#being a girl isn't that easy

[carolinebingley-wouldve-hated-me]

It's the worst when a man makes you feel so ugly, you could never feel pretty again.

#being a girl isn't that easy #sometimes i feel like #you would never know #men are fucking trash #men are the worst

[littlebitofdnd]

Sandra-Lynn and Sklonda are having a "What Do We Do About Kristen" phone call as we speak

#dimension 20 #dimension 20 spoilers #brennan lee mulligan #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fhjy #d20 fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fhjy #sklonda gukgak #sandra lynn faeth #riz gukgak #fig faeth #kristen applebees #like kristen IS a good friend and she DOES appreciate riz and fig but she is a mess #like as mothers of two deeply troubled children it makes sense they're comcerned #if my daughter the self-sacrificing ticking time bomb said she was ignoring a CURSE because she was busy with her friend's campaign??? #or if my son needed me to pull over to take a nap because the SAME GIRL was stressing him out so much?? #i think because we live outside the universe and love kristen it's easy to forget #kristen went from being the 'good kid' that the bad kids corrupted to the bad influence that worries their mothers #thinking about ally saying that kristen this season is when chaos is no longer cute #speaking of which this scene did make me realize how little the Thistlesprings check up on gorgug #ik they're trying though so imma give them a pass #like kristen has NO proper guidance on how to enter adulthood #i GUESS jawbone but Jawbone isn't raising her so much as he is housing her #What Kristen REALLY needs is to have one singular adult want to be her parent #She doesn't HAVE a proper sandra lynn or sklonda checking in on her #she has her ex-girlfriend's uncle #if kristen had someone looking out for her we wouldn't BE in this situation

[chirpsythismorning]

Something that confuses me, is redditors logic of Mike's behavior? Specifically when it comes to the painting it just doesn't make sense to be fully convinced Mike can't possibly return Will's feelings?

For starters, they insist that Mike was uncomfortable with Will at the airport because he could sense Will's feelings for him and so that's why he couldn't hug him (as to not lead him on), and also panicked when he saw the painting bc he realized that he was probably the girl Will liked (according to El's letter). By their logic, Mike was obviously just uncomfortable with Will's feelings for him and the fact that he made a painting for him (with romantic implications) and that's because he does not return those romantic feelings whatsoever...

If we then apply that same logic to the van scene?... What the actual fuck is going on there then?

We got almost 5 seconds of Mike just staring at Will while he isn't looking as he's grabbing the painting, followed by Will handing it to Mike who looks confused like, For me? Are you sure? very visibly nervous, only to finally open it and look more relieved and happy than we've ever seen him, arguably in the entire show...?

Mind you, this is at a point when Mike fully assumed the painting is for a girl someone Will likes, right?

I repeat! According to their logic, Mike is under the assumption that this painting is for someone Will likes, and Mike is now currently finding out that it's for him and he is relieved???

WHY WOULD MIKE BE RELIEVED THAT WILL'S PAINTING IS FOR HIM, IF WERE BEING GIVEN A SCENARIO THEY ALREADY BELIEVE HAPPENED AT THE START OF THE SEASON, WITH MIKE BEING UNCOMFORTABLE WITH IT??

AND WHY DID MIKE LOOK HAPPIEST BEFORE WILL SAID EL'S NAME? WHY DID HIS SMILE LITERALLY FALL AFTER WILL SAID EVEN EL, ESPECIALLY EL?

AND WHY DID MIKE LOOK MOST EMOTIONAL WHEN WILL WAS DESCRIBING THEIR RELATIONSHIP OVER THE LAST YEAR PERFECTLY, USING WORDS MIKE ALREADY USED WHEN HE MADE UP WITH WILL EARLIER IN THE SEASON???

#byler #stranger things #like... it just doesn't add up #either mike wanted will's painting to be for him or he didn't #and by their logic #mike doesn't like will and already knows about wills feelings for him and is trying to let him down easy #they assume the van scene is mike letting will down... #but...? where in that scene does mike look uncomfortable with the prospects that this is for mike specifically and from will specifically? #bc i would argue that he looks most uncomfortable at the points when will says el's name... #basically they need to understand previous scenes properly to even come close to understanding the van scene #you need to understand that mike didn't hug will at the airport bc he's scared of making his feelings obvious #then when he sees the painting he's experiencing a moment of hope that will brought it to give it to him #but then suddenly will is implying it isn't for mike #and now mike is being dubbed a knock off for the rest of the day and proceeds to be a self pittying idiot when his dominos fall (his words) #and so that is why when he gets the painting and thinks its from will at first and isn't for a girl but for mike... he looks relieved #bc that's what he was hoping for in the fucking first place #wake up ppl

[miabrown007]

girl who sucks at making OCs needs to make a DnD character send help

#I did make one who was rad but then got vetod by the DM and now I handed in a half-elf wizard but she's just so basic #she literally has no personality send help #and also idk what direction should we take because I have no idea what the other people will be like in the party #and I'm the only girl player there so I don't want for that to be like be a thing and bring a stereotipically girly character #and I could make her like a standard bookish wizard which obviously stands very close to me and would be super easy to play #but that's so cliche and I don't want to be like everyone's mom in game if everyone else is just running around and fucking shit up #but I know that I'll have a harder time playing a more reckless and careless character and if there isn't going to be someone #thinking for the team and we just go headfirst into stuff that also sucks. #and like I like to be someone who thinks about the solutions it just can't just be me being the party pooper if you get me #but poor wizard girl is just so mid with her 'my parents wanted me to be an X wizard but I'm gonna be an Y wizard instead' backstory #like wow such rebellion you're gonna show them girl #but at this point I'm a week behind schedule so I need to have a character like for yesterday #and I don't want to just copy others' dnd characters from D20 but they have like a group cohesion and individual arcs and that's so cool #and I suck at making up little men #miaing #mia's dnd adventures #I'm stressing so much over just making a character and meeting strangers bringing a character with anxiety disorder wouldn't even be rp #I guess great that my sorcerer got vetoed how would I play out being the face of the party

[suburbanlegnd]

I'm on antidepressants again, who cheered :D

#I ran out of Zoloft and had to wait a few days to get a new prescription #but girl it was a wild ride #who could have predicted that not taking them would give me a headache nausea and extra sleepiness lmao #tbh being off meds made me realize how much anger is inside me #gonna miss being h-word tho but whatever #raw dogging life isn't as easy as i thought 😔✌️ #rambles

[libraryleopard]

Young adult mystery/thriller novel

Harper Ford has spent her entire life on the run from something mysterious with her single mother, who often uproots the two of them with no warning and has raised her daughter to take on new names and personalities each time

When Harper's mother is killed in a car accident, she leaves Harper the key to a safety deposit box containing cash, fake IDs, and the first real hints she's ever had about her mother's early life

Following clues from the deposit box, Harper sets off to her mother's hometown in the pacific northwest to discover what she's been running from her whole life and soon finds herself digging up long-buried family secrets

Black lesbian main character

Read as an ARC

#i liked this! #very twisty and engaging with a main character who is quite easy to root for #some good twists right at the end #would recommend to fans of the girls i've been by tess sharpe #also re: the main character being a lesbian she has a crush on a local girl but there isn't a straightforward romance per se #anway i've been enjoying barrow's thrillers i'll def keep reading them #and don't look back #rebecca barrow #2023 reads #lulu speaks #lulu reads #lulu reads and don't look back #books

[shopcat]

people will see two characters who are good friends ... best friends even ...live in each others pockets ... are incredibly important to each other and a really lovely and sweet and very simple example of friendship being important and fulfilling and meaningful and beautiful and not "just" friendship because there is no such thing... and then they will turn around and they haven't even finished the previous sentence before being like Oh but if this one wasn't a lesbian she would be in love with her male best friend and vice versa. obviously. or he has feelings for her but he "let them go" because she's a lesbian if she wasn't though they would date. in fact if this was a magical world where he was a girl all along they would be in love because all that stuff i said about friendship and importance was actually just words ?!

and like beyond the sheer lesbophobia and sheer CRUELTY for him to even consider either of them in that light on a regular basis i would honestly prefer people own the fuck up to what they're apparently trying to say here and fully commit to going "No, i DON'T actually think friendship that stays platonic and that factor of it will NEVER change can be equally important or MORE SO as other kinds of relationships and in fact i don't think the very idea exists i was just saying all that stuff about platonic nonromantic soulmates to just say it". right before the apparent mission statement of so many that is "if a lesbian is friends with a man i think her sexuality is getting in the way in one way or another". i wish you people just literally got your phones taken away and a parental lock put in place.

#i wish when you blocked people it hurt them. #he. and obv you know who i'm talking about. DOES NOT HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER #and she. DOES NOT HAVE AND NEVER HAS AND NEVER WOULD AND NEVER COULD HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM #you're NOT going oh in another life we would've got married if i wasn't gay you're not DOING that #you're being WEIRD. STOP IT. ITS SO FUCKING EASY 😭😭😭 #if you seriously can't conceptualise any of those dumb hypotheticals where he's like a girl the whole time or shes Not a lesbian #where the end goal isn't ''oh so they can date now :)'' it's.... so they're still friends.... THEN YOURE INSANE ‼️‼️‼️ #AND POSSIBLY FUCKING EVIL‼️‼️‼️ #so they ''CAN'' date now sends shivers up my spine #this is what i mean when i say i hate that codependent shit now. no one can be normal about it and now i hate it all #i'm going to make anti codependent hcs to put negativity out there to balance it out. i don't think steve knows her last name #also anyone who thinks steve as of s4 has any sort of feelings for robin that is literally so gross 😭 why would you even like him if you #thought that. case in point and i'm NOT even exaggerating here that is what people who Hate steve say #as proof for hating him. cuz they think he has feelings for her. which is something you would hate him for #also literally do not doubt me for if some reason in s5 he says and acrually means ''i have feelings for robin still'' i would .. stop #liking him... it would be easy..... #sts #anyway. this isn't about trans content either that's a whole other . Thing. which i don't really care about right now

[torgawl]

"love should be warm... but to you, it's become a form of punishment"

#SO RAWWWWW #something about him being an orphan... something about him having killed for vengeance at a young age... #i don't know it feels like a more personal line than just speaking out of his beliefs on justice #he definitely knows what it's like to be hurt by people who should have loved you and left alone and uncared for #but more than any lack of sympathy he could feel for that man he genuinely hopes he changes for the little girl's sake and i think that's #a subtle way to show who he is and who he has become?! idk not coherent but i liked the trailer a lot #i'm excited to find out more about him through his quest #one of my favourite genres of genshin characters really is deeply traumatised cryo user and i think that's beautiful 😂 #wrio 🤝 shenhe 🤝 kaeya = everything to me #but like can we talk about wrio being silly and warm and actually easy to talk to and how he doesn't hide the way he feels? #because it's so easy to close yourself after you go through those types of hard experiences but it's genuinely refreshing to see how #bright he is even if he can come across as cold like the little girl said we know that's not his demeanour #the fact he so openly admits he had a bad childhood and isn't able to trust people without any shame?? refreshing #i think he's just so easy to relate to and he feels incredibly dynamic as a character #i love him sm #genshin leaks #< because i talk about the voice lines and that hasn't been released yet

[gideonisms]

I also think that maybe my idea of repression is a bit different than what sometimes gets presented as repressed because it's like. Repression refers to the process of holding back or ignoring things but what those things are varies wildly from person to person. For some people, if you got rid of the repression, there's a fun-loving, sensory stimulation seeking person underneath. But I think that a lot of times, what we repress has to do with what the people around us expect. sometimes what's under there is a really deep frustration, or a list of ways that the world is overwhelming and exhausting, or the realization that you've been seeking out experiences not because you want them but because they were a compromise between what you actually wanted and what you thought you could get. Anyway this post is basically the lead-up to saying that if harrow was less repressed, she probably wouldn't have metaphorically fucked ianthe in the first place. the fact that harrow isn't in touch with her feelings in htn is a big part of the reason the bone arm sex even happened

#harrow is repressing her lesbian feelings but not for every girl. not for the body #not really even for gideon post remembering her #because she is such a good metaphor for the whole repressed religious deal it's easy to read her as that with no additional complications #but i think there's a bit more going on there #this is a place where muir's handling of psychosis is i think relevant #it's interesting to read her whole deal through the lense we get in htn which is that harrow has reason to doubt her perception of the world #i don't necessarily think it's something you can put in a box like this affects physical perceptions but wouldn't make her doubt emotions #i think it does bleed into the way she thinks about her own emotions as well #harrow fears she can't be trusted to understand the world in a way that makes sense to those around her or helps her navigate situations #so she defaults to a set of intense rules #which is i think why a lot of autistic people relate to her so strongly bc it's like yeah that is a way you sometimes deal with #being told your perceptions of the world are incorrect #harrow just does hear things/possibly see things that aren't there which makes the whole thing even more complicated #idk. it is not as simple as repressed catholic girl. repressing her gay feelings isn't her main problem

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

my sister called me and kept asking excitedly that what's happening in my life and

#like life as in. i can't say love life but like you know what's happening with the guys and the girls #girl #and i was so tired #am so tired #i just made up an excuse that im too physically tired too talk to cut the call and told her id call her back but i won't #i want to okay i really do I want to hear about her life what's going on but she's not that type of person jinke saamne #i can just divert the topic from myself avoid talking about me she's determined and caring like that😭 #just. kya batau main #i spent the whole day working but really if i stopped doing anything for like 2 minutes all the last convos i had with everyone i #liked loved whatever started replaying in my head constantly making me feel all down and sad in public yk that empty heaviness inside chest #i mean. what is there to say. i feel truly pathetic #everyone just keeps leaving me. they decide one day that oh nope she's not for me not interesting anymore doesn't understand is too much #draining and destroys my peace and then they leave #it doesn't even matter the weight of the relationship #whether it's been a year of being in love or two weeks of talking till 5 am or a week of wishing me good morning and good night #every day. it doesn't matter they leave and they leave and they leave and they don't look back and im left to pick up the pieces go on #pretend to be okay and normal and fucking focused on like. studying accounts as if my heart isn't breaking #into a million tiny pieces everytime #i don't know how to tell her. the sister you love so much the sister you can't live without imagine life without. the #sister who you thought about holding on for because you couldn't do that to her leave her alone when you had suicidal thoughts. she's #she's actually deeply unlovable undateable unfuckable and like truly lonely and easy to let go of #i know she loves me and i know my bestfriend loves me and she would fall apart if i wasn't there for her #but it's not enough. i really wish it was. but it's okay it's enough for now it's enough to keep me going it's enough to make me not wanna #die yk? like i don't love myself enough to live for myself get better for myself but they need me so i need to be okay be happy because i #need them to be happy. and they're happy when im happy #does that make sense #okay bye i should really start writing a diary

[jovalencia]

okay the jokes about bi women with jakey ass boyfriends were funny but I'm gonna need everybody to stop before people start getting too comfortable and start getting really biphobic with it

#like the first couple times were funny but like. I do not like the direction this is going. my bestie has straight up got hate comments #for being a bi girl with a bf like people are saying she has it so easy is basically straight etc like😭 #not that biphobia (against bi women specifically) didn't exist before this joke blew up recently but some people think it's a lil Too #funny to call bi women with boyfriends basically straight #as if they're like. what? lying about being bi? faking it for attention like what do you think. they're not actually bi bc they're dating #a man. idk just don't like direction this is going #as a person with the opposite problem (people I'm insisting I'm a lesbian) I kinda get it like it obvs doesn't feel great to have people #doubt your sexuality. especially in the context of them making fun of you #ALL THIS BEING SAID this isn't abt my mutuals and friends who I know are normal and not biphobic AND this is not about not making fun #of jakey boyfriends. obviously i think they should all kill themselves. #carmen.txt

[fungi-maestro]

The Question #4 (1987)

#book club #the question #vic sage #dc comics #comics #myra connolly #myra fermin #one of my favorite scenes in the series #i think the points where vic grapples with murder are so important #you can see how much he's already grown since the 60s thing #even when he saved those guys earlier in this issue from burning to death in a room #his ENEMIES #ditko sage would have let them burn no doubt #it's just so fascinating seeing the change. and how it isn't an easy decision. #and then of course myra being amazing #we as the audience already know how much she cares about her child but at this point vic had some baggage to work through with it all #i dont think he blames her for doing that #anyway ummm comparing this to the first time he directly takes a life in the quarterlies. also to protect jackie. #he wants to see that girl grow up happy and loved and not in danger #i think he sees himself when he sees her in a way. especially with her temporarily living in the same orphanage he grew up in #and her fate..... :( well... yeag.

[encrucijada]

me when i haven't even finished evergreen lung or started speak, prophecy: so about the sequel :3

#they are happening in the same universe and i am so 🥺 about rené and ezra #what if finding someone who is aroace to spend your life with was easy #they're the first entries in my Aroace Girlies* Universe #dtst technically counts?? but marilú being aroace isn't really The Plot #the only for sure entry is the sidekick wip #that one's about the aroace best friend of the Protagonist Girl. there might be a magic sword involved #pia.txt

[concerto-roblox]

i spend a bit of time on twitter for fandom stuff bc there are some really talented artists and writers but oh my god i have to limit my time on that app so much compared to tumblr bc one tiny thing will happen and suddenly there'll be the most despair-inducing discourse ever and i genuinely want to die

#honestly twitter definitely wants people to get angry bc angry people tweet more #this is mostly abt sttwt but ig it applies to other fandoms too #like one person will say one thing and suddenly everyone sees it on their timeline and everyone and their mother is talking about it #when it really isn't that deep #and also some people are just so rude?? like the ship wars are awful and people just make stuff up and say the most horrible shit #and it's so easy to find hate accounts like i'm not opposed to being a hater of things occasionally #but today i found an account called smth like 'why people hate st*ddies' (not censored) #and it was literally just someone screenshotting all the petty drama from one niche subset of the fandom #like i just don't understand how people can have fun on twitter if they use it like intended?? #i have to turn on notifs for people i like and use the notifs as a dashboard bc the timeline will randomly show you the most rancid shit #plus i feel like twitter is actively trying to make it hard to see anything older than a day #i hate the way it's all about new new new and content content content oh my god shut up shut up shut up- #obv tumblr can have awful people too but i feel like it's so much easier to avoid stuff like that if you curate ur own experience #like on tumblr i can just block someone bc i don't wanna see their posts but on twitter blocking someone is a personal attack #and someone will write a thread about how you're a toxic bitch making the fandom worse and you hated them bc they drew b*lly h*rgrove once #and that means you're against discussing harmful topics in media and are pro censorship or smth idk #girl maybe i just don't like him and don't wanna see fanart of him ugh #i feel like maybe i'm really sensitive bc seeing people argue abt things really upsets me?? but idk i thought that was universal #but apparently people love being mad?? #anyways uh. steve/eddie nation 4 eva yass #how to be cringe 101 #i feel like i need a tag for my beef with twitter uuh #twitter hate #there

[thebirdandhersong]

🌙

#ladies n gents i am asking once again for prayer..... for what feels like the hundredth time this year #i am going to have to break up with Mr knight and it isn't going to be easy #and it's gonna have to be soon #lord have mercy on an exhausted girl #it's just too many differences and a very different outlook on things in life that i think are important #like finance management mutual spiritual growth connection with community #emotional vulnerability and also ideas about the future and planning for it #but most of all. i cannot share my love for stories with him #and I've tried. but it's just not something he's interested in listening to or indeed understanding #that hurts a tad. i don't think i can marry a man who i can't share that part of me with #will not go into further details but that's where things are #sorry for vaguely sad and pessimistic posts i am very numb and resigned #suffice it to say #i would also like to write love letters to someone who will write back #instead of telling me he received them and saying thanks #i am very unhappy indeed. and cannot go on like this long term #that's all #I've wanted to either cry throw up scream or simply collapse in my bed for the past little while because of this #i wanted it to work out! i WOULD'VE loved him for a lifetime #and thought i was asking too much or being too selfish in wanting reciprocation #in many things #but i am simply exhausted. i have done a fair bit of crying so i shan't any longer #😭😭😭😭😭😭 would very much like a hug and a cup of tea #it had been a very long couple of weeks #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21

[vegaseatsass]

Theory of Love is definitely one of the hardest BLs to take seriously that I've watched so far (NOBODY SPOIL ME PLS I am up to ep6 and hoping we're gonna switch at some point from Gun POV to Off POV and turn the perspective on its wet-from-water-bottle-showering head, but I don't KNOW for SURE so don't tell meeee) but one thing I'm really vibing with is just how well it captures the sheer disastrousness of disastrous gay friendships!!!

I don't love watching a bunch of dudes be toxically masculine @ every girl that walks past them (though I understand that this performance is the sibling to the boy craziness I performed at all the girls I was in love with in grade school), but I just love the dynamic within the friends group of like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? WHY ARE OUR FRIENDS SUDDENLY ALWAYS MAD AT EACH OTHER??? WHERE IS ALL THIS DRAMA COMING FROM?????

The drama is coming from Disastrous Queer Friendship. From two friends who cannot/will not communicate how they feel for each other or why "just" friendship is not working. There is no escaping it my guys all you can do is ride the ship through the storm at your bros' side

#and to be very fair to bone and two they ARE doing their level best to ride that ship through the storm so far!! #no idea what's happening one minute to the next who is in love with who who is mad at who whose side to take #but they are gonna stay in it with their bros!!! support whoever has a crush on whoever!! keep the Gang together through hell or high water #i'm watching this very quickly for me b/c i neeeed that pov switch lol i am going to be fr disappointed if we don't pov switch #BUT DON'T SPOIL ME!!!!!!!!!! #theory of love #dear diary #it's jsut interesting because if i watched this idk 10 years ago i'd be very annoyed w/ both third and khai for a lot of their behavior #third being sooooo bitter every time khai kisses a new girl khai treating third's housework and support the way a spoiled kid does his moms #but it's all just so real in a Disastrous Gay Friendship (tm) #it is so hard to unblur and untangle all the different blurred tangled lines and actually communicate past the giant feelings #when third was like 'i meant to be the third thats his friend but i once again ended up the third thats in love w him. i'm angry at myself' #SO REAL! #he knows he is being unfair but he cant HELP it he doesnt know how to navigate his way out of the role he's caged himself in #friendship isn't a cage but it's real easy to convince yourself it is when you see your queer feelings as a threat to that friendship #and it's real easy to see queer feelings as a threat to friendship if you live in a society!!!! #lol this is prob all self-evident but i am just truly enjoying the messiness #back at it again in the shower with my clothes on. bawling.