#bc of masks and vaccines and not going outside and the like

[storm-of-feathers]

playing with god by pouring out nyquil and whatever comes out is what i take

#im combining it with a couple other things #which you generally shouldn't do but god if i die i die #and its mucinex which. holy shit idk what they put in that stuff #but for a good and calm 20 minutes earlier i was fine #anyways #ill be sleeping soon probably or at least trying to #but in the meantime im trying to figure out my blanket arrangement here #my fever capped out around 102 but its come back down #but im like swinging wildly between reliving the time i was on a fire and reliving the time i fell through ice #and i HATE IT #god i hate being sick sm the last three years have spoiled me tbh #bc of masks and vaccines and not going outside and the like #i almost never get sick anymore #but i was recently in a crowded boy scouts hall (with a mask dwdw) for my dad #and man. something got me #and ofc combine that with only having slept ab 5% of this weekend lmao #anyways pray for me im so tired and sick :( #they call me mr blue the way im sore and sick and sad for some reason

[cistematicchaos]

hello! I have a Question about masking. when should we wear a mask? is it only when we feel sick or is it always? is it inside or outside too? if ur vaccinated but were told to only wear when sick is that bad? literally almost no on in any area around me in my state wears one except when sick and I feel unsure what to do. genuinely everywhere I go there’s close to no one. I feel afraid to wear one all the time bc judgement. but what do we need to do? I’m disabled and disability justice is important to me but since no one else wears one my friends do not think it’s needed and thinks comfort matters more bc it’s very humid here. I feel like wearing one is the right thing to do, but idk how to explain that to others or to start again and shake the fear. ppl assume ur sick when u wear bc that’s what we’re taught is the right time to. /gen

Genuinely, ty for trusting me to answer this. If you're outside or inside a public area, or inside with people who don't mask, it's best to be wearing a mask. Even when you don't feel sick! Not only can you have covid without feeling sick, but you can also carry lots of viruses without feeling sick and so can others. (Also other people don't always tell you when they're feeling sick unfortunately.)

As for the question about vaccinations, yeah, that's bad. You were lied to. People who're vaccinated can still spread covid without feeling sick and can still catch it and get long covid or die. All the vaccine does is make you a little safer if you catch it, it doesn't replace masking.

Masking is very scarce in a lot of places, so I understand that. In my area so many people don't mask and it's scary! I also understand being scared of judgement; especially from family and friends. But you're right, masking is the right thing to do and disability justice is important. And masking is especially important if you're already disabled; you're higher risk for covid fucking you up (by giving you long covid or generally worsening your disabilities/giving you more).

Since I've already explained WHEN you should be masking (if you have more questions, ask, I don't mind at all.), lemme see if I can help you out with the rest. To shake the fear, I'd suggest starting wearing your mask when you're alone to get used to wearing it more. You'll probably have to bite it and do it afraid anyway, because its a pandemic and masking is a necessity (if you can), but you can still get ready first.

To explain it to your friends, put it simply. "I discovered the vaccine doesn't replace masking, so I'm being safe." or "I realized masking keeps all of us safer during the pandemic, especially disabled people, so I'm going to keep doing it."

They may argue with you, especially since they may feel bad for not masking. You don't have to argue back with them. You can offer to send them articles about it or explain your thoughts but you don't have to justify masking!

If people think you're sick, they'll probably ask and you can explain or they'll avoid you, which may work to your advantage because social distancing from people who don't mask is good too.

If part of this doesn't make sense or you have more questions, ask me! I'd love to answer and have a lot of info on the subject if you want it. Again, thank you for trusting me to answer and I hope this helps. <3 Stay safe!

#asking chaos #i actally really appreciate this question #These are good questions!! #Like feel free to ask me shit like this #I hope this isn't too long T_T #I just really wanted to make sure I addressed all your questions #clearly and all the way #Also #I wanna say anon #I really do understand being scared of the judgement #I wasn't being sarcastic or lying #I am terrified of a lot of conflict #but wear my mask anyway #so if you want more advice on that side of it #feel free to ask bc i have a lot of experience #again hope this helps. <3 #disability #covid #covid 19 #pandemic #masking guidelines #ableism (just general) #disability justice

[magnoliamyrrh]

i know ive said this before but i keep seeing it so i keep thinking about it. i just dont get what people who are calling for everyone to wear masks still like,, outside even, or especially ppl who are calling for ppl to still socially distance and not visit each other and not go anywhere...... want?

i aint saying covid doesn't matter i aint saying its not still around and its not an issue (infact in places like romania where so much of the population didnt wanna vaccinate themselves the hospitals are a fucking mess Again). it is clearly an issue and a rough disease and an insane amount of people died and are still dying while others are living w long term consequences...... but. man im sorry. covid is not going Anywhere by this point. we will not eradicate it, we just wont, it spreads too easily, theres too many variations. vaccines dont fully stop its spread and transmission, they help tone it down some for sure but its not enough alone, and by this point most people have had it at least once. we did not manage to contain its spread radically enough in the beggining and now weve got to deal with it being widespread and forever. this disease is gonna be around every year going forward with our lives everywhere like others are. there wont be a "stop" to it. and i actually dont think its reasonable to expect everyone bc of covid for literally the rest of our lives to wear masks outside always and to always keep a distance from people and to not go to several things anymore and to not see friends and family and to not have gatherings. as if the modern world isnt horribly isolated and lonely in the first place anyway. if you think ppl now shouldn't be meeting up with people bc of covid and should feel guilty and horrible, than youre going to have to stand by than till the end of time

#like idk even i was talking to this dude abt community meetings and asking him how that goes and when they are #and he went. well covid is still around and its coming back so we havent had any of those and we arent doing that #..... and its like. ok on one hand i understand on the other..... do u understand this will never stop #there will never be a 'no covid.' #and thus there will never be a time by this logic when things like community gatherings Outside even are going to be acceptable again

[lastoneout]

I was going to go to college back in 2020 but ofc that got put on hold, and I think I've kinda been operating under the assumption that like, eventually things would calm down and I could go, but it's been three years and due to my adhd I cannot do remote learning so I've just had to accept that if I want to do the things I want to do with my life I'm just gonna have to go and wear a mask the entire time and like...idk I don't mind wearing a mask I know I need to and I want to, but like coming to terms with the fact that this is just How The World Is Now is hard.

I mean it's probably just a side effect of the privilege that comes from living in a "developed" country but I was born the year the chicken pox vaccine got approved and I was fully vaccinated as a kid so for most of my life I've lived without the looming fear of a dangerous disease swooping down out of nowhere and killing me and/or my community, and tbh it's weird being part of a generation that now has to re-learn how to live in that sort of environment?

Like for most of human history people just kinda dealt with the fact that plagues and outbreaks happen and there's not much to be done but pray and hope you're spared, and like, you just had to accept that and live your life, you know? And now I'm looking back at history and wondering HOW people did that. How did they just accept that a disease could hit at any time? How did they spend time with people and go outside and have children and go to school and all that? How did they live??

Idk I guess it's just weird to have been the first generation that didn't have to worry about that sort of thing, not really, and now have to let it go and learn to live differently. And like...there's also this sense of grief? We were getting there, we really were, kids in my generation didn't have to worry about polio or measles or small pox or TB, medicine actually progressed to a point where some humans no longer had to live in fear of diseases like that...and now we do. I just wonder what all of the scientists throughout history who worked so hard to build a world safe from plagues and pandemics would think if they saw how easily we gave it up. And maybe I shouldn't complain bcs I know not everyone got to live in that world free of disease, I just got born in the right place at the right time, but like...the feelings are all still there and I don't really know what to do with them anymore.

And I really wish I could figure out how to live with covid. But I don't know if that's ever going to be possible. Not for me, at least.

#sorry I'm just rambling #this has just been on my mind a lot recently #and I dont really know what to do with all the feelings #but I do think I'm going to go to school #I'm just going to wear a mask the entire time and never take it off #current events #covid

[feytouched]

back hurts again, seems like every time i try to get work done it starts acting up again. but i pushed through it to finish lineart for the last comm of october, i can't wait to be done bc i need to reopen since i need money again (meds turned out to be more expensive than i expected this month). and i couldn't sleep bc my arm on the side i always sleep on aches bc i got a pneumonia vaccine yesterday. and also there was a horrible mosquito keeping me awake. so i was in a horrible mood all day. and then i overheard my mom cancelling plans to go to a concert bc she would have to be wearing a mask and sitting away from ppl (bc of me) and it's uncomfortable and pointless and like. knife = twisted. i'm ruining so much of the lives of those around me, not just my own. and the stupid thing is! i would kill to be able to go to a stupid classical music concert now! i haven't left the house other than grocery shopping and medical appts and i haven't met anyone outside of my parents and bf in over a month! all i do is work or rot in bed when i'm physically unable to work. we were supposed to have some of my moms coworkers over this sunday and if you can believe it i was actually looking forward to it just to! fucking talk to people! but then they cancelled out of respect to me bc they had to attend a dinner where there were a bunch of sick ppl. so yeah i want to vomit actually i feel so lonely and everything hurts

#can't i have two days of being ok in a row #ką sako lapė

[toruvi]

Full on ax overview below the cut

Despite the crowds I actually thought this was one of the most fun anime expos for me and I've been going since 2011. Though I mainly go for the artist alley and exhibit hall to buy stuff, don't really pay attention to panels so I can't say anything for those. People kept complaining about lines to get in and waited an hour but there was literally an entrance that NEVER had a line and staff was constantly telling people to go to the other entrance but I guess I can understand how confusing it is if you're not from the area. I never waited more than 5 minutes to get in. The problem was that everyone would just follow the crowds and not really look anywhere else 😭

It was hot this year but not NEARLY as bad as past years. Though I don't think they were running the air conditioning that well in exhibit hall the first 2 days bc I was on fire. The hottest it got was like 85 but I've been to cons when it was like 100s outside so it was more tolerable.

I will say the crowd vibes were super weird and people did smell bad. God especially when I went into the 18+ section 😭 luckily I had my mask on the whole weekend so that kinda helped? Exhibit hall doesn't really sell anything I care about anymore :( it's just the same demon slayer Hatsune Miku and dragon ball figures it's been for like the last 6+ years and it's kinda boring.

Artist alley had SOOOO many amazing artists. I couldn't find much aot fanart and the one booth I did find one but I already bought all their stuff before JGFUDJSJDJ.

I tried to go to cosplay meetups the first 2 days and staff did NOT know how to help people navigate to them at all. I missed a fruits basket gathering bc staff told me to go the wrong direction completely even when I showed a picture of the location :') I tried to go to a genshin meetup but the location was too small and too crowded and it created a fire hazard so they canceled it 20 mins in 🥲 aaaaand there was an aot meetup but I was so frustrated that I just gave up trying to go to them so hffhdhshchfh

I went to the 21+ area and got a couple drinks and maybe gotten a little hammered aaaaand impulsively made stupid financial decisions chdjdjfjfjfjfjvj and like....this group of guys kept trying to ask me and my friend questions and they were being uh a little sus haha 😬 (I thought I wouldn't have to deal with m*n if I dressed up like one BUT I WAS WRONG)

I BOUGHT AO MUCH SHIT YALL I saved up 2 months worth of tips for this con and I spent like...80% of that fund...🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲😭😭🥲 but WORTH IT BC the stuff I bought was so pretty aaaaaaAAA

ALSO ALSO people liked my cosplay and I was so happy. There were a lot of Yor cosplayers so I mostly stuck with Thoma for the weekend and 🥺 attention from women 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 loved it 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I wasn't expecting ppl to ask for my ig but it happened a couple of times so I panicked and gave my art IG and TURNED OUT THEY WERE ARTISTS TOOO so that was cool!!! There were a lot of amazing cosplayers and I got too shy to ask for pics But I WISH I DID BC....THERE WERE AMAZING KUROO AND KENMA....AND XIAO AND ITTO I M DJDJDHDHDHDH and a couple of Thomas were like "AYYYY THOMA" Hehe...I didddddd get a pics with a lot Ayaka and Ayato ones too uwuOH AND CHILDE

There were def a few guys that tried to act like...idk 😭😭 so weird when I was cosplaying as Yor and just said the most random shit to me and all I did was laugh uncomfortably gjfjdjdjsj

Artist alley was crowded as fuck though and the people were SOOOO pushy at some points. Like not even saying excuse me or anything...I got cut in line a lot and I don't like to be confrontational but the people I went with were def getting annoyed.

Overall though I a had a lot of fun. I keep seeing people say people weren't checking vaccine cards and stuff but at least the first day they were pretty diligent about checking them, and people would boot you out if you didn't have a wristband signifying you were confirmed already.

BUT YAAAAA the complaints Abt the crowd and lines is like...kinda whatever to me like I didn't think people would be surprised? AX is notorious for the crowds and especially after 2 years this was gonna be the worst one for that. I'm probably gonna go back next year bc it's one of the ones that I enjoy the most like there's SOOOO many amazing cosplayers on a much bigger scale than a lot of other cons and the artists that get in are so talented. I'm REALLY hoping I can grab a table FOR SURE next year 😭 WELL SEE YEAH idk if you read this far wow I am sorry LMAO

#leyatax #oops i typed a lot just warning u #definitely gonna post pictures of what i bought later eeee

[ocean-sailor]

Update: mid March

Canadian Covid-19 Forecast: Mar 16 - Mar 29, 2024 🦠

See detailed provincial forecasts - pages 8-11 here: 🦠🦠

Measles Information: 💉 x 2 and 😷

Measles is an airborne virus that is highly contagious - 9/10 people will get it if exposed and unprotected. It spreads easily - from 4 days before and up to 4 days after the rash starts. Symptoms of measles include: fever, cough, runny nose, body aches, rash, diarrhea, red eyes, and feeling irritable or unwell.

Immunization is the best way to protect yourself and your community. The Measles vaccine is included in the measles-mumps-rubella (MMR) or measles-mumps-rubella-varicella (MMRV) vaccine, which is part of the regular childhood immunization series. After one dose, protection is 85-95% and after the second dose, it's 99+%. If you're not sure if you received the childhood vaccinations or if you're travelling or at risk, call and ask your healthcare provider if you are eligible for a booster (most people are). Recommended immunization schedule for all ages and more information 💉. (This is for BC, Canada, but it is similar worldwide).

Measles and Covid are both airborne viruses so clean air and good masking protocol will help protect you and prevent spread!

Air Quality Information:

Carbon dioxide is an odourless, colourless, and tasteless gas but it can be measured with a CO2 monitor that can also be used to measure potentially virus-laden air. Some public libraries have monitors available for loan. I have the Aranet 4.

Fresh outdoor air CO2 concentration is ~ 400 ppm.

Clean indoor air CO2 concentration is ~ 600-800 ppm.

A 15 minute exposure to Covid/other airborne viruses has a variable risk factor depending on air quality and mask quality. This is because the 'dose' of virus that you're inhaling matters. The seriousness of symptoms from viral infections is often due directly to the amount of the virus that gets into your body. You want to keep this as low as possible.

Air quality: from the safest to the highest risk -> fresh outdoor air -> clean indoor air -> poorly filtered indoor air. This risk can be lowered by opening windows/doors and using a good air filtration device (labelled HEPA filters or 'removes small airborne particles (in the size range of 0.1-1 um)' or has a 'high CADR for smoke' (vs. pollen or dust) or make a Corsi-Rosenthol Box (easy and affordable DIY). Ensure the device is the correct size for the room. Ideally, going outside is always best.

Mask quality: from the safest to the riskiest -> N-95/FFP2 respirator (94-95% effective when fits well) -> a surgical mask (~30% effective due to air leaking in around the sides) -> no mask😬. Please wear a well fitting mask properly - humans don't breathe through their chin. I like the 3M Aura 9210+. Note: if you're not in the medical field, you can wear the same mask until it's damp or isn't easy to breathe through as your concern is protecting yourself, not decreasing risk of spread between patients. This makes it much less expensive for the average person going to any indoor space. It's okay to rotate through your supply - letting them dry out between uses.

#Measles #Covid-19 #Air quality #I look forward to not plague blogging one day #but today is not that day #I don't know if anyone reads these updates #but if it prevents one bad outcome it's worth it #stay safe everyone💕

[yaminerua]

My dad’s last covid vaccine was in 2021 and he was offered the booster along with the flu jab and didn’t take it but I recently learned that the next covid booster age range is being upped to 75+

There was a drop-in winter vaccine clinic today that I urged him to go to just to get the most up to date protection possible since he won’t be eligible for any further boosters bc of the upped age. He frequently forgets to wear a mask unless I’m with him so I’m terrified he’ll catch it eventually and I want him to be protected. I try to urge him to continue to protecting himself not just for his own sake but for my brother who hasn’t had any vaccine because he couldn’t leave the house and was too anxious to take it.

it also frustrates me that the vaccine isn’t available for my age group anymore. My last jab was in 2021 as well and I’m not outside very much and when I do go I’m always wearing a mask. People are just rolling with the idea that getting infected gives you protection but that’s crap and I don’t want to get infected thank you. As far as I know I have made it all this time without ever contracting it and just knowing how shit my body is at tackling regular colds I don’t want to find out how it handles covid bc knowing my luck it will fuck me up. And I’m the one thing trying to keep this house from falling into complete disarray while my dad works himself to exhausting trying to make some scrap of money for us all to get by and I spend much of every day looking after my brother.

I really hate just how much the world has shrunk. I don’t feel safe just going into town anymore or anywhere where there are many unmasked people. I hate that tomorrow when I have to go for my laser appointment the fucking nurses will try to make me feel weird for ‘still’ masking. Like last time they thought they could lecture me and talk down to me as if I was some naive stubborn child who needed encouragement to stop masking while in the same breath they were still talking about how everybody is sick with Mystery Flu. It’s not mystery flu you fucks, it’s fucking covid.

it’s all so exhausting, the defeatist approach that governments have adopted wrt covid. Just letting everyone get it and reducing the number of ppl eligible for a booster and letting that be that. I hate it

[namuneulbo]

week thirty-three

this week has been quite good mentally. its been slightly challenging ocd-wise but mainly good!

on monday i painted my nails. i only own a black nail polish but i hope to get some more colors in the future. i also ran some errands. i went to the thrift store to look for a sweater to give to l for christmas. then i went to the post office to send ns bday package. there was a bit of an awkward moment when i had to clarify it was a bath bomb to the person in the register and later them just changing the word to soap TT after having sent the package i went to another store to send off a return package w the suit that didnt look like it did on the website. lastly i went by the book store to look for beads and thread to make bracelets but ended up not getting any bc the beads were so expensive and the bag was so unnecessarily big. during this entire walk around town i listened to fall out boy. ive been listening to them a lot lately. i just,,, realized how much i love folie á deux.

on tuesday i cut off my rat tails!!! i got bored of them and it was very easy to just cut them off. my hair is quite uneven i think though so i asked m to even it out for me someday. tbh idk if my hairs actually uneven or if its just my locks curling weirdly. my hair is wavy in such a goofy way so u never know what ur gonna get. ill need m to actually tell since she understands hair way better than me.

i dont remember wednesday very well but sims liked my twt reply which is kind of fun lol

thursday. i had a doctors appointment in the afternoon and i saw a cat on my way there. it was right in the forest where the hospital is. it was so cute!!! i tried to get it to come closer to me but it was totally focused on something and did a cute jump towards a tree. i didnt bring a mask which was humiliating so i had to go ask for one in the reception bc i was so embarrassed walking around wo one bc everyone was wearing one. rn ppl dont really wear masks outside of hospital context. pretty much everyones vaccinated and the restrictions r loosening up a lot.

after my appointment i met w i and t. we went thrifting and then went to a grocery store to get some snacks to eat at my place. i bought a moomin drink which i thought was a soda bc it was where the sodas were but it ended up being just juice :| i dont like juice TT

on friday i watched seoul festa which was super fun!!! i love seeing performances in front of bigger audiences. forestella absolutely ATE w bohemian rhapsody. i was laughing so hard when enha performed pass the mic right after. i missed thrill ride which made me kinda sad. my moms boyfriend came w my new desk so i helped carrying it which is why i missed thrill ride. later he sat in the living room for a bit while i watched it and it was so,,,, awkward. they left quite soon after though so i was busting it down to gangnam style. i honestly want to see psy live, i think that would be so fun.

ive been home alone since they left. after watching seoul festa i went grocery shopping and i specifically went to one store bc i saw they had syrup for making coffee there. im gonna try making an iced latte some day! i got almost everything off of the shopping list so my shoulders HURT after carrying all of it home.

i stayed up late bc i was too anxious to sleep. ive been obsessed w this yt channel called paolo fromtokyo and their series where they show a day in the life of different workers in japan. i honestly cant think of a smoother way to phrase that. anyways i binged videos from that series until dawn. i fell asleep w dear hank & john echoing through my ears.

watching paolo fromtokyos videos ive realized that working an office job is what i want to do. i havent had a dream job for a whileeee. like i didnt really have a specific thing i wanted to pursue i was just like, yeah, ill study to become a translator and/or interpretor and then just do that and maybe be a barista but now i want to become an in-house translator. i dont mind what type of company id work for. id be fine w anything. i think his videos helped me realize how much i truly care for environment. like it affects my mood sm. being in a nice clean space makes me feel focused and calm. like for example my dream being wanting to live in seoul in an apartment decorated to my liking. i enjoy pretty looking things.

i woke up early on saturday to watch ulsan summer festival so im currently running on barely four hours of sleep and its currently almost 4 am as im writing this. im surprised by how dark it is outside still. i thought it wouldve been lighter by now.

earlier today my dad came over to build the desk and he accidentally used the wrong screws and ruined the board so we have to order a new one :’) then we went to fix my bike to his workplace and then i practiced driving w him. i got a bunch of chocolate from his work too haha

well, now im going to get something to eat bc im hungry and i havent had any proper food in a good while (if u can call jjajang buldalk proper food).

sotw: apink - nonono

#diary #tumblr diary #namuneulbo

[rebellum]

For the first year or so of the pandemic, my thought was, of course, that everyone needs to stay inside and try to social distance and get tested often and quarantine, and that if everyone quarantined as much as possible then the pandemic would die down

Now we all know that that's just never going to happen. It's here to stay. So I guess what needs to be done (in canada, this is from a canadian perspective) is structural change so that people more at risk of complications from covid can participate in outside life again.

Like, idk, low cost or free (sliding scale) n95s for everyone in certain risk categories (eg people with certain physical disabilities, chemotherapy patients, ppl with asthma, there would of course be dozens of categories)

Special transit that is sterilized often for disabled people to use (my city provides transportation for wheelchair users, like a taxi but different, so maybe more stuff like that?)

Certain areas for gatherings where you HAVE to take a rapid test for admission, and wear n95s, and maybe other precautions, so that people can feel safer going out again

Like, covid definitely isn't going away, and they just lifted the mask mandate where I live bc like 85% of people are adequately vaccinated, this is life now, so I think the only thing that could possibly be done now is just try to provide alternatives for people who are desperate to avoid covid.

[coffee-bat]

can't believe i've been waiting for the past 2 years until we'll finally be able to go mask-free (i have health issues that make it very hard to wear them for extended periods of time), but now that we can, i can't because it feels like going out in nothing but underwear it just feels wrong and naked 😭

#outside it's okay. inside? no no no no no no #ramble #for context since yesterday the mask mandate has been lifted in poland (now limited only to medical facilities) bc most are either fully #vaccinated or immune #feels so weird to see people without masks and even weirder to even think of taking it off inside #i tried taking it off for like 5 seconds yesterday but instantly had a panic attack and had to put it back on #(also by 'health issues make it hard' i mean that i've fainted and/or threw up multiple times from wearing one for too long) #(i'm badly anemic so i'm not getting enough oxygen as is and having to put effort into breathing makes it real bad in the long term 😔) #(of course i wear them but yeah i have been waiting for it to be safe to go without one)

[tendercoretroglodyke]

I'm overhearing some show my dad is watching thats like a covid-inspired sci-fi show (??) and I'm hearing someone try to talk a "paranoid" woman out of her home/bubble and saying the pandemic is over and everyone is vaccinated and she's resisting & in hysterics and it's escalated to him saying he's going to have to force her out for some reason (but he's speaking calmly so it's clearly framed like he's the rational one and she's just crazy) and just listening to this is both giving me a panic attack AND making me feel gaslit!! 🙃

#please stop telling me im insane for not being comfortable eating in restaurants. i will kill you. i will #fuck you. no seriously this gets me so mad. fuck you!! im going to wear my mask in public for the rest of my life! die mad about it! #we're going out to lunch for my dads bday tomorrow and he said it was gonna be too hot to eat outside actually #so i said well okay we can reschedule it for saturday like we talked about earlier #and he said no itll be in the high 90s at least for the rest of the summer. i guess i dont get a bday lunch until you're ok w #eating in restaurants #??????? #fucking. FUCK. #don't try to blame ME for you not getting the exact bday lunch you wanted?? #like fucking EXCUSE me for wanting to protect the THREE out of FIVE immunocompromised members of our lunch party #who likely only have a FRACTION of the 98% vaccine immunity promised to us #bc they still havent come up with a booster shot for people with weakened immune systems!! #i went off the rails there... yeah this shit just makes me so mad #stop trying to force me to feel normal about everything again. 4 million people have died

[sickness-health-all-that-shit]

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#i hate anti maskers and anti vaxxers so muchhh #my grandma's night carer's husband is like their fucking ringleader in my area and a group of them have even pulled a little stunt inside a #supermarket the other day. going in without masks on and being general assholes #anyway this idiot's wife kinda makes excuses for him and meanwhile she could very easily catch it from him and pass it on to my grandma #who's over 90 years old and still hasn't been vaccinated but we're gonna have to get her doctor to come give her the shot soon #i say 'we' as if i'm actually there whereas i haven't seen my grandma outside of a phone screen in months :/ #bc i'm one of the fools who actually follow the travel restrictions :// fuck these people man i'm so mad #personal #rita rambles

[doebt]

Man kayla invited me to a baseball game which sounds fun (I like the food) its going to be incredibly hot and outside so I imagine this would be a mask off event but I cant even gauge if thats "ok" or not like...is that ok 😭 if we are both vaccinated

#i already said yes but i think i can still go back on it #its so hard like ik the cdc says stuff but i feel like they only said vaccinated ppl dont need masks as an incentive for ppl to GET vaxxed #but its OUTSIDE but also i imagine its pretty crowded IDK havent been to one in a long time #but also we are vaccinated but does that even mean anything #its so hard bc of how my dad has handled this entire ordeal I like dont believe anything anyone says #INCLUDING him #yeah....any thoughts

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my idiocy knows no bounds

#lmao okay #so i got my second vaccine shot two days ago #and the whole symptoms thing hit me today #was tired af #so i literally just sat watching youtube because it’s also my last day of vacation from school #anyway i have really bad lungs #so when i talk too much or laugh at all really #i cough a lot #for hours afterwards #and i freaked myself out by coughing a bunch #because you know that’s not on the immune response symptoms list right #and i just realized #i’m a dumbass #it was because i was sat watching funny youtube videos #and laughing my ass off #any kind of ‘symptom’ from that to mild allergies #fills me with such dread and like... shame? #idk i’m just like ‘oh my god what if i got covid from someone’ even though it’s virtually impossible #because i don’t go outside. i wear a mask all the time when i do. and also had less of a risk of transmission bc i got at least one shot #and then i’m like ‘oh i’m such a horrible person because i wasn’t careful enough and i’m going to be responsible for peoples deaths’ #like no lukas shut the fuck up lmao #vent

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#idk why im having such a hard time phrasing this /lh #it's not bad or anything but words are confusing lmao #basically my mom's friend is doing something for an art gallery outside of our state (not too far of a drive) #but it's a bigger city and she said she would mainly just go because there's some pride stuff going on in the area as well lol #and because we're The Fruity Ones of the family she wanted to go with me #which im super :eyes emoji: at since this would be the first pride i've been openly gnc to and thats super exciting #(not my first pride ever; but i've gotten used to embracing my gender nonconformity specifically lol) #and if it's like. a pride event then obviously i can be proud of that without the fear of a ton of people looking down on me for it #which is whats been stopping me from just dressing however i want in 'normal' situations lmao #and also i just got cute ass clothes and i want to wear them <3<3<3 #but i still have to remind her that just bc we're vaccinated doesn't mean we can just Do Anything :/ #so i'm not really 100% sold 😬 #but. man. #i wanna gender so bad it makes me look stupid #at least i have masks with floral designs to match lol #ive said this so many times before (probably not that many but still) but masks are so cool idk why people genuinely Hate them #if its a sensory thing then i totally understand but i mean like the completely anti mask dickheads lmao #oh these tags are probably long as hell oops #polly chirps #cw swearing