#because take being in a crowd

[tenrose]

Had my first therapy today (actually it's not a classical type of therapy) and I have to fill various questionnaires to evaluate my anxiety, phobias, depression etc. And you know it's the "never" "rarely" "always" etc. types of situations and I can feel a disaster incoming.

I know you can't fail a mental health evaluation, I'm just saying that I'm going to fail at my own mental health evaluation lmao

#i hope it does not end up as badly as the onlines one 💀 #but the online ones don't count #plus it's gonna be so like... contradictory?????? #because take being in a crowd #i don't like it for shopping or in the bus or whatever #however for a concert from a band i love? i manage to get over it #also take the fact that i can't go to the restaurant alone except when im really hungry #HOWEVER I've been able to go to Germany on my own with nobody else??? #and generally speaking when I'm on vacation on my own i have no problem going to the restaurant???? #it makes fucking sense at all #im doomed #there is so much work to do for 50€ a session... #i don't even know how much my insurance is gonna refund #but... i can't close my eyes anymore

[cringefaecompilation]

cannot stand it when i see posts saying orym could/can only ever have concrete conversations about himself and his feelings with either dorian or ashton or that they're the only people that would understand what he's going through. asides from the Women Just Don't Get It-ness of it all, like:

i rest my case

#🍃 #critical role #critrole #fearne calloway #orym of the air ashari #they are BESTIES they are FRIENDS they are THE MOMENT #and even besides that i understand that fearne and orym have not gone through the same stuff but like... #are you telling me fearne does not or could not understand loneliness in the same way orym has #fearne. the girl who was left alone with only the hope of her parents being alive/caring through postcards in a time-dilated strange world #the girl who panics whenever anything changes that could take away her friends #the girl who fears being locked away because it reminds her of that loneliness more than being locked up #the girl who tries her damnedest to ensure that everyone she loves is safe and secure from any threat and shatters when she has to hurt the #the girl so desperate for someone to love her and not leave her that when her supervillain dad was ranting at her she was kind of grateful #you're saying she cannot understand orym's own feelings of inadequacy if he cannot protect innocents or his loneliness in a crowd? on god? #i do think that ashton is a good friend to orym and he can relate to him on other levels #and that dorian would also be understanding if he knew #BUT FEARNE IS RIGHT THERE

[andthebeanstalk]

Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife

#simon petrikov #original #at #the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse #and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby #I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but #devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option?? #it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do?? #I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession #I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years! #and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself #but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture #so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful #beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to. #betty grof #fionna and cake #golbetty #golb #*driven mad by a magical crown #you forgot your floaties #edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become #betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling #but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too #but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently? #it's a good story

[ispeakeasily]

I don't think people are clocking what's going on when these colleges and universities call police to a student protest.

These protests have been non-violent, centering community, education, culture, solidarity, and, of course, divestment. They are made up of the body these institutions are meant to serve, expressing concerns and issuing demands.

But, to those with power in a capitalist system, interrupting the flow of capital will always be seen as peak violence. The heads of these institutions and the politicians backing them, albeit headasses, are smart. They know some things:

One. When police show up to non-violent protests, everyone -- the cops, the protesters, bystanders, passersby -- gets agitated. Things get tense and physical violence is more likely.

Two. The police will kill you. Some of them really want to. We have seen, in living memory, police kill anti-war student protesters on campus.

It's a very generous assessment to say that these colleges and universities, these politicians, are merely willing to let these students be killed for protesting the war and interrupting the flow of funds.

(I wrote this yesterday and didn't post it 'cause I kind of just keep my thoughts in my drafts and interact with people elsewhere online, but after everything that has happened in that time, I think it needs to be said that these institutions are calling the police in because they know they will attack protesters. They are calling them in to violently, even lethally, snuff out this movement. They're called in to administer punishment, not peace.)

#and it's still what? #FREE PALESTINE #protests #student protests #people tend to feel safe when protesting at their schools #because we overestimate how valued we are as students #but y'all really need to take the same precautions you would protesting in the streets #protect your identity because you are all being assigned a new Ef Biyai agent lol #no seriously it's very scary when cops you've never seen call you out in a crowd because they've been keeping tabs on you #not a fun time #but we move!

[gay-artificer]

I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing

#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina #in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE #NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch #i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her #because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end #and you had to read between the lines to get to “wait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked up” #and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper #then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into #how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that #and suddenly it clicked for everyone! #suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the #'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world #but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?' #and i feel that way about pebbles tbh #i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour #and its higher focus on them and their stuff #im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will #but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao #actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar.... #huh?

[osiris-iii-bc]

I've been feeling a bit sad in the past few days, so I just rewatched my pictures and videos from my ritual in Nice last summer, especially as I'm planning concerts and festivals for the next one. I realized I never shared these pictures and videos on social media, only with my friends, so here they are if you want to feel nostalgic with me. 

Despite arriving at the venue later than I had planned due to a little nap at the hostel and catching the wrong bus, I managed to secure a good spot in the 5th or 6th row next to the platform. Btw It was a surprise to me that there was even a platform in the center: I only realized it when Papa walked on it, and suddenly I found myself closer to him than I had expected lol

The strongest feelings I remember are:

Copia coming out with the thurible. I remember thinking it was unreal and I was just watching a giant video screen or something.

The vibrations of Respite on the Spitalfield’s violins in my chest. It wasn’t a favorite song of mine but after the show I totally reevaluated it.

Wasn’t Ciriced of course, but Papa looked at my direction a couple of times and I couldn’t do anything but smile like the little moron I am.

#Only one video because my hysterical singing is enough for a few seconds #I took videos or photos only for a few songs seconds and enjoyed the show #Towards the end the flow carried me a bit on the back but I took the most chaotic and funny videos though #the band ghost #ghost ritual #papa emeritus iv #Being short is a problem! #The little “oh oh!” cause the crowd literally made me jump by inertia #My phone has a very shitty camera #Of course we sang Take on me before the ritual

[slightlytoastedbagel]

actually On Your Feet gave us two good things (well. three if you like Realize which I do). Kohane's "it's frustrating" line and the great crack fic idea of Vivid Bad Squad getting cancelled online for skipping school to yell at The Kotaki Taiga as he was about to go back to America.

#no because. he went there to continue radder's dream yeah? the one about becoming world successful musicians #and they had a record label for a bit. they were definitely going to make it at least somewhat. #so we can assume taiga is at the very least a semi well known musician yeah? #one that someone about to either leave or enter japan might know about. who will see this musician they enjoy #being shouted at by a high school girl in her school uniform about how they will surpass him or something along those lines #with three other kids (in uniform from a different school) standing behind her #and then going onto sekai universe twitter to post about it and the taiga kotaki fans taking it by storm #taiga gets off the plane in america and finds he's trending and it's because people are making fun of a blurry picture of his ex pupil #meanwhile vivid bad squad just don't know because it was contained entirely on twitter and. #be honest can you see any of them having twitter because i can't. an maybe but akito doesn't have time for social media and toya is toya #and kohane is a tumblr girlie if i've ever seen one #however it does give the great concept of someone else seeing it and debating if they should say anything #because mmj definitely has an official account they could have seen it on and also there's ena shinonome and mizuki akiyama #but anyway this also means when they do put on the event to surpass rad weekend (or whatever their goal ends up being) #there will be a crowd of people looking at it and going “isn't that the group of kids that twitter made fun of ages ago?” #and then taiga kotaki stans on sekai universe twitter will be stunned because they did in fact surpass him #if it wasn't for the gcses i would write this but alas. enjoy my weird thoughts #bagel's rambles #project sekai #i am scared to main tag this one but. fuck it we ball

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Nightwing #100 was fun and a good celebration of Nightwing's history and progress. The Titans set up was really cool to see and I hope DC follows through with putting the Titans into the spotlight.

BUT

It can't be in the Nightwing series. I can't think of anything more damaging to The Titans as a team and to Nightwing himself than to have the entirety of the Titans crammed into a solo series.

This is why we have team series and solo series. People don't read Titan series for stories 98% focused on Grayson with every other Titans character relegated to a cameo support role. People don't read Nightwing for stories revolving around his Titans' leadership duties.

The best part about the Titans is that it's a diverse group of personalities and skillsets. Every character gets a chance to shine, every character has a distinct personality and goals. They aren't Dick Grayson's backup dancers or personal cheerleading squad. And Dick's book should be where he gets to just be himself doing stealth missions and clandestinely fighting assassins, without trying to be the perfect leader that's always got a plan.

I liked Nightwing #100 and I've liked the other times Titans characters have crossed over into the series. But this can't just be it. They have to have a Titans series. They have to.

#dicks stories are supposed to be more down to earth. his appeal is that he is the underdog without powers using skill and his smarts #im not going to lie. having an elit team of supersoldiers at his beck and call kinda ruins that aspect #dick being the leader is great and all but it isn't why people read Nightwing #in the Titans dick is the smart leader with a plan. they all have skillsets and that is his. its not all he is but in a team setting #thats what he has to do. they all play roles to function well as a team #i mean Wally (who is one of the only other ones with a solo series) mainly plays support on the Titans #transportation. scouting. evacuation. crowd control. damage control. ect #hes typically got a separate task while everyone else is taking down the big bad. and thats not because he wants to #or because thats all he does. he plays support because thats his job in a team setting. #his solo series is where he can actually fuck stuff up #so yeah the titans need a solo book. for everyone's sake. i mean Wally is fine cause hes got his own series #but think of Donna. won't anyone think of Donna #dc #dc comics #teen titans #titans

[tardis--dreams]

Gonna go running tomorrow!!!! Gotta hype myself up because i know once my alarm goes off at 6am i will not be as excited anymore ((((: BUT I'LL GO RUNNING!!!!

#i just #need to get some actual exercise #where i can completely exhaust myself #i mean. i get some pretty exhausting 10 minutes every morning on my hike to class #but i want something a bit longer and something that will end in a nice shower and not in a seminar room #I'm just a bit scared of how it'll go because so far the paths where people exercise are also occupied by other people #and then there's bikes that might kill you if you don't watch out #so i wanna go early so i hopefully avoid random people taking a painfully slow walk in the middle of the path #so you can't pass them #but I'll be moving!!! fast!! i cannot wait tbh #i should have gone tonight #(watch me oversleep and be too unmotivated to go tomorrow morning... istg if i don't get up at 6 #I'll still go at 8 or 9 or 10 am and have to live with the consequences of the paths being crowded #I'd go to bed early but my neighbors keep me up until 2am every night so that's fun #but the running will be worth it #(I'm not even a runner ㅠㅠ i just need to substitute my usual high intensity workouts with something other than pilates and yoga #i mean it's definitely not bad to be forced to do something out of my comfort zone but i really miss my jumping around time) #void screams

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I don't know how I do that but I'm friends with so many trans people

#and for what!!!! #because buddy if i were trans let me tell you i would know by now #i've had years multiple trans friends of all flavours and 24/7 access to tumblr #i'd know #but here i am cis+ with just. an astonishing amount of trans friends for a cis girl #i don't know i guess it's cause i'm queer and weird?? #i'm not kidding btw there's like. what. 12 people on my list of friends right now? #okay wait let's push it to 15 just to account for the people i must have forgotten #i have about 15 friends #and like half of that have something up with their gender #it's official. i'm a magnet for people who had a shit school experience and also trans people i guess #and the neurodivergent/disabled crowd also. but i'm neurodivergent and i had a shit experience in school so. #it's both a very nice environment (cool queer people) but sometimes it's a bit hard to talk about gender #because i have trans friends who take me saying i want to wear waistcoats as me being trans. which. nope #like i am so not a guy. i wouldn't panic too much if i suddenly woke up with a typically male body sure #but like. i'm not a guy. i don't know what's going on here 100% but it's not that i'm a guy #i just want to wear waistcoats i'd love shapeshifting powers and one day i'll try binding #this is me being a curious fucker with a sense of style #if someone else implies there is an egg in me i should crack i'm going to snap #sorry apart from that it's fun having trans friends. cool people #i say that now cause we're 5 housemates total and like 2 of those are trans people #and a third has something going on somewhere near his gender i think. i think? probably. #and they're friends with more people who are doing a gender #so many trans people in my social circle.... #that and my two high school closest friends are also having fun with it #i'm the only one. i'm the only cis person of some of my friend groups! #wow i have a ramble tag now

[bigothteddies]

referring to ur partner as a moot is so funnynsbsbxncn u guys need like moot friendship bracelets to solidify ur friendship<3 pals being pals !!

once a mutual always a mutual 🫶🏻💖✨

but seriously calling them a mutual sometimes carries the gravity and emotions of some things more than just referring to them as my partner. like if I say my partner it’s just kind of a “oh they miss their boyfriend” kinda deal but when it’s a mutual it carries that weight of a long distance online friendship-turned-more, that history of long-time admiration and obsession, the gravity of what it means for you to finally meet up and be able to exist near each other, even if only for a few days.

#asked and answered #anon #besides even beyond this past weekend #I get similarly fucked up even when getting to see other mutuals #even when I take a single day off from work and drive just to hang out with someone for a few hours yk? #like in both situations it feels surreal and like you’ve left your normal life behind #like you’re seeing an internet celebrity irl and being FRIENDLY with them irl? #it feels ridiculous like you’re the luckiest person alive to see this person irl and know so much about them #while all their followers only get to see their blog and posts you get to be their actual Friend and see them! #its so surreal #and returning to normal life after that…. #going back to texts and posts and reblogs and being another person in the crowd #putting their friendship back behind a screen and going back to work #it just fucking sucks #it’s like peaking a glance at heaven and then being slammed back into your normal life like nothing changed (cause nothing did) #but!!! I’m just delusional and obsess over internet friendships because I dont have any irl #but yeah my partners a mutual first and foremost 🫶🏻 #pro tip date mutuals the head goes fucking insane

[katya-goncharov]

i had such a hellish bus journey home from work today and i'm STILL drained from it

#basically the bus i usually take was cancelled because the bus service from my uni is shit and since hardly any buses come in the #evening i had to wait over half an hour for the next one after my late shift at work ended #and because it was a friday night the entire bus stop was crowded with rowdy drunk undergrad students #and then when the bus did come you could tell the bus driver was completely fed up with them because she deliberately waited like #ten minutes to set off until everyone quietened down. and then every time they got too rowdy she'd stop the bus again #and i was really paranoid because the journey was taking so long and it was like nearly midnight by this point and i didn't want to be #walking home through town so late because you get really dodgy people about and i knew i wouldn't feel safe! #and the drunk students were being SO loud and they kept screaming at the tops of their voices and blowing vape smoke pretty #much right into my hair and i was just feeling very impatient and overstimulated #and THEN to top it all off one of them vomited in the seat across from me and it smelt awful and i had to step over it just to get off #the bus. and i couldn't even get food on the way home because it was so late by the time the bus arrived that everywhere was closed #so yeah. not a fun evening and now i'm just tired and annoyed and the worst thing is i have to do a late shift AGAIN tomorrow

[moreaugriffins]

you know when you have a headcanon that like, you came up with because you thought it made sense but weren't that serious about nor really truly hc it then as time goes on, you realise that oh, yeah no, that headcanon is there to stay. that is forever part of your thoughts

that's been me with the idea of Nigel being autistic

#cbs ghosts #nigel chessum #idk how to describe my reasoning beyond waving vaguely at him and going “just - *him*” #but idk - him with the ants (and roaches and ducks) #him really not wanting to change the path he and isaac takes (before he clocked that isaac was actually talking about something else) #him literally vibing to spice girls as isaac is sitting next to him getting guilted by sas and hetty (they were talking loud enough for #nigel to hear - the dude was just too invested in the music) #but it was mainly the scene with thor (when they were watching tv) that first made me think #because yes nigel is scrunched up but also it looks like he's scrunching up more to avoid physical touch #and his face when thor does pat him on the shoulder/back #and also him not being able to deal with thor's loudness (and everything) to the point where he almost jumps out of his seat and makes a #swift exit - to go back to a quiet less crowded familiar place (the shed) #like - nigel was overwhelmed and probably overstimulated #(he was me.. him in that scene is just me) #im not sure if this is at all explained well #or makes sense #but damn this will forever be in my head for nigel

[death-rebirth-senshi]

I'm not gonna post that -_- too out of pocket

#but what I WILL whisper in the tags. And this isn't what I was gonna post. #is that I can now accept in my old age that this is part of what I disliked about Vivienne in Inquisition #after all the posts I saw gassing her up (or rather. Not gassing her up really. Not talking about her character at all; just discourse) #I was so sorely disappointed with what I got. And I think all the moreso because I can imagine what this crowd would say about her #if she were white. Because of how for example some talk about Anders (never ever ever forgetting people referring to Anders as a liberal. #Because liberal just means 'white guy whose politics I don't like' to these people) #my point being I try to take it with a grain of salt that I'm sure fandom is really really weird about their dislike for VIvienne #and that she's not *remotely* held to the same standards as say Cullen who remains my inescapable enemy #But nonetheless. She fell short of my expectations. I mean everyone in Inquisition does I hate this game for a reason #Cullen remains at the top of my shitlist and the fact that his haters are so few and far between is proof of how awful fandom is #but you know. But I know. But you know. You know? It's complicated. I know better. I don't. It's just a feeling. You know? #I have further complicated feelings about mother giselle and barris and the whole thing but that's a little more unfair and personal #there isn't an alternative that would satisfy me let's say

[vakariansmind]

DC x Invincible

So after falling down the rabbit hole based on danny phantom in the DC verse, I decided to create some hcs based on Invincible (Mark Grayson) being in the verse.

The first time Mark lands in the DC verse, he lands in Gotham. Because of Gordon telling Bruce that something landed in Gotham, Bruce went out to check and found a kid with his suit torn to bits and blood covering him.

He is not so friendly to Mark while donning the cowl. Especially after Mark asked him who he was only for the young hero to call him lazy.

After getting called lazy, Bruce calls upon Superman, who immediately comes to Bruce’s side. Clark asks Bruce what he needs, only for Bruce to point at Mark. “Your job,” he says before leaving Invincible in Superman’s hands.

Superman is kind of confused, like “what should I do with this boy?” So he contacts Bruce only for Bruce to say “I don’t know. Not my problem.”

The first question out of Invincible’s mouth to this man who strangely reminds him of a nicer version of Omni-Man is “is he always like that?”

Superman is hesitant to answer, but when he eventually answers, his answer is affirmative. That causes Mark to just sit there with a look that screams “Makes sense.”

After checking the other hero for any injuries, Superman asks Mark his name.

“I’m Invincible.” “Is that your real alias?” “Uh, yes? Listen, Immortal was taken and I couldn’t think of anything else.” “Oh. Okay.”

After finding out Mark’s alias, Clark takes him back to Smallville, allowing Mark to stay with his parents for the time being and helps Mark train his powers.

He also meets the rest of the Justice League and the Teen Titans, working with both teams on various problems.

After Invincible gets used to living in Smallville and working with Superman, the Viltrumites back on Mark’s Earth are like “wait where is he?” Because one moment, Nolan’s offspring is on Earth and the next he isn’t.

Everyone kinda forgets about Mark’s existence only for Mark to come back much stronger than ever before. He uses the training he learned from Clark to help him with fights.

BONUS

After Mark becomes emperor of the Viltrum Empire, Mark had the Viltrumites help him build a portal to another dimension (using old tech from Angstrom Levy) “to see an old friend.” He takes Eve and their children with him through the portal, ending up back in Smallville where a much older Clark Kent resides with his wife, Lois Lane-Kent.

There is a gravestone marked with the names Martha and Jonathan Kent, on which Mark places some flowers as a thank you to them. Clark is the one to see Mark at the gravestone, suspicious at first at the stranger being at his parents’ grave. However, Clark’s suspicion changes to shock as the stranger turns, revealing that it’s Mark. In just a split second, the Viltrumite and the Kryptonian literally fly at each other and the unofficial father-son duo reunite with a bone-crushing hug.

He brings them inside, to which all the kids (mainly Conner and Jon) dogpile Mark. Clark is just happy to have Mark back with them, and he even dials up Bruce (who’s alive but officially retired as Batman) and the rest of the Justice League, letting them know excitedly that Mark is back. To say there is a tear-jerking reunion is an understatement.

#dc x invincible #clark is like the father mark wanted #instead of nolan #also yes bruce is extremely salty about being called lazy #that’s why he calls on superman #because he’s like this kid called me lazy just for naming myself batman #he brings it up at the next jl meeting only for everyone to kinda give each other side glances #also gotta love pa and ma kent taking in mark like he’s one of their own #also clark has like all his kiddos at this point so like the kent family farm is quite crowded. #but ma and pa kent don’t mind #mark grayson #invincible #superman #batman #dc

[lookninjas]

2235.

in the midst of all these summer homes in winter crowded together kissing close one empty lot and then another like missing stairs like this should feel like some kind of a relief and it just doesn't and I can't tell you why

#365 #poetry #also i didn't take a picture because it felt weird #but there's a house that's presumably being redone #got the sign up advertising who's doing it #and the trim of the porch has these hand-painted flowers #and this is original right this is chipped and faded and it's the old house #that's about to go away forever #and it's so fucking depressing #it's the mcminimalism thing that gets me #not quite mcmansions because those aren't as trendy now so it's these clean white and gray rectangles #still oversized crowding the lot super close to one another but 'minimalist' in that trendy way #and that's what's going to happen that's what we get we lose that painted trim #and we'll lose those vacant lots #and it'll all be mcminimalist #that's my tag rant enjoy your evening