#because thats what its abojt

[effervescentdragon]

WIP WEDNESDAY! On a Friday because time is meaningless, taking the tag from @ayceeofspades bcs I can, and sharing the part of my Jurassic Park AU bcs I'm super proud of this part 🥰 the intended audience for this is Me and I'm using it to get over some shit and my writers' block bcs I need to. Gonna tag @river-ocean just because this is part of what I was telling you about, and leaving the tag open for whoever wants it 🥰

“What the fuck did you do?” he asked in a voice that sounded like a knife cut. “Are you trying to tell me - you actually - what do you mean, you got creative?” Rosberg almost stuttered, his words coming out fast, mixing with each other.

“Please tell me you didn’t,” Hamilton added softly. “Please, tell me you didn’t.”

George looked both baffled and embarrassed.

“What, uh, what do you mean?” George said, straightening himself up. “I assure you -”

“He means, please tell us you didn’t try to play God,” Sebastian said. When Arthur turned to look at him, the man looked furious and scared in the same measure. “Please tell us you did not engineer a new species of dinosaur.”

George cleared his throat. “Well. The corporate thought, and from what I understand, the numbers confirmed it, that Jurassic World was losing its relevance as an attraction. So they -”

“- let their greed influence them,” Sebastian interrupted. Arthur caught some movement through the glass. They were lowering a cow, a live one, into the paddock, probably as bait for this new dinosaur.

Arthur thought Indominus rex was a very cool name. He wasn’t about to share it with anyone, not now, when Vettel and Rosberg both looked outraged and Hamilton looked like he’d seen a ghost. Max and Ricciardo, who were both standing behind them, both had frowns on their faces.

He glanced at Charles, who was looking at the cow, and grimaced. Charles really liked cows. Arthur stepped closer to his brother on instinct.

“I - I would not put it quite like that,” George tried to argue, but Rosberg was having none of it.

“Did none of you learn anything from Jurassic Park?” He scoffed. “Let me guess, you took Marko’s research and completely ignored the consequences of it, consequences we-” he gestured around, “barely fucking lived through and testified against, since you managed to straighten out the genetic code for regular dinosaurs.” His eyes flashed. “Are regular dinosaurs not enough anymore?”

“Corporate thought a new species may up the ‘wow’ factor of the establishment and make us more relevant,” George answered.

“They are fucking dinosaurs,” Sebastian spat. “They are already ‘wow’ enough.”

“They thought it would make more money, more like,” Hamilton scowled. “Cash is king, isn’t it. Just like in Jurassic Park.”

“It took years to iron the knacks in regular dinosaurs’ DNA,” said Rosberg. “How long have you had to mix up this creative solution?”

“And even with regular ones, they are animals born and bred in captivity,” Hamilton continued. “The patterns of their actions are barely quantifiable.”

“What did you even put in the cocktail?” Vettel asked. “Which species have you added, and have you considered all the variations of their instincts and how they may interact with already fragmented dinosaur DNA?”

“Did you consider anything aside from corporate greed and trying to make as much money possible from playing with things that shouldn’t be played with, since you can’t even begin to predict the consequences?” Hamilton’s eyes flashed as he spoke.

“It’s no wonder we weren’t notified of this,” Rosberg snorted. “The ethical considerations alone are a fucking nightmare, but neither the corporate assholes nor you scientists think of ethics much, do you?”

“You only thought of whether or not you could,” Vettel finished in a low voice. “It never occurred to you to think if you should.”

Arthur admired George in that moment, because the man bore the triple attack with only slight rufflement. They are like raptors, Arthur thought, Vettel, Rosberg, and Hamilton. Attacking the prey from all sides, playing off each other, not allowing the prey to catch a moment’s respite. And they aren’t even in a good relationship right now. I would have loved to see them when their attacks were coordinated.

#gonna tag this as #sebcedes #because thats what its abojt #thats not the pairings tho :) #effervescentdragonwrites #my writing #🦖 rawr #f1 rpf

[deneveve-is-lost]

I'm the worst because if I find out complete strangers who I follow on social media think something I like is annoying I start thinking I should probably just kill myself and save myself the embarrassment, it's not ideal

#like this is kind of a joke but also not really i hate myself haha #i just think im like disgusting and deserve endless shame and hatred or whatever for being a bit cringe #i hate that its even cringe like why is cringe it makes me happy why can i not just enjoy things without this being an embarrassing trait #still thinking abojt when i went to the queer youth group age 16 and was drawing the crystal gems and some dude comes up to me like #oh you like Steven Universe. 😐 okay. #like yes i like steven universe bitch im a fucking 16 year old autist with a tumblr account and no self esteem what do you want!! #this isnt fucking social media i am literally standing in front of you!!! i am a person!!!! see me as a person!!! please see me as a person! #like thats why i leaned so hardcore into fucking truscum shit and became so fucking grating and insufferable #because i was so cringe and such a fucking trender and i hated it #it made me want to kill myself over and over again i had to prove i was a real man who could take a joke #and wasnt into that cringe tumblr sjw shit i was tough and cool #i also had agoraphobia and couldnt look in the mirror without wanting to do violence to myself #and lay in bed taking codeine only getting up to piss and shit for weeks at a time #but yeah no i was tough and cool and not cringe #not cringe not cringe #i still cant bear it i still hate myself then #i hate myself so much it makes me want to beat the cringe out of me i hate it #i just want to feel okay #i just want to feel like im allowed to be here #and that people ultimately dont care that much if there are some things we dont have in common #but i cant even treat other people that way so #its the fucking shit for me

[duodusk]

hi eveyione ^-^

#txt #currently falling back into fixating on something that has no fandom and one other person i can talk to about it #because its between our ocs . lol #this happens every so often and i do it to myself #idk if the terminology is right but im definitely always fixated on my own ocs like theyre usually all i draw #and it got to the point where if i forgot what i was thinking about my brain would provide me with my ocs name #because usually thats what it was #and sometimes other interests pop back in for a bit but they never overpower it #and anyway SOMETIMES the My Ocs moment fuses with the Me And My Friend's Ocs moment #which is worse bc it makes me go fucking insane i just want to make shit and tlak abojt it #but the storu doesnt exist because we got way over our heads #itd be literally impossible to write out #and obviously there's no fandom for it we're the only two making shit for it and we're busy and it goes in and out of focus for us #AUUGUHHH girl .. #also theyre not on rn and i dont want to bother them with it bc i dont even have anything specific to taok about with it #i just like . i made this blog to handle my mcyt fixation thoughts i dont have anything similar i can do for this #i can keep making more stuff and i do and i will but also like AUUU #anywayyy #hi #if you read this far for some reaosn i hope you are doing well tonight ^-^ #that makes it sound conditional . like im . i want everyone to have a good night you dont need to read my brain rot first

[intertexts]

ok you asked about my sad fish boy i hope u know how much of a mistake that is. holy shit. dude jrwi is so fucking good. if u need a new dnd podcast may i please recommend jrwi..theyre pirates. ohhh my god theyre pirates .

so. uhm. fish boy. his name is gillion tidestrider (champion of the undersea, hero of the deep, etc etc about a billion more titles that he just keeps aquiring as the campaign goes on) and hes a paladin with ohhhhh so much of a hero complex. oh my god. dude. hes so . everything to me . (played by charlie slimecicle btw. that guy is so fucking good at balancing silly goofy moments with heartwrenching voice acting. in one of the most recent episodes he is literally. hanging from a hook through his hands missing chunks of skin on 1hp literally only alive because he happened to cast death ward on himself. and hes wearing those goddamn trout fish sandals that u see on facebook ads or whatever.)

uhm. so. holy shit. where do i even start. he is the chosen one of a prophecy that says its his duty to one day choose who will survive between the undersea (triton, underwater creatures, where he grew up) and the oversea (basically. land.) and the other will be destroyed. so when he was very young (i want to say maybe like..5 or 6? i dont remember im actually searching for that info rn for the thing im writing) he was taken away from his family to begin training with the Elders (basically the. rulers of the undersea) . my boy he was raised to be a weapon. he was raised to be a tool (<< real canon words out of his own mouth). my favorite little child soldier. he wore armor that was too big for him and carried swords that were taller than he was. he was raised to put protecting others over his own safety so he rushes out into danger without even thinking about how it might affect him. he is so passively suicidal and ready to sacrifice himself at any minor inconvenience that when this information is eventually put in front of him his response is "what? no, thats what im Supposed to do." a very important phrase for him in early episodes was "whats one more burden?"

also he has a pet frogtopus (frog + octopus) her name is pretzel and she rides around in a little orb on his belt and also on his shoulders sometimes. i love her

(<- official art. shes so perfect in every way)

I THINK I MIGHT BE RUNNING OUT OF SPACE SOON BUT HE ALSO HAS AN OLDER SISTER AND SHES EVERYTHING TO ME OHMYGOD . her name is Edyn and shes so. uaghghhh if i think about her for too long i start crying. im writing a fic from her pov as we speak. she was the only one who would visit him during his training as a kid she was his best friend she wanted to protect him but she was also just a kid so she couldnt do anything but try her best to comfort him. shes the one who gave him pretzel. ohhh my god. i lvoe you edyn tidestrider youre everything to me. giving you a freshly written unedited at all snippet from the fic im writing because it describes how i feel about their dynamic so much better than i could possibly type out in a tumblr ask::::

uhnmmm what else. im so insane about the tidestrider siblings forever. do not get me wrong the other PCs in this campaign are also excellent and i love them (Jay is the daughter of a navy captain who defected to join a pirate crew to figure out what caused the death of her older sister. Chip is. oh boy. orphan who was taken in by a pirate crew when he was 7. pirate crew in question was swallowed by some sort of magic force that corrupted literally a fourth of the globe. but he somehow survived and is now trying to find out if his old family is still alive. jay and chip are like adopted siblings to me. chip and gillion had to roll a performance check for a kiss one time and they both got nat 20s and its all gone downhill from there for them. i love jay and chip dearly but something abojt gillion just scratches a very specific itch in my brain i love him so much and its only partially because hes a fish and im the fish guy.) ALSO I FORGOT TO MENTION GILLION IS CANONICALLY ASEXUAL and this is a fact that actually has come up within canon and is not just a word of god twitter mention fact. no. my boy is actively asexual and it makes me soooooo happy forever.

uh. sorry for the wall of text. infodump over. im forever crying abojt pirates and fish people . thank u i love u

OUSUGHFGHFJHH................... I LIKE UR FISH BOY MAC. IM A BIG FAN OF UR FISH BOY. i heard paladin with a hero complex & it was immediately a direct hit thats so... ouuhgh. child soldier character type of guy makes me go bonkers!!!! this whole paragraph is like five critical hits in a row... im so curious now.... also ive seen SO much art for these guys jay also looks so cool? her art is always so compelling 2 me... anyway OUHG. i'm currently working my way through friends at the table twilight mirage (meticulously crafted post-utopian cyberpunk/science fiction about mechs and gods and mech gods and more specifically Dead mech gods & living in their husks & humanity & nonhumanity & empire, etc) + tryna catch up on critrole but... hgghhbh. we'll see. we'll see what happens...

#IVE BEEN IN A BIG PIRATES MOOD LATELY. SO. #mac tag! #TYYYYY for telling me ab ur guy i love him i lovelovelove hearing ab ur little guys always & forever.. :]]]

[randomalistic]

Live action little mermaid was Good 7/10 yeah! I feel like it was probably one of the better live action Disney remakes. For Sure.

2024 edit: DISCLAIMER I AM STUPID AND I GET ENJOYMENT OJT OF THINGS that SUCK. and I hadn’t seen original little mermaid. LIKE NO STIP EHAT ARE TOU TAKING ABOJT NOOO 7/10?? THATS WAY TOO HIGH WATCH THE ORIGINAL SHUT UPPP

Sebastian was like a weird half baked cheezit that you find at the bottom of the box and they didn’t go all in with his voice or his design. It left so much to be desired. I desire him carnally. He’s like a 6/10 sebastion. How do you make Sebastian mid. ITS FINE.

They turned Scuttle into Amethyst Steven Universe . (👍) In her introduction she dived and ate a fish which is Messed Up. What if Flounder KNEW that fish personally and she just fucking killed it. That’s literally the equivalent of eating a person to him

She also had like a rap battle with Sebastian for some reason like they Really wanted to push that they’re sooo silly and you should like them . Okay

I forgot to mention Flounder. That about sums up Flounder

Under the sea song. Sebastian’s voice left a lot to be desired but it’s ok I guess.. I do not remember seeing so many invertebrates and strange sea animals in the original. like they had feather starfish and sea slugs and ribbon worms and jellyfish dancing around. It was Totally Awesome and I Loved it but not many fish?? LOL but yes this was my favorite sequence :) visually.

THINGS I LIKED.

I haven’t watched the original little mermaid in years or maybe not At All but I still knew the main plot points. They made prince Eric better. He no longer simply exists. We got prince Eric lore. His dog was also a perfect cast. Great dog. Good boy. Very cute dog. Really good dog & the dog was great. Wish there was more of the dog.

URSULA WAS AWESOME AS EXPECTED. Hard to mess her up. I wish I could’ve seen more of her giant form at the end they kind of shrouded her in darkness and CGI sad face. Great acting though and her song was SO good. Kinda sexo but don’t tell anyone I sa

ALSO THAT REMINDS ME THE FIRST HALF OF THE MOVIE UNDERWATER IS SOOOO FUCKIN DARK LIGHTING-WISE FOR NO REASON. Ariel is like. Look at this stuff ! :) isn’t it neat ! :) i’m sorry. I can’t see it. You are in an underwater cave and I cannot see the walls or anything you have created.

Ariel obviously did great :) she had a really good singing voice. Good !!!

Neptune is Okay. Idk I think he could’ve had a deeper voice and maybe be more emotional but he was aight. Also at the end he comes up to Eric and Ariel’s boat and peeks out of the water for no reason and it’s the funniest shit ever because it’s like Surprise! sopping wet old man

SPOILERS .

A CHANGE I LIKED. ARIEL WAS THE ONE TO STEER THE SHIP INTO URSULA AT THE END. I LIKE THAT A LOT MORE THAN ERIC DOING IT BECAUSE ITS LIKE ARIEL’S GETTING BACK AT HER AND ITS SOOO MUCH MORE FITTINGGGGG!!!!!!!!

The scuttle dance or what ever. If you care

CONCLUSION. they did a couple things right! (And it could’ve been worse!) but I enjoyed it more than I expected :) I will not give every live action remake this benefit of the doubt.

#movie #the little mermaid 2023 #the little mermaid #movie thoughts #movie review #edit like 6 months later: girl you need to be more critical

[otteroflore]

Watched the mario movie so heres my informal review (spoilers ig)

Positives:

-animation was fine, hard to fuck up when you have thirty years of precedent for what the characters look like. I liked bowsers scales. Peaches head is so small in comparison to marios its weird tho

-i thought marios family was kind of sweet and i liked the bit with the commercial

-luigi had a good clean character arc even if he didnt get much screentime. Also i liked the bit that references his ghost themed games.

Negatives:

-the bit with the dog. If youre going to make it clear these characters are underdogs why not make it be their fault that they did a bad job instead of making it completely random? So weird.

-marios weird characterization/lack of it. His character seems to be painted as “guy who gets back up time after time” but like… thats not really a bad thing? They try to imply it is but its just like not a character flaw.

-He also seems to be worried his dad is disappointed in him and yet that doesnt impact anything he does. Like he doesnt avoid taking chances because hes worried about his dads opinion- at least DK has more interaction with his dad like that.

-who tf is toad why was he there why did he adopt mario and take him to the princess immediately. So many questions.

-not so much a deep criticism but the toads are ugly

-shows a map of the whole world in detail and then is only concerned with like half of it… if youre going to show the desert world then i want it onscreen!

-(and yet im glad they didnt because there were way too many disjointed elements)

-bizarre parkour course that gives away all of the baddies?

-peachs weird backstory about being adopted from the human realm and being crowned princess?? Like you cant just adopt children you find, toads. Also why did they crown her princess. Its not even like “the king/queen adopted her and later she took the mantle” nope they did it for no reason

-way too many things crammed in- DK, karts, rainbow road, and they didnt even use my favorite powerup, super huge mushroom

-DK just being wreck it ralph

-bowser had no character??? Honestly i dont care about peachs backstory i wanted a tender song about how bowser was kicked out of mushroom land for being a turtle but the turtles also didnt respect him because hes a monster and he just wants to be loved. He was so one dimensional honestly.

Things im neutral on

-removing marios accent, i dont care that much, i care more abojt the fact they should hire better *voice* actors instead of alisters.

-girlboss!peach. I dont mind her girlbossing ig

-the sort of clashy bright aesthetics combined with scifi moving platforms and elevators

Anyways probably dont watch this movie unless youre catsitting while doing laundry and dont have anything to do but watch netflix

#shutupotter #otterwatches #super mario bros #movie review

[bunnychargebolt]

Hi yeah im just gonna scream into the void a little bc im angy. Feel free to ignore this :3

Theres gonna be a vague abuse mention and talk about antisemitism :3

Im so fucking wishwijeiwjeiw. We were going shopping. For food. Because i am sleeping over and we will have no car access. And it is not reasonable to doordash all our meals. And i added on hair dye bc we’re dying my hair. And craft store bc i had gift card and I know he likes getting out of the house.

I got him after 12. I did not get home until 10:40. I wanted to get home at 6. Because i have shit I need to do.

We get to sally beauty. “I dont wanna start there” ok. We go into dollar tree. Dollar tree takes awhile. “Why did we even go in there I spent so much money”. BECAUSE YOU DIDNT WANT TO GO TO THE PLACE I DROVE US TO AND I WASNT GOING TO FUCKING DRIVE TO ANOTHER PLACE.

We go into sally beauty. We get the hair dye. “God youre so expensive” dude the deal was if im letting you dye my hair that you buy the stuff when i said “do you want to dye my hair” you could have said n o. Also it was like $26 which isnt that much for two things of iroiro hair dye😭.

I start driving to the next place. “I need food right now or else im gonna throw up” ok. We go get food. “Can we also get food from this place” ok we go there. We also get Starbucks.

“Can we go to this store thats 20 minutes away and come do stuff over here later. It means we get more cartime” ok fine. We go there. It takes maybe like 30-45 minutes bc hes bra shopping. He spends like $300 dollars there.

I ask him if he wants to go into the mall while we’re there (ik he likes it and i didnt want to leave and have him go “can we go back to the mall”)

We go into soencers and he soends like $120. He comes out and says “i cant soend anymore money on non food stuff today” ok thats cool i wamted to get food stuff anyway.

“Is there anywhere else you wanted to go while were down here” he says no. Thats cool. We go back over by me. “We can go to the rue21 while were over here too”

Ok cool whatever. We get my stuff at the craft store. He gets a bunch of shit which takes awhile cause I got all my stuff fairly quickly bc i knew what i was looking for (i got knitting stuff so i can teach myself how to knit!)

“Hey if you wanna go to these two stores over here we gotta go cause the close in like an hour and a half”

He gets distracted by the valentines day stuff.

We go to five below. He gets distracted there. We spend like 20 minutes in rue21 bc they closed soon. Its 8 now. When i wanted to be taking him home after he b e g g e d for more time.

“Can we go to the dollar tree again? I forgot to look for coloring books” “hey i really need to go home and we still need to get food” “well itll only take a couple minutes” *ok*. So we go to dollar tree.

I think i see my exes bsfs mom who knew me bc she drove the three of us around a lot and i freak the fuck out. I whisper “hey i want to go i dont feel comfortable” hes like “why” so i go walk a little bit so i can say it where she isnt LITERALLY RIGHT BY US and he keeps looking at shit. I go “HEY” and hes like “well why would she do anything”

YEAH HI THE MOTHER OF THE BEST FRIEND OF MY A B U S E R WHO BY THE WAY HER SON FUCKING HELPED MY EX DEFEND HITLER TO ME??? KNOWING I AM JEWISH??? I FUCKING WONDER WHY IM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT (he knows about this i have talked abojt it multiple times)

He picks up a pair of socks and im like “no i need to leave” “i cant get a pair of socks?” I AM ACTIVELY HAVING A PANIC ATTACK WE ARE LEAVING. Once we left the store i literally r a n to the car.

I start driving us to the store that he didnt want to go to esrlier bc “were gonna be getting frozen stuff it wont be good sitting in the car” which the plan was really- i pick out a couple food things. He fucking lives there. He should have stuff already. The only frozen thing i was planning on getting was uncrustables. And then like granola bars and a couple small things cause i eat more frequently than he does and ik he doesnt have shit. And im sleeping over for four days. And then going home for two. And then im back for another three days. Again without car access. There needs to be things there.

On the way there he starts talking to me about how hes upset that ive left garbage in his room a couple times. (Valid conversation. Understandable. In the middle of a panic attack though.) but while hes doing that hes like “and the dragonfruit is still there” ok if it is bothering you so much why havent you thrown jt out its been mhktiple days since we did that. That was kast weekend. Also your room is literally full of your garbage. And he was talking about how i didnt help him empty out drinks last time. That was because i had to l e a v e.

It is so so frequently “i need you to do this thing” “hey i cant i really have to get home” “cmon itll only take a couple minutes” ok so i help. “Hey can you also do this thing too” “no i h a v e to go j cant do that” “itll only tale a couple minutes though” I HAVE TO LEAVEEEE. NO.

And then when hes like “you look upset whats wrong” im like “well i dont love having this conversation in the middle of a panic attack. I understand why youre having it i just cant rn” “well you looked fine after we left the store i thought you were ok” no i just have to fucking dribe everywhere i cant be fucking freaking out while im driving but you watched me fucking run out of the store and you know damn well i dont run.

“I also just really wanted to be home already. Theres stuff i gotta do” “what do you need to do” “i have chores i need to do. I meed to make sure im packed. Theres a drawing i want to finish” “you can just do the drawing at my house” NO. I WANT TO DO IT AT MY HOUSE. WE DONT GET SHIT DONE AT YOUR HOUSE AMD THIS IS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT. I NEED THIS TO BE FUCKING FINISHED.

Piggybacking on the nothing ever gets done at his house. “Its kind of frustrating that every time you offer to help clean that we wind up not getting anything done” listen man. It is your fucking shit. It is your house. And you get distracted. I will help clean. But quite frankly. I am shit at cleaning. Im not very helpful. Amd im not going to take the fucking initiative. Especially bc a lot of the shit you need is either me bending down a lot or me staying relatively stationary cleaning shit. Both of those hurt the fuck out of me. And also cleaning is stressful as fuck for me. All of which youre aware of. I dont mind helping. But im not that helpful. And its on you to actually fucking get shit started.

God im just. Theres other stuff too. Im jist. Angry. And i had a fucking ptsd attack on the way home. And im tired and cranky and i want to sob and i want to be held.

I love him. He is my best friend and he is like a sibling to me. But oh my fucking god sometimes he just does not fucking understand and it makes me want to bash my head jnto the fucking wall

#cw vent #tw vent #tw abuse mention #tw antisemitism #im #probably going to sob #im not doing well #at the moment #but i get to work on my drawing for daddy :3 #very excited #ive gotten half of it done and its beautiful and ahhhhh #i like him very very much and i think hell like this!!!

[italianeyes]

true love is unliking and reliking a post so that ur mutual gets the notification that you love them<3

#episode 73973744 of ehat tbe fuck is that noise #cant tell if mh mother is having a bad dream or of its my cats weird breathing #because he has breathing problems for some reason idky we gotta take him to vet but last time the vet was just lkke o ya for his breed his #nose is too small so when he bretha the air do not fit right out of nostril so it sound like he wheezing #idk about you guys but idk what kind of fucking sketchy ass vet says that like its such a weird explanation #also thats what my dad said i wasnt physically there so it could be fake news #idk y he would lie abt thag bjt idk hes lied abojt some pretgy sigijngifnant stuff so ive learned not to trust anything he says #and this is y i have trust issues<3 based on a bad childhood #ANYWAYS #does this even work #so if i like a post right and i rb it and then my mutual rb's it and then i unlike the post will the notif show up that i liked ops post or #that i liked my mjtuals post #someone plsmk bc im dumb #like it makes sense in mh head #also yeah i love doing this bc ill be tok scared to like start a convo w my mutuals who emntion me in their tags #so ill just unlike and relike so that they hopefully get the memo that ive read their tags and i appreciate them #at least thats ehat the message is that im tryna get across #one of them jjst liked lkke 700 of my posts and i was gking thru all the notifs and i was like aw she is my friend<3 althoigh we have never #ever talked #and she also mentioned me in her tags and said that my tags were everhbing so thank you i luv you i forgot ur url sorry alzheimers bjt i #hope u knkw who u are <3 #rockandrolldisgrace i think #also i think the noise is my cat #i think its easier to have a pet so that way when in the middle of the night u hear weird noises u can just day ha cat make sound #and the go bak 2 slep

[dunmertitty]

being bisexual is like

*has a crush on ginger girl who’s half a foot taller than me who talks about climate change and socialism way too much but in an endearing way*

*has a crush on art major dude with really nice skin who talked about phineas and ferb with me (but might be straight)*

*has a crush on the androgynous goth person that works at the campus fuzzys*

#ginger girl went OFF today #she was talking about holding roch people accountable for their actions related to worker treatment and emissions #and i was like. maam please marry me #and the dude- i donf like him because he lets me talk about pnf but like 👀 #i like him becuease hes really sweet and nice and when he asked me abojt my major and j said ecology he was like ‘oh? whats that?’ #but like in a genuine way and he listened to me talk about it and he was so in awe i was like sir its just the envirnmnt it not tht exciting #and hes an art major! and does animations!!! like thats sooooo cool! and thats something you can SHOW people when they ask what you do #like hes so fucking cool and nice and sweet and aaaaaaaa #and yes cute i want to smooch him #i know NOTHING about the hoth person but theyre always rockin it and im jealous #but im gay so instead of jealousy i turn to infatuation

[devilfic]

everyone I know is in love or falling in love and it’s being reciprocated and I really just had to sit down and realize that all I’m doing is writing and reading about fictional characters and that’s like it. hahaha

#mjspeaks #ugly rant #everyone is living their lives even now #and i dont want to try dating apps because i dont like the atmosphere #and i put so much work into cultivating actual geniune relationships with people they never work out #idk man im so tired of crying abojt it writing abt it pretending im fine abt it when people tell me about their lovers #bc i am HAPPY for them but i dont know how to articulate that hesring about it reminds me of where i am and i am just stuck!!! #i do so much and it doesnt mayter no one seems to see me that way no matter how much i dedicate myself to making it happen it doesnt happen #i feel so terrible all the time its earing my alive #i knkw a relationship wont fix me thats not what i want i just want to know theres someone who sees me that way #who thinks of me that way #i deserve to know #its been so long i just want tk know if someone wants me thag way i cant keep doing this anymore

[phainon]

the excuse that I've seen western astrologers use about why tropical > sidereal because it's more psychologically inclined confuses me so much.. i mean what is it about having a system based on the equinoxes that's more personal than one that considers the actual positions of the fixed stars... I don't understand how that's supposed to describe my personality more accurately

#my ni is imploding #it seems to me like tropical astrologers just took a more personal approach to astro? #its not more personal because the system is tropical #but because thats just the route that western astrologers took #vs vedic astro is seen as more predictive bc they have more tools to be so #but that doesnt make tropical astro inherently more personal than sidereal as a system #vedic can be just as psychologically oriented?? #like what i mean is its only more psychological bc thats the main thing the astrologers talked abojt basically #but that doesnt mean the system itself is more psychological. idk #my brain: (sound of fork being microwaved) #c444

[effervescentdragon]

im just thinking about how some people really need to check their entitlement and themselves a bit when they comment on fanfictions. imma speak for myself tho it has happened to both me and to most of my friends who write, and it happens mostly on wips. i would put up a 10-20k chapter and the comments i get are "i hope you update soon/i cant wait to see what happens next" like. what about what just happened in the 17k? what about that? what about the fact that i do this for fun and for free in my spare time and break from my real, obligations-full life? is it really so hard to at least say thank you? before you start demanding more basically, which can also be worded much better than some people are capable of. and dont even get me started on "i think this and this should happen" okay write it then. you take it and write it. this isnt a prompt list this is my fic, i am writing it and whatever i want to happen will happen. im not wording this properly but some people just dont know how to comment normally and come off as absolute assholes and its just not on. not every comment has to be an in depth analysis (tho i would murder for anyone who leaves me those no exaggeration) but comments basically demanding more immediately come off as callous and entitled and honestly make me want to block the commenters so they cant access my writing at all. learn to be a bit more appreciative, i guess.

#dont get me wrong i am not particularly upset because i have so many people who like what i write and are awesome #but this is something thats been on my mind for a while and im just talking to a friend who had it happen to them too #and its honestly upsetting bcs theres a feeling of having to be grateful for any feedback but like. no #if youre gonna be an asshole abojt it i have no obligation to be grateful what the fucl #anyways #on writing #effervescentdragonrants #just a bit of my musings on this lovely wednesday morning

[surpriserose]

hey chris i'm really sorry but i'm gonna follow in that anon's footsteps and ask for rhcp songs for part four characters i need them to have terrible lyrics too </3

I think im just gonna assign them lyrics so i can use songs multiple times and listen to less rhcp <3<3<3

Fuck it ill do everyone i can remember idc its gonna get long

Josuke - sarcastic mister know it all - scar tissue

Let josuke be a little shit i love him <3

Jotaro - the more i see the less i know - snow (hey oh)

Dude jotaro is in every part and he fucks up more and more each time he shows up hes getting worse every year

Okuyasu - in time i want to be your best friend - cant stop

Okuyasu is THE bestie :)

Koichi - living in and out of a big fat suitcase - around the world

I mean....he literally could did you see the size of that thing in part 5? Who needs to pay for hotels

Yukako - i love my baby to death - dani california

I mean..... i love yukako but shes so....

Rohan - im the rainbow in your jail cell - dont forget me

Akirohan....rohan has the limpest wrist in morioh and akiras in jail <3

The fuck is up with the rest of the song tho christ

Mikitaka - road trippin with my two favorite allies - road trippin

Mikitaka would say allies instead of friends....also this is basically the superfly fight <3

Kira actually wait just the entirety of dark necessities like its so edgy and hes lame but he would be like ouuughh im so scary i need to murder people i cant help it im neurodivergent and a 33 year old minor

Shinobu - more than ever i could use a coincidence - hey

Sure was lucky your shitty husband had the exact same body type as kira and was right outside of Cinderella at the same time kira needed an escape and also that aya can change faces and also that he had a similar job to kira and kira was a better husband if you ignore the murder thing :)

Hayato - go ask the dust for any answers- cant stop

Bites the dust :((((((

Yuya - come back strong with 50 belly dancers - cant stop

OUGGHHH THIS LINE SUCKS SO BAD but also yuya is coming back strong with his 3 weed smorking girlfriends :)

Akira - music is my aeroplanes - aeroplane

Listen.....hes the music man and hes got a little toy plane im not gonna think too deep about this

Terunosuke - lucky me im swimming in my ability - give it away

His stand ability is paper...and paper he became </3

Kiras dad - she kisses me windy - under the bridge or fuck he gets two SOMEHOW

I heard your voice through a photograph - otherside

Dude literally needs the wind to move and hes got the stupid photo stand idk dont make me think abojt kiras stupid dad

Joseph - too true to say goodbye to you - dani California

DUDE NEVER EVEN APOLOGIZED TO TOMOKO!!!

Aya - pay your surgeon very well to break the spell of aging - californication

I mean...thats literally her stand

Tomoko - this town is made of many things just look at what the current brings - tell me baby

Dude idk look at what the current brings its joseph and then eventually so much fucking drama she only gets to he tangentially a part of </3

Tonio - you do a little dance and then you drink a little water - give it away

Listen....his food makes you do a little dance and he has nice water :)

Shigechi - the angels in my dreams yeah turned to demons of greed - soul to squeeze

Harvest sucks sorry they are just little guys but shigechis just a greedy little shit but hes also a middle schooler so he also gets to be #deep and a little edgy about his stand

Keicho - when i find my peace of mind im gonna give you some of my good time - soul to squeeze

I mean...dudes not alright and hes kind of a piece of shit because of it </3 but he did one good thing so :)

Reimi - ive got to take it on the otherside - otherside

....shes literally dead idk what else to say

#weed mention #Jjba #Auhghhhghhjjm

[animalinvestigator]

I should be asleep rn but I saw a video on YouTube featuring the logo for Delta Airlines, which is a red triangle, and it reminded me of petscop. Like, delta in math is symbolized by a triangle and represents a change in a variable (like how slope is delta y over delta x). And Care/Paul is associated with triangles. Maybe there’s something there? idk. Both Paul and Delta Airlines being associated with red triangles specifically is prob a coincidence tho, lol

1. i think the delta symbol being a triangle is actually a really compelling theory as to why that specific symbol was chosen??! i never thought of that...and i dotn know much about the implications bcos i know nothing about the delta in math but i will look at it more in detail and post my thoughts if i find anything interesting, if it represents change that is a very compelling line of thought. thank you delta airlines thats very interesting. and thank YOU for noticing that thats probably honestly a better theory than my "it jsut so happens to be a three sided shape" theory

2. you sent this ask just in time for me to have a little more information about the red triangle! 🔺 for those who might be unfamiliar, care anna and marvin are all characters that have existed for around a decade, as they originally appeared in a much older, much less subtle and much less hopeful piece of writing by the guy who made pscop. i dont reccomend seeking it out, the author no longer stands by it afaik and it was personally too triggering for me to read last time i tried so i only know this from a friends experience (thx pall✨🎶), but curiously the red triangle appears in that work as well! i wont go into detail about it because i havent read it firsthand, but the significance that was relayed to me is that it was represented as a "midway point" in that story, which brings up a whole new slew of questions about the author's intentions. but its interesting to know that care has been associated with that red triangle for an insanely long amount of time. super neat and its a lot to think about

thank you for the excuse to talk abojt petted scop and what an interesting thing you noticed‼️‼️‼️ much to think about‼️‼️ hope you got some rest after sending this ✨❤️

[xxbeautyinthebreakdownxxo]

Always Mad

I dont understand that no matter what I do or say youre always mad. I try to do what I can not to make you mad. I ask a question and im wrong for that, you say I should know by now but I still dont seem to understand. I dont do anything bad to you and thats what makes me sad. It hurts when people ask me simple things like "where is he working at today" "when is he coming back" "when is he leaving" "where is he going" "are youse coming" and lots of other questions all with the same reply "he doesnt tell me anything". Heres what I dont understand at all:  

You're always mad, but I always cook you breakfast, lunch, lunch for work, and dinner.. every day. Even when im mad and that makes me mad. You're always mad but I always do your laundry, fold your clothes, and put them away nicely, you've never said thank you.. and thats what makes me mad. You're always mad, but I always tell you how handsome you are even when I never nor have I ever gotten random everyday compliments from you, and that makes me mad. You're always mad but I always tell you how much I love you, even though you never say it first, and alot of times have attitude abojt saying it back, so its said with no meaning only annoyance, and thats what makes me mad. You're always mad, but everyday I ask you how your day was, while mostly all of the time you just give me the "its fine" head nod, followed by silence, and that makes me mad. You're always mad, but ive never missed a holiday, birthday, special occasion, and Ive always thought of you when I go places so I get you things "just because", even though its been 3 years with you and I've never ever ever received anything, not even a flower picked off the side of the road, and that makes me mad. You're always mad, but I have always taken interest, showed some type of interest, asked questions about your interests, took some type of interest in your interests because it makes you happy and you YOU, even though you never take any interest in my interests, and when im excited to tell you about something that interests me you shoot me down and I feel myself go from excited to hurt, and that's what makes me mad. You're always mad, but I always make sure you know and feel that I love and care about you, yet I never feel love, nor have I ever thought you really cared for me, and thats what makes me mad. You're  always mad, but I go,above and beyond to show you I only want you, and no one else gets my attention, yet every couple weeks or months another girl pops up either from your past , or new ones.. and that's what makes me mad. You're always mad, but while were out in public you refuse to hold my hand, and you make sure you are the furthest away from me, basically walk away from me and thats what makes me mad. You're mad, but when your actions cause me to hurt and react you try and turn it on me.. because you can't communicate and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad , but we made a promise to each other that things wouldn't escalate when we fought to the point where pur hands are on each other again... yet the last 3 huge fights we had I was in shock and disbelief that you broke that promise, I kept my hands to myself and didnt even defend ,. I sat there asking why you hate me..,and thats what makes me mad.  You're mad, but you told me you put your hands on me because you dont k ow how else to react, because you so desperately dont want me to leave so you dont let me.. I stay because not only am I in love with you, but because I know this isnt the real you, you're angry and although I forgive you and never left your side especially when your demons came out. Yet you never said sorry or showed appreciation for any of it and thats what makes me mad. You're mad, but ive always been by your side when you needed me with anything, even take care of you when you're sick, even though anytime I needed you mostly all of the times you were nowhere to be found and ive never even received a "do you need anything" when im sick, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but when i found out I was pregnant you were so mean to me, you called me a whore, and spread mean things around about me .. youre mad, but when you said we should abort agreed even though I didn't want to. Youre mad, but an hour before my appointment  you begged me not to do it and that you'd be there and not let me do it on my own. Last minute I cancelled the appointment, and you never ever made it to one  baby appointment, never once asked how I was feeling, never once felt him moving, never once showed concern about him, you didnt want me going anywhere so you kept me very close , and as I was pregnant sleeping in your bed every night, you would leave all night long and screw around on me, you,never bought one thing that the baby needed, you never came to the birth even after I begged multiple times, you told me that you hope I die right before I went into get the c-section.... you didnt speak to me for days, and you never came.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but I forgave you and 2 weeks after our son was born you were fucking an ex  fling .. THEN you finally met him, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but after telling me you wanted to try and make a family work, and that you loved me , you were going around denying him and telling people you didnt want a family with me , and thats what makes me mad. You say youre mad.. we came so very far from those things for a little while we had peace, you were faithful, and I had my little family, I felt loved somewhat ... we moved in together.. you started treating me bad again, then you were caught doing things behind my back that you knew would hurt me, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but I asked why out of all your options you chose me .. you said "because I was the only one dumb enough to stick around" .... and in a way that makes me mad. Youre mad, but im completely in love with you, stuck around and believed you'll eventually change because you were broken when we met and "hurt people hurt people" .. nothing youve done made me love you less, it just made me feel a different kind of hurt. . Yet every day I dont feel loved or appreciated back and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad , but if you ever read this youd find a way to leave becUse you cant take honestly and credibility.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but you know there is alot of things I didnt write because my fingers hurt from holding this tablet for so long as youre iracing, and havent spoken to me since you got home other than teing me I was making you mad for asking questions, and im an idiot because I should know by now.. even though all day long I waited for you to get home bc I missed you... you responded with a sarcastic laugh and shook ur head no and havent spoken to me since .. and thats what makes me mad. Most of all what makes me mad is knowing you can love , communicate, care, and treat me better .. it makes me mad because you must think I dont deserve that from you. It makes me mad you dont appreciate me or the unconditional love I have for you.. and thats what makes me mad . Youre mad , but I love you so much that I wont leave or give up on you because I know youre my person, and you know you,can get away with anything because of that and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but the good days are so good I never want them to end .. good and bad days you make me happy .. you show things very seldom, but still in your own fucked up way.. I know under your hurt you must love me bc you,never let me leave and youve once told me you never loved someone as much as me and thats why I dont understand how you treat me this way, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad but people think im mad for staying, I just know youll come around .. its 4:18am ive been writingg for over an hour , maybe its been two , but you said to stop talking , so I started writing, you havent spoken a word to me and ur still racing. Youre mad because im writing and not talking as yiu said.. you keep glancing ocer and sighing .. youll come to bed in silence and turn ur back to me like I did this .. and thats what makes me mad. I love you so much and I wont ever give up on you because as fucked as all of this is , I want you forever. I deserve it after all .. what makes me mad is I can feel that youre going to leave .. it hurts and scares me.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad but knowing you never read this, or somehow find this you wont read it all and realize what u have right here. You wont care to change and fix this.. and thats what makes me mad. 

One last thing, you're mad, but I know there's someone else.. yet you wont be honest with me.. youre mad but I dont understand why someone else gets the best you.. meaning you treat them like they mean something, n I bet u talk to her nice and with respect, im sure you compliment and confide in her and I bet you tell her ur problems and about your day and how much you want to leave because you hate your life with me , I bet she gets the best you, and that makes me mad, but most of  it tops everything else.. its killing me and you dont care. How does she get the best you ive n begging for, an waiting for.. how does she deserve that so effortlessly.. yet ive been out through just about everything , all the emotions , all the hurt, and stuck by you.. it makes me mad and kills me that you think still after everything.. I still deserve nothing from you other than hurt. How could you.. it makes me mad bc ill never get an answer... 

Youre mad, but I loved, love, and it will always BE YOU. I showed and still continue to show unconditional love and u dont care thats why im mad. 

You're mad but I loved you the most......

And thats what makes me mad. 

[futurewriter2000]

Okay so tell me honstly how are you? Is something troubling you?? Okay i just saw your post of you leaving and i dont know if you would share it with with us (thats your choice ofcourse we (your followers) wont pressure you to tell us) but is everything okay, love? Are you okay? I am asking you this because i care. Because i care about you even when i have never met you. Just remember we care. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone feel free to talk to me❤❤

Here is the thing. I am a person who hates asking for help,who hates to confide into someone because I always feel ignored and like I'm causing others to carry my burdain. But I really have noone else to talk to because I just don't trust anybody with too much details but here is the summary.My life is crumbling down. Like right in front of me. My family is completly fucked and I hate being at home (if you could call it that). I honestly don't know where is worse. Home or school. Because at home is just...well....fucked up and school is just so... well it makes me want to go to a looney house. I'm always so exhausted. Like stressed and depressed and SO FUCKING exhausted. And im not physically exhausted. Id love to go for a run but i cant because it really doesnt make sense. Like i get lost in my head. No thoughts, no thinking. Its like for a moment i become an object. A brainless fucking object. I just get lost. And I started to lose my word vocabulary and I can't read normally. I can't even speak properly anymore. My tongue gets tied and I start to stutter (AND I never stuttered) . I feel so sad inside but all i do is laugh. And its just that meaningless laugh where I don't even know what im laughing about. I kust want them to think im okay because if i dont show my usual smile or laugh they send me glares and talk to me with attitude because for one day i am too fucking tired to make someone smile. Everybody keeps telling me I always seem to make their day but when a day comes where I just simply cant (because home problems) and I just need to feel sad than everybody else is just like "whats wrong with you?" Or " why are you acting retarded" LIKE SOOOOORRRYYY FOR HAVING A BAD FUCKING DAY. LIKE FOR ONCE IN TOUR LIFE YOU MAKE ME SMILE!!! And honestly there is this friend (or idk if we still are) and i thought we were like super close and i confuded a lot to her but she doesnt even give a shit about me. Like its been 5 days and she didnt even call or text to see if im okay. And i bought her a birthday gift and i really thought she liked it but than her cousin sent me a snap of gift under her bed. Like okay...guess it was a bad gift...And than there are professors and i know every fucking studnet has this problem but my professors suck ass. Like when my class teacher found out abojt my writing she immediatelly started to make fun of me. And i started to defend myself with a bit attitude and she just looked at me and said i should hite my tongue before i speak another word because i might end up in trouble. Like FUCK YOU AND YOHR PRIVLIGES OF A FUCKING PROFESSOR! GUESS WHAT BITCH! WE ARE FUCKING EQUAL! WE HAVE THE SAME RIGHTS! Just because you are in a higher position than me doesnt make you a superior. And another professor just gave me a whole 1 semester to write a test because of only one negative test from 6 all together. AND I was in a hospital that day and thats why i couldnt come to the test. BECAUSE OF THE STUPID DRAMA FESTIVAL I HAD TO HELP ORGANISE AND ENDED UP IN A HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF OVERWORK! Besides that i keep ditching school and lying to my parents. But how can i not. Situation here at home is just something so ... fucked up. Like i cant even describe the situation going on in here and AGHHH! So much is just going downhill for me. Plus my nipple hurts and it looks fucking swollen. And no! Its not because of what your dirty mind thinks of! It just started to hurt.Anyways. Thank you love for asking hecause i really needed to rant to someone. Honestly, I kind of feel better. ❤❤❤❤❤❤