#being so nice and loved by ppl;;;;and 4;;;

[berryicet]

I think 4S meeting and being around MePad has a lot of angst potential but I won't elaborate

#4S who's only ever known violence and hate....only being able to hurt even the people he cares about...... #putting a hard and violent shell to protect himself #seeing MePad being the complete opposite....... #being so nice and loved by ppl;;;;and 4;;; #do you think he'd be pitiful at first. #then as time goes on #realising that it's not pity; it's jealousy #at the way MePad just seems to be better than him in every way #and not knowing how to process those feelings; he turns them into hate #further hurting the people closer to him #i jsut think. seeing MePad being so effortlessly kind while him trying to do the same only got his brother killed #ouf #'i won't elaborate' *proceeds to elaborate* #might delete later. maybe #ii mephone4s

[charlieism]

baby colin robinson's youtube channel is actually something that can be so personal

#wwdits #guillermo de la cruz #colin robinson #what we do in the shadows #baby colin robinson #wwdits fx #wwdits season 4 #jay rambles #i was literally getting emotional reading thru his comment section 😐 i dont need therapy i just need to read memos supportive comments #😭😭 and thousands of ppl r being so endlessly nice and supportive in the comments for this weird fictional child i love it sm

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated

[skrunksthatwunk]

JUST FINISHED NANBA'S DRINKING BOND PLOTLINE!!!!! I HATE GAY PEOPLE

#GAH AUGH #rgg #ichinan #SORRY i think they're cute. jeez #the way nanba's so fucking excited for his surprise party im gonna shit ass oh my godd #like he said he just wants ppl to be extra nice to him!! #and ichiban is SO FURIOUS at mizue for ruining nanba's life like i dont think i've ever seen him that mad #love the (completely normal) bartender for being such an ally to those two specifically. love wins!! #'you two are close' mhm yessir sure are #and nanba's not even bitter about the surprise party being fake bc he knows ichi was trying to do smth very kind for him #they're both like augh you're the truest friend ive ever had we're so close like 4 times in this story #and then after the drink link is like #hold on

[witchsickness]

rereading adverse effects and let me tell you!!! when you upload the final chapter i think i might collapse from sheer excitement. i feel like i should be paying you for your writing ,,, it is so delicious i’m going to go scream into the void about how much i love it <3 anyway, happy new year to my fav hg author!

my never-smiles brand is in shambles, and all because of you. hope you’re happy.

in full honesty i haven’t written a single word in weeks but your soft bullying worked wonders bc it got me opening the notes for the last chapter(s, will be split in two) and the prospect of finally writing this thing gave me such a thrill so uh. will try to guilt-trip myself into a writing mood soon

meanwhile know that the thought of anyone reading (and rereading!!!!!!!!) my stories and considering me their favorite author is very literally dragging me to the edge of insanity and i will not!! be getting over this anytime soon. THANK YOU, hope the new year treats you kindly 🖤

#what is WRONG with everyone lately why are ppl being so nice to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #meanwhile i spent all day at work coming up with 4 pages of notes for a vigneron au where steve’s taken over the family wine business #and billy’s running away from his past and they bond over a shared love of. uh. grapes ig. let’s roll with that #aptly titled w(h)iners which is objectively the best joke ive made so far this year #ask #anon

[charliespringverse]

opening twitter for 14 minutes a day to remind myself why i don't use twitter as a primary source of entertainment education or enjoyment

#i will admit i was a full time twitter user for a good 4 years or so but i have never considered myself a twitter enjoyer #especially stan twitter #i don't respect any form of fandom space where the content is deemed secondary to the person posting it #i just want to see gifs of my silly little queers why am i being expected to socialise in the process #this makes me sound like a hermit but i love tumblr where i see a url in the notes and think 'beloved mutual <3' when idek their name #i like that the space here revolves around the content itself it's Nice #interacting my mutuals is rb'ing a post and seeing a beloved mutual rb it from me nd then another beloved mutual rb from them #that is community to me . on twitter ppl kept trying to make me join group chats #anygay <3 i should've been asleep three hours ago #goodnight beloved mutuals . i may one day learn ur names but for now just know that i love u #if ur in my notes ur in my heart #jay screams into the void

[aroaceofthesea]

I was in a 18 bday party today and we didnt have a gift for the bday girl💀💀

#luckily we made a pretty good last minute save #im usually the kind of person to sit back and say yes to whatever ppl are saying to get for the persons bday #the problem is that this time there wasnt one big present and every group did their thing #and the four of our group were the same as me so we literally didnt even think of a gift until we were there💀💀 #luckily we know her rlly well (weve been friends since like 3) so we decided to get her a vale for puenting #<-sorry if the last sentence is illegible to you im too lazy to think how to say it in english #and we looked pretty cool and she was rlly happy with the gift so i take that as a win #it was a 25 ppl dinner and we only talked the 4 of us lolll (and with the bday girl obv) #but i had fuun i got to see sides of a couple of them that i had never rlly seen before #bc like the bday girl me and another weve known each other since forever we were bffs at school etc #the other two are from music and i n music theres a group that are kinda intimidating so most ppl outside that group arent rlly completely #themselves at music tho you get to see them after music when we stay talking or on the walk home etc #but theres not as much time so it was nice to get to know better the other two😋😋 #also im rlly happy bc the bday girl and the other one aftr years of barely talking even tho we saw each other every week it feels like #weve been reconnecting lately (we stopped being good friends bc life not any argument or anything) and i love it #like i know it will never be like it used to be in school when we were super close but its nice to have them as friends again #looking back on it our relationship was never very healthy (in any direction tbh) but it was nice while it lasted #i wouldnt want to go back to what we had but i would like to build a new and healthier relationship with them and its finally happening :) #ok that was a long rant lol #mine #life

[be-good-to-bugs]

yay my first day went really well!!

#the bin #im excited. i like it much more than my old job already. much less boring. theres much less people working and its in a small space but #i like that. feels more friendly and makes me less nervous. and me being super tiny works bc im much less in the way than i could be #person i met definitely thought i was still a minor cause she asked if i was in school still. everyone thinks this #probably a lil different bc im gonna be working here full time during school hours. #im wearing my hair up in a bun. i never do that!! but my hair is too long so i gotta wear it up so i dont dip it in peoples coffee #i think im gonna start wearing it up like this more often bc its so out of the way! my autism loves it bc its not pulling weird with weight #my hsir is long enough that getting it in the bun isnt too hard but not so long that the bun is huge #im like.. actually looking forward to tomorrow #not at all like my last job also. theres like 3 people MAYBE 4 on shift at a time unlike my last job which would have 30 ppl #well. i made coffee today. it was kinda fun. i also burned my fingers on the steamer so many times oh my god #i enjoyed this way more than my first day at my last job. also this was my FIRST day and i already made a bunch of coffee #at my last job i spent 3 days just watching videos and reading. bad. bad way to start #i dont even know anything yet and ur throing me into walls of text. much prefer this #i do wish he woulda walked me through making the different coffees a bit more instead of quizzing me and having me check the sheet #but it was busy so it makes sense. once there was a lul there was another person who was super nice and walked me through stuff #and i remember that stuff better. i think ill like tnis so much more than my old job. lik3 so much more. #also maybe ill try some new kinds of coffee. like a latte. ive never even had one but ive made 12 today #also its not starbucks. i would rather die than work at starbucks it seems like a nightmare

[toastsnaffler]

day 2 of no wifi.. hanging in there 😔😔😔😔

#its pretty ok so far tbh im not that reliant on being connected to the internet #and i have soooo much unpacking and decorating to do that im constantly busy anyway. but i miss scrolling tumblr mindlessly 😭😭 #also its a bit lonely bc im used to living w 4 other ppl not 1.. and my flatmates being a bit reclusive atm #i mean we did go for a walk earlier so not that reclusive its not like i havent talked to her at all #but i like being in the same room as other ppl even if im doing a non social activity like reading its just nice to have company #so it feels reallllly quiet bc she stays in her own room all the time. which is normal for her im just. more aware of it now its just us 😭 #i think shes finding the move harder than i am bc she knew our last flatmates better than me + lived there way longer than i did #and also i think most of her social life is online/over call so not having wifi means she cant rly talk to ppl as much #not that i dont have an online social life but mine is more sporadic than hers so it doesnt affect me as much #ik im not her first choice of company either... not that she doesnt like me or anything but we're not that close so #but stilllll let me sit in the corner snd hang out i can be quiet if u want me to i promise 🧍‍♀️ #anyway i dooo get it if shes not feeling great #hopefully she'll adjust and find it a bit easier soon and we'll have wifi by tues anyway #and thurs im going to see family for a week so at least then ill have 24/7 nonstop company plus getting to cuddle the dog :-D #+ seeing a bunch of friends yayyy. i need to make friends in my new area too ive got a couple social groups listed to try out im excited #AND coincidentally one of my old friends works in this city too so i need to make some plans with her when im back !! #i didnt rly bother making any new friends in the last year bc i liked my flatmates enough to get my socialising in w them #but now im kinda raring for it. i do rly love meeting + getting to know new ppl just so long as its on my own terms #i.e. when i have my hearing aids in. and when its not super late in the day bc i get tired and easily overstimulated #bless my last flatmates but they were their own group + i didnt know them for enough years to be a true member tbh #itll be nice to make new friends in a situation where im not just the stray dog one of them dragged in to live with them #ok thats a little mean on myself but still. at least ill waste less time triggered by rsd now #anyway lost where i was going wow i wrote a lot of tags i doubt theyre all coherent bc its 2am im going to bed goodnighhttt xxxx #.diaries

[railmerosalie]

I find it so funny when ppl say that Katniss has no personality, she's so cute and funny! Like do you not remember when she...

1. Thought Finnick was making out with Peetas corpse and was like "damn didn't know he was fruity like that"

2. When Gale confessed his love for her and she was STRIAGHT up like "yeah I know" 💀

3. Saw Peeta had been crying after the first reaping and immediately thinks "damn he's good, playing the weak sympathy card". Like girl he thinks he's gonna die! He's gonna die!

4. Katniss and Finnick wearing the green face cream in CF and scaring the fuck outta Peeta on the beach

5. Just her and Haymitch, especially the first book

6. "I decided to go ahead and like Boggs" - thanks for letting us know queen 👑

7. In MJ when they're trying to film the propos, and she's just horrible at it

8. In the first book when she's trying to drain the pus out of Peetas leg and she just so goddmaned grossed out

9. Saw the cupcakes at the Capitol party and immediately thought that Peeta would love the frosting details

10. In MJ when Gale and Peeta are talking about Katniss choosing one of them, she's just like "gonna leave you two bums here, don't need this shit"

11. Everytime she was unaware of people flirting with her or just being nice. She always think there's some hidden motive... like girl they're your family and friends, they just like you as a person

12. "Nobody needs me" "I do, I need you". Katniss finally admitting her love for Peeta and realises that she can't live without him!! It's such an important part of her growth towards Peeta and no one talks about it!! The girl how has survived everything finally needs not just something, but SOMEONE. And it's HIM (I'm so normal about this I swear)

13. Sassying buttercup at every turn

14. She has the same vibe as goop from Meet The Robinsons (especially with Madge). "Hey Katniss, wanna eat lunch together?" "Hey Katniss, wanna go for a walk into town later"

She's there like:

#thg #the hunger games #the hunger games cf #katniss my beloved #katniss everdeen #peeta supremacy #peeta mellark #haymitch abernathy #effie trinket #thg mockingjay #mockingjay #catching fire #cf #mj

[potpiehead]

to get some stuff off my mind

#went to the bjj session tonight; was pretty fun in general; i was drilling with a pretty experienced blue belt so i expect her to be way #better than me always so i dont usually get on myself for getting owned by her #i was being hard on myself for a second for repeatedly failing but i told myself; obviously shes dling better; she has literally 4 more #years of experience #and then it was time for open rounds and i got paired with this ~12 year old white belt girl. idk why she was in the adults class but #nonetheless #we are working on back control so i took her back (basically sitting behind them and wrapping your arms and legs around their torso) #and i was thinking about how it literally felt like i was holding a stuffed animal until SHE STARTED FUCKING WINNING ?????? #i cannot exaggerate our size difference #she was genuinely tiny AND SHE SAID SHE HAD ONLY BEEN DOING THIS FOR TWO MONTHSSSSSSSS #neither of us won; its easy enough to *defend* myself but to actually advance and get a better position felt genuinely impossible #i also did a round with one of my usual sparring partners after class; i always love rolling with him but it was exhausting because first #of all i was already exhausted second of all the timer after class is six minutes rather than five for some reason. #he is also much better than me so i got stomped #and it was fun anyway but like. man #i dont want to be salty bevause these ppl genuinely have earned their skill level; either by having done it for longer or coming #more frequently #so i dont expect myself to be on the same level with them #it wpuld just be nice if i was on the same level as like. anyone #and i mean i am but it sucks wgen i do pretty well in a round with someone and then i find out its like their first time sparring wver LMAO #and im just thinking. would i enjoy it more if i forced myself to work harder to improve my skill so i could fend for myself; or should i #just like. call it quits lol #because there are some other things i am interested it #*in #i do enjoy it. but being free food has started to wear on me #a big part of me enjoys bjj for kts own sake but an increasingly big part of me is starting to get pissed at myself #on the bright side; the guy i rolled with after class threw me hella hard but i landed good so it didnt hurt a bit 😎 #also i did manage to submit that new girl (and my coach but like. hes 60lbs heavier and a brown belt LMAO so he let me win) but its also #that thing where i will do genuinely well and then find out the person is new as fuck #my brain is on fire rn idk

[dogco11ar]

day 1 of the shoot went well!!!

#the 4 other ppl i worked with were super cool and i was nervous for only a little bit #it was so nice to be around ppl closer to my age who are also latino #the part of me that loves talking to people and making them laugh was reawakened and i didn’t have to think too hard about being myself

[mrfoox]

Me: I want to spend more time with people, I miss close contact with others :(

Also me: -only wants to spend time with 4 ppl irl, none of which live close by or have the ability to come by-

#miranda talking shit #My autistic mind do many intresting things for me. Some of which is fun but tge fact im so selective witb people is annoying #Like i feel annoying. I just want to be with those people but i cant so my brain is like 'well then i dont want to :( why am i lonely?' #I have more than one friend in my city i could spend time with but they... Arent one of the 4 golden chosen people so i ): #I dony hate them or anything they are nice but my obsessive minf just want to be with 4 ppl majority of the time #Bc they are the 4 people who take little energy from me or even give me energy socially #Everyone else i feel take more than give. Not their fault just how im built and how comfortable i am around others #Im so obsessive over fabian bc hes one of the very few i can talk with for maby hours. Without me noticing #I understand im annoying him and probably being a bother since i always want to talk to him but hes obe of the select few #Few times he actually take energy from me is when im already in a bad mental state and then everyone tire me . Otherwise he just doesnt #Tire me. Think its bc ive learned i dont HAVE to be fun and entertain him. We can just sit and do our own thing whule on discord #Silence is good with him . I like silence in general but always am anxious others hate it or find it awkward. But he have expressed #He likes silence and reassured me he doesnt need me to talk or fill silence. I hate how weirdly obsessive i am and get especially towards #People. No one wants that kind of attention from me and i try to not be Extra ™ but also like.... Its a nice feeling? #I like loving people. And talking to those people... I just dont ever know when im too much. Bc in the moment its #So hard to monitor... Where the 'normal' social lines are drawn. And it goes double when its people i already know and thus love #Then my brain is just '!!!! Omg i love them :)!!!!' and i dont think as much about how i... Appear and act #Would love to find someone who would actually like the type of attention I give and not to feel i am too much all the time... #Mirandas friends

[oscalesoffeeling]

i love that my milf can rip a bitch to shreds with his bare hands and teeth :)

#*picture of a skinny ass old man* omggg he's sooo big and strong hoooo my gosh *twirling my hair* #he could probably throw me over his shoulder tho fr lmao (please?) #how come my hands are so famously small and his hands are so.... big and strong and scarred with all those... nice long sinuous fingers..... #comparing hand sizes and his just fucking engulf mine. holding hands is like.... WOAH. hand on my face and it just eclipses me. #hand on my back and even though i'm kinda stout it just. fucking wow. covers my lower back Totally. big hands on that fucker. #anyway i just find his willingness to and capabilities of murder to be very very reassuring actually. #i would love for him to casually and ruthlessly kill ppl 4 me tbh.... he'll always keep me safe :) #he's my security. like. i never feel safer than when i'm with him <3333 helloooo.. #sometimes i feel kinda guilty for relying so heavily on my f/os to feel safe and secure. and for motivation to perform basic life skills etc #you get it. but they make me so happy. you've got to understand this. they make me happier than anything else #and i am literally in constant fear of everything all the time so i mean. i'm trying my best. #like. i AM a frail little weak sickly mfer who needs constant consistent reassurance and security to feel like enough. #to feel loved or complete or safe. and like. yeah i enjoy being doted on lmao. #ellie rambles about stuff #he spun the stars on his fingernails (tag)

[arielleslipgloss]

i feel like i am less important than other ppl. oe that i dont matter , inferior something like that :(

Hii doll!! Tysm for asking me this 💗

Let’s Talk Self Worth!!

”I just take a book with me everywhere. It’s a habit.” - Rory Gilmore

Why do you feel this way? Well, the root cause is most likely your surroundings. Those around you, social media, and maybe yourself? Maybe others make you feel unimportant? Maybe social media is telling you others are more important? Or maybe your just always judging yourself? If not, take a moment to think of when you started to feel this way. Then, why you started to feel this way. You can journal this in a notebook or your notes app. Now, describe the wave of emotions you get when feeling this way. Let it all out, it’s ok. Lastly, think of how you can heal from this!

2. Mentality!! Let’s say you get bullied, harsh things are said to you I would believe. The people bullying or saying mean things to you, say you’re “unimportant.” Then those words go to your mind and you start to believe them. Next thing you know more negative words are said. So, your brain continues to believe them as if their affirmations. Your brain now doesn’t even have a say in what you think about yourself. Why? Well, because now you only live by your bullies words. What your bully thinks of you, is how you think of yourself. Now, do you really want to live your life like that? I would hope the answer is no. Ok, so you need to work on becoming secure in yourself. So secure in yourself that when someone says something about you. Guess what, YOU DON’T CARE. You need to start living by your words (and Jesus’s) instead. For example, you like your hair and someone else doesn’t? So what! You go rock that hair of yours cause you like it!!!

3. Stop Comparing Yourself!! Not everything you see and hear is real. Not everyone tells the truth. Plus, what’s the point in comparing yourself to someone your whole life? There is none. What there is, is your older self disappointed thinking back to you now. Not only your older self, your younger self too. They wouldn’t want to see you comparing yourself. I would hope, your present self doesn’t want to be comparing yourself too. In my opinion, comparing yourself is a waste of youth. You spend your whole day, week, month, year, life wasting youth. It’s pointless because it really doesn’t get you anywhere. It just continues to make you more insecure. Therefore, remove what you can that makes you compare yourself. A little example would be deleting social media! If you can remove it from your life, do it.

4. Stop Punishing Yourself!! In other words, stop being so hard on yourself. Just because you got a bad grade isn’t an excuse. Just because you did something “embarrassing” isn’t an excuse. In fact, there is no excuse for punishing yourself. Be nice to yourself instead. You deserve so so sooo much love from yourself. For that reason, give all of that love to yourself. Leave that mistake in the past. Learn to embrace your mistake too. It’s ok, you’ll be ok.

5. You’re Only Human!! If there is one thing I want you to remember from this blog. It’s that you are only human. You can’t be “perfect” and you can’t be happy all the time. Your feelings and struggles are important. We all deal with a bunch of things everyday. It’s in our nature to feel this way at times. Maybe you feel this way more than others, and thats ok. You are only human. Maybe you act different than others, and thats ok. You are only human. Maybe you hate your life, and thats ok. You’re only human. Maybe you can’t do things others can, and thats ok. You’re only human. Maybe you struggle with healing, and thats ok. You are only human. You are only human, imperfectly perfect. You can really only choose to love yourself and have fun. Oh, and remember that you’re only human.

Love you so much dolls!! Remember God loves you and stay pretty 💋🎀

“If you’re gonna let one stupid prick ruin your life, you’re not the girl I thought you were.” - Holland Taylor/Professor Stromwell (Legally Blonde)

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[october19th]

I need a therapist to confirm that my family members are in fact ops

#i swear to god they both hate my entire existence #they both made it a point to shit on absolutely everything I did today even though today was supposed to be a good day for me #i officially moved into my own studio today and I’m so proud of myself but clearly I’m the only one proud of me #i packed my entire life up today and with the exception of Silvio helping me like. actually transport my possessions this was a #one woman job #i can’t remember the last time I heard my mom but especially my sister tell me that they’re proud of anything that I do #Elena’s been a bitch to me all day and I noticed that both times like moving in and moving out she’s always had people over which I don’t #understand like #do you have to see your friends the day that I’m sorting out my entire life #they both just do extremely op-like things and I always tell myself to like write this shit down because I swear my memory works against me #or I habitually smoke weed in order to forget and dissociate from the stress and angst that they put me through #they’re the type of ppl that tell me to shut up when I’m humming or singing a song lol #being alone is gonna be the best thing ever I’m gonna remember that I endured narcissistic abuse from not just one but two family members #for the past 4 months nice #at least I get to go back to being normal and happy now tho #and I’m gonna have groceries that’s cute love that for me #no more fucked up sleeping schedule and eating habits bc markham = depression