s all. He yawns before realizing the tensed stare down before him. The girl spots him and her face softens as she smiles. 

“Good morning, you.” she purrs as he walks in more. 

You give him a glare with a raised eyebrow. He gives you an ‘I’m sorry’ look with his big puppy dog eyes. 

“Y/n, this is Vanessa. Vanessa, y/n.” 

“His roommate.” you say slowly with a fake smile. 

Vanessa scowls as she looks back to Ben slightly confused. 

“You told me your roommate was a guy.” 

You laugh and try to hold it back, causing her to look at you fast with narrowed eyes. 

“Ashamed of me, are we, Ben?” you tease, causing his face to go slightly red. 

“What? No, I, um-” 

“You’re also breaking one of our rules.” you say as you scan his toned, shirtless body. 

“Rules are meant to be broken, right?” he teases as he looks to Vanessa. 

She smirks and runs her hand along his stomach. You roll your eyes and force yourself not to gag. 

“Not our rules, Ben. Wearing clothes at all times is definitely a rule we made.”

“Oh relax, y/n. I just woke up. Cut me some slack.” 

“Yeah,” says Vanessa. “Cut Benny some slack.” 

That’s the nickname only you can use for Ben and he knows it. He tenses up when he watches the look on your face. You tense your jaw and finally shrug.

“Okay, fine. If we’re all gonna be half dressed, then why can’t I?” 

And with that, you tear off your robe and fling your shirt off. Luckily you had your bra on. Vanessa glares at you as Ben’s mouth slightly falls open. His eyes scan you up and down and then he shakes his head fast. 

“Hey!” he shouts. 

You just shrug as you turn to pour yourself a cup of coffee. 

“Cut me some slack, Benny.” you mock back to him. 

You hear as Vanessa huffs and you smirk to yourself. 

“Do you want to go get some breakfast?” she asks him. 

You fight back a laugh at that question. You know Ben well and he’s not the type to go eat breakfast after a night with a girl. He’s the kind of guy to call them a cab and wish them well as they leave. Relationship isn’t a word in his vocabulary. You know where this is headed. 

“Oh, I really wish I could, but I have to go help y/n shop for some stuff.” 

Your eyes go wide as you spin around and glare at him. Vanessa knits her brows as she glances to you and then back to him. 

“Doesn’t she have, like, a boyfriend to go do that with?” 

“She does, but she needs help with a certain thing. It’s for her dolls.” he whispers.

You’re taking a sip of your coffee and nearly choke by that statement. 

“Her… what?” 

“Her dolls. She has a huge collection and is too embarrassed to tell Trent about them. Aren’t you, y/n?” 

You glare at him as you fake smile and look to Vanessa. It’s too late now. You might as well go along with it. You’ve officially won best friend of the century.

“Yes. My dolls. Love them dearly.” you say with the look of death in your eyes. 

“She needs a new dresser so she can put new ones on it. Right?” 

“Yep. And then I need to brush their hair. Ben likes to help me with that. Don’t you, Benny?” 

He narrows his eyes at you and then laughs it off as he shakes his head. 

“She’s so funny.” he says fast. 

Vanessa looks beyond confused and shakes her head. 

“Rain check on breakfast?” Ben asks with his sweet, charming smile.

Vanessa melts instantly and smiles back. 

“Sounds good.” 

She walks away and glances over to you as she walks to the bedroom to change back into her clothes. You’re stood in the kitchen as you lean against the counter and sip your coffee. Ben’s eyes are narrowed as he stares at you. 

“Will you please put your shirt back on?” he asks. 

You shrug and lower the cup from your face. 

“Will you put yours on?” 

“Do you always have to be such a nag?” he asks as he walks up and kisses the top of your head. 

You smile as he walks away and towards his room. 

“You love when I nag!” you call out. 

You hear Ben laugh. 

“True!” he calls out before the door shuts. 

You place the coffee down and throw your shirt back on. You make your way back to your room and get ready for work. You hurry to the bathroom and lock it before Ben tries to steal it away from you. You quickly shower and get dressed in your work uniform. You’re a waitress at a small diner in town. You throw your hair into a ponytail and exit the bathroom. Ben and Vanessa are walking towards the front door as he opens it. She reaches up and kisses him as she giggles from something he’s said. It makes your stomach turn. She glances your way and forces a smile. Ben turns and spots you as you smile back and wave your hand. 

“Bye, Veronica! I’ll tell my dolls good things about you.” 

She rolls her eyes and holds her purse close to her. 

“It’s Vanessa.” she shoots back. 

You continue smiling as you shake your head. 

“It doesn’t matter.” 

Ben finds himself holding a laugh back as he says goodbye and shuts the door. He turns around with the most apologetic look on his face. 

“I’m so sorry.” he says fast. 

“Benjamin, you broke another rule! You’re not supposed to use me when you’re blowing off your one nighters! Remember!?” 

“I do remember! I’m so sorry, but I just needed your help.” 

You roll your eyes and turn around to walk into your room.

“Dolls!? You use me to help you and you use dolls!? You’re actually evil.” 

Ben falls on your bed with a pleading look. 

“And you’re actually a saint. Please don’t be mad at me. I’ll do anything you want. Just name it.”

You have a mischievous look on your face as you begin thinking. 

“Hmmm, anything?” you ask with a tone that scares Ben. 

“Oh no.” he says as he sits up. 

You laugh at his expression. 

“You get to clean the bathroom for the rest of the week. And I mean the toilet and my shower hair balls.” 

Ben makes a dramatic gagging face and slowly nods his head. He looks defenseless. 

“Ugh… Deal.” he says quietly. 

You smirk as you grab your purse and look pleased with yourself. 

“Do you feel better now?” he asks standing up. 

You walk from your room and towards the front door. 

“Ya know what, I do.” you tell him with a smile. “I’m off to work. Oh, and Ben,” you say as you step out of the door and peer inside. 

His head lifts up at your questioning tone. 

“Keep your shirt on.” 

And with that, you shut the door, but not before you hear him call out. 

“You like it!” 

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[benhardyisdaddy]

i’m in love with my car

MASTERLIST 

(hope u all like this idea from @roger-bang-the-drum !!! <3) 

Word Count: 974

‘67 Mustang. That’s the car you had in your garage as you lay underneath and work away. This was your dream car ever since you were a little kid and you finally got it. You saved and saved until you could finally afford it. It was like your baby - taking care of it day and night. Your passion for mechanics and cars was in your blood as it ran in your family. You were determined to get this machine up and running and you weren’t giving up easily. 

You were covered in oil and grease as were your overalls. You were so close to fixing this car as you bite your lip and twist a bolt as hard as you can. Ever since you had met your boyfriend, Ben, three years ago, you couldn't stop blabbering about this car. He knew nothing you were talking about, but he just loved the way your eyes crinkle and how passionate you are about it. Whatever you love, he loves.

You finally were able to twist the bolt until a tiny pop is heard. Your eyes go wide as you smile huge and roll yourself from under the vehicle. You press a button on a machine that’s holding the car up and watch as it slowly lowers back down just a bit. You rush to the hood of the vehicle and open it up. You check wires and make sure everything was in place. This was the moment you had been waiting for. You couldn’t stop grinning as you retrieve the keys from your pocket and hurry to get inside, slamming the door shut. 

You place the key in the ignition and close your eyes. You take in a deep breath and turn the key, hearing the engine roar to life. It worked! You open your eyes wide and laugh as you raise your arms and cheer loudly. Your dream was finally here and you needed to show Ben immediately. You didn’t think about anything else besides putting on your seat belt and shifting her into drive. The car moved smoothly and you couldn’t believe this was happening. You’re on your way to see Ben. 

***

Ben was busy filming a movie that he was so passionate about. The location of the day was not far from you at all. You had only visited once and were given a lanyard with a special access card on it. You couldn’t wait to get there and show off your girl. You drove fast and excited when the giant gate to the studio appears. Someone clicks on over the intercom as you show your badge and identify yourself. They immediately know you are as the gate opens. You thank them and quickly drive inside. There’s a parking lot just to the right of you as you park the car and jump out. You admire the beauty before you hear your name being called. You turn around and spot Ben all dressed up for the movie - a huge smile on his face. 

“Security told me you were!” he says happily. 

You grin wide and step aside as you show off the car. Ben understands and his eyes go wide. 

“I finally finished!” you squeal as he stares at it in shock. 

“You finished!” you shouts as he walks up and engulfs you into a big hug. “I’m so proud of you!” 

You squeeze him tight and back away when more voices are heard. You both spin around and watch as the rest of the cast walk towards you. Ben holds your hand and smiles as the real Roger Taylor walks up. 

“Ah, this must be the lovely y/n.” he says with a smile. 

Your eyes go wide for a moment and your speech is nonexistent as you try to think of something intelligible to be. 

“Oh, uh, um-” 

“Yes!” Ben says looking to you. “This is my girlfriend, y/n. Y/n, this is Roger, Brian, Rami, Gwil and Joe. Y/n here just accomplished a huge dream of hers finally.” he says all proud. 

Roger’s eyebrows go up as he smiles. 

“And what was that?” 

You feel your cheeks turn pink as you move out of the way to reveal your car. Roger’s eyes go wide as he walks up to admire it. 

“This is your car!?” he asks shocked. “Let me guess, 67?” 

You’re taken back by his accuracy. 

“Wow, yeah it is! Always wanted one ever since I was little and I finally just got it to drive.” 

“You fixed it yourself?” he asks beyond impressed. 

You raise your head and nod. Ben’s watching you with stars in his eyes. 

“I used to have one of these babies when I was around your age.” says Roger. “What engine is in it?” 

Everyone but you all sigh and roll their eyes as you two begin talking about everything cars. 

“Oh, not another one.” says Brian quietly in the back with a dramatic sigh. 

Gwil, Joe and Rami are all watching as they hold back laughs as Roger explains everything Mustang to you. He keeps getting more shocked about how you already know anything and everything about cars. Roger looks to Ben and raises a brow. 

“Benjamin, if you hurt her, I’ll kill you.” 

Everyone, including you, laugh as Ben’s eyes go wide. 

“But… But I introduced her to you.” he says fast as you walk next to him. 

“Well, she’s my favorite kid now and if you hurt her, I’ll end you.” 

Ben’s face is a mix of laughter and fear as you giggle. 

“Understood.” he says as Rog smiles and motions you to walk with them. 

“So,” he starts. “What’s your opinion on the ‘67 Chevy?” 

You look behind you and catch Ben’s eye as you both sweetly smile to one another and make your way inside. 

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Unexpected

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(hope whoever requested this likes it <3 also ben looks soft and cute in this pic, i cant rn) 

Word Count: 4,326

WARNING: underage drinking, unwanted pregnancy angst

One week before Summer vacation’s over and you’re officially a senior. Eighteen looked good on you and you were so determined to do amazing in school - like always - and earn your way into an Ivy League. It was a huge dream of yours and you wouldn’t let anything get in that way. 

“What do you mean you’re not going to Will’s party tonight? You promised!” 

You were laying on your bed with your phone to your ear. Your best friend Ben is on the other line with a pathetically sad voice. 

“Will’s thrown an end of summer part since we were in second grade! We always go together! You can’t bail on me now!” 

You just sigh as you roll over onto your belly and close your eyes. 

“Ben, it’s just that I want a clear head before we go back. This is the year of y/n, okay? I don’t want anything to ruin this.” 

“So a silly party might ruin your reputation and acceptance into college?” he asks with a dramatic voice. 

You roll your eyes again. 

“This is serious to me, Ben! I’ve worked hard to get where I’m at.” 

“Don’t have to rub it in.” he says softly, causing your heart to break a bit. 

Ben still hasn’t gotten any acceptance letters to colleges he had applied for this Summer and it was bumming him out badly. You could tell. 

“What time do you want to leave?” you ask with a slight smile as you change the topic. 

You can hear Ben slightly gasp and can practically hear the smile on his face. 

“Is that you saying that you’ll go!?” he asks loudly. 

“Yes. I’ll go with you to Will's silly party! Pick me up around eight?”

Ben looks at the clock and realizes that’s only thirty minutes from now. He smiles and nods, even though you can’t see it. 

“Eight it is.” 

***

The idea didn’t seem so bad to you after you got yourself all ready. It was your senior year after all. This would be your last end of Summer party with your friends. You wanted to get dolled up and look nice for the occasion… Or possibly look nice for Aaron - your crush. You know he’ll be there so you mentally thank Ben for making you say yes. 

You’re waiting downstairs in your living when there’s a honk just outside. You know it’s Ben. You say goodbye to your parents as you rush off. Ben’s in the driver's seat with a big goofy grin on his face. You hurry to the car and slide in. 

“You look fancy.” he says in a purr like voice. 

You roll your eyes and lightly blush. 

“For Aaaaaron?” he asks, drawing out his name. 

You reach over and shove his arm playfully, causing him to laugh out loud. 

“What’s wrong with just wanting to look nice, huh!?” 

You both talk about anything and everything as you drive to the party. It’s located out by the docks on the lake like every year. That meant swimming, bonfires and god knows what else. You both finally arrive as he parks the car. You jump out and look around at the swarm of kids that were here. Your knew everyone that was here, but it felt odd seeing them after a year of being absent for Summer. It was nice to see familiar faces. You scan around and spot Aaron and your heart jumps. He’s near a table with all kinds of drinks on them - including alcohol. It was a party after all. 

“Want a drink?” asks Ben as if he’s read your mind.

“Please!” 

He nods and walks away towards the table. You slowly follow behind him with your eyes on Aaron. He’s smiling and laughing with one of his friends as you stare at him with actual heart eyes. You’re closer to the table when Aaron looks over and spots you. He smiles big and waves. It catches you off guard as you stand up straight and awkwardly wave back. He definitely caught you staring. Your face burned as you walk up more. 

“How was your Summer break?” asks Aaron as he walks up and brings you in for a hug. 

You’re frozen as he leans away with that sweet smile still plastered on his face. 

“Oh,” you say fast, realizing you need to speak. “It was awesome! Thanks. How, uh, how was yours?” 

Aaron shrugs and continues smiling as Ben turns from the table and stops as he watches you two. He knows about your feelings towards Aaron and doesn’t want to ruin the moment for you. Ben sips on his drink as he just stands back and observes. 

“Wasn’t too bad actually.” says Aaron. “Missed my science buddy though.” he teases as he talks about you. 

You giggle and move a piece of hair behind your hair - your way too obvious way of flirting. 

“Well, maybe we’ll have that class again this yea-” 

Before you can finish, Clara, the popular girl in school, walks up and wraps her arms around Aaron’s waist all while leaning up and kissing him. Your smile falls fast as you watch their intimate moment. You look away and feel your heart break. Ben watches you as he lowers the cup, his heart breaking for you as well. You’re looking around awkwardly as you rub your arm. Aaron and Clara look to you as her face falls. 

“Can we help you?” she asks rudely. 

Aaron speaks up in defense. 

“No, babe, I was talking to y/n about how I missed my science buddy. She use to let me copy her stuff all the time.” he laughs out. 

Oh, you think to yourself. That’s why you missed me. 

“Hey, y/n!” calls out Ben to rescue you. 

He walks up and you watch as Clara eyes him up and down, a smile on her face. He doesn’t pay her any attention as he’s only focused on you. 

“Here’s your drink. Let’s go by the fire.” he says quickly before grabbing your hand and leading you away. 

You follow him without a fight. You were thankful for the save. The two of you walk until you spot a giant log sitting by the huge campfire. You sit down and down your drink in an instant. Ben gets back up and steals a bottle of liquor for you two to share. You’re staring at the fire as your head starts buzzing. 

“Thank you.” you say quietly. 

Ben knows what you’re referring to. He reaches over and wraps an arm around your shoulder as he pulls you close to him. He kisses your head and rests his on it for a moment. 

“Anytime.” he says back, causing you to smile. 

You lean away to drink some more. You’re staring over at Aaron and watching as him and Clara hang all over each other. They look so happy and it made you sick. 

“Why would he want her?” you ask. “She’s the rudest human I’ve ever met.” 

“Agreed.” says Ben with a mouth full of booze. 

You just shake your head and down another drink. It was starting to mess with your head and you were actually kind of happy. You needed to let loose for a bit. Let go of all of your stress before the actual stress even begins. 

“Wanna dance?” asks Ben randomly as he watches a big group of kids dancing like crazy on a gravely patch to the right of you. 

You watch them for a moment before smiling and standing up. You wobble for a moment, but catch yourself. 

“After you,” you say to him. 

The two of you hurry up and begin dancing like crazy. Ben’s holding your hand and twirls you around as you laugh. He does some silly dance moves that make you cry from laughter. When the song’s over, you both return back to your seat. But as you sit down, you both miss the log at the same time and land on your butts. You’re drunk as you both lean against one another and laugh hard. You continue to sit on the ground as you sip on your drink some more. 

“I’m really drunk.” you confess to Ben. 

He laughs and nods. 

“Me too.” 

You look back over to Aaron and frown. 

“She’s so lucky.” you say. “I bet he’s so good in bed.” 

Ben chokes on his drink as he coughs, making you look at him fast. 

“What!?” you ask.

“Innocent y/n talking about a guy in bed. I’m surprised.” 

You roll your eyes at him. 

“I’m not as innocent as you think, Ben.” 

He raises a brow to you. 

“Oh really? Do you even know what a sex is?” 

“A sex!?” you ask as you laugh hard. 

“Yes! A sex!” he laughs out. 

“For your information,” you slur. “There’s a lot that you don’t know about me. Especially me with sex.” 

Ben’s actually shocked by that. His face falls and his mouth closes. 

“You’ve…?” he asks. 

You nod proudly. 

“Of course I have. Have you…?” 

“Yeah, of course.” he laughs. “Just a bit shocked by yours.” 

You look back to Aaron and frown once more. 

“I just bet he’s so good.” 

“Jesus, y/n. There’s other men out there that are decent at sex ya know. I bet he’s shit.” 

“Oh really?” you ask. “Are you good in bed, Benjamin?” 

“Actually,” he says smugly. “I’m quite freaking fantastic.” 

You’re taken aback by his bluntness. 

“Oh…” is all you can say. 

“That’s what you need though,” he says taking a swig. “A good shag. You’ve probably been deprived all Summer.” 

Honestly, he was right. You’ve been so focused on school and your studies this Summer that you failed to do anything remotely fun. 

“But, you know, I didn’t have any all Summer either. So, ya know, it’s just an idea… Maybe,” 

You lean away and raise a brow at him with a somewhat twisted face.

“Ben, are you trying to say what I think you’re saying?” you ask a bit loud. 

He just looks around and then back at you.

“...Maybe…” 

***

Ben slowly moved his car down the dirt road that it was parked on. The car was far away from anybody as you straddled his lap in the back seat. Your lips were pressed together in a hot and messy kiss. His hands roamed your body as you grind into him. 

“Just to be clear,” you say pulling away. “I don’t like you like this, okay?” 

“Ditto.” he says fast, trying to go back to kissing you. 

“We’re just doing this because we’re super drunk and turned on. And because I have angry sexual frustrations over Aaron that I need to release. Got it?”

“Got it, but if you say his name again, I’m gonna have to leave.” 

You both laugh as you shake your head and resume your kissing. The car windows were fogged up and you were so happy that no one was able to look inside and see what the two of you were doing. 

***

2 Weeks Later 

School had started back up and you were thrilled about how well you were already doing. You and Ben had practically every class together, besides first hour. Last year, you had none, so you were happy. It was time for lunch as you both made your way to the cafeteria. Surprisingly, you weren’t hungry. You opted for a drink instead and sat next to Ben as you both talked about anything and everything, but today Ben decided to bring up another topic. 

“We never really spoke about what happened that night…” he lingers. 

Your eyes go wide as you look around fast, hoping no one could hear you. 

“Ben!” you scold. “What is there to talk about? We were drunk and just bored.” 

“I know, but I didn’t want this to be weird or anything.” 

“Nothing’s weird.” you smile. “You’re still my best friend and that’s all.” 

That relieved Ben as you both enjoy your lunch break with laughter about what had happened that day so far. 

***

2 Weeks Later 

You had woken up that Tuesday morning with horrible nausea. You weren’t running a fever, but you felt like you had the flu. You were constantly in the bathroom as you released everything you ate the day before. You felt horrible. Your mom decided that you needed to go get checked out at the hospital and she’d go with you. 

It felt like forever in the waiting room before your name was called. You were taken back to a room where you had to get dressed in a hospital gown. After checking you and drawing blood, your doctor was there. 

“Heard we’re not feeling good today.” she says sweetly as she checks your chart. 

“Yeah, I’ve had the worst nausea ever. It just keeps hitting out of the blue.” 

She’s quiet as she studies the paper and then speaks. 

“Tell me, y/n, when was your last period?” 

You sit there and think for a moment before your heart jumps. 

“I, uh,” you look to your mom as she watches you closely, a confused look on her face when you linger. “I guess I’m sort of late for it.” you say quietly. 

Your mother swallows hard and leans back in her chair. The doctor looks to you and then to her. 

“Mrs. y/l/n, do you mind if I speak to y/n alone real quick. She’s considered an adult now and I just need to ask her a few more questions by herself.” she says with a smile. 

Your mom nods and looks to you with a half sad smile. She reaches over and grabs your hand for a moment before standing up and exiting the room. Once she’s gone, the doctor turns to face you. 

“Alright, mom’s gone so now I can ask you some questions. Are you sexually active?” she asks. 

You shake your head no fast but then stop. You remember Ben instantly and your stomach twisted. 

“No… Well, once, but…” you trail off. 

The doctor just watches you as she nods and stands up.

“We’re gonna take another sample of blood real fast and I’ll go tell mom that she can come back in.” 

All you can do is nod as she leaves the room. What was happening!? They can’t actually think that you might be pregnant… Right? Your mother comes back in and says nothing as she sits down and stares at the floor. A nurse walks in and hurries to draw some more of your blood. You’re told that it’ll take a bit for them to get the results… And they did. 

And you were pregnant. 

***

You’re sat in the passenger side as your mother drives back home. You’ve just been told you were going to have a baby and it felt like a bad dream. You stared out the window until she finally speaks up. 

“I tell you the same thing over and over, y/n, always wear protection! I was your age once, I know what it’s like to have urges. I don’t care what you do, I just needed you to do that one thing and you didn’t.” 

Tears well up in your eyes as you look over and watch her speak. She doesn’t look angry, she doesn’t even sound angry. Just disappointed, which was somehow worse. 

“I was seventeen when I had you,” she says finally looking over at you. “Was I too young? Yes. Do I regret it at all? Absolutely not. I’d do it again in a heartbeat, it’s just… It’s just that I didn’t want you to miss out on things like I did.” 

“I don’t have to.” you barely whisper.

Your mother looks over and she understands what you’re referring to. She looks back to the road and nods. 

“I think that’s something you should probably talk to the father about. Speaking of the father… Do I even want to know who it is, because when you’re father finds out…” she lingers off as she sighs about the moment you have to tell your father. 

You take in a deep breath and look down at your hands. 

“Ben.” you barely whisper. 

Your mom’s head flies to look at you, her eyes wide. 

“I’m sorry, who?” she asks. 

“Ben…” you say once more. 

“Ben?! Your best friend Ben!? The same Ben that you use to take bubble baths with when you were two!?” 

All you can do is nod. Your mother looks back to the road and just shrugs. 

“In an odd way I’m actually a bit relieved that it wasn’t that Anthony kid from your school.” 

“Aaron, mom.” you correct her. 

She rolls her eyes at his name. 

“His name can be whatever - doesn’t make him less of an idiot.” 

That comment makes both of you laugh and some stress falls off your shoulders. But she’s right… You need to tell Ben. 

***

“Ya know, being asked to meet in the park after dinner really makes me think you’re going to murder me.” teases Ben as he jogs up to you. 

You’re sat on a swing as you gently go back and forth. You didn’t laugh at his dumb joke which made him a bit worried. 

“Hey, what’s wrong?” he asks as he sits on the swing beside you. 

You can’t look him in the eyes as you stare down at your feet. 

“I went to the hospital today.” you say quietly. 

“Shit, are you okay!?” he asks worried.

 “I’m… I’m fine.” you tell him. “I just found out something that I need to tell you and I don’t want you to get angry at me for it. Okay?”

You finally look to him and your eyes are watery. He was beyond worried. 

“Okay.” he whispers. 

You take in a deep breath and close your eyes. 

“I’m pregnant.” 

You open them to watch as Ben’s face goes pale. He’s staring at you as you wave your hand in front of his face. 

“Ben?” you ask, causing him to come back to reality. 

“Is it mine?” he asks fast. 

You’re offended by that questions as your face twists up and you stand fast. 

“Yeah, Ben, because I sleep with so many people!” you shout as you begin walking away fast. 

He jumps up from the swing and yells out to you before gently grabbing your arm to stop you. 

“I didn’t mean it like that and you know it. I’m sorry! I’m just… I’m just trying to process all of this, okay? I wasn’t expecting that. At all. I don’t even know what to say.” 

You realize that he was still in shock as you look down and nod your head. You wrap your arms around yourself as he watches you. 

“I - we - can’t raise a baby right now. I have college to look forward to. I wanted to talk to you about adoption and-” 

“Adoption?” he asks confused. 

“Yeah? I can’t give up my dreams because of one dumb mistake we made, Ben.” 

Ben sarcastically laughs as he takes a step backwards. 

“Your dreams? You see, yn, that’s so typical of you to always be thinking of yourself.” 

You’re taken aback by his harsh statement as your eyes narrow. 

“Thinking of myself?! Ben, this is Ivy League we’re talking about! You can go to a community college whenever you want, but mine’s a big deal!” 

You knew that was a mistake to say whenever the words slipped from your mouth. Ben laughs and raises his eyebrows as you close your eyes and sigh. 

“I’m sorry, Ben. That’s not what I meant, okay? I’m sorry.” 

“No, it’s fine. I’m gonna go and not get in your way of whatever it is you want. As long as you reach the top, right? Because my opinion on this doesn’t matter.” 

He turns around and begins walking away as you shout out for him to stop, but he doesn’t. That didn’t go as you planned. 

***

3 Months Pregnant 

“Ben, I have my first ultrasound appointment today and I really want you to be there. I know we’ve been distant lately, but I could really use you there by my side. Please?” 

You hang up the phone as your mom walks into the living room with your coat. 

“Didn’t answer?” she asks sadly. 

You just shake your head as you wipe away a tear and stand up to leave. You were nervous for your appointment. The drive wasn’t long until you get there. You’re taken back to a room and lay down on a bed. You lift your shirt up and expose your slightly swollen belly. Your mom smiles at the sight as you look around at all of the odd machinery in the room. There’s a knock at the door and in walks your doctor. 

“Ready to see your baby?” she asks sweetly as she sits down on a small chair in front of a screen. 

As she’s rubbing a weird green jelly on your stomach, there’s a loud knock at the door. You all look to it as it opens up and in walks Ben. He looks out of breath as he just awkwardly smiles and looks to you. You’re shocked to see him as you grin and sit up slightly. 

“You came.” you whisper. 

“I wouldn’t miss this for the world.” he replies. 

He walks over and greets your mom with a hug as he places a chair near you and sits. The two of you sadly smile at one another and by the look in his eyes, he’s telling you that he’s sorry. You hold out your hand for him to take, symbolizing that you were too. He takes it as the two of you watch the tiny screen light up.

“There it is.” says the nurse showing you the tiny face. 

Your heart swells as you quietly cry to yourself. You look over and watch as Ben’s eyes are blood red and he’s crying too, along with your mom. 

“It’s so tiny.” you whisper, looking back to the screen. 

“I can’t believe that’s our baby.” whispers Ben, a sweet smile on his face. 

The way he was looking at it made something in your head start turning. It made your heart swell up and something felt different. 

***

6 Months Pregnant 

“Is it odd to have a baby shower when we’re giving her up for adoption?” asks Ben a bit sad as he places pink plates on a table. 

Your mom looks over to you and gives you a knowing smile as you look back to Ben. 

“Ben,” you start as he looks over to you. “I’ve been thinking about things a lot lately. College will always be there for me when I’m ready to go, but this,” you say as you place your hands on your bump. “This whole parent thing seems much more rewarding than that, so…” you linger, causing Ben to understand what you’re trying to say. 

He steps towards you fast with his eyes wide and a serious look on his face. 

“Are you saying what I think you’re saying!?” he asks fast. 

All you can do is bite your lip and nod. Ben’s face broke into a huge grin as he reaches forward and hugs you. 

“You have no idea how happy that makes me.” he whispers against you. 

You wrap your arms around him and nuzzle your face into the crook of his neck. 

“Me too.” you whisper back.

***

9 Months Pregnant

“Breathe, it’s okay. You’re doing so great. Just breathe.” 

You’re in a hospital bed as contractions hit you hard. Your water had broken while Ben was moving some of his stuff into your room for the arrival of the baby. It was a week early and you weren’t expecting it. Ben and your mom were in the room with you as he held your hand and allowed you to squeeze it as hard as you want. 

“You’re doing so good.” he whispers as he rubs your back with his free hand. 

“I don’t want her to think she was a mistake!” you yell out randomly, causing your mom and Ben to look at each other confused. 

“Why would she think that?” he asks. 

“Because her parents aren’t even in love! We’re two best friends having a baby and I don’t want her to hate us for that! I don’t want it to feel like a broken home!” 

Ben laughs softly as he feels bad for you thinking that. 

“Hey, no! It’s not like we’ve gotten a divorce or broke up. There’s not going to be any split holidays or separate birthday parties, okay? She’s being born into a family that loves her more than she’ll ever know. Understand? Yeah, we’re not the typical ‘fall in love and have a baby’ scenario, but we do love each other and she’ll always see that.” 

You’re looking up to Ben as you cry hard at what he’s saying. You nod your head and feel a million times better already. 

“Thank you for that.” you whisper just before another contraction hits. 

Your rooms door opens up and in walks the doctor as she puts on some gloves. 

“Alright, who’s ready to have a baby?” 

***

1 Hour Later 

You’re laying in the bed with Ben at your side. Your mom had ran out to grab some food as you both admire your beautiful baby girl. 

“She has your eyes.” you tell him. 

“Well she has your lips.” he says with a smile. 

“I can’t believe we created something this beautiful.” you whisper as she begins squirming around and makes the sweetest little noise. 

You both scrunch your faces and ‘awww’ at it. You look over to Ben and smile. 

“I’m glad she’s ours.” you admit. “This is a way better feeling than receiving an acceptance letter.” 

Ben laughs softly as he kisses your head. 

“I can agree with you on that.” 

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complicated - part 1

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(HI welcome to my new fic idea! so this part is more of a ‘set the mood for their friendship’ type thing so you understand like how close they are when they’re older. it’s gonna be like a fwb type fic, just SUPER ANGSTY. plz lemme know if i should continue!!!) 

Word Count: 771

“Is he going to be in the same class as y/n?” asks your mother. 

She’s smiling wide as she’s on the phone with someone in the kitchen. She’s sat at the dining room table as you stand next to her and look up curiously. She glances over to you and smiles as her hand goes to brush some hair from your face. You lean into her warm touch and sigh. She carries on the conversation for what feels like forever until she’s placing the phone down and turning to look at you. 

“Are you excited for your first day of kindergarten today?” she asks sweetly. 

She lowers down to her knees to face you better. You look away sadly and shrug. 

“What if I told you that you’ll have a friend to play with? Mommy’s best friend is bringing her little boy to where you’re going. How does that sound?” 

You look back to her with wide eyes and a slight grin. 

“Will he want to play with me?” you ask excited. 

“Of course he’ll want to play with you! You two will grow up as best friends just like his mom and I did. Now go get your coat.” 

You do as your told and with a giant smile on your face. It’s kept there all the way until you get to the school. Your mother helps you out of the car and holds your hand as you walk towards the building. You were nervous as kids walk all around you. The two of you make it to a large classroom that’s filled with toys and books. Your mother leans over and hugs you tightly. 

“I don’t think they’re here yet, sweetie.” she says a bit sadly. “Mommy has to go, but I’ll see you soon, okay?” 

You nod and nervously smile as she leans in to hug you. 

“Now go play and be good.” she whispers in your ear.

You turn around and slowly walk off as your teacher spots your mother and waves. She takes you over to a spot when your eyes catch a colorful book. You grab it and walk to a table and sit down. You don’t know how to read just yet, but you can’t wait until you can. You admire the beautiful pictures when a mother and her son walk in the classroom. The mother looks around and spots you. She smiles and looks to the small boy.

“See that little girl over there?” she asks. “That’s Amy’s little girl. Remember Aunt Amy? You two are friends now. Be nice and watch over her, okay? Remember, you’re friends.”

The little boy looks over to you and his eyes are glittering. He slowly begins walking towards you when suddenly the teacher announces that first recess is beginning. You all make your way out to the playground as you walk to a corner and lean against it. A group of boys were making faces at you, but you ignored them. All of a sudden they start walking towards you.

“Nice shoes.” one of the boys mock. 

You look down at them realize they’re a bit more beat up than theirs. Your heart falls when they keep teasing you over it. You felt your eyes burn with tears as you stare at the ground. 

“Hey!” someone yells.

You all turn to watch as a blonde boy walks up with his hands in a fist by his side. 

“Leave her alone!” 

“Oooh, she likes him!” one of the kids cooed, causing them all to laugh. 

“I said leave her alone!” shouts the boy as he rushes forward and shoves the kid down. 

It was forceful as the kid loses his breath and begins crying. The rest of the kids all look terrified as they run away to tell the teacher what happened. The boy looks back to you and smiles as he steps closer. 

“Are you gonna make fun of me too?” you whisper. 

The boy smiles sadly and shakes his head. 

“Never. I’m Ben.” 

You look up to him and finally smile back. 

“I’m y/n.”

“Friends?” he asks as he reaches out a tiny hand for you to shake. 

You fight back a smile as you reach yours out to take his. 

“Friends.” 

Your mother was right when she said that you two would be best friends forever. From that moment on, Ben was always by your side. The two of you couldn’t do anything unless the other one was there. All through school, everyone knew that y/n and Ben were inseparable. So who would have thought that one day… That might end?

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my little secret - part 1

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(hello i just wanna make one thing very clear: i do not i REPEAT i do NOT CONDONE CHEATING WHATSOEVER. FOR ANY REASON. IDC WHAT IT IS. ITS NOT CUTE OR ROMANTIC. ITS HORRIBLE. I ONLY WROTE THIS BECAUSE ITS ANGST AND BECAUSE SOMEONE SUBMITTED IT TO ME. I AM AGAINST CHEATING. just had to make that clear lol. i feel like this isn’t my best work, but ive had writers block rlly bad so IM SORRY OKAY i feel like its rlly rushed so i apologize dont h8 me. i switched up the plot just a bit also)

Word Count: 2,517

WARNING: age gap (23 and 70), smut, cheating, breeding kink 

“You never listen to me!” 

“I always listen to you! You just never make yourself clear!”

“Never make myself clear!? You just don’t care!” 

“You’re such a stubborn pain in my ass!”

“You’re always a pain in my ass, Ben! It’s always about you!” 

“Oh, for Christ’s sake, fuck off!” 

You and Ben had gotten into a huge dispute over god-knows-what. The argument goes from calm, moderate voices to ear deafening screams that you know your neighbors can hear. The two of you had been arguing more than ever lately, but it’s never gotten this bad. Ben’s never told you to fuck off before and you never thought he would. You freeze when the word’s slip from his mouth and the look on his face drops when he realizes what he’s just said. 

“I didn’t mean that.” he says fast. 

You feel your eyes sting from tears that threatened to spill and they finally do. Your chin’s trembling as you turn around and storm towards your bedroom. You hear Ben behind you as he quickly follows. 

“Baby, I didn’t mean that! I’m sorry, okay? I was just upset- What are you doing?” 

You had grabbed a duffel bag from the top of your closet and are shoving clothes inside of it. You zip it up quickly and grab your purse and keys. 

“I’m doing exactly what you told me to do. I’m fucking off.” 

Ben's eyes crinkle as he closes them out of frustration. He rakes a hand through his hair as he follows you towards your front door. 

“I didn’t mean that, y/n! Don’t go! Let’s just talk, babe. I’m sorry.” 

You turn around fast as you slide your phone in your pocket. Your eyebrows are knitted together as you stare at him with fire in your eyes. 

“You’re always sorry, Ben!” you say loudly. 

His face falls as he stares at you with cloudy eyes. 

“I’m going to my moms.” you say before slamming the door in his face. 

You don’t stop walking until you’re in your car and driving down the road. You can’t go to your moms. It’s two in the morning and she has to be at work at six. You couldn’t wake her up. You pull over on the side of the road and scream loudly as you punch the steering wheel. You were angry at everything and everyone, especially Ben. You slam your fists into the steering wheel a few more times and stop out of breath. You lean back against your seat and take in a deep breath. You need a drink and you know just the place to go to. 

***

You pull up to your favorite little hole-in-the-wall bar that’s open 24/7. It’s tiny, but packed. You’re best friend is the owner of the place so you know you can get a good seat in the front. You hurry out of your car and inside. Smoke fills the place as loud heavy metal blares everywhere. You make your way to the front and spot an open seat. You quickly fill it and spot your best friend Cassie. She walks up with a sad smile on her face as she realizes the look on yours. 

“Ben?” she asks. 

You just nod as she pours you a shot and slides it in front of you. You gulp it down fast as another is placed before you. 

“He told me to fuck off.” you tell her as you swallow the drink fast.

She pours you another as her face goes shocked. 

“What!?” 

“But, of course he didn’t mean it and he was sorry.” 

You drink it down as you hear someone yelling Cassie’s name. 

“Here,” she says getting you another drink. “Let me go deal with this and we’ll finish this conversation, okay?” 

She walks away and you’re left alone with your sorrows. You’re staring down at your now empty glass as someone speaks up. 

“Men are idiots sometimes.” 

You look over and spot an almost too familiar face. He has a drink in his hand with a smile on his face. He was older than you, much older actually, but man, was he good looking. You spin your chair to face him all the way. 

“Sometimes?” you ask, smirking. 

He laughs and slowly nods his head. 

“Oh, alright. All the time.” 

You laugh and look at him for a second longer before squinting your eyes and cocking your head. 

“Do I know you from somewhere?” you ask, suddenly feeling the drinks starting to kick in. 

The man laughs once more and shrugs his shoulders. 

“Possibly. I’m Roger.” he says as he holds out his hand for you to shake. 

Your face falls as your eyes go wide.

“Oh my god,” you whisper as you lean in to him. “I know you! I know you, I just don’t know where from! Hold on, don’t tell me...” 

You lean back and look at him up and down, trying to figure it out. Now your drinks were really kicking in. 

“You’re a musician.” you state. 

He nods his head as he gulped the rest of the dark liquid in his glass. 

“You’re a musician and your names Rog-” you pause when it finally clicks. “You’re the drummer from Queen!” you say a little too loudly as you slur.

Roger’s eyes go wide as he puts his finger to his mouth to shush you. You laugh and look around as you cover your mouth. 

“I knew I knew you from somewhere! My boyfriend loves your band!” 

“Same boyfriend that told you to fuck off?” he asks, leaning in closer for you to hear. 

You suddenly remember and frown. You nod your head and wave over another bartender. You order another shot. 

“Make it two.” says Roger, looking at you. “And they’re on me.” 

You smile to him and feel your face turning hot. 

“So, Mr. Famous Drummer,” you say, causing him to look down and laugh. “What’s your excuse for being here all alone? You clearly know mine.” 

“Needed some alone time for myself, I suppose. Never been to this place before, but apparently it attracts good people.” 

He smiles to you and for the first time in a long time, Ben wasn’t the one on your mind. Roger was. 

“And if I might add,” he says leaning in close to you. “You should try being with an actual man one day. Not a little boy.”

Your eyes drunkenly flutter as you slowly bring your hand to Roger’s knee and very slowly run it up his thigh. He tenses up at your touch, but his eyes are dark with lust. A slight smirk appears as he looks down at your hand for a moment before back up at you. 

“Maybe I will.” you purr. 

And before you know it, you and Roger are in the back of his car as his driver takes you across town. Your mouths are clashing as you breathe heavily, your mind foggy. You can’t keep your hands off of each other the whole night. 

***

RINGRING RINGRING 

Your head is pounding as the sound of your phone blares near your ear. You squeeze your eyes closed as you squirm around and groan. You flutter them open and squint due to the bright sun beaming through the room. You bring your hand up and rub your eyes, hoping to make the blurriness disappear. You’re in mid yawn when what happened last night hits you. Your eyes shoot open as you sit up fast. 

You’re in a hotel room with your clothes scattered everywhere all around you. You bring the bed sheet up and cover yourself as you look beside you. There next to you is Roger. He’s on his back and is starting to move around a bit. You should feel guilty. You should feel horrible for what you did, but you don’t. All you can do is smile as Roger’s eyes open and he looks over to you. He sheepishly grins as he rubs his eyes. 

“You’re still here.” he says as he yawns. 

Your face falls as he says that. You look away fast and jump up from the bed as you gather your clothes. 

“Was just leaving.” you spat as you slip your jeans on and then your top. 

Roger notices your change of tone and sits up fast. 

“Wait!” he says fast. “I didn’t mean it like that. I’m just surprised you stayed. I don’t want you to go.” 

You turn around and he has the most sincere look on his face. You let out a breath you were holding and smile as you walk back over to him. 

“I’m sorry,” you whisper. “I’m just on edge right now.” 

Roger smirks as he grabs your arm and pulls you back onto the bed. You laugh as you lay on your back and look up at him. 

“Then let me help you with that.” he whispers as his hand trails over your stomach and slips under your pants. 

You bite your lip as your phone begins ringing again. You roll your eyes and grab it. Twenty two missed calls from Ben. You frown a bit, but turn it off completely. You look back to Roger and smile. 

“I could use all the help I can get.” you purr. 

***

You quietly slip your keys into your front door and open it gently. You walk inside and look around, not seeing any sign of Ben. You had left Roger’s hotel with a promise that the two of you would see each other again very soon. He’s staying in town for a while for a ‘top secret’ project he’s working on. He wasn’t allowed to tell you, but that’s okay. You like surprises. 

You close the door behind you and hear footsteps getting closer. Ben appears in front of you in the hallway. He freezes when he sees you. He slowly walks closer to you until he’s inches away. He cups your face with his hand and leans in to gently kiss you. 

“I really am sorry.” he whispers. 

You swallow hard and force yourself to smile back.

“I know.” you whisper back. 

Ben smiles widely and bites his bottom lip. 

“I have amazing news.” he says fast. 

You laugh at his wild expression as he takes a step back. 

“What is it?” 

“I got a role for a movie! I drive out to the location tomorrow for fitting and all that fun stuff!” 

He looks like a kid on Christmas morning. You couldn't help but celebrate with him. 

“Ben! That’s amazing! What movie is it?”  

“I can’t actually say anything to anyone, babe. They’re wanting it to be under the radar for a bit. But I promise that when I can, I’ll send you over the second I’m allowed to. Okay? I just can’t believe this is happening. This is huge!” he yells. 

You laugh and can’t help but bring him in for a kiss, but the whole time you’re kissing, all you can think about is Roger. 

*** 

4 Months Later

***

“Right there!” you squeal as Roger thrusts into you hard. 

You’re whining loudly as he kisses and sucks on your neck. 

“Roger!” you whine, feeling yourself starting to release. 

“I wanna cum in you.” whispers Roger in your ear. 

Him saying that makes you hit your high even faster. You squeeze your eyes closed and scream out as you grip his arm tightly. Your body convulses as pleasure fills every cell in your body. 

“Yes!” is all you can repeatedly shout. 

Roger lets out a low growl as he thrusts once more and pauses, his body jolting forward. You feel him release all inside of you and it makes you whine even louder. He jerks once more and he’s done. You both are breathing fast and hard as he rests his forehead on your shoulder. You smile to yourself as you close your eyes. 

“Amazing.” you whisper. 

Roger leans away and kisses you. 

“Like always.” 

He slips out and falls beside you utterly exhausted. 

“I have to leave in a second.” you whisper sadly. 

“No, stay with me.” 

You look over to him and smile. 

“I’m just gonna be right outside of town for a bit. You can always come see me. I’ll have my own room.” you tease. 

“I’ll take you up on that offer, love.” he mumbles. 

***

“I’m almost there. Where am I meeting you again?” 

“I told the driver where to go, don’t worry.” Ben teases. “Let’s see if you’ll recognize me.” 

“Recognize you? Why? What did they do to you?” you ask worried. 

He laughs in the phone and shakes his head. 

“Wait, I think I see you! We’re all outside!” he says fast. 

Suddenly the phone goes dead. You look up and out the window. A bunch of people are standing in front of a huge building. You’re beyond nervous as you pull up and the car stops. You jump out and make your way towards them. A man with long blonde hair is staring at you with a huge smile on his face. You squint your eyes as he walks even closer. 

“Ben!?” you call out. 

He nods his head and laughs as he wraps his arms around you and squeezes. You lean away and your eyes are wide as you gently touch the wig he’s wearing. 

“Wow.” you whisper. 

“Looks good, yeah?” he teases. “You know who I am?” he asks, backing up so you can see him fully.

“Um, someone from the 70’s?” you ask. 

“Alright, good! But who do you think it is?” 

You’re thinking for a moment as Ben looks behind you and smiles. 

“Ah, the man himself!” 

You turn around confused and your face falls. So does his. It’s Roger. 

“Roger, this is my girl, y/n. Y/n, this is the Roger Taylor.” 

The two of you stare at each other as your eyes are wide. You felt almost sick. You realize how this must look to Ben, so you snap out of it. You shake your head and bring your hand up to him. 

“Nice to meet you, Mr. Taylor.” you say fast. 

Roger shakes your hand and forces a smile. 

“Please, call me Roger.” 

You smile and look away as you take a step back towards Ben. 

“Rog, the reservations are all set for tonight.” 

You look to your left as a beautiful older blonde walks up and kisses Roger. He wraps an arm around her waist and looks to you. He looks embarrassed as he smiles. 

“Sarina, this is Ben’s girlfriend, y/n.” he says, almost gagging at the word girlfriend. “Y/n, this is my wife... Sarina.” 

“Your wife.” you say a little too bluntly, causing him to look at you with a worried expression. 

You smile widely and reach your hand out to her. 

“It’s so nice to meet you.” 

“You as well!” she says sweetly. “Will you be joining us for dinner?” she asks. 

You go to tell her no, but Roger speaks up. 

“Of course she will.” he says fast. 

Yeah, you think to yourself. Of course I will. 

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the christmas gift

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(welcome to this fluffy christmas bxrxr story!! i needed something super soft and cute so here it is!! i hope you like it <3) 

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Description: a sweet christmas surprise from ben and roger 

Word Count: 1,852

“Merry Christmas Eve!” 

You’re stood in your living room with Ben as Roger comes bursting through the front door. There’s a huge grin on his face as white snowflakes cover his hair and clothes. You and Ben both slightly jump at the sudden commotion. The two of you were busy listening to Christmas music and decorating the tree. 

“We’re really late with the tree.” you had said sadly. 

“Hey,” Ben says softly. 

He walks behind you and wraps his arms around your waist. He nuzzles his face into your neck and peppers sweet kisses along it. 

“We’ve just been really busy lately. Better late than never, right?” he asks. 

You smile and lean back against him as you stare up at the bare tree in front of you. 

“You’re right,” you say, slightly pausing. “Just wonder what’s taking Roger so long at the store.” 

Well, now you have your answer. Roger’s arms are full with bags upon bags of god-knows-what. You pause your decorating as your eyebrows go up and you lightly laugh. 

“Roger?” you ask. “You do realize you don’t have to carry a whole load in, right?” 

He gives you a big goofy grin as he wobbles down the hall and towards the bedroom. 

“I know, but I’m lazy!” he calls out. 

“Did you buy out the whole store!?” yells out Ben. 

He’s standing on his tippy toes as he tries placing some ornaments on the top of the tree. Your job was to decorate the bottom and Roger’s job was… Well, Roger’s job was to not break anything - which he’s done amazing at so far. 

“Just about!” laughs Roger as he walks back to you both. “Don’t look in our closet, because your gifts are in there.” 

Before either of you are able to speak, Roger gets a very serious look on his face which makes you giggle. 

“I mean it!” he says loud. “No peeking! Especially you.” he says with narrowed eyes looking to you. 

You’re taken aback by his sudden comment as you almost gasp and look shocked. 

“Me!? I don’t peek!” you argue back. 

“Oh, really?” asks Ben with a smirk on his face. “So you didn’t peek at your birthday gift last year?” 

“Yeah and we never found you crying in the bedroom after you peeked at it, because you were so happy?” asks Rog with the same look on his face. 

You look guilty as you just shrug and roll your eyes. 

“Okay, fine! I won’t peek! I promise.” 

Both boys look to one another and shake their heads slightly. You turn back around and continue decorating the tree. Roger makes his way to the kitchen as Ben turns up the music's volume. He walks up to you and grabs your hand before pulling you away from the tree. He spins you around to face him as you’re laughing. He’s biting his lip as he twirls you around and pulls you close to him. The two of you are dancing and you can’t stop laughing. 

“Ben, I can’t dance!” 

He just laughs and shakes his head as he twirls you once more. 

“Really? Looks like you’re dancing to me!” 

The both of you continue on until Roger slowly makes his way back with a small tray in his hands. On the tray are three mugs filled with hot cocoa and marshmallows. 

“Hot chocolate milk anyone?” he asks as he sits the tray down on the coffee table. 

You and Ben laugh at his weird name for hot cocoa. You all grab a mug and slowly sip on the hot drink. The sweetness makes you sigh as you look over to the living room window and spot snow pouring down. 

“Look at how hard it’s snowing now!” you gasp as you rush to your front door and step outside. 

The cold hits you like a ton of bricks as your eyes water and your skin tingles. The hot cocoa is still in your hands as you look around at all of the tiny, white snowflakes falling everywhere. It looked like something straight out of a fairy tale. The boys are stood behind you as they look to one another and slightly smile. Roger gives Ben a tiny nod as they look back to you. 

“Should we finish the tree and watch a Christmas movie in bed?” you ask with a big smile on your face. 

The boys hearts melt as they agree with your idea. The three of you hurry inside and finish decorating the tree. You all stand back and admire your work. 

“It’s beautiful.” you say in awe. 

“Takes beauty to know beauty.” says Rog quietly. 

You look over and scrunch your nose to him. He laughs and leans in to kiss you. 

“Cheesy?” he teases. 

“Just a little.” you say with a smile. “But I like cheesy… And I also like Christmas movies, so let’s go!” 

Roger and Ben follow you into the bedroom as you all slide under the covers and try to get comfortable. Roger has his head on a pillow while your head is laying on his belly and Ben’s head is on your belly as well. Your hand is running through Ben’s hair all while Roger’s is running through yours. You all lay there all cozy and warm as you watch Rudolph. You’re watching the TV when something catches your eye. You look down to Ben’s hand and spot a ring on his wedding finger. Your heart jumps as you reach forward and grab his hand. 

“When did you get this?!” you ask as you admire the silver band. 

Ben looks nervous as he stutters with his words before Roger chimes in and helps. 

“He and I have matching silver rings. It was a spur of the moment thing while we were out shopping a few days ago.” 

Your heart slightly falls. They got each other rings, but not you. You didn’t mind so much. You love them both and know they love each other. You just always imagined yourself having a ring with them too one day. You smile to both of them and go back to watching the movie. Everyone’s silent and before you know it, you’ve fallen asleep. 

***

You’re woken up by tiny sun beams peeking through your curtains. You squeeze your eyes close as you wiggle around. Your hand reaches towards Ben’s side of the bed, but he’s not there. Your eyes open slowly and you find yourself in an empty bed. You sit up and look around. Today’s Christmas! You smile to yourself as you stand up and search for your robe. You slip it on and go to walk out of your room, but pause. 

You hear whispering in the living room as Ben and Roger talk about something. They seem to be having a very serious conversation, but you can’t make out what it’s about. You listen for a moment longer and find yourself walking out fully. The boys spot you and they instantly stand up straighter and smile. 

“Merry Christmas, beautiful!” coos Roger as he walks up and brings you in for a kiss. 

You melt against him as you kiss back and smile. Ben walks up to you and kisses you before he even says anything. 

“Merry Christmas.” he whispers. 

Your face hurts from how much smiling you’re doing. 

“Merry Christmas! You two are in such a good mood this morning.” 

Roger just shrugs as Ben’s eyes peer down underneath the three. There’s present filled all around it as your eyes go wide. 

“When did you have time to wrap them!?” you ask shocked. 

The boys say nothing but smile as you look back to them. Your heart was beyond full at their loving gesture. 

“There’s one gift that we want you to open first.” says Roger. 

“It’s from the both of us.” explains Ben. 

You raise a brow and are excited as Roger walks to the tree and picks up a tiny box that’s wrapped. The boys are watching you closely as he hands it to you. You look at the gift curiously and grin as you begin slowly unwrapping it. Once the paper is removed, underneath is a tiny blue box. Your heart begins racing as you look up to the boys. Their eyes look nervous as they both bite their lips in anticipation. You look back to the gift and quickly open the box up. Your eyes go wide. 

A beautiful diamond ring is staring back at you. It has a big stone in the middle as it’s surrounded by much smaller stones. The ring of your dreams. You stop breathing as you gasp and can’t look away from it. 

“We love you,” starts Ben. 

“We want you to always know that we’re yours and nobody else's.” whispers Rog. 

“We have our rings as well. Remember?” asks Ben as they both lift up their hands. 

You look to them and can’t stop smiling. Tears well up in your eyes as they trickle down your cheeks. You nod your head as you quickly rush up to them and bring them both in for a hug. 

“It’s perfect.” you whisper. 

You lean away and look between them both. 

“You’re perfect.” you tell them. 

Ben wipes away a tear as Roger sniffles. 

“So you’re saying you’ll wear it?” asks Rog in a hushed tone. 

“I’m saying that I’ll never take it off for as long as I live.” you tell him with a smile. 

They both let go of a breath they’re holding as they lean forward to kiss you and to kiss each other. 

“Can I put it on?” you ask as you look back to the ring. 

“Ben can-” 

“No, no.” says Ben fast. “You should be the one to put it on her.” 

Roger slowly smiles at Ben’s sweet comment. He leans in to kiss him once more before turning and removing the ring out of the tiny box. You hold out your wedding finger to him as he slips on the ring. It sparkles in the light and you don’t ever think you’ll ever get tired of looking at it. 

“So, you like it?” asks Ben. 

You look back to them as more tears well up in your eyes. You nod your head fast as you take their hand in yours. 

“This is the best Christmas gift I’ve ever gotten. I love it,” you whisper. “And I love you both.” 

“I love you.” they say at the same time. 

“Shall we open up some more gifts?” asks Roger fast. 

He looks like a little kid as he smiles wide and looks down to the presents. 

“Well, now I have a gift for both of you… But it’s not wrapped.” you say lightly. 

Their eyes open wide at your comment and suddenly they don’t care about the presents. 

“I want to open that gift.” says Ben fast as you grab his hand. 

“Now!” Roger says as he grabs Ben’s other hand and practically drags you to the bedroom. 

You lay down on the bed as the boys stare at you with wide eyes. 

“Merry Christmas to us.”

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[benhardyisdaddy]

more time to heal

MASTERLIST 

(i hope u all and whoever requested this like it!!! <3) 

Word Count: 2,613

It all started with four little words.

“I’m cheating on you.” 

Although short and simple, those four words turned your life upside down when your boyfriend, now fiance, of six years whispered them to you. You had been sitting plates on your dining room table as you got ready for dinner that you had cooked for him after a long day at the studio. Your album was being released soon, causing you to constantly work late. You wanted to make tonight special for him, but that was quickly thrown out the window. 

You were in the middle of placing a plate down when you suddenly freeze. The faint smile on your lips falls as you stare at the table. Your heart began racing. You didn’t hear him correctly. He didn’t really just say that. You look to him with knitted brows and continue holding the glass plate in your hand. 

“What?” is all you can say. 

Your ex looks pitiful as he watches your hurt expression. He just sighs and shuts his eyes before looking back to you. 

“I’m sorry. I didn’t know it would happen. I just… I love her.” 

You raise your eyebrows as your eyes go wide. You stand up straight and cock your head slightly, anger trying to get the best of you. 

“How long?” you ask, your voice deathly low. 

Your ex watches you closely - knowing how bad your rage can get. 

“About six months.” he whispers once more, half scared to confess. 

You laugh dramatically and shake your head as you look away. Your pupils were huge and your laugh was sarcastic and quite frankly, scared him. He takes a step back fast. 

“Six months!? You’ve been seeing someone else for six months and I never knew!? How stupid am I!? Are you serious right now!?” you scream as your face frowns hard. 

“Baby,” he goes to say, but that’s a mistake. 

“Don’t call me that!” you shout, raising your hand with the plate in it. 

He flinches away as if thinking you would throw it. He puts his hands up and shakes his head fast. 

“I’m so sorry! I should’ve told you! I-” 

“Who is she?” you ask a little too calmly. 

“Y/n…” he says, not wanting to fuel the fire. 

“No, who is she? I want to know who’s been getting my sloppy seconds.” you hiss. 

Your ex sighs loudly and shrugs. 

“Becca.” he says softly. 

He completely failed at not fueling the fire. Your jaw tenses and your nose flares. That was it. You were beyond pissed. 

“Becca!?” you scream as you chuck the plate at his head, barely missing him. 

It crashes against the wall behind him and makes him jump. He looks behind him and back to you with fear in his eyes. 

“Are you crazy!?” he shouts. 

“You were cheating on me with Becca!?”

***

(That Same Moment) 

“What do you mean you’re leaving me for someone else?” 

Ben’s stood there with puppy dog eyes as his girlfriend has the most guiltiest expression on her face. 

“Ben, I’m so sorry. I didn’t want us to end like this.” she cries out. 

“If you didn’t want us to end like this, then why cheat? You know how much I love you, Becca.” he tells her. 

She sobs quietly as she covers her face, not able to look at him. 

“How long has this been going on?” he asks, not really wanting to know the answer. 

She stares at the ground as she speaks. 

“Six months.” 

Ben almost gasps as he purses his lips and looks up the ceiling. He thinks he’s dreaming and is in a nightmare. He looks back to her. 

“Who is it?” he asks fast. “Do I know him? Who is he?” 

Becca sobs once more. 

“It’s Ryan.” 

Ben’s face falls when that name slips from her lips. He knows Ryan perfectly. 

“Ryan?” he whispers. “You can’t be serious! My best friend’s boyfriend!? My best friend that I introduced you to over three years ago? Are you insane!?” 

Becca covers her face once more and goes silent. Ben just stares at her as his mind goes to you. 

“Does y/n know?” he asks softly. 

She looks back to him with red eyes and just slowly nods. 

***

“Get out!” you scream as you throw another plate at him - it shattering. 

Ryan had a suitcase in his hand and was hurrying to get out of the front door. Once outside, the paparazzi come out of nowhere with their cameras flashing and catching everything that’s happening, but you didn’t care. They just made your blood boil even more. Ryan looks to them beyond embarrassed as he tries to smile and wave. He then looks back to you and frowns. 

“I really am sorry.” he whispers as he tries to hide the very obvious argument. 

You get angry again as you throw another plate at him - ignoring the gasps and yelling of the paparazzi as they back away fast. Ryan ducks as it zooms past and slams into his driver’s side window, cracking it. He looks to it and his mouth is wide open. The paparazzi are in shock as they pause their cameras and take in what just happened. Suddenly, they’re back at it as they shout out to you and ask questions. Ryan looks back to you and you’re smiling all cheerfully. 

“Yeah, me too!” you yell before slamming the door. 

You turn around and lean against it with your eyes closed. You could hear everyone outside shouting stuff at Ryan, trying to get all the info. You were breathing fast and were now exhausted. You stay like this for several seconds before there’s a loud knock at your door, causing you to jump. You get angry again as you yell out. 

“Ryan, I swear to god that I’ll break your nose if you-” 

You open the door fast and freeze when you realize it’s not Ryan. 

“Ben.” you say softly as he stares at you with a sad smile. 

“I saw Ryan’s window.” he says, his smile getting bigger. 

You can’t help but laugh as you step aside and let your best friend inside. You know the pictures of him entering your house after your ex left will be all over the tabloids by morning. Ben's shoulders are slumped and you can tell he’s not taking any of this well either.

“God, don’t they ever leave?” he asks about the paps outside.

“Want me to make you some tea?” you ask as you turn to walk to the kitchen. 

You’re stopped when Ben’s hand gently grabs your arm. You turn to look at him and his eyes are sad as he just shakes his head. 

“I’m sorry.” is all he has to say to make you turn into a blubbering baby. 

You can barely breathe as you sob. Ben pulls you into a hug and holds you closely. He rubs your back as he lets you cry against him. Once you get the tears out, you lean away to look at him. 

“I had no idea.” you tell him as you hiccup. “I had no idea.” 

“Hey,” he says cupping your face. “Neither did I. It’s okay. Okay?” he asks causing you to nod. 

You lean back in to hug him. Your arms are wrapped around his neck as he nuzzled his face against you. You sigh as you slowly lean away, your faces only inches apart. You’re staring at his lips as he stares into your eyes. You’ve never been this close to him before, yet it felt so normal. You’re silent for a second until you both lean in and kiss. It’s soft and gentle at first. Your lips just barely moving together. You’re not sure why it’s happening, but it doesn’t feel wrong. Then it speeds up. Your mouths part open as your tongues collide. Your breathing is fast as Ben cups your face while yours tangle in his hair. You two lean away to catch your breath. 

“I’m sorry.” you breathe out, still close to him. 

He shakes his head and half smiles. 

“Don’t be. I’m not.” 

You look up to him and finally smile back. Before you know it, you’re kissing again. Ben bends down and picks you up - your legs wrapping around him. Your lips don’t break apart the whole way to your bed. You’re still not sure how or why this is happening, but the whole time he’s inside you - like you said, it doesn’t feel wrong. 

***

5 Months Later 

You have been able to keep your relationship under the radar. As far as anyone knows, the two of you were still just friends - but that was a lie. Your relationship with Ben was more different than any you’ve ever been in. Every time you’re together, whether at his house or yours, you end up in bed. Yes, you call each other girlfriend and boyfriend, but it didn’t feel like that. You were in love with him - have been since you’ve known him, but things just feel different now. Maybe it’s because you rushed from your previous relationship to this one. Maybe it’s because you both don’t want anyone finding out. Maybe you two needed more time to heal. You weren’t sure. All you know is that things feel different and you need to tell him. 

The two of you lay in your bed, side by side. You’re staring at the ceiling all lost in thought. Ben looks over to you and watches for a moment before speaking up. 

“You okay?” he asks, causing you to look over at him. 

“You know I love you, right?” you ask with a whisper. 

He’s taken aback a bit by the question and just nods. 

“I love you too.” he whispers. 

“Then why does this feel like a…” you can't say the word so he says it for you. 

“Rebound?” 

You look back to him fast, half shocked that he got it right. All you can do is sadly nod. He does the same. 

“I know. You’re not the only one who thought that.”

You feel almost relieved. You let out a breathy laugh as you both sit up. Ben gets out of bed and dresses quickly. You stand up and wrap the sheet around yourself. 

“Promise me nothing will get weird between us, okay?” he asks walking closer to you. “I still want my best friend.” 

You laugh and playfully nudge his arm. 

“You can’t get rid of me that easily, Hardy.” you tease. 

He smiles and walks forward to give you a small hug. He leans away and that’s when you both lean in for one last kiss. You pull away and have your eyes closed for a moment, savoring it. You look to him and sadly smile. 

“See you later?” he asks. 

You nod and hold the sheet close to you. 

“See you later.” 

And with that, he walks away and goes home. You watch him walk out of the door and your heart breaks. Why was that harder than you thought? Why do you wish it had never happened? You would regret that moment, because that ‘see you later’ turns into a ‘see you in a year’.

***

1 Year Later 

You hadn’t heard or talked to Ben since the moment he left your house that night. He could say the same thing about you. You both were too proud to be the first one to call or text, so it never happened. You both had also regretted leaving, which didn’t help. You missed your best friend, but there’s nothing you can do now. You told yourself you wouldn’t date for a long time, that is until you met Joe. Charming Joe. 

You had first met him while on tour for your new album. When you two were introduced, you didn’t want to leave his side. He had this light about him that you were drawn to. He had recognized you in an instant and was a nervous wreck as he spoke. He was a big fan and so were you. You just clicked instantly and were not so secretive about your relationship - except for one person. When you found out that he was best friend’s with Ben, you were even more intrigued. Joe knew about you from Ben. He only knew you two as best friends, not lovers and you were thankful for that. 

Joe had been invited to a house party of a friend and you, of course, were accompanying him. He didn’t waste a moment to tell everyone he knows that you’re his girlfriend. They, obviously, knew who you were and were starstruck. It made him beyond proud to call you his. You adored that title and him. You had your arm slung around his as you two walk around and whisper among each other, laughing at anything and everything. 

“You want a drink?” he asks looking to the bar and then back to you. 

“Please?” you ask with a smile, causing him to melt. 

He walks away and leaves you there all alone. You’re happy that you haven’t signed an autograph or taken a picture in a few minutes as you scan the room. Suddenly, there’s a slight tap on your shoulder. You jump and spin around fast, half shocked. Your eyes land on a familiar face as he just awkwardly smiles. 

“Ben.” you say fast. “Hi.” 

“Hi.” he says back. “Bit shocked to see you here. Haven’t spoken in ages.” he says sadly. “I miss you.” 

You watch as his eyes turn sad. You didn’t realize truly how much you missed him until actually seeing him. Your heart swelled as you wanted to reach out and kiss him once more. You didn’t realize that the ‘I love you’s’ you told him were so true. You really did mean it. You really do regret letting him walk away. Before you can say anything else, Joe walks up and hands you a drink as he places his free hand on your lower back. He leans in and kisses you before looking to Ben. 

“Ben!” he says excited. “I didn’t know if you’d be here tonight!” 

Ben looks between the two of you and looks confused. 

“You two… Kissed.” he says, trying to understand. 

Joe laughs and looks to you. 

“Well yeah, we’re dating. I told you already!” 

Ben just shakes his head slowly and looks to you, your face unreadable as you can’t look him in the eyes. 

“I was just told friends, but… But that’s amazing news. My two best friends. What more could a guy want?” he asks with a monotone voice, causing you to look up at him finally. 

Joe agrees and holds you close to him. 

“I'm gonna introduce y/n to my manager real fast. We’ll see you around?” asks Joe, completely oblivious to everything that’s happening. 

You look back to Ben with wide eyes as he just forces a smile and nods. The two of you walk away and across the room as Joe begins sparking up a conversation with someone. They’re laughing and joking as you sip on your drink and slowly glance across the room to Ben. 

He’s leaning against a wall, his eyes on you. You stare at each other in silence, but it’s like you’re screaming. You regret breaking up. You regret telling him not to go. You regret him walking out that door. All you needed was a little more time to heal and you would have been okay. And now, you were okay, but only in the sense of Ryan leaving you. In terms of Ben, you weren’t okay 

and you don’t think you ever will be. 

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[benhardyisdaddy]

good things fall apart

MASTERLIST 

(this was so angsty and sad and i was so sad while writing it lmao i hope whoever requested it likes it <3 this was #22) 

Word Count: 3,191

Did I say something wrong? Did you hear what I was thinking?

Did I talk way too long when I told you all my feelings that night?

“Is it a ‘dress super fancy’ party or a ‘we’re gonna eat Cheetos on the couch and not care’ party?” 

You were standing in front of your bathroom mirror as you stare at yourself. You run a hand through your hair and wait for a response from Ben. You know he had heard you, he must just be lost in thought. That’s something he’s been doing more and more lately - lost in his thoughts. You could tell him something three times and he’ll have to apologize and tell you to repeat yourself again. Something was bugging him and you could tell. You just didn’t want to be too pushy and force him to say something he doesn’t want to, so you ignore his odd behavior and will allow him to come to you in his own time. 

You lean your head out of the bathroom and spot him sitting on the edge of the bed, his back facing you. He’s doing nothing as he just stares at the wall in front of him. You knit your brows as you watch him for a moment longer before calling his name out once more, causing him to slightly jump. You giggle as he turns around with a deer-in-the-headlights expression on his face. 

“I asked if I should dress up or down for Joe’s party.” 

“Oh,” he says fast as he thinks for a moment. “Um, down. He said it’s just laid back with all of his close friends.” 

“Ah, so it’s technically not a party, just our usual Friday night.” you tease as you walk back into the bathroom to get ready. 

You were waiting for one of Ben’s famous breathy laughs, but it doesn’t come. You focus on making yourself look presentable and when you were finished, it was time to leave. You grab your purse and hold your hand out for Ben to take. He does as you both walk outside and to your car. Ben slides in the driver’s seat and off you are. Joe only lives a few blocks away, so it doesn’t take long until you’re finally there. 

The whole car ride was quiet - not a word was spoken. You eagerly jump out of the car when you realize everyone was already here. Ben walks up beside you as you knock on the front door while walking inside. You look forward to the living room as everyone turns to you - smiles on their faces. There was Joe, his girlfriend - Sarah, Lucy, Gwil, and Rami. They all had drinks in their hands as they walk over to greet you. Lucy brings you in for a hug as does Sarah. 

“Some kind of party, huh?” you tease looking to Joe. 

He just smiles and shrugs as Sarah walks over to him and leans against him before kissing. You look to Ben and lean against him as well, his arm slung over your shoulder. 

“Alright,” says Joe as he claps his hands together. “Since everyone’s here, let’s play a game! Pictionary? It’s Sarah’s favorite.” he says looking around. 

Everyone nods and makes their way to the living room and divides into groups. The game begins and it has everyone laughing hard by the silly guesses and drawings everyone does. It finally is Joe’s turn as he tries to draw a phrase that’s a question and Sarah has to guess it. The timer is going as he attempts to draw a church. Sarah’s throwing out wild guesses until Joe draws a diamond ring. Sarah’s thinking hard until he draws a stick figure on his knee holding a ring. 

“Will you marry me!” Sarah shouts out, super excited that she got the answer. 

She turns around jumping up and down before everyone slightly gasps. She looks back to Joe, but has to look down at the ground. He’s on one knee with a tiny box opened revealing a beautiful ring. Sarah gasps and covers her mouth as he speaks. 

“Will you marry me?” he whispers. 

Of course, she says yes. He gets up fast and slips the ring on her finger before they kiss. Your heart melts at the beautiful moment and you can’t help but shed a few tears. The night carries on as everyone drinks and congrats them on the engagement. You look around to find Ben and finally spot him on the back patio by himself. You smile as you slide the door open and step out with him. He looks back and half smiles when he sees that it’s you. You walk up as he turns to face you. You wrap your arms around his waist and lean up to kiss him. 

“I love you.” you whisper. 

Ben’s taken aback by that sudden comment as he just stares at you. 

“Seeing Joe and Sarah all happy together just makes me realize even more how in love I am with you and how one day I would love to be your wife as well.” you whisper while looking into his eyes. 

Ben says nothing as he leans down and kisses you for a moment, but then it’s over. He doesn’t say anything more about what you just spoke. It crushed your heart a bit that he didn’t say anything at all, but you let it slide… Like you do every time. 

Is it you? Is it me? Did you find somebody better?

Someone who isn't me, 'cause I know that I was never your type

Never really your type

It was a normal night in your apartment as Ben was over to eat dinner as usual. You were stood in the kitchen as you scroll through your phone in search of restaurants.

“I’m thinking Thai sounds really good. What do you think?” you ask as he enters the kitchen and just stands there. 

“I think we should break up.” 

Your heart drops and your breathing stops. You don’t think you heard him correctly. You lower your phone and slowly spin around to face him - your eyebrows tensed up. 

“W-what?” you whisper. 

Ben’s face looks really sad as he stares at you, his shoulders slumped. 

“I think… I think we should break up. Something about this relationship hasn’t felt normal in a while. You gotta know what I’m talking about.” he tells you. 

“Yeah, I know that you haven’t been acting normal lately! I’ve been perfectly fine, Ben. You’re breaking up with me?” you whisper out loud, still shocked by this conversation. 

“I’m sorry. You’re right though. It’s not you, it’s-” 

“Me. I know how that one goes. I’ve heard it before.” you say defensively. “Was it something I said or did? Was it because I told you that I loved you? Jesus, Ben. We’ve been dating for a year, I thought it felt right to tell you.” 

“It’s…” he sighs. “It’s not that. Or maybe it is. I… I don’t know.” 

“Is it somebody else?” you ask quietly, not really wanting an answer. 

“What?” he asks, taken aback by your question. “Are you seriously asking me that?” 

You just shrug and look back to his eyes. 

“It would make sense. It would answer all my questions for why you’ve been so distant lately. I wouldn’t blame you truthfully.” you whisper. 

He looks almost hurt as you say that. 

“What’s that supposed to mean?” he asks upset. 

“Look at you, Ben! You can have anyone you want and for some reason, for at least a year, you wanted me and it made no sense as to why someone like you would want someone like me. I should have seen this ending a long time ago, but I just didn’t want to.” 

“Why would you say something like that!? What do you mean someone like you?”

 “It doesn’t matter now, does it?” you ask as you get choked up with tears. “You said it’s over so it’s over. Right?” 

Ben tenses his jaw and takes in a deep breath before nodding his head. You nod yours as well. 

“I think you should probably go.” you half whisper, breaking your own heart. 

Ben stands there for a second longer before turning and walking away. He slowly makes his way to your front door as you trail behind him. He grabs his jacket from the couch and opens it up as he takes a step out. You go to shut it just as he turns around to look at you. 

“Y/n,” he says, but before he can speak any more, you go to shut it. 

“Bye, Ben.” you say quietly as you close it in his face.

You lock it fast and lean your back against the door. You grab at your chest with your hand as you allow ugly sobs to escape your mouth. You were trembling as you slide down to the ground and allow every single ounce of pain to hit you like a ton of bricks. If Ben had still been standing outside of the door, he would have heard you. He was… And he did. 

Overthinking's got me drinking

Messing with my head, whoa

“It’s been like two weeks since I’ve seen you! Where are you at?” asks Joe over the phone. 

You were sat on your kitchen floor with a bottle of liquor in your hand as you drink it straight from the bottle itself. Ever since Ben left you, it felt like the end of the world. 

“Home. In my kitchen.” you slur. 

“Are you drinking?” he asks worried. “Listen to me, Ben’s an idiot for what he did. Understand? You can’t spiral because of him. I won’t allow it.” 

“Joe,” you whisper as fresh tears sting your eyes. “You don’t understand. I didn’t just lose a boyfriend, I lost my best friend too.” 

Joe’s speechless by the pain in your voice. You were taking this a lot harder than he thought. It killed him to see you like this. 

“Listen, I’m coming over, okay? You don’t need to be by yourself right now.” 

“Don’t bother.” you tell him as you try to stand up. “I’m going out anyways. I’m out of alcohol. I’ll talk to you later, Joe.” 

Joe’s yelling out for you to not hang up, but you do anyways. And like you said, you were going out. You somehow manage to fix yourself up and get a cab as you slip inside and tell him where to take you. You’re there after a few minutes and hurry inside. Music is blaring as people swarm all over. You walk to the bar and order a drink. You gulp it down and order another. As you’re standing there, a guy walks up and begins talking to you. He’s cute, but he’s not Ben. You start a conversation with him as your eyes scan the club. They stop when you spot a familiar face. Ben. 

He’s talking to a beautiful girl as he’s leaned in close and saying something in her ear. Once he’s done, she leans in to tell him something as well. The music was so loud, it was hard to hear anyone in here. Your heart broke as they both laugh together. He looks completely fine - as if you never existed or meant anything to him. That hurt even worse. You’ve been cooped up while sobbing yourself to sleep and he’s been out with women and not having a care in the world. 

Tell me what you hate about me

Whatever it is, I'm sorry

I know I can be dramatic

But everybody said we had it

Your eyes land back on the handsome man as he tries to get your attention. He smiles as he leans forward to speak. 

“Are you okay?” he asks, genuinely concerned. 

You can’t help but smile back as you wipe away a few tears. You didn’t realize that at that moment, Ben scanned the room and saw you as well with this man. His jaw was tensed as his eyes were set on you. 

“Yeah, I’m really sorry! This is so embarrassing.” you tell him with a chuckle. 

“No need to apologize! You just look like you could use another drink.” 

You thank him as he orders another round. 

“If you need to vent, I’m a really great listener.” he says sweetly. 

“Well,” you start as you take a breath, not daring to look back at Ben. “I just saw that my ex is here with someone else. We broke up a few weeks ago and I guess it still hurts.” 

The man nods and sadly smiles. 

“I understand that completely. My ex left me a few months ago and I still can’t stop thinking about her. It’s pathetic, I know.” he laughs. 

You smile and shake your head as you’re handed the drink. 

“Not pathetic at all actually. You have your heart set on one person and then they crush it. It’s tormenting.” 

Ben’s still watching you as the girl is trying to tell him a story about something. He’s nodding and muttering ‘yeah’, ‘oh really’, ‘that’s nice’, but he’s not listening. He watches as the man moves forward and whispers something into your ear, causing you to blush and giggle. He remembers when you use to do that because of him. You look to the man and all you do is slowly nod and stand up while reaching your hand for his. 

You take it and turn around as you make your way through the crowd. You’re smiling as you look over and spot Ben’s glare. Your grin drops and you freeze for a moment before looking away and leaving. You didn’t care. Okay, that’s a lie. You cared almost too much, but you were just going to tell yourself you don’t until you actually believed it. 

I'm coming to terms with a broken heart

I guess that sometimes good things fall apart

You both walked out of the clubs door and learned that the man’s name was Josh. You were still holding hands and laughing until someone walks up and says your name. You spin around and there stands Ben with that same girl behind him. She looked so confused as to why they were out here talking to you. Your eyes go wide as you look to Josh fast. He’s staring Ben down intensely. 

“Ben?” you ask. 

“What are you doing?” he asks fast. 

You shake your head and furrow your brows in confusion. 

“What do you mean what am I doing? I’m going to get food with Josh.” you say, remembering that you’re still holding his hand. “Why do you care what I’m doing? You left me, it’s none of your business.” 

Ben blinks a few times and his eyes are almost sad. The girl walks up and awkwardly smiles to you. 

“Ben, are we leaving?” she asks. 

The way she says his name makes your skin burn. It wasn’t fair, it wasn’t fair, it wasn’t fair. You hold back tears as you laugh nervously and move closer to Josh. 

“That’s what we were trying to do.” you say as you spin back around and let go of a breath you were holding. 

Josh looks down to you and can tell how torn apart you were just now. He then slips his hand from yours and places it around your shoulders. You’re shocked for a moment as you look up and smile sweetly to him. Ben watches this and his fists are clenched hard. He turns around and speed walks away, leaving the girl to try to keep up with him. 

Tell me what you hate about me

Whatever it is, I'm sorry

I know I can be dramatic

But everybody said we had it

***

6 Months Later 

You were in your kitchen as you retrieved dinner from the oven. Your apartment smelled delicious as you wipe your hands off on your apron. You were about to place some dishes on the table when there’s a sudden knock at your door. You jump slightly, not expecting any visitors. You place the dishes down and hurry up to it. You look through the peephole and freeze. You back away and stare at the door for a moment before opening it up. 

“Ben?” you ask, beyond surprised. 

He looks so beat down as he just smiles. 

“Wow,” he whispers. “You look amazing.” 

You smile quickly at his compliment before shaking your head. 

“What are you doing here? I gave all of your stuff to Joe months ago.” you tell him. 

“No, that’s not why I’m here. I just… Y/n, I miss you. So bad. I regret walking out every single day and it’s eating at me. I was in such a horrible mindset and didn’t realize that you were the one for me. I just need you-” 

He pauses when he glances down at your hand. He shuts his mouth and looks back to you. 

“What’s that?” he asks. 

You look down and your heart races. You hold up your ring finger and reveal a beautiful diamond ring. 

“I’m engaged to Josh.” you tell him.

Ben shakes his head confused. 

“It’s only been six months since we’ve split up and you’re already engaged?” 

You shrug and smile to him as you play with the ring on your finger. 

“Guess he saw my worth unlike some.” you say coldly, causing Ben to look down. 

You’d be lying if there wasn’t a part of you that wanted to jump into his arms and tell him that everything’s okay. There will always be a part of you that will love him. He was your first love, but now you’ve found your last. 

“Before I messed it up, what we had was good. It could still be good.” he whispers. 

You just sigh and cock your head a bit. 

“I guess sometimes good things fall apart.” you say softly. 

You hear Josh shout something from your bedroom as you turn to listen. You look back to Ben and sadly smile. 

“I love you, Ben. There will never be a moment that I won’t love you. You were my best friend, but… But I love myself more.” 

All Ben can do is nod and sniffle as he holds back tears. 

“I have to go finish dinner.” you tell him. “Hey,” you say before he walks away. “I really do hope you find someone that loves you unconditionally.” 

Ben just sadly smiles and half shrugs. 

“I did. I was just too blind to see it... I really am happy for you.” 

And with that, he smiles once more and walks away as you stare into the apartments hallway. Your heart melted at that statement as you slowly close the door just as Josh walks out. He walks up to you and smiles as he gently leans down for a kiss. 

“Who was at the door?” he asks. 

You just smile and shake your head as you cup his face and lean closer. 

“Just an old friend.” 

I'm coming to terms with a broken heart

I guess that sometimes good things fall apart

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lovesick

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(hope u all like this angsty fic for #4!!! also: i DO NOT CONDONE CHEATING. EVER. I ONLY WRITE IT BECAUSE SOMEONE HAS SUBMITTED AND ITS FOR PURE ENTERTAINMENT. DONT FUCKING CHEAT!!!!    ok ty ily also this dumb ass site wont let me add the gif i wanna use of ben and im PISSED) 

Word Count: 2,111

WARNING: slight smut and cheating 

Ben had woken up that morning with no idea what was about to happen. He woke up to his alarm like normal. He showered like normal. He got dressed like normal. He went to the set of his movie like normal. He met everyone like... not normal. There was someone else there today that he almost recognized, but couldn’t understand where he had seen you before. You look familiar, but the type of familiar where he may have passed you on the road once or seen you at the local pub. He just couldn’t quite put his finger on it... That is until you were introduced. 

“Boys,” starts Roger as they all gather around in their costumes for the movie. 

You were beautiful. Beyond beautiful. The type of beautiful that had Ben staring at you a little too long. You were also young, around his age perhaps. You had the sweetest smile as you look to Ben and stare for a moment before looking away almost hurriedly. Like you had been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to be doing. His heart fluttered as he looks back to Roger and pays attention. 

“I would like you all to meet y/n... My beautiful wife.” he says with a proud smile as you blush and softly wave to everyone. 

“Nice to meet you all.” you say, your voice like music to Ben’s ears. 

Everyone walked up to you and shook your hand until it was Ben’s turn. He walks up slowly, his eyes never leaving you. 

“Nice to meet you, y/n.” 

You shyly smile back and reach your hand out for him to take. 

“Nice to meet you as well, Ben. I’ve heard a lot about the man who portrays my husband. I must say, they got the looks right.” you say in a teasingly manner, but you weren’t teasing at all. 

Ben was beyond gorgeous as he smiles and drops your hand. Everyone was laughing over your comment as Roger brings his hand and places it on your lower back. 

“Shall we get you something to drink, love?” he asks as you turn to look at him lovingly. 

You smile and lean in to gently press your lips to his. It was insane how much you adored him. 

“Yes, please.” you softly say back as you slip your hand into his. 

“You’re more than welcome to join us.” says Rog to Ben as you both walk away, but not before you look to him and grin.

“More than welcome.” you repeat, causing Ben to instantly nod and follow behind you.

You all walk onto set and to a small room with a couch and a mini fridge in the corner. The walls were painted a bright green and the only people there were you, Roger and Ben. 

“What would you like, babe?” asks Rog as he looks to the fridge. 

“Oh, I can get it for her!” says Ben a little too quickly - something you noticed. 

“Thank you.” you purr as you slump down onto the couch, Roger following. “Water will be just fine.” 

Ben hurriedly grabs a cold bottle and brings it over to you. You reach out to grab it, your hand gently sliding over his long fingers. Ben freezes at the contact as you smirk and and pull away. 

“Thank you.” you say once more. 

Ben just nods and clears his throat as he steps back and looks around awkwardly. 

“So, Ben,” you start, making him look to you in an instant. “How’s it like working with my perfectionist of a husband? Is he working you to the bone?” you teasingly ask, causing Roger to laugh loudly and to playfully squeeze at your upper thigh. 

Ben notices and swallows hard as he attempts to laugh at your joke. 

“Oh, uh, no. Roger’s wonderful, but you should know that.” he says with a smile. 

You smile back and look to Roger as you lean forward and nuzzle your nose against his. 

“I sure do, don’t I?” you ask as he leans in and kisses you, his hand rubbing up and down your thigh. 

That was the first time Ben had met you and it surely won’t be the last. 

***

1 Month Later 

“What do you mean you’re leaving?” you sadly ask as Roger stands up and sweetly smiles. 

You, Roger, Ben and Joe were all a nightclub as you celebrate the final wrapping of Bohemian Rhapsody. The movie was finally over and you all couldn’t be more proud or happy about that. 

“I have to go and work on a few more things back at the studio, love. You’re more than welcome to stay with the rest of them!” he says above the music. 

“Actually, I have a flight to catch early in the morning. I should really get going as well.” says Joe as he stands up. 

You pout and look to Ben with big puppy dog eyes. 

“Oh, uh, I’ll stay with her.” he says to Rog. 

You smile and look back to Roger with big eyes. He nods as you stand up and walk over to him. You press yourself against him as he kisses you harshly. His hand runs down your back and stops on your butt, as he squeezes. Ben looks away fast and sighs. The two of you break away as you peck him on the lips once more and he’s gone. You turn around and look to Ben as he’s still looking away. You walk over and flop next to him on the large couch and smile. 

“Another round?” you ask loudly, slightly drunk. 

Ben’s eyes go wide as he smiles, slightly drunk as well. Another round and then another and then another. The two of you were on the dance floor and laughing loudly as you clung to one another and danced like crazy. Your head flies back as you laugh at something Ben did, your arms holding him close to you. When you look back to him, his face is now serious. He’s staring at your lips and then back at your eyes. 

“Do you wanna kiss me?” you ask, knowing the answer. 

Ben gulps and awkwardly laughs as he shakes his head no. 

“I’m sorry. I, uh...” he trails off as you just look up to him and smile. 

It’s like something came over him. A sudden burst of confidence hits and he was leaning forward and kissing you harshly. Your tongues clashed together as you elicit a slight moan into his mouth - which drove him crazy.

“Should we-” he goes to ask, not even thinking about Roger. 

But before he can answer, you already had grabbed his hand and were dragging him through the club and out the front door. Luckily, when Roger had left, that meant the paparazzi did too. You were in the clear. Once outside, you spin around and kiss him once more. His hands are on your hips as you bite his lower lip and smile. You back away and hail a cab as you both slide in. You’re all over each other in the backseat until a hotel pops up. You swiftly get out with Ben following behind you. You both are fast to rent a room and to get to it. Once inside, Ben slams you against the wall and attaches his lips to your neck. 

“This is so wrong.” he whispers against you. 

Your head was leaning against the wall with your eyes closed. You laugh as you tug at his hair and moan. 

“Just shut up and fuck me already.” you practically growl. 

Ben listens to you as he backs away and pulls your dress up. He swiftly tears your panties off, accidentally ripping one side in the process and destroying them. You jokingly frown and pout. 

“Aw, those were Roger’s favorites.” you tease as you smirk, causing Ben’s face to go serious.

He then undoes his pants and allows them to pool at his feet. You’re biting your lip as you lean against the wall and stare down at his throbbing length that’s hiding just behind the thin fabric of his underwear. He’s watching you the whole time as he pulls his underwear down, allowing himself to spring free. Your face goes serious as you bite your lip even harder. Ben smirks as he walks back to you and bends down slightly, picking you up. You squeal playfully as he slams you against the wall again, your legs wrapped around his torso. He lifts your dress up even more and without a moment to spare, he lines himself up and slams into you. You gasp at the fullness and moan loudly, not caring who hears. 

The whole night you were moaning out Ben's name, but you were really thinking of Roger. 

***

4 Months Later 

“Hey, babe?” you ask as you walk into a dressing room with Roger and Ben inside. 

They were all dressed up for an interview for the movie that was about to be released in months time.

“Will you hand me a water from the fridge?” 

Both Roger and Ben both nod and get up at the same time, pausing when they notice. Ben’s face turns red as your eyes open wide for a moment. Roger gives him a confused and serious look before bursting out laughing. 

“Nice one, Ben.” he laughs out as he goes to the fridge. 

Ben tries to laugh with him, but fails. He looks to you all serious as you ignore his weird look and focus on your husband as he walks up with the water and kisses you. You melt against him and smile as you run your finger against his bottom lip. 

“I love you.” you purr to him as he kisses you once more. 

“And I love you.” he whispers back before kissing you and walking out of the room. 

You keep smiling until he’s gone and look back to Ben. 

“Really?” you ask annoyed as Ben has the most guiltiest look on his face. “You do realize I call my husband babe, right? Not you. Do you know what could have happened if he thought something was up, Ben?” 

Ben walks to you and nods his head. 

“I’m so sorry. I don’t know what came over me. I have this instinct that whatever you ask for, I’ll get it for you. Anything.” 

You watch him with narrowed eyes, knowing he’s trying to say something else. 

“What are you talking about?” you spat. “It was just water.” 

You go to turn around, but Ben reaches out and grabs your hand. You look back to him with a raised brow and sigh. Ben stares at you for a moment longer before smiling sweetly. 

“It’s been five months since we first... Got together.” he says, thinking of the right phrase. “Five months of sneaking around. We don’t have to keep doing that.” he says almost excited. 

You shake your head and remove your hand from his, causing him to frown. 

“What are you talking about?” you ask rudely. 

“I love what we have. I love being with you. I... I guess what I’m trying to say is... Y/n... I love you.”

Your eyes go wide and your mouth slightly falls open. You blink several times and half laugh as you shake your head and take a step back. 

“I’m sorry,” you whisper. “You what?” 

Ben notices the unsatisfied look on your face and his smile instantly drops. 

“What we have is something special. I knew that from the moment I laid my eyes on you. Didn’t you feel the same way?” he asks sadly. 

You breathe out a laugh and shake your head. 

“What I felt was a really hot guy paying attention to me when my husband was busy. That doesn’t make him not my husband. I love Roger, Ben. Not you. A booty call isn’t love. You’re just confused.” 

“A booty call?” he asks, irritated. “That’s all you thought that was?!” 

“Of course I did! I’m married, Ben! I’m in love with Roger! I didn’t actually take anything we did serious, sweetie. Sex is just sex.” 

“You were just bored.” he whispers sadly. 

You just shrug and pull out your cell phone from your back pocket when an alert goes off. 

“Precisely. Look, Rog just texted me and I gotta go... I really am sorry, Ben.” you say with a serious tone. 

Ben raises his brows and looks away as he nods his head. 

“Yeah... Me too.” 

You watch him with a frown for a second longer before you turn around and walk out of the room, leaving a heartbroken and lovesick Ben all alone.

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traveling affairs - part 2

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(woooow this has been requested by SO many people!!! i hope u all enjoy <3) 

Word Count: 5,415

3 Months Later 

“Why… Won’t… These… Fit!?” 

You’re stood in your bedroom by yourself in front of your long mirror. You were attempting to button up your favorite pair of jeans, but they just weren’t cooperating with you. You were able to fit into them about three weeks ago, so how was today any different? You were holding your breath as you suck in and try your best to button it. No use. It just wasn’t working. You let out a breath and slump. 

You stare at yourself in the mirror as your eyes dart down to your belly. You sigh as you turn to the side and lift up your shirt. You pull the pants down a bit and notice a slight bump. It’s not too noticeable, but to you it was. You run your hand over it and gently press down. It was hard and firm. Just then, a slight cramping feeling hits you. You hiss a bit, but then it’s gone. Your brows are knitted together and you keep admiring your stomach in the mirror from different angles. You were just beyond sad about your favorite pair of jeans. 

***

“Dinner’s done!”

Your new roommate, Joe, had shouted those words from the kitchen. You had finally opted for a pair of sweatpants and a t shirt. At least these fit you. You get up from your bed and slip a photo underneath your pillow - hiding it away from the world. It was your tiny piece of happiness that you had all to yourself. The night you had went to Joe’s pub for the first time, Gwil had taken yours and Ben’s photo on your phone and you hadn’t known about it. 

You only discovered it right when you got back. You right away got it developed and have kept it hidden ever since. You missed Ben more than anything, but you felt silly for that. How can you miss something you never had in the first place? You needed to forget about him, but that was easier said than done. You don’t think you’ll ever stop thinking about him. 

You had walked from your room and stopped suddenly. Your stomach growled slightly, but a bit of nausea hit you as well. You make an uncomfortable face as you continue walking and spot Joe sitting plates on the dining room table. He had on a pink apron that read ‘Kiss the Cook’. He looks over to you and smiles. The second Joe had told you his idea to leave with you, it sounded insane. 

“Y/n, wait! I have an idea.”

You were about to hang up as you hear him call out. You close your eyes and bring the phone back up to your ear, sighing to yourself.

“Just hear me out, okay? This is going to sound crazy, but… What if I went with you?”

Your eyes go wide the second Joe says that. 

“Go… With me?” you ask, confused. 

“I know we don’t know each other well, but I was thinking… I have family back in the states that I miss more than anything. I was thinking of going back anyways. Rent’s kinda expensive over there and any time you wanna jump up and go on another adventure of yours, you’ll have a place to come home to and not have to worry about money or anything. It's a win win for both of us if you think about.”

Everything he said made complete sense. You didn’t have a home to call your own back in the states. You were always leaving and couldn’t afford rent for a place you were never at. He was right, you barely knew him, but for some reason this was the best idea you’ve heard in a long time. You wouldn’t have to be alone either and right now, that wasn’t a good idea. 

“This is going to sound insane, but… Okay.” 

There was a quick pause as Joe takes in what you had just said. 

“Okay!? Really? You sure?” he asks very excited. 

You couldn’t help but smile at his eagerness. 

“Yeah! Why not, right? Fresh starts are always a good thing… Even with people I barely know.” you laugh out. 

“This is really happening! Okay, um, let me get everything I need and I’ll pick you up for the airport. Alright?” 

You close your eyes and laugh out at this insane moment. 

“Alright! I’ll see you in a bit.” 

You both hang up as you fall back on the bed and sigh loudly to yourself. You couldn’t stop smiling. Joe was going to go back home with you. You wanna talk about a spontaneous adventure, well here you go. This is it. You sit up and quickly think about Ben. Your smile falls and your heart breaks once more. Somewhere deep down you wish it had been him going with you. You were leaving this place and you knew for a fact that you were never going to see him again. Never. 

“Hey, you okay?” asks Joe as he watches you stare off into space. 

His face was worried as you look up to him. You shake your head and smile. 

“Yeah, no, I’m fine. Just… Really nauseous for some reason. Not sure if I can eat with you tonight, Joe. I’m really sorry.” 

Joe shakes his head and rushes up to you. 

“Hey, don’t apologize. You’re not looking very good. Maybe we should take you to see a doctor. Possibly a stomach bug?” 

You close your eyes and shake your head as nausea hits you once more. 

“I… I think I’m just gonna go lay down.” you whisper as you spin around and freeze. 

You lurch forward and cover your mouth fast. You dart towards the bathroom and make it just in time as you get sick. Joe’s behind you in an instant as he holds your hair away and slowly rubs your back. 

“It’s okay. You’re okay. Just let it out.” he soothingly keeps telling you. 

You were so embarrassed that Joe had to see this. You finally finish as you lean away and flush it. Joe hands you a napkin to wipe your mouth. You’re frowning hard as he helps you to your feet and takes you to your bedroom. You slip under the covers as he leaves to make you some hot tea. As you’re laying there and waiting, your cell phone goes off. You debate whether or not to grab it, but you do. It was your best friend Lucy. 

“Sorry I missed your call!” she tells you. “I was out with Rami at the shops.” 

“That’s alright, Luc.” 

“You alright? You sound sort of bad. Are you ill?” she asks. 

“Yeah. I have this odd cramping feeling and the worst nausea ever. It’s horrible.” 

“Maybe you’re about to start your period. I just got over mine and I always cramp horribly.” 

Your period. You freeze as your hands become clammy. You haven’t been keeping track of it and don’t even remember the last time you truly had one. Lucy is still talking as you stare at the ceiling above you - your mind racing like crazy. 

“Y/n?” she asks, causing you to come back to reality. 

“Uh, oh, yeah. Um, hey, Luc? Can I call you back?” you ask fast. 

“Of course. You alright?” she asks. 

“Yeah, I just have to do something real fast. I’ll call you in a few.” 

And with that, you hang up. You sit up in bed and take in a deep breath as you slowly look back down to your belly. You stare at it with unsure eyes for what feels like forever. You’re overthinking all of this, you think to yourself. There’s a slight knock at your door as Joe walks in with a small cup of hot tea. He smiles, but it falls the moment he sees your face. It looks like you’ve just seen a ghost. 

“What’s wrong? Do you feel sick again?” he asks fast. 

You shake your head and continue to stare at him. 

“I need you to run me to the store.” you say quietly. 

Joe’s brows knit together as he lowers the tea in front of him. 

“I can go for you. What do you need? Ginger ale? Crackers?” 

You shake your head and swallow hard. 

“I need to get this myself.” 

***

“Are you sure you’re not ill?” 

You’re back in your bathroom with a pregnancy test in your shaking hands. You had already taken it and were waiting for the result to pop up. You then panic and set it on the sink counter, faced down. You were scared of the result. 

“No, I’m fine! Promise. Just, uh-” 

You decide to grab it once more and take a peek. You notice a word on the screen and close your eyes before fully looking at it. 

PREGNANT 

The word practically screamed out at you. Your stomach dropped as your breathing stops. You couldn’t stop staring at it. Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant. You keep repeating it in your mind over and over again. You were trembling as you walk to the bathroom door and slowly open it up. Joe’s still stood there as he looks at you with a worried look. 

“You alright?” he asks before peering down at the tiny test in your hand. “What’s that?” he asks. 

You can’t find your voice as you slowly hold the test up and reveal PREGNANT to him. It takes a second for it to click, but he now understands. He takes a step back with wide eyes. 

“Oh my god…” he whispers. 

Tears sting in your eyes as you finally look into his. 

“When was the last time you’ve spoken to Ben?” you whisper out. 

Joe shakes his head and tries to find his voice. 

“Um, this morning. He called asking about you again.” he murmurs. 

You take in a shaky breath and close your eyes. 

“I’m gonna be sick-” 

You turn around and hurry to the toilet. Joe once again holds your hair back and tells you everything will be okay. Everything will be okay. 

***

One Month Later 

“How is she? Does she still ask about me? I really want to come visit you all.” 

Joe is in the kitchen as he looks to you. You’re on the couch with a blanket as you watch TV. He had snuck away to make popcorn when Ben had called. 

“She’s uh,” Joe thinks for the right words to say. “She’s okay, Ben. I just don’t know if that’s such a good idea.” 

Ben sighs into the phone which breaks Joe’s heart. He knows you both are hurting and it’s tearing him apart. 

“Listen,” he starts. “Give her some time and I’m sure we can arrange something. Okay?” 

Ben’s mood was lifted by that. 

“Yeah? You think so?” 

Joe nods to himself just as you turn around and look at him. 

“Joe, I’m hungry! Where’s the popcorn?” you ask before realizing he’s on the phone. 

“Bringing it in just a second!” he calls out to you. 

“Was that her? God, I miss that voice.” says Ben. 

Joe turns around and holds the phone closer to his face. 

“Listen, I have to go. We’ll talk soon though, okay?” 

He says his quick goodbye to Ben and hangs up. He trots back to the couch with a bowl of popcorn, which you take instantly. Your slightly swollen belly was showing underneath your shirt and he smiled. 

“When are you going to tell him?” he asks, catching you off guard. 

You look over to him with a mouth full of popcorn and sad eyes. 

“That was him on the phone, wasn’t it?” you ask. 

All he can do is nod. You exhale and look down at your stomach. A slight movement of your baby makes you smile. You rub your hand over it. 

“I really don’t know.” you confess to him. “I’m scared to tell him, if I’m being honest. He’s so far away and the way we ended things, I just…” you trail off. 

“What he did was wrong. I will never not deny that. But the man’s so in love with you. Stella is actually more happy since the breakup than I’ve seen her in a long time. Ben can’t stop asking about you, it’s actually driving me nuts.” he teases, causing you to blush and laugh. “Just, when you’re ready, let me know. Okay?” 

You look to Joe and smile sweetly as you nod. You move yourself next to him and rest your head on his shoulder. You’re happy you at least have him in your life. 

***

4 Months And 3 Weeks Later 

“Where did you want the crib?” asks Joe. 

You’re both in your bedroom as he attempts to move it on the other side of the wall just where you want it. 

“Perfect! I know I’m a bit behind with everything, but I finally have my hospital bag all packed up with the babies going home outfit in there as well.” 

Joe appreciates his work as he looks to the white crib and smiles. 

“Better late than never.” he tells you as he spins around. 

You go to say something, but your baby kicks you hard and makes you hiss. Joe hurries to you and falls to his knees to face you. 

“You alright? Is it contractions? Should we go? I can call your mom!” 

You laugh loudly at his worried face and shake your head. 

“It’s not contractions, silly. She just apparently thinks it’s hilarious to kick mommy in the ribs.” 

Joe lets out a breath and smiles. 

“Here, feel,” you say as you grab his hand and place it on top of your swollen belly. His eyes go wide as she kicks at his hand and makes it move slightly. He’s felt this multiple times and yet he’s so shocked at every single one.

“Will you help me tie my shoes?” you randomly ask with puppy dog eyes. 

You two were going to go to the store for some groceries and for you to walk around as much as you can - doctors orders. Joe can’t help but laugh as he removes his hand and his attention is drawn to your feet. He ties one shoe when suddenly there’s a loud knock at the front door. You both look up and are half startled by it. 

“Expecting someone?” you ask as he stands up. 

“Thought maybe you were.” he tells you as he walks from your room and towards it. 

You’re sat there on the bed as you attempt to tie the other shoe, but it’s impossible. Joe turns on the porch light before opening the door. He has a slight smile on his face, but it instantly drops. 

“Ben?” he whispers. 

Ben is stood in front of him with a bouquet of flowers in one hand. He looks beyond nervous as he attempts to smile. 

“Hey, Joe.” 

“W- What are you doing here? How did you-” 

“Gwil gave me your address. I should’ve asked before showing up. I know! Just, she probably wouldn’t have let me. I have to see her, Joe.” he says sadly. 

“Joe!” you call out. 

You get off your bed and make your way to the living room as you stare down at your untied shoe. 

“Can you please tie the other one before I trip over myself-” 

You look up and over Joe’s shoulder as you spot a familiar face. He was staring at you with wide eyes. Your mouth fell open slightly as your heart begins to race. Joe was stood in a way where he was blocking the lower half of your body, only allowing Ben to see your head. He had waited for this moment for so long and it was finally here. 

“Ben?” you barely whisper out. 

“Y/n,” he whispers back. “I’m sorry for not calling, but I had to see you-” 

Just then, Joe takes a step back and reveals your giant swollen belly. Ben’s in mid sentence but stops once his eyes land on it. The hand that was holding the flowers had lowered as they slipped from it and hit the ground. His eyes were wide and he was trying to wrap his mind around what he was seeing. Your hands instantly go to your belly as if you’re trying to hide it. Ben looks back to you and then to your belly, then back to you, then back to your belly. 

“You’re-”

“Pregnant.” you finish his sentence. “Yes. I am.” 

“Is it-” 

“Yes. It’s yours. She’s… yours.” 

Ben looks back to you and shakes his head. 

“She?” 

You can’t help but smile as you sniffle and look down for a moment and nod. 

“It’s a girl.” 

“And I’m just finding out about this now, because?” he asks as he looks to Joe, feeling beyond hurt. 

“Because it was my idea. I was waiting for the right time.” 

“And that’s when? When you have it? When it’s ten years old and asks where I am? That’s when you’d tell me that I have a…” he trails off as a tear slips down his cheek.

“I was scared.” you sob out to him. “I was scared that you wouldn’t want her.” 

“Well that should have at least been my decision to make!” he says loudly.

“Maybe I was scared that you’d cheat on her with another daughter!” you shout back.

Ben tenses his jaw hard and looks down at his feet. He takes in a deep breath and looks back to you. You were staring at him with fire in your eyes and knives in your mouth. 

“I’m sorry.” is all he whispers. “I had met you and,” he continues as he takes a step forward. “And it had felt like I’d known you forever. What I did is unforgivable, y/n. I know that. But being with you felt like I could breathe again. Like I had something to look forward to when I got out of bed. It was nice to just feel wanted again.” 

This broke your heart. The sad puppy eyes he was giving you was enough to make you throw down your shield and run into his arms, but you can’t. You wouldn’t. You just continue to stand there as tears well up once more in your eyes. You look down for a moment and shrug. 

“You still did it.” you say quietly. 

The three of you just awkwardly stand there as silence hits. Ben then nods his head and sighs. 

“Well if you don’t want me… At least let me be there for her.” he pleads as he looks down to your stomach. “I know nothing about babies, but I know I’ll be a damn good dad. Please, y/n.” he begs. “I won’t let either of you down. Please.” 

You stare into his eyes and melt. You think for a moment longer until you slowly nod your head yes, which causes Ben’s face to light up as a huge smile appears. 

“Thank you.” he whispers. 

You can’t help but smile at his eagerness. 

“Come back tomorrow morning and we can go over everything. Maybe you can even meet me for my last doctor's appointment before I’m induced.” you tell him, causing him to become confused. 

“In-what?” he asks. 

“Induced.” you laugh. “Where they jump start labor if it doesn’t happen naturally. I’ll explain everything tomorrow.” 

Ben smiles and nods as he walks back outside. 

“I’ll see you tomorrow then.” he says. 

You all say your goodbyes as Joe shuts the door and turns to stare at you with wide eyes. 

“What the hell just happened?” he asks completely in shock. 

“I’ll have to process all of this.” you say just as confused. “In the meantime… Can you take my shoes off now?” you ask with a forced smile, causing Joe to just laugh. 

***

“Well look at you all smiley this morning.” says Joe as he pours himself a cup of coffee. 

You realize that you’re grinning as you drop it fast, slightly embarrassed. 

“I’m not all smiley.” you say fast. 

Joe squints his eyes and watches you as he sips at the hot drink. 

“Mh-hmm. Then what do you it when your face does this,” he says as he dramatically does a huge toothy grin. 

You can’t help but laugh as you roll your eyes. 

“I guess… I don’t know. I was dreading about how I was going to tell Ben about this,” you say looking down at your belly. “I guess I’m kind of relieved that, in a way, I didn’t have to. Kind of like fate worked itself out, ya know?” 

“Ah, so that smile is because of Ben. Why am I not surprised?” he asks teasing you but suddenly goes serious. “It’s really good to see you smile again though. Everyone says you’re glowing, but right now, I can really see it.” 

You melt at Joe’s sweet words as you blush slightly and smile. 

“Thanks, Joe. That means a lot to me.” 

But before he can say anything back, there’s a soft knock at the front door. You jump slightly as your heart races, knowing that it’s Ben. Joe looks to you and presses his lips together as he walks over to it and opens. The two of them talked for a moment before Joe moves to the side and in walks Ben. He looks around at your home and then his eyes are glued to you. He grins as he walks forward and then down to your belly. 

“I was supposed to give these to you yesterday, but never got a chance.” he lightly teases. 

You take the beautiful flowers and look to him sweetly. 

“Thank you. They’re beautiful.” 

Ben smiles and sticks his hands nervously into his pocket. You all stand there and say nothing for a moment until the baby kicks at you. You hiss and place your hand on your belly. Ben’s face goes worried as he watches you closely. 

“You okay?” he asks fast. 

You nod and half laugh at his protective nature. 

“She’s just really squirmy this morning. I think she’s happy that you’re here.” you say softly, causing his face to light up. “You wanna feel?” you cautiously ask him. 

Ben nods eagerly as you step forward close to him. You gently grab his hand and he suddenly goes serious. He remembers the last time he had touched you. That was the day you decided to leave. You bring his hand to your belly and place it down. You two wait for a moment until a big kick causes his eyes to go wide and for him to gasp slightly. 

“There she is.” you laugh out. 

“Wow.” is all he can whisper. 

“Would you like to go to my last doctor's appointment with me? It’s in an hour.” you ask as you look up with his hand still on your belly. 

Ben looks beyond thrilled as he can’t hold back a grin. 

“I would honestly love nothing more.” 

***

“You’re shaking.” you say as you watch Ben in the seat next to you. 

His leg is bouncing up and down as you lay back on a long bed like chair. Your belly is exposed as the doctor gets her ultrasound equipment all ready. 

“Guess I’m nervous.” he laughs out. “Never did this before.” 

“And the fact that it’s your baby you get to see.” sweetly says the doctor as she applies a warm, green gel to your stomach. “Ready?” 

You both nod your heads as she then lays the device down and begins moving it around. The screen lights up with black and white. It takes her only seconds to find your baby. 

“There she is.” she says as she presses a button to capture a photo. 

She moves the device around more until the babies little face is shown. 

“There’s her lips and nose,” she explains. 

You admire her tiny features and turn to look at Ben. He’s leaning in as his eyes are wide and his mouth dropped open slightly. He looks starstruck. 

“She has your nose.” he whispered in awe. 

“And your eyes.” you tell him as he looks to you. 

“Here are her hands,” says the doctor. 

Ben smiles as tears well up in his eyes. This was a lot for him to take in. Him crying had made you cry. You had wanted this moment for so long and now it was finally here. Ben was by your side. 

“She’s beautiful.” he whispers. “Gets that from her mum.” 

You all laugh as you playfully go to smack his arm, but after you do so, Ben grabs your hand before you can retreat it. He holds it in his as he looks to you. You know you should remove it, but you don’t. Instead you lace your fingers with his and keep it like that for the rest of the appointment. 

***

3 Days Later 

You were lying on the couch with your feet on Ben’s lap as he rubs them for you. You had a baby book in your face as you read out facts about childbirth. 

“Look at this.” you say as you turn the book for him to see. 

His face turns disgusted as his mouth falls open to a picture of a baby being born. 

“That’s not real!” he says loud. “That’s can’t be real!” 

You can’t help but burst out laughing at his reaction. 

“That’s definitely real! Get ready for that.” 

Joe walks into the living room and plops down on the opposite with a smile on his face. You both look to him and squint your eyes. 

“What?” you ask. 

“Oh nothing,” he says shrugging. 

“What is it Joe?” asks Ben, knowing he was going to say it anyways. 

“Nothing, just that you two look like real life parents right now. You’re rubbing her feet while she reads gross facts to you.”

You didn’t realize how this might look to someone else as you lay there with him, but you couldn’t help but giggle.

“Are you two… Ya know… Okay?” he asks cautiously. 

You sigh as Ben looks to you with questioning eyes as well. You remove your feet from his lap and sit the book beside you. As you do so, a sharp pain hits you hard, causing you to wince and lurch forward. Both boys call out as you take deep breaths. 

“Okay, that hurt.” you tell them. “I need to stand up.”

The go on either side of you as they help you to your feet. You take three steps when suddenly the sound of water hits the floor. You all pause and stare at one another. You slowly lower your head and look down to your feet as a clear, gel like substance surrounds you. 

“Guys,” you barely whisper out. 

Their faces were pale as they just stare and say nothing. You go to say something when another pin hits you, but this time it’s in your back. You lean over and yell out as Joe comes back to reality and rushes for the keys to the car. 

“Alright, it’s okay.” he says softly. “You’re in labor, we gotta go to the hospital now, okay?”

You shake your head no as you back away from them. They stare at you confused as tears gush from your eyes. 

“I’m not going! I can’t do this!” you cry out. 

“What do you mean you can’t do this? They’ll give you an epidural and the pain will go away-” starts Ben, trying to calm you down even though he’s freaking out just as bad. 

You shake your head even more and try to catch your breath. 

“I can’t give birth until we’ve figured us out!” you sob. 

They finally understand. Ben’s face saddens as Joe’s shoulders fall. 

“I can’t bring her into with the constant thought that you’ll leave and go home! Or leave for someone else and abandon us like my father did!” you yell. 

Ben shakes his head as he walks up to you and holds your face with both hands. 

“I am never leaving you. Either of you. I lost you once and I told myself I would never lose you again. Understand?” 

You stare into his green eyes and watch as they’re sincere and hold so much truth in them. He meant what he said. You feel your worries melt away as he just looked at you. You then nod your head and sniffle before Ben lowers his and gently presses his lips to yours. You’re taken aback for a moment, but melt into him - that is until another contraction hits you and you’re yelling once more. 

“Okay, more lovey dovey stuff after we get to the hospital! Ben, grab her hospital bag!” says Joe fast. 

“Let’s have a baby.” Ben says to you with a smile on his face. 

“Let’s have a baby.” 

***

Four hours into labor and you were in the worst pain you had ever felt in your life. You were in a hospital gown as you lean over the bed and shout out. Your face was bright red as you squeeze at the sheets. Ben and Joe were in the room as Joe kept the corner of the room with Ben at your side. 

“Baby,” says Ben quietly as he places his hand on your back. 

You jerk at his touch and groan loudly. 

“Don’t… Touch… Me!” you shout. “You did this to me!” 

Ben’s eyes are wide as he removes his hand and looks to Joe for any kind of help, but gets none as Joe just shakes his head fast with wide eyes. He wasn’t getting anywhere near you. It was like momzilla had broken free. He was content in the corner as he silently feels bad for you. But it wasn’t like this forever. You had dilated enough for an epidural which made the pain go away completely. You had calmed down and were now in bed as Ben sat next to you with your hand in his.

“Alright,” starts a doctor as she walks in with gloves on her hands and a hospital mask on her face. “Ready to start pushing?” 

You look to Ben with fear in your eyes as he takes in a deep breath and grins. This was it.

***

Baby cries fill the room as you do a final push. She was here. You were sobbing your eyes out when you finally see your tiny baby. You couldn’t stop smiling as you look to Ben and notice his chin quivering as his face was twisted with tears spilling over. Joe was wiping at his eyes as he takes pictures of the new happy parents. 

“You did so amazing. You did so amazing.” whispers Ben repeatedly as he kisses your head. 

You couldn’t stop crying as the nurses brought her over to you and place her on your chest. 

“Oh my god, look at her.” you cry out. “She looks just like you!” 

Ben brings his hand to her little head and gently touches her faint blonde hair. This was the most nerve wracking, heart racing, mixed feeling week he had ever had in his life and every single moment was worth it. 

***

“This is your new home, baby.” you coo as you hold her in your arms and slowly walk around your bedroom. 

Ben walks in with your hospital bag and sat it down as he admires his two girls with a smile on his face. 

“I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of this.” he says softly as you turn around and smile. 

“Me neither.” 

You walk over to him and gently place the small baby in his arms. His shoulders are tensed up as if he’s scared he’s going to break her. 

“Relax your arms. You won’t hurt her.” you tell him with a giggle. 

He just smiles and nods as he follows your instructions. As he does so, she smiles slightly in her sleep which makes his eyes go wide and looks to you. 

“Did you see that!? She smiled!” he says fast. “I think she likes me.” 

You lightly laugh as you smile sweetly to him, your eyes never leaving his face. 

“Well that makes two of us.” 

Ben looks back up to you with a half serious face. His eyes crinkle as he grins and leans in slowly to kiss you. 

“Out of every adventure I’ve been on,” you start. 

“This is by far my favorite one.” 

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royal protection - part 15

MASTERLIST 

(welcome to the last part of royal protection!!! loved writing this so much so thank u to everyone who has supported it!!! ilysm omg) 

Word Count: 2k+

“Has she been out of her room at all?” 

The King and Queen were both sat at the large dining room table as they eat their breakfast. Your father sips on his morning tea as he looks to her a bit nervously. He swallows hard and gives her a forced smile - something she doesn’t notice. 

“No, dear.” he says fast as he looks down to his food. 

Your mother sadly frowns a bit as she exhales and begins scooting her chair back. Your father looks to her nervously as his heart races. 

“Where are you going? We haven’t finished breakfast.” 

Your mother rises up and smooths down her gown. 

“I’m just going to go talk to her, love.” she explains as she turns to walk away. 

He stands up fast as the Queen’s assistant and guards all rush behind her to follow. 

“Why?” he asks a little too loud, causing her to stop and turn around with narrowed eyes. 

“Because I feel like going to talk to my daughter. Why are you acting so strange?” 

The King drops his face and shakes his head, trying to look as calm as he could be. If he pushed any harder, she would definitely know something was up. 

“I’m not, just… She might not want to talk to your right now, dear. That’s all.” 

The Queen sadly frowns as she looks away. 

“You’re probably right.” 

And with that, she turns and continues walking to your room. The King places his silverware down and quickly follows behind as his assistant and guards trail behind. He makes sure to stay far away as your mother finally arrives to your door. She raises her hand to knock, but hesitates for a moment. She exhales as she finally knocks three times. 

“Darling?” she calls out. “Are you awake?” 

The King stands around the corner and listens closely. He had no idea she would want to speak with you, especially this early. 

“Darling?” she calls out again as she gently opens the door and cracks it open a bit. 

She peers inside, but doesn’t see you. She then opens it up wide and walks inside. She spots you near your closet door. Your back is turned to her as she smiles a bit. 

“I know this is that last thing you want, but I just needed to speak with you.” 

You say nothing as you continue standing there. Your mother waits for a response, but realizes she’s not going to get one. 

“I understand that you’re upset and if I’m being quite honest, I would be too. I need you to know how much I love you and how much your safety means to me - as a Queen, but first and foremost, as a mother.” 

You are still silent. She takes a step forward and huffs a bit. 

“Will you please turn around and at least look at me?” she begs. 

Your head moves a bit as you - as slow as you can possibly go - turn around. Your hair’s slightly in your face as you look down at the ground. Your mother’s eyes narrow as she lowers her head to look at you. They then go wide when you move a piece of hair from your face. She gasps loudly as she takes a step back and places her hand over her chest. 

“Lucy!?” 

***

“I never thought this would happen again.” 

You and Ben are both curled up in bed as your naked bodies cling together. Your head is resting on his chest as his hand soothingly runs back and forth on your arm. He kisses your head and hums as you nuzzle your face into him. 

“I didn’t either.” he whispers to you. 

You look up to him and smile as he returns one. You lean up and kiss him - feeling like the luckiest girl alive. 

“I feel like maybe we should go take a shower.” purrs Ben as he smirks. 

Your eyebrows raise up as you grin and sit up on your elbows. 

“Oh, do you?” you tease. 

“I definitely do.” he says before hovering over you and playfully kissing your neck and making you squeal. 

***

“Lucy!?” your mother shouts once more. 

Lucy has the most guiltiest look on her face as your mother’s eyes are wild. 

“Your highness,” she says quietly as she bows a bit. 

“What in the bloody hell is going on!? Why are you dressed as y/n!?” 

Lucy opens her mouth to explain, but before she can, the King makes his way into the room. 

“I can explain.” he says fast. 

He looks to Lucy and gives her a reassuring smile. The Queen looks back to him and waits for a response. 

“Please do!” she shouts. “Where is our daughter!?” 

“You gave her no choice, my love.” he says softly. “She found something that was worth living for and you… You sent it away.” 

“What are you talking abo-” she pauses when it finally hits her. “Benjamin. You’re talking about Benjamin, the security man.” 

The King nods as your mother tenses her jaw hard. 

“Is that where she is?” she asks, looking back to Lucy. 

Lucy cowards once more and nods her head. 

“Yes, ma’am.” 

The Queen angrily looks to her security and frowns. 

“Go get her. Both of them.” 

***

“I should probably head back soon. Lucy is probably dying to be released. She’s been stuck in that torcher chamber all night.” 

You’re sat on Ben’s bed as your towel dry your hair. He’s in his bathroom with the door open as he brushes his teeth. He walks to the door with the toothbrush still in his mouth and says something to you as you laugh. 

“I don’t speak nonsense.” you tease. 

Ben laughs as he turns and rids himself of it. 

“I said I’ll drive you back whenever you’re ready.” 

You smile sweetly to him and stand up as you walk over. You wrap your arms around his neck and lean in to kiss him. 

“Thank you.” you whisper. 

“My pleasure.” he whispers back. 

You both smile as you begin kissing once more. It begins to get heated when suddenly the sound of car doors slamming closed are heard outside. Then there’s a loud banging on Ben’s front door. You both break apart as you gasp slightly. You look to him with wide and worried eyes as he narrows his. 

“Stay here.” he tells you.

You follow his orders as he walks from the bedroom. You listen closely as he opens the front door. 

“Where is she?” someone asks angrily. 

Before you know it, the bedroom door is pushed open and there stands your mother’s guards. She knows. 

“Princess,” they go to say, but you interrupt them. 

“I know, I know. I gotta go with you.” 

You grab your belongings and walk to the living room. Ben’s standing there with sad eyes as he watches you closely. You walk over to him and sadly smile. 

“Until next time?” you ask. 

“He’s coming as well.” one of the guards say. 

You look confused - as does Ben - as you’re both escorted out to the large vehicle in front of his home. You both slide in as the doors slam shut. Ben reaches his hand over and grabs yours. Your legs were bouncing fast, telling him that you were nervous. The second he touched you - they stopped. You look to him and smile. He then lets go of your hand and tosses his arm over your shoulders as you lean into him close. You needed all of the time you could get with him - this might be your last. 

***

“I can’t believe you all.” your mother hisses as she paces back and forth in the foyer. “Going behind my back - your own Queen!” 

The King and Lucy both look guilty as they stand there and watch her. 

“How could you allow our daughter to leave with no supervision!?” 

“Joe was-” started your father.

“Joseph!? Our Joseph helped as well!? I can’t trust anybody anymore!” 

Your father goes to open his mouth to speak, but is interrupted by voices outside. The foyer doors fling open and in walks you and Ben with guards surrounding you. Lucy looks to you with tears in her eyes as she mouths ‘I’m so sorry’. You feel horrible for what she’s had to go through. You shake your head, telling her that you are the one who’s sorry. Your father looks to you and sadly smiles, but your mother… Your mother was red in the face as she angrily watches you two stand before her - Ben’s hand still in yours. 

“When a Queen gives direct orders, that means you obey them.” she says sternly as she glances to Ben. “When you break the order, there will be consequences. Think I’m a horrible mother, I really don’t care. I protect my baby and will do anything for her.” 

“That’s where you’re wrong.” you speak up, causing everyone to look at you. “I’m not a baby and yet you continue to treat me like one. I get told everyday that I’m allowed to make my own decisions, but the moment I do, they don’t matter. Can you imagine how that feels?” 

“Can you imagine how it feels to realize everyone has betrayed your trust!?” 

“That’s your fault! If you were fair, nobody would have had to do that!” 

“You’re a princess and you need to start acting like one.” demands your mother. 

“Maybe I don’t want to be one anymore!” you shout. 

Everyone goes quiet as Ben looks to you fast - shocked. 

“Maybe I don’t want that title! Maybe I’ll retract it and leave! I want him more than this stupid bloody title!” 

“You wouldn’t dare!” 

“Enough!” shouts your father, surprising everyone. 

He looks to your mother with an angry look on his face. 

“You would go as far to make your own daughter give up her birthright!? And over a man!? I will be damned if I lose a daughter because of your pettiness.” he snears. 

Your mother’s mouth falls open as he looks to you and his face softens. 

“I will never lose you over this. She has a right to be with whoever she wants! Just because we were forced to marry, doesn’t mean I want the same for her!” 

You shake your head fast as you take a step back. 

“I’m sorry? You were forced to get married? But you told me-” 

“That we fell in love and couldn’t be happier?” he asks as he looks to your mother - a sad look on her face. “That’s what we decided to tell everyone. We didn’t get that choice, my love. Why would you want her to go through the same?” 

Your mother’s chin quivers as she looks at him with tears falling from her eyes.

“You two aren’t… in love?” you ask. 

“Don’t you dare say that!” shouts your mother, getting defensive. “I love your father greatly! I do!” 

He smiles as he walks to her and takes her hand into his. 

“Tell her the truth.” he whispers as she looks to him with sad eyes. 

She shakes her head no, but he gives her a certain look and she knows she has no choice. She closes her eyes and exhales before turning to you. 

“I…” she pauses. “I was in love with someone before I met your father. We made plans to get married, but it was a very different time back then. I was told I didn’t have a choice and I ended up marrying your father. I was beyond heart broken. I couldn’t even look at him the first year we were married.” 

Now you’re the one who was crying as you listened to her speak about her own heartbreak. You had no idea. 

“But I do love you!” she sobs out as she looks to him. 

“I know, my love.” he says low as he raises her hand to his mouth and kisses it. 

“Then if you know how it feels, why would you do the same to me?” you ask loudly. 

“Because it’s custom. My mother instilled it into me and I guess… I guess I was trying to instill it into you. I haven't spoken about him in over twenty years, but I remember now. I know heartbreak, but I know love.” she says looking to your father and smiling. “I just got so caught up in traditions. Please,” she whispers as she looks to you. “Please don’t revoke your title. Please don’t stop being my daughter.” 

You take in a sharp breath as you sob and rush up to your mother. She opens her arms for you as you both hold each other and cry. 

“It’s like I forgot everything that happened to me.” she whispers to you. “I don’t want you to hate me like I hated my own mother.” 

She leans away and cups your face with her hands. 

“Please don’t hate me, darling.” 

“I could never hate you.” you whisper. 

She smiles sweetly as she wipes away tears from your face and then her own. She looks over your shoulder and glances to Ben. She lifts her head up and smiles as she walks around you and to him. 

“I hope you can someday forgive me for how I’ve treated you.” she says sweetly. 

“Your highness,” says Ben as he goes to slightly bow, but before he does, she places her hand on his shoulder - stopping him. 

“You’re apart of this family now. No need for silly tradition.” she says with a grin as she looks back to you - your face beaming. 

“And you-” she says sternly - looking to a still very nervous Lucy. “You are the most amazing friend my daughter could ever have.” 

Lucy’s worried look falls as the Queen walks over and hugs her. 

“Now,” she says as she turns around and claps her hands together. “Who would like some breakfast?” 

***

1 Year Later

*** 

“Are you nervous?” asks your mother. 

You’re standing there as you breathe in slowly and smile. 

“More excited.” 

“You do realize you didn’t have to use the church, right? We could have had this anywhere you would have liked, my love.” 

You look to her and sweetly smile as you take her hand. 

“Sometimes tradition isn’t such a bad thing.” you whisper, causing her eyes to sparkle as tears appear. 

“You all ready, love?” asks your father as he stands next to you. 

“More than ever.” 

You take his arm as your mother hugs you tightly and quickly scurries away. Beautiful music begins playing as guards open the large double doors that quickly uncover Ben standing at the very front, anxiously waiting for you. Your heart melts when you begin slowly walking as everyone rises. You can’t stop smiling as your eyes are glued to him. When he sees you, his heart drops. 

His mouth falls open slightly and suddenly tears burn at his eyes - which causes you to begin crying. He looks like he’s just seen an angel and to him - he has. Joe stands right beside him as Lucy is waiting for you on the other side. You finally make it them as you hand Lucy your bouquet. Your father then gives you away as he makes his way back to his seat next to your mother, who’s dabbing at her wet eyes. 

“Are you ready, Mrs. Jones?” whispers Ben as he takes your hands in his. 

You smile from ear to ear and slowly nod. 

“Never been more ready for anything in my life.” you whisper back. 

“I couldn’t agree more.” 

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Farm In The Middle Of Nowhere

MASTERLIST 

(oh hello and welcome to this smutty af fic with bby ben sksksk FIRST OFF every single person in this fic is 18, i dont write no smut about minors yall EW so just needed that to be very clear lol ALSO joe and lucy are in this fic so i wrote everyone as the same age, i needed some best friend material okay, i hope u all like it and i hope i didnt butcher it lmao ily)

Word Count: 4,815

Summer vacation was over and the beginning of senior year was just starting. Nerves were all over the place as everyone made their way into the busy school, in search of their new designated classes. You had stepped into the building and looked around as teachers guided people in the right direction for where they need to go. 

You take in a deep breath and glance down at your schedule sheet. Your first hour was math. You groan to yourself and begin making your way to room 303. You disliked math so much and were not excited that it would be your first class in the morning. You were groggy and tired and were not ready to work with numbers and formulas. Math being your first hour class wasn’t even the worst thing. You were a brand new student and for your senior year. You missed your friends back home and despised being here. Everyone here already had old friends and their cliques picked out, you didn’t fit in at all. You were nervous and just wanted the year to go by fast.

You make your way to your classroom and silently praise yourself for not having to ask for help. You notice the door’s open so you walk inside. Students have filled the room as some stand up and talk, while others are sat. A seat in the very back corner of the room is available and you can’t help but thank the gods. You make your way back there and hurriedly claim the seat. You notice a few students staring at you, so you look away and grab your notebook from your bag. You sit there quietly when you notice someone walk up and stand next to the desk beside you. They lean forward and look at you. You look over to notice a tall guy with jet black hair smiling at you.

“You’re new.” he says.

You raise a brow and slowly nod.

“Looks like it.”

He half laughs and looks you up and down, raking his eyes over your body. You cursed at yourself for wearing the tightest pair of jeans you own.

“Ya know, I actually might think you’re hotter than Mackenzie.” he silently says.

Your eyes open wide a bit as you watch him dumb founded.

“I’m sorry?” you ask, not understanding.

“Mackenzie. She’s the hottest girl in school, but I think you have her beat.” he says smirking.

“So what does that make you?” you ask sarcastically.  

The guy’s face drops as you look at him with your brow raised, waiting for an answer. You then hear somebody laugh in the distance.

“Yeah, Mark. What does that make you?”

You look over and a guy with dirty blonde hair and the greenest eyes you’ve ever seen was walking up to you two. Your heart almost stopped as he looks to you quickly and smiles a bit. Were people your age even allowed to be that gorgeous?

“Oh, piss off.” says Mark, embarrassed as he looks at you once more and walks away.

You roll your eyes and look back at the notebook in front of you. The blonde man sits in the empty desk next to you and you can feel his eyes on you.

“New schools always suck on the first day.” he says to you.

You look over to him quickly and your face burns as he looks at you. You smile and nod.

“Yeah. Being the new kid is always so fun.” you say, causing him to laugh.

“I’m Ben.” he says, still smiling.

You tuck a piece of hair behind your ear and smile back.

“Y/n.” you reply.

Ben leans back in his seat, still watching you. The teacher makes her way into the class and tells everyone to take their seat. It quiets down as the teacher begins speaking about herself and how the year would go. Ben looks to you and rolls his eyes, making you laugh.

“Is something funny you two?” asks the teacher, looking at Ben and you.

Your face goes red as you shake your head and fight back a smirk. Ben just smiles his big grin and shakes his head.

“No, ma’am. Just talking about how beautiful you look today.”

You look to him fast and can’t help but admire how good he is at being charming. The teacher just laughs and shakes her head as she continues speaking. Ben looks to you and winks. He takes out a piece of paper and begins writing on it. He quickly slides it over on your desk and you look over at him fast. You unfold the piece of paper and begin reading.

I can tell tell we’ll be good friends x -B

You smile to yourself and begin writing back.

I hope so - Y

You slide it back to Ben and he reads it. He smiles and looks back to you. That was the beginning of the note passing.

***

3 Months Later

“I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone as attractive as she is.” says Ben to his best friend Joe.

“Have you even talked to her?” he asks.

They’re at Ben’s house in his bedroom as they talk about you.

“All the time! We have first hour together. Math is officially my favorite subject because of her. But when it’s over, I literally can’t stop thinking about her. It’s… I don’t know.” he trails off.

Joe laughs and shakes his head as he stands up and grabs his bag.

“You have a crush on her, dude. You should tell her.”

He walks to Ben’s bedroom door and opens it up.

“Yeah, because it’s that easy!” says Ben.

Joe shrugs his shoulders.

“If you stopped making it so hard, it could be. I’ll see you later, okay?” he says as he walks from his room.

Ben is still laying on his bed as his mind races back to you. He thinks about your hair, your cute nose, the way you smile, your eyes. He tenses his jaw and starts thinking about the curve of your hips, the outline of your butt in your jeans, the view he gets when you lean over and your shirt pulls down a bit. Ben bites his lip as he feels himself get excruciatingly hard. He slowly brings his hand down to palm himself over his pants. His breath gets hitched as he presses down hard. Ben’s eyes open up as he remembers he’s home alone right now. He quickly unzips his pants and pulls them down, along with his boxers. 

His hard length springs free and it’s already dripping with precum. He wraps his hand around himself and his head falls back against his pillow. His eyes close once more as he groans out loudly. He slowly pumps himself as he thinks about you. He thinks about your lips on his. He thinks about his hands all over your body and squeezing. He thinks about you undressing for him and he wonders how sweet you would taste. He pumps himself even faster as his legs shake. He thinks about your lips wrapped around him with his hands in your hair. He then thinks about how amazing you would feel as he rams into you repeatedly. That does it for him. Ben pumps faster and faster as he whimpers loudly.

“Y/n,” he whispers out your name. “Oh, fuck, y/n…”

His mouth opens wide as he begins to see white. His cock twitches in his hand as he bucks his hips forward. He cries out as his body jerks and warmth spurts out of him, covering his stomach. He pumps even faster as he moans and feels ecstasy wash over him. He pumps once more and he’s finished. He breathes heavily as he looks down and realizes the mess he’s made, all thanks to you.

***

2 Months Later

Your relationship with your new best friend Ben was five months in the making. He was the only guy in school who didn’t try to get into your pants, although something in the back of your mind was hoping he sort of would. Ben was well liked in school and some would say he’s popular. You agree. He was always getting in trouble for smoking on school property with his friends and for getting into fights with idiots like Mark. He had, you could say, a reputation and nobody wanted to be on his bad side.

The two of you spend all of first hour and lunch laughing together and talking, but one morning the conversation took a different turn. You two had been passing notes and talking about how two popular students, Jesse and Erica, were caught by their parents in her bedroom.

The fact they’d choose a place in their HOUSE to get it on is sad and weird - Y

Ben reads the note and coughs to cover up a laugh.

Yeah, I’d want a place where I know no one would come barging in lmao - B

You read the note and laugh to yourself. You weren’t sure why, but a sort of confidence washed over you and you wrote something down quickly. Your heart was beating fast as he opens it and reads. His face drops for a moment, then a sly smile forms.

Have you ever… Ya know… - Y

Ben writes something and slips it back over to you.

Of course I have. - B

He lied. He doesn’t know why he lied exactly. He guesses it’s because he wasn’t sure if you had or not, and he didn’t want to look dumb to you, so he said yes. This time, his heart was racing as you read it. Your stomach falls when you read it. You had never had sex, so you were now intimidated. He’s slept with someone, you think to yourself. Of course he has, look at him. He’s a pro, you think once more. You glance over to him then back at the paper. You’re not entirely sure what to write.

Lucky girls. - Y

You think so?? - B

I do. I’m not as experienced… Maybe you could, I don’t know… Teach me? - Y

Ben reads the note and his eyes go wide. He looks over to you and his pants slightly tighten as you watch him and smile. He smiles back and grins as writes back. This was like a dream come true for him. All of those nights where he touched himself with your face in his mind, might actually become reality.

As long as it’s not in any of our houses. - B

You laugh when you read the note, knowing what he was referring to. The teacher asks who’s talking and the two of you go quiet and look forward, fighting back smirks. She looks away and you hurriedly write.

My family owns a farm in the middle of nowhere. Tomorrow at 8? I’ll say I’m staying with Lucy. - Y

Ben shifts in his seat and silently prays that no one can see how hard he’s getting. He clears his throat and writes back once more.

8 sounds perfect. Just text me the address. Can’t wait - B

You look to him and smile as you look down at your notebook and try to concentrate on your work, which was difficult to do now.

***

“You and Ben!?” asks Lucy as she sits on your bed crisscrossed.

It was the next day and you were nervously walking around and trying to figure out what to wear. You run your hand through your hair and exhale.

“I like him so much, Luc!” you say.

She smiles and nods as you look through your closet.

“What’s not to like about him? He’s a sweetheart, always does the right thing, super fit…”

You turn around and you both laugh loudly.

“I just can’t believe I’m gonna….” you trail off, thinking about it. “And remember, I’m supposedly staying with you, okay?”

She nods her head in agreement.

“Have you told him you haven’t done it before?” she asks.

You slowly shake your head.

“I didn’t say I was a virgin directly, I just said I wasn’t as experienced.”

_____

“You and y/n!?” asks Joe as he hangs upside down on Ben’s bed.

Ben was walking around his room and trying to find his favorite jacket to wear. He was meeting you in a few hours and he has never been this nervous in his whole life.

“Yeah me and y/n! You know how much I like her.” he says, looking around some more.

Ben finally finds it and smiles. He shrugs it on and looks at himself in the mirror.

“Has she done it before?” asks Joe, curious.

Ben looks to him and furrows his brows a bit as he thinks.

“She never said she didn’t. She just said she wasn’t as experienced. I take that as maybe she has.”

Joe sits up all the way and nods.

“And you told her?”

Ben freezes and his face looks guilty.

“Ben, you didn’t…” says Joe.

“I panicked, alright!? I told her I’d done it before, because I’d be so embarrassed if she has and I… haven’t.”

“Oh, dude,” starts Joe, shaking his head. “You gotta tell her.”

_____

“You have to tell him!” says Lucy loud.

You bite your lip and exhale loudly. You finally picked out a flowy sundress and settled on it.

“I’m so intimidated by him. He has experience in all of it and the only thing I’ve done is make out with a boy freshman year. I will eventually.” you say.

You look into your mirror and fix your lip gloss. You take in a deep breath and turn back to Lucy.

“I’m ready.”

***

It was nearing 8 pm and you were insanely nervous, you felt like you could puke. Ben kept rubbing his hands over his pants due to him being a sweaty mess. He keeps taking deep breaths as he drives out to the address you gave him. You arrive to the farmhouse first and step out of your car. You smile at the familiar scenery and walk up the porch and to the screened door. You unlock it quickly and make your way inside. The furniture was very minimal as were decorations. All that there was in the living room was a couch and a table. Your parents were still trying to remodel the home, so furniture wasn’t a big deal. You just thanked them for leaving the king size bed upstairs. You check outside and see if Ben had made it yet, but he didn’t. You rush to the bedroom and fling off the old sheets and comforters. You slide on new, clean ones and hide the dusty ones. You wipe your hands off when you hear a car door close.

Butterflies immediately take over your stomach as you rush downstairs. You open the screen door and stand there as Ben reaches the porches steps. He looks up and spots you, his face turning pink as he looks you up and down. You looked so beautiful to him in that dress. He smiles and walks up to you.

“Hi.” he whispers.

You can’t help but grin back.

“Hi.”

He looks you up and down as you turn around and walk back inside. Ben looks around and admires the beautiful, old building.

“Wow,” he says.

“Pretty, isn’t it?” you ask, looking around with him.

Ben looks to you and watches as your eyes dance over the walls, as if you’ve never seen it before. He takes a step forward and you look to him quickly.

He looks at your lips then to your eyes. He opens his mouth to say something as you stand there and wait, but it never comes. Instead, Ben gives up and cups your face as he harshly kisses you. You’re surprised by his sudden actions, but you melt into him immediately. His tongue darts in your mouth and the feeling is still odd to you, but you love it. You mimic him and kiss him back faster. He breaks away and glances down at your chest for a split second. You nervously watch him and swallow hard as you slowly remove a strap from your shoulder. Ben watches with wide eyes as you remove the other strap and allow your dress to fall over your breasts. Ben stares at them in amazement as you smile.

“You can touch them.” you whisper.

He looks to you fast as he slowly reaches his hand out to you. He hovers it over one, but doesn’t place it down. You wait for a second before grabbing his hand bringing it to you. Ben instantly squeezed, which causes you to moan. He watches you fascinated as he massages you, then brings his other hand in to do the same. Your head falls back a bit as your eyes flutter. Ben was already painfully hard.

“Fuck,” he whispers to himself.

He leans back in and kisses you once more. You bring your hands up to his hair and gently tug, causing his mouth to open even wider.

“Take me upstairs.” you whisper against him.

He freezes and stares into your eyes. You both smile as he grabs your hand and rushes up to the top bedroom with you. He looks at the bed and then to you.

“Can I take your dress all the way off?” he asks.

You nod and step even closer to him. Ben leans forward and wraps his arm around you as he slowly unzips. The dress pools at your feet as Ben takes a step back and admires you. Your face was hot and you had to fight the urge to cover yourself up.

“You’re so beautiful.” he says.

You watch him and your heart flutters. You blush and look away as you smile. You walk up to him and then around as you crawl onto the bed. Ben follows behind you as you lay on your back and look up at him innocently. He bites his lip at the sight before him. He’s never touched a women in the way he’s about to touch you. He then slips his own shirt off and tugs down his pants fast, leaving him in only his underwear. You squeeze your legs together as you stare at him. He was so gorgeous. You could feel yourself throbbing and now soaked as you provided yourself with some friction.

“Are you okay?” he asks, making sure.

You nod fast and smile.

“I’m okay.”

“You sure?” he asks.

You laugh and nod.

“I’m sure. Now get on the bloody bed with me or I’ll start without you.” you purr.

His eyes open wide a bit as he hurriedly crawls in between your legs. He stares at your heat as his eyes flutter up to you.

“Can I touch you?” he whispers.

You bite your lip and nod.

“Please.” you whisper back.

Ben smiles as he slowly drags his finger up and down your clothed heat. He had watched enough videos to know how to do this part well. You had never felt anything like this before. Your eyes close as he pushes down even harder. You’ve never been this turned on in your life. Ben then slips his fingers around your panties band and slowly pull them down your legs. You were so nervous and almost embarrassed being this exposed to him. You looked at him scared and he realizes it. He tosses your underwear on the floor and sits up on his knees.

“It’s okay.” he says.

He slowly slides down his boxers, releasing his aching length. Your eyes open wide as you realize just how big he is. Now you were even more scared at how bad it would hurt for your first time. Your breathing gets a bit faster as you two smile at each other. He had been so scared that you wouldn’t think he was big enough, so that made him happy. He was trying to make you feel as comfortable as he can. He gets back down and kisses your inner thigh, making you squirm. He doesn’t wait any longer as he dips his tongue into your folds and licks you up. You moan out as your head digs into the pillow. Pleasure rips through you and you didn’t realize exactly what you were missing all this time. Ben brings his tongue to your swollen nub and quickly rubs tiny circles around it. Your leg begins shaking as his finger makes its way to your entrance. He freezes and you look down at him.

“Can I-” he goes to ask.

“God, yes, please. You don’t even have to ask. Do whatever.”

Ben’s length twitches as you tell him that. He dips back down and slowly slides in a finger. You squeeze your eyes shut as a tiny bit of pain makes you wince. It’s soon gone as he begins pumping even faster. His tongue keeps working on your clit as he adds another finger. Ben hopes he wasn’t doing a sloppy job. He wanted to make you feel as good as he can. When you moan out loudly and smile, he realizes he’s doing just that.

“Oh my god…” you say. “Ben, that feels so good.”

Ben hums against you, which makes you jump. He pumps his fingers into you fast and then stops. He slips them out of you and feels your slickness all over his fingers. You open your eyes and watch as he holds his fingers up for you to look at. You smirk to him and call him over to you.

“C’mere.” you purr.

He slides up on top of you slowly. You grab his two fingers that were just inside of you and slide them into your mouth. His eyes open wide as you suck on them and twirl your tongue around. Your eyes never leave his as you pull them from your mouth with a loud pop.

“Fuck…” groans Ben.

“Do you want me to...” you ask, looking down at his already dripping length.

He smiles and leans forward to kiss you.

“Trust me, I might explode if you do that.” he teases, causing you to giggle. “Wait,” he says as he reaches over the bed and grabs his pants.

He slips a condom out of his pocket and holds it up for you to see. You smile and nod as he leans back and slowly slides the thin material over himself. He sighs as he finishes and looks back to you. He crawls between your legs once more and slides a finger up your folds, making sure you’re still wet. You are. He smiles down at you as he lines himself up to your entrance. Your face goes serious as you grip his shoulders hard. You needed to tell him everything.

“Ben,” you go to say, but he interrupts you.

“I’m a virgin.” he says fast.

You freeze and just stare at him. He looks so embarrassed and ashamed as he confesses to you.

“I lied. I’m sorry. I don’t know why I did. I was just nervous that you would see me differently since you’re not one and-”

“Ben, I’m a virgin too.” you interrupt, cupping his face.

He looks down at you shocked and shakes his head.

“I just assumed-”

“I know. I should’ve told you too. I was intimidated after you said you weren’t one and I didn’t want to look stupid to you. I just wanted to be good.”

You look away, not able to look in his eyes. He smiles and kisses your neck gently.

“Figure it out together?” he asks, holding up his pinky.

You stare at it and smile wide at him. You bring your pinky up and wrap it around his.

“Deal.”

Ben nuzzles his head into your neck as you wrap your arms and legs around him. You can feel his tip pressed against your core and you were nervous.

“You ready?” he asks, his lips brushing against your neck.

You close your eyes and nod fast.

“Yes.”

Ben slowly and gently brings his hips forward and begins to enter you. Your eyes squeeze shut as you whine out in pain. It hurt as he stretched your walls wide.

“You okay?” he asks worried.

You nod your head and groan.

“Keep going.” you tell him.

He moves even more and eventually bottoms out in you. He’s still for a long time as you get used to him. The pain is still there, but isn’t as bad.

“If I move I bet it’ll feel better.” he whispers in your ear.

“Okay.”

He slowly pulls himself out of you as he groans loudly. This is much better than his hand.

“You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to do this.” he says as he slips from you and slides back in easier.

You jump at the contact and pull at his hair. Suddenly, the pain subsides and pleasure starts to form.

“Thought about this every night when I touched myself.” he grunts as he picks up his speed.

Your legs were already starting to shake as he leans away to look at you. He admires your blissed out features as he closes his eyes and thrusts in deep. You call out loudly in a pornographic tone and Ben twitches inside of you.

“I wanna be on top.” you say quietly.

Ben’s eyes look at yours and you look excited, pupils large. He smiles and nods as he slides out of you, making you both groan. He flips on his back as you stand on your knees and look at him. You have never done this before and you weren't even sure what to do. Ben holds a hand out for you to take.

“Straddle me first.” he says, trying to help guide you.

You nod and swing your leg around him and stare down at his face. This felt so weird as you moved around to get comfortable. Your core was aching so bad to have him fill you back up. Ben’s hand went to his length and pumped a few times. You lean forward a bit and move yourself around until his length is back at your entrance.

“Ready?” you ask.

He smiles and brings his hand up to graze it around your throat.

“Ready.”

You bite your lip, close your eyes and slowly sink down on him. This time, it was much easier and less painful. You gasp at the fullness as Ben, without thinking, bucks his hips into you. You cry out in pleasure as he apologizes.

“No, no! Do it again.” you say.

He watches you closely as he bucks his hips and this time hits something deep inside of you. You had never felt this before. It was a different kind of pleasure. Like ‘seeing white because it feels so good’ kind of pleasure. Your head falls back as your hands lean against his chest for support. Ben continues to thrust into you as you work yourself against him at the same time. He feels how close he is already, so he brings his finger to your clit and begins rubbing. Your mouth falls open as your eyes roll in the back of your head.

“Ben!” you cry out as he rubs hard and fast, making your head spin. 

The mixture of him inside of you and rubbing you was too much. You lean forward and lean your forehead against his shoulder.

“Does that feel good?” he asks.

All you can do is nod.

“Yeah? You like that?”

You fist the bed sheets beside you and cry out.

“Yes!”

Ben continues his thrusting and rubbing when all of a sudden he feels his release coming.

“I’m not gonna last.” he says quickly.

You nod your head and murmur a ‘mhm’. You begin to start seeing white as his fingers work on you. Your body was trembling and your breathing was broken up. Ben bucks his hips once more and freezes, deep inside of you. He cries out as his body jerks. The moans coming from his lips had pushed you over the edge. His fingers never left your heat as he kept rubbing. You bite at his shoulder as your stomach tightened and then released. You shook profusely on top of him as you gasped. Ben was catching his breath from his high as he watched you cum all around him. Your body calms down as you collapse on top of him, him still inside you. Your’re breathing hard as you lean away and smile. You were both exhausted.

“How was that for our first time ever?” he asks, teasing you.

You smile wide and nod your head, your eyes now heavy with sleep.

“Amazing. What did you think?”

He cups your face and lowers you down as he kisses you.

“Better than I even imagined.”  

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my little secret - part 2

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(welcome to part 2 u angsty thots!!!! this is v v v angsty so i hope you all enjoy this last part sksks and once again: I DO NOT CONDONE OR SUPPORT CHEATING. ITS NOT ROMANTIC OR CUTE. I ONLY WROTE THIS FOR PURE ENTERTAINMENT AND BECAUSE SOMEONE SUBMITTED IT TO ME. phew. ben is so sweet in this part, like i couldn’t make him mean. i just luv him sm)

Word Count: 3k+

WARNING: age gap (23 and 70), smut, cheating

Paparazzi has been insane the whole entire evening. You all had arrived at the restaurant as they bombarded you with flashing lights and yelling. 

“Over here! Roger Taylor, over here!” 

It felt odd with all eyes on you. Ben’s arm was wrapped around your waist as you finally enter inside. Roger is in front of you with his hand in Sarina’s. You know it’s wrong, but a pang of jealousy hits you. Everyone else had been offered to come along for dinner, but unfortunately, they had been called to re film some scenes. Luckily, Ben was able to join. Fortunately, the restaurant wasn’t busy at all. The four of you were quickly greeted by the hostess and taken to the back corner of the room to a round table. You sat down with Roger to your left and Ben to your right. The awkward tension was finally starting to melt away when Ben and Sarina begin talking about everything and anything. Then the conversation quickly turns to you. 

“So, y/n,” she starts with a sweet smile on her face. “Ben here hasn’t been able to stop talking about you. I’m so happy to finally meet you.” 

Your heart ached as Ben’s face flushed and an embarrassed smile crept on his face. Roger cleared his throat as he leaned back against his seat and stares at you with a forced smile. 

“All good things I hope.” you tease as you look to Ben. 

He grins and leans in close to you. 

“There’s only ever good things with you.” he says low before gently kissing you. 

You melt against him, but then quickly remember Roger’s right next to you and staring. You back away fast and smile to him as you look forward and down at your lap. Your eyes glanced up and they meet Roger’s. You look away quickly and focus your attention on Ben, but you can still feel his eyes burning into you. 

“Young romance is such an amazing thing. I still remember when I met Roger.” she says sweetly as she looks to him. 

He doesn’t hear her at first, but then he notices all of your eyes glued to him. His face lightens up as he looks to her and smiles. 

“Oh, yes. Like it was yesterday, my love.” 

She leans in and kisses him as well, making a certain bubble in your stomach rise up. You clear your throat and scoot your chair back loudly, causing everyone to flinch.

“Sorry, I just need to go powder my nose.” you tell everyone as you stand up fast. 

“Oh, I can walk you there.” says Ben as he goes to stand up, but is interrupted. 

“I’ll show her where it’s at. You stay and enjoy yourself. Besides, the bar’s right next to it and I could use a few more drinks.” 

“Tell me about it.” you whisper slightly, causing everyone to look at you. 

Roger stands as the two of you silently make your way towards the bathrooms. Luckily, they’re around the corner and out of sight. You find the women’s and walk inside, surprised when Roger follows behind you quickly. He shuts the door and locks it fast. Your eyebrows are knitted together as he exhales and turns around to face you. 

“You’re married?” is all you can ask. “You forgot to mention to me the fact that you have a wife!?” 

Roger’s eyes close as he exhales and looks back to you. 

“I’m sorry. I know I should’ve told you, but it just seemed easier not to.” 

“Easier not to tell me that you’re married!?” 

“You have a boyfriend!” he harshly whispers as he takes a step towards you. “How is that any different?” 

“It’s different, because I’m not married!” 

Roger rolls his eyes as you turn around and walk across the room with your arms folded. 

“And the fact that you know Ben and work with him! He’s playing you in a bloody movie, Rog! You’re friends with him for god's sake!” 

“He mentioned having a girlfriend, but I’ve never put two and two together. I had no idea. I’m just-” he pauses as he takes a step towards you. “I’m just really happy you’re here. That’s all.” 

Your hard scowl turns into sad frown.

“I am too.” you murmur as you look to the ground. 

Roger walks in front of you and gently grabs your chin, making you look at him. He’s smiling as he leans in slowly and presses his lips to yours. He lingers for a moment before you lean in more and open your mouth a bit. The kiss speeds up as he presses you against the wall and bucks his hips into yours, causing you both to moan slightly. Your hand travels down his torso and lands against his crotch as you gently press in. Roger sighed as his eyes fluttered closed. You smile to yourself and suddenly remove your hand completely. He whimpers at the loss of contact. 

“I should get back out there.” you whisper as you glance down at the large bulge in his pants. “You should probably fix that. I’m sure your wife wouldn’t mind helping.” 

You give him a sassy smile as he stares at you with dark eyes. You know the next time the two of you are alone, you’re going to get it and you couldn’t wait. You lean in and quickly kiss Roger once more before making your way out of the bathroom. You wipe your mouth off and fix your hair before turning the corner and sitting back at the table. 

“Did you see Rog up there?” asks Sarina. 

You smile at her and scoot your chair in more. 

“Oh, yeah. Looks like he got caught up with something.” you smirk as you bring your glass to your lips and sip.

***

“Are you sure you don’t wanna sleep in my trailer with me? You don’t have to be all alone, ya know.” 

You’re standing in front of your hotel as Ben has his arms wrapped around your waist. You smile and nod as you lean in and kiss him. 

“That’s your personal space. I’m only five minutes down the road, silly. You just let me know when, and I’ll be on my way to see you. Okay?” 

He sadly smiles and kisses you once more. 

“Okay. I love you!” he calls out as he walks back to the car. 

You force a smile as you wave to him. 

“I know you do!” you call back out, feeling bad that you couldn’t say it back. 

He doesn’t notice the hesitancy in your face as he hops in and the car drives away with a big goofy grin on his face all while your heart breaks. You turn around and make your way into the hotel and check in. A concierge helps you to your room as you tip and thank them. You shut the door and look around as you sigh. The first thing you want to do is take a hot bubble bath. You walk to the bathroom and begin just that. The water’s running as you slip off your shirt and pants, replacing them with a robe. You’re hunched over as you check the water temperature when there’s a knock at the door. You look towards it confused as you pull your robe against you open the door. 

“Roger? What are you doing here!?” you whisper as you look around the hallway. 

He ignores you as he walks inside and turns around.

“Anyone could have seen you come here!” 

“What you did back at the restaurant was not very nice of you.” he practically growls. “Teasing someone is very naughty.” 

Your stomach drops at the sound of his dark, raspy voice. You’ve never seen Roger like this. This in control and… hungry. It was hot enough to make you squeeze your thighs together and your breathing to speed up. Roger slowly walks up to you and grazes his fingers over your cheek, sending a shiver down your spine. 

“And naughty girls have to be punished, now don’t they?” 

You’re speechless as his eyes scan over your body, noticing that you’re only being covered by a white robe. He smirks to himself as he looks back to you. 

“Bed. Now.” he demands. 

You listen instantly as you walk around him and straight to it. You don’t hesitate as you lay down on your back, the robe slipping up and revealing your panties to him. Roger groans at the sight of you as he sheds off some of his clothes. He’s practically drooling. 

“Take them off.” he tells you, which you instantly do. “Spread.” 

Your legs open up as cool air makes you almost gasp, but not as much as when Roger’s head moves between them and his tongue licks over your sensitive nub. Your back arches as you hiss and pull on his hair. Roger moans against you, which makes you yell out. 

“Roger!” you whimper when suddenly your hotel phone rings. 

You gasp as he stops for a moment, still between your legs. He looks up at you with his chin glistening with your juices. A sight you were in love with. You reach over fast and pick up the phone, trying to calm down your breathing.

“Hello?” 

“So I know I’ve only been gone for maybe thirty minutes, but I just wanted to talk to you again.”

You laugh lightly as you lay back with the phone to your ear. 

“You’re a hopeless romantic. You know that?” you tease. 

“Only because you make me that way.” 

Just as you go to speak, Roger instantly knows who you’re talking to. He smirks to himself as he lowers his head once more and begin sucking on your nub. 

“Well, I - Ahhh!” you say a bit louder than you should have. 

“You okay?” asks Ben worried. 

You look to Roger and you shake your head no, but all he can do is smile. He continues eating you out as your head hits the pillow and your hand tries to push him even closer to you. 

“I’m fine.” you say out of breath. “Just tiiiiiiiired.” you moan out as your eyes squeeze shut. 

“I know that voice.” says Ben. “Are you… Are you touching yourself right now?” 

Your eyes open fast as you glance down at Roger. 

“Um, yes! I was touching myself just as you called. Guiltyyyy.” you groan as Roger flicks his tongue over and over again. 

“God, this is so hot.” whispers Ben. 

“Baby, I really have to go.” you whimper. 

“Yeah, alright. Hearing you like that has me, uh, needing to go take care of some things.” 

You laugh as you cry out once more and hang up the phone without saying goodbye. Your legs begin shaking and then your whole entire body. Roger doesn’t stop until your eyes roll in the back of your head and your gasping for air. Your body is trembling as a clear liquid gushes out and you’re seeing stars. You finally find your breath as you calm down. 

“That-” you breathe out. “Was so mean.” 

Roger smirks as he wipes his mouth off and hovers over you. 

“Who knew payback was so yummy.” 

***

“I can’t believe the movie’s already finished.” 

You and Ben were back at your home as you both get ready for a big end of movie celebration that Roger is hosting. You wanted to make sure to look good for tonight as you slip on a long, flowy black dress that suits your body perfectly. Ben’s jaw dropped when he saw you walk out of the bathroom, all dolled up. 

“Look at you,” he whispers as he walks up and kisses your neck playfully. 

You giggle as he backs away with a smirk on his face. He leans in to kiss you, but you find yourself moving your head to the side. Ben kisses your cheek instead and you force a smile and kiss his as well before walking away. He’s stood there slightly confused with a sad look on his face. You’ve been rejecting his kisses lately. You’ve been rejecting a lot of him lately and he’s noticed, but he doesn’t say anything. 

A car was waiting outside for you both as you slide in and Ben right after you. The drive was long and silent as Ben held your hand the whole time. Not a single word was spoken as you stared out the window and were finally at Roger’s. Ben helps you out of the car as people storm all over the place. You look up to Roger’s house in amazement over how beautiful and large it is. Ben holds his arm out for you and you kindly accept. 

You both walk up the steps and are greeted by a waiter with a gold tray filled with glasses of champagne. You release Ben’s arm and take one, chugging it. You take another and hold it as you walk around. You spot Roger in his grand living room. He’s next to Sarina, who’s beautifully dressed. Roger glances around the room until his eyes land on you. He slightly smiles as you stand there and wait for him. He excuses himself as he walks over. 

“My, my,” he says, looking you up and down. “You look breathtaking.” 

You blush as you look down and smile. 

“So do you.” you say low, causing him to smirk. 

Ben’s stood there as he watches the looks you and Roger are giving each other. Something in his soul is confused as he clears his throat awkwardly, causing you two to look over to him. You had almost forgot he was there. 

“Ah, Ben!” exclaims Rog. “And you look breathtaking as well!” he teases as he leans in for a hug. 

You all laugh as you stand there and chit chat back and forth. Everyone else from the movie arrives as they all stand and talk. You’re stood there in silence as you look around and sip on your fifth champagne. You decide to break away from the conversation and make your way through the house. You walk through the foyer and into the kitchen as you stare at the beautiful art that lines the walls. You’re admiring them when someone behind you clears their throat. You turn around fast and it’s Roger. 

“Enjoying yourself?” 

You smile and glance back to the walls. 

“It’s stunning in here.” 

“I enjoy beautiful things.” he says as he continues to look at you. 

You realize what he means as you sweetly smile to him and blush. 

“I really need to speak with you-” he goes to say.

“Roger!” 

You both turn and a very drunk Sarina is laughing as she walks towards you. 

“Baby, there you are! Are you flirting with Ben’s girl again?” she teasingly asks as she winks to you. 

You awkwardly laugh as she clings to him and kisses him deeply. 

“I need you to help me with something.” she purrs. 

Roger glances to you and then back to her. You’re stood there uncomfortable as she leans in and whispers something in his ear - which causes his eyes to widen a bit and her to giggle like crazy. You swallow hard and take in a deep breath. 

“If you’ll excuse me.” you say fast before walking away. 

Roger wants to yell after you, but he can’t. He just stands there sadly as you exit the kitchen. 

“There you are,” says Ben as you walk by him. 

He notices the look on your face and your glossy eyes as you walk straight past him without saying a word. His face falls as he sits his drink down and chases after you. You open the front doors and it’s now pitch dark outside. You gasp slightly as you hurriedly walk down the steps and sob. 

“Y/n, wait!” 

You continue walking as Ben’s close behind you. You wipe your eyes when suddenly he grabs your arm and spins you around. 

“What’s wrong?” he asks worried and out of breath. “What happened?” 

“I’m so sorry.” you sob as you look to the ground. 

He shakes his head not understanding. 

“For what, love?” 

“I’m just so sorry.” you whisper. 

Ben’s silent for a moment before speaking up with a low voice. 

“It’s Roger… Isn’t it?” 

You finally look up to him with shocked eyes. The look on your face was an answer for him. He sighed and looked down as he continues speaking. 

“I’ve seen the way the two of you look at each other. I’m not an idiot, ya know. I’ve seen everything.” 

Your heart breaks by the sad tone of his voice. He knows. 

“You love him, don’t you?” he whispers. 

Your chin is quivering hard as you try to catch your breath. 

“Ben,” you whisper. “I am so sorry.” 

“How long?” he asks fast. “How long have you two-” 

He pauses and tenses his jaw hard. 

“Almost a year.” you choke out. 

Ben’s face drops as he shakes his head confused. 

“A year!? You’ve only met him four months ago, y/n.” 

“You don’t understand, Ben. I… I met him before then. Before your movie. When we had that fight.” 

Everything finally clicks. He mumbles an ‘oh’ as he frowns and sniffles. 

“I should be mad at you,” he starts. “I should hate you. More than everything… But I don't. I can’t. I just love you too much… But you love him.” 

Tears were flowing down your cheeks as you sob quietly. 

“I do love you, Ben!” you say fast. 

“Just not in love with me.” he says sadly. “I wish you would have told me sooner. I don’t want you to be with me because you feel like you have to. I just… I just want you to be happy, y/n.” he chokes out as tears fall down his face. “That’s all I ever wanted.” 

“And that’s all I ever wanted for you.” you whisper. 

He nods his head and smiles slightly. 

“I know. If loving you means letting go and you being happy, then okay.” 

He steps forward and gently cups your face with his hand. He stares into your eyes and leans forward, gently kissing your forehead. You close your eyes and place your hand on his chest. 

“Just know I’ll always love you.” he whispers before turning around and walking back up the steps and into the house. 

You watch him as he disappears. You turn and continue walking back to the car. Your emotions hit you hard as you sob loudly and cover your mouth. Your legs give out as you fall to the ground. That was the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do. You never wanted to hurt Ben. That wasn’t the plan at all. You wanted him to be happy and you know deep down that you weren’t able to do that for him. He needed someone who was in love with him. 

***

Three Months Later

***

Moving out of Ben’s house was a lot harder than you thought it would. Packing up all your belongings and going through old pictures was difficult. It was like going down memory lane all over again, but once it was all packed up and into your new home, it was like you could finally breathe again. Like you could finally be you. 

“That was the last box.” says Ben as he places it in your new living room. 

You smile to him as you walk up. 

“Thank you. For everything.” you whisper as you hug him. 

He holds you close as he kisses the side of your head. 

“I meant it when I said if you need anything, at all, please let me know. We’re still friends, you know. You can’t get rid of me that easily. We still need our Friday bar nights.” 

You feel your eyes sting as you laugh and nod. 

“Promise you don’t despise me? I don’t blame you if you did, even just a bit.” 

“Well I don’t.” he says smiling. “Even just a bit.” 

Ben grabs his keys and heads for your front door. 

“You’ll still always be my best friend. Okay?” he asks, as he opens it up. 

“I better be.” you tease. 

Ben stops in his tracks and freezes. You watch him confused as he slowly turns around and slightly smiles. 

“You have company.” 

He walks off the porch and reveals Roger standing there with a large bouquet of flowers in his hand. He sadly smiles to him as Ben reaches forward and genuinely hugs him. It’s a sweet sight to you as you smile and your heart flutters. Ben turns back around and smiles as he waves goodbye, you do the same. Roger makes his way up your porch steps and holds the flowers to you. You sweetly smile and take them. 

“One of the many housewarming gifts you’ll be receiving from me.” he jokes. 

Your smile falls as you frown and hug him fast. 

“God, I’ve missed you so much. Four months without seeing you was absolute hell.” 

Roger holds you tightly as he runs his hand over your hair. 

“You have no idea, love.” 

You lean away and sadly smile to him. 

“How’d she take the divorce?” you ask. 

“Let’s just say not as good as Ben took the breakup. I definitely wasn’t getting hugs or sweet goodbyes.” 

You can’t help but chuckle. You lean in and kiss him. 

“Would you like to come inside?” 

“I’d really like to see your bedroom.” he teases as he bites his lower lip. 

“Oh, would you now?” you laugh as you look into his eyes and can’t help but admire them. “I love you.” you whisper. 

Roger runs his thumb over your cheek and grins. 

“And I… Love you.”

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