#being married to god IS a thing right??

[laly-481]

Doddles compilation. Inspiration : my cult (i love my former god wife who bullies my followers until they die of old age)

#and like i'm obsessed with how happy baal looks to be doing his job. dude's having the time of his life collecting taxes #my yellow cat is infact befriending all the bishops. i did not intend for this but i welcome it. #being married to god IS a thing right?? #anyway there's also au shenanigans and all might expand on it. #cotl #cutl of the lamb #cotl oc #(my beloved followers that i should make a ref for) #cotl au #cotl narilamb #narilamb #cotl leshycat #leshycat #i'm not tagging all the characters #my art

[lilaccatholic]

I am once again thinking about the reluctant ruler whose arc justly and correctly includes assuming the throne and taking responsibility for the people set before them

#it's about simba coming back to pride rock it's about aragorn using andúril to fight for middle earth and assuming the throne it's about #hiccup marrying astrid and assuming his role as chief and moses returning to egypt #and it's about irina loving her people so fully that when she claims all of her subjects as hers that chernobog must release them to her!!! #and it's about miryem choosing to stay with the staryk and repair the damage and assume responsibility for the land and people!!!!! #and! it's! about! gen!!!! #it's ALWAYS about gen!!!! #gen who didn't want to be king. who hated being king and only wanted to marry a queen but who obeyed his gods and became a king over kings #who lost his home and half his family and his HAND but who ushered in a new golden age. #and it's about sophos who ran away but who shot the ambassador and took back his kingdom #it's about duty and it's about sacrifice and it's always ALWAYS about doing the right thing even at great personal cost because it's about #submitting to a power higher than your own. of recognizing that the calling on life is one for serving others and having so much more to #answer for than just yourself. it's knowing duty is love is duty #i cant stand stories where the answer is 'give up the throne and reject your duty' because no!!! you dont get it!!! #thats how you get the monsters!!! thats how you get the prince turned into a beast and thats how you get every terrible weak king that #aragorn feared becoming #to accept your throne is to die to self!!! you are no longer you but 'king' or 'queen' #it's like queen mary says to qeii in the crown 'elizabeth mountbatten must die #elizabeth regina must take her place.' #that's terrifying! but it's also everything!!!! #die! to! self! die! to! self!!!!!! #lilac rambles #lilac goes to the movies #lion king #prince of egypt #lotr #spinning silver #the crown #tqt #the queen's thief #httyd

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[ramayantika]

Okay but the life of the legendary Shovana Narayan altered my brain chemistry, a superb academic record hold, a maestro in kathak and then also a civil services officer with a long distance marriage and motherhood

If she could do this in the 50s and 60s, wtf is stopping me from doing so, when I have never wanted just one thing to define me

#samridhi speaks #also to my ex who told me things likw your relationship will never work out with him because of different life goals #lol this woman married a diplomat and they managed a long distance marriage too #her husband paved doors foe collabs with the West with Indian dance back then #this is the kind of love I want sure physical intimacy is needed and what not but God I am never giving up all of this to marry #and I still remember him saying you give those soft mothet vibes who is a part time mother and dancer #bye I will girlboss all my life and be all right in front of guys like some of my cousins who think we girls his sisters will just marry #and settle down amd to my ex too for thinking I will be easy and live out a simplw life #fuck everything the only understanding men in my life have been my father brother and my boyfriend at this point #weird that he never grew up around sisters but still is so aware and understanding of women and our desire for dreams #lol I am ranting but yes I have an exam in 6 hours my sleep got over by 2.30 #and then I was googling gpat niper prep #yeah it's first sem but I keep wanting to updatw on the info #and God knows what struck me to google dancers randomly who were into civil service academia and still being legends in the arts #then shovana narayan came up

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

I don't think I've ever really cared about shipping in my life. I'm generally just cool to go with the flow. If something is written well or drawn well then I'm for it.

But I will say. The DC writers trying to push Jon/Irey and Damian/Irey tire me. I am not impressed with the dynamics going on there and the idea of Irey being in the middle of a love triangle is contrived and upsetting.

I felt safe before because Irey is 9, Jon is an adult with a boyfriend and Damian is a teenager. DC wouldn't let that happen. I knew the shipping going on behind the scenes but everything was fine. It couldn't happen.

But then we got alt universe Supersons. The same age as Irey. And Irey blushing at them.

Suddenly everything was very much not okay.

Again, I'm generally cool with whatever but I'm putting my fucking foot down at this one.

No.

I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.

NO.

#i will fucking fight people on this one #NO #JFC NO #because i know Adams' end game here. He hinted at future Irey being married to Damian and they have that whole bickering thing going on rn #and Jon and Irey have that whole crush situation and im like ?????? fucking NO #look. Irey does not exist to be a love interest. she is nine years old. and she certainly doesn't need to be in a fucking love triangle #ALSO NO! SHES NOT MARRYING A BAT!! #ARGH #let her exist because shes a child and then eventually (when the time is right) she can have her first crush on Tai as god intended #its not hard #Irey in the future was all 'teehee. dad you hate my husband' and im just... this is the only goddamn time i condone a shovel talk #but like... follow through Wally. follow through with the goddamn threats. erase that mother fucker from existence #im physically ill at the thought of that marriage

[handsomegentlebutch]

My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

#butch speaks #it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head #when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god #the words came naturally to me #but they meant nothing #i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away #i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred #i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake #i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex #fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic #i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun #the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun. #not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO #the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love. #he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like #he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever. #he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer #then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there. #he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did. #but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there. #that wasnt for us. #my family wasnt even THAT catholic #i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group #i was an altar servant and in the choir #i even used to speak/understand a little latin #imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao #grateful to have grown up poor in that regard #hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually. #fucking hell. #i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.

[lobotomizedlady]

people often assume when we all go out together that I'm my half brothers mom (I'm 20 years older than him) & that his parents are his grandparents & it's so funny bc I know it bothers them. old ass idiots

#my dad was 49 & his wife was 45 when they had him #the story behind his birth is actually extremely fucked up like everything else about their relationship #so my dad left her like a million times to try to go back to my mom (who kept telling him no unless he sorted out his issues) then he #would always run right back to her & she always took him back. anyways i guess he said smth along the lines of #''my wife (he was still married to my mom) will always be the love of my life bc shes the mother of my kids'' #and...she went off bc & on fertility treatments without telling him. then shes pregnant & he is still saying he wants to come back to us #so she said he will never see their kid & her son from a previous marraige THREATENED MY DAD AT GUNPOINT #and said if you ever leave my mom again ill fucking kill yoi #so then the divorce was finalized & they got married & my half brother was born. rest is history #for the record i dont feel sorry for my dad at all it was his fault too. the fucking hypocrite was having sex before marriage #and he knew she was nuts & far too attached to her #what a fucking idiot. all he had to do was get on meds & in therapy & admit he was wrong & he could have stayed with us #but he needed constant validation & to be in charge of everything & thats what his new wife gives him. she converted to his cult & now they #raise my brother in it. and she just does whatever my dad wants & lets him treat her like shit. i would actually feel sorry for her if sh #if she werent such a fucking awful person. and she tries to be all nicey nice w/us despite being a literal homewrecker. #and doing things like telling my dad he cant spend more than 50 dollars per year on each of us #while having him buy her a third car & a 1500 dollar fur coat. lol #theyre so much better off financially than us that its unreal. my mom doesnt get a penny despite how much we are struggling #but if i want a relationship with my half brother i just have to pretend none of this is weird or wrong. #anyways i just hope he never finds out the circumstances of his birth bc god can you fucking imagine

[july-19th-club]

harrykim and tomparis hopelessly awkward in the cafeteria what social blunders will the commit!!

#tom just discovered he has a crush on his buddy who is basically married and he's like . oh my god i can never let her know #oh my god she's right there harry what do i do. ignore her right #and harry is like. shit eating grin. you wouldnt want to be RUDE #i actually think the tom kes neelix thing is so funny because neelix has zero to worry about #his girlfriend who was one years old when they met is hopelessly in love with his jealous ugly ass #but tom paris is a perfectly nice handsome humanoid man . and it's LOGICAL that since he and kes are already buddies #something might spring up between them . but the thing that springs up is neelix's obnoxious emasculation #tom himself is being a completely dogged gentleman about the whole problem and is like. well sensible really #oh i would never interfere in a friend's relationship. plus our lifespans aren't compatible and i like being friends #like it's very funny how little neelix has to worry and how sincerely he's determined to make his unfounded fear everyone's problem #star trek #star trek: voyager #q

[bumblingbabooshka]

Ok. Get closer why don’t you.

#Chakotay opens the door to Janeway's ready room and the two of them are literally in each other's laps #but they're talking very seriously about work business and seem unperturbed by Chakotay's entrance #<- my ideal (bc I think it's funny) #Chakotay: What are you and Tuvok to each other? #Janeway: ?? He's one of my dearest friends and most valuable officers. #Chakotay: Right. No..it's just that I saw you kiss his hand the other day? As if pledging loyalty to a monarch but more tender than that - #there was a glitter in your eyes like love but to call it 'love' would cheapen it so you leave it unnamed? I just saw that and was curious. #Janeway: That's just a friend thing v_v are we on for dinner? #Chakotay: Sure (later) Hey Tuvok what is Janeway to you? #Tuvok: She is one of the greatest individuals I have ever had the honor of knowing - someone I consider a friend - family - #and a piece of my very soul can be found within her. Why? #Chakotay: Aren't you married? #Tuvok: -equivalent of sighing- it isn't romantic. (right. yeah of course.) #<- my ideal (bc I think it's hilarious) #It isn't romantic Chakotay my God...Have you read any poetry lately? Once you get 1000 hours into ancient poetry THEN maybe you'll get #what's going on #Also sidenote this crew is fucking doomed mental health wise HEHEHE they tried therapy ONCE (after trying 'literally just erase the trauma') #and the therapist FELL ASLEEP #I love these bastards HEHEHEHE #Janeway: Doctor I'm going to do my best to help you...I allowed you to evolve into a being greater than a mere hologram and I owe it to you #to let youzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzsnorkmimimimi #tuvok cam

[unproduciblesmackdown]

orvphil: so real

for example used analysis on the following instances

orville's physical reluctance & difficulty kneeling to propose to jane vs. readily swinging right into such a kneel with phil during 'til we meet again

'til we meet again

(see above) noting the "both immediately becoming So happy to be doing this" and "staring at each other for an unbroken ten seconds after finishing the song which was evidently beyond simply a [hold for applause] thing"

having indeed an adorable little meet-cute, which may not be an integral part of every eventual writer/lyricist & composer partnership

when phil drops in at wingate manor and he an orville have a private little wave to each other like =)

sitting next to each other sharing a hay bale and orville gets drinks for them both and phil walks orville home

lucky day

the choreography where orville's at the piano and phil swings it out while rotating it and orville's "walking" while sitting to one side to help (my analysis: going ohhhhh ;w;)

both simultaneously answering "his" when asked whose song it is like the earnest effortless mutual admiration and appreciation huh fellas

margaret talking about protecting your heart from these theatricals; orville Is one of these theatricals, and he loves it; phil watching him / reacting in this moment including his little "hell yeah" move like he had for orville going off in lucky day

their general enthusiasm together / for each other / enjoyment of being around each other and increased ease of operating when around each other

phil wishing orville could hear his music and talking about how orville ruined his own night to save theirs, then remarking "...what a guy!" mmhm

🌈🌈🌈

#orvphil #summer stock #orville wingate #also everyone was so funny & my god they were dancing & it's so true this show was a delight. i laughed smiled applauded effused enjoyed #shoutout to orville's escaping ''don't do Anything but get married have children'' through theatre; being gay; a little luck #it's so true: william (orville) & veanne (margaret) & gilbert (phil) were all so funny & great individually & in any combo #anthony/tony (montgomery) too lmao his ''....how dare you.'' iconic #shoutout to having orville show up for 1 Sec (in pajamas i believe) for the purposes of villain i have done thy mother. he just lives here #phil is great. trying to hold it together....writer's trick from my momma Use Your Words #and then with orville helping out he can chill out & enjoy his wins & orville can have any wins & enjoy them & chill & Do Things too #and everyone is so cool to him right away. why wouldn't they be. hugging like everybody hey besties #obviously corbin bleu is being his national treasure america's sweetheart leading role & Dancing....all the praises warranted #everyone crushes their role & is a delight. including any little moments w/the ensemble / all Ensembling things. go t.j. #it was great of course & a delight & again the orvphil is extremely real. 100% the textual intention & execution. thanks cheri love you #let's get that summer 2024 show if they can / wanna for real (they want to; let's just see it shake out. summer 2024 is pure speculation) #Oh Nooo if i forgot anything & have to reblog & add to this / rewatch & re/discover any delights

[im2tired4usernames]

Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die

#i cant even shes just so dangerously stupid #she thinks energy drinks with natural caffeine are safe to give people who have been told by doctor doing take caffeine with thia meds #ahe thinks of a child is CHOCKING to lie them face down n rub their back #she has the evangelical woman voice worse then women I've met n that cult ahe giggles constantly and behaves like the stereotype lil german #boy just got a lollipop over.... everyone and everything whe acts likw an 11 year old I just got the first boyfriend and all they could talk #is how perfect their boyfriend is and they're so pretty good for that I pulled a boyfriend is and it's like a God thing that they met how #SOOOOOOOOOO in love while constantly nonstop touching ahe has to be touching him her hand on his thigh her atm linked with his her heaf on #his chest she has to be in her lap they make out all over the place IT'S DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING STOP SWAPPING SPIT #she started a i. hwr words 'love diary of their love journey' they hadn't been dateing 2 months her kids are spoiled fake Instagram bitches #with such shitty views on politics SHE'S A TRUMP FAN GIRL SHENLOVES TRUMP MY DAD BROUGHT IN A TRUMPIE #there's so much i cant even say because even admitting it on tumblr is too embarrassing i wanted.to.likw her i liked her the first day but #THE MORE I GET TO KNOW GET THE MORE N MORE N MISS RED FKAGS #she threw away all my siblings clothes school books toys uniforms for sports their in toys i bought them that week make up jewelry #in the disguise of helping clean house #while i was at the hospital the kids call me in tears i call her beg her to wait and nope.ahe didn't i found the bags by the curb i brought #my dad sided with hwr because 'she didn't mean any harm she didn't know sje was throwing them away' #my mom hasn't bsen dead a year he started dating right after ahe died #hes talking about marrying this woman this woman who has never had an honest educated thought once in her life #WHO ASLO SPEMDA MONEY LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR AHE CAME FROM A WITCH FAMILY HER LAST TWO HUSBANDA WERE TOUCH SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE COMMON #SHE SPENDS LIKE SHE STILL HAS MONEY WHEN SHE DOSE NOT AND IT'S LIKE YOU DID NOT JUST SPEND OVER 180 DOLLARS N PASTRIES GOD #SHES SO FUCKIN STUPID AND EVERY HOLIDAY SINCE MY MOM DIED WVERY FAMILY GWT TOGETHER BECAUSE WE DON'T TALK OR.DO ANYTHING WITH MOM'S SIDE #OF THE FAMILY ANYMORE SHE'S THERE EVERY WINGLE MOTHER FUCKIN WEEKEND SHES HERE I'M EXHAUSTED SHES PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINING TO BE ARO #OUND SHES LIKE IF SOMEONE TOOK A GOLDEN RETRIEVER ON A DIET OF JUST FUCKIN COCAINE LITTLE GERMAN BOY WITH LOLLY AND CRUELLA DEVILLE AND FUSE #THEN TOOK A STRAW AND DRANK ALL THE SMARTS OUT OF THAT BEING #UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGH MY DADS GOIN TO NARRY RHIA BITCH SHES GOIN TO TRY TO BE A MOTHER TO ME AND MY SIBLINGS AND THEY'RE GOIN TO #be so fucked up because her kids are not ok SHE FUCKED THEM OVER BAD SHE HAS FOUR KIDS ALL ADULTS THEY'RE JUST WOW #I HATE MY LIFE I HATE WHAY FUTURE MY FAMILY IS GOIN TO BE THE GOOD THINGS IS I WON'T HAVE TO STAY I CAN GO N MAKE A NEW ONE WITH MY WIFE #FOR ME BUT MY SIBLINGS ARE FUCKED AND ANYTIME I WANT TO VISIT MY FAMILY YANDERE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BITCH WILL BE THERE WORMING HWR WAY IN #SHES CONSTANTLY CALLING N TEXTING MY DAD NONSTOP OF SHE'S NOT NEXT TO HIM AND IF HE CAN'T RESPOND INSTANT SHE FREAKS OUT N BUGS ME

[justagaycryptid]

Haven’t finished Hannibal yet, on episode 4 of season 3, but I fucking hate how Hannibal is just... good at everything. 

Like the bitch doesn’t just play music he composes his own music too. He’s an excellent artist. He’s a gourmet chef. He’s a talented surgeon. A master of words. Somehow just knows fuckin everything. He even swims for gods sake. 

I want to see him be bad at something. 

Like I want to see him put on a pair of skates and then immediately eat shit. 

#shouting into the void #or like put him on a snowboard because I also think that would be funny #I am rotating him around in my mind like a microwave #bitch (affectionate+derogatory) #god hes such a mary sue #and also a flaming homosexual that man is down BAD for will #I don't think gay sex would fix either of them but I think they should have it anyways #I also saw this blooper thing where Mads Mikkelsen said 'shut up bitch' on an outtake #and its literally so funny #Hannibal should be allowed to say bitch #actually now that I think about it does Hannibal even swear #Hannibal the type of guy to say that swearing makes you look uneducated or some bullshit #and will would be like 'no you need to use the right word in the right context and sometimes that word is fuck' #friend and I were also joking that Hannibal would be the type of guy to be like 'weve been dating in my head for a month now <3' #up there in his stupid fucking mind palace #dudes being all angsty and bitchy because he had a fight with his boyfriend #Hannibal the type of guy to trick someone (will) into signing marriage documents #then he'd look over with that expression he has and go 'hmm technically were married now' #though oh my god I liked a single hannibal post on instagram and now my entire feed is mads mikkelsen #like not even hannibal specifically but mads mikkelsen #like yeah I know a lot of people think hes a dilf but oh my god I am not that interested in the guy #he does a fantastic job as hannibal but I do not need to see him everywhere I promise

[non-un-topo]

Should I see a therapist for my unexplained contempt for my Heterosexual Family Members and their wedding planning and their baby-craziness y/n?

#like at this point i'm really going to hell for my feelings alone dfghjgfds #there's nothing really bad about them!! nothing to really dislike!! i just feel so much annoyance and resentment #something shifted in me in the past year and i fear it's turning me into a sour old bitch. but also....... oh well....? #a therapist would probably propose that i'm secretly jealous or insecure and.... i am definitely not jealous but i miiiight be insecure #about being 25 and not feeling like a woman and going in no direction. not planning to get married or have kids #so what kind of woman am i? also just being forced to engage with the straightest cissest people in my daily life #wears you down. #i have no reason to dread this eventual wedding (partner's brother's wedding). in fact it's going to be fun!! weddings are fun right...? #but lord..... my partner and i basically have to wear different skins around some family members. even though we probably don't have to... #but my real skin -- my real self -- i worry that i'm just a sour bitch. like don't hand me your toddler please. don't talk to me about marri #*marriage. don't push me into the kitchen to do dishes with the other women. #even our queer friends all want to have kids one day. is it just going to be me and my partner babysitting 5 kids? #because again not to sound like a bitch but i am Not Comfortable nor cut out for it. #god i'm nervous about meeting my partner's brother's fiancee's family. holy fuck i'm nervous. #imagining myself telling them that i'm doing my undergrad in gender studies of all things PPPFFFFGHJGFDGJHFG #like this tiny bare-faced girl with a moustache introduces herself at this traditional wedding like 'yeah i'm a disgusting feminist' LOLLLL #one fear.

[henry-fox-biggest-stan]

Jackieshauna brainrot right now oh my god

#you guys don’t get it #when Jackie tells Shauna she’s her best friend in episode 1 s1 #and when before dying Jackie dreams about Shauna calling her her bestfriend #and basically just replaying their conversation from the first episode but with the roles reversed #she just wants to be LOVED #and god Shauna loves her SO MUCH #she just doesn’t know how to show it! she isn’t supposed to show it! #girls aren’t supposed to love other girls! Shauna isn’t supposed to love Jackie and Jackie isn’t supposed to love her! #Jackie dated Jeff becuase that’s what she had to do #and Shauna wanted HER but couldn’t have her so she settled with Jeff cause he was the closest thing to her she’ll ever have #Shauna killed her it’s her fault for a stupid fight a stupid decision #Jackie fights with her because she slept with Jeff but Shauna did it because she wants HER #Jackie thinks Shauna doesn’t love her when in reality that’s what it all comes down to #her love for Jackie #shauna’s desire for Jackie manifesting in her sleeping with Jeff which manifested in Jackie being mad and sleeping outside #which ended up with Jackie’s death #Shauna eating her #she’ll always be with her #wilderness baby will always be tied to Jackie #she married Jeff and became a housewife because that’s what Jackie would have wanted to do if she had lived right #but she wouldn’t have wanted that #but Shauna does it anyway clings to any part of Jackie she has left #when Jackie doesn’t ven have a physical body anymore or a tomb or anything #her bones and everybody else’s still remains in the wilderness Shauna left her behind when she got rescued but she’ll always carry her #even if she took her bones with her to bury them Jackie is still in the wilderness #Shauna still remembers her sitting on the porch of the cabin sleeping next to her eating side by her #still remembers her leaving and closing the door still remembers her under the snow stills remembers her in the shed still remembers her #her under the fire still remembers how she tastes maybe she always will #jackieshauna #yellowjackets

[mantisgodsdomain]

Winning a prize personally by being someone's "well, this trope isn't usually my style, but i know this author is Really Good at writing so i'll check it out anyways" author

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the thing I'm eternally undecided about is When does that dragon thing start? Like does it start with Tahir and his willful sacrifice and the ensuing relationship with Daeodon before Tahir's death, and then transition into Twohir and his quest to kill the fucking dragon who's dead lover he's the incarnation of and the Mess that is them trying to figure Their shit our while trying to resurrect Tahir.

Or do I just start with Twohir? Theres more drama and more Story to them beyond the growing pains of a new relationship. but also Tahir is my baby boy and i don't want to relegate him to backstory, and a Lot of Daeodon's vibes just Don't work without the explicit context that his words and his feelings or motivations don't always line up.

Like, without Tahir and the way the two interacted it's Way too easy to assume Daeodon made it rain endlessly for the same reason he stopped the rains entirely years ago. That his only motivation for ruining lives and destroying the forest he's lord and god of is that something was taken away from him and he doesn't care What that thing was, just that it was taken. Because this time around he really does care that it was Tahir specifically he lost.

But leaving Tahir as backstory would also make Daeodon having a heart be more of a reveal? More something Twohir and the reader discover together. But it also make Daeodon way fucking creepier.

Daeodon spends the first handful of interactions he has with Twohir (not including the one where Daeodon broke Twohir's arm) being fucking Weird. Twohir is Tahir's reincarnation, and while the two are Wildly different people, there's situations where it's too easy for Daeodon to just Pretend for a moment. And from Twohir's perspective, the fucking dragon he wants dead and to never be near him again because he considers his fucked up life partially Daeodon's fault, is constantly trying to get close to him and abuse Twohir's willingness to drink at parties and miss the little clues that would give Daeodon in his faunsona away. It's creep behavior. Even with context it's absolutely unacceptable, But with all that context and the reader already having a good insight on who Daeodon is as a person, it's creep behavior that Feels more tragic than disgusting.

But Tahir's side of the story isn't short. It's not something that can just go in a prologue, and it's not at All the same genre as Twohir's. so having the two halves butted up against each other doesn't Feel right.

like tldr: Tahir is my very special boy but how he fucked a dragon and became a love god is kinda boring compared to how his reincation fucked the same dragon, resurrected Tahir, and then also became a love god.

#Like tahirs Entire plot is: #Meets and bangs a mysterious guy at a handful of festivals. the guy only ever shows up at the festivals and pays special attention to Tahir #The dragon god of the forest throws a hissy fit about some mcguffin getting stolen from him and demands it returned. and casts the forest #into a drought until the item is returned or something of equal or greater value in his eyes value is given to him. #Eventually the drought has slogged on for so long the people are desperate and decide a person is the only thing left for them to attempt #sacrificing. Nobody Wants to do that but its the only hope they have. Tahir volunteers bc he loves his community enough to do That. #Hes sorta married off to the dragon god in a whole ceremony. With the hope being that the god wouldn't eat his own bride or would at least #be quick about it if he did. #Anyways Tahir goes to the dragon and surprise its that guy. #they have a fun scene where Tahir. for obvious reasons. does not believe the Guy to be the dragon and demands he probe it #the guy does. Shenanigans happen and over the years the people of the forest begin to treat tahir as a deity in his own right #and that belief does start giving him some actual powers n stuff. and its great hes a love god and his wedding day is a celebrated holiday #and then he dies. Defending Daeodon. and that makes Daeodon very :( and so he honors Tahir's last wish of never taking the rain away #again by making it rain Constantly. his sunlight was stolen from him and so he has stolen everyone elses until its returned. #yadda yadda yadda. Twohir is here now