#bc then you're lying

[that-bi-bitch-writes]

i try to be friendly in the comments of fanfic but racism i can't deal with so 🤷‍♂️

#they made bucky captain america because 'the world still needs it's falcon' #seems racially motivated to me seeing as how if you've actually watched falcon and the winter soldier you know how importnat it is #bucky needs to take time and learn how to be a person #he is not in any way prepared to be captain america #but you do know who is? #the much more well adjusted black man #knowing america's history of racism #and the whole storyline about what they did #to black soldiers? #are you gonna sit there and tell me it isn't your bias for the troubled white guy and all your stucky worship? #bc then you're lying #that man hasn't even finished his court mandated therapy #he's still reeling from being a brainwashed nazi assassin #how is he gonna represent america? #well i guess in a way this country is being run by neo nazis #but really? #really?

[bacchuschucklefuck]

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best

#fantasy high junior year #fhjy #riz gukgak #figueroth faeth #sklonda gukgak #dimension 20 #this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really. #I am very normal about riz (<- lying) #it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth) #riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the #majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job #and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous #like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time #not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day #and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize #you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working #this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me #the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society #holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense #anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir

[moonrpg]

can you two stop cycling through your idle animations for FIVE SECONDS 🫵 I'm trying to listen to the music adapt to changes in the environment

#pikmin #pikmin 2 #captain olimar #pikmin louie #going from my first pikmin game (4) to pik2 was really funny bc this really caught me off guard. like you make no noise at all in 4 lol #'he's so quiet i keep forgetting he's there' i know you're lying olimar #myart

[worstloki]

following the theory that loki intentionally banded the avengers together so he could sicc them on thanos later, after he took the throne in T:TDW, i think he'd be so angry at the events of civil war like:

loki as odin: hello heimdall, how do earth's mightiest heroes fare as of late?

heimdall: they have disagreed on many subjects and split up two days ago

loki:

heimdall:

loki: they haVE WHAT?

cue loki coming down to earth and bonking everyone's heads together until they all get along again

stark: how the heck are you alive???

loki: skills. listen here, i did not pour my blood, sweat and tears to form this team for you idiots to throw all my hard work out the window!

loki, grabbing rhodes and stark by the wrists: now, we are going to get your little friends out of prison, understood?

like an exasperated kindergarten teacher, y'know?

Loki, hitting Steve over the head with a newspaper: he's your friend, of course he's upset you lied to him about something like this

Tony: hah!

Loki, giving Tony a death glare: did you have to fight each other about it

#Loki should lecture them on morals good sportsmanship lying loyalty and self sabotage #Loki @ Scott like 'and what are you here for??' #and Scott is like awh he doesn't know me. uncool. #Loki: I just don't see why you're risking your right to see your daughter over some skirmish you have no business with #Scott: uhm #Loki: do you WANT to update your criminal record bc there are better ways to do it. #Scott: -__- #Loki: ways that don't involve parasocial relationships and blind loyalty to some national icon you had never ?? met in person before???? #Scott: I just wanted to be included #Loki: eat the rich when it doesn't involve damage to public resources next time #Bucky: hi #Loki: i have no notes #Peter: 0-0 #Loki turning back to Tony: and the CHILD--

[siouxsiee]

sydcarmy doesn't have to be endgame nor will it not being endgame ruin the bear (should we get another season), but im not kidding when i say people arguing vehemently against it and swearing up and down that sydney and carmy have zero chemistry is rooted in antiblackness.

if syd and claire were to swap places in the show, i know i wouldn't see as much pushback and discourse surrounding her (claire's) potential relationship with carmy. people have shipped other non-confirmed couples for far less.

#its antiblackness!! im not kidding #and of the colorist variety as well bc syd is darker skinned #which drives me up the fucking wall because look at syd and carmy!!! its there! its right there #and again the bear doesn't need a romantic angle. but you're lying if you don't see the obvious nods to sydcarmy #the bear #the bear spoilers #carmen berzatto #sydney adamu #sydcarmy #the bear s2 #sydney x carmy #oikwss

[orange-catsidy]

another similarity between wrestling and kpop fans is when ur fav/bias is doing shit that sucks and you have to try to pretend its good. basically i'm saying the golden jets is to kenny what wolf was to exo

#and dont say wolf is good bc you're fucking lying #wrestle opinions

[hamartia-grander]

I haven't come out to my family for obvious reasons but my brother (who is unlearning his conditioned homophobia, proud of him) knows that I'm gay even tho I've never said anything and he adamantly jokes about it constantly when we're not around our parents, and says he's trying to trip me up into eventually outing myself to him. And like I totally would just come out to him but at this point it's just funnier to tell him I'm straight and have it be the equivalent to coming out to him with how he absolutely does not believe me one bit

#It's so fucking funny #He also clocked me w the babygirl shit I said (lying) I do like guys and he said “maybe feminine ones. Either way you're getting a babygirl” #Also I said I still love drinking sparkling cider instead of real alcohol bc it's so good and he said “yeah we know lesbian” okay #Idk how he found out but if it were anyone I'd definitely rather it be him #His gf is a great influence when it comes to unlearning our father's bullshit

[raayllum]

in honour of this post, tags on another of mine i cannot remember that talked briefly about Rayla's issues, and that I've talked about Claudia and Callum's moments of being hypocritical, now I want to actually talk about Rayla's hypocritical tendencies cause it's something S4 and S5 made a fun little consistency - let's dive in

Rayla can sometimes ignore (or react indignantly to) other people possibly having their own reasons/justifications because she's tunnel visioned into only thinking about her own justifications as uniquely warranted

Let me explain

The first time I noticed this was in 2x03, mostly because it was one of those moments that made me laugh even though it's not trying to be funny because

Cause Rayla, honey, you know you lied to them too ("lying and hiding the truth aren't that different") - and Callum forgave you for that and is still your friend. Why would Claudia and Soren be any different to him? (And they are, but not the point of this point).

Now, unlike Soren (who is the person they're primarily discussing), Rayla didn't lie outright, but she did lie by omission - much the same way Claudia did. And Rayla has known her own motivations all along - probably worried they might give up on their mission if they knew (especially at the start), and she doesn't want them to hate her, and most of all by this point in the show, she didn't want to hurt them ("I'm afraid of hurting him" / "when you care about someone, it's hard to hurt them").

This made sense to me in terms of Rayla being good at being initially (often times rightfully, sometimes not so) indignant on her own behalf. She is able to justify herself and does so often, both angrily - as the next examples will show - and more neutrally ("How could I take his life?"). She defends herself both physically and personally to Corvus ("I didn't kill anyone"), she smarts at Callum when he (rightfully) tries to push at her ("I don't have to explain anything to you"), and is mad at Ethari when they initially talk ("Yeah, it's me. Surprised to see my face?"). This initial defense of herself doesn't usually persist and typically gives way to self loathing ("I can fix this" / "I don't deserve your trust, not yet" / "They're right to reject me") but it is there at first and is usually her first reaction, which is very fun.

However, this coupled together with the other two instances arc 2 brings up in terms of her being kind of a hypocrite makes it a pattern, beginning in early season four. (Callum also isn't at his best in early season four, saying he doesn't want to talk about stuff and then bringing it up the next episode to take a jab at her - but he's still dealing with the fallout of the problems she caused, so he absolutely gets more of a pass. As always, see my In Defense of Callum's Narrative Lens from way back in the day if you're interested in more of how his perspectives are portrayed.)

Because gee, Rayla, I wonder whose fault that is? And again, it does make sense that she's angry - she's spent two years just wanting to be with him with none of the messy complex heartbreak he had to go through because she was the one who made the choice to leave. She expected him to at least shout at her, not ice her out completely. And again, we see that initial indignant streak fade when he reiterates he wants to go, and she looks down disappointed, but accepting of it (and puts whether she'll stay or not in his hands, too).

Since she had a good reason for leaving, and it's what her parents did, while she expected anger, she also wants affection and love. Isn't her justification enough, in some ways? Shouldn't it be? And while Rayla wrestled back and forth with this, it's clear she does think that it should be (even if both seasons show she's starting to realize just why she was wrong).

But we do see this hypocritical tendency of hers perhaps pop up most prominently in S5 with Nyx

Again, in Rayla's head, lying and stealing the key wasn't perhaps the right thing to do, but the better thing to do than burden Callum with what she was going through / to be open and vulnerable. It makes sense why she'd do so - and her shot at Nyx gets a tiny pass cause she's technically sticking up for Ezran - but it still falls back on Rayla leaning too heavily on her logic / independent streak to justify actions that are actually counterproductive to having healthy, wilfully open relationships.

And this is something I love about TDP. Even when the characters are genuinely making the worst possible fucking decisions they ever could (hi arc 1 Viren, Claudia and Karim constantly in particular) you completely understand how and why they're justifying those decisions, and Rayla is no different. Doesn't mean they're right, doesn't mean it's not logically stupid or fair or whatever, but it's emotionally consistent, and that's what matters most in the end. And now we have a fun little consistency to add to the pile

#in that vein of 'ezran can steamroll others bc the emotional solution is so obvious to him / #he suppresses the hell out of shit' spirit #tdp rayla #characterization #mini meta #analysis series #tdp #the dragon prince #like i love rayla but she's so full of shit sometimes lmao #analysis #like rayla really is a character where one of her core flaws is both #a lack of grounded self awareness amid too much self awareness #bc sometimes she's on the right path about her actual flaws (lying & leaving) #and other times she's so off base it's like girl what planet are you on this is Not one of your problems #steering her into the pile of actual flaws lmao #also why callum is good for her #'nah you're good. but that other dumb shit you did? jc"

[flufflecat]

Can someone explain what the narrative stakes are even supposed to be anymore in jjk. All the characters are essentially guaranteed to die, the current cast is comprised almost entirely of characters who showed up 2/3rds into the story and we're supposed to care about them for some reason, and I do not even know what the threat is supposed to be anymore. The apocalypse? Destruction of an amorphous innocent society? Like has ANYTHING been shown of "here's the regular world that apparently needs to be saved" or are we just supposed to assume "this society is just Real Life+, so you're REQUIRED to care if some guy threatens to kill all humanity, because one of those humanities may be... a child" or something. Can you spare two seconds to show anything other than some magic randos fighting, or is it just a superhero story all the time now, minus the fun. Remember when yuuji had friends.

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk crit #sorry for like being salty in what will prob be the main tag #I simply do not vibe at ALL with the direction this series has gone in and would love someone to complain about it with ahfkaj #I'd write an entire meta on the narrative flaws but I do not feel like it #seriously though it's chill if people like the story and I'm not trying to cause shit by tagging it #well I'm sort of trying to cause shit #but that shit is 'blease will someone complain with me because I love complaining' #I just don't get it #like oh wow you killed characters off and established stakes! that sets a tone and shows that this is a serious conflict! #oh nvm you've killed everyone just to be gratuitous about it and prove how tooootally realistic your story is #and now there's no reason to care bc why get invested when there's an 80% chance the characters will all die #like. you're just alienating people from caring about the story you're trying to make them care about #idek what kenjaku is supposed to be up to anymore #for all I care he could explode the world and I'd be like whatever there was probably no one interesting left anyway #everything that happens anymore in jjk feels like someone said 'but what if all the nonsense in DBZ... was edgy' #and then thought they did something interesting #wooooahhhh someone did a fight for 70 chapters! so innovative and unique! #someone transformed! what a twist!! #woooahhh you did a nonsense rug-pull and are now lying to us acting like it was intended the whole time! sacre bleu!!! #anyway see my previous complainy post to see why gojos plot specifically is harmful bullshit #but it's a shoooooneeennnnnn #it doesn't neeeeeeeed to be written well or responsibly amiright?! #it just needs to make straight guys on twitter think they're unique for saying 'the real issue with jjk is that some women like it ' #ok I'm done complaining. FOR NOW. #I'm sure I'll think of something else to complain about in two seconds. #fluffle talks

[liebelesbe]

MY BEST FRIEND

[ID: Four pictures of a tabby cat lying on the floor with its eyes closed. In the last two pictures you can see a hand petting it.]

#she came towards me for pets!!! usually you have to follow her for a bit and touch her first until she's like #'ok fine yeah being pet is nice actually' #but today she CAME TOWARDS ME and kept pushing herself against my legs and my hands until I pet her :') #BABYYY BABY BABY BABY #cats #doddie redet #I love how she throws herself onto the floor btw lol #when you're petting her and she's still standing at some point she's like 'I'd rather be lying down' and just. flops down. #throws herself onto her side/back. sometimes she has to do it multiple times bc she doesn't look where she's throwing herself #and ends up on a piece of wood or smth which is uncomfortable so she has to get up again. and then immediately flop down again.

[cannibalisticskittles]

saw a post referencing a specific scene i had gotten like an hour before stopping last night and thought oh hey, might as well look at dev notes

was stopped in my tracks upon reading that he fucking says "i love you" during that convo because he did NOT when i played it, so i went back and chose a diff dialogue option and yeah, he Sure Fucking Does

he also Sure Doesn't Fucking Mean It but now it's like. okay. well. i am going to have to go back an hour of progress. which is mostly the goddamn GRYM fight which i HATE, for this convo???

not even just so that line is canonically heard but because this line you can choose leading up to it is one of the most amity lines so far

can't fuckin believe this. i'll fucking do it but it's rotten work. christ alive.

#amity: haha you're silly :) #[AMITY WILL NOW DIE FOR YOU] #but also! i want her. to hear this. #it makes her realize 'oh. uh. shit. has he been. trying to be manipulative this whole time.' #joke's on you astarion you presented this like a fun casual thing so amity took you at your word and never assumed it was anything else #it's not TOO weird bc he laughs and admits he's lying no matter what #+ if you ask if he's having fun w/ this he said it's hard not to with you #but the next morning when they get to the forge and grym rushes out #amity thinks 'oh thank god a chance to work out some weird feelings through aggression. let's beat the shit out of this robot.' #but now i the player have to try to beat the shit out of this robot again #:( #bg3 spoilers #bg3 blogging #also yes he IS absolutely drenched in blood this whole scene

[bragganhyl]

One day I'll get my braincells together and put it to paper how the pillars of eternity games manage to make the player feel powerful without making the Watcher a power fantasy character but like... this is not that day

#hablaty #i mean off the top of my head I can recall at least one scene that pops up #in both pillarz 1 and mássz effekt 2 but the latter is completely unironic about it #namely y'know the scene when you wake up gr*nt? the compliment he gives sepörd about offering a hand while hiding a gun in the other? #how that's supposed to make you feel like a badass? #pillarz 1 has that line coming from the in-universe god of betrayal if you spent a certain amount of the game lying your ass off #essentially he shows up after you kill the final boss and is like ''hey we reviewed your performance #and you're perfectly qualified to fill the position of the guy you just killed :) pls take the job you're very cool and it has benefits :) #all you gotta do is betray everyone and do something horrible but you're cool you can do it we love you uwu'' #and he straight up drops the same line but with a knife instead of a gun it's genius #but ofc there is more to it but idk what i'm trying to say is that in pillarz if you are an all powerful badass #that's a bad thing bc it's not fair to you and it's not fair to the people your choices affect #but you have to be an all powerful badass bc the world is fucked up #it's such a good deconstruction of the chosen one trope it's great

[earthtooz]

his smirk.

hahahahahaahahahhahaha nice.

#y'all hear something... it's silence... bc i'm so normal over him (i am lying through my teeth i'm going to save this picture and pin it to #my bedroom ceiling so i wake up and go to sleep with it staring at me) #WHAT WHO SAID THAT... NOT ME #earf you're delusional please shut the fuck up #this is so embarrassing #earf's inbox hours ✌️ #inariezaki #HUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAA

[daz4i]

everyone has to love me and praise me forever. btw.

#but don't bc i'll cry #but do it bc i'll feel nice #but don't bc i'll assume you're lying #but do bc if it happens enough i might start believing it #but d- #(sorry)

[talaricula]

i think one of the reasons why i'm so touched by jess is that, while it's easy to read her as naive about how homophobic the world is, her open queerness and butchness is clearly a conscious choice.

sure, according to kelly's backstory, they grew up relatively (for the time period) privileged wrt their queerness, and there's her obvious bewildered distress at the fact that, when she arrives in the US, people actually get to force her to act like something she's not

but she's also clearly not stupid! she clearly knows how unsafe it is to be obviously queer. when they buy boxers, they know to hold on to the excuse that they are for their brothers. she doesn't out carson and greta to anyone, not even to lupe, who's also queer, with whom she's clearly very close, and with whom she clearly spends a lot of time talking about being queer and other queer women - she understands and respects the reasons behind their choice to keep it all absolutely secret. when jo is arrested and traded out, jess (and lupe) look upset in a way that very clearly reads as "this could have been us, if we'd been there is would have been us (bc they, like jo, don't have the femme plausible deniability and would easily be picked out of the crowd by the cops), maybe it should have been been us because without us jo wouldn't have known about the bar". she knows, intimately, which risks she faces.

and yet they present the way they do. maybe it is bc she grew up in moose jaw, canada, but more than any of the others she has internalised that it's not right that the world is like this. that doesn't mean they pretend the world isn't like it is, but they do act on the fact that they think it shouldn't be. she has a modicum of self-preservation, so she takes basic safety precautions, but she clearly very strongly feels that if the world has a problem with her, that's their problem to change, not hers. that solidness of belief informs so much about jess as a character, and it means so much to me. it's not naivety, it's on purpose.

#jess mccready #aloto #aloto spoilers #i grew up genuinely relatively privileged in all the ways i was weird #incl my queernes #my family was about as supportive as anyone with a cishet family can hope for #they legitimately had no problem with the fact that i was weird and different in many ways #but they did have the mrs toni attitude - it's not a problem that you're like this but why don't you protect yourself by toning it down! #both my sister and father often asked me 'aren't you /aware/ of what people think about you?' #and they still think i'm not - that i'm just naive and can't see it #But i do! i can! it's just not /my problem/ it's theirs! #i hear the insults i hear the gossip i see the glares i hear the mocking laughs #i have since i was eight #i am not actually unobservant or naive or lying to myself! it's not about that! #it takes too much effort to change it or tone it down and i don't see why it should be on me! #it's not right that it should be on me! it should be on the world! #sure it would be hard to change myself and that's part of it but i also just legitimately deeply believe i shouldn't /have to/! #and sure i get to /act/ on that belief bc i am privileged in many ways and got to get used to that and the risk is smaller than for most #but those things do go hand in hand a bit i think #and seeing that in jess was - it got me somewhere very fundamental #not to be a broken record but - it's got smth of the autism spectrum queer experiences

[hella1975]

Hi hella!!!

I feel like i always start these off or end them by saying that these things are going to be incomprehensible in some way, mainly bc i have trouble translating whats going on in my mind into written words so i really dont know how much of my list thingies make sense to you but this one is especially probably going to not make much sense. (also bc i send them a lot when im either very tired or not sober, but i am sober and wide awake rn so this might be a different kind of incomprehensible)

I found one of my old drafts for an ask from around a year ago and it was a follow up response to the last chapter you posted at the time, so im not sure how its going to sound without the context of that specific chapter, but i also mentioned in one of my other asks that i add stuff in last minute and that ask i added a shit ton of stuff so i dont have any of that pretyped out so im going by memory.  But im sending it again bc i havent seen you answer it 

(please do not interpret this as ‘why didnt you answer my ask >:/’ or me rushing you to answer asks or anything like that, but like I said its been a year so im assuming tumblr ate it.  If not and you just havent cleaned out your ask box and you find the original, congratulations you’ll know what i originally said.  Bc idk how accurate this will be)

SO

Theres two different ways that you seem to write metaphors (idk if thats what theyre called im not caught up on my literary terminology)

 (im scrolling through your blog rn looking for my other asks and tumblr really did you dirty in your asks system like i started scrolling and the third one down was from 2021 and im fighting for my life trying to find my tag (thank you for my tag btw its very useful to me))

Anywho, most of your metaphors ( to me) can be split into two categories.  Theres the simple ones and the complex ones.  Now this might seem obvious but im going to explain to you how these have different effects on my brain.  

An example of the ‘simple’ ones is  

““If Nanook’s tone had a note of seriousness, then Zuko’s was the entire orchestra.”” (idk what chapter this is from its been a while)

You have a lot of these kinds of whatever the haick kind of literary technique this is (is this a metaphor i’ve been trying to google it for like ½ an hour and i cant figure it out) BUT these type of things that are simple and easy to process is one of my favorite things about the way you write.  I think this is a very common technique but the way you do it to me is just a lot more unique than the ways ive seen it done before.  Its extremely fluent with the voice of the characters and brings a perfect kind of vibe to the ‘conversation’ (or story, text, whatever) and it paints the picture of what your trying to say perfectly.  I also really like how these types of things arent ever in Zukos pov a lot (sometimes it is, but not nearly as much, I’ve noticed) and its not in the more serious like revelations that you drop these in.  Like I said, it adds to the voice of the characters, bc of the contrast of Zuko constantly having revelations and dramatic archs and stuff, and the other characters just in general being a lot more calm.  Its like when youre listening to a song and you have the lyrics and the like ‘main’ music behind the lyrics, but then when you listen to the song a lot you notice the smaller, like backup music that adds a lot to the song and makes it a lot more enjoyable than if it was just the lyrics and the louder more up front music.  

Then in contrast you have the bigger ‘metaphors’ 

An example of this is ‘You curse in words already invented’ 

THIS IS MY FAVORITE LINE IN THE ENTIRE FIC.  

OF ANY FIC OR BOOK EVER READ

AND THIS IS WHY

When I tell you I could not figure out what this meant for months I am AWFUL with stuff like this and interpreting it my english teachers hate me bc of it.  Id have the question ‘why were the curtains blue’ and my answer would be ‘bc the people who decorated the room like blue maybe theyre interior designers and it goes with the room 😊 and thats so hot of them bc i love blue too’  

But even thought i couldnt figure it out it stayed in my head and i probably thought about it once a day (i mean this literally, i think about that part all the time) and i cant remember the context for that or anything but i do remember that i knew it was a wonderful phrase.  

I’ve mentioned in my other asks how whenever im reading anything at all that you’ve written (whether its tams, or toab, or in the tags of something even if its like 10 words), everything you type comes out so fluidly like a formula or a color wheel or however i put it last time i talked about this.  And this is on the prodigious end of the spectrum of this.  

But phrases like that are another part of the fic, theyre like the lyrics of the song.  Like the phrases that gets all the attention and gets put in fanart and that gets quoted in comment sections because they deserve that recognition and you deserve that recognition and are just a reminder of how incredibly talented you are.  

I mean that in the most sincere way that i know how to express.  

I am constantly in awe of you and your writing style, and i really do think of you as one of the most talented writers of everything ive ever read.  

And something else worth mentioning is that it isnt just your ao3 that portrays that.  Like if I were to just read your ao3 I’d be like ‘oh wow this person is an amazing writer’ But your tumblr persona plays into it a lot more (In my opinion).  Because then you see like more ‘backround’ stuff on ao3.  And more of your system (im not articulating this in the way i mean it very well) and you get privy to the fact that you’re not a 30 year old with a masters in english and that you’ve never had any formal education on writing.  I vaguely remember you talking about a story about a sailor (??? i might be misremembering that) that you wrote when you were a child and thinking ‘oh wow so she’s always been like that’.  And its stuff like that that you dont get on ao3 that kind of reaffirms how incredible of a writer you are.  

And this (to me) makes you a really easy person to admire.  (ik i touched on this in a different ask but i dont remember if it was one of my list asks or not) but as someone who probably isnt going to ever be able to get an education around writing, it kind of reassures me that i dont need that to be great at it.  

(i kind of feel like a lot of the stuff in this ask is too like ‘simple’ or obvious to be given a lot of weight, but this whole thing is about the kinds of things you do that brings me personally joy and the metaphors are one of them so)

Also on an off note when i was looking through your asks to try to find my tag, I noticed that i send you a heavy percentage of your anonymous asks (mainly without my alias) and I thought that was funny.  But also i hope it doesnt come across as obsessive or weird, I swear i do that to a lot of people on here, I’m just a very social person.  .😂

Also Im in your tbos server (lurking in the shadows) and someone pointed out that whenever you do the reaction emojis you always do the white ones, and thats going on the official ‘my favorite things about hella’ list because that was genuinely one of the funniest things ive seen. 

Also the ‘anytime you type its very fluid (im too lazy to scroll up and see how i put it rn) also carrys on to discord.  I think that i could probably block out the user names and be able to figure out that its you talking every time, you have a very distinct way of talking.  

Also i wanted to mention that every time you answer these i read them again and i want to say like 1/3 of what i sasy, i have no recollection of. And i never have any idea what im talking about. so i think thats funny.

LIST ANONNNNNNNNNNNNN BAWLING MY EYES OUT HELLO BABY WELCOME BACK FROM WAR IVE MISSED YOU IM JUST HERE LIKE THIS RN

#this is so something i needed to hear rn bc always during exam season i 'lose' my ability to write like even the writing i do get done #just feels so fucking stale and awful imo and i just have to force myself to push through or else ill have a crisis about it #so i started studying in DECEMBER and it's now almost february exams are done but i CANT get out of that mindset for some reason #like ive been in a really bad writing flunk where im ABLE to write but the stuff i do write just feels genuinely terrible #like im losing it about dog teeth atm bc this story i was so in love with just feels so basic and underwhelming on a reread #and idk how much of that is me being insane and perfectionist and how much is valid criticism #so being told that actually there are people who not only enjoy my writing but are so thoroughly convinced it's a fundamental part of me #and something i am inherently GOOD at to the point even the way i talk CASUALLY is telling of it is just. oughhh im pacing my room #and the fact it doesn't HAVE to be my pretentious prose shit sometimes the more 'basic' stuff is STILL good. you're in my walls #i cant believe you're in the discord i hope you say hi!!! i dont bite!!! <- lying #also those assholes can take my silly white emojis from my COLD DEAD HANDS. white thumbs down will never die #ask #list anon